<h4><SPAN name="CHAPTER41" id="CHAPTER41">CHAPTER THE LAST.<br/>
"DEAR IS THE MEMORY OF OUR WEDDED LIVES."</SPAN></h4>
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<p>Mary and Edward Arundel saw the awful light in the sky, and heard the voices
of the people shouting in the street below, and calling to one another that
Marchmont Towers was on fire.</p>
<p>The young mistress of the burning pile had very little concern for her
property. She only kept saying, again and again, "O Edward! I hope there is no
one in the house. God grant there may be no one in the house!"</p>
<p>And when the flames were highest, and it seemed by the light in the sky as
if all Lincolnshire had been blazing, Edward Arundel's wife flung herself upon
her knees, and prayed aloud for any unhappy creature that might be in peril.</p>
<p>Oh, if we could dare to think that this innocent girl's prayer was heard
before the throne of an Awful Judge, pleading for the soul of a wicked man!</p>
<p>Early the next morning Mrs. Arundel came from Lawford Grange with her
confidential maid, and carried off her daughter–in–law and the
baby, on the first stage of the journey into Devonshire. Before she left
Kemberling, Mary was told that no dead body had been found amongst the ruins of
the Towers; and this assertion deluded her into the belief that no unhappy
creature had perished. So she went to Dangerfield happier than she had ever
been since the sunny days of her honeymoon, to wait there for the coming of
Edward Arundel, who was to stay behind to see Richard Paulette and Mr. Gormby,
and to secure the testimony of Mr. Weston and Betsy Murrel with a view to the
identification of Mary's little son, who had been neither registered nor
christened.</p>
<p>I have no need to dwell upon this process of identification, registration,
and christening, through which Master Edward Arundel had to pass in the course
of the next month. I had rather skip this dry–as–dust business, and
go on to that happy time which Edward and his young wife spent together under
the oaks at Dangerfield––that bright second honeymoon season, while
they were as yet houseless; for a pretty villa–like mansion was being
built on the Marchmont property, far away from the dank wood and the dismal
river, in a pretty pastoral little nook, which was a fair oasis amidst the
general dreariness of Lincolnshire.</p>
<p>I need scarcely say that the grand feature of this happy time was THE BABY.
It will be of course easily understood that this child stood alone amongst
babies. There never had been another such infant; it was more than probable
there would never again be such a one. In every attribute of babyhood he was a
twelvemonth in advance of the rest of his race. Prospective greatness was
stamped upon his brow. He would be a Clive or a Wellington, unless indeed he
should have a fancy for the Bar and the Woolsack, in which case he would be a
little more erudite than Lyndhurst, a trifle more eloquent than Brougham. All
this was palpable to the meanest capacity in the very manner in which this
child crowed in his nurse's arms, or choked himself with farinaceous food, or
smiled recognition at his young father, or performed the simplest act common to
infancy.</p>
<p>I think Mr. Sant would have been pleased to paint one of those summer scenes
at Dangerfield––the proud soldier–father; the pale young
wife; the handsome, matronly grandmother; and, as the mystic centre of that
magic circle, the toddling flaxen–haired baby, held up by his father's
hands, and taking caricature strides in imitation of papa's big steps.</p>
<p>To my mind, it is a great pity that children are not children for
ever––that the pretty baby–boy by Sant, all rosy and flaxen
and blue–eyed, should ever grow into a great angular pre–Raphaelite
hobadahoy, horribly big and out of drawing. But neither Edward nor Mary nor,
above all, Mrs. Arundel were of this opinion. They were as eager for the child
to grow up and enter for the great races of this life, as some speculative turf
magnate who has given a fancy price for a yearling, and is pining to see the
animal a far–famed three–year–old, and winner of the double
event.</p>
<p>Before the child had cut a double–tooth Mrs. Arundel senior had
decided in favour of Eton as opposed to Harrow, and was balancing the
conflicting advantages of classical Oxford and mathematical Cambridge; while
Edward could not see the baby–boy rolling on the grass, with blue ribbons
and sashes fluttering in the breeze, without thinking of his son's future
appearance in the uniform of his own regiment, gorgeous in the splendid crush
of a levee at St. James's.</p>
<p>How many airy castles were erected in that happy time, with the baby for the
foundation–stone of all of them! <em>The</em> BABY! Why, that definite
article alone expresses an infinity of foolish love and admiration. Nobody says
<em>the</em> father, the husband, the mother; it is "my" father, my husband, as
the case may be. But every baby, from St. Giles's to Belgravia, from Tyburnia
to St. Luke's, is "the" baby. The infant's reign is short, but his royalty is
supreme, and no one presumes to question his despotic rule.</p>
<p>Edward Arundel almost worshipped the little child whose feeble cry he had
heard in the October twilight, and had <em>not</em> recognised. He was never
tired of reproaching himself for this omission. That baby–voice
<em>ought</em> to have awakened a strange thrill in the young father's
breast.</p>
<p>That time at Dangerfield was the happiest period of Mary's life. All her
sorrows had melted away. They did not tell her of Paul Marchmont's suspected
fate; they only told her that her enemy had disappeared, and that no one knew
whither he had gone. Mary asked once, and once only, about her stepmother; and
she was told that Olivia was at Swampington Rectory, living with her father,
and that people said she was mad. George Weston had emigrated to Australia,
with his wife, and his wife's mother and sister. There had been no prosecution
for conspiracy; the disappearance of the principal criminal had rendered that
unnecessary.</p>
<p>This was all that Mary ever heard of her persecutors. She did not wish to
hear of them; she had forgiven them long ago. I think that in the inner depths
of her innocent heart she had forgiven them from the moment she had fallen on
her husband's breast in Hester's parlour at Kemberling, and had felt his strong
arms clasped about her, sheltering her from all harm for evermore.</p>
<p>She was very happy; and her nature, always gentle, seemed sublimated by the
sufferings she had endured, and already akin to that of the angels. Alas, this
was Edward Arundel's chief sorrow! This young wife, so precious to him in her
fading loveliness, was slipping away from him, even in the hour when they were
happiest together––was separated from him even when they were most
united. She was separated from him by that unconquerable sadness in his heart,
which was prophetic of a great sorrow to come.</p>
<p>Sometimes, when Mary saw her husband looking at her with a mournful
tenderness, an almost despairing love in his eyes, she would throw herself into
his arms, and say to him:</p>
<p>"You must remember how happy I have been, Edward. O my darling! promise me
always to remember how happy I have been."</p>
<p>When the first chill breezes of autumn blew among the Dangerfield oaks,
Edward Arundel took his wife southwards, with his mother and the inevitable
baby in her train. They went to Nice, and they were very quiet, very happy, in
the pretty southern town, with snow–clad mountains behind them, and the
purple Mediterranean before.</p>
<p>The villa was building all this time in Lincolnshire. Edward's agent sent
him plans and sketches for Mrs. Arundel's approval; and every evening there was
some fresh talk about the arrangement of the rooms, and the laying–out of
gardens. Mary was always pleased to see the plans and drawings, and to discuss
the progress of the work with her husband. She would talk of the
billiard–room, and the cosy little smoking–room, and the nurseries
for the baby, which were to have a southern aspect, and every advantage
calculated to assist the development of that rare and marvellous blossom; and
she would plan the comfortable apartments that were to be specially kept for
dear grandmamma, who would of course spend a great deal of her time at the
Sycamores––the new place was to be called the Sycamores. But Edward
could never get his wife to talk of a certain boudoir opening into a tiny
conservatory, which he himself had added on to the original architect's plan.
He could never get Mary to speak of this particular chamber; and once, when he
asked her some question about the colour of the draperies, she said to him,
very gently,––</p>
<p>"I would rather you would not think of that room, darling."</p>
<p>"Why, my pet?"</p>
<p>"Because it will make you sorry afterwards."</p>
<p>"Mary, my darling––––"</p>
<p>"O Edward! you know,––you must know, dearest,––that
I shall never see that place?"</p>
<p>But her husband took her in his arms, and declared that this was only a
morbid fancy, and that she was getting better and stronger every day, and would
live to see her grandchildren playing under the maples that sheltered the
northern side of the new villa. Edward told his wife this, and he believed in
the truth of what he said. He could not believe that he was to lose this young
wife, restored to him after so many trials. Mary did not contradict him just
then; but that night, when he was sitting in her room reading by the light of a
shaded lamp after she had gone to bed,––Mary went to bed very
early, by order of the doctors, and indeed lived altogether according to
medical <em>r�gime</em>,––she called her husband to her.</p>
<p>"I want to speak to you, dear," she said; "there is something that I must
say to you."</p>
<p>The young man knelt down by his wife's bed.</p>
<p>"What is it, darling?" he asked.</p>
<p>"You know what we said to–day, Edward?"</p>
<p>"What, darling? We say so many things every day––we are so happy
together, and have so much to talk about."</p>
<p>"But you remember, Edward,––you remember what I said about never
seeing the Sycamores? Ah! don't stop me, dear love," Mary said reproachfully,
for Edward put his lips to hers to stay the current of mournful
words,––"don't stop me, dear, for I must speak to you. I want you
to know that <em>it must be</em>, Edward darling. I want you to remember how
happy I have been, and how willing I am to part with you, dear, since it is
God's will that we should be parted. And there is something else that I want to
say, Edward. Grandmamma told me something––all about Belinda. I
want you to promise me that Belinda shall be happy by–and–by; for
she has suffered so much, poor girl! And you will love her, and she will love
the baby. But you won't love her quite the same way that you loved me, will
you, dear? because you never knew her when she was a little child, and very
poor. She has never been an orphan, and quite lonely, as I have been. You have
never been <em>all the world</em> to her."</p>
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<p>* * * * *</p>
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<p>The Sycamores was finished by the following midsummer, but no one took
possession of the newly–built house; no brisk upholsterer's men came,
with three–foot rules and pencils and memorandum–books, to take
measurements of windows and floors; no wagons of splendid furniture made havoc
of the gravel–drive before the principal entrance. The only person who
came to the new house was a snuff–taking crone from Stanfield, who
brought a turn–up bedstead, a Dutch clock, and a few minor articles of
furniture, and encamped in a corner of the best bedroom.</p>
<p>Edward Arundel, senior, was away in India, fighting under Napier and Outram;
and Edward Arundel, junior, was at Dangerfield, under the charge of his
grandmother.</p>
<p>Perhaps the most beautiful monument in one of the English cemeteries at Nice
is that tall white marble cross and kneeling figure, before which strangers
pause to read an inscription to the memory of Mary, the beloved wife of Edward
Dangerfield Arundel.</p>
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<h4><SPAN name="EPILOGUE." id="EPILOGUE.">THE EPILOGUE.</SPAN></h4>
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<p>Four years after the completion of that pretty stuccoed villa, which seemed
destined never to be inhabited, Belinda Lawford walked alone up and down the
sheltered shrubbery–walk in the Grange garden in the fading September
daylight.</p>
<p>Miss Lawford was taller and more womanly–looking than she had been on
the day of her interrupted wedding. The vivid bloom had left her cheeks; but I
think she was all the prettier because of that delicate pallor, which gave a
pensive cast to her countenance. She was very grave and gentle and good; but
she had never forgotten the shock of that broken bridal ceremonial in
Hillingsworth Church.</p>
<p>The Major had taken his eldest daughter abroad almost immediately after that
July day; and Belinda and her father had travelled together very peacefully,
exploring quiet Belgian cities, looking at celebrated altar–pieces in
dusky cathedrals, and wandering round battle–fields, which the
intermingled blood of rival nations had once made one crimson swamp. They had
been nearly a twelvemonth absent, and then Belinda returned to assist at the
marriage of a younger sister, and to hear that Edward Arundel's wife had died
of a lingering pulmonary complaint at Nice.</p>
<p>She was told this: and she was told how Olivia Marchmont still lived with
her father at Swampington, and how day by day she went the same round from
cottage to cottage, visiting the sick; teaching little children, or sometimes
rough–bearded men, to read and write and cipher; reading to old decrepid
pensioners; listening to long histories of sickness and trial, and exhibiting
an unwearying patience that was akin to sublimity. Passion had burnt itself out
in this woman's breast, and there was nothing in her mind now but remorse, and
the desire to perform a long penance, by reason of which she might in the end
be forgiven.</p>
<p>But Mrs. Marchmont never visited anyone alone. Wherever she went, Barbara
Simmons accompanied her, constant as her shadow. The Swampington people said
this was because the Rector's daughter was not quite right in her mind; and
there were times when she forgot where she was, and would have wandered away in
a purposeless manner, Heaven knows where, had she not been accompanied by her
faithful servant. Clever as the Swampington people and the Kemberling people
might be in finding out the business of their neighbours, they never knew that
Olivia Marchmont had been consentient to the hiding–away of her
stepdaughter. They looked upon her, indeed, with considerable respect, as a
heroine by whose exertions Paul Marchmont's villany had been discovered. In the
hurry and confusion of the scene at Hillingsworth Church, nobody had taken heed
of Olivia's incoherent self–accusations: Hubert Arundel was therefore
spared the misery of knowing the extent of his daughter's sin.</p>
<p>Belinda Lawford came home in order to be present at her sister's wedding;
and the old life began again for her, with all the old duties that had once
been so pleasant. She went about them very cheerfully now. She worked for her
poor pensioners, and took the chief burden of the housekeeping off her mother's
hands. But though she jingled her keys with a cheery music as she went about
the house, and though she often sang to herself over her work, the old happy
smile rarely lit up her face. She went about her duties rather like some
widowed matron who had lived her life, than a girl before whom the future lies,
mysterious and unknown.</p>
<p>It has been said that happiness comes to the sleeper––the
meaning of which proverb I take to be, that Joy generally comes to us when we
least look for her lovely face. And it was on this September afternoon, when
Belinda loitered in the garden after her round of small duties was finished,
and she was free to think or dream at her leisure, that happiness came to
her,––unexpected, unhoped–for, supreme; for, turning at one
end of the sheltered alley, she saw Edward Arundel standing at the other end,
with his hat in his hand, and the summer wind blowing amongst his hair.</p>
<p>Miss Lawford stopped quite still. The old–fashioned garden reeled
before her eyes, and the hard–gravelled path seemed to become a quaking
bog. She could not move; she stood still, and waited while Edward came towards
her.</p>
<p>"Letitia has told me about you, Linda," he said; "she has told me how true
and noble you have been; and she sent me here to look for a wife, to make new
sunshine in my empty home,––a young mother to smile upon my
motherless boy."</p>
<p>Edward and Belinda walked up and down the sheltered alley for a long time,
talking a great deal of the sad past, a little of the fair–seeming
future. It was growing dusk before they went in at the old–fashioned
half–glass door leading into the drawing–room, where Mrs. Lawford
and her younger daughters were sitting, and where Lydia, who was next to
Belinda, and had been three years married to the Curate of Hillingsworth, was
nursing her second baby.</p>
<p>"Has she said 'yes'?" this young matron cried directly; for she had been
told of Edward's errand to the Grange. "But of course she has. What else should
she say, after refusing all manner of people, and giving herself the airs of an
old–maid? Yes, um pressus Pops, um Aunty Lindy's going to be
marriedy–pariedy," concluded the Curate's wife, addressing her
three–months–old baby in that peculiar patois which is supposed to
be intelligible to infants by reason of being unintelligible to everybody
else.</p>
<p>"I suppose you are not aware that my future brother–in–law is a
major?" said Belinda's third sister, who had been struggling with a variation
by Thalberg, all octaves and accidentals, and who twisted herself round upon
her music–stool to address her sister. "I suppose you are not aware that
you have been talking to Major Arundel, who has done all manner of splendid
things in the Punjaub? Papa told us all about it five minutes ago."</p>
<p>It was as much as Belinda could do to support the clamorous felicitations of
her sisters, especially the unmarried damsels, who were eager to exhibit
themselves in the capacity of bridesmaids; but by–and–by, after
dinner, the Curate's wife drew her sisters away from that shadowy window in
which Edward Arundel and Belinda were sitting, and the lovers were left to
themselves.</p>
<p>That evening was very peaceful, very happy, and there were many other
evenings like it before Edward and Belinda completed that ceremonial which they
had left unfinished more than five years before.</p>
<p>The Sycamores was very prettily furnished, under Belinda's superintendence;
and as Reginald Arundel had lately married, Edward's mother came to live with
her younger son, and brought with her the idolised grandchild, who was now a
tall, yellow–haired boy of six years old.</p>
<p>There was only one room in the Sycamores which was never tenanted by any one
of that little household except Edward himself, who kept the key of the little
chamber in his writing–desk, and only allowed the servants to go in at
stated intervals to keep everything bright and orderly in the apartment.</p>
<p>The shut–up chamber was the boudoir which Edward Arundel had planned
for his first wife. He had ordered it to be furnished with the very furniture
which he had intended for Mary. The rosebuds and butterflies on the walls, the
guipure curtains lined with pale blush–rose silk, the few chosen books in
the little cabinet near the fireplace, the Dresden breakfast–service, the
statuettes and pictures, were things he had fixed upon long ago in his own mind
as the decorations for his wife's apartment. He went into the room now and
then, and looked at his first wife's picture––a crayon sketch taken
in London before Mary and her husband started for the South of France. He
looked a little wistfully at this picture, even when he was happiest in the new
ties that bound him to life, and all that is brightest in life.</p>
<p>Major Arundel took his eldest son into this room one day, when young Edward
was eight or nine years old, and showed the boy his mother's portrait.</p>
<p>"When you are a man, this place will be yours, Edward," the father said.
"<em>You</em> can give your wife this room, although I have never given it to
mine. You will tell her that it was built for your mother, and that it was
built for her by a husband who, even when most grateful to God for every new
blessing he enjoyed, never ceased to be sorry for the loss of his first
love."</p>
<p>And so I leave my soldier–hero, to repose upon laurels that have been
hardly won, and secure in that modified happiness which is chastened by the
memory of sorrow. I leave him with bright children crowding round his knees, a
loving wife smiling at him across those fair childish heads. I leave him happy
and good and useful, filling his place in the world, and bringing up his
children to be wise and virtuous men and women in the days that are to come. I
leave him, above all, with the serene lamp of faith for ever burning in his
soul, lighting the image of that other world in which there is neither marrying
nor giving in marriage, and where his dead wife will smile upon him from amidst
the vast throng of angel faces––a child for ever and ever before
the throne of God!</p>
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<p>THE END.</p>
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