<h2>CHAPTER XXXI</h2>
<p>Yesterday was bright, calm, and frosty. I went to the
Heights as I proposed: my housekeeper entreated me to bear a
little note from her to her young lady, and I did not refuse, for
the worthy woman was not conscious of anything odd in her
request. The front door stood open, but the jealous gate
was fastened, as at my last visit; I knocked and invoked Earnshaw
from among the garden-beds; he unchained it, and I entered.
The fellow is as handsome a rustic as need be seen. I took
particular notice of him this time; but then he does his best
apparently to make the least of his advantages.</p>
<p>I asked if Mr. Heathcliff were at home? He answered, No;
but he would be in at dinner-time. It was eleven
o’clock, and I announced my intention of going in and
waiting for him; at which he immediately flung down his tools and
accompanied me, in the office of watchdog, not as a substitute
for the host.</p>
<p>We entered together; Catherine was there, making herself
useful in preparing some vegetables for the approaching meal; she
looked more sulky and less spirited than when I had seen her
first. She hardly raised her eyes to notice me, and
continued her employment with the same disregard to common forms
of politeness as before; never returning my bow and good-morning
by the slightest acknowledgment.</p>
<p>‘She does not seem so amiable,’ I thought,
‘as Mrs. Dean would persuade me to believe.
She’s a beauty, it is true; but not an angel.’</p>
<p>Earnshaw surlily bid her remove her things to the
kitchen. ‘Remove them yourself,’ she said,
pushing them from her as soon as she had done; and retiring to a
stool by the window, where she began to carve figures of birds
and beasts out of the turnip-parings in her lap. I
approached her, pretending to desire a view of the garden; and,
as I fancied, adroitly dropped Mrs. Dean’s note on to her
knee, unnoticed by Hareton—but she asked aloud, ‘What
is that?’ And chucked it off.</p>
<p>‘A letter from your old acquaintance, the housekeeper at
the Grange,’ I answered; annoyed at her exposing my kind
deed, and fearful lest it should be imagined a missive of my
own. She would gladly have gathered it up at this
information, but Hareton beat her; he seized and put it in his
waistcoat, saying Mr. Heathcliff should look at it first.
Thereat, Catherine silently turned her face from us, and, very
stealthily, drew out her pocket-handkerchief and applied it to
her eyes; and her cousin, after struggling awhile to keep down
his softer feelings, pulled out the letter and flung it on the
floor beside her, as ungraciously as he could. Catherine
caught and perused it eagerly; then she put a few questions to me
concerning the inmates, rational and irrational, of her former
home; and gazing towards the hills, murmured in soliloquy:</p>
<p>‘I should like to be riding Minny down there! I
should like to be climbing up there! Oh! I’m
tired—I’m <i>stalled</i>, Hareton!’ And
she leant her pretty head back against the sill, with half a yawn
and half a sigh, and lapsed into an aspect of abstracted sadness:
neither caring nor knowing whether we remarked her.</p>
<p>‘Mrs. Heathcliff,’ I said, after sitting some time
mute, ‘you are not aware that I am an acquaintance of
yours? so intimate that I think it strange you won’t come
and speak to me. My housekeeper never wearies of talking
about and praising you; and she’ll be greatly disappointed
if I return with no news of or from you, except that you received
her letter and said nothing!’</p>
<p>She appeared to wonder at this speech, and asked,—</p>
<p>‘Does Ellen like you?’</p>
<p>‘Yes, very well,’ I replied, hesitatingly.</p>
<p>‘You must tell her,’ she continued, ‘that I
would answer her letter, but I have no materials for writing: not
even a book from which I might tear a leaf.’</p>
<p>‘No books!’ I exclaimed. ‘How do you
contrive to live here without them? if I may take the liberty to
inquire. Though provided with a large library, I’m
frequently very dull at the Grange; take my books away, and I
should be desperate!’</p>
<p>‘I was always reading, when I had them,’ said
Catherine; ‘and Mr. Heathcliff never reads; so he took it
into his head to destroy my books. I have not had a glimpse
of one for weeks. Only once, I searched through
Joseph’s store of theology, to his great irritation; and
once, Hareton, I came upon a secret stock in your room—some
Latin and Greek, and some tales and poetry: all old
friends. I brought the last here—and you gathered
them, as a magpie gathers silver spoons, for the mere love of
stealing! They are of no use to you; or else you concealed
them in the bad spirit that, as you cannot enjoy them, nobody
else shall. Perhaps <i>your</i> envy counselled Mr.
Heathcliff to rob me of my treasures? But I’ve most
of them written on my brain and printed in my heart, and you
cannot deprive me of those!’</p>
<p>Earnshaw blushed crimson when his cousin made this revelation
of his private literary accumulations, and stammered an indignant
denial of her accusations.</p>
<p>‘Mr. Hareton is desirous of increasing his amount of
knowledge,’ I said, coming to his rescue. ‘He
is not <i>envious</i>, but <i>emulous</i> of your
attainments. He’ll be a clever scholar in a few
years.’</p>
<p>‘And he wants me to sink into a dunce, meantime,’
answered Catherine. ‘Yes, I hear him trying to spell
and read to himself, and pretty blunders he makes! I wish
you would repeat Chevy Chase as you did yesterday: it was
extremely funny. I heard you; and I heard you turning over
the dictionary to seek out the hard words, and then cursing
because you couldn’t read their explanations!’</p>
<p>The young man evidently thought it too bad that he should be
laughed at for his ignorance, and then laughed at for trying to
remove it. I had a similar notion; and, remembering Mrs.
Dean’s anecdote of his first attempt at enlightening the
darkness in which he had been reared, I
observed,—‘But, Mrs. Heathcliff, we have each had a
commencement, and each stumbled and tottered on the threshold;
had our teachers scorned instead of aiding us, we should stumble
and totter yet.’</p>
<p>‘Oh!’ she replied, ‘I don’t wish to
limit his acquirements: still, he has no right to appropriate
what is mine, and make it ridiculous to me with his vile mistakes
and mispronunciations! Those books, both prose and verse,
are consecrated to me by other associations; and I hate to have
them debased and profaned in his mouth! Besides, of all, he
has selected my favourite pieces that I love the most to repeat,
as if out of deliberate malice.’</p>
<p>Hareton’s chest heaved in silence a minute: he laboured
under a severe sense of mortification and wrath, which it was no
easy task to suppress. I rose, and, from a gentlemanly idea
of relieving his embarrassment, took up my station in the
doorway, surveying the external prospect as I stood. He
followed my example, and left the room; but presently reappeared,
bearing half a dozen volumes in his hands, which he threw into
Catherine’s lap, exclaiming,—‘Take them!
I never want to hear, or read, or think of them again!’</p>
<p>‘I won’t have them now,’ she answered.
‘I shall connect them with you, and hate them.’</p>
<p>She opened one that had obviously been often turned over, and
read a portion in the drawling tone of a beginner; then laughed,
and threw it from her. ‘And listen,’ she
continued, provokingly, commencing a verse of an old ballad in
the same fashion.</p>
<p>But his self-love would endure no further torment: I heard,
and not altogether disapprovingly, a manual check given to her
saucy tongue. The little wretch had done her utmost to hurt
her cousin’s sensitive though uncultivated feelings, and a
physical argument was the only mode he had of balancing the
account, and repaying its effects on the inflictor. He
afterwards gathered the books and hurled them on the fire.
I read in his countenance what anguish it was to offer that
sacrifice to spleen. I fancied that as they consumed, he
recalled the pleasure they had already imparted, and the triumph
and ever-increasing pleasure he had anticipated from them; and I
fancied I guessed the incitement to his secret studies
also. He had been content with daily labour and rough
animal enjoyments, till Catherine crossed his path. Shame
at her scorn, and hope of her approval, were his first prompters
to higher pursuits; and instead of guarding him from one and
winning him to the other, his endeavours to raise himself had
produced just the contrary result.</p>
<p>‘Yes that’s all the good that such a brute as you
can get from them!’ cried Catherine, sucking her damaged
lip, and watching the conflagration with indignant eyes.</p>
<p>‘You’d <i>better</i> hold your tongue, now,’
he answered fiercely.</p>
<p>And his agitation precluded further speech; he advanced
hastily to the entrance, where I made way for him to pass.
But ere he had crossed the door-stones, Mr. Heathcliff, coming up
the causeway, encountered him, and laying hold of his shoulder
asked,—‘What’s to do now, my lad?’</p>
<p>‘Naught, naught,’ he said, and broke away to enjoy
his grief and anger in solitude.</p>
<p>Heathcliff gazed after him, and sighed.</p>
<p>‘It will be odd if I thwart myself,’ he muttered,
unconscious that I was behind him. ‘But when I look
for his father in his face, I find <i>her</i> every day
more! How the devil is he so like? I can hardly bear
to see him.’</p>
<p>He bent his eyes to the ground, and walked moodily in.
There was a restless, anxious expression in his
countenance. I had never remarked there before; and he
looked sparer in person. His daughter-in-law, on perceiving
him through the window, immediately escaped to the kitchen, so
that I remained alone.</p>
<p>‘I’m glad to see you out of doors again, Mr.
Lockwood,’ he said, in reply to my greeting; ‘from
selfish motives partly: I don’t think I could readily
supply your loss in this desolation. I’ve wondered
more than once what brought you here.’</p>
<p>‘An idle whim, I fear, sir,’ was my answer;
‘or else an idle whim is going to spirit me away. I
shall set out for London next week; and I must give you warning
that I feel no disposition to retain Thrushcross Grange beyond
the twelve months I agreed to rent it. I believe I shall
not live there any more.’</p>
<p>‘Oh, indeed; you’re tired of being banished from
the world, are you?’ he said. ‘But if you be
coming to plead off paying for a place you won’t occupy,
your journey is useless: I never relent in exacting my due from
any one.’</p>
<p>‘I’m coming to plead off nothing about it,’
I exclaimed, considerably irritated. ‘Should you wish
it, I’ll settle with you now,’ and I drew my
note-book from my pocket.</p>
<p>‘No, no,’ he replied, coolly; ‘you’ll
leave sufficient behind to cover your debts, if you fail to
return: I’m not in such a hurry. Sit down and take
your dinner with us; a guest that is safe from repeating his
visit can generally be made welcome. Catherine! bring the
things in: where are you?’</p>
<p>Catherine reappeared, bearing a tray of knives and forks.</p>
<p>‘You may get your dinner with Joseph,’ muttered
Heathcliff, aside, ‘and remain in the kitchen till he is
gone.’</p>
<p>She obeyed his directions very punctually: perhaps she had no
temptation to transgress. Living among clowns and
misanthropists, she probably cannot appreciate a better class of
people when she meets them.</p>
<p>With Mr. Heathcliff, grim and saturnine, on the one hand, and
Hareton, absolutely dumb, on the other, I made a somewhat
cheerless meal, and bade adieu early. I would have departed
by the back way, to get a last glimpse of Catherine and annoy old
Joseph; but Hareton received orders to lead up my horse, and my
host himself escorted me to the door, so I could not fulfil my
wish.</p>
<p>‘How dreary life gets over in that house!’ I
reflected, while riding down the road. ‘What a
realisation of something more romantic than a fairy tale it would
have been for Mrs. Linton Heathcliff, had she and I struck up an
attachment, as her good nurse desired, and migrated together into
the stirring atmosphere of the town!’</p>
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