<h2><SPAN name="chap09"></SPAN>CHAPTER IX.</h2>
<p>Three days of rest, three blessed days of rest, are what I had with Wolf
Larsen, eating at the cabin table and doing nothing but discuss life,
literature, and the universe, the while Thomas Mugridge fumed and raged and did
my work as well as his own.</p>
<p>“Watch out for squalls, is all I can say to you,” was Louis’s
warning, given during a spare half-hour on deck while Wolf Larsen was engaged
in straightening out a row among the hunters.</p>
<p>“Ye can’t tell what’ll be happenin’,” Louis went
on, in response to my query for more definite information. “The
man’s as contrary as air currents or water currents. You can never guess
the ways iv him. ’Tis just as you’re thinkin’ you know him
and are makin’ a favourable slant along him, that he whirls around, dead
ahead and comes howlin’ down upon you and a-rippin’ all iv your
fine-weather sails to rags.”</p>
<p>So I was not altogether surprised when the squall foretold by Louis smote me.
We had been having a heated discussion,—upon life, of course,—and,
grown over-bold, I was passing stiff strictures upon Wolf Larsen and the life
of Wolf Larsen. In fact, I was vivisecting him and turning over his soul-stuff
as keenly and thoroughly as it was his custom to do it to others. It may be a
weakness of mine that I have an incisive way of speech; but I threw all
restraint to the winds and cut and slashed until the whole man of him was
snarling. The dark sun-bronze of his face went black with wrath, his eyes were
ablaze. There was no clearness or sanity in them—nothing but the terrific
rage of a madman. It was the wolf in him that I saw, and a mad wolf at that.</p>
<p>He sprang for me with a half-roar, gripping my arm. I had steeled myself to
brazen it out, though I was trembling inwardly; but the enormous strength of
the man was too much for my fortitude. He had gripped me by the biceps with his
single hand, and when that grip tightened I wilted and shrieked aloud. My feet
went out from under me. I simply could not stand upright and endure the agony.
The muscles refused their duty. The pain was too great. My biceps was being
crushed to a pulp.</p>
<p>He seemed to recover himself, for a lucid gleam came into his eyes, and he
relaxed his hold with a short laugh that was more like a growl. I fell to the
floor, feeling very faint, while he sat down, lighted a cigar, and watched me
as a cat watches a mouse. As I writhed about I could see in his eyes that
curiosity I had so often noted, that wonder and perplexity, that questing, that
everlasting query of his as to what it was all about.</p>
<p>I finally crawled to my feet and ascended the companion stairs. Fair weather
was over, and there was nothing left but to return to the galley. My left arm
was numb, as though paralysed, and days passed before I could use it, while
weeks went by before the last stiffness and pain went out of it. And he had
done nothing but put his hand upon my arm and squeeze. There had been no
wrenching or jerking. He had just closed his hand with a steady pressure. What
he might have done I did not fully realize till next day, when he put his head
into the galley, and, as a sign of renewed friendliness, asked me how my arm
was getting on.</p>
<p>“It might have been worse,” he smiled.</p>
<p>I was peeling potatoes. He picked one up from the pan. It was fair-sized, firm,
and unpeeled. He closed his hand upon it, squeezed, and the potato squirted out
between his fingers in mushy streams. The pulpy remnant he dropped back into
the pan and turned away, and I had a sharp vision of how it might have fared
with me had the monster put his real strength upon me.</p>
<p>But the three days’ rest was good in spite of it all, for it had given my
knee the very chance it needed. It felt much better, the swelling had
materially decreased, and the cap seemed descending into its proper place.
Also, the three days’ rest brought the trouble I had foreseen. It was
plainly Thomas Mugridge’s intention to make me pay for those three days.
He treated me vilely, cursed me continually, and heaped his own work upon me.
He even ventured to raise his fist to me, but I was becoming animal-like
myself, and I snarled in his face so terribly that it must have frightened him
back. It is no pleasant picture I can conjure up of myself, Humphrey Van
Weyden, in that noisome ship’s galley, crouched in a corner over my task,
my face raised to the face of the creature about to strike me, my lips lifted
and snarling like a dog’s, my eyes gleaming with fear and helplessness
and the courage that comes of fear and helplessness. I do not like the picture.
It reminds me too strongly of a rat in a trap. I do not care to think of it;
but it was effective, for the threatened blow did not descend.</p>
<p>Thomas Mugridge backed away, glaring as hatefully and viciously as I glared. A
pair of beasts is what we were, penned together and showing our teeth. He was a
coward, afraid to strike me because I had not quailed sufficiently in advance;
so he chose a new way to intimidate me. There was only one galley knife that,
as a knife, amounted to anything. This, through many years of service and wear,
had acquired a long, lean blade. It was unusually cruel-looking, and at first I
had shuddered every time I used it. The cook borrowed a stone from Johansen and
proceeded to sharpen the knife. He did it with great ostentation, glancing
significantly at me the while. He whetted it up and down all day long. Every
odd moment he could find he had the knife and stone out and was whetting away.
The steel acquired a razor edge. He tried it with the ball of his thumb or
across the nail. He shaved hairs from the back of his hand, glanced along the
edge with microscopic acuteness, and found, or feigned that he found, always, a
slight inequality in its edge somewhere. Then he would put it on the stone
again and whet, whet, whet, till I could have laughed aloud, it was so very
ludicrous.</p>
<p>It was also serious, for I learned that he was capable of using it, that under
all his cowardice there was a courage of cowardice, like mine, that would impel
him to do the very thing his whole nature protested against doing and was
afraid of doing. “Cooky’s sharpening his knife for Hump,” was
being whispered about among the sailors, and some of them twitted him about it.
This he took in good part, and was really pleased, nodding his head with
direful foreknowledge and mystery, until George Leach, the erstwhile cabin-boy,
ventured some rough pleasantry on the subject.</p>
<p>Now it happened that Leach was one of the sailors told off to douse Mugridge
after his game of cards with the captain. Leach had evidently done his task
with a thoroughness that Mugridge had not forgiven, for words followed and evil
names involving smirched ancestries. Mugridge menaced with the knife he was
sharpening for me. Leach laughed and hurled more of his Telegraph Hill
Billingsgate, and before either he or I knew what had happened, his right arm
had been ripped open from elbow to wrist by a quick slash of the knife. The
cook backed away, a fiendish expression on his face, the knife held before him
in a position of defence. But Leach took it quite calmly, though blood was
spouting upon the deck as generously as water from a fountain.</p>
<p>“I’m goin’ to get you, Cooky,” he said, “and
I’ll get you hard. And I won’t be in no hurry about it.
You’ll be without that knife when I come for you.”</p>
<p>So saying, he turned and walked quietly forward. Mugridge’s face was
livid with fear at what he had done and at what he might expect sooner or later
from the man he had stabbed. But his demeanour toward me was more ferocious
than ever. In spite of his fear at the reckoning he must expect to pay for what
he had done, he could see that it had been an object-lesson to me, and he
became more domineering and exultant. Also there was a lust in him, akin to
madness, which had come with sight of the blood he had drawn. He was beginning
to see red in whatever direction he looked. The psychology of it is sadly
tangled, and yet I could read the workings of his mind as clearly as though it
were a printed book.</p>
<p>Several days went by, the <i>Ghost</i> still foaming down the trades, and I
could swear I saw madness growing in Thomas Mugridge’s eyes. And I
confess that I became afraid, very much afraid. Whet, whet, whet, it went all
day long. The look in his eyes as he felt the keen edge and glared at me was
positively carnivorous. I was afraid to turn my shoulder to him, and when I
left the galley I went out backwards—to the amusement of the sailors and
hunters, who made a point of gathering in groups to witness my exit. The strain
was too great. I sometimes thought my mind would give way under it—a meet
thing on this ship of madmen and brutes. Every hour, every minute of my
existence was in jeopardy. I was a human soul in distress, and yet no soul,
fore or aft, betrayed sufficient sympathy to come to my aid. At times I thought
of throwing myself on the mercy of Wolf Larsen, but the vision of the mocking
devil in his eyes that questioned life and sneered at it would come strong upon
me and compel me to refrain. At other times I seriously contemplated suicide,
and the whole force of my hopeful philosophy was required to keep me from going
over the side in the darkness of night.</p>
<p>Several times Wolf Larsen tried to inveigle me into discussion, but I gave him
short answers and eluded him. Finally, he commanded me to resume my seat at the
cabin table for a time and let the cook do my work. Then I spoke frankly,
telling him what I was enduring from Thomas Mugridge because of the three days
of favouritism which had been shown me. Wolf Larsen regarded me with smiling
eyes.</p>
<p>“So you’re afraid, eh?” he sneered.</p>
<p>“Yes,” I said defiantly and honestly, “I am afraid.”</p>
<p>“That’s the way with you fellows,” he cried, half angrily,
“sentimentalizing about your immortal souls and afraid to die. At sight
of a sharp knife and a cowardly Cockney the clinging of life to life overcomes
all your fond foolishness. Why, my dear fellow, you will live for ever. You are
a god, and God cannot be killed. Cooky cannot hurt you. You are sure of your
resurrection. What’s there to be afraid of?</p>
<p>“You have eternal life before you. You are a millionaire in immortality,
and a millionaire whose fortune cannot be lost, whose fortune is less
perishable than the stars and as lasting as space or time. It is impossible for
you to diminish your principal. Immortality is a thing without beginning or
end. Eternity is eternity, and though you die here and now you will go on
living somewhere else and hereafter. And it is all very beautiful, this shaking
off of the flesh and soaring of the imprisoned spirit. Cooky cannot hurt you.
He can only give you a boost on the path you eternally must tread.</p>
<p>“Or, if you do not wish to be boosted just yet, why not boost Cooky?
According to your ideas, he, too, must be an immortal millionaire. You cannot
bankrupt him. His paper will always circulate at par. You cannot diminish the
length of his living by killing him, for he is without beginning or end.
He’s bound to go on living, somewhere, somehow. Then boost him. Stick a
knife in him and let his spirit free. As it is, it’s in a nasty prison,
and you’ll do him only a kindness by breaking down the door. And who
knows?—it may be a very beautiful spirit that will go soaring up into the
blue from that ugly carcass. Boost him along, and I’ll promote you to his
place, and he’s getting forty-five dollars a month.”</p>
<p>It was plain that I could look for no help or mercy from Wolf Larsen. Whatever
was to be done I must do for myself; and out of the courage of fear I evolved
the plan of fighting Thomas Mugridge with his own weapons. I borrowed a
whetstone from Johansen. Louis, the boat-steerer, had already begged me for
condensed milk and sugar. The lazarette, where such delicacies were stored, was
situated beneath the cabin floor. Watching my chance, I stole five cans of the
milk, and that night, when it was Louis’s watch on deck, I traded them
with him for a dirk as lean and cruel-looking as Thomas Mugridge’s
vegetable knife. It was rusty and dull, but I turned the grindstone while Louis
gave it an edge. I slept more soundly than usual that night.</p>
<p>Next morning, after breakfast, Thomas Mugridge began his whet, whet, whet. I
glanced warily at him, for I was on my knees taking the ashes from the stove.
When I returned from throwing them overside, he was talking to Harrison, whose
honest yokel’s face was filled with fascination and wonder.</p>
<p>“Yes,” Mugridge was saying, “an’ wot does ’is
worship do but give me two years in Reading. But blimey if I cared. The other
mug was fixed plenty. Should ’a seen ’im. Knife just like this. I
stuck it in, like into soft butter, an’ the w’y ’e squealed
was better’n a tu-penny gaff.” He shot a glance in my direction to
see if I was taking it in, and went on. “‘I didn’t mean it
Tommy,’ ’e was snifflin’; ‘so ’elp me Gawd, I
didn’t mean it!’ ‘I’ll fix yer bloody well
right,’ I sez, an’ kept right after ’im. I cut ’im in
ribbons, that’s wot I did, an’ ’e a-squealin’ all the
time. Once ’e got ’is ’and on the knife an’ tried to
’old it. ‘Ad ’is fingers around it, but I pulled it through,
cuttin’ to the bone. O, ’e was a sight, I can tell yer.”</p>
<p>A call from the mate interrupted the gory narrative, and Harrison went aft.
Mugridge sat down on the raised threshold to the galley and went on with his
knife-sharpening. I put the shovel away and calmly sat down on the coal-box
facing him. He favoured me with a vicious stare. Still calmly, though my heart
was going pitapat, I pulled out Louis’s dirk and began to whet it on the
stone. I had looked for almost any sort of explosion on the Cockney’s
part, but to my surprise he did not appear aware of what I was doing. He went
on whetting his knife. So did I. And for two hours we sat there, face to face,
whet, whet, whet, till the news of it spread abroad and half the ship’s
company was crowding the galley doors to see the sight.</p>
<p>Encouragement and advice were freely tendered, and Jock Horner, the quiet,
self-spoken hunter who looked as though he would not harm a mouse, advised me
to leave the ribs alone and to thrust upward for the abdomen, at the same time
giving what he called the “Spanish twist” to the blade. Leach, his
bandaged arm prominently to the fore, begged me to leave a few remnants of the
cook for him; and Wolf Larsen paused once or twice at the break of the poop to
glance curiously at what must have been to him a stirring and crawling of the
yeasty thing he knew as life.</p>
<p>And I make free to say that for the time being life assumed the same sordid
values to me. There was nothing pretty about it, nothing divine—only two
cowardly moving things that sat whetting steel upon stone, and a group of other
moving things, cowardly and otherwise, that looked on. Half of them, I am sure,
were anxious to see us shedding each other’s blood. It would have been
entertainment. And I do not think there was one who would have interfered had
we closed in a death-struggle.</p>
<p>On the other hand, the whole thing was laughable and childish. Whet, whet,
whet,—Humphrey Van Weyden sharpening his knife in a ship’s galley
and trying its edge with his thumb! Of all situations this was the most
inconceivable. I know that my own kind could not have believed it possible. I
had not been called “Sissy” Van Weyden all my days without reason,
and that “Sissy” Van Weyden should be capable of doing this thing
was a revelation to Humphrey Van Weyden, who knew not whether to be exultant or
ashamed.</p>
<p>But nothing happened. At the end of two hours Thomas Mugridge put away knife
and stone and held out his hand.</p>
<p>“Wot’s the good of mykin’ a ’oly show of ourselves for
them mugs?” he demanded. “They don’t love us, an’
bloody well glad they’d be a-seein’ us cuttin’ our throats.
Yer not ’arf bad, ’Ump! You’ve got spunk, as you Yanks
s’y, an’ I like yer in a w’y. So come on an’
shyke.”</p>
<p>Coward that I might be, I was less a coward than he. It was a distinct victory
I had gained, and I refused to forego any of it by shaking his detestable hand.</p>
<p>“All right,” he said pridelessly, “tyke it or leave it,
I’ll like yer none the less for it.” And to save his face he turned
fiercely upon the onlookers. “Get outa my galley-doors, you
bloomin’ swabs!”</p>
<p>This command was reinforced by a steaming kettle of water, and at sight of it
the sailors scrambled out of the way. This was a sort of victory for Thomas
Mugridge, and enabled him to accept more gracefully the defeat I had given him,
though, of course, he was too discreet to attempt to drive the hunters away.</p>
<p>“I see Cooky’s finish,” I heard Smoke say to Horner.</p>
<p>“You bet,” was the reply. “Hump runs the galley from now on,
and Cooky pulls in his horns.”</p>
<p>Mugridge heard and shot a swift glance at me, but I gave no sign that the
conversation had reached me. I had not thought my victory was so far-reaching
and complete, but I resolved to let go nothing I had gained. As the days went
by, Smoke’s prophecy was verified. The Cockney became more humble and
slavish to me than even to Wolf Larsen. I mistered him and sirred him no
longer, washed no more greasy pots, and peeled no more potatoes. I did my own
work, and my own work only, and when and in what fashion I saw fit. Also I
carried the dirk in a sheath at my hip, sailor-fashion, and maintained toward
Thomas Mugridge a constant attitude which was composed of equal parts of
domineering, insult, and contempt.</p>
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