<p>ALICIA. <SPAN name="link2H_4_0039" id="link2H_4_0039"></SPAN></p>
<h2> XXXIX </h2>
<p>LADY SUSAN TO MRS. JOHNSON</p>
<p>Upper Seymour Street.</p>
<p>My dear Alicia,—I yield to the necessity which parts us. Under
circumstances you could not act otherwise. Our friendship cannot be
impaired by it, and in happier times, when your situation is as
independent as mine, it will unite us again in the same intimacy as ever.
For this I shall impatiently wait, and meanwhile can safely assure you
that I never was more at ease, or better satisfied with myself and
everything about me than at the present hour. Your husband I abhor,
Reginald I despise, and I am secure of never seeing either again. Have I
not reason to rejoice? Mainwaring is more devoted to me than ever; and
were we at liberty, I doubt if I could resist even matrimony offered by
HIM. This event, if his wife live with you, it may be in your power to
hasten. The violence of her feelings, which must wear her out, may be
easily kept in irritation. I rely on your friendship for this. I am now
satisfied that I never could have brought myself to marry Reginald, and am
equally determined that Frederica never shall. To-morrow, I shall fetch
her from Churchhill, and let Maria Mainwaring tremble for the consequence.
Frederica shall be Sir James's wife before she quits my house, and she may
whimper, and the Vernons may storm, I regard them not. I am tired of
submitting my will to the caprices of others; of resigning my own judgment
in deference to those to whom I owe no duty, and for whom I feel no
respect. I have given up too much, have been too easily worked on, but
Frederica shall now feel the difference. Adieu, dearest of friends; may
the next gouty attack be more favourable! and may you always regard me as
unalterably yours,</p>
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