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<h2> CHAPTER XV. </h2>
<h3> EMBARKATION. </h3>
<p>IT was with the utmost difficulty that the united efforts of Mademoiselle
and Montraville could support Charlotte's spirits during their short ride
from Chichester to Portsmouth, where a boat waited to take them
immediately on board the ship in which they were to embark for America.</p>
<p>As soon as she became tolerably composed, she entreated pen and ink to
write to her parents. This she did in the most affecting, artless manner,
entreating their pardon and blessing, and describing the dreadful
situation of her mind, the conflict she suffered in endeavouring to
conquer this unfortunate attachment, and concluded with saying, her only
hope of future comfort consisted in the (perhaps delusive) idea she
indulged, of being once more folded in their protecting arms, and hearing
the words of peace and pardon from their lips.</p>
<p>The tears streamed incessantly while she was writing, and she was
frequently obliged to lay down her pen: but when the task was completed,
and she had committed the letter to the care of Montraville to be sent to
the post office, she became more calm, and indulging the delightful hope
of soon receiving an answer that would seal her pardon, she in some
measure assumed her usual cheerfulness.</p>
<p>But Montraville knew too well the consequences that must unavoidably
ensue, should this letter reach Mr. Temple: he therefore wisely resolved
to walk on the deck, tear it in pieces, and commit the fragments to the
care of Neptune, who might or might not, as it suited his convenience,
convey them on shore.</p>
<p>All Charlotte's hopes and wishes were now concentred in one, namely that
the fleet might be detained at Spithead till she could receive a letter
from her friends: but in this she was disappointed, for the second morning
after she went on board, the signal was made, the fleet weighed anchor,
and in a few hours (the wind being favourable) they bid adieu to the white
cliffs of Al-bion.</p>
<p>In the mean time every enquiry that could be thought of was made by Mr.
and Mrs. Temple; for many days did they indulge the fond hope that she was
merely gone off to be married, and that when the indissoluble knot was
once tied, she would return with the partner she had chosen, and entreat
their blessing and forgiveness.</p>
<p>"And shall we not forgive her?" said Mr. Temple.</p>
<p>"Forgive her!" exclaimed the mother. "Oh yes, whatever be our errors, is
she not our child? and though bowed to the earth even with shame and
remorse, is it not our duty to raise the poor penitent, and whisper peace
and comfort to her desponding soul? would she but return, with rapture
would I fold her to my heart, and bury every remembrance of her faults in
the dear embrace."</p>
<p>But still day after day passed on, and Charlotte did not appear, nor were
any tidings to be heard of her: yet each rising morning was welcomed by
some new hope—the evening brought with it disappointment. At length
hope was no more; despair usurped her place; and the mansion which was
once the mansion of peace, became the habitation of pale, dejected
melancholy.</p>
<p>The cheerful smile that was wont to adorn the face of Mrs. Temple was
fled, and had it not been for the support of unaffected piety, and a
consciousness of having ever set before her child the fairest example, she
must have sunk under this heavy affliction.</p>
<p>"Since," said she, "the severest scrutiny cannot charge me with any breach
of duty to have deserved this severe chastisement, I will bow before the
power who inflicts it with humble resignation to his will; nor shall the
duty of a wife be totally absorbed in the feelings of the mother; I will
endeavour to appear more cheerful, and by appearing in some measure to
have conquered my own sorrow, alleviate the sufferings of my husband, and
rouse him from that torpor into which this misfortune has plunged him. My
father too demands my care and attention: I must not, by a selfish
indulgence of my own grief, forget the interest those two dear objects
take in my happiness or misery: I will wear a smile on my face, though the
thorn rankles in my heart; and if by so doing, I in the smallest degree
contribute to restore their peace of mind, I shall be amply rewarded for
the pain the concealment of my own feelings may occasion."</p>
<p>Thus argued this excellent woman: and in the execution of so laudable a
resolution we shall leave her, to follow the fortunes of the hapless
victim of imprudence and evil counsellors.</p>
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