<h2>CHAPTER XVI</h2>
<p>About twelve o’clock that night was born the Catherine you saw at
Wuthering Heights: a puny, seven-months’ child; and two hours after the
mother died, having never recovered sufficient consciousness to miss
Heathcliff, or know Edgar. The latter’s distraction at his bereavement is
a subject too painful to be dwelt on; its after-effects showed how deep the
sorrow sunk. A great addition, in my eyes, was his being left without an heir.
I bemoaned that, as I gazed on the feeble orphan; and I mentally abused old
Linton for (what was only natural partiality) the securing his estate to his
own daughter, instead of his son’s. An unwelcomed infant it was, poor
thing! It might have wailed out of life, and nobody cared a morsel, during
those first hours of existence. We redeemed the neglect afterwards; but its
beginning was as friendless as its end is likely to be.</p>
<p>Next morning—bright and cheerful out of doors—stole softened in
through the blinds of the silent room, and suffused the couch and its occupant
with a mellow, tender glow. Edgar Linton had his head laid on the pillow, and
his eyes shut. His young and fair features were almost as deathlike as those of
the form beside him, and almost as fixed: but <i>his</i> was the hush of
exhausted anguish, and <i>hers</i> of perfect peace. Her brow smooth, her lids
closed, her lips wearing the expression of a smile; no angel in heaven could be
more beautiful than she appeared. And I partook of the infinite calm in which
she lay: my mind was never in a holier frame than while I gazed on that
untroubled image of Divine rest. I instinctively echoed the words she had
uttered a few hours before: “Incomparably beyond and above us all!
Whether still on earth or now in heaven, her spirit is at home with God!”</p>
<p>I don’t know if it be a peculiarity in me, but I am seldom otherwise than
happy while watching in the chamber of death, should no frenzied or despairing
mourner share the duty with me. I see a repose that neither earth nor hell can
break, and I feel an assurance of the endless and shadowless
hereafter—the Eternity they have entered—where life is boundless in
its duration, and love in its sympathy, and joy in its fulness. I noticed on
that occasion how much selfishness there is even in a love like Mr.
Linton’s, when he so regretted Catherine’s blessed release! To be
sure, one might have doubted, after the wayward and impatient existence she had
led, whether she merited a haven of peace at last. One might doubt in seasons
of cold reflection; but not then, in the presence of her corpse. It asserted
its own tranquillity, which seemed a pledge of equal quiet to its former
inhabitant.</p>
<p>Do you believe such people <i>are</i> happy in the other world, sir? I’d
give a great deal to know.</p>
<p>I declined answering Mrs. Dean’s question, which struck me as something
heterodox. She proceeded:</p>
<p>Retracing the course of Catherine Linton, I fear we have no right to think she
is; but we’ll leave her with her Maker.</p>
<p>The master looked asleep, and I ventured soon after sunrise to quit the room
and steal out to the pure refreshing air. The servants thought me gone to shake
off the drowsiness of my protracted watch; in reality, my chief motive was
seeing Mr. Heathcliff. If he had remained among the larches all night, he would
have heard nothing of the stir at the Grange; unless, perhaps, he might catch
the gallop of the messenger going to Gimmerton. If he had come nearer, he would
probably be aware, from the lights flitting to and fro, and the opening and
shutting of the outer doors, that all was not right within. I wished, yet
feared, to find him. I felt the terrible news must be told, and I longed to get
it over; but <i>how</i> to do it I did not know. He was there—at least, a
few yards further in the park; leant against an old ash-tree, his hat off, and
his hair soaked with the dew that had gathered on the budded branches, and fell
pattering round him. He had been standing a long time in that position, for I
saw a pair of ousels passing and repassing scarcely three feet from him, busy
in building their nest, and regarding his proximity no more than that of a
piece of timber. They flew off at my approach, and he raised his eyes and
spoke:—“She’s dead!” he said; “I’ve not
waited for you to learn that. Put your handkerchief away—don’t
snivel before me. Damn you all! she wants none of <i>your</i> tears!”</p>
<p>I was weeping as much for him as her: we do sometimes pity creatures that have
none of the feeling either for themselves or others. When I first looked into
his face, I perceived that he had got intelligence of the catastrophe; and a
foolish notion struck me that his heart was quelled and he prayed, because his
lips moved and his gaze was bent on the ground.</p>
<p>“Yes, she’s dead!” I answered, checking my sobs and drying my
cheeks. “Gone to heaven, I hope; where we may, every one, join her, if we
take due warning and leave our evil ways to follow good!”</p>
<p>“Did <i>she</i> take due warning, then?” asked Heathcliff,
attempting a sneer. “Did she die like a saint? Come, give me a true
history of the event. How did—?”</p>
<p>He endeavoured to pronounce the name, but could not manage it; and compressing
his mouth he held a silent combat with his inward agony, defying, meanwhile, my
sympathy with an unflinching, ferocious stare. “How did she die?”
he resumed, at last—fain, notwithstanding his hardihood, to have a
support behind him; for, after the struggle, he trembled, in spite of himself,
to his very finger-ends.</p>
<p>“Poor wretch!” I thought; “you have a heart and nerves the
same as your brother men! Why should you be anxious to conceal them? Your pride
cannot blind God! You tempt him to wring them, till he forces a cry of
humiliation.”</p>
<p>“Quietly as a lamb!” I answered, aloud. “She drew a sigh, and
stretched herself, like a child reviving, and sinking again to sleep; and five
minutes after I felt one little pulse at her heart, and nothing more!”</p>
<p>“And—did she ever mention me?” he asked, hesitating, as if he
dreaded the answer to his question would introduce details that he could not
bear to hear.</p>
<p>“Her senses never returned: she recognised nobody from the time you left
her,” I said. “She lies with a sweet smile on her face; and her
latest ideas wandered back to pleasant early days. Her life closed in a gentle
dream—may she wake as kindly in the other world!”</p>
<p>“May she wake in torment!” he cried, with frightful vehemence,
stamping his foot, and groaning in a sudden paroxysm of ungovernable passion.
“Why, she’s a liar to the end! Where is she? Not
<i>there</i>—not in heaven—not perished—where? Oh! you said
you cared nothing for my sufferings! And I pray one prayer—I repeat it
till my tongue stiffens—Catherine Earnshaw, may you not rest as long as I
am living; you said I killed you—haunt me, then! The murdered <i>do</i>
haunt their murderers, I believe. I know that ghosts <i>have</i> wandered on
earth. Be with me always—take any form—drive me mad! only <i>do</i>
not leave me in this abyss, where I cannot find you! Oh, God! it is
unutterable! I <i>cannot</i> live without my life! I <i>cannot</i> live without
my soul!”</p>
<p>He dashed his head against the knotted trunk; and, lifting up his eyes, howled,
not like a man, but like a savage beast being goaded to death with knives and
spears. I observed several splashes of blood about the bark of the tree, and
his hand and forehead were both stained; probably the scene I witnessed was a
repetition of others acted during the night. It hardly moved my
compassion—it appalled me: still, I felt reluctant to quit him so. But
the moment he recollected himself enough to notice me watching, he thundered a
command for me to go, and I obeyed. He was beyond my skill to quiet or console!</p>
<p>Mrs. Linton’s funeral was appointed to take place on the Friday following
her decease; and till then her coffin remained uncovered, and strewn with
flowers and scented leaves, in the great drawing-room. Linton spent his days
and nights there, a sleepless guardian; and—a circumstance concealed from
all but me—Heathcliff spent his nights, at least, outside, equally a
stranger to repose. I held no communication with him; still, I was conscious of
his design to enter, if he could; and on the Tuesday, a little after dark, when
my master, from sheer fatigue, had been compelled to retire a couple of hours,
I went and opened one of the windows; moved by his perseverance to give him a
chance of bestowing on the faded image of his idol one final adieu. He did not
omit to avail himself of the opportunity, cautiously and briefly; too
cautiously to betray his presence by the slightest noise. Indeed, I
shouldn’t have discovered that he had been there, except for the
disarrangement of the drapery about the corpse’s face, and for observing
on the floor a curl of light hair, fastened with a silver thread; which, on
examination, I ascertained to have been taken from a locket hung round
Catherine’s neck. Heathcliff had opened the trinket and cast out its
contents, replacing them by a black lock of his own. I twisted the two, and
enclosed them together.</p>
<p>Mr. Earnshaw was, of course, invited to attend the remains of his sister to the
grave; he sent no excuse, but he never came; so that, besides her husband, the
mourners were wholly composed of tenants and servants. Isabella was not asked.</p>
<p>The place of Catherine’s interment, to the surprise of the villagers, was
neither in the chapel under the carved monument of the Lintons, nor yet by the
tombs of her own relations, outside. It was dug on a green slope in a corner of
the kirkyard, where the wall is so low that heath and bilberry-plants have
climbed over it from the moor; and peat-mould almost buries it. Her husband
lies in the same spot now; and they have each a simple headstone above, and a
plain grey block at their feet, to mark the graves.</p>
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