<h1>beyond the door</h1>
<h2><small><i>by ... Philip K. Dick</i></small></h2>
<p class="pr1"><big><b>Larry Thomas bought a cuckoo clock
for his wife—without knowing the
price he would have to pay.</b></big></p>
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<p><span class="smcap">That night</span> at the dinner table
he brought it out and set it down
beside her plate. Doris stared at
it, her hand to her mouth. "My
God, what is it?" She looked up
at him, bright-eyed.</p>
<p>"Well, open it."</p>
<p>Doris tore the ribbon and paper
from the square package with her
sharp nails, her bosom rising and
falling. Larry stood watching her
as she lifted the lid. He lit a
cigarette and leaned against the
wall.</p>
<p>"A cuckoo clock!" Doris cried.
"A real old cuckoo clock like my
mother had." She turned the
clock over and over. "Just like
my mother had, when Pete was
still alive." Her eyes sparkled
with tears.</p>
<p>"It's made in Germany," Larry
said. After a moment he added,
"Carl got it for me wholesale. He
knows some guy in the clock business.
Otherwise I wouldn't have—"
He stopped.</p>
<p>Doris made a funny little sound.</p>
<p>"I mean, otherwise I wouldn't
have been able to afford it." He
scowled. "What's the matter with
you? You've got your clock,
haven't you? Isn't that what you
want?"</p>
<p>Doris sat holding onto the
clock, her fingers pressed against
the brown wood.</p>
<p>"Well," Larry said, "what's
the matter?"</p>
<p>He watched in amazement as
she leaped up and ran from the
room, still clutching the clock.
He shook his head. "Never satisfied.
They're all that way. Never
get enough."</p>
<p>He sat down at the table and
finished his meal.</p>
<p>The cuckoo clock was not very
large. It was hand-made, however,
and there were countless
frets on it, little indentations and
ornaments scored in the soft
wood. Doris sat on the bed drying
her eyes and winding the
clock. She set the hands by her
wristwatch. Presently she carefully
moved the hands to two
minutes of ten. She carried the
clock over to the dresser and
propped it up.</p>
<p>Then she sat waiting, her hands
twisted together in her lap—waiting
for the cuckoo to come
out, for the hour to strike.</p>
<p>As she sat she thought about
Larry and what he had said. And
what she had said, too, for that
matter—not that she could be
blamed for any of it. After all,
she couldn't keep listening to him
forever without defending herself;
you had to blow your own
trumpet in the world.</p>
<p>She touched her handkerchief
to her eyes suddenly. Why did he
have to say that, about getting it
wholesale? Why did he have to
spoil it all? If he felt that way he
needn't have got it in the first
place. She clenched her fists. He
was so mean, so damn mean.</p>
<p>But she was glad of the little
clock sitting there ticking to itself,
with its funny grilled edges
and the door. Inside the door
was the cuckoo, waiting to come
out. Was he listening, his head
cocked on one side, listening to
hear the clock strike so that he
would know to come out?</p>
<p>Did he sleep between hours?
Well, she would soon see him:
she could ask him. And she would
show the clock to Bob. He would
love it; Bob loved old things, even
old stamps and buttons. He liked
to go with her to the stores. Of
course, it was a little <i>awkward</i>,
but Larry had been staying at the
office so much, and that helped.
If only Larry didn't call up sometimes
to—</p>
<p>There was a whirr. The clock
shuddered and all at once the door
opened. The cuckoo came out,
sliding swiftly. He paused and
looked around solemnly, scrutinizing
her, the room, the furniture.</p>
<p>It was the first time he had
seen her, she realized, smiling to
herself in pleasure. She stood up,
coming toward him shyly. "Go
on," she said. "I'm waiting."</p>
<p>The cuckoo opened his bill. He
whirred and chirped, quickly,
rhythmically. Then, after a moment
of contemplation, he retired.
And the door snapped shut.</p>
<p>She was delighted. She clapped
her hands and spun in a little
circle. He was marvelous, perfect!
And the way he had looked
around, studying her, sizing her
up. He liked her; she was certain
of it. And she, of course, loved
him at once, completely. He was
just what she had hoped would
come out of the little door.</p>
<p>Doris went to the clock. She
bent over the little door, her lips
close to the wood. "Do you hear
me?" she whispered. "I think
you're the most wonderful cuckoo
in the world." She paused, embarrassed.
"I hope you'll like it
here."</p>
<p>Then she went downstairs
again, slowly, her head high.</p>
<p>Larry and the cuckoo clock
really never got along well from
the start. Doris said it was because
he didn't wind it right, and
it didn't like being only half-wound
all the time. Larry turned
the job of winding over to her; the
cuckoo came out every quarter
hour and ran the spring down
without remorse, and someone
had to be ever after it, winding it
up again.</p>
<p>Doris did her best, but she forgot
a good deal of the time. Then
Larry would throw his newspaper
down with an elaborate weary
motion and stand up. He would
go into the dining-room where the
clock was mounted on the wall
over the fireplace. He would take
the clock down and making sure
that he had his thumb over the
little door, he would wind it up.</p>
<p>"Why do you put your thumb
over the door?" Doris asked once.</p>
<p>"You're supposed to."</p>
<p>She raised an eyebrow. "Are
you sure? I wonder if it isn't that
you don't want him to come out
while you're standing so close."</p>
<p>"Why not?"</p>
<p>"Maybe you're afraid of him."</p>
<p>Larry laughed. He put the
clock back on the wall and gingerly
removed his thumb. When
Doris wasn't looking he examined
his thumb.</p>
<p>There was still a trace of the
nick cut out of the soft part of
it. Who—or what—had pecked
at him?</p>
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<p>One Saturday morning, when
Larry was down at the office
working over some important
special accounts, Bob Chambers
came to the front porch and rang
the bell.</p>
<p>Doris was taking a quick
shower. She dried herself and
slipped into her robe. When she
opened the door Bob stepped inside,
grinning.</p>
<p>"Hi," he said, looking around.</p>
<p>"It's all right. Larry's at the
office."</p>
<p>"Fine." Bob gazed at her slim
legs below the hem of the robe.
"How nice you look today."</p>
<p>She laughed. "Be careful! Maybe
I shouldn't let you in after
all."</p>
<p>They looked at one another,
half amused half frightened. Presently
Bob said, "If you want,
I'll—"</p>
<p>"No, for God's sake." She
caught hold of his sleeve. "Just
get out of the doorway so I can
close it. Mrs. Peters across the
street, you know."</p>
<p>She closed the door. "And I
want to show you something," she
said. "You haven't seen it."</p>
<p>He was interested. "An antique?
Or what?"</p>
<p>She took his arm, leading him
toward the dining-room. "You'll
love it, Bobby." She stopped,
wide-eyed. "I hope you will. You
must; you must love it. It means
so much to me—<i>he</i> means so
much."</p>
<p>"He?" Bob frowned. "Who is
he?"</p>
<p>Doris laughed. "You're jealous!
Come on." A moment later they
stood before the clock, looking
up at it. "He'll come out in a few
minutes. Wait until you see him.
I know you two will get along
just fine."</p>
<p>"What does Larry think of
him?"</p>
<p>"They don't like each other.
Sometimes when Larry's here he
won't come out. Larry gets mad
if he doesn't come out on time.
He says—"</p>
<p>"Says what?"</p>
<p>Doris looked down. "He always
says he's been robbed, even if he
did get it wholesale." She brightened.
"But I know he won't come
out because he doesn't like Larry.
When I'm here alone he comes
right out for me, every fifteen
minutes, even though he really
only has to come out on the hour."</p>
<p>She gazed up at the clock. "He
comes out for me because he
wants to. We talk; I tell him
things. Of course, I'd like to have
him upstairs in my room, but it
wouldn't be right."</p>
<p>There was the sound of footsteps
on the front porch. They
looked at each other, horrified.</p>
<p>Larry pushed the front door
open, grunting. He set his briefcase
down and took off his hat.
Then he saw Bob for the first
time.</p>
<p>"Chambers. I'll be damned."
His eyes narrowed. "What are
you doing here?" He came into
the dining-room. Doris drew her
robe about her helplessly, backing
away.</p>
<p>"I—" Bob began. "That is, we—"
He broke off, glancing at
Doris. Suddenly the clock began
to whirr. The cuckoo came rushing
out, bursting into sound.
Larry moved toward him.</p>
<p>"Shut that din off," he said. He
raised his fist toward the clock.
The cuckoo snapped into silence
and retreated. The door closed.
"That's better." Larry studied
Doris and Bob, standing mutely
together.</p>
<p>"I came over to look at the
clock," Bob said. "Doris told
me that it's a rare antique and
that—"</p>
<p>"Nuts. I bought it myself."
Larry walked up to him. "Get
out of here." He turned to Doris.
"You too. And take that damn
clock with you."</p>
<p>He paused, rubbing his chin.
"No. Leave the clock here. It's
mine; I bought it and paid for it."</p>
<p>In the weeks that followed after
Doris left, Larry and the cuckoo
clock got along even worse than
before. For one thing, the cuckoo
stayed inside most of the time,
sometimes even at twelve o'clock
when he should have been busiest.
And if he did come out at all he
usually spoke only once or twice,
never the correct number of times.
And there was a sullen, uncooperative
note in his voice, a
jarring sound that made Larry uneasy
and a little angry.</p>
<p>But he kept the clock wound,
because the house was very still
and quiet and it got on his nerves
not to hear someone running
around, talking and dropping
things. And even the whirring of
a clock sounded good to him.</p>
<p>But he didn't like the cuckoo
at all. And sometimes he spoke
to him.</p>
<p>"Listen," he said late one night
to the closed little door. "I know
you can hear me. I ought to give
you back to the Germans—back
to the Black Forest." He paced
back and forth. "I wonder what
they're doing now, the two of
them. That young punk with his
books and his antiques. A man
shouldn't be interested in antiques;
that's for women."</p>
<p>He set his jaw. "Isn't that
right?"</p>
<p>The clock said nothing. Larry
walked up in front of it. "Isn't
that right?" he demanded. "Don't
you have anything to say?"</p>
<p>He looked at the face of the
clock. It was almost eleven, just a
few seconds before the hour. "All
right. I'll wait until eleven. Then
I want to hear what you have to
say. You've been pretty quiet the
last few weeks since she left."</p>
<p>He grinned wryly. "Maybe you
don't like it here since she's gone."
He scowled. "Well, I paid for
you, and you're coming out
whether you like it or not. You
hear me?"</p>
<p>Eleven o'clock came. Far off,
at the end of town, the great
tower clock boomed sleepily to
itself. But the little door remained
shut. Nothing moved.
The minute hand passed on and
the cuckoo did not stir. He was
someplace inside the clock, beyond
the door, silent and remote.</p>
<p>"All right, if that's the way you
feel," Larry murmured, his lips
twisting. "But it isn't fair. It's
your job to come out. We all
have to do things we don't like."</p>
<p>He went unhappily into the
kitchen and opened the great
gleaming refrigerator. As he
poured himself a drink he thought
about the clock.</p>
<p>There was no doubt about it—the
cuckoo should come out,
Doris or no Doris. He had always
liked her, from the very start.
They had got along well, the two
of them. Probably he liked Bob
too—probably he had seen
enough of Bob to get to know
him. They would be quite happy
together, Bob and Doris and the
cuckoo.</p>
<p>Larry finished his drink. He
opened the drawer at the sink
and took out the hammer. He
carried it carefully into the dining-room.
The clock was ticking
gently to itself on the wall.</p>
<p>"Look," he said, waving the
hammer. "You know what I have
here? You know what I'm going
to do with it? I'm going to start
on you—first." He smiled. "Birds
of a feather, that's what you are—the
three of you."</p>
<p>The room was silent.</p>
<p>"Are you coming out? Or do
I have to come in and get you?"</p>
<p>The clock whirred a little.</p>
<p>"I hear you in there. You've
got a lot of talking to do, enough
for the last three weeks. As I
figure it, you owe me—"</p>
<p>The door opened. The cuckoo
came out fast, straight at him.
Larry was looking down, his brow
wrinkled in thought. He glanced
up, and the cuckoo caught him
squarely in the eye.</p>
<p>Down he went, hammer and
chair and everything, hitting the
floor with a tremendous crash.
For a moment the cuckoo paused,
its small body poised rigidly. Then
it went back inside its house. The
door snapped tight-shut after it.</p>
<p>The man lay on the floor,
stretched out grotesquely, his head
bent over to one side. Nothing
moved or stirred. The room was
completely silent, except, of
course, for the ticking of the
clock.</p>
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<p>"I see," Doris said, her face
tight. Bob put his arm around
her, steadying her.</p>
<p>"Doctor," Bob said, "can I ask
you something?"</p>
<p>"Of course," the doctor said.</p>
<p>"Is it very easy to break your
neck, falling from so low a chair?
It wasn't very far to fall. I wonder
if it might not have been an
accident. Is there any chance it
might have been—"</p>
<p>"Suicide?" the doctor rubbed
his jaw. "I never heard of anyone
committing suicide that way.
It was an accident; I'm positive."</p>
<p>"I don't mean suicide," Bob
murmured under his breath, looking
up at the clock on the wall.
"I meant <i>something else</i>."</p>
<p>But no one heard him.</p>
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