<h2 id="id00081" style="margin-top: 4em">IN CONFIDENCE</h2>
<p id="id00082" style="margin-top: 3em">I shall speak in a straightforward way, and shall say today what
perhaps I should say tomorrow, or ten years from now,—but shall say
it today, because I cannot keep it back, because I have nothing better
to say than the truth, or what I hold to be the truth. But why seek
truths that are not pleasant? We cannot help it. No man can suppress
the truth. Truth finds a crack or crevice to crop out of; it bobs up
to the surface and all the volume and weight of waters can not keep it
down. Truth prevails! Life, death, truth—behold, these three no power
can keep back. And since we are doomed to know the truth, let us
cultivate a love for it. It is of no avail to cry over lost illusions,
to long for vanished dreams, or to call to the departing gods to come
back. It may be pleasant to play with toys and dolls all our life, but
evidently we are not meant to remain children always. The time comes
when we must put away childish things and obey the summons of truth,
stern and high. A people who fear the truth can never he a free
people. If what I will say is the truth, do you know of any good
reason why I should not say it? And if for prudential reasons I should
sometimes hold back the truth, how would you know <i>when</i> I am telling
what I believe to be the truth, and when I am holding it back for
reasons of policy?</p>
<p id="id00083">The truth, however unwelcome, is not injurious; it is error which
raises false hopes, which destroys, degrades and pollutes, and which,
sooner or later, must be abandoned. Was it not Spencer, whom Darwin
called "our great philosopher," who said, "Repulsive as is its aspect,
the hard fact which dissipates a cherished illusion is presently found
to contain the germ of a more salutary belief?" Spain is decaying
today because her teachers, for policy's sake, are withholding the
disagreeable truth from the people. Holy water and sainted bones can
give a nation illusions and dreams, but never,—strength.</p>
<p id="id00084">A difficult subject is in the nature of a challenge to the mind. One
difficult task attempted is worth a thousand commonplace efforts
completed. The majority of people avoid the difficult and fear danger.
But he who would progress must even court danger. Political and
religious liberty were discovered through peril and struggle. The
world owes its emancipation to human daring. Had Columbus feared
danger, America might have slept for another thousand years.</p>
<p id="id00085">I have a difficult subject in hand. It is also a delicate one. But I
am determined not only to know, if it is possible, the whole truth
about Jesus, but also to communicate that truth to others. Some people
can keep their minds shut. I cannot; I must share my intellectual life
with the world. If I lived a thousand years ago, I might have
collapsed at the sight of the burning stake, but I feel sure I would
have deserved the stake.</p>
<p id="id00086">People say to me, sometimes, "Why do you not confine yourself to moral
and religious exhortation, such as, 'Be kind, do good, love one
another, etc.'?" But there is more of a moral tonic in the open and
candid discussion of a subject like the one in hand, than in a
multitude of platitudes. We feel our moral fiber stiffen into force
and purpose under the inspiration of a peril dared for the advancement
of truth.</p>
<p id="id00087">"Tell us what you believe," is one of the requests frequently
addressed to me. I never deliver a lecture in which I do not, either
directly or indirectly, give full and free expression to my faith in
everything that is worthy of faith. If I do not believe in dogma, it
is because I believe in freedom. If I do not believe in one inspired
book, it is because I believe that all truth and only truth is
inspired. If I do not ask the gods to help us, it is because I believe
in human help, so much more real than supernatural help. If I do not
believe in standing still, it is because I believe in progress. If I
am not attracted by the vision of a distant heaven, it is because I
believe in human happiness, now and here. If I do not say "Lord,
Lord!" to Jesus, it is because I bow my head to a greater Power than
Jesus, to a more efficient Savior than he has ever been—Science!</p>
<p id="id00088">"Oh, he tears down, but does not build up," is another criticism about
my work. It is not true. No preacher or priest is more constructive.
To build up their churches and maintain their creeds the priests
pulled down and destroyed the magnificent civilization of Greece and
Rome, plunging Europe into the dark and sterile ages which lasted over
a thousand years. When Galileo waved his hands for joy because he
believed he had enriched humanity with a new truth and extended the
sphere of knowledge, what did the church do to him? It conspired to
destroy him. It shut him up in a dungeon! Clapping truth into jail;
gagging the mouth of the student—is that building up or tearing down?
When Bruno lighted a new torch to increase the light of the world,
what was his reward? The stake! During all the ages that the church
had the power to police the world, every time a thinker raised his
head he was clubbed to death. Do you think it is kind of us—does it
square with our sense of justice to call the priest constructive, and
the scientists and philosophers who have helped people to their
feet—helped them to self-government in politics, and to self-help in
life,—destructive? Count your rights—political, religious, social,
intellectual—and tell me which of them was conquered for you by the
priest.</p>
<p id="id00089">"He is irreverent," is still another hasty criticism I have heard
advanced against the rationalist. I wish to tell you something. But
first let us be impersonal. The epithets "irreverent," "blasphemer,"
"atheist," and "infidel," are flung at a man, not from pity, but from
envy. Not having the courage or the industry of our neighbor who works
like a busy bee in the world of men and books, searching with the sweat
of his brow for the real bread of life, wetting the open page before
him with his tears, pushing into the "wee" hours of the night his
quest, animated by the fairest of all loves, "the love of truth",—we
ease our own indolent conscience by calling him names. We pretend
that it is not because we are too lazy or too selfish to work as hard
or think as freely as he does, but because we do not want to be as
irreverent as he is that we keep the windows of our minds shut. To
excuse our own mediocrity we call the man who tries to get out of the
rut a "blasphemer." And so we ask the world to praise our indifference
as a great virtue, and to denounce the conscientious toil and thought
of another, as "blasphemy."</p>
<p id="id00090" style="margin-top: 4em">[Illustration: The Lamb Standing Upon the Gospels. VIII Century.]</p>
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