<p>Two o'clock A.M.—The experiment has been tried. With what result, I
am now to describe.</p>
<p>At eleven o'clock, I rang the bell for Betteredge, and told Mr. Blake that
he might at last prepare himself for bed.</p>
<p>I looked out of the window at the night. It was mild and rainy,
resembling, in this respect, the night of the birthday—the
twenty-first of June, last year. Without professing to believe in omens,
it was at least encouraging to find no direct nervous influences—no
stormy or electric perturbations—in the atmosphere. Betteredge
joined me at the window, and mysteriously put a little slip of paper into
my hand. It contained these lines:</p>
<p>"Mrs. Merridew has gone to bed, on the distinct understanding that the
explosion is to take place at nine to-morrow morning, and that I am not to
stir out of this part of the house until she comes and sets me free. She
has no idea that the chief scene of the experiment is my sitting-room—or
she would have remained in it for the whole night! I am alone, and very
anxious. Pray let me see you measure out the laudanum; I want to have
something to do with it, even in the unimportant character of a mere
looker-on.—R.V."</p>
<p>I followed Betteredge out of the room, and told him to remove the
medicine-chest into Miss Verinder's sitting-room.</p>
<p>The order appeared to take him completely by surprise. He looked as if he
suspected me of some occult medical design on Miss Verinder! "Might I
presume to ask," he said, "what my young lady and the medicine-chest have
got to do with each other?"</p>
<p>"Stay in the sitting-room, and you will see."</p>
<p>Betteredge appeared to doubt his own unaided capacity to superintend me
effectually, on an occasion when a medicine-chest was included in the
proceedings.</p>
<p>"Is there any objection, sir" he asked, "to taking Mr. Bruff into this
part of the business?"</p>
<p>"Quite the contrary! I am now going to ask Mr. Bruff to accompany me
down-stairs."</p>
<p>Betteredge withdrew to fetch the medicine-chest, without another word. I
went back into Mr. Blake's room, and knocked at the door of communication.
Mr. Bruff opened it, with his papers in his hand—immersed in Law;
impenetrable to Medicine.</p>
<p>"I am sorry to disturb you," I said. "But I am going to prepare the
laudanum for Mr. Blake; and I must request you to be present, and to see
what I do."</p>
<p>"Yes?" said Mr. Bruff, with nine-tenths of his attention riveted on his
papers, and with one-tenth unwillingly accorded to me. "Anything else?"</p>
<p>"I must trouble you to return here with me, and to see me administer the
dose."</p>
<p>"Anything else?"</p>
<p>"One thing more. I must put you to the inconvenience of remaining in Mr.
Blake's room, and of waiting to see what happens."</p>
<p>"Oh, very good!" said Mr. Bruff. "My room, or Mr. Blake's room—it
doesn't matter which; I can go on with my papers anywhere. Unless you
object, Mr. Jennings, to my importing THAT amount of common sense into the
proceedings?"</p>
<p>Before I could answer, Mr. Blake addressed himself to the lawyer, speaking
from his bed.</p>
<p>"Do you really mean to say that you don't feel any interest in what we are
going to do?" he asked. "Mr. Bruff, you have no more imagination than a
cow!"</p>
<p>"A cow is a very useful animal, Mr. Blake," said the lawyer. With that
reply he followed me out of the room, still keeping his papers in his
hand.</p>
<p>We found Miss Verinder, pale and agitated, restlessly pacing her
sitting-room from end to end. At a table in a corner stood Betteredge, on
guard over the medicine-chest. Mr. Bruff sat down on the first chair that
he could find, and (emulating the usefulness of the cow) plunged back
again into his papers on the spot.</p>
<p>Miss Verinder drew me aside, and reverted instantly to her one
all-absorbing interest—her interest in Mr. Blake.</p>
<p>"How is he now?" she asked. "Is he nervous? is he out of temper? Do you
think it will succeed? Are you sure it will do no harm?"</p>
<p>"Quite sure. Come, and see me measure it out."</p>
<p>"One moment! It is past eleven now. How long will it be before anything
happens?"</p>
<p>"It is not easy to say. An hour perhaps."</p>
<p>"I suppose the room must be dark, as it was last year?"</p>
<p>"Certainly."</p>
<p>"I shall wait in my bedroom—just as I did before. I shall keep the
door a little way open. It was a little way open last year. I will watch
the sitting-room door; and the moment it moves, I will blow out my light.
It all happened in that way, on my birthday night. And it must all happen
again in the same way, musn't it?"</p>
<p>"Are you sure you can control yourself, Miss Verinder?"</p>
<p>"In HIS interests, I can do anything!" she answered fervently.</p>
<p>One look at her face told me that I could trust her. I addressed myself
again to Mr. Bruff.</p>
<p>"I must trouble you to put your papers aside for a moment," I said.</p>
<p>"Oh, certainly!" He got up with a start—as if I had disturbed him at
a particularly interesting place—and followed me to the
medicine-chest. There, deprived of the breathless excitement incidental to
the practice of his profession, he looked at Betteredge—and yawned
wearily.</p>
<p>Miss Verinder joined me with a glass jug of cold water, which she had
taken from a side-table. "Let me pour out the water," she whispered. "I
must have a hand in it!"</p>
<p>I measured out the forty minims from the bottle, and poured the laudanum
into a medicine glass. "Fill it till it is three parts full," I said, and
handed the glass to Miss Verinder. I then directed Betteredge to lock up
the medicine chest; informing him that I had done with it now. A look of
unutterable relief overspread the old servant's countenance. He had
evidently suspected me of a medical design on his young lady!</p>
<p>After adding the water as I had directed, Miss Verinder seized a moment—while
Betteredge was locking the chest, and while Mr. Bruff was looking back to
his papers—and slyly kissed the rim of the medicine glass. "When you
give it to him," said the charming girl, "give it to him on that side!"</p>
<p>I took the piece of crystal which was to represent the Diamond from my
pocket, and gave it to her.</p>
<p>"You must have a hand in this, too," I said. "You must put it where you
put the Moonstone last year."</p>
<p>She led the way to the Indian cabinet, and put the mock Diamond into the
drawer which the real Diamond had occupied on the birthday night. Mr.
Bruff witnessed this proceeding, under protest, as he had witnessed
everything else. But the strong dramatic interest which the experiment was
now assuming, proved (to my great amusement) to be too much for
Betteredge's capacity of self restraint. His hand trembled as he held the
candle, and he whispered anxiously, "Are you sure, miss, it's the right
drawer?"</p>
<p>I led the way out again, with the laudanum and water in my hand. At the
door, I stopped to address a last word to Miss Verinder.</p>
<p>"Don't be long in putting out the lights," I said.</p>
<p>"I will put them out at once," she answered. "And I will wait in my
bedroom, with only one candle alight."</p>
<p>She closed the sitting-room door behind us. Followed by Mr. Bruff and
Betteredge, I went back to Mr. Blake's room.</p>
<p>We found him moving restlessly from side to side of the bed, and wondering
irritably whether he was to have the laudanum that night. In the presence
of the two witnesses, I gave him the dose, and shook up his pillows, and
told him to lie down again quietly and wait.</p>
<p>His bed, provided with light chintz curtains, was placed, with the head
against the wall of the room, so as to leave a good open space on either
side of it. On one side, I drew the curtains completely—and in the
part of the room thus screened from his view, I placed Mr. Bruff and
Betteredge, to wait for the result. At the bottom of the bed I half drew
the curtains—and placed my own chair at a little distance, so that I
might let him see me or not see me, speak to me or not speak to me, just
as the circumstances might direct. Having already been informed that he
always slept with a light in the room, I placed one of the two lighted
candles on a little table at the head of the bed, where the glare of the
light would not strike on his eyes. The other candle I gave to Mr. Bruff;
the light, in this instance, being subdued by the screen of the chintz
curtains. The window was open at the top, so as to ventilate the room. The
rain fell softly, the house was quiet. It was twenty minutes past eleven,
by my watch, when the preparations were completed, and I took my place on
the chair set apart at the bottom of the bed.</p>
<p>Mr. Bruff resumed his papers, with every appearance of being as deeply
interested in them as ever. But looking towards him now, I saw certain
signs and tokens which told me that the Law was beginning to lose its hold
on him at last. The suspended interest of the situation in which we were
now placed was slowly asserting its influence even on HIS unimaginative
mind. As for Betteredge, consistency of principle and dignity of conduct
had become, in his case, mere empty words. He forgot that I was performing
a conjuring trick on Mr. Franklin Blake; he forgot that I had upset the
house from top to bottom; he forgot that I had not read ROBINSON CRUSOE
since I was a child. "For the Lord's sake, sir," he whispered to me, "tell
us when it will begin to work."</p>
<p>"Not before midnight," I whispered back. "Say nothing, and sit still."</p>
<p>Betteredge dropped to the lowest depth of familiarity with me, without a
struggle to save himself. He answered by a wink!</p>
<p>Looking next towards Mr. Blake, I found him as restless as ever in his
bed; fretfully wondering why the influence of the laudanum had not begun
to assert itself yet. To tell him, in his present humour, that the more he
fidgeted and wondered, the longer he would delay the result for which we
were now waiting, would have been simply useless. The wiser course to take
was to dismiss the idea of the opium from his mind, by leading him
insensibly to think of something else.</p>
<p>With this view, I encouraged him to talk to me; contriving so to direct
the conversation, on my side, as to lead it back again to the subject
which had engaged us earlier in the evening—the subject of the
Diamond. I took care to revert to those portions of the story of the
Moonstone, which related to the transport of it from London to Yorkshire;
to the risk which Mr. Blake had run in removing it from the bank at
Frizinghall: and to the unexpected appearance of the Indians at the house,
on the evening of the birthday. And I purposely assumed, in referring to
these events, to have misunderstood much of what Mr. Blake himself had
told me a few hours since. In this way, I set him talking on the subject
with which it was now vitally important to fill his mind—without
allowing him to suspect that I was making him talk for a purpose. Little
by little, he became so interested in putting me right that he forgot to
fidget in the bed. His mind was far away from the question of the opium,
at the all-important time when his eyes first told me that the opium was
beginning to lay its hold on his brain.</p>
<p>I looked at my watch. It wanted five minutes to twelve, when the
premonitory symptoms of the working of the laudanum first showed
themselves to me.</p>
<p>At this time, no unpractised eyes would have detected any change in him.
But, as the minutes of the new morning wore away, the swiftly-subtle
progress of the influence began to show itself more plainly. The sublime
intoxication of opium gleamed in his eyes; the dew of a stealthy
perspiration began to glisten on his face. In five minutes more, the talk
which he still kept up with me, failed in coherence. He held steadily to
the subject of the Diamond; but he ceased to complete his sentences. A
little later, the sentences dropped to single words. Then, there was an
interval of silence. Then, he sat up in bed. Then, still busy with the
subject of the Diamond, he began to talk again—not to me, but to
himself. That change told me that the first stage in the experiment was
reached. The stimulant influence of the opium had got him.</p>
<p>The time, now, was twenty-three minutes past twelve. The next half hour,
at most, would decide the question of whether he would, or would not, get
up from his bed, and leave the room.</p>
<p>In the breathless interest of watching him—in the unutterable
triumph of seeing the first result of the experiment declare itself in the
manner, and nearly at the time, which I had anticipated—I had
utterly forgotten the two companions of my night vigil. Looking towards
them now, I saw the Law (as represented by Mr. Bruff's papers) lying
unheeded on the floor. Mr. Bruff himself was looking eagerly through a
crevice left in the imperfectly-drawn curtains of the bed. And Betteredge,
oblivious of all respect for social distinctions, was peeping over Mr.
Bruff's shoulder.</p>
<p>They both started back, on finding that I was looking at them, like two
boys caught out by their schoolmaster in a fault. I signed to them to take
off their boots quietly, as I was taking off mine. If Mr. Blake gave us
the chance of following him, it was vitally necessary to follow him
without noise.</p>
<p>Ten minutes passed—and nothing happened. Then, he suddenly threw the
bed-clothes off him. He put one leg out of bed. He waited.</p>
<p>"I wish I had never taken it out of the bank," he said to himself. "It was
safe in the bank."</p>
<p>My heart throbbed fast; the pulses at my temples beat furiously. The doubt
about the safety of the Diamond was, once more, the dominant impression in
his brain! On that one pivot, the whole success of the experiment turned.
The prospect thus suddenly opened before me was too much for my shattered
nerves. I was obliged to look away from him—or I should have lost my
self-control.</p>
<p>There was another interval of silence.</p>
<p>When I could trust myself to look back at him he was out of his bed,
standing erect at the side of it. The pupils of his eyes were now
contracted; his eyeballs gleamed in the light of the candle as he moved
his head slowly to and fro. He was thinking; he was doubting—he
spoke again.</p>
<p>"How do I know?" he said. "The Indians may be hidden in the house."</p>
<p>He stopped, and walked slowly to the other end of the room. He turned—waited—came
back to the bed.</p>
<p>"It's not even locked up," he went on. "It's in the drawer of her cabinet.
And the drawer doesn't lock."</p>
<p>He sat down on the side of the bed. "Anybody might take it," he said.</p>
<p>He rose again restlessly, and reiterated his first words.</p>
<p>"How do I know? The Indians may be hidden in the house."</p>
<p>He waited again. I drew back behind the half curtain of the bed. He looked
about the room, with a vacant glitter in his eyes. It was a breathless
moment. There was a pause of some sort. A pause in the action of the
opium? a pause in the action of the brain? Who could tell? Everything
depended, now, on what he did next.</p>
<p>He laid himself down again on the bed!</p>
<p>A horrible doubt crossed my mind. Was it possible that the sedative action
of the opium was making itself felt already? It was not in my experience
that it should do this. But what is experience, where opium is concerned?
There are probably no two men in existence on whom the drug acts in
exactly the same manner. Was some constitutional peculiarity in him,
feeling the influence in some new way? Were we to fail on the very brink
of success?</p>
<p>No! He got up again abruptly. "How the devil am I to sleep," he said,
"with THIS on my mind?"</p>
<p>He looked at the light, burning on the table at the head of his bed. After
a moment, he took the candle in his hand.</p>
<p>I blew out the second candle, burning behind the closed curtains. I drew
back, with Mr. Bruff and Betteredge, into the farthest corner by the bed.
I signed to them to be silent, as if their lives had depended on it.</p>
<p>We waited—seeing and hearing nothing. We waited, hidden from him by
the curtains.</p>
<p>The light which he was holding on the other side of us moved suddenly. The
next moment he passed us, swift and noiseless, with the candle in his
hand.</p>
<p>He opened the bedroom door, and went out.</p>
<p>We followed him along the corridor. We followed him down the stairs. We
followed him along the second corridor. He never looked back; he never
hesitated.</p>
<p>He opened the sitting-room door, and went in, leaving it open behind him.</p>
<p>The door was hung (like all the other doors in the house) on large
old-fashioned hinges. When it was opened, a crevice was opened between the
door and the post. I signed to my two companions to look through this, so
as to keep them from showing themselves. I placed myself—outside the
door also—on the opposite side. A recess in the wall was at my left
hand, in which I could instantly hide myself, if he showed any signs of
looking back into the corridor.</p>
<p>He advanced to the middle of the room, with the candle still in his hand:
he looked about him—but he never looked back.</p>
<p>I saw the door of Miss Verinder's bedroom, standing ajar. She had put out
her light. She controlled herself nobly. The dim white outline of her
summer dress was all that I could see. Nobody who had not known it
beforehand would have suspected that there was a living creature in the
room. She kept back, in the dark: not a word, not a movement escaped her.</p>
<p>It was now ten minutes past one. I heard, through the dead silence, the
soft drip of the rain and the tremulous passage of the night air through
the trees.</p>
<p>After waiting irresolute, for a minute or more, in the middle of the room,
he moved to the corner near the window, where the Indian cabinet stood.</p>
<p>He put his candle on the top of the cabinet. He opened, and shut, one
drawer after another, until he came to the drawer in which the mock
Diamond was put. He looked into the drawer for a moment. Then he took the
mock Diamond out with his right hand. With the other hand, he took the
candle from the top of the cabinet.</p>
<p>He walked back a few steps towards the middle of the room, and stood still
again.</p>
<p>Thus far, he had exactly repeated what he had done on the birthday night.
Would his next proceeding be the same as the proceeding of last year?
Would he leave the room? Would he go back now, as I believed he had gone
back then, to his bed-chamber? Would he show us what he had done with the
Diamond, when he had returned to his own room?</p>
<p>His first action, when he moved once more, proved to be an action which he
had not performed, when he was under the influence of the opium for the
first time. He put the candle down on a table, and wandered on a little
towards the farther end of the room. There was a sofa there. He leaned
heavily on the back of it, with his left hand—then roused himself,
and returned to the middle of the room. I could now see his eyes. They
were getting dull and heavy; the glitter in them was fast dying out.</p>
<p>The suspense of the moment proved too much for Miss Verinder's
self-control. She advanced a few steps—then stopped again. Mr. Bruff
and Betteredge looked across the open doorway at me for the first time.
The prevision of a coming disappointment was impressing itself on their
minds as well as on mine.</p>
<p>Still, so long as he stood where he was, there was hope. We waited, in
unutterable expectation, to see what would happen next.</p>
<p>The next event was decisive. He let the mock Diamond drop out of his hand.</p>
<p>It fell on the floor, before the doorway—plainly visible to him, and
to everyone. He made no effort to pick it up: he looked down at it
vacantly, and, as he looked, his head sank on his breast. He staggered—roused
himself for an instant—walked back unsteadily to the sofa—and
sat down on it. He made a last effort; he tried to rise, and sank back.
His head fell on the sofa cushions. It was then twenty-five minutes past
one o'clock. Before I had put my watch back in my pocket, he was asleep.</p>
<p>It was all over now. The sedative influence had got him; the experiment
was at an end.</p>
<p>I entered the room, telling Mr. Bruff and Betteredge that they might
follow me. There was no fear of disturbing him. We were free to move and
speak.</p>
<p>"The first thing to settle," I said, "is the question of what we are to do
with him. He will probably sleep for the next six or seven hours, at
least. It is some distance to carry him back to his own room. When I was
younger, I could have done it alone. But my health and strength are not
what they were—I am afraid I must ask you to help me."</p>
<p>Before they could answer, Miss Verinder called to me softly. She met me at
the door of her room, with a light shawl, and with the counterpane from
her own bed.</p>
<p>"Do you mean to watch him while he sleeps?" she asked.</p>
<p>"Yes, I am not sure enough of the action of the opium in his case to be
willing to leave him alone."</p>
<p>She handed me the shawl and the counterpane.</p>
<p>"Why should you disturb him?" she whispered. "Make his bed on the sofa. I
can shut my door, and keep in my room."</p>
<p>It was infinitely the simplest and the safest way of disposing of him for
the night. I mentioned the suggestion to Mr. Bruff and Betteredge—who
both approved of my adopting it. In five minutes I had laid him
comfortably on the sofa, and had covered him lightly with the counterpane
and the shawl. Miss Verinder wished us good night, and closed the door. At
my request, we three then drew round the table in the middle of the room,
on which the candle was still burning, and on which writing materials were
placed.</p>
<p>"Before we separate," I began, "I have a word to say about the experiment
which has been tried to-night. Two distinct objects were to be gained by
it. The first of these objects was to prove, that Mr. Blake entered this
room, and took the Diamond, last year, acting unconsciously and
irresponsibly, under the influence of opium. After what you have both
seen, are you both satisfied, so far?"</p>
<p>They answered me in the affirmative, without a moment's hesitation.</p>
<p>"The second object," I went on, "was to discover what he did with the
Diamond, after he was seen by Miss Verinder to leave her sitting-room with
the jewel in his hand, on the birthday night. The gaining of this object
depended, of course, on his still continuing exactly to repeat his
proceedings of last year. He has failed to do that; and the purpose of the
experiment is defeated accordingly. I can't assert that I am not
disappointed at the result—but I can honestly say that I am not
surprised by it. I told Mr. Blake from the first, that our complete
success in this matter depended on our completely reproducing in him the
physical and moral conditions of last year—and I warned him that
this was the next thing to a downright impossibility. We have only
partially reproduced the conditions, and the experiment has been only
partially successful in consequence. It is also possible that I may have
administered too large a dose of laudanum. But I myself look upon the
first reason that I have given, as the true reason why we have to lament a
failure, as well as to rejoice over a success."</p>
<p>After saying those words, I put the writing materials before Mr. Bruff,
and asked him if he had any objection—before we separated for the
night—to draw out, and sign, a plain statement of what he had seen.
He at once took the pen, and produced the statement with the fluent
readiness of a practised hand.</p>
<p>"I owe you this," he said, signing the paper, "as some atonement for what
passed between us earlier in the evening. I beg your pardon, Mr. Jennings,
for having doubted you. You have done Franklin Blake an inestimable
service. In our legal phrase, you have proved your case."</p>
<p>Betteredge's apology was characteristic of the man.</p>
<p>"Mr. Jennings," he said, "when you read ROBINSON CRUSOE again (which I
strongly recommend you to do), you will find that he never scruples to
acknowledge it, when he turns out to have been in the wrong. Please to
consider me, sir, as doing what Robinson Crusoe did, on the present
occasion." With those words he signed the paper in his turn.</p>
<p>Mr. Bruff took me aside, as we rose from the table.</p>
<p>"One word about the Diamond," he said. "Your theory is that Franklin Blake
hid the Moonstone in his room. My theory is, that the Moonstone is in the
possession of Mr. Luker's bankers in London. We won't dispute which of us
is right. We will only ask, which of us is in a position to put his theory
to the test?"</p>
<p>"The test, in my case," I answered, "has been tried to-night, and has
failed."</p>
<p>"The test, in my case," rejoined Mr. Bruff, "is still in process of trial.
For the last two days I have had a watch set for Mr. Luker at the bank;
and I shall cause that watch to be continued until the last day of the
month. I know that he must take the Diamond himself out of his bankers'
hands—and I am acting on the chance that the person who has pledged
the Diamond may force him to do this by redeeming the pledge. In that case
I may be able to lay my hand on the person. If I succeed, I clear up the
mystery, exactly at the point where the mystery baffles us now! Do you
admit that, so far?"</p>
<p>I admitted it readily.</p>
<p>"I am going back to town by the morning train," pursued the lawyer. "I may
hear, when I return, that a discovery has been made—and it may be of
the greatest importance that I should have Franklin Blake at hand to
appeal to, if necessary. I intend to tell him, as soon as he wakes, that
he must return with me to London. After all that has happened, may I trust
to your influence to back me?"</p>
<p>"Certainly!" I said.</p>
<p>Mr. Bruff shook hands with me, and left the room. Betteredge followed him
out; I went to the sofa to look at Mr. Blake. He had not moved since I had
laid him down and made his bed—he lay locked in a deep and quiet
sleep.</p>
<p>While I was still looking at him, I heard the bedroom door softly opened.
Once more, Miss Verinder appeared on the threshold, in her pretty summer
dress.</p>
<p>"Do me a last favour?" she whispered. "Let me watch him with you."</p>
<p>I hesitated—not in the interests of propriety; only in the interest
of her night's rest. She came close to me, and took my hand.</p>
<p>"I can't sleep; I can't even sit still, in my own room," she said. "Oh,
Mr. Jennings, if you were me, only think how you would long to sit and
look at him. Say, yes! Do!"</p>
<p>Is it necessary to mention that I gave way? Surely not!</p>
<p>She drew a chair to the foot of the sofa. She looked at him in a silent
ecstasy of happiness, till the tears rose in her eyes. She dried her eyes,
and said she would fetch her work. She fetched her work, and never did a
single stitch of it. It lay in her lap—she was not even able to look
away from him long enough to thread her needle. I thought of my own youth;
I thought of the gentle eyes which had once looked love at me. In the
heaviness of my heart I turned to my Journal for relief, and wrote in it
what is written here.</p>
<p>So we kept our watch together in silence. One of us absorbed in his
writing; the other absorbed in her love.</p>
<p>Hour after hour he lay in his deep sleep. The light of the new day grew
and grew in the room, and still he never moved.</p>
<p>Towards six o'clock, I felt the warning which told me that my pains were
coming back. I was obliged to leave her alone with him for a little while.
I said I would go up-stairs, and fetch another pillow for him out of his
room. It was not a long attack, this time. In a little while I was able to
venture back, and let her see me again.</p>
<p>I found her at the head of the sofa, when I returned. She was just
touching his forehead with her lips. I shook my head as soberly as I
could, and pointed to her chair. She looked back at me with a bright
smile, and a charming colour in her face. "You would have done it," she
whispered, "in my place!"</p>
<hr />
<p>It is just eight o'clock. He is beginning to move for the first time.</p>
<p>Miss Verinder is kneeling by the side of the sofa. She has so placed
herself that when his eyes first open, they must open on her face.</p>
<p>Shall I leave them together?</p>
<p>Yes!</p>
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<p>Eleven o'clock.—The house is empty again. They have arranged it
among themselves; they have all gone to London by the ten o'clock train.
My brief dream of happiness is over. I have awakened again to the
realities of my friendless and lonely life.</p>
<p>I dare not trust myself to write down, the kind words that have been said
to me especially by Miss Verinder and Mr. Blake. Besides, it is needless.
Those words will come back to me in my solitary hours, and will help me
through what is left of the end of my life. Mr. Blake is to write, and
tell me what happens in London. Miss Verinder is to return to Yorkshire in
the autumn (for her marriage, no doubt); and I am to take a holiday, and
be a guest in the house. Oh me, how I felt, as the grateful happiness
looked at me out of her eyes, and the warm pressure of her hand said,
"This is your doing!"</p>
<p>My poor patients are waiting for me. Back again, this morning, to the old
routine! Back again, to-night, to the dreadful alternative between the
opium and the pain!</p>
<p>God be praised for His mercy! I have seen a little sunshine—I have
had a happy time.</p>
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