<h2>CHAPTER XIV</h2>
<p>As soon as I had perused this epistle I went to the master, and informed him
that his sister had arrived at the Heights, and sent me a letter expressing her
sorrow for Mrs. Linton’s situation, and her ardent desire to see him;
with a wish that he would transmit to her, as early as possible, some token of
forgiveness by me.</p>
<p>“Forgiveness!” said Linton. “I have nothing to forgive her,
Ellen. You may call at Wuthering Heights this afternoon, if you like, and say
that I am not <i>angry</i>, but I’m <i>sorry</i> to have lost her;
especially as I can never think she’ll be happy. It is out of the
question my going to see her, however: we are eternally divided; and should she
really wish to oblige me, let her persuade the villain she has married to leave
the country.”</p>
<p>“And you won’t write her a little note, sir?” I asked,
imploringly.</p>
<p>“No,” he answered. “It is needless. My communication with
Heathcliff’s family shall be as sparing as his with mine. It shall not
exist!”</p>
<p>Mr. Edgar’s coldness depressed me exceedingly; and all the way from the
Grange I puzzled my brains how to put more heart into what he said, when I
repeated it; and how to soften his refusal of even a few lines to console
Isabella. I daresay she had been on the watch for me since morning: I saw her
looking through the lattice as I came up the garden causeway, and I nodded to
her; but she drew back, as if afraid of being observed. I entered without
knocking. There never was such a dreary, dismal scene as the formerly cheerful
house presented! I must confess, that if I had been in the young lady’s
place, I would, at least, have swept the hearth, and wiped the tables with a
duster. But she already partook of the pervading spirit of neglect which
encompassed her. Her pretty face was wan and listless; her hair uncurled: some
locks hanging lankly down, and some carelessly twisted round her head. Probably
she had not touched her dress since yester evening. Hindley was not there. Mr.
Heathcliff sat at a table, turning over some papers in his pocket-book; but he
rose when I appeared, asked me how I did, quite friendly, and offered me a
chair. He was the only thing there that seemed decent; and I thought he never
looked better. So much had circumstances altered their positions, that he would
certainly have struck a stranger as a born and bred gentleman; and his wife as
a thorough little slattern! She came forward eagerly to greet me, and held out
one hand to take the expected letter. I shook my head. She wouldn’t
understand the hint, but followed me to a sideboard, where I went to lay my
bonnet, and importuned me in a whisper to give her directly what I had brought.
Heathcliff guessed the meaning of her manÅ“uvres, and said—“If you
have got anything for Isabella (as no doubt you have, Nelly), give it to her.
You needn’t make a secret of it: we have no secrets between us.”</p>
<p>“Oh, I have nothing,” I replied, thinking it best to speak the
truth at once. “My master bid me tell his sister that she must not expect
either a letter or a visit from him at present. He sends his love, ma’am,
and his wishes for your happiness, and his pardon for the grief you have
occasioned; but he thinks that after this time his household and the household
here should drop intercommunication, as nothing could come of keeping it
up.”</p>
<p>Mrs. Heathcliff’s lip quivered slightly, and she returned to her seat in
the window. Her husband took his stand on the hearthstone, near me, and began
to put questions concerning Catherine. I told him as much as I thought proper
of her illness, and he extorted from me, by cross-examination, most of the
facts connected with its origin. I blamed her, as she deserved, for bringing it
all on herself; and ended by hoping that he would follow Mr. Linton’s
example and avoid future interference with his family, for good or evil.</p>
<p>“Mrs. Linton is now just recovering,” I said; “she’ll
never be like she was, but her life is spared; and if you really have a regard
for her, you’ll shun crossing her way again: nay, you’ll move out
of this country entirely; and that you may not regret it, I’ll inform you
Catherine Linton is as different now from your old friend Catherine Earnshaw,
as that young lady is different from me. Her appearance is changed greatly, her
character much more so; and the person who is compelled, of necessity, to be
her companion, will only sustain his affection hereafter by the remembrance of
what she once was, by common humanity, and a sense of duty!”</p>
<p>“That is quite possible,” remarked Heathcliff, forcing himself to
seem calm: “quite possible that your master should have nothing but
common humanity and a sense of duty to fall back upon. But do you imagine that
I shall leave Catherine to his <i>duty</i> and <i>humanity</i>? and can you
compare my feelings respecting Catherine to his? Before you leave this house, I
must exact a promise from you that you’ll get me an interview with her:
consent, or refuse, I <i>will</i> see her! What do you say?”</p>
<p>“I say, Mr. Heathcliff,” I replied, “you must not: you never
shall, through my means. Another encounter between you and the master would
kill her altogether.”</p>
<p>“With your aid that may be avoided,” he continued; “and
should there be danger of such an event—should he be the cause of adding
a single trouble more to her existence—why, I think I shall be justified
in going to extremes! I wish you had sincerity enough to tell me whether
Catherine would suffer greatly from his loss: the fear that she would restrains
me. And there you see the distinction between our feelings: had he been in my
place, and I in his, though I hated him with a hatred that turned my life to
gall, I never would have raised a hand against him. You may look incredulous,
if you please! I never would have banished him from her society as long as she
desired his. The moment her regard ceased, I would have torn his heart out, and
drunk his blood! But, till then—if you don’t believe me, you
don’t know me—till then, I would have died by inches before I
touched a single hair of his head!”</p>
<p>“And yet,” I interrupted, “you have no scruples in completely
ruining all hopes of her perfect restoration, by thrusting yourself into her
remembrance now, when she has nearly forgotten you, and involving her in a new
tumult of discord and distress.”</p>
<p>“You suppose she has nearly forgotten me?” he said. “Oh,
Nelly! you know she has not! You know as well as I do, that for every thought
she spends on Linton she spends a thousand on me! At a most miserable period of
my life, I had a notion of the kind: it haunted me on my return to the
neighbourhood last summer; but only her own assurance could make me admit the
horrible idea again. And then, Linton would be nothing, nor Hindley, nor all
the dreams that ever I dreamt. Two words would comprehend my
future—<i>death</i> and <i>hell</i>: existence, after losing her, would
be hell. Yet I was a fool to fancy for a moment that she valued Edgar
Linton’s attachment more than mine. If he loved with all the powers of
his puny being, he couldn’t love as much in eighty years as I could in a
day. And Catherine has a heart as deep as I have: the sea could be as readily
contained in that horse-trough as her whole affection be monopolised by him.
Tush! He is scarcely a degree dearer to her than her dog, or her horse. It is
not in him to be loved like me: how can she love in him what he has not?”</p>
<p>“Catherine and Edgar are as fond of each other as any two people can
be,” cried Isabella, with sudden vivacity. “No one has a right to
talk in that manner, and I won’t hear my brother depreciated in
silence!”</p>
<p>“Your brother is wondrous fond of you too, isn’t he?”
observed Heathcliff, scornfully. “He turns you adrift on the world with
surprising alacrity.”</p>
<p>“He is not aware of what I suffer,” she replied. “I
didn’t tell him that.”</p>
<p>“You have been telling him something, then: you have written, have
you?”</p>
<p>“To say that I was married, I did write—you saw the note.”</p>
<p>“And nothing since?”</p>
<p>“No.”</p>
<p>“My young lady is looking sadly the worse for her change of
condition,” I remarked. “Somebody’s love comes short in her
case, obviously; whose, I may guess; but, perhaps, I shouldn’t
say.”</p>
<p>“I should guess it was her own,” said Heathcliff. “She
degenerates into a mere slut! She is tired of trying to please me uncommonly
early. You’d hardly credit it, but the very morrow of our wedding she was
weeping to go home. However, she’ll suit this house so much the better
for not being over nice, and I’ll take care she does not disgrace me by
rambling abroad.”</p>
<p>“Well, sir,” returned I, “I hope you’ll consider that
Mrs. Heathcliff is accustomed to be looked after and waited on; and that she
has been brought up like an only daughter, whom every one was ready to serve.
You must let her have a maid to keep things tidy about her, and you must treat
her kindly. Whatever be your notion of Mr. Edgar, you cannot doubt that she has
a capacity for strong attachments, or she wouldn’t have abandoned the
elegancies, and comforts, and friends of her former home, to fix contentedly,
in such a wilderness as this, with you.”</p>
<p>“She abandoned them under a delusion,” he answered;
“picturing in me a hero of romance, and expecting unlimited indulgences
from my chivalrous devotion. I can hardly regard her in the light of a rational
creature, so obstinately has she persisted in forming a fabulous notion of my
character and acting on the false impressions she cherished. But, at last, I
think she begins to know me: I don’t perceive the silly smiles and
grimaces that provoked me at first; and the senseless incapability of
discerning that I was in earnest when I gave her my opinion of her infatuation
and herself. It was a marvellous effort of perspicacity to discover that I did
not love her. I believed, at one time, no lessons could teach her that! And yet
it is poorly learnt; for this morning she announced, as a piece of appalling
intelligence, that I had actually succeeded in making her hate me! A positive
labour of Hercules, I assure you! If it be achieved, I have cause to return
thanks. Can I trust your assertion, Isabella? Are you sure you hate me? If I
let you alone for half a day, won’t you come sighing and wheedling to me
again? I daresay she would rather I had seemed all tenderness before you: it
wounds her vanity to have the truth exposed. But I don’t care who knows
that the passion was wholly on one side: and I never told her a lie about it.
She cannot accuse me of showing one bit of deceitful softness. The first thing
she saw me do, on coming out of the Grange, was to hang up her little dog; and
when she pleaded for it, the first words I uttered were a wish that I had the
hanging of every being belonging to her, except one: possibly she took that
exception for herself. But no brutality disgusted her: I suppose she has an
innate admiration of it, if only her precious person were secure from injury!
Now, was it not the depth of absurdity—of genuine idiocy, for that
pitiful, slavish, mean-minded brach to dream that I could love her? Tell your
master, Nelly, that I never, in all my life, met with such an abject thing as
she is. She even disgraces the name of Linton; and I’ve sometimes
relented, from pure lack of invention, in my experiments on what she could
endure, and still creep shamefully cringing back! But tell him, also, to set
his fraternal and magisterial heart at ease: that I keep strictly within the
limits of the law. I have avoided, up to this period, giving her the slightest
right to claim a separation; and, what’s more, she’d thank nobody
for dividing us. If she desired to go, she might: the nuisance of her presence
outweighs the gratification to be derived from tormenting her!”</p>
<p>“Mr. Heathcliff,” said I, “this is the talk of a madman; your
wife, most likely, is convinced you are mad; and, for that reason, she has
borne with you hitherto: but now that you say she may go, she’ll
doubtless avail herself of the permission. You are not so bewitched,
ma’am, are you, as to remain with him of your own accord?”</p>
<p>“Take care, Ellen!” answered Isabella, her eyes sparkling irefully;
there was no misdoubting by their expression the full success of her
partner’s endeavours to make himself detested. “Don’t put
faith in a single word he speaks. He’s a lying fiend! a monster, and not
a human being! I’ve been told I might leave him before; and I’ve
made the attempt, but I dare not repeat it! Only, Ellen, promise you’ll
not mention a syllable of his infamous conversation to my brother or Catherine.
Whatever he may pretend, he wishes to provoke Edgar to desperation: he says he
has married me on purpose to obtain power over him; and he sha’n’t
obtain it—I’ll die first! I just hope, I pray, that he may forget
his diabolical prudence and kill me! The single pleasure I can imagine is to
die, or to see him dead!”</p>
<p>“There—that will do for the present!” said Heathcliff.
“If you are called upon in a court of law, you’ll remember her
language, Nelly! And take a good look at that countenance: she’s near the
point which would suit me. No; you’re not fit to be your own guardian,
Isabella, now; and I, being your legal protector, must retain you in my
custody, however distasteful the obligation may be. Go upstairs; I have
something to say to Ellen Dean in private. That’s not the way: upstairs,
I tell you! Why, this is the road upstairs, child!”</p>
<p>He seized, and thrust her from the room; and returned muttering—“I
have no pity! I have no pity! The more the worms writhe, the more I yearn to
crush out their entrails! It is a moral teething; and I grind with greater
energy in proportion to the increase of pain.”</p>
<p>“Do you understand what the word pity means?” I said, hastening to
resume my bonnet. “Did you ever feel a touch of it in your life?”</p>
<p>“Put that down!” he interrupted, perceiving my intention to depart.
“You are not going yet. Come here now, Nelly: I must either persuade or
compel you to aid me in fulfilling my determination to see Catherine, and that
without delay. I swear that I meditate no harm: I don’t desire to cause
any disturbance, or to exasperate or insult Mr. Linton; I only wish to hear
from herself how she is, and why she has been ill; and to ask if anything that
I could do would be of use to her. Last night I was in the Grange garden six
hours, and I’ll return there to-night; and every night I’ll haunt
the place, and every day, till I find an opportunity of entering. If Edgar
Linton meets me, I shall not hesitate to knock him down, and give him enough to
insure his quiescence while I stay. If his servants oppose me, I shall threaten
them off with these pistols. But wouldn’t it be better to prevent my
coming in contact with them, or their master? And you could do it so easily.
I’d warn you when I came, and then you might let me in unobserved, as
soon as she was alone, and watch till I departed, your conscience quite calm:
you would be hindering mischief.”</p>
<p>I protested against playing that treacherous part in my employer’s house:
and, besides, I urged the cruelty and selfishness of his destroying Mrs.
Linton’s tranquillity for his satisfaction. “The commonest
occurrence startles her painfully,” I said. “She’s all
nerves, and she couldn’t bear the surprise, I’m positive.
Don’t persist, sir! or else I shall be obliged to inform my master of
your designs; and he’ll take measures to secure his house and its inmates
from any such unwarrantable intrusions!”</p>
<p>“In that case I’ll take measures to secure you, woman!”
exclaimed Heathcliff; “you shall not leave Wuthering Heights till
to-morrow morning. It is a foolish story to assert that Catherine could not
bear to see me; and as to surprising her, I don’t desire it: you must
prepare her—ask her if I may come. You say she never mentions my name,
and that I am never mentioned to her. To whom should she mention me if I am a
forbidden topic in the house? She thinks you are all spies for her husband. Oh,
I’ve no doubt she’s in hell among you! I guess by her silence, as
much as anything, what she feels. You say she is often restless, and
anxious-looking: is that a proof of tranquillity? You talk of her mind being
unsettled. How the devil could it be otherwise in her frightful isolation? And
that insipid, paltry creature attending her from <i>duty</i> and
<i>humanity</i>! From <i>pity</i> and <i>charity</i>! He might as well plant an
oak in a flower-pot, and expect it to thrive, as imagine he can restore her to
vigour in the soil of his shallow cares! Let us settle it at once: will you
stay here, and am I to fight my way to Catherine over Linton and his footman?
Or will you be my friend, as you have been hitherto, and do what I request?
Decide! because there is no reason for my lingering another minute, if you
persist in your stubborn ill-nature!”</p>
<p>Well, Mr. Lockwood, I argued and complained, and flatly refused him fifty
times; but in the long run he forced me to an agreement. I engaged to carry a
letter from him to my mistress; and should she consent, I promised to let him
have intelligence of Linton’s next absence from home, when he might come,
and get in as he was able: I wouldn’t be there, and my fellow-servants
should be equally out of the way. Was it right or wrong? I fear it was wrong,
though expedient. I thought I prevented another explosion by my compliance; and
I thought, too, it might create a favourable crisis in Catherine’s mental
illness: and then I remembered Mr. Edgar’s stern rebuke of my carrying
tales; and I tried to smooth away all disquietude on the subject, by affirming,
with frequent iteration, that that betrayal of trust, if it merited so harsh an
appellation, should be the last. Notwithstanding, my journey homeward was
sadder than my journey thither; and many misgivings I had, ere I could prevail
on myself to put the missive into Mrs. Linton’s hand.</p>
<p>But here is Kenneth; I’ll go down, and tell him how much better you are.
My history is <i>dree</i>, as we say, and will serve to while away another
morning.</p>
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<p>Dree, and dreary! I reflected as the good woman descended to receive the
doctor: and not exactly of the kind which I should have chosen to amuse me. But
never mind! I’ll extract wholesome medicines from Mrs. Dean’s
bitter herbs; and firstly, let me beware of the fascination that lurks in
Catherine Heathcliff’s brilliant eyes. I should be in a curious taking if
I surrendered my heart to that young person, and the daughter turned out a
second edition of the mother.</p>
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