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<h2> CHAPTER IV </h2>
<p>I have not a word to say about my own sensations.</p>
<p>My impression is that the shock inflicted on me completely suspended my
thinking and feeling power. I certainly could not have known what I was
about when Betteredge joined me—for I have it on his authority that
I laughed, when he asked what was the matter, and putting the nightgown
into his hands, told him to read the riddle for himself.</p>
<p>Of what was said between us on the beach, I have not the faintest
recollection. The first place in which I can now see myself again plainly
is the plantation of firs. Betteredge and I are walking back together to
the house; and Betteredge is telling me that I shall be able to face it,
and he will be able to face it, when we have had a glass of grog.</p>
<p>The scene shifts from the plantation, to Betteredge's little sitting-room.
My resolution not to enter Rachel's house is forgotten. I feel gratefully
the coolness and shadiness and quiet of the room. I drink the grog (a
perfectly new luxury to me, at that time of day), which my good old friend
mixes with icy-cold water from the well. Under any other circumstances,
the drink would simply stupefy me. As things are, it strings up my nerves.
I begin to "face it," as Betteredge has predicted. And Betteredge, on his
side, begins to "face it," too.</p>
<p>The picture which I am now presenting of myself, will, I suspect, be
thought a very strange one, to say the least of it. Placed in a situation
which may, I think, be described as entirely without parallel, what is the
first proceeding to which I resort? Do I seclude myself from all human
society? Do I set my mind to analyse the abominable impossibility which,
nevertheless, confronts me as an undeniable fact? Do I hurry back to
London by the first train to consult the highest authorities, and to set a
searching inquiry on foot immediately? No. I accept the shelter of a house
which I had resolved never to degrade myself by entering again; and I sit,
tippling spirits and water in the company of an old servant, at ten
o'clock in the morning. Is this the conduct that might have been expected
from a man placed in my horrible position? I can only answer that the
sight of old Betteredge's familiar face was an inexpressible comfort to
me, and that the drinking of old Betteredge's grog helped me, as I believe
nothing else would have helped me, in the state of complete bodily and
mental prostration into which I had fallen. I can only offer this excuse
for myself; and I can only admire that invariable preservation of dignity,
and that strictly logical consistency of conduct which distinguish every
man and woman who may read these lines, in every emergency of their lives
from the cradle to the grave.</p>
<p>"Now, Mr. Franklin, there's one thing certain, at any rate," said
Betteredge, throwing the nightgown down on the table between us, and
pointing to it as if it was a living creature that could hear him. "HE'S a
liar, to begin with."</p>
<p>This comforting view of the matter was not the view that presented itself
to my mind.</p>
<p>"I am as innocent of all knowledge of having taken the Diamond as you
are," I said. "But there is the witness against me! The paint on the
nightgown, and the name on the nightgown are facts."</p>
<p>Betteredge lifted my glass, and put it persuasively into my hand.</p>
<p>"Facts?" he repeated. "Take a drop more grog, Mr. Franklin, and you'll get
over the weakness of believing in facts! Foul play, sir!" he continued,
dropping his voice confidentially. "That is how I read the riddle. Foul
play somewhere—and you and I must find it out. Was there nothing
else in the tin case, when you put your hand into it?"</p>
<p>The question instantly reminded me of the letter in my pocket. I took it
out, and opened it. It was a letter of many pages, closely written. I
looked impatiently for the signature at the end. "Rosanna Spearman."</p>
<p>As I read the name, a sudden remembrance illuminated my mind, and a sudden
suspicion rose out of the new light.</p>
<p>"Stop!" I exclaimed. "Rosanna Spearman came to my aunt out of a
reformatory? Rosanna Spearman had once been a thief?"</p>
<p>"There's no denying that, Mr. Franklin. What of it now, if you please?"</p>
<p>"What of it now? How do we know she may not have stolen the Diamond after
all? How do we know she may not have smeared my nightgown purposely with
the paint?"</p>
<p>Betteredge laid his hand on my arm, and stopped me before I could say any
more.</p>
<p>"You will be cleared of this, Mr. Franklin, beyond all doubt. But I hope
you won't be cleared in THAT way. See what the letter says, sir. In
justice to the girl's memory, see what it says."</p>
<p>I felt the earnestness with which he spoke—felt it as a friendly
rebuke to me. "You shall form your own judgment on her letter," I said. "I
will read it out."</p>
<p>I began—and read these lines:</p>
<p>"Sir—I have something to own to you. A confession which means much
misery, may sometimes be made in very few words. This confession can be
made in three words. I love you."</p>
<p>The letter dropped from my hand. I looked at Betteredge. "In the name of
Heaven," I said, "what does it mean?"</p>
<p>He seemed to shrink from answering the question.</p>
<p>"You and Limping Lucy were alone together this morning, sir," he said.
"Did she say nothing about Rosanna Spearman?"</p>
<p>"She never even mentioned Rosanna Spearman's name."</p>
<p>"Please to go back to the letter, Mr. Franklin. I tell you plainly, I
can't find it in my heart to distress you, after what you have had to bear
already. Let her speak for herself, sir. And get on with your grog. For
your own sake, get on with your grog."</p>
<p>I resumed the reading of the letter.</p>
<p>"It would be very disgraceful to me to tell you this, if I was a living
woman when you read it. I shall be dead and gone, sir, when you find my
letter. It is that which makes me bold. Not even my grave will be left to
tell of me. I may own the truth—with the quicksand waiting to hide
me when the words are written.</p>
<p>"Besides, you will find your nightgown in my hiding-place, with the smear
of the paint on it; and you will want to know how it came to be hidden by
me? and why I said nothing to you about it in my life-time? I have only
one reason to give. I did these strange things, because I loved you.</p>
<p>"I won't trouble you with much about myself, or my life, before you came
to my lady's house. Lady Verinder took me out of a reformatory. I had gone
to the reformatory from the prison. I was put in the prison, because I was
a thief. I was a thief, because my mother went on the streets when I was
quite a little girl. My mother went on the streets, because the gentleman
who was my father deserted her. There is no need to tell such a common
story as this, at any length. It is told quite often enough in the
newspapers.</p>
<p>"Lady Verinder was very kind to me, and Mr. Betteredge was very kind to
me. Those two, and the matron at the reformatory, are the only good people
I have ever met with in all my life. I might have got on in my place—not
happily—but I might have got on, if you had not come visiting. I
don't blame you, sir. It's my fault—all my fault.</p>
<p>"Do you remember when you came out on us from among the sand hills, that
morning, looking for Mr. Betteredge? You were like a prince in a
fairy-story. You were like a lover in a dream. You were the most adorable
human creature I had ever seen. Something that felt like the happy life I
had never led yet, leapt up in me at the instant I set eyes on you. Don't
laugh at this if you can help it. Oh, if I could only make you feel how
serious it is to ME!</p>
<p>"I went back to the house, and wrote your name and mine in my work-box,
and drew a true lovers' knot under them. Then, some devil—no, I
ought to say some good angel—whispered to me, 'Go and look in the
glass.' The glass told me—never mind what. I was too foolish to take
the warning. I went on getting fonder and fonder of you, just as if I was
a lady in your own rank of life, and the most beautiful creature your eyes
ever rested on. I tried—oh, dear, how I tried—to get you to
look at me. If you had known how I used to cry at night with the misery
and the mortification of your never taking any notice of me, you would
have pitied me perhaps, and have given me a look now and then to live on.</p>
<p>"It would have been no very kind look, perhaps, if you had known how I
hated Miss Rachel. I believe I found out you were in love with her, before
you knew it yourself. She used to give you roses to wear in your
button-hole. Ah, Mr. Franklin, you wore my roses oftener than either you
or she thought! The only comfort I had at that time, was putting my rose
secretly in your glass of water, in place of hers—and then throwing
her rose away.</p>
<p>"If she had been really as pretty as you thought her, I might have borne
it better. No; I believe I should have been more spiteful against her
still. Suppose you put Miss Rachel into a servant's dress, and took her
ornaments off? I don't know what is the use of my writing in this way. It
can't be denied that she had a bad figure; she was too thin. But who can
tell what the men like? And young ladies may behave in a manner which
would cost a servant her place. It's no business of mine. I can't expect
you to read my letter, if I write it in this way. But it does stir one up
to hear Miss Rachel called pretty, when one knows all the time that it's
her dress does it, and her confidence in herself.</p>
<p>"Try not to lose patience with me, sir. I will get on as fast as I can to
the time which is sure to interest you—the time when the Diamond was
lost.</p>
<p>"But there is one thing which I have got it on my mind to tell you first.</p>
<p>"My life was not a very hard life to bear, while I was a thief. It was
only when they had taught me at the reformatory to feel my own
degradation, and to try for better things, that the days grew long and
weary. Thoughts of the future forced themselves on me now. I felt the
dreadful reproach that honest people—even the kindest of honest
people—were to me in themselves. A heart-breaking sensation of
loneliness kept with me, go where I might, and do what I might, and see
what persons I might. It was my duty, I know, to try and get on with my
fellow-servants in my new place. Somehow, I couldn't make friends with
them. They looked (or I thought they looked) as if they suspected what I
had been. I don't regret, far from it, having been roused to make the
effort to be a reformed woman—but, indeed, indeed it was a weary
life. You had come across it like a beam of sunshine at first—and
then you too failed me. I was mad enough to love you; and I couldn't even
attract your notice. There was great misery—there really was great
misery in that.</p>
<p>"Now I am coming to what I wanted to tell you. In those days of
bitterness, I went two or three times, when it was my turn to go out, to
my favourite place—the beach above the Shivering Sand. And I said to
myself, 'I think it will end here. When I can bear it no longer, I think
it will end here.' You will understand, sir, that the place had laid a
kind of spell on me before you came. I had always had a notion that
something would happen to me at the quicksand. But I had never looked at
it, with the thought of its being the means of my making away with myself,
till the time came of which I am now writing. Then I did think that here
was a place which would end all my troubles for me in a moment or two—and
hide me for ever afterwards.</p>
<p>"This is all I have to say about myself, reckoning from the morning when I
first saw you, to the morning when the alarm was raised in the house that
the Diamond was lost.</p>
<p>"I was so aggravated by the foolish talk among the women servants, all
wondering who was to be suspected first; and I was so angry with you
(knowing no better at that time) for the pains you took in hunting for the
jewel, and sending for the police, that I kept as much as possible away by
myself, until later in the day, when the officer from Frizinghall came to
the house.</p>
<p>"Mr. Seegrave began, as you may remember, by setting a guard on the
women's bedrooms; and the women all followed him up-stairs in a rage, to
know what he meant by the insult he had put on them. I went with the rest,
because if I had done anything different from the rest, Mr. Seegrave was
the sort of man who would have suspected me directly. We found him in Miss
Rachel's room. He told us he wouldn't have a lot of women there; and he
pointed to the smear on the painted door, and said some of our petticoats
had done the mischief, and sent us all down-stairs again.</p>
<p>"After leaving Miss Rachel's room, I stopped a moment on one of the
landings, by myself, to see if I had got the paint-stain by any chance on
MY gown. Penelope Betteredge (the only one of the women with whom I was on
friendly terms) passed, and noticed what I was about.</p>
<p>"'You needn't trouble yourself, Rosanna,' she said. 'The paint on Miss
Rachel's door has been dry for hours. If Mr. Seegrave hadn't set a watch
on our bedrooms, I might have told him as much. I don't know what you
think—I was never so insulted before in my life!'</p>
<p>"Penelope was a hot-tempered girl. I quieted her, and brought her back to
what she had said about the paint on the door having been dry for hours.</p>
<p>"'How do you know that?' I asked.</p>
<p>"'I was with Miss Rachel, and Mr. Franklin, all yesterday morning,'
Penelope said, 'mixing the colours, while they finished the door. I heard
Miss Rachel ask whether the door would be dry that evening, in time for
the birthday company to see it. And Mr. Franklin shook his head, and said
it wouldn't be dry in less than twelve hours. It was long past
luncheon-time—it was three o'clock before they had done. What does
your arithmetic say, Rosanna? Mine says the door was dry by three this
morning.'</p>
<p>"'Did some of the ladies go up-stairs yesterday evening to see it?' I
asked. 'I thought I heard Miss Rachel warning them to keep clear of the
door.'</p>
<p>"'None of the ladies made the smear,' Penelope answered. 'I left Miss
Rachel in bed at twelve last night. And I noticed the door, and there was
nothing wrong with it then.'</p>
<p>"'Oughtn't you to mention this to Mr. Seegrave, Penelope?'</p>
<p>"'I wouldn't say a word to help Mr. Seegrave for anything that could be
offered to me!'</p>
<p>"She went to her work, and I went to mine."</p>
<p>"My work, sir, was to make your bed, and to put your room tidy. It was the
happiest hour I had in the whole day. I used to kiss the pillow on which
your head had rested all night. No matter who has done it since, you have
never had your clothes folded as nicely as I folded them for you. Of all
the little knick-knacks in your dressing-case, there wasn't one that had
so much as a speck on it. You never noticed it, any more than you noticed
me. I beg your pardon; I am forgetting myself. I will make haste, and go
on again.</p>
<p>"Well, I went in that morning to do my work in your room. There was your
nightgown tossed across the bed, just as you had thrown it off. I took it
up to fold it—and I saw the stain of the paint from Miss Rachel's
door!</p>
<p>"I was so startled by the discovery that I ran out with the nightgown in
my hand, and made for the back stairs, and locked myself into my own room,
to look at it in a place where nobody could intrude and interrupt me.</p>
<p>"As soon as I got my breath again, I called to mind my talk with Penelope,
and I said to myself, 'Here's the proof that he was in Miss Rachel's
sitting-room between twelve last night, and three this morning!'</p>
<p>"I shall not tell you in plain words what was the first suspicion that
crossed my mind, when I had made that discovery. You would only be angry—and,
if you were angry, you might tear my letter up and read no more of it.</p>
<p>"Let it be enough, if you please, to say only this. After thinking it over
to the best of my ability, I made it out that the thing wasn't likely, for
a reason that I will tell you. If you had been in Miss Rachel's
sitting-room, at that time of night, with Miss Rachel's knowledge (and if
you had been foolish enough to forget to take care of the wet door) SHE
would have reminded you—SHE would never have let you carry away such
a witness against her, as the witness I was looking at now! At the same
time, I own I was not completely certain in my own mind that I had proved
my own suspicion to be wrong. You will not have forgotten that I have
owned to hating Miss Rachel. Try to think, if you can, that there was a
little of that hatred in all this. It ended in my determining to keep the
nightgown, and to wait, and watch, and see what use I might make of it. At
that time, please to remember, not the ghost of an idea entered my head
that you had stolen the Diamond."</p>
<p>There, I broke off in the reading of the letter for the second time.</p>
<p>I had read those portions of the miserable woman's confession which
related to myself, with unaffected surprise, and, I can honestly add, with
sincere distress. I had regretted, truly regretted, the aspersion which I
had thoughtlessly cast on her memory, before I had seen a line of her
letter. But when I had advanced as far as the passage which is quoted
above, I own I felt my mind growing bitterer and bitterer against Rosanna
Spearman as I went on. "Read the rest for yourself," I said, handing the
letter to Betteredge across the table. "If there is anything in it that I
must look at, you can tell me as you go on."</p>
<p>"I understand you, Mr. Franklin," he answered. "It's natural, sir, in YOU.
And, God help us all!" he added, in a lower tone, "it's no less natural in
HER."</p>
<p>I proceed to copy the continuation of the letter from the original, in my
own possession:—</p>
<p>"Having determined to keep the nightgown, and to see what use my love, or
my revenge (I hardly know which) could turn it to in the future, the next
thing to discover was how to keep it without the risk of being found out.</p>
<p>"There was only one way—to make another nightgown exactly like it,
before Saturday came, and brought the laundry-woman and her inventory to
the house.</p>
<p>"I was afraid to put it off till next day (the Friday); being in doubt
lest some accident might happen in the interval. I determined to make the
new nightgown on that same day (the Thursday), while I could count, if I
played my cards properly, on having my time to myself. The first thing to
do (after locking up your nightgown in my drawer) was to go back to your
bed-room—not so much to put it to rights (Penelope would have done
that for me, if I had asked her) as to find out whether you had smeared
off any of the paint-stain from your nightgown, on the bed, or on any
piece of furniture in the room.</p>
<p>"I examined everything narrowly, and at last, I found a few streaks of the
paint on the inside of your dressing-gown—not the linen
dressing-gown you usually wore in that summer season, but a flannel
dressing-gown which you had with you also. I suppose you felt chilly after
walking to and fro in nothing but your nightdress, and put on the warmest
thing you could find. At any rate, there were the stains, just visible, on
the inside of the dressing-gown. I easily got rid of these by scraping
away the stuff of the flannel. This done, the only proof left against you
was the proof locked up in my drawer.</p>
<p>"I had just finished your room when I was sent for to be questioned by Mr.
Seegrave, along with the rest of the servants. Next came the examination
of all our boxes. And then followed the most extraordinary event of the
day—to ME—since I had found the paint on your nightgown. This
event came out of the second questioning of Penelope Betteredge by
Superintendent Seegrave.</p>
<p>"Penelope returned to us quite beside herself with rage at the manner in
which Mr. Seegrave had treated her. He had hinted, beyond the possibility
of mistaking him, that he suspected her of being the thief. We were all
equally astonished at hearing this, and we all asked, Why?</p>
<p>"'Because the Diamond was in Miss Rachel's sitting-room," Penelope
answered. "And because I was the last person in the sitting-room at
night!"</p>
<p>"Almost before the words had left her lips, I remembered that another
person had been in the sitting-room later than Penelope. That person was
yourself. My head whirled round, and my thoughts were in dreadful
confusion. In the midst of it all, something in my mind whispered to me
that the smear on your nightgown might have a meaning entirely different
to the meaning which I had given to it up to that time. 'If the last
person who was in the room is the person to be suspected,' I thought to
myself, 'the thief is not Penelope, but Mr. Franklin Blake!'</p>
<p>"In the case of any other gentleman, I believe I should have been ashamed
of suspecting him of theft, almost as soon as the suspicion had passed
through my mind.</p>
<p>"But the bare thought that YOU had let yourself down to my level, and that
I, in possessing myself of your nightgown, had also possessed myself of
the means of shielding you from being discovered, and disgraced for life—I
say, sir, the bare thought of this seemed to open such a chance before me
of winning your good will, that I passed blindfold, as one may say, from
suspecting to believing. I made up my mind, on the spot, that you had
shown yourself the busiest of anybody in fetching the police, as a blind
to deceive us all; and that the hand which had taken Miss Rachel's jewel
could by no possibility be any other hand than yours.</p>
<p>"The excitement of this new discovery of mine must, I think, have turned
my head for a while. I felt such a devouring eagerness to see you—to
try you with a word or two about the Diamond, and to MAKE you look at me,
and speak to me, in that way—that I put my hair tidy, and made
myself as nice as I could, and went to you boldly in the library where I
knew you were writing.</p>
<p>"You had left one of your rings up-stairs, which made as good an excuse
for my intrusion as I could have desired. But, oh, sir! if you have ever
loved, you will understand how it was that all my courage cooled, when I
walked into the room, and found myself in your presence. And then, you
looked up at me so coldly, and you thanked me for finding your ring in
such an indifferent manner, that my knees trembled under me, and I felt as
if I should drop on the floor at your feet. When you had thanked me, you
looked back, if you remember, at your writing. I was so mortified at being
treated in this way, that I plucked up spirit enough to speak. I said,
'This is a strange thing about the Diamond, sir.' And you looked up again,
and said, 'Yes, it is!' You spoke civilly (I can't deny that); but still
you kept a distance—a cruel distance between us. Believing, as I
did, that you had got the lost Diamond hidden about you, while you were
speaking, your coolness so provoked me that I got bold enough, in the heat
of the moment, to give you a hint. I said, 'They will never find the
Diamond, sir, will they? No! nor the person who took it—I'll answer
for that.' I nodded, and smiled at you, as much as to say, 'I know!' THIS
time, you looked up at me with something like interest in your eyes; and I
felt that a few more words on your side and mine might bring out the
truth. Just at that moment, Mr. Betteredge spoilt it all by coming to the
door. I knew his footstep, and I also knew that it was against his rules
for me to be in the library at that time of day—let alone being
there along with you. I had only just time to get out of my own accord,
before he could come in and tell me to go. I was angry and disappointed;
but I was not entirely without hope for all that. The ice, you see, was
broken between us—and I thought I would take care, on the next
occasion, that Mr. Betteredge was out of the way.</p>
<p>"When I got back to the servants' hall, the bell was going for our dinner.
Afternoon already! and the materials for making the new nightgown were
still to be got! There was but one chance of getting them. I shammed ill
at dinner; and so secured the whole of the interval from then till
tea-time to my own use.</p>
<p>"What I was about, while the household believed me to be lying down in my
own room; and how I spent the night, after shamming ill again at tea-time,
and having been sent up to bed, there is no need to tell you. Sergeant
Cuff discovered that much, if he discovered nothing more. And I can guess
how. I was detected (though I kept my veil down) in the draper's shop at
Frizinghall. There was a glass in front of me, at the counter where I was
buying the longcloth; and—in that glass—I saw one of the
shopmen point to my shoulder and whisper to another. At night again, when
I was secretly at work, locked into my room, I heard the breathing of the
women servants who suspected me, outside my door.</p>
<p>"It didn't matter then; it doesn't matter now. On the Friday morning,
hours before Sergeant Cuff entered the house, there was the new nightgown—to
make up your number in place of the nightgown that I had got—made,
wrung out, dried, ironed, marked, and folded as the laundry woman folded
all the others, safe in your drawer. There was no fear (if the linen in
the house was examined) of the newness of the nightgown betraying me. All
your underclothing had been renewed, when you came to our house—I
suppose on your return home from foreign parts.</p>
<p>"The next thing was the arrival of Sergeant Cuff; and the next great
surprise was the announcement of what HE thought about the smear on the
door.</p>
<p>"I had believed you to be guilty (as I have owned), more because I wanted
you to be guilty than for any other reason. And now, the Sergeant had come
round by a totally different way to the same conclusion (respecting the
nightgown) as mine! And I had got the dress that was the only proof
against you! And not a living creature knew it—yourself included! I
am afraid to tell you how I felt when I called these things to mind—you
would hate my memory for ever afterwards."</p>
<p>At that place, Betteredge looked up from the letter.</p>
<p>"Not a glimmer of light so far, Mr. Franklin," said the old man, taking
off his heavy tortoiseshell spectacles, and pushing Rosanna Spearman's
confession a little away from him. "Have you come to any conclusion, sir,
in your own mind, while I have been reading?"</p>
<p>"Finish the letter first, Betteredge; there may be something to enlighten
us at the end of it. I shall have a word or two to say to you after that."</p>
<p>"Very good, sir. I'll just rest my eyes, and then I'll go on again. In the
meantime, Mr. Franklin—I don't want to hurry you—but would you
mind telling me, in one word, whether you see your way out of this
dreadful mess yet?"</p>
<p>"I see my way back to London," I said, "to consult Mr. Bruff. If he can't
help me——"</p>
<p>"Yes, sir?"</p>
<p>"And if the Sergeant won't leave his retirement at Dorking——"</p>
<p>"He won't, Mr. Franklin!"</p>
<p>"Then, Betteredge—as far as I can see now—I am at the end of
my resources. After Mr. Bruff and the Sergeant, I don't know of a living
creature who can be of the slightest use to me."</p>
<p>As the words passed my lips, some person outside knocked at the door of
the room.</p>
<p>Betteredge looked surprised as well as annoyed by the interruption.</p>
<p>"Come in," he called out, irritably, "whoever you are!"</p>
<p>The door opened, and there entered to us, quietly, the most
remarkable-looking man that I had ever seen. Judging him by his figure and
his movements, he was still young. Judging him by his face, and comparing
him with Betteredge, he looked the elder of the two. His complexion was of
a gipsy darkness; his fleshless cheeks had fallen into deep hollows, over
which the bone projected like a pent-house. His nose presented the fine
shape and modelling so often found among the ancient people of the East,
so seldom visible among the newer races of the West. His forehead rose
high and straight from the brow. His marks and wrinkles were innumerable.
From this strange face, eyes, stranger still, of the softest brown—eyes
dreamy and mournful, and deeply sunk in their orbits—looked out at
you, and (in my case, at least) took your attention captive at their will.
Add to this a quantity of thick closely-curling hair, which, by some freak
of Nature, had lost its colour in the most startlingly partial and
capricious manner. Over the top of his head it was still of the deep black
which was its natural colour. Round the sides of his head—without
the slightest gradation of grey to break the force of the extraordinary
contrast—it had turned completely white. The line between the two
colours preserved no sort of regularity. At one place, the white hair ran
up into the black; at another, the black hair ran down into the white. I
looked at the man with a curiosity which, I am ashamed to say, I found it
quite impossible to control. His soft brown eyes looked back at me gently;
and he met my involuntary rudeness in staring at him, with an apology
which I was conscious that I had not deserved.</p>
<p>"I beg your pardon," he said. "I had no idea that Mr. Betteredge was
engaged." He took a slip of paper from his pocket, and handed it to
Betteredge. "The list for next week," he said. His eyes just rested on me
again—and he left the room as quietly as he had entered it.</p>
<p>"Who is that?" I asked.</p>
<p>"Mr. Candy's assistant," said Betteredge. "By-the-bye, Mr. Franklin, you
will be sorry to hear that the little doctor has never recovered that
illness he caught, going home from the birthday dinner. He's pretty well
in health; but he lost his memory in the fever, and he has never recovered
more than the wreck of it since. The work all falls on his assistant. Not
much of it now, except among the poor. THEY can't help themselves, you
know. THEY must put up with the man with the piebald hair, and the gipsy
complexion—or they would get no doctoring at all."</p>
<p>"You don't seem to like him, Betteredge?"</p>
<p>"Nobody likes him, sir."</p>
<p>"Why is he so unpopular?"</p>
<p>"Well, Mr. Franklin, his appearance is against him, to begin with. And
then there's a story that Mr. Candy took him with a very doubtful
character. Nobody knows who he is—and he hasn't a friend in the
place. How can you expect one to like him, after that?"</p>
<p>"Quite impossible, of course! May I ask what he wanted with you, when he
gave you that bit of paper?"</p>
<p>"Only to bring me the weekly list of the sick people about here, sir, who
stand in need of a little wine. My lady always had a regular distribution
of good sound port and sherry among the infirm poor; and Miss Rachel
wishes the custom to be kept up. Times have changed! times have changed! I
remember when Mr. Candy himself brought the list to my mistress. Now it's
Mr. Candy's assistant who brings the list to me. I'll go on with the
letter, if you will allow me, sir," said Betteredge, drawing Rosanna
Spearman's confession back to him. "It isn't lively reading, I grant you.
But, there! it keeps me from getting sour with thinking of the past." He
put on his spectacles, and wagged his head gloomily. "There's a bottom of
good sense, Mr. Franklin, in our conduct to our mothers, when they first
start us on the journey of life. We are all of us more or less unwilling
to be brought into the world. And we are all of us right."</p>
<p>Mr. Candy's assistant had produced too strong an impression on me to be
immediately dismissed from my thoughts. I passed over the last
unanswerable utterance of the Betteredge philosophy; and returned to the
subject of the man with the piebald hair.</p>
<p>"What is his name?" I asked.</p>
<p>"As ugly a name as need be," Betteredge answered gruffly. "Ezra Jennings."</p>
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