<h2><SPAN name="chap45"></SPAN>Chapter XLV</h2>
<p>Say what one will about prison life in general, modify it ever so much by
special chambers, obsequious turnkeys, a general tendency to make one as
comfortable as possible, a jail is a jail, and there is no getting away from
that. Cowperwood, in a room which was not in any way inferior to that of the
ordinary boarding-house, was nevertheless conscious of the character of that
section of this real prison which was not yet his portion. He knew that there
were cells there, probably greasy and smelly and vermin-infested, and that they
were enclosed by heavy iron bars, which would have as readily clanked on him as
on those who were now therein incarcerated if he had not had the price to pay
for something better. So much for the alleged equality of man, he thought,
which gave to one man, even within the grim confines of the machinery of
justice, such personal liberty as he himself was now enjoying, and to another,
because he chanced to lack wit or presence or friends or wealth, denied the
more comfortable things which money would buy.</p>
<p>The morning after the trial, on waking, he stirred curiously, and then it
suddenly came to him that he was no longer in the free and comfortable
atmosphere of his own bedroom, but in a jail-cell, or rather its very
comfortable substitute, a sheriff’s rented bedroom. He got up and looked
out the window. The ground outside and Passayunk Avenue were white with snow.
Some wagons were silently lumbering by. A few Philadelphians were visible here
and there, going to and fro on morning errands. He began to think at once what
he must do, how he must act to carry on his business, to rehabilitate himself;
and as he did so he dressed and pulled the bell-cord, which had been indicated
to him, and which would bring him an attendant who would build him a fire and
later bring him something to eat. A shabby prison attendant in a blue uniform,
conscious of Cowperwood’s superiority because of the room he occupied,
laid wood and coal in the grate and started a fire, and later brought him his
breakfast, which was anything but prison fare, though poor enough at that.</p>
<p>After that he was compelled to wait in patience several hours, in spite of the
sheriff’s assumption of solicitous interest, before his brother Edward
was admitted with his clothes. An attendant, for a consideration, brought him
the morning papers, and these, except for the financial news, he read
indifferently. Late in the afternoon Steger arrived, saying he had been busy
having certain proceedings postponed, but that he had arranged with the sheriff
for Cowperwood to be permitted to see such of those as had important business
with him.</p>
<p>By this time, Cowperwood had written Aileen under no circumstances to try to
see him, as he would be out by the tenth, and that either that day, or shortly
after, they would meet. As he knew, she wanted greatly to see him, but he had
reason to believe she was under surveillance by detectives employed by her
father. This was not true, but it was preying on her fancy, and combined with
some derogatory remarks dropped by Owen and Callum at the dinner table
recently, had proved almost too much for her fiery disposition. But, because of
Cowperwood’s letter reaching her at the Calligans’, she made no
move until she read on the morning of the tenth that Cowperwood’s plea
for a certificate of reasonable doubt had been granted, and that he would once
more, for the time being at least, be a free man. This gave her courage to do
what she had long wanted to do, and that was to teach her father that she could
get along without him and that he could not make her do anything she did not
want to do. She still had the two hundred dollars Cowperwood had given her and
some additional cash of her own—perhaps three hundred and fifty dollars
in all. This she thought would be sufficient to see her to the end of her
adventure, or at least until she could make some other arrangement for her
personal well-being. From what she knew of the feeling of her family for her,
she felt that the agony would all be on their side, not hers. Perhaps when her
father saw how determined she was he would decide to let her alone and make
peace with her. She was determined to try it, anyhow, and immediately sent word
to Cowperwood that she was going to the Calligans and would welcome him to
freedom.</p>
<p>In a way, Cowperwood was rather gratified by Aileen’s message, for he
felt that his present plight, bitter as it was, was largely due to
Butler’s opposition and he felt no compunction in striking him through
his daughter. His former feeling as to the wisdom of not enraging Butler had
proved rather futile, he thought, and since the old man could not be placated
it might be just as well to have Aileen demonstrate to him that she was not
without resources of her own and could live without him. She might force him to
change his attitude toward her and possibly even to modify some of his
political machinations against him, Cowperwood. Any port in a storm—and
besides, he had now really nothing to lose, and instinct told him that her move
was likely to prove more favorable than otherwise—so he did nothing to
prevent it.</p>
<p>She took her jewels, some underwear, a couple of dresses which she thought
would be serviceable, and a few other things, and packed them in the most
capacious portmanteau she had. Shoes and stockings came into consideration,
and, despite her efforts, she found that she could not get in all that she
wished. Her nicest hat, which she was determined to take, had to be carried
outside. She made a separate bundle of it, which was not pleasant to
contemplate. Still she decided to take it. She rummaged in a little drawer
where she kept her money and jewels, and found the three hundred and fifty
dollars and put it in her purse. It wasn’t much, as Aileen could herself
see, but Cowperwood would help her. If he did not arrange to take care of her,
and her father would not relent, she would have to get something to do. Little
she knew of the steely face the world presents to those who have not been
practically trained and are not economically efficient. She did not understand
the bitter reaches of life at all. She waited, humming for effect, until she
heard her father go downstairs to dinner on this tenth day of December, then
leaned over the upper balustrade to make sure that Owen, Callum, Norah, and her
mother were at the table, and that Katy, the housemaid, was not anywhere in
sight. Then she slipped into her father’s den, and, taking a note from
inside her dress, laid it on his desk, and went out. It was addressed to
“Father,” and read:</p>
<p class="letter">
Dear Father,—I just cannot do what you want me to. I have made up my mind
that I love Mr. Cowperwood too much, so I am going away. Don’t look for
me with him. You won’t find me where you think. I am not going to him; I
will not be there. I am going to try to get along by myself for a while, until
he wants me and can marry me. I’m terribly sorry; but I just can’t
do what you want. I can’t ever forgive you for the way you acted to me.
Tell mama and Norah and the boys good-by for me.</p>
<p class="right">
Aileen</p>
<p>To insure its discovery, she picked up Butler’s heavy-rimmed spectacles
which he employed always when reading, and laid them on it. For a moment she
felt very strange, somewhat like a thief—a new sensation for her. She
even felt a momentary sense of ingratitude coupled with pain. Perhaps she was
doing wrong. Her father had been very good to her. Her mother would feel so
very bad. Norah would be sorry, and Callum and Owen. Still, they did not
understand her any more. She was resentful of her father’s attitude. He
might have seen what the point was; but no, he was too old, too hidebound in
religion and conventional ideas—he never would. He might never let her
come back. Very well, she would get along somehow. She would show him. She
might get a place as a school-teacher, and live with the Calligans a long
while, if necessary, or teach music.</p>
<p>She stole downstairs and out into the vestibule, opening the outer door and
looking out into the street. The lamps were already flaring in the dark, and a
cool wind was blowing. Her portmanteau was heavy, but she was quite strong. She
walked briskly to the corner, which was some fifty feet away, and turned south,
walking rather nervously and irritably, for this was a new experience for her,
and it all seemed so undignified, so unlike anything she was accustomed to
doing. She put her bag down on a street corner, finally, to rest. A boy
whistling in the distance attracted her attention, and as he drew near she
called to him: “Boy! Oh, boy!”</p>
<p>He came over, looking at her curiously.</p>
<p>“Do you want to earn some money?”</p>
<p>“Yes, ma’am,” he replied politely, adjusting a frowsy cap
over one ear.</p>
<p>“Carry this bag for me,” said Aileen, and he picked it up and
marched off.</p>
<p>In due time she arrived at the Calligans’, and amid much excitement was
installed in the bosom of her new home. She took her situation with much
nonchalance, once she was properly placed, distributing her toilet articles and
those of personal wear with quiet care. The fact that she was no longer to have
the services of Kathleen, the maid who had served her and her mother and Norah
jointly, was odd, though not trying. She scarcely felt that she had parted from
these luxuries permanently, and so made herself comfortable.</p>
<p>Mamie Calligan and her mother were adoring slaveys, so she was not entirely out
of the atmosphere which she craved and to which she was accustomed.</p>
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