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<h4 id="id00219" style="margin-top: 2em">MOVING.</h4> Mr. Southwode went away, his letter was locked up in a drawer, and both were soon forgotten. The little family he left had enough else to think of. As the warm weather turned to cold, it became more and more evident that the head of the family was not to be with it long. Mr. Carpenter was ill. Nevertheless, with failing strength, he continued to carry the burden that had been too much for him when well. He would not spare himself. The work must be done, he said, or the interest on the mortgages could not be paid. He wrought early and late, and saw to it that his hired people did their part; he wore himself out the quicker; but the interest on the mortgages was not paid, even so. Mrs. Carpenter saw just how things were going, saw it step by step, and was powerless to hinder. "They will foreclose!" Mr. Carpenter said with a half groan. It was late in the winter; towards spring; his health had failed rapidly of late; and it was no secret either to him or his wile that his weeks were numbered. They were sitting together one evening before the fire; he in his easy chair, and she beside him; but not holding each other's hands, not touching, nor looking at one another. Their blood was of a genuine New England course; and people of that kind, though they would die for one another, rarely exchange kisses. And besides, there are times when caresses cannot be borne; they mean too much. Perhaps this was such a time. Mrs. Carpenter sat staring into the fire, her brow drawn into fine wrinkles, which was with her a sign of uncommon perturbation. It was after a time of silence that her husband came out with that word about foreclosing. "If I had been stronger," he went on, "I could have taken in that twenty acre lot and planted it with wheat; and that would have made some difference. Now I am behindhand—and I could not help it—and they will foreclose." "They cannot do it till next fall," said Mrs. Carpenter; and her secret thought was, By that time, nothing will matter! "No," said her husband,—"not until fall. But then they will. Eunice, what will you do?" "I will find something to do." "What? Tell me now, while I can counsel you." "I don't know anything I could do, but take in sewing." She spoke calmly, all the while a tear started which she did not suffer to be seen. "Sewing?" said Mr. Carpenter. "There are too many in the village already that do sewing—more than can live by it." "If I cannot here," his wife said after a pause, overcoming herself,—"I might go to New York. Serena would help me to get some work." "Would she?" asked her husband. "I think she would." "Your charity always goes ahead of mine, Eunice." "You think she would not?" "I wouldn't like to have you dependent on her.—This is what you get for marrying a poor man, Eunice!" He smiled and stretched out his hand to take the hand of his wife. "Hush!" she said. "I married a richer man than she did. And I have wanted for nothing. We have not been poor." "No," he said. "Except in this world's goods—which are unimportant. Until one is leaving one's wife and child alone!" I suppose she could not speak, for she answered nothing. The fingers clasped fingers fast and hard; wrung them a little. Yet both faces were steady. Mrs. Carpenter's eyes looked somewhat rigidly into the fire, and her husband's brow wore a shadow. "I wish your father had left you at least the old place at Tanfield. It would have been no more than justice. Serena might have had all the rest, but that would have given you and Rotha a home." "Never mind," said Mrs. Carpenter gently. "I am content with my share." "Meaning me!" And he sighed. "The best share of this world's goods any woman could have, Liph." "We have been happy," he said, "in spite of all. We have had happy years; happier I could not wish for, but for this money trouble. And we shall have happy years again, Eunice; where the time is not counted by years, but flows on forever, and people are not poor, nor anxious, nor disappointed." She struggled with tears again, and then answered, "I have not been disappointed. And you have no need to be anxious." "No, I know," he said. "But at times it is hard for faith to get above sense. And I am not anxious; only I would like to know how you are going to do." There was a silence then of some length. "Things are pretty unequal in this world," Mr. Carpenter began again. "Look at Serena and you. One sister with more than she can use; the other talking of sewing for a livelihood! And all because you would marry a poor man. A poor reason!" "Liph, I had my choice," his wife said, with a shadow of a smile. "She is the one to be pitied." "Well, I think so," he said. "For if her heart were as roomy as her purse, she would have shewn it before now. My dear, do not expect anything from Serena. Till next fall you will have the shelter of this house; and that will give you time to look about you." "Liph, you must not talk so!" his wife cried; and her voice broke. She threw herself upon her husband's breast, and they held each other in a very long, still, close embrace. Mr. Carpenter was quite right in some at least of his expectations. His own life was not prolonged to the summer. In one of the last days of a rough spring, the time came he had spoken of, when his wife and child were left alone. She had till fall to look about her. But perhaps, in the bitterness of her loneliness, she had not heart to push her search after work with sufficient energy. Yet Mrs. Carpenter never lacked energy, and indulged herself selfishly no more in grief than she did in joy. More likely it is that in the simple region of country she inhabited there was not call enough for the work she could do. Work did not come, at any rate. The only real opening for her to earn her livelihood, was in the shape of a housekeeper's situation with an old bachelor farmer, who was well off and had nobody to take care of him. In her destitution, I do not know but Mrs. Carpenter might have put up with even this plan; but what was she to do with Rotha? So by degrees the thought forced itself upon her that she must take up her old notion and go to the great city, where there were always people enough to want everything. How to get there, and what to do on first arriving there, remained questions. Both were answered. As Mr. Carpenter had foreseen, the mortgages came in the fall to foreclosure. The sale of the land, however, what he had not foreseen, brought in a trifle more than the mortgage amount. To this little sum the sale of household goods and furniture and stock, added another somewhat larger; so that altogether a few hundreds stood at Mrs. Carpenter's disposal. This precisely made her undertaking possible. It was a very doubtful undertaking; but what alternative was there? One relation she would find, at the least; and another Mrs. Carpenter had not in the wide world. She made her preparations very quietly, as she did everything; her own child never knew how much heart-break was in them. "Shall we go first to aunt Serena's, mother?" Rotha asked one day. "No." The "no" was short and dry. Rotha's instinct told her she must not ask why, but she was disappointed. From a word now and then she had got the impression that this relation of theirs was a very rich woman and lived accordingly; and fancy had been busy with possibilities. "Where then, mother?" "Mr. Forbes," he was the storekeeper at the village, "has told me of the boarding house he goes to when he goes to New York. We can put up there for a night or two, and look out a quiet lodging." "What is New York like, mother?" "I have never been there, Rotha, and do not know. O it is a city, my child; of course; it is not like anything here." "How different?" "In every possible way." "Every way, mother? Aren't the houses like?" "Not at all. And the houses there stand close together." "There must be room to get about, I suppose?" "Those are the streets." "No green grass, or trees?" "Little patches of grass in the yards." "No trees?" "No. In some of the fine streets I believe there are shade trees." "No gardens, mother?" "No." "But what do people do for vegetables and things?" "They are brought out of the country, and sold in the markets. Don't you know Mr. Jones sends his potatoes and his fruit to the city?" "Then if you want a potato, you must go to the market and buy it?" "Yes." "Or an apple, mother?" "Yes, or anything." "Well I suppose that will do," said Rotha slowly, "if you have money enough. I shouldn't think it was pleasant. Do the houses stand close together?" "So close, that you cannot lay a pin between them." "I should want to have very good neighbours, then." Rotha was innocently touching point after point of doubt and dread in her mother's mind. Presently she touched another. "I don't think it sounds pleasant, mother. Suppose we should not like it after we get there?" Mrs. Carpenter did not answer. "What then, mother? Would you come back again, if we did not like it there?" "There would be no place to come to, here, any more, my child. I hope we shall find it comfortable where we are going." "Then you don't know?" said Rotha. "And perhaps we shall not! But, mother, that would be dreadful, if we did not like it!" "I hope you would help me to bear it." "I!" said Rotha. "You don't want help to bear anything; do you, mother?" An involuntary gush of tears came at this appeal; they were not suffered to overflow. "I should not be able to bear much without help, Rotha. Want help? yes, I want it—and I have it. God sends nothing to his children but he sends help too; else," said Mrs. Carpenter, brushing her hand across her eyes, "they would not last long! But, Rotha, lie means that we should help each other too." "I help you?" "Yes, certainly. You can, a great deal." "That seems very funny. Mother, what is wrong about aunt Serena?" said Rotha, following a very direct chain of ideas. "I hope nothing is wrong about her." And Mrs. Carpenter, in her gentle, unselfish charity, meant it honestly; her little daughter was less gentle and perhaps more logical. "Why, mother, does she ever do anything to help you?" "Her life is quite separate from mine," Mrs. Carpenter replied evasively. "Well, it would be right in her to help you. And when people are not right, they are wrong." "Let us take care of our own right and wrong, Rotha. We shall have enough to do with that." "But, mother, what is the matter with aunt Serena? Why doesn't she help you? She can." "Our lives went different ways, a long time ago, my child. We have never been near each other since." "But now you are going to be where she is, mother?" "Rotha, did you rip up your brown merino?" "Not yet." "Then go and do it now. I want it to make over for you." "You'll never make much of that," said the girl discontentedly. But she obeyed. She saw a certain trait in the lines of her mother's lips; it might be reserve, it might be determination, or both; and she knew no more was to be got from her at that time. The brown merino disappointed her expectation; for when cleaned and made over it proved to be a very respectable dress. Rotha was well satisfied with it. The rest of Mrs. Carpenter's preparations were soon accomplished; and one day in November she and her little daughter left what had been home, and set out upon their journey to seek another in the misty distance. The journey itself was full of wonder and delight to Rotha. It was a very remarkable thing, in the first place, to find the world so large; then another remarkable thing was the variety of the people in it. Rotha had known only one kind, speaking broadly; the plain, quiet, respectable, and generally comfortable in habitants of the village and of the farms around the village. They were not elegant specimens, but they were solid, and kindly. She saw many people now that astonished her by their elegance; few that awakened any feeling of confidence. Rotha's eyes were very busy, her tongue very silent. She was taking her first sips at the bitter-sweet cup of life knowledge. The third-class hotel at which they put up in New York received her unqualified disapprobation. None of its arrangements or accommodations suited her; with the single exception of gas burners. Close, stuffy, confined, gloomy, and dirty, she declared it to be. "Mother," she said half crying, "I hope our house will not be like this?" "We shall not have a house, Rotha; only a few rooms." "They'll be rooms in a house, I suppose," said the girl petulantly; "and I hope it will be very different from this." "We will have our part of it clean, at any rate," answered her mother. "And the rest too, won't you? You would not have rooms in a house that was not all clean, would you, mother?" "Not if I could help it." "Cannot you help it?" "I hope so. But you must not expect that things here in a big city can ever be bright and sweet like the fields at home. That can hardly be." Rotha sighed. A vision of dandelions came up before her, and waving grass bent by summer wind. But there was hope that the morrow's search would unfold to her some less unpromising phases of city life, and she suspended judgment. Next day, wonder and amusement for a time superseded everything else. The multitude of busy people coming and going, the laden carts and light passing carriages, the gay shops, and the shops that were not gay, filled Rotha's eye and mind. Even the vegetables exposed at a corner shop were a matter of lively interest. "O mother," she cried, "is this a market?" "No. It is a store for groceries." "Well, they have got some other things here. Mother, the cabbages don't look nice." Then soon after coming to a small market store, Rotha must stand still to look. "They are a little better here," she judged. "Mother, mother! they have got everything at this market. Do see! there are fish, and oysters, and clams; and eggs; and what are those queer things?" "Lobsters." "What are they good for?" "To eat." "They don't look as if they were good for anything. Mother, one could get a very good dinner here." "With plenty of money." "Does it take much?—to get one dinner?" "Are you hungry?" said her mother, smiling faintly. "It takes a good deal of money to get anything in New York, Rotha." "Then I am afraid we ought to have staid at Medwayville." A conclusion which almost forced itself upon Mrs. Carpenter's mind. For the business of finding a lodging that would suit her and that she could pay for, soon turned out to be one of difficulty. She and Rotha grew weary of walking, and more weary of looking at rooms that would suit them which they could not pay for, and other rooms which they could pay for and that would not do. All the houses in New York seemed to come under one or the other category. From one house agency to another, and from these to countless places referred to, advertised for hire, the mother and daughter wandered; in vain. One or the other difficulty met them in every case. "What will you do, mother, if you cannot find a place?" Rotha asked, the evening of the first day. "Go back to Medwayville?" "We cannot go back." "Then we must find a place," said Rotha. And driven by this necessity, so they did. The third day, well tired in body and much more in mind, they did at last find what would do. It was a long walk from their hotel, and seemed endless. No doubt, in the country, with grass under their feet, or even the well beaten foot track beside the highway, neither mother nor daughter would have thought anything of the distance; but here the hard pavement wearied them, and the way measured off by so many turns and crossings and beset with houses and human beings, seemed a forlorn pilgrimage into remote regions. Besides, it left the pleasanter part of the city and went, as Rotha remarked, among poor folks. Down Bleecker St. till it turned, then following the new stretch of straight pavement across Carmine St., and on and on into the parts then called Chelsea. On till they came to an irregular open space. "This must be Abingdon Square," said the mother. "It isn't square at all," Rotha objected. "But this must be it. Then it's only one street more, Rotha. Look for Jane Street." Beyond Abingdon Square Jane Street was found to be the next crossing. They turned the corner and were at the place they sought. The region was not one of miserable poverty and tenant houses. Better than that; and the buildings being low and small did not darken the streets, as Mrs. Carpenter had found in some parts of the city. A decent woman, a mantua-maker, had the house and offered Mrs. Carpenter the second floor; two little rooms and a closet off them. The rooms were furnished after a sort; but Mrs. Marble could give no board with them; only lodging. She was a bright, sharp little woman. "Yes, I couldn't," she said. "It wouldn't pay. I couldn't mind my business. I take my meals in a corner; for I couldn't have grease and crumbs round; but where one person can stand, three can't sit. You'll have to manage that part yourself. It'll be cheaper for you, too." "Is anything cheap here?" Mrs. Carpenter asked wearily. She had sat down to rest and consider. "That's how you manage it," said the other, shewing a full and rather arch smile. She was a little woman, quick and alert in all her ways and looks. "My rooms aint dear, to begin with; and you needn't ruin yourself eating; if you know how." "I knew how in the country," said Mrs. Carpenter. "Here it is different." "Aint it! I guess it is. Rents, you see; and folks must live, landlords and all. Some of 'em do a good deal more; but that aint my lookout. I'd eat bread and salt sooner than I'd be in debt; and I never do be that. Is it only you two?" "That is all." "Then you needn't to worry. I guess you'll get along." For Mrs. Marble noticed the quiet respectability of her caller, and honestly thought what she said. Mrs. Carpenter reflected. The rooms were not high; she could save a good deal by the extra trouble of providing herself; she would be more private, and probably have things better to her liking. Besides, her very soul sickened at the thought of looking for any more rooms. She decided, and took these. Then she asked about the possibilities of getting work. Mrs. Marble's countenance grew more doubtful. "Plain sewing?" she said. "Well, there's a good many folks doing that, you see." "I thought, perhaps, you could put me in the way of some." "Well, perhaps I can. I'll see what I can think of. But there's a many doing that sort o' thing. They're in every other house, almost. Now, when will you come?" "To-morrow. I suppose I cannot tell what I want to get till I do come." "I can tell you some things right off. You'd better do part of it to-day, or you'll want everything at once. First of all, you'd better order in some coal. You can get that just a block or two off; Jones & Sanford; they have a coal yard. It is very convenient." "Where can it be put?" "In the cellar. There's room enough. And if I was you, I wouldn't get less than half a ton. They make awful profits when they sell by the basket. You will want a little kindling too. Hadn't you better get a little bit of a stove? one with two places for cooking; or one place. It will save itself six times over in the course of the winter." "Where can I get it?" "I guess you're pretty much of a stranger here, aint you?" "Entirely a stranger." "I thought so. Folks get a look according to the place they live. You aint bad enough for New York," she added with a merry and acute smile. "I hope there are some good people here," said Mrs. Carpenter. "I hope so. I haven't passed 'em all through my sieve; got something else to do; and it aint my business neither. Well—only don't you think there aint some bad ones in the lot, that's all. There's plenty of places where you can get your stove, if you want to. Elwall's in Abingdon Square, is a very good place. Some things goes with the stove. I guess you know what you want as well as I do," she said, breaking off and smiling again. "I shall need bedding too," said Mrs. Carpenter, with a look at the empty bedstead. "You can't do everything at once, if you're to come in to-morrow. I'll tell you—I've a bed you can have, that I aint using. It'll cost you less, and do just as well. I aint one of the bad ones," she said, again with a gleam of a smile. "I shan't cheat you." The arrangement was made at last, and Mrs. Carpenter and Rotha set out on their way back. They stopped in Abingdon Square and bought a stove, a little tea-kettle, a saucepan and frying pan; half a dozen knives and forks, spoons, etc., a lamp, and sundry other little indispensable conveniences for people who would set up housekeeping. Rotha was glad to be quit of the hotel, and yet in a divided state of mind. Too tired to talk, however, that night; which was a happiness for her mother. The next day was one of delightful bustle; all filled with efforts to get in order in the new quarters. And by evening a great deal was done. The bed was made; the washstand garnished; the little stove put up, fire made in it, and the kettle boiled; and at night mother and daughter sat down to supper together, taking breath for the first time that day. Mrs. Carpenter had been to a neighbouring grocery and bought a ham and bread; eggs were so dear that they scared her; she had cooked a slice and made tea, and Rotha declared that it tasted good. "But this is funny bread, mother." "It is baker's bread." "It is nice, a little, but it isn't sweet." "Let us be thankful we have got it, Rotha." "Yes; but, mother, I think I should be more thankful for better bread." "I will try and make you some better," Mrs. Carpenter said laughing. "This is not economical, I am sure." "Mother," said Rotha, "do you suppose aunt Serena takes in sewing?" "She? no. She gives it out." "You would not like to do her sewing?" "I shall not ask for it," said the mother calmly. "Does she do her own cooking, as you do?" "No, my child. She has no need." "Do you think she is a better woman than you are, mother?" "That's not a wise question, I should say," Mrs. Carpenter returned. But something about it flushed her cheek and even brought an odd moisture to her eyes. "Because," said Rotha, wholly disregarding the animadversion, "if she isn't, I should say that things are queer." "That's what Job thought, when his troubles came on him." "And weren't they?" asked Rotha. "No. He did not understand; that was all." "I should like to understand, though, mother. Not understanding makes me uneasy." "You may be uneasy then all your life, for there will be a great many things you cannot understand. The better way is to trust and be easy." "Trust what?" Rotha asked quickly. "Trust God. He knows." "Trust him for what?" Rotha insisted. "For everything. Trust him that he will take care of you, if you are his child; and let no harm come to you; and do all things right for you, and in the best way." "Mother, that is trusting a good deal." "The Lord likes to have us trust him." "But you are his child, and he has let harm come to you?" "You think so, because you know nothing about it. No harm can come to his children." "I don't know what you call harm, then," said Rotha half sullenly. "Harm is what would hurt me. You know very well that pain does not always do that." "And can you trust him, mother, so as to be easy? Now?" "Yes," said Mrs. Carpenter. "Most days." Rotha knew from the external signs that this must be true. "Are you going to see aunt Serena, mother?" "Not now." "When?" "I do not know." "Where does she live?" "Rotha, you may wash up these dishes, while I put things a little to rights in the other room." The next day Mrs. Carpenter set about finding some work. Alas, if there were many that had it to give, there seemed to be many more that wanted it. It was worse than looking for rooms. At last some tailoring was procured from a master tailor; and Mrs. Carpenter sat all day over her sewing, giving directions to Rotha about the affairs of the small housekeeping. Rotha swept and dusted and washed dishes and set the table, and prepared vegetables. Not much of that, for their meals were simple and small; however, with one thing and another the time was partly filled up. Mrs. Carpenter stitched. It was a new thing, and disagreeable to the one looker-on, to see her mother from morning to night bent over work which was not for herself. At home, though life was busy it was not slaving. There were intervals, and often, of rest and pleasure taking. She and Rotha used to go into the garden to gather vegetables and to pick fruit; and at other times to weed and dress the beds and sow flower seeds. And at evening the whole little family were wont to enjoy the air and the sunsets and the roses from the hall door; and to have sweet and various discourse together about a great variety of subjects. Those delights, it is true, ceased a good while ago; the talks especially. Mrs. Carpenter was not much of a talker even then, though her words were good when they came. Now she said little indeed; and Rotha missed her father. An uneasy feeling of want and longing took possession of the child's mind. I suppose she felt mentally what people feel physically when they are slowly starving to death. It had not come to that yet with Rotha; but the initial fret and irritation began to be strong. Her mother seemed to be turned into a sewing machine; a thinking one, she had no doubt, nevertheless the thoughts that were never spoken did not practically exist for her. She was left to her own; and Rotha's thoughts began to seethe and boil. Another child would have found food enough and amusement enough in the varied sights and experiences of life in the great city. They made Rotha draw in to herself. <h4 id="id00408" style="margin-top: 2em">CHAPTER III.</h4> <div style="break-after:column;"></div>

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