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<h2> CHAPTER 20. Moving in Society </h2>
<p>If Young John Chivery had had the inclination and the power to write a
satire on family pride, he would have had no need to go for an avenging
illustration out of the family of his beloved. He would have found it
amply in that gallant brother and that dainty sister, so steeped in mean
experiences, and so loftily conscious of the family name; so ready to beg
or borrow from the poorest, to eat of anybody's bread, spend anybody's
money, drink from anybody's cup and break it afterwards. To have painted
the sordid facts of their lives, and they throughout invoking the death's
head apparition of the family gentility to come and scare their
benefactors, would have made Young John a satirist of the first water.</p>
<p>Tip had turned his liberty to hopeful account by becoming a
billiard-marker. He had troubled himself so little as to the means of his
release, that Clennam scarcely needed to have been at the pains of
impressing the mind of Mr Plornish on that subject. Whoever had paid him
the compliment, he very readily accepted the compliment with HIS
compliments, and there was an end of it. Issuing forth from the gate on
these easy terms, he became a billiard-marker; and now occasionally looked
in at the little skittle-ground in a green Newmarket coat (second-hand),
with a shining collar and bright buttons (new), and drank the beer of the
Collegians.</p>
<p>One solid stationary point in the looseness of this gentleman's character
was, that he respected and admired his sister Amy. The feeling had never
induced him to spare her a moment's uneasiness, or to put himself to any
restraint or inconvenience on her account; but with that Marshalsea taint
upon his love, he loved her. The same rank Marshalsea flavour was to be
recognised in his distinctly perceiving that she sacrificed her life to
her father, and in his having no idea that she had done anything for
himself.</p>
<p>When this spirited young man and his sister had begun systematically to
produce the family skeleton for the overawing of the College, this
narrative cannot precisely state. Probably at about the period when they
began to dine on the College charity. It is certain that the more reduced
and necessitous they were, the more pompously the skeleton emerged from
its tomb; and that when there was anything particularly shabby in the
wind, the skeleton always came out with the ghastliest flourish.</p>
<p>Little Dorrit was late on the Monday morning, for her father slept late,
and afterwards there was his breakfast to prepare and his room to arrange.
She had no engagement to go out to work, however, and therefore stayed
with him until, with Maggy's help, she had put everything right about him,
and had seen him off upon his morning walk (of twenty yards or so) to the
coffee-house to read the paper.</p>
<p>She then got on her bonnet and went out, having been anxious to get out
much sooner. There was, as usual, a cessation of the small-talk in the
Lodge as she passed through it; and a Collegian who had come in on
Saturday night, received the intimation from the elbow of a more seasoned
Collegian, 'Look out. Here she is!' She wanted to see her sister, but when
she got round to Mr Cripples's, she found that both her sister and her
uncle had gone to the theatre where they were engaged. Having taken
thought of this probability by the way, and having settled that in such
case she would follow them, she set off afresh for the theatre, which was
on that side of the river, and not very far away.</p>
<p>Little Dorrit was almost as ignorant of the ways of theatres as of the
ways of gold mines, and when she was directed to a furtive sort of door,
with a curious up-all-night air about it, that appeared to be ashamed of
itself and to be hiding in an alley, she hesitated to approach it; being
further deterred by the sight of some half-dozen close-shaved gentlemen
with their hats very strangely on, who were lounging about the door,
looking not at all unlike Collegians. On her applying to them, reassured
by this resemblance, for a direction to Miss Dorrit, they made way for her
to enter a dark hall—it was more like a great grim lamp gone out
than anything else—where she could hear the distant playing of music
and the sound of dancing feet. A man so much in want of airing that he had
a blue mould upon him, sat watching this dark place from a hole in a
corner, like a spider; and he told her that he would send a message up to
Miss Dorrit by the first lady or gentleman who went through. The first
lady who went through had a roll of music, half in her muff and half out
of it, and was in such a tumbled condition altogether, that it seemed as
if it would be an act of kindness to iron her. But as she was very
good-natured, and said, 'Come with me; I'll soon find Miss Dorrit for
you,' Miss Dorrit's sister went with her, drawing nearer and nearer at
every step she took in the darkness to the sound of music and the sound of
dancing feet.</p>
<p>At last they came into a maze of dust, where a quantity of people were
tumbling over one another, and where there was such a confusion of
unaccountable shapes of beams, bulkheads, brick walls, ropes, and rollers,
and such a mixing of gaslight and daylight, that they seemed to have got
on the wrong side of the pattern of the universe. Little Dorrit, left to
herself, and knocked against by somebody every moment, was quite
bewildered, when she heard her sister's voice.</p>
<p>'Why, good gracious, Amy, what ever brought you here?'</p>
<p>'I wanted to see you, Fanny dear; and as I am going out all day to-morrow,
and knew you might be engaged all day to-day, I thought—'</p>
<p>'But the idea, Amy, of YOU coming behind! I never did!' As her sister said
this in no very cordial tone of welcome, she conducted her to a more open
part of the maze, where various golden chairs and tables were heaped
together, and where a number of young ladies were sitting on anything they
could find, chattering. All these young ladies wanted ironing, and all had
a curious way of looking everywhere while they chattered.</p>
<p>Just as the sisters arrived here, a monotonous boy in a Scotch cap put his
head round a beam on the left, and said, 'Less noise there, ladies!' and
disappeared. Immediately after which, a sprightly gentleman with a
quantity of long black hair looked round a beam on the right, and said,
'Less noise there, darlings!' and also disappeared.</p>
<p>'The notion of you among professionals, Amy, is really the last thing I
could have conceived!' said her sister. 'Why, how did you ever get here?'</p>
<p>'I don't know. The lady who told you I was here, was so good as to bring
me in.'</p>
<p>'Like you quiet little things! You can make your way anywhere, I believe.
I couldn't have managed it, Amy, though I know so much more of the world.'</p>
<p>It was the family custom to lay it down as family law, that she was a
plain domestic little creature, without the great and sage experience of
the rest. This family fiction was the family assertion of itself against
her services. Not to make too much of them.</p>
<p>'Well! And what have you got on your mind, Amy? Of course you have got
something on your mind about me?' said Fanny. She spoke as if her sister,
between two and three years her junior, were her prejudiced grandmother.</p>
<p>'It is not much; but since you told me of the lady who gave you the
bracelet, Fanny—'</p>
<p>The monotonous boy put his head round the beam on the left, and said,
'Look out there, ladies!' and disappeared. The sprightly gentleman with
the black hair as suddenly put his head round the beam on the right, and
said, 'Look out there, darlings!' and also disappeared. Thereupon all the
young ladies rose and began shaking their skirts out behind.</p>
<p>'Well, Amy?' said Fanny, doing as the rest did; 'what were you going to
say?'</p>
<p>'Since you told me a lady had given you the bracelet you showed me, Fanny,
I have not been quite easy on your account, and indeed want to know a
little more if you will confide more to me.'</p>
<p>'Now, ladies!' said the boy in the Scotch cap. 'Now, darlings!' said the
gentleman with the black hair. They were every one gone in a moment, and
the music and the dancing feet were heard again.</p>
<p>Little Dorrit sat down in a golden chair, made quite giddy by these rapid
interruptions. Her sister and the rest were a long time gone; and during
their absence a voice (it appeared to be that of the gentleman with the
black hair) was continually calling out through the music, 'One, two,
three, four, five, six—go! One, two, three, four, five, six—go!
Steady, darlings! One, two, three, four, five, six—go!' Ultimately
the voice stopped, and they all came back again, more or less out of
breath, folding themselves in their shawls, and making ready for the
streets. 'Stop a moment, Amy, and let them get away before us,' whispered
Fanny. They were soon left alone; nothing more important happening, in the
meantime, than the boy looking round his old beam, and saying, 'Everybody
at eleven to-morrow, ladies!' and the gentleman with the black hair
looking round his old beam, and saying, 'Everybody at eleven to-morrow,
darlings!' each in his own accustomed manner.</p>
<p>When they were alone, something was rolled up or by other means got out of
the way, and there was a great empty well before them, looking down into
the depths of which Fanny said, 'Now, uncle!' Little Dorrit, as her eyes
became used to the darkness, faintly made him out at the bottom of the
well, in an obscure corner by himself, with his instrument in its ragged
case under his arm.</p>
<p>The old man looked as if the remote high gallery windows, with their
little strip of sky, might have been the point of his better fortunes,
from which he had descended, until he had gradually sunk down below there
to the bottom. He had been in that place six nights a week for many years,
but had never been observed to raise his eyes above his music-book, and
was confidently believed to have never seen a play. There were legends in
the place that he did not so much as know the popular heroes and heroines
by sight, and that the low comedian had 'mugged' at him in his richest
manner fifty nights for a wager, and he had shown no trace of
consciousness. The carpenters had a joke to the effect that he was dead
without being aware of it; and the frequenters of the pit supposed him to
pass his whole life, night and day, and Sunday and all, in the orchestra.
They had tried him a few times with pinches of snuff offered over the
rails, and he had always responded to this attention with a momentary
waking up of manner that had the pale phantom of a gentleman in it: beyond
this he never, on any occasion, had any other part in what was going on
than the part written out for the clarionet; in private life, where there
was no part for the clarionet, he had no part at all. Some said he was
poor, some said he was a wealthy miser; but he said nothing, never lifted
up his bowed head, never varied his shuffling gait by getting his
springless foot from the ground. Though expecting now to be summoned by
his niece, he did not hear her until she had spoken to him three or four
times; nor was he at all surprised by the presence of two nieces instead
of one, but merely said in his tremulous voice, 'I am coming, I am
coming!' and crept forth by some underground way which emitted a cellarous
smell.</p>
<p>'And so, Amy,' said her sister, when the three together passed out at the
door that had such a shame-faced consciousness of being different from
other doors: the uncle instinctively taking Amy's arm as the arm to be
relied on: 'so, Amy, you are curious about me?'</p>
<p>She was pretty, and conscious, and rather flaunting; and the condescension
with which she put aside the superiority of her charms, and of her worldly
experience, and addressed her sister on almost equal terms, had a vast
deal of the family in it.</p>
<p>'I am interested, Fanny, and concerned in anything that concerns you.'</p>
<p>'So you are, so you are, and you are the best of Amys. If I am ever a
little provoking, I am sure you'll consider what a thing it is to occupy
my position and feel a consciousness of being superior to it. I shouldn't
care,' said the Daughter of the Father of the Marshalsea, 'if the others
were not so common. None of them have come down in the world as we have.
They are all on their own level. Common.'</p>
<p>Little Dorrit mildly looked at the speaker, but did not interrupt her.
Fanny took out her handkerchief, and rather angrily wiped her eyes. 'I was
not born where you were, you know, Amy, and perhaps that makes a
difference. My dear child, when we get rid of Uncle, you shall know all
about it. We'll drop him at the cook's shop where he is going to dine.'</p>
<p>They walked on with him until they came to a dirty shop window in a dirty
street, which was made almost opaque by the steam of hot meats,
vegetables, and puddings. But glimpses were to be caught of a roast leg of
pork bursting into tears of sage and onion in a metal reservoir full of
gravy, of an unctuous piece of roast beef and blisterous Yorkshire
pudding, bubbling hot in a similar receptacle, of a stuffed fillet of veal
in rapid cut, of a ham in a perspiration with the pace it was going at, of
a shallow tank of baked potatoes glued together by their own richness, of
a truss or two of boiled greens, and other substantial delicacies. Within,
were a few wooden partitions, behind which such customers as found it more
convenient to take away their dinners in stomachs than in their hands,
Packed their purchases in solitude. Fanny opening her reticule, as they
surveyed these things, produced from that repository a shilling and handed
it to Uncle. Uncle, after not looking at it a little while, divined its
object, and muttering 'Dinner? Ha! Yes, yes, yes!' slowly vanished from
them into the mist.</p>
<p>'Now, Amy,' said her sister, 'come with me, if you are not too tired to
walk to Harley Street, Cavendish Square.'</p>
<p>The air with which she threw off this distinguished address and the toss
she gave to her new bonnet (which was more gauzy than serviceable), made
her sister wonder; however, she expressed her readiness to go to Harley
Street, and thither they directed their steps. Arrived at that grand
destination, Fanny singled out the handsomest house, and knocking at the
door, inquired for Mrs Merdle. The footman who opened the door, although
he had powder on his head and was backed up by two other footmen likewise
powdered, not only admitted Mrs Merdle to be at home, but asked Fanny to
walk in. Fanny walked in, taking her sister with her; and they went
up-stairs with powder going before and powder stopping behind, and were
left in a spacious semicircular drawing-room, one of several
drawing-rooms, where there was a parrot on the outside of a golden cage
holding on by its beak, with its scaly legs in the air, and putting itself
into many strange upside-down postures. This peculiarity has been observed
in birds of quite another feather, climbing upon golden wires.</p>
<p>The room was far more splendid than anything Little Dorrit had ever
imagined, and would have been splendid and costly in any eyes. She looked
in amazement at her sister and would have asked a question, but that Fanny
with a warning frown pointed to a curtained doorway of communication with
another room. The curtain shook next moment, and a lady, raising it with a
heavily ringed hand, dropped it behind her again as she entered.</p>
<p>The lady was not young and fresh from the hand of Nature, but was young
and fresh from the hand of her maid. She had large unfeeling handsome
eyes, and dark unfeeling handsome hair, and a broad unfeeling handsome
bosom, and was made the most of in every particular. Either because she
had a cold, or because it suited her face, she wore a rich white fillet
tied over her head and under her chin. And if ever there were an unfeeling
handsome chin that looked as if, for certain, it had never been, in
familiar parlance, 'chucked' by the hand of man, it was the chin curbed up
so tight and close by that laced bridle.</p>
<p>'Mrs Merdle,' said Fanny. 'My sister, ma'am.'</p>
<p>'I am glad to see your sister, Miss Dorrit. I did not remember that you
had a sister.'</p>
<p>'I did not mention that I had,' said Fanny.</p>
<p>'Ah!' Mrs Merdle curled the little finger of her left hand as who should
say, 'I have caught you. I know you didn't!' All her action was usually
with her left hand because her hands were not a pair; and left being much
the whiter and plumper of the two. Then she added: 'Sit down,' and
composed herself voluptuously, in a nest of crimson and gold cushions, on
an ottoman near the parrot.</p>
<p>'Also professional?' said Mrs Merdle, looking at Little Dorrit through an
eye-glass.</p>
<p>Fanny answered No. 'No,' said Mrs Merdle, dropping her glass. 'Has not a
professional air. Very pleasant; but not professional.'</p>
<p>'My sister, ma'am,' said Fanny, in whom there was a singular mixture of
deference and hardihood, 'has been asking me to tell her, as between
sisters, how I came to have the honour of knowing you. And as I had
engaged to call upon you once more, I thought I might take the liberty of
bringing her with me, when perhaps you would tell her. I wish her to know,
and perhaps you will tell her?' 'Do you think, at your sister's age—'
hinted Mrs Merdle.</p>
<p>'She is much older than she looks,' said Fanny; 'almost as old as I am.'</p>
<p>'Society,' said Mrs Merdle, with another curve of her little finger, 'is
so difficult to explain to young persons (indeed is so difficult to
explain to most persons), that I am glad to hear that.</p>
<p>I wish Society was not so arbitrary, I wish it was not so exacting—Bird,
be quiet!'</p>
<p>The parrot had given a most piercing shriek, as if its name were Society
and it asserted its right to its exactions.</p>
<p>'But,' resumed Mrs Merdle, 'we must take it as we find it. We know it is
hollow and conventional and worldly and very shocking, but unless we are
Savages in the Tropical seas (I should have been charmed to be one myself—most
delightful life and perfect climate, I am told), we must consult it. It is
the common lot. Mr Merdle is a most extensive merchant, his transactions
are on the vastest scale, his wealth and influence are very great, but
even he—Bird, be quiet!'</p>
<p>The parrot had shrieked another shriek; and it filled up the sentence so
expressively that Mrs Merdle was under no necessity to end it.</p>
<p>'Since your sister begs that I would terminate our personal acquaintance,'
she began again, addressing Little Dorrit, 'by relating the circumstances
that are much to her credit, I cannot object to comply with her request, I
am sure. I have a son (I was first married extremely young) of two or
three-and-twenty.'</p>
<p>Fanny set her lips, and her eyes looked half triumphantly at her sister.</p>
<p>'A son of two or three-and-twenty. He is a little gay, a thing Society is
accustomed to in young men, and he is very impressible. Perhaps he
inherits that misfortune. I am very impressible myself, by nature. The
weakest of creatures—my feelings are touched in a moment.'</p>
<p>She said all this, and everything else, as coldly as a woman of snow;
quite forgetting the sisters except at odd times, and apparently
addressing some abstraction of Society; for whose behoof, too, she
occasionally arranged her dress, or the composition of her figure upon the
ottoman.</p>
<p>'So he is very impressible. Not a misfortune in our natural state I dare
say, but we are not in a natural state. Much to be lamented, no doubt,
particularly by myself, who am a child of nature if I could but show it;
but so it is. Society suppresses us and dominates us—Bird, be
quiet!' The parrot had broken into a violent fit of laughter, after
twisting divers bars of his cage with his crooked bill, and licking them
with his black tongue.</p>
<p>'It is quite unnecessary to say to a person of your good sense, wide range
of experience, and cultivated feeling,' said Mrs Merdle from her nest of
crimson and gold—and there put up her glass to refresh her memory as
to whom she was addressing,—'that the stage sometimes has a
fascination for young men of that class of character. In saying the stage,
I mean the people on it of the female sex. Therefore, when I heard that my
son was supposed to be fascinated by a dancer, I knew what that usually
meant in Society, and confided in her being a dancer at the Opera, where
young men moving in Society are usually fascinated.'</p>
<p>She passed her white hands over one another, observant of the sisters now;
and the rings upon her fingers grated against each other with a hard
sound.</p>
<p>'As your sister will tell you, when I found what the theatre was I was
much surprised and much distressed. But when I found that your sister, by
rejecting my son's advances (I must add, in an unexpected manner), had
brought him to the point of proposing marriage, my feelings were of the
profoundest anguish—acute.' She traced the outline of her left
eyebrow, and put it right.</p>
<p>'In a distracted condition, which only a mother—moving in Society—can
be susceptible of, I determined to go myself to the theatre, and represent
my state of mind to the dancer. I made myself known to your sister. I
found her, to my surprise, in many respects different from my
expectations; and certainly in none more so, than in meeting me with—what
shall I say—a sort of family assertion on her own part?' Mrs Merdle
smiled.</p>
<p>'I told you, ma'am,' said Fanny, with a heightening colour, 'that although
you found me in that situation, I was so far above the rest, that I
considered my family as good as your son's; and that I had a brother who,
knowing the circumstances, would be of the same opinion, and would not
consider such a connection any honour.'</p>
<p>'Miss Dorrit,' said Mrs Merdle, after frostily looking at her through her
glass, 'precisely what I was on the point of telling your sister, in
pursuance of your request. Much obliged to you for recalling it so
accurately and anticipating me. I immediately,' addressing Little Dorrit,
'(for I am the creature of impulse), took a bracelet from my arm, and
begged your sister to let me clasp it on hers, in token of the delight I
had in our being able to approach the subject so far on a common footing.'
(This was perfectly true, the lady having bought a cheap and showy article
on her way to the interview, with a general eye to bribery.)</p>
<p>'And I told you, Mrs Merdle,' said Fanny, 'that we might be unfortunate,
but we are not common.'</p>
<p>'I think, the very words, Miss Dorrit,' assented Mrs Merdle.</p>
<p>'And I told you, Mrs Merdle,' said Fanny, 'that if you spoke to me of the
superiority of your son's standing in Society, it was barely possible that
you rather deceived yourself in your suppositions about my origin; and
that my father's standing, even in the Society in which he now moved (what
that was, was best known to myself), was eminently superior, and was
acknowledged by every one.'</p>
<p>'Quite accurate,' rejoined Mrs Merdle. 'A most admirable memory.'</p>
<p>'Thank you, ma'am. Perhaps you will be so kind as to tell my sister the
rest.'</p>
<p>'There is very little to tell,' said Mrs Merdle, reviewing the breadth of
bosom which seemed essential to her having room enough to be unfeeling in,
'but it is to your sister's credit. I pointed out to your sister the plain
state of the case; the impossibility of the Society in which we moved
recognising the Society in which she moved—though charming, I have
no doubt; the immense disadvantage at which she would consequently place
the family she had so high an opinion of, upon which we should find
ourselves compelled to look down with contempt, and from which (socially
speaking) we should feel obliged to recoil with abhorrence. In short, I
made an appeal to that laudable pride in your sister.'</p>
<p>'Let my sister know, if you please, Mrs Merdle,' Fanny pouted, with a toss
of her gauzy bonnet, 'that I had already had the honour of telling your
son that I wished to have nothing whatever to say to him.'</p>
<p>'Well, Miss Dorrit,' assented Mrs Merdle, 'perhaps I might have mentioned
that before. If I did not think of it, perhaps it was because my mind
reverted to the apprehensions I had at the time that he might persevere
and you might have something to say to him.</p>
<p>I also mentioned to your sister—I again address the non-professional
Miss Dorrit—that my son would have nothing in the event of such a
marriage, and would be an absolute beggar. (I mention that merely as a
fact which is part of the narrative, and not as supposing it to have
influenced your sister, except in the prudent and legitimate way in which,
constituted as our artificial system is, we must all be influenced by such
considerations.) Finally, after some high words and high spirit on the
part of your sister, we came to the complete understanding that there was
no danger; and your sister was so obliging as to allow me to present her
with a mark or two of my appreciation at my dressmaker's.'</p>
<p>Little Dorrit looked sorry, and glanced at Fanny with a troubled face.</p>
<p>'Also,' said Mrs Merdle, 'as to promise to give me the present pleasure of
a closing interview, and of parting with her on the best of terms. On
which occasion,' added Mrs Merdle, quitting her nest, and putting
something in Fanny's hand, 'Miss Dorrit will permit me to say Farewell
with best wishes in my own dull manner.'</p>
<p>The sisters rose at the same time, and they all stood near the cage of the
parrot, as he tore at a claw-full of biscuit and spat it out, seemed to
mock them with a pompous dance of his body without moving his feet, and
suddenly turned himself upside down and trailed himself all over the
outside of his golden cage, with the aid of his cruel beak and black
tongue.</p>
<p>'Adieu, Miss Dorrit, with best wishes,' said Mrs Merdle. 'If we could only
come to a Millennium, or something of that sort, I for one might have the
pleasure of knowing a number of charming and talented persons from whom I
am at present excluded. A more primitive state of society would be
delicious to me. There used to be a poem when I learnt lessons, something
about Lo the poor Indians whose something mind! If a few thousand persons
moving in Society, could only go and be Indians, I would put my name down
directly; but as, moving in Society, we can't be Indians, unfortunately—Good
morning!'</p>
<p>They came down-stairs with powder before them and powder behind, the elder
sister haughty and the younger sister humbled, and were shut out into
unpowdered Harley Street, Cavendish Square.</p>
<p>'Well?' said Fanny, when they had gone a little way without speaking.
'Have you nothing to say, Amy?'</p>
<p>'Oh, I don't know what to say!' she answered, distressed. 'You didn't like
this young man, Fanny?'</p>
<p>'Like him? He is almost an idiot.'</p>
<p>'I am so sorry—don't be hurt—but, since you ask me what I have
to say, I am so very sorry, Fanny, that you suffered this lady to give you
anything.'</p>
<p>'You little Fool!' returned her sister, shaking her with the sharp pull
she gave her arm. 'Have you no spirit at all? But that's just the way! You
have no self-respect, you have no becoming pride, just as you allow
yourself to be followed about by a contemptible little Chivery of a
thing,' with the scornfullest emphasis, 'you would let your family be
trodden on, and never turn.'</p>
<p>'Don't say that, dear Fanny. I do what I can for them.'</p>
<p>'You do what you can for them!' repeated Fanny, walking her on very fast.
'Would you let a woman like this, whom you could see, if you had any
experience of anything, to be as false and insolent as a woman can be—would
you let her put her foot upon your family, and thank her for it?'</p>
<p>'No, Fanny, I am sure.' 'Then make her pay for it, you mean little thing.
What else can you make her do? Make her pay for it, you stupid child; and
do your family some credit with the money!'</p>
<p>They spoke no more all the way back to the lodging where Fanny and her
uncle lived. When they arrived there, they found the old man practising
his clarionet in the dolefullest manner in a corner of the room. Fanny had
a composite meal to make, of chops, and porter, and tea; and indignantly
pretended to prepare it for herself, though her sister did all that in
quiet reality. When at last Fanny sat down to eat and drink, she threw the
table implements about and was angry with her bread, much as her father
had been last night.</p>
<p>'If you despise me,' she said, bursting into vehement tears, 'because I am
a dancer, why did you put me in the way of being one?</p>
<p>It was your doing. You would have me stoop as low as the ground before
this Mrs Merdle, and let her say what she liked and do what she liked, and
hold us all in contempt, and tell me so to my face. Because I am a
dancer!'</p>
<p>'O Fanny!'</p>
<p>'And Tip, too, poor fellow. She is to disparage him just as much as she
likes, without any check—I suppose because he has been in the law,
and the docks, and different things. Why, it was your doing, Amy. You
might at least approve of his being defended.'</p>
<p>All this time the uncle was dolefully blowing his clarionet in the corner,
sometimes taking it an inch or so from his mouth for a moment while he
stopped to gaze at them, with a vague impression that somebody had said
something.</p>
<p>'And your father, your poor father, Amy. Because he is not free to show
himself and to speak for himself, you would let such people insult him
with impunity. If you don't feel for yourself because you go out to work,
you might at least feel for him, I should think, knowing what he has
undergone so long.'</p>
<p>Poor Little Dorrit felt the injustice of this taunt rather sharply.</p>
<p>The remembrance of last night added a barbed point to it. She said nothing
in reply, but turned her chair from the table towards the fire. Uncle,
after making one more pause, blew a dismal wail and went on again.</p>
<p>Fanny was passionate with the tea-cups and the bread as long as her
passion lasted, and then protested that she was the wretchedest girl in
the world, and she wished she was dead. After that, her crying became
remorseful, and she got up and put her arms round her sister. Little
Dorrit tried to stop her from saying anything, but she answered that she
would, she must! Thereupon she said again, and again, 'I beg your pardon,
Amy,' and 'Forgive me, Amy,' almost as passionately as she had said what
she regretted.</p>
<p>'But indeed, indeed, Amy,' she resumed when they were seated in sisterly
accord side by side, 'I hope and I think you would have seen this
differently, if you had known a little more of Society.'</p>
<p>'Perhaps I might, Fanny,' said the mild Little Dorrit.</p>
<p>'You see, while you have been domestic and resignedly shut up there, Amy,'
pursued her sister, gradually beginning to patronise, 'I have been out,
moving more in Society, and may have been getting proud and spirited—more
than I ought to be, perhaps?'</p>
<p>Little Dorrit answered 'Yes. O yes!'</p>
<p>'And while you have been thinking of the dinner or the clothes, I may have
been thinking, you know, of the family. Now, may it not be so, Amy?'</p>
<p>Little Dorrit again nodded 'Yes,' with a more cheerful face than heart.</p>
<p>'Especially as we know,' said Fanny, 'that there certainly is a tone in
the place to which you have been so true, which does belong to it, and
which does make it different from other aspects of Society. So kiss me
once again, Amy dear, and we will agree that we may both be right, and
that you are a tranquil, domestic, home-loving, good girl.'</p>
<p>The clarionet had been lamenting most pathetically during this dialogue,
but was cut short now by Fanny's announcement that it was time to go;
which she conveyed to her uncle by shutting up his scrap of music, and
taking the clarionet out of his mouth.</p>
<p>Little Dorrit parted from them at the door, and hastened back to the
Marshalsea. It fell dark there sooner than elsewhere, and going into it
that evening was like going into a deep trench. The shadow of the wall was
on every object. Not least upon the figure in the old grey gown and the
black velvet cap, as it turned towards her when she opened the door of the
dim room.</p>
<p>'Why not upon me too!' thought Little Dorrit, with the door Yet in her
hand. 'It was not unreasonable in Fanny.'</p>
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