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<p>But the emotional conviction that he was in Somebody's hand began to die
out of Henchard's breast as time slowly removed into distance the event
which had given that feeling birth. The apparition of Newson haunted him.
He would surely return.</p>
<p>Yet Newson did not arrive. Lucetta had been borne along the churchyard
path; Casterbridge had for the last time turned its regard upon her,
before proceeding to its work as if she had never lived. But Elizabeth
remained undisturbed in the belief of her relationship to Henchard, and
now shared his home. Perhaps, after all, Newson was gone for ever.</p>
<p>In due time the bereaved Farfrae had learnt the, at least, proximate cause
of Lucetta's illness and death, and his first impulse was naturally enough
to wreak vengeance in the name of the law upon the perpetrators of the
mischief. He resolved to wait till the funeral was over ere he moved in
the matter. The time having come he reflected. Disastrous as the result
had been, it was obviously in no way foreseen or intended by the
thoughtless crew who arranged the motley procession. The tempting prospect
of putting to the blush people who stand at the head of affairs—that
supreme and piquant enjoyment of those who writhe under the heel of the
same—had alone animated them, so far as he could see; for he knew
nothing of Jopp's incitements. Other considerations were also involved.
Lucetta had confessed everything to him before her death, and it was not
altogether desirable to make much ado about her history, alike for her
sake, for Henchard's, and for his own. To regard the event as an untoward
accident seemed, to Farfrae, truest consideration for the dead one's
memory, as well as best philosophy.</p>
<p>Henchard and himself mutually forbore to meet. For Elizabeth's sake the
former had fettered his pride sufficiently to accept the small seed and
root business which some of the Town Council, headed by Farfrae, had
purchased to afford him a new opening. Had he been only personally
concerned Henchard, without doubt, would have declined assistance even
remotely brought about by the man whom he had so fiercely assailed. But
the sympathy of the girl seemed necessary to his very existence; and on
her account pride itself wore the garments of humility.</p>
<p>Here they settled themselves; and on each day of their lives Henchard
anticipated her every wish with a watchfulness in which paternal regard
was heightened by a burning jealous dread of rivalry. Yet that Newson
would ever now return to Casterbridge to claim her as a daughter there was
little reason to suppose. He was a wanderer and a stranger, almost an
alien; he had not seen his daughter for several years; his affection for
her could not in the nature of things be keen; other interests would
probably soon obscure his recollections of her, and prevent any such
renewal of inquiry into the past as would lead to a discovery that she was
still a creature of the present. To satisfy his conscience somewhat
Henchard repeated to himself that the lie which had retained for him the
coveted treasure had not been deliberately told to that end, but had come
from him as the last defiant word of a despair which took no thought of
consequences. Furthermore he pleaded within himself that no Newson could
love her as he loved her, or would tend her to his life's extremity as he
was prepared to do cheerfully.</p>
<p>Thus they lived on in the shop overlooking the churchyard, and nothing
occurred to mark their days during the remainder of the year. Going out
but seldom, and never on a marketday, they saw Donald Farfrae only at
rarest intervals, and then mostly as a transitory object in the distance
of the street. Yet he was pursuing his ordinary avocations, smiling
mechanically to fellow-tradesmen, and arguing with bargainers—as
bereaved men do after a while.</p>
<p>Time, "in his own grey style," taught Farfrae how to estimate his
experience of Lucetta—all that it was, and all that it was not.
There are men whose hearts insist upon a dogged fidelity to some image or
cause thrown by chance into their keeping, long after their judgment has
pronounced it no rarity—even the reverse, indeed, and without them
the band of the worthy is incomplete. But Farfrae was not of those. It was
inevitable that the insight, briskness, and rapidity of his nature should
take him out of the dead blank which his loss threw about him. He could
not but perceive that by the death of Lucetta he had exchanged a looming
misery for a simple sorrow. After that revelation of her history, which
must have come sooner or later in any circumstances, it was hard to
believe that life with her would have been productive of further
happiness.</p>
<p>But as a memory, nothwithstanding such conditions, Lucetta's image still
lived on with him, her weaknesses provoking only the gentlest criticism,
and her sufferings attenuating wrath at her concealments to a momentary
spark now and then.</p>
<p>By the end of a year Henchard's little retail seed and grain shop, not
much larger than a cupboard, had developed its trade considerably, and the
stepfather and daughter enjoyed much serenity in the pleasant, sunny
corner in which it stood. The quiet bearing of one who brimmed with an
inner activity characterized Elizabeth-Jane at this period. She took long
walks into the country two or three times a week, mostly in the direction
of Budmouth. Sometimes it occurred to him that when she sat with him in
the evening after those invigorating walks she was civil rather than
affectionate; and he was troubled; one more bitter regret being added to
those he had already experienced at having, by his severe censorship,
frozen up her precious affection when originally offered.</p>
<p>She had her own way in everything now. In going and coming, in buying and
selling, her word was law.</p>
<p>"You have got a new muff, Elizabeth," he said to her one day quite humbly.</p>
<p>"Yes; I bought it," she said.</p>
<p>He looked at it again as it lay on an adjoining table. The fur was of a
glossy brown, and, though he was no judge of such articles, he thought it
seemed an unusually good one for her to possess.</p>
<p>"Rather costly, I suppose, my dear, was it not?" he hazarded.</p>
<p>"It was rather above my figure," she said quietly. "But it is not showy."</p>
<p>"O no," said the netted lion, anxious not to pique her in the least.</p>
<p>Some little time after, when the year had advanced into another spring, he
paused opposite her empty bedroom in passing it. He thought of the time
when she had cleared out of his then large and handsome house in Corn
Street, in consequence of his dislike and harshness, and he had looked
into her chamber in just the same way. The present room was much humbler,
but what struck him about it was the abundance of books lying everywhere.
Their number and quality made the meagre furniture that supported them
seem absurdly disproportionate. Some, indeed many, must have been recently
purchased; and though he encouraged her to buy in reason, he had no notion
that she indulged her innate passion so extensively in proportion to the
narrowness of their income. For the first time he felt a little hurt by
what he thought her extravagance, and resolved to say a word to her about
it. But, before he had found the courage to speak an event happened which
set his thoughts flying in quite another direction.</p>
<p>The busy time of the seed trade was over, and the quiet weeks that
preceded the hay-season had come—setting their special stamp upon
Casterbridge by thronging the market with wood rakes, new waggons in
yellow, green, and red, formidable scythes, and pitchforks of prong
sufficient to skewer up a small family. Henchard, contrary to his wont,
went out one Saturday afternoon towards the market-place from a curious
feeling that he would like to pass a few minutes on the spot of his former
triumphs. Farfrae, to whom he was still a comparative stranger, stood a
few steps below the Corn Exchange door—a usual position with him at
this hour—and he appeared lost in thought about something he was
looking at a little way off.</p>
<p>Henchard's eyes followed Farfrae's, and he saw that the object of his gaze
was no sample-showing farmer, but his own stepdaughter, who had just come
out of a shop over the way. She, on her part, was quite unconscious of his
attention, and in this was less fortunate than those young women whose
very plumes, like those of Juno's bird, are set with Argus eyes whenever
possible admirers are within ken.</p>
<p>Henchard went away, thinking that perhaps there was nothing significant
after all in Farfrae's look at Elizabeth-Jane at that juncture. Yet he
could not forget that the Scotchman had once shown a tender interest in
her, of a fleeting kind. Thereupon promptly came to the surface that
idiosyncrasy of Henchard's which had ruled his courses from the beginning
and had mainly made him what he was. Instead of thinking that a union
between his cherished step-daughter and the energetic thriving Donald was
a thing to be desired for her good and his own, he hated the very
possibility.</p>
<p>Time had been when such instinctive opposition would have taken shape in
action. But he was not now the Henchard of former days. He schooled
himself to accept her will, in this as in other matters, as absolute and
unquestionable. He dreaded lest an antagonistic word should lose for him
such regard as he had regained from her by his devotion, feeling that to
retain this under separation was better than to incur her dislike by
keeping her near.</p>
<p>But the mere thought of such separation fevered his spirit much, and in
the evening he said, with the stillness of suspense: "Have you seen Mr.
Farfrae to-day, Elizabeth?"</p>
<p>Elizabeth-Jane started at the question; and it was with some confusion
that she replied "No."</p>
<p>"Oh—that's right—that's right....It was only that I saw him in
the street when we both were there." He was wondering if her embarrassment
justified him in a new suspicion—that the long walks which she had
latterly been taking, that the new books which had so surprised him, had
anything to do with the young man. She did not enlighten him, and lest
silence should allow her to shape thoughts unfavourable to their present
friendly relations, he diverted the discourse into another channel.</p>
<p>Henchard was, by original make, the last man to act stealthily, for good
or for evil. But the solicitus timor of his love—the dependence upon
Elizabeth's regard into which he had declined (or, in another sense, to
which he had advanced)—denaturalized him. He would often weigh and
consider for hours together the meaning of such and such a deed or phrase
of hers, when a blunt settling question would formerly have been his first
instinct. And now, uneasy at the thought of a passion for Farfrae which
should entirely displace her mild filial sympathy with himself, he
observed her going and coming more narrowly.</p>
<p>There was nothing secret in Elizabeth-Jane's movements beyond what
habitual reserve induced, and it may at once be owned on her account that
she was guilty of occasional conversations with Donald when they chanced
to meet. Whatever the origin of her walks on the Budmouth Road, her return
from those walks was often coincident with Farfrae's emergence from Corn
Street for a twenty minutes' blow on that rather windy highway—just
to winnow the seeds and chaff out of him before sitting down to tea, as he
said. Henchard became aware of this by going to the Ring, and, screened by
its enclosure, keeping his eye upon the road till he saw them meet. His
face assumed an expression of extreme anguish.</p>
<p>"Of her, too, he means to rob me!" he whispered. "But he has the right. I
do not wish to interfere."</p>
<p>The meeting, in truth, was of a very innocent kind, and matters were by no
means so far advanced between the young people as Henchard's jealous grief
inferred. Could he have heard such conversation as passed he would have
been enlightened thus much:—</p>
<p>HE.—"You like walking this way, Miss Henchard—and is it not
so?" (uttered in his undulatory accents, and with an appraising, pondering
gaze at her).</p>
<p>SHE.—"O yes. I have chosen this road latterly. I have no great
reason for it."</p>
<p>HE.—"But that may make a reason for others."</p>
<p>SHE (reddening).—"I don't know that. My reason, however, such as it
is, is that I wish to get a glimpse of the sea every day."</p>
<p>HE.—"Is it a secret why?"</p>
<p>SHE ( reluctantly ).—"Yes."</p>
<p>HE (with the pathos of one of his native ballads).—"Ah, I doubt
there will be any good in secrets! A secret cast a deep shadow over my
life. And well you know what it was."</p>
<p>Elizabeth admitted that she did, but she refrained from confessing why the
sea attracted her. She could not herself account for it fully, not knowing
the secret possibly to be that, in addition to early marine associations,
her blood was a sailor's.</p>
<p>"Thank you for those new books, Mr. Farfrae," she added shyly. "I wonder
if I ought to accept so many!"</p>
<p>"Ay! why not? It gives me more pleasure to get them for you, than you to
have them!"</p>
<p>"It cannot."</p>
<p>They proceeded along the road together till they reached the town, and
their paths diverged.</p>
<p>Henchard vowed that he would leave them to their own devices, put nothing
in the way of their courses, whatever they might mean. If he were doomed
to be bereft of her, so it must be. In the situation which their marriage
would create he could see no locus standi for himself at all. Farfrae
would never recognize him more than superciliously; his poverty ensured
that, no less than his past conduct. And so Elizabeth would grow to be a
stranger to him, and the end of his life would be friendless solitude.</p>
<p>With such a possibility impending he could not help watchfulness. Indeed,
within certain lines, he had the right to keep an eye upon her as his
charge. The meetings seemed to become matters of course with them on
special days of the week.</p>
<p>At last full proof was given him. He was standing behind a wall close to
the place at which Farfrae encountered her. He heard the young man address
her as "Dearest Elizabeth-Jane," and then kiss her, the girl looking
quickly round to assure herself that nobody was near.</p>
<p>When they were gone their way Henchard came out from the wall, and
mournfully followed them to Casterbridge. The chief looming trouble in
this engagement had not decreased. Both Farfrae and Elizabeth-Jane, unlike
the rest of the people, must suppose Elizabeth to be his actual daughter,
from his own assertion while he himself had the same belief; and though
Farfrae must have so far forgiven him as to have no objection to own him
as a father-in-law, intimate they could never be. Thus would the girl, who
was his only friend, be withdrawn from him by degrees through her
husband's influence, and learn to despise him.</p>
<p>Had she lost her heart to any other man in the world than the one he had
rivalled, cursed, wrestled with for life in days before his spirit was
broken, Henchard would have said, "I am content." But content with the
prospect as now depicted was hard to acquire.</p>
<p>There is an outer chamber of the brain in which thoughts unowned,
unsolicited, and of noxious kind, are sometimes allowed to wander for a
moment prior to being sent off whence they came. One of these thoughts
sailed into Henchard's ken now.</p>
<p>Suppose he were to communicate to Farfrae the fact that his betrothed was
not the child of Michael Henchard at all—legally, nobody's child;
how would that correct and leading townsman receive the information? He
might possibly forsake Elizabeth-Jane, and then she would be her
step-sire's own again.</p>
<p>Henchard shuddered, and exclaimed, "God forbid such a thing! Why should I
still be subject to these visitations of the devil, when I try so hard to
keep him away?"</p>
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