<p>ALICIA. <SPAN name="link2H_4_0029" id="link2H_4_0029"></SPAN></p>
<h2> XXIX </h2>
<p>LADY SUSAN VERNON TO MRS. JOHNSON</p>
<p>Upper Seymour Street.</p>
<p>My dear Alicia,—There needed not this last fit of the gout to make
me detest Mr. Johnson, but now the extent of my aversion is not to be
estimated. To have you confined as nurse in his apartment! My dear Alicia,
of what a mistake were you guilty in marrying a man of his age! just old
enough to be formal, ungovernable, and to have the gout; too old to be
agreeable, too young to die. I arrived last night about five, had scarcely
swallowed my dinner when Mainwaring made his appearance. I will not
dissemble what real pleasure his sight afforded me, nor how strongly I
felt the contrast between his person and manners and those of Reginald, to
the infinite disadvantage of the latter. For an hour or two I was even
staggered in my resolution of marrying him, and though this was too idle
and nonsensical an idea to remain long on my mind, I do not feel very
eager for the conclusion of my marriage, nor look forward with much
impatience to the time when Reginald, according to our agreement, is to be
in town. I shall probably put off his arrival under some pretence or
other. He must not come till Mainwaring is gone. I am still doubtful at
times as to marrying; if the old man would die I might not hesitate, but a
state of dependance on the caprice of Sir Reginald will not suit the
freedom of my spirit; and if I resolve to wait for that event, I shall
have excuse enough at present in having been scarcely ten months a widow.
I have not given Mainwaring any hint of my intention, or allowed him to
consider my acquaintance with Reginald as more than the commonest
flirtation, and he is tolerably appeased. Adieu, till we meet; I am
enchanted with my lodgings.</p>
<p>Yours ever,</p>
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