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Say and Seal, Volume 1

<h3 id="id00748" style="margin-top: 3em">CHAPTER VII.</h3> "I hope your rest was disturbed last night," said Faith rather gaily, as she came in to the breakfast-table with a plate of biscuits and set them down before Mr. Linden. "Thank you! you have reason to be quite satisfied in that respect." "But did you hear them after they left our house?" "I heard them—really or in imagination—all night, thank you again, Miss Faith—and am as sleepy this morning as you can desire." "It wasn't I," said Faith. "Now what notice, Mr. Linden, will you think it proper to take of such a proceeding?" "That was one thing which kept me awake." "But as you are sleepy now, I suppose the point is decided?" "You are as quick at conclusions as Johnny Fax," said Mr. Linden smiling, "who always supposes that when I am not using my pen myself I am quite ready to let him have it." "Does he get it?" "What should you advise?" "O Mr. Linden!" said Faith,—"I should advise you to do—just what you do!" "Unsound!" he said,—"I thought you were a better adviser. But about this matter of the boys—I shall probably read them a lecture, wherein I shall set forth the risk they run of getting sick by such exposure to the night air; also the danger I am in of being sent away from my present quarters, because ladies prefer sleep to disturbance. Having thus wrought up their feelings to the highest pitch, I shall give them a holiday and come home to dinner." Faith laughed her little low laugh of pleasure; at least it always sounded so. It might be pleasure at one thing or at another; but it was as round and sweet a tone of merry or happy acknowledgment, as is ever heard in this world of discordances. "But are you really sleepy, sir?" said Mrs. Derrick. "I'm so sorry! I thought they were doing nothing but good. I never once thought of their waking you up." Mr. Linden laughed too, a little. "I shall get waked up"—he said,—"in the course of the day. Unless somebody has drugged my coffee." "Judge Harrison was here this morning, Mr. Linden, with a message for you," said Faith. "Mother, will you tell Mr. Linden what Judge Harrison said?" "I'd rather hear you, child, by half," said her mother, with a smile whereon the house cast a little shadow. "Tell him yourself, Faith." And Mrs. Derrick sighed, and took her napkin and rubbed off a spot on the coffeepot. "Judge Harrison came—" said Faith, and paused. "And went away"—said Mr. Linden. "Yes," said Faith. "He stopped on his way somewhere, and came into the kitchen to talk to us. He said he would like, if you would like it, he would like to have a great exhibition of the boys—he knows about the school, he says, and there hasn't been such a school in Pattaquasset since he has been here himself; and he would like to shew it up to the whole town. So if Mr. Linden approved of it, Judge Harrison said, he would have a gathering of all the countryside in some nice place—the Judge has plenty of ground and can get anybody else's besides; and the boys should have a great examination, and after that there should be an entertainment under the trees, for boys and all. And he wanted mother to speak to Mr. Linden, and see whether he would like it. And mother wouldn't," said Faith as she finished. Mr. Linden raised his eyebrows slightly—then let them fall and likewise his eyes. Then sent his cup to be replenished, gravely remarking to Faith that if she had any drugs, she might put them in now! "What kind of drugs would you like, Mr. Linden?" said Faith. "Any that are deeply sedative." "Sedative?" said Faith, with that look which he often drew from her,—very earnest, half wistful, half sorrowful,—"I don't know what it means, Mr. Linden." "It means," said he, his face relaxing a little, "'such as diminish the physical energy, without destroying life,'—such in short, as might qualify a man for the situation of a tame monkey on a pole." Faith's look changed to a sort of indignant little glance, and her lips parted; but they closed again and her eyes went down to her plate. "What were you going to remark, Miss Faith?" Faith blushed a good deal, however the answer came steadily. "I don't think any drugs would do that for you." "I am in a bad way, then," said Mr. Linden with unmoved gravity. "Because if I survive this trial of what I can bear, I intend to advertise for the afore-named situation. Have you heard of any vacant pole, Miss Faith?" Faith looked at him with a grave, considering wonder, which gradually broke into a sense of fun; and then she laughed, as she did not often laugh. Apparently Mr. Linden was well enough pleased with such answer to his words, for he not only made no attempt to stop her, but even remarked that it was good to be of a sympathizing disposition. The day passed as usual; only of late it had got to be Faith's habit to spend a good deal of time shut up in her room. It had never been her habit before. But now, after going through her early household duties, of which Faith had plenty, she used to be out of sight often for an hour before dinner; unless when the dinner required just that hour of her attention. Nothing was left behind her to call her down. Her dairy, her bread and cake, her pies and cream-cheeses, her dinner preparations—whatever the things might be—were all ready for the day's wants; and then Faith was gone. After dinner it was still more surely the same. Yet though all this was true, it was so quietly and unobtrusively true that Mrs. Derrick had hardly observed it. It happened this afternoon that Faith lingered upstairs,—not until teatime, but until she heard her mother call. Reuben Taylor wanted to see her. He was at the gate. "I didn't want to disturb you, Miss Faith. I told Mrs. Derrick so. It's only some clams,—which I thought maybe you'd like," said Reuben modestly. "I left 'em in the kitchen." "Thank you, Reuben—I like them very much. Do you feel better than you did yesterday?" "Yes, ma'am—" said Reuben rather slowly,—"I felt a great deal better last night." "And to-day—don't you?" "Yes, ma'am," Reuben answered as before. "But not so well as last night? What's the matter, Reuben?" "Didn't you hear what they did last night, ma'am?" "To be sure I did, but what has made you feel worse to-day?" "Why you know, ma'am," said Reuben, "last night I forgot all about everybody but Mr. Linden. But oh Miss Faith! I just wish you could have been in school to-day for one minute!—when Mr. Linden came in! You see," said Reuben, excitement conquering reserve, "the boys were all there—there wasn't one of 'em late, and every one had a sprig of basswood in his hat and in his buttonhole. And we all kept our hats on till he got in, and stood up to meet him (though that we do always) and then we took off our hats together and gave him such a shout!—You know, Miss Faith," added Reuben with a smile both expressive and sweet, "basswood's a kind of linden." "And what did Mr. Linden do?" said Faith with a smile of her own that very well reflected Reuben's. "He didn't say much," said Reuben,—"he looked a good deal." "Well, you foolish boy," said Faith gently, "don't you feel well now, after all that? What's the matter?" A heavy, shoe-leathery step came down the street—it was Squire Deacon. Reuben knew who it was before the Squire came near, for he flushed up, and for a moment stood with his back resolutely turned towards the gate; then with an air as resolute, but different, he turned round and bowed as courteously as he knew how—far more so than the Squire did to him; for the combination of Faith and Reuben did not seem to fall pleasantly upon Squire Deacon's organs of vision; nor indeed could he have quite forgotten last night. "Reuben, come in," said Faith touching his shoulder and smiling,—"I want to speak to you. But first answer my question—why don't you feel quite well now? You ought, Reuben." "Yes, Miss Faith—I know I ought,—at least I oughtn't to feel just as I do," Reuben answered. "Mr. Linden told me so to-day." "Then why do you feel so?" Faith asked with increased earnestness. Reuben coloured and hesitated. "Folks vex me—" he said in a low voice. "And—and Mr. Linden says I love him too well if I'm not willing to let him go when God pleases. And I know it's true—but—" and Reuben followed Faith into the house without another word. "What do you mean about Mr. Linden's going?" "Just that, ma'am," said Reuben simply. "Because we can't make ourselves feel well by thinking things are going just as we want 'em to—he says that's not strong enough ground to rest on." "But does he talk of going away, Reuben?" "O no! Miss Faith I never heard him,—he only talked so to me because of what other folks said." "Well," said Faith with a change of tone, "you're a foolish boy. You come and see me whenever you get feeling bad again. Folks can't hurt Mr. Linden. Now look here—Wait a minute, will you!"— Faith ran upstairs; speedily came down again with a little blue-covered book in her hand. "Is this the arithmetic you study?" she said softly, coming close to him. Reuben took the book with some surprise in his face. "Yes, ma'am, this is the one." And he looked up at her as if to ask, what next. "How far have you gone?" "I am through this now," said Reuben, "but some of the others are here—and here." "Then you can tell me," said Faith. She turned over to a certain page, far on in the book too, and putting it into Reuben's hands, said quietly, "I am studying it, and I cannot make anything of this. Do you remember how it was explained?" "The book's wrong," said Reuben, after a glance at it,—"I remember, Miss Faith. See—it ought to be so—and so—" Reuben went on explaining. "All the books we could get here were just like it, and Mr. Linden said if he found any more mistakes he would send to Quilipeak and get good ones. He shewed us how this ought to be." "That's it!" said Faith. "Thank you, Reuben. And you needn't tell anybody I asked you about it." Reuben looked a little surprised again, but he said "No, ma'am," and made his bow. It was Faith's turn to be surprised then, for stepping into the tea-room to look at the clock, she found not only the clock but Mr. Linden,—the former ticking sundry minutes past teatime, the latter enjoying the sunset clouds and his own reflections, and (possibly) his book. Mrs. Derrick, favouring the atmosphere of the little wood fire, which had burnt itself out to coals and ashes, sat at one corner of the hearth, taking up the stiches round the heel of her stocking; which precarious operation engrossed her completely. Mr. Linden however looked up, and took in the whole of the little picture before him. Apparently the picture was pleasant, for he smiled. Faith's look was startled. "I am late!" she said with a compunctious glance at the clock. And as soon as it could be made the tea came in smoking. As Faith took her seat at the table she put her question. "When did you come in, Mr. Linden?" "About a quarter of an hour before you did." "By which way?" "Why!—by the door. It is simpler than the window." The next few seconds seemed to be employed by Faith in buttering bread and eating it, but in reality they were used for carrying on a somewhat hurried calculation of minutes and distances which brought the colour in her cheeks to a hue of pretty richness. "Did I run over anybody in my way?" asked Mr. Linden. "What gives the question its interest?" "I had thought you were out," said Faith quietly. "I know a shorter way to the store than you do," said Mr. Linden with equal quietness. "To the store!" said Faith, eye and lip quite putting quietness out of the question. "Yes, I found your footprints there the other day, and I have been wanting to tell you ever since that it is not anything like so far up to my room. Let me recommend that way to you for the future." Faith's colour was no matter of degrees now, for it rushed over temples and cheek in a flood. And seemed inclined to be a permanency. "There you may take what you like," he went on, with a smile that was both amused and encouraging, "and I shall be none the wiser—unless you tell me yourself. If you do tell me, I shall be very glad. Now Miss Faith—what shall we do about Judge Harrison?" Faith hesitated, and struggled perhaps, for it did not seem very easy to speak with that deep flush on her brow; and then she said rather low, "I am not ungrateful, Mr. Linden." "Neither am I—but this proposal of his gives me some trouble. I think if he would have all the fun, without any of the shewing off, it would answer every good purpose and avoid all the bad ones. And if you will intimate as much to your mother, Miss Faith, and persuade her to convey the information to Judge Harrison, it will perhaps be the best way of reply. Of course as trustee he has still the right of doing as he likes." "Mother, do you hear?" said Faith, "or do you want me to repeat it?" "No, child,"—said her mother abstractedly; "I didn't hear, to be sure,—how should I? Faith—what do you suppose makes Cindy break the noses off all our milk pitchers?" This was an irresistible question. Faith's own face came back, and during the rest of supper-time she was like herself, only with a shade more than was usual upon her brow and manner. The short September day had little twilight to lengthen it out. The cool western horizon still outshone the setting stars with its clear light, but in the east and overhead others came out, 'silently, one by one.' Mr. Linden went to take his evening walk, Faith to light the lamp in the parlour, watched and gazed at by her mother the while. "Child," said Mrs. Derrick, "what makes you stay upstairs so? I never thought of it till I went to call you to see Reuben—but seems to me you are up there a great deal." Faith smiled a little and also looked grave, as she was putting on the shade of the lamp. "Yes, mother"—she said,—"I am." "What for, pretty child?" said her mother fondly. Faith was pretty, in the look with which she answered this appeal. Her smile dropped its gravity, and only love came in to make the confession. "Mother, I am trying to learn. I want to be wiser." "Learn!" said Mrs. Derrick in utter astonishment, and rousing out of her resting position. "Trying to learn, child?" "Yes, mother—what about it? I don't know anything; and I want to know—a great deal!" "Why you know everything now!" said Mrs. Derrick. "What don't you know, Faith?—I should like to!" Faith smiled. "Mother, I don't know anything!"—and then she added more brightly, "I've begun with arithmetic, for one thing." "Arithmetic!" said Mrs. Derrick; and she paused, and leaned back in her chair, rocking gently to and fro, with a shade of soberness stealing over her face. "You never did have much chance,"—she said at length, "because I couldn't give it to you then. My heart was broke, Faith, and I couldn't bear to have you out of my sight for a minute. But somehow I thought you knew everything." And she sat still once more, looking at Faith as if trying to reinstate herself in her old opinion. Nor altogether without success; for with a little smile coming over her face, Mrs. Derrick added, "You won't be any sweeter—learn as much as you will, child,—you needn't think it;" and the rockers would have certainly come into play again if Cindy had not opened the door and claimed attention. "I s'pose likely you don't want to go down to Widder Stamp's?" she said. "'Cause she wants you to come. I'm free to confess she's got the high-strikes wonderful." "Mother," said Faith, giving her one or two kisses as Mrs. Derrick rose to prove the contrary of Cindy's supposition, "I shall be a great deal happier;—and I am getting along nicely." Which sent Mrs. Derrick off in triumph. But when she was gone, Faith did not take her basket of stockings, nor yet her arithmetic; but sat down by the table with her head in her hands and sat very still. Still, until Mr. Linden came in, laid one paper on the table at her side, and sat down to read another. Faith's darning-needle came into play then, and worked quick and silently. Mr. Linden glanced towards it as he laid down his paper. "I see you evaded my question last night," he said,—"there could not be such a constant supply, if there were not also a constant demand." "Mr. Linden," said Faith, her colour a little raised and her voice changing somewhat,—"I want to ask you something—if you are not busy about anything." "I am not but you might ask just as freely if I were." "I couldn't," said Faith. She drew her hand out of her stocking and put her thimble on the table. "Mr. Linden," she said without looking at him,—"a while ago, when you were speaking of faith and a cloudy day, and I told you I wasn't like that,—you said I must read the Bible then, and do what that said. I have been trying to do it."— Shading his eyes with his hand, he looked at her—as if waiting to hear more. "And I don't understand it," she said.—"I don't know how to get on." "Do you mean, with the Bible? Is it that you do not understand?" "I don't understand some things—I don't know exactly what I ought to do." "In what respect?—where is the difficulty? Some things in the Bible you never will understand, perhaps, in this world, and others you must learn by degrees." "I don't understand exactly what makes a Christian—and I want to be one." It was spoken low, and timidly; but Faith was in earnest. Mr. Linden sat silent a minute, without changing his position. "A Christian is one, who trusting in Christ as his only Saviour, thenceforth obeys him as his only King." Faith hesitated and thought. "I don't understand," she said folding her hands, "—about the trusting." "Suppose there was something you wanted done too hard for your strength but not for mine,—would you know how to trust it in my hands?" She bowed her head and said, "Yes!" "Suppose I consented to do it only upon condition that for the rest of your life my will and pleasure should be your only rule of action,—would the great work still be yours or mine?" "Why, yours," she said, still looking at him. "Cannot you see Christ—standing between God and man, offering his own blood where justice demands ours, and with his perfect righteousness covering our imperfect obedience? So 'that God may be just, and yet the justifier of him that believeth in Jesus.' Can you apply any words? Can you see that Christ only is 'mighty to save'?—Are you willing to trust yourself in his hands?" Faith dropped her eyes for a minute or two, but the lines of her face were changing. "I know what you mean now," she said slowly. "I couldn't see it before." Then with a little smile she went on—"Yes, Mr. Linden, I am willing. But what must I do?" "'Only believe—'" he answered. "Do what you say you are willing to do." "But," said Faith, looking at him with a face which certainly spoke her near the 'little child' character which Christians do bear,—"there must be something else. I must not be like what I have been. I want to know what I ought to do." "Christ's own words tell you better than I can,—'My sheep hear my voice, and I know them, and they follow me'—that is the description of a Christian on earth. And then it follows—'I give unto them eternal life, and they shall never perish, neither shall any man pluck them out of my hand.'" There was silence; and then Faith said, "But how am I to follow him?" "How did the people do to whom he said those words when he was on earth?" "I don't know!" "'They arose, and left all, and followed him.'" "Well, Mr. Linden?"— "It is just such a following that we are called to now—only that it must be in heart and life instead of actual footsteps. Just so must we rise up from doing our own will and pleasure, fix our eyes upon Christ, and follow him!" "But how are we to know—how am I to know," said Faith, "what I ought to do?" "Study Christ's summing up of the ten commandments,—does not that cover the whole ground? And then—do every little duty as it comes to hand. If we are truly ready to do God's will, he will send us work,—or if not— 'They also serve, who only stand and wait.'" Faith looked an earnest, wistful, sorrowful look at him. "But then," she said,—"I don't do anything well—how can I know that I am right? You know what you said—of the two roads only one led to the shore. I keep thinking of that—ever since." "A traveller in the right road," said Mr. Linden, "may walk with very weak and unsteady pace,—yet he knows which way his face is set. Which way is yours?" Faith's face was in her hands. But Mrs. Derrick's step just then sounding at the front door, she sprang away before it could reach the parlour. <div style="break-after:column;"></div>

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