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<p>There came a shock which had been foreseen for some time by Elizabeth, as
the box passenger foresees the approaching jerk from some channel across
the highway.</p>
<p>Her mother was ill—too unwell to leave her room. Henchard, who
treated her kindly, except in moments of irritation, sent at once for the
richest, busiest doctor, whom he supposed to be the best. Bedtime came,
and they burnt a light all night. In a day or two she rallied.</p>
<p>Elizabeth, who had been staying up, did not appear at breakfast on the
second morning, and Henchard sat down alone. He was startled to see a
letter for him from Jersey in a writing he knew too well, and had expected
least to behold again. He took it up in his hands and looked at it as at a
picture, a vision, a vista of past enactments; and then he read it as an
unimportant finale to conjecture.</p>
<p>The writer said that she at length perceived how impossible it would be
for any further communications to proceed between them now that his
re-marriage had taken place. That such reunion had been the only
straightforward course open to him she was bound to admit.</p>
<p>"On calm reflection, therefore," she went on, "I quite forgive you for
landing me in such a dilemma, remembering that you concealed nothing
before our ill-advised acquaintance; and that you really did set before me
in your grim way the fact of there being a certain risk in intimacy with
you, slight as it seemed to be after fifteen or sixteen years of silence
on your wife's part. I thus look upon the whole as a misfortune of mine,
and not a fault of yours.</p>
<p>"So that, Michael, I must ask you to overlook those letters with which I
pestered you day after day in the heat of my feelings. They were written
whilst I thought your conduct to me cruel; but now I know more particulars
of the position you were in I see how inconsiderate my reproaches were.</p>
<p>"Now you will, I am sure, perceive that the one condition which will make
any future happiness possible for me is that the past connection between
our lives be kept secret outside this isle. Speak of it I know you will
not; and I can trust you not to write of it. One safe-guard more remains
to be mentioned—that no writings of mine, or trifling articles
belonging to me, should be left in your possession through neglect or
forgetfulness. To this end may I request you to return to me any such you
may have, particularly the letters written in the first abandonment of
feeling.</p>
<p>"For the handsome sum you forwarded to me as a plaster to the wound I
heartily thank you.</p>
<p>"I am now on my way to Bristol, to see my only relative. She is rich, and
I hope will do something for me. I shall return through Casterbridge and
Budmouth, where I shall take the packet-boat. Can you meet me with the
letters and other trifles? I shall be in the coach which changes horses at
the Antelope Hotel at half-past five Wednesday evening; I shall be wearing
a Paisley shawl with a red centre, and thus may easily be found. I should
prefer this plan of receiving them to having them sent.—I remain
still, yours; ever,</p>
<p>"LUCETTA"</p>
<p>Henchard breathed heavily. "Poor thing—better you had not known me!
Upon my heart and soul, if ever I should be left in a position to carry
out that marriage with thee, I OUGHT to do it—I ought to do it,
indeed!"</p>
<p>The contingency that he had in his mind was, of course, the death of Mrs.
Henchard.</p>
<p>As requested, he sealed up Lucetta's letters, and put the parcel aside
till the day she had appointed; this plan of returning them by hand being
apparently a little ruse of the young lady for exchanging a word or two
with him on past times. He would have preferred not to see her; but
deeming that there could be no great harm in acquiescing thus far, he went
at dusk and stood opposite the coach-office.</p>
<p>The evening was chilly, and the coach was late. Henchard crossed over to
it while the horses were being changed; but there was no Lucetta inside or
out. Concluding that something had happened to modify her arrangements he
gave the matter up and went home, not without a sense of relief. Meanwhile
Mrs. Henchard was weakening visibly. She could not go out of doors any
more. One day, after much thinking which seemed to distress her, she said
she wanted to write something. A desk was put upon her bed with pen and
paper, and at her request she was left alone. She remained writing for a
short time, folded her paper carefully, called Elizabeth-Jane to bring a
taper and wax, and then, still refusing assistance, sealed up the sheet,
directed it, and locked it in her desk. She had directed it in these
words:—</p>
<p>"MR. MICHAEL HENCHARD. NOT TO BE OPENED TILL ELIZABETH-JANE'S
WEDDING-DAY."</p>
<p>The latter sat up with her mother to the utmost of her strength night
after night. To learn to take the universe seriously there is no quicker
way than to watch—to be a "waker," as the country-people call it.
Between the hours at which the last toss-pot went by and the first sparrow
shook himself, the silence in Casterbridge—barring the rare sound of
the watchman—was broken in Elizabeth's ear only by the time-piece in
the bedroom ticking frantically against the clock on the stairs; ticking
harder and harder till it seemed to clang like a gong; and all this while
the subtle-souled girl asking herself why she was born, why sitting in a
room, and blinking at the candle; why things around her had taken the
shape they wore in preference to every other possible shape. Why they
stared at her so helplessly, as if waiting for the touch of some wand that
should release them from terrestrial constraint; what that chaos called
consciousness, which spun in her at this moment like a top, tended to, and
began in. Her eyes fell together; she was awake, yet she was asleep.</p>
<p>A word from her mother roused her. Without preface, and as the
continuation of a scene already progressing in her mind, Mrs. Henchard
said: "You remember the note sent to you and Mr. Farfrae—asking you
to meet some one in Durnover Barton—and that you thought it was a
trick to make fools of you?"</p>
<p>"Yes."</p>
<p>"It was not to make fools of you—it was done to bring you together.
'Twas I did it."</p>
<p>"Why?" said Elizabeth, with a start.</p>
<p>"I—wanted you to marry Mr. Farfrae."</p>
<p>"O mother!" Elizabeth-Jane bent down her head so much that she looked
quite into her own lap. But as her mother did not go on, she said, "What
reason?"</p>
<p>"Well, I had a reason. 'Twill out one day. I wish it could have been in my
time! But there—nothing is as you wish it! Henchard hates him."</p>
<p>"Perhaps they'll be friends again," murmured the girl.</p>
<p>"I don't know—I don't know." After this her mother was silent, and
dozed; and she spoke on the subject no more.</p>
<p>Some little time later on Farfrae was passing Henchard's house on a Sunday
morning, when he observed that the blinds were all down. He rang the bell
so softly that it only sounded a single full note and a small one; and
then he was informed that Mrs. Henchard was dead—just dead—that
very hour.</p>
<p>At the town-pump there were gathered when he passed a few old inhabitants,
who came there for water whenever they had, as at present, spare time to
fetch it, because it was purer from that original fount than from their
own wells. Mrs. Cuxsom, who had been standing there for an indefinite time
with her pitcher, was describing the incidents of Mrs. Henchard's death,
as she had learnt them from the nurse.</p>
<p>"And she was white as marble-stone," said Mrs. Cuxsom. "And likewise such
a thoughtful woman, too—ah, poor soul—that a' minded every
little thing that wanted tending. 'Yes,' says she, 'when I'm gone, and my
last breath's blowed, look in the top drawer o' the chest in the back room
by the window, and you'll find all my coffin clothes, a piece of flannel—that's
to put under me, and the little piece is to put under my head; and my new
stockings for my feet—they are folded alongside, and all my other
things. And there's four ounce pennies, the heaviest I could find, a-tied
up in bits of linen, for weights—two for my right eye and two for my
left,' she said. 'And when you've used 'em, and my eyes don't open no
more, bury the pennies, good souls and don't ye go spending 'em, for I
shouldn't like it. And open the windows as soon as I am carried out, and
make it as cheerful as you can for Elizabeth-Jane.'"</p>
<p>"Ah, poor heart!"</p>
<p>"Well, and Martha did it, and buried the ounce pennies in the garden. But
if ye'll believe words, that man, Christopher Coney, went and dug 'em up,
and spent 'em at the Three Mariners. 'Faith,' he said, 'why should death
rob life o' fourpence? Death's not of such good report that we should
respect 'en to that extent,' says he."</p>
<p>"'Twas a cannibal deed!" deprecated her listeners.</p>
<p>"Gad, then I won't quite ha'e it," said Solomon Longways. "I say it
to-day, and 'tis a Sunday morning, and I wouldn't speak wrongfully for a
zilver zixpence at such a time. I don't see noo harm in it. To respect the
dead is sound doxology; and I wouldn't sell skellintons—leastwise
respectable skellintons—to be varnished for 'natomies, except I were
out o' work. But money is scarce, and throats get dry. Why SHOULD death
rob life o' fourpence? I say there was no treason in it."</p>
<p>"Well, poor soul; she's helpless to hinder that or anything now," answered
Mother Cuxsom. "And all her shining keys will be took from her, and her
cupboards opened; and little things a' didn't wish seen, anybody will see;
and her wishes and ways will all be as nothing!"</p>
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