<p>Dr. Forth was waiting for me
in the small skyport on the roof,
and so was a small 'copter, one
of the fairly old ones assigned
to Medical Service when they
were too beat-up for services
with higher priority. Forth took
one startled stare at my crimson
shirt, but all he said was, "Hello,
Jason. Here's something we've
got to decide right away; do we
tell the crew who you really
are?"</p>
<p>I shook my head emphatically.
"I'm not Jay Allison; I don't
want his name or his reputation.
Unless there are men on the
crew who know Allison by
sight—"</p>
<p>"Some of them do, but I don't
think they'd recognize you."</p>
<p>"Tell them I'm his twin brother,"
I said humorlessly.</p>
<p>"That wouldn't be necessary.
There's not enough resemblance."
Forth raised his head
and beckoned to a man who was
doing something near the 'copter.
He said under his breath,
"You'll see what I mean," as the
man approached.</p>
<p>He wore the uniform of Spaceforce—black
leather with a little
rainbow of stars on his sleeve
meaning he'd seen service on a
dozen different planets, a different
colored star for each one. He
wasn't a young man, but on the
wrong side of fifty, seamed and
burly and huge, with a split lip
and weathered face. I liked his
looks. We shook hands and Forth
said, "This is our man, Kendricks.
He's called Jason, and
he's an expert on the trailmen.
Jason, this is Buck Kendricks."<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_99" id="Page_99"></SPAN></span></p>
<p>"Glad to know you, Jason." I
thought Kendricks looked at me
half a second more than necessary.
"The 'copter's ready. Climb
in, Doc—you're going as far as
Carthon, aren't you?"</p>
<p>We put on zippered windbreaks
and the 'copter soared
noiselessly into the pale crimson
sky. I sat beside Forth, looking
down through pale lilac clouds
at the pattern of Darkover
spread below me.</p>
<p>"Kendricks was giving me a
funny eye, Doc. What's biting
him?"</p>
<p>"He has known Jay Allison for
eight years," Forth said quietly,
"and he hasn't recognized you
yet."</p>
<p>But we let it ride at that, to
my great relief, and didn't talk
any more about me at all. As we
flew under silent whirring
blades, turning our backs on the
settled country which lay near
the Trade City, we talked about
Darkover itself. Forth told me
about the trailmen's fever and
managed to give me some idea
about what the blood fraction
was, and why it was necessary
to persuade fifty or sixty of the
humanoids to return with me, to
donate blood from which the
antibody could be, first isolated,
then synthesised.</p>
<p>It would be a totally unheard-of
thing, if I could accomplish
it. Most of the trailmen never
touched ground in their entire
lives, except when crossing the
passes above the snow line. Not
a dozen of them, including my
foster-parents who had so painfully
brought me out across
Dammerung, had ever crossed
the ring of encircling mountains
that walled them away from the
rest of the planet. Humans
sometimes penetrated the lower
forests in search of the trailmen.
It was one-way traffic. The trailmen
never came in search of
<i>them</i>.</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>We talked, too, about some of
those humans who had crossed
the mountains into trailmen
country—those mountains profanely
dubbed the Hellers by the
first Terrans who had tried to
fly over them in anything lower
or slower than a spaceship. (The
Darkovan name for the Hellers
was even more explicit, and even
in translation, unrepeatable.)</p>
<p>"What about this crew you
picked? They're not Terrans?"</p>
<p>Forth shook his head. "It
would be murder to send anyone
recognizably Terran into the
Hellers. You know how the trailmen
feel about outsiders getting
into their country." I knew.
Forth continued, "Just the same,
there will be two Terrans with
you."</p>
<p>"They don't know Jay Allison?"
I didn't want to be burdened
with anyone—not anyone—who
would know me, or expect
me to behave like my forgotten
other self.</p>
<p>"Kendricks knows you," Forth
said, "but I'm going to be perfectly
truthful. I never knew Jay
Allison well, except in line of
work. I know a lot of things—from
the past couple of days<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_100" id="Page_100"></SPAN></span>—which
came out during the hypnotic
sessions, which he'd never
have dreamed of telling me, or
anyone else, consciously. And
that comes under the heading of
a professional confidence—even
from you. And for that reason,
I'm sending Kendricks along—and
you're going to have to take
the chance he'll recognize you.
Isn't that Carthon down there?"</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>Carthon lay nestled under the
outlying foothills of the Hellers,
ancient and sprawling and squatty,
and burned brown with the
dust of five thousand years.
Children ran out to stare at the
'copter as we landed near the
city; few planes ever flew low
enough to be seen, this near the
Hellers.</p>
<p>Forth had sent his crew ahead
and parked them in an abandoned
huge place at the edge of
the city which might once have
been a warehouse or a ruined
palace. Inside there were a couple
of trucks, stripped down to
framework and flatbed like all
machinery shipped through
space from Terra. There were
pack animals, dark shapes in the
gloom. Crates were stacked up
in an orderly untidiness, and at
the far end a fire was burning
and five or six men in Darkovan
clothing—loose sleeved shirts,
tight wrapped breeches, low
boots—were squatting around it,
talking. They got up as Forth
and Kendricks and I walked toward
them, and Forth greeted
them clumsily, in bad accented
Darkovan, then switched to Terran
Standard, letting one of
the men translate for him.</p>
<p>Forth introduced me simply as
"Jason," after the Darkovan custom,
and I looked the men over,
one by one. Back when I'd climbed
for fun, I'd liked to pick my
own men; but whoever had picked
this crew must have known
his business.</p>
<p>Three were mountain Darkovans,
lean swart men enough
alike to be brothers; I learned
after a while that they actually
were brothers, Hjalmar, Garin
and Vardo. All three were well
over six feet, and Hjalmar stood
head and shoulders over his
brothers, whom I never learned
to tell apart. The fourth man, a
redhead, was dressed rather better
than the others and introduced
as Lerrys Ridenow—the
double name indicating high
Darkovan aristocracy. He looked
muscular and agile enough, but
his hands were suspiciously well-kept
for a mountain man, and I
wondered how much experience
he'd had.</p>
<p>The fifth man shook hands
with me, speaking to Kendricks
and Forth as if they were old
friends. "Don't I know you from
someplace, Jason?"</p>
<p>He looked Darkovan, and wore
Darkovan clothes, but Forth had
forewarned me, and attack seemed
the best defense. "Aren't you
Terran?"</p>
<p>"My father was," he said, and
I understood; a situation not exactly
uncommon, but ticklish on
a planet like Darkover. I said
carelessly, "I may have seen you<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_101" id="Page_101"></SPAN></span>
around the HQ. I can't place you,
though."</p>
<p>"My name's Rafe Scott. I
thought I knew most of the professional
guides on Darkover,
but I admit I don't get into the
Hellers much," he confessed.
"Which route are we going to
take?"</p>
<p>I found myself drawn into the
middle of the group of men, accepting
one of the small sweetish
Darkovan cigarettes, looking
over the plan somebody had
scribbled down on the top of a
packing case. I borrowed a pencil
from Rafe and bent over the
case, sketching out a rough map
of the terrain I remembered so
well from boyhood. I might be
bewildered about blood fractions,
but when it came to climbing I
knew what I was doing. Rafe
and Lerrys and the Darkovan
brothers crowded behind me to
look over the sketch, and Lerrys
put a long fingernail on the
route I'd indicated.</p>
<p>"Your elevation's pretty bad
here," he said diffidently, "and
on the 'Narr campaign the trailmen
attacked us here, and it was
bad fighting along those ledges."</p>
<p>I looked at him with new respect;
dainty hands or not, he
evidently knew the country.
Kendricks patted the blaster on
his hip and said grimly, "But
this isn't the 'Narr campaign.
I'd like to see any trailmen attack
us while I have this."</p>
<p>"But you're not going to have
it," said a voice behind us, a
crisp authoritative voice. "Take
off that gun, man!"</p>
<p>Kendricks and I whirled together,
to see the speaker; a tall
young Darkovan, still standing
in the shadows. The newcomer
spoke to me directly:</p>
<p>"I'm told you are Terran, but
that you understand the trailmen.
Surely you don't intend to
carry fission or fusion weapons
against them?"</p>
<p>And I suddenly realized that
we were in Darkovan territory
now, and that we must reckon
with the Darkovan horror of
guns or of any weapon which
reaches beyond the arm's-length
of the man who wields it. A simple
heat-gun, to the Darkovan
ethical code, is as reprehensible
as a super-cobalt planetbuster.</p>
<p>Kendricks protested, "We
can't travel unarmed through
trailmen country! We're apt to
meet hostile bands of the creatures—and
they're nasty with
those long knives they carry!"</p>
<p>The stranger said calmly,
"I've no objection to you, or
anyone else, carrying a knife for
self-defense."</p>
<p>"A <i>knife</i>?" Kendricks drew
breath to roar. "Listen, you bug-eyed
son-of-a—who do you
think you are, anyway?"</p>
<p>The Darkovans muttered. The
man in the shadows said, "Regis
Hastur."</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>Kendricks stared pop-eyed. My
own eyes could have popped, but
I decided it was time for me to
take charge, if I were ever going
to. I rapped, "All right, this
is my show. Buck, give me the
gun."<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_102" id="Page_102"></SPAN></span></p>
<p>He looked wrathfully at me
for a space of seconds, while I
wondered what I'd do if he
didn't. Then, slowly, he unbuckled
the straps and handed it to
me, butt first.</p>
<p>I'd never realized quite how
undressed a Spaceforce man
looked without his blaster. I balanced
it on my palm for a minute
while Regis Hastur came out
of the shadows. He was tall, and
had the reddish hair and fair
skin of Darkovan aristocracy,
and on his face was some indefinable
stamp—arrogance, perhaps,
or the consciousness that
the Hasturs had ruled this world
for centuries long before the
Terrans brought ships and trade
and the universe to their doors.
He was looking at me as if he
approved of me, and that was
one step worse than the former
situation.</p>
<p>So, using the respectful Darkovan
idiom of speaking to a
superior (which he was) but
keeping my voice hard, I said,
"There's just one leader on any
trek, Lord Hastur. On this one,
I'm it. If you want to discuss
whether or not we carry guns, I
suggest you discuss it with me
in private—and let me give the
orders."</p>
<p>One of the Darkovans gasped.
I knew I could have been mobbed.
But with a mixed bag of
men, I had to grab leadership
quick or be relegated to nowhere.
I didn't give Regis Hastur
a chance to answer that,
either; I said, "Come back here.
I want to talk to you anyway."</p>
<p>He came, and I remembered to
breathe. I led the way to a fairly
deserted corner of the immense
place, faced him and demanded,
"As for you—what are you doing
here? You're not intending
to cross the mountains with
us?"</p>
<p>He met my scowl levelly. "I
certainly am."</p>
<p>I groaned. "Why? You're the
Regent's grandson. Important
people don't take on this kind of
dangerous work. If anything
happens to you, it will be my
responsibility!" I was going to
have enough trouble, I was
thinking, without shepherding
along one of the most revered
Personages on the whole damned
planet! I didn't want anyone
around who had to be fawned
on, or deferred to, or even listened
to.</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>He frowned slightly, and I had
the unpleasant impression that
he knew what I was thinking.
"In the first place—it will mean
something to the trailmen, won't
it—to have a Hastur with you,
suing for this favor?"</p>
<p>It certainly would. The trailmen
paid little enough heed to
the ordinary humans, except for
considering them fair game for
plundering when they came uninvited
into trailman country.
But they, with all Darkover,
revered the Hasturs, and it was
a fine point of diplomacy—if the
Darkovans sent their most important
leader, they might listen
to him.</p>
<p>"In the second place," Regis<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_103" id="Page_103"></SPAN></span>
Hastur continued, "the Darkovans
are my people, and it's my
business to negotiate for them.
In the third place, I know the
trailmen's dialect—not well, but
I can speak it a little. And in the
fourth, I've climbed mountains
all my life. Purely as an amateur,
but I can assure you I
won't be in the way."</p>
<p>There was little enough I
could say to that. He seemed to
have covered every point—or
every point but one, and he
added, shrewdly, after a minute,
"Don't worry; I'm perfectly willing
to have you take charge. I
won't claim—privilege."</p>
<p>I had to be satisfied with that.</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>Darkover is a civilized planet
with a fairly high standard of
living, but it is not a mechanized
or a technological culture. The
people don't do much mining, or
build factories, and the few
which were founded by Terran
enterprise never were very successful;
outside the Terran
Trade City, machinery or modern
transportation is almost unknown.</p>
<p>While the other men checked
and loaded supplies and Rafe
Scott went out to contact some
friends of his and arrange for
last-minute details, I sat down
with Forth to memorize the
medical details I must put so
clearly to the trailmen.</p>
<p>"If we could only have kept
your medical knowledge!"</p>
<p>"Trouble is, being a doctor
doesn't suit my personality," I
said. I felt absurdly light-hearted.
Where I sat, I could raise my
head and study the panorama of
blackish-green foothills which
lay beyond Carthon, and search
out the stone roadways, like a
tiny white ribbon, which we
could follow for the first stage
of the trip. Forth evidently did
not share my enthusiasm.</p>
<p>"You know, Jason, there is one
real danger—"</p>
<p>"Do you think I care about
danger? Or are you afraid I'll
turn—foolhardy?"</p>
<p>"Not exactly. It's not a physical
danger, Jason. It's an emotional—or
rather an intellectual
danger."</p>
<p>"Hell, don't you know any language
but that psycho double-talk?"</p>
<p>"Let me finish, Jason. Jay
Allison may have been repressed,
overcontrolled, but you are seriously
impulsive. You lack a
balance-wheel, if I could put it
that way. And if you run too
many risks, your buried alter-ego
may come to the surface and
take over in sheer self-preservation."</p>
<p>"In other words," I said,
laughing loudly, "if I scare that
Allison stuffed-shirt he may
start stirring in his grave?"</p>
<p>Forth coughed and smothered
a laugh and said that was one
way of putting it. I clapped him
reassuringly on the shoulder and
said, "Forget it, sir. I promise
to be godly, sober and industrious—but
is there any law
against enjoying what I'm doing?"</p>
<p>Somebody burst out of the<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_104" id="Page_104"></SPAN></span>
warehouse-palace place, and
shouted at me. "Jason? The
guide is here," and I stood up,
giving Forth a final grin. "Don't
you worry. Jay Allison's good
riddance," I said, and went back
to meet the other guide they had
chosen.</p>
<p>And I almost backed out when
I saw the guide. For the guide
was a woman.</p>
<p>She was small for a Darkovan
girl, and narrowly built, the sort
of body that could have been
called boyish or coltish but certainly
not, at first glance, feminine.
Close-cut curls, blue-black
and wispy, cast the faintest of
shadows over a squarish sunburnt
face, and her eyes were so
thickly rimmed with heavy dark
lashes that I could not guess
their color. Her nose was snubbed
and might have looked
whimsical and was instead oddly
arrogant. Her mouth was wide,
and her chin round, and altogether
I dismissed her as not at
all a pretty woman.</p>
<p>She held up her palm and said
rather sullenly, "Kyla-Raineach,
free Amazon, licensed guide."</p>
<p>I acknowledged the gesture
with a nod, scowling. The guild
of free Amazons entered virtually
every masculine field, but that
of mountain guide seemed somewhat
bizarre even for an Amazon.
She seemed wiry and agile
enough, her body, under the
heavy blanket-like clothing, almost
as lean of hip and flat of
breast as my own; only the slender
long legs were unequivocally
feminine.</p>
<p>The other men were checking
and loading supplies; I noted
from the corner of my eye that
Regis Hastur was taking his
turn heaving bundles with the
rest. I sat down on some still-undisturbed
sacks, and motioned
her to sit.</p>
<p>"You've had trail experience?
We're going into the Hellers
through Dammerung, and that's
rough going even for professionals."</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>She said in a flat expressionless
voice, "I was with the Terran
Mapping expedition to the
South Polar ridge last year."</p>
<p>"Ever been in the Hellers? If
anything happened to me, could
you lead the expedition safely
back to Carthon?"</p>
<p>She looked down at her stubby
fingers. "I'm sure I could,"
she said finally, and started to
rise. "Is that all?"</p>
<p>"One thing more—" I gestured
to her to stay put. "Kyla,
you'll be one woman among
eight men—"</p>
<p>The snubbed nose wrinkled
up; "I don't expect you to crawl
into my blankets, if that's what
you mean. It's not in my contract—I
hope!"</p>
<p>I felt my face burning. Damn
the girl! "It's not in mine, anyway,"
I snapped, "but I can't
answer for seven other men,
most of them mountain roughnecks!"
Even as I said it I wondered
why I bothered; certainly
a free Amazon could defend her
own virtue, or not, if she wanted
to, without any help from me. I<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_105" id="Page_105"></SPAN></span>
had to excuse myself by adding,
"In either case you'll be a disturbing
element—I don't want
fights, either!"</p>
<p>She made a little low-pitched
sound of amusement. "There's
safety in numbers, and—are you
familiar with the physiological
effect of high altitudes on men
acclimated to low ones?" Suddenly
she threw back her head
and the hidden sound became
free and merry laughter. "Jason,
I'm a free Amazon, and that
means—no, I'm not neutered,
though some of us are. But you
have my word, I won't create
any trouble of any recognizably
female variety." She stood up.
"Now, if you don't mind, I'd like
to check the mountain equipment."</p>
<p>Her eyes were still laughing
at me, but curiously I didn't
mind at all. There was a refreshing
element in her manner.</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>We started that night, a
curiously lopsided little caravan.
The pack animals were loaded
into one truck and didn't like it.
We had another stripped-down
truck which carried supplies.
The ancient stone roads, rutted
and gullied here and there with
the flood-waters and silt of
decades, had not been planned
for any travel other than the
feet of men or beasts. We passed
tiny villages and isolated country
estates, and a few of the
solitary towers where the matrix
mechanics worked alone with the
secret sciences of Darkover, towers
of glareless stone which
sometimes shone like blue beacons
in the dark.</p>
<p>Kendricks drove the truck
which carried the animals, and
was amused by it. Rafe and I
took turns driving the other
truck, sharing the wide front
seat with Regis Hastur and the
girl Kyla, while the other men
found seats between crates and
sacks in the back. Once while
Rafe was at the wheel and the
girl dozing with her coat over
her face to shut out the fierce
sun, Regis asked me, "What are
the trailcities like?"</p>
<p>I tried to tell him, but I've
never been good at boiling things
down into descriptions, and
when he found I was not disposed
to talk, he fell silent and
I was free to drowse over what
I knew of the trailmen and their
world.</p>
<p>Nature seems to have a sameness
on all inhabited worlds,
tending toward the economy and
simplicity of the human form.
The upright carriage, freeing
the hands, the opposable thumb,
the color-sensitivity of retinal
rods and cones, the development
of language and of lengthy parental
nurture—these things
seem to be indispensable to the
growth of civilization, and in the
end they spell <i>human</i>. Except for
minor variations depending on
climate or foodstuff, the inhabitant
of Megaera or Darkover is
indistinguishable from the Terran
or Sirian; differences are
mainly cultural, and sometimes
an isolated culture will mutate
in a strange direction or remain,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_106" id="Page_106"></SPAN></span>
atavists, somewhere halfway to
the summit of the ladder of evolution—which,
at least on the
known planets, still reckons
homo sapiens as the most complex
of nature's forms.</p>
<p>The trailmen were a pausing-place
which had proved tenacious.
When the mainstream of
evolution on Darkover left the
trees to struggle for existence
on the ground, a few remained
behind. Evolution did not cease
for them, but evolved <i>homo arborens</i>;
nocturnal, nystalopic
humanoids who lived out their
lives in the extensive forests.</p>
<p>The truck bumped over the
bad, rutted roads. The wind was
chilly—the truck, a mere conveyance
for hauling, had no such
refinements of luxury as windows.
I jolted awake—what nonsense
had I been thinking?
Vague ideas about evolution
swirled in my brain like burst
bubbles—the trailmen? They
were just the trailmen, who
could explain them? Jay Allison,
maybe? Rafe turned his head
and asked, "Where do we pull
up for the night? It's getting
dark, and we have all this gear
to sort!" I roused myself, and
took over the business of the expedition
again.</p>
<p>But when the trucks had been
parked and a tent pitched and
the pack animals unloaded and
hobbled, and a start made at getting
the gear together—when all
this had been done I lay awake,
listening to Kendricks' heavy
snoring, but myself afraid to
sleep. Dozing in the truck, an
odd lapse of consciousness had
come over me ... myself yet not
myself, drowsing over thoughts
I did not recognize as my own.
If I slept, who would I be when
I woke?</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>We had made our camp in the
bend of an enormous river, wide
and shallow and unbridged; the
river Kadarin, traditionally a
point of no return for humans
on Darkover. The river is fed by
ocean tides and we would have
to wait for low water to cross.
Beyond the river lay thick forests,
and beyond the forests the
slopes of the Hellers, rising upward
and upward; and their
every fold and every valley was
filled to the brim with forest,
and in the forests lived the trailmen.</p>
<p>But though all this country
was thickly populated with outlying
colonies and nests, it
would be no use to bargain with
any of them; we must deal with
the Old One of the North Nest,
where I had spent so many of
my boyhood years.</p>
<p>From time immemorial, the
trailmen—usually inoffensive—had
kept strict boundaries marked
between their lands and the
lands of ground-dwelling men.
They never came beyond the
Kadarin. On the other hand, almost
any human who ventured
into their territory became, by
that act, fair game for attack.</p>
<p>A few of the Darkovan mountain
people had trade treaties
with the trailmen; they traded
clothing, forged metals, small<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_107" id="Page_107"></SPAN></span>
implements, in return for nuts,
bark for dyestuffs and certain
leaves and mosses for drugs. In
return, the trailmen permitted
them to hunt in the forest lands
without being molested. But
other humans, venturing into
trailman territory, ran the risk
of merciless raiding; the trailmen
were not bloodthirsty, and
did not kill for the sake of killing,
but they attacked in packs
of two or three dozen, and their
prey would be stripped and plundered
of everything portable.</p>
<p>Travelling through their country
would be dangerous....</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>The sun was high before we
struck the camp. While the others
were packing up the last
oddments, ready for the saddle,
I gave the girl Kyla the task of
readying the rucksacks we'd
carry after the trails got too bad
even for the pack animals, and
went to stand at the water's
edge, checking the depth of the
ford and glancing up at the
smoke-hazed rifts between peak
and peak.</p>
<p>The men were packing up the
small tent we'd use in the forests,
moving around with a good
deal of horseplay and a certain
brisk bustle. They were a good
crew, I'd already discovered.
Rafe and Lerrys and the three
Darkovan brothers were tireless,
cheerful and mountain-hardened.
Kendricks, obviously out of his
element, could be implicitly relied
on to follow orders, and I
felt that I could fall back on
him. Strange as it seemed, the
very fact that he was a Terran
was vaguely comforting, where
I'd anticipated it would be a
nuisance.</p>
<p>The girl Kyla was still something
of an unknown quantity.
She was too taut and quiet,
working her share but seldom
contributing a word—we were
not yet in mountain country. So
far she was quiet and touchy
with me, although she seemed
natural enough with the Darkovans,
and I let her alone.</p>
<p>"Hi, Jason, get a move on,"
someone shouted, and I walked
back toward the clearing squinting
in the sun. It hurt, and I
touched my face gingerly, suddenly
realizing what had happened.
Yesterday, riding in the
uncovered truck, and this morning,
un-used to the fierce sun of
these latitudes, I had neglected
to take the proper precautions
against exposure and my face
was reddening with sunburn. I
walked toward Kyla, who was
cinching a final load on one of
the pack-animals, which she did
efficiently enough.</p>
<p>She didn't wait for me to ask,
but sized up the situation with
one amused glance at my face.
"Sunburn? Put some of this on
it." She produced a tube of
white stuff; I twisted at the top
inexpertly, and she took it from
me, squeezed the stuff out in her
palm and said, "Stand still and
bend down your head."</p>
<p>She smeared the mixture efficiently
across my forehead and
cheeks. It felt cold and good. I
started to thank her, then broke<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_108" id="Page_108"></SPAN></span>
off as she burst out laughing.
"What's the matter?"</p>
<p>"You should see yourself!"
she gurgled.</p>
<p>I wasn't amused. No doubt I
presented a grotesque appearance,
and no doubt she had the
right to laugh at it, but I scowled.
It hurt. Intending to put
things back on the proper footing,
I demanded, "Did you make
up the climbing loads?"</p>
<p>"All except bedding. I wasn't
sure how much to allow," she
said. "Jason, have you eyeshades
for when you get on snow?" I
nodded, and she instructed me
severely, "Don't forget them.
Snowblindness—I give you my
word—is even more unpleasant
than sunburn—and <i>very</i> painful!"</p>
<p>"Damn it, girl, I'm not stupid!"
I exploded.</p>
<p>She said, in her expressionless
monotone again, "Then you
<i>ought</i> to have known better than
to get sunburnt. Here, put this
in your pocket," she handed me
the tube of sunburn cream,
"maybe I'd better check up on
some of the others and make
sure they haven't forgotten."
She went off without another
word, leaving me with an unpleasant
feeling that she'd come
off best, that she considered me
an irresponsible scamp.</p>
<p>Forth had said almost the
same thing....</p>
<p>I told off the Darkovan brothers
to urge the pack animals
across the narrowest part of the
ford, and gestured to Corus and
Kyla to ride one on either side
of Kendricks, who might not be
aware of the swirling, treacherous
currents of a mountain river.
Rafe could not urge his edgy
horse into the water; he finally
dismounted, took off his boots,
and led the creature across the
slippery rocks. I crossed last, riding
close to Regis Hastur, alert
for dangers and thinking resentfully
that anyone so important
to Darkover's policies should not
be risked on such a mission.
Why, if the Terran Legate had
(unthinkably!) come with us, he
would be surrounded by bodyguards,
secret service men and
dozens of precautions against
accident, assassination or misadventure.</p>
<p>All that day we rode upward,
encamping at the furthest point
we could travel with pack animals
or mounted. The next day's
climb would enter the dangerous
trails we must travel afoot. We
pitched a comfortable camp, but
I admit I slept badly. Kendricks
and Lerrys and Rafe had blinding
headaches from the sun and
the thinness of the air; I was
more used to these conditions,
but I felt a sense of unpleasant
pressure, and my ears rang.
Regis arrogantly denied any discomfort,
but he moaned and
cried out continuously in his
sleep until Lerrys kicked him,
after which he was silent and,
I feared, sleepless. Kyla seemed
the least affected of any; probably
she had been at higher altitudes
more continuously than
any of us. But there were dark
circles beneath her eyes.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_109" id="Page_109"></SPAN></span></p>
<p>However, no one complained as
we readied ourselves for the final
last long climb upward. If
we were fortunate, we could
cross Dammerung before nightfall;
at the very least, we
should bivouac tonight very
near the pass. Our camp had
been made at the last level spot;
we partially hobbled the pack
animals so they would not stray
too far, and left ample food for
them, and cached all but the most
necessary of light trail gear. As
we prepared to start upward on
the steep, narrow track—hardly
more than a rabbit-run—I
glanced at Kyla and stated,
"We'll work on rope from the
first stretch. Starting now."</p>
<p>One of the Darkovan brothers
stared at me with contempt.
"Call yourself a mountain man,
Jason? Why, my little daughter
could scramble up <i>that</i> track
without so much as a push on
her behind!"</p>
<p>I set my chin and glared at
him. "The rocks aren't easy, and
some of these men aren't used
to working on rope at all. We
might as well get used to it, because
when we start working
along the ledges, I don't want
anybody who doesn't know
how."</p>
<p>They still didn't like it, but
nobody protested further until I
directed the huge Kendricks to
the center of the second rope. He
glared viciously at the light nylon
line and demanded in some
apprehension, "Hadn't I better go
last until I know what I'm doing?
Hemmed in between the
two of you, I'm apt to do something
damned dumb!"</p>
<p>Hjalmar roared with laughter
and informed him that the center
place on a 3-man rope was
always reserved for weaklings,
novices and amateurs. I expected
Kendricks' temper to flare up:
the burly Spaceforce man and
the Darkovan giant glared at
one another, then Kendricks only
shrugged and knotted the line
through his belt. Kyla warned
Kendricks and Lerrys about
looking down from ledges, and
we started.</p>
<p>The first stretch was almost
too simple, a clear track winding
higher and higher for a couple
of miles. Pausing to rest for a
moment, we could turn and see
the entire valley outspread below
us. Gradually the trail grew
steeper, in spots pitched almost
at a 50-degree angle, and was
scattered with gravel, loose rock
and shale, so that we placed our
feet carefully, leaning forward
to catch at handholds and steady
ourselves against rocks. I tested
each boulder carefully, since any
weight placed against an unsteady
rock might dislodge it on
somebody below. One of the
Darkovan brothers—Vardo, I
thought—was behind me, separated
by ten or twelve feet of
slack rope, and twice when his
feet slipped on gravel he stumbled
and gave me an unpleasant
jerk. What he muttered was perfectly
true; on slopes like this,
where a fall wasn't dangerous
anyhow, it was better to work
unroped; then a slip bothered no<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_110" id="Page_110"></SPAN></span>
one but the slipper. But I was
finding out what I wanted to
know—what kind of climbers I
had to lead through the Hellers.</p>
<p>Along a cliff face the trail narrowed
horizontally, leading
across a foot-wide ledge overhanging
a sheer drop of fifty
feet and covered with loose
shale and scrub plants. Nothing,
of course, to an experienced
climber—a foot-wide ledge
might as well be a four-lane superhighway.
Kendricks made a
nervous joke about a tightrope
walker, but when his turn came
he picked his way securely, without
losing balance. The amateurs—Lerrys
Ridenow, Regis, Rafe—came
across without hesitation,
but I wondered how well
they would have done at a less
secure altitude; to a real mountaineer,
a footpath is a footpath,
whether in a meadow, above a
two-foot drop, a thirty-foot
ledge, or a sheer mountain face
three miles above the first level
spot.</p>
<p>After crossing the ledge the
going was harder. A steeper
trail, in places nearly imperceptible,
led between thick scrub
and overhanging trees, thickly
forested. In spots their twisted
roots obscured the trail; in others
the persistent growth had
thrust aside rocks and dirt. We
had to make our way through
tangles of underbrush which
would have been nothing to a
trailman, but which made our
ground-accustomed bodies ache
with the effort of getting over
or through them; and once the
track was totally blocked by a
barricade of tangled dead brushwood,
borne down on floodwater
after a sudden thaw or cloud-burst.
We had to work painfully
around it over a three-hundred-foot
rockslide, which we could
cross only one at a time, crab-fashion,
leaning double to balance
ourselves; and no one complained
now about the rope.</p>
<p>Toward noon I had the first
intimation that we were not
alone on the slope.</p>
<p>At first it was no more than
a glimpse of motion out of the
corner of my eyes, the shadow
of a shadow. The fourth time I
saw it, I called softly to Kyla:
"See anything?"</p>
<p>"I was beginning to think it
was my eyes, or the altitude. I
saw, Jason."</p>
<p>"Look for a spot where we
can take a break," I directed. We
climbed along a shallow ledge,
the faint imperceptible flutters
in the brushwood climbing with
us on either side. I muttered to
the girl, "I'll be glad when we
get clear of this. At least we'll
be able to see what's coming after
us!"</p>
<p>"If it comes to a fight," she
said surprisingly, "I'd rather
fight on gravel than ice."</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>Over a rise, there was a roaring
sound; Kyla swung up and
balanced on a rock-wedged tree
root, cupped her mouth to her
hands and called, "Rapids!"</p>
<p>I pulled myself up to the edge
of the drop and stood looking
down into the narrow gully. Here<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_111" id="Page_111"></SPAN></span>
the narrow track we had been
following was crossed and obscured
by the deep, roaring rapids
of a mountain stream.</p>
<p>Less than twenty feet across,
it tumbled in an icy flood, almost
a waterfall, pitching over
the lip of a crag above us. It had
sliced a ravine five feet deep in
the mountainside, and came roaring
down with a rushing noise
that made my head vibrate. It
looked formidable; anyone stepping
into it would be knocked
off his feet in seconds, and swept
a thousand feet down the mountainside
by the force of the current.</p>
<p>Rafe scrambled gingerly over
the gullied lip of the channel it
had cut, and bent carefully to
scoop up water in his palm and
drink. "Phew, it's colder than
Zandru's ninth hell. Must come
straight down from a glacier!"</p>
<p>It did. I remembered the trail
and remembered the spot. Kendricks
joined me at the water's
edge, and asked, "How do we get
across?"</p>
<p>"I'm not sure," I said, studying
the racing white torrent.
Overhead, about twenty feet
from where we clustered on the
slope, the thick branches of
enormous trees overhung the
rapids, their long roots partially
bared, gnarled and twisted by
recurrent floods; and between
these trees swayed one of the
queer swing-bridges of the trailmen,
hanging only about ten feet
above the water.</p>
<p>Even I had never learned to
navigate one of these swing-bridges
without assistance; human
arms are no longer suited
to brachiation. I might have
managed it once; but at present,
except as a desperate final expedient,
it was out of the question.
Rafe or Lerrys, who were lightly
built and acrobatic, could probably
do it as a simple stunt on
the level, in a field; on a steep
and rocky mountainside, where
a fall might mean being dashed
a thousand feet down the torrent,
I doubted it. The trailmen's
bridge was out ... but what other
choice was there?</p>
<p>I beckoned to Kendricks, he
being the man I was the most
inclined to trust with my life at
the moment, and said, "It looks
uncrossable, but I think two men
could get across, if they were
steady on their feet. The others
can hold us on ropes, in case we
do get knocked down. If we can
get to the opposite bank, we can
stretch a fixed rope from that
snub of rock—" I pointed, "and
the others can cross with that.
The first men over will be the
only ones to run any risk. Want
to try?"</p>
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<span class="captionr">The rope swung perilously, threatening<br/>
to dash her on the rocks.</span></div>
<p>I liked it better that he didn't
answer right away, but went to
the edge of the gully and peered
down the rocky chasm. Doubtless,
if we were knocked down,
all seven of the others could haul
us up again; but not before we'd
been badly smashed on the rocks.
And once again I caught that
elusive shadow of movement in
the brushwood; if the trailmen
chose a moment when we were
half-in, half-out of the rapids,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_112" id="Page_112"></SPAN></span>
we'd be ridiculously vulnerable
to attack.</p>
<p>"We ought to be able to get a
fixed rope easier than that,"
Hjalmar said, and took one of
the spares from his rucksack. He
coiled it, making a running loop
on one end, and standing precariously
on the lip of the rapids,
sent it spinning toward the outcrop
of rock we had chosen as a
fixed point. "If I can get it
over...."</p>
<p>The rope fell short, and Hjalmar
reeled it in and cast the
loop again. He made three more
unsuccessful tries before finally,
with held breath, we watched the
noose settle over the rocky snub.
Gently, pulling the line taut, we
watched it stretch above the
rapids. The knot tightened, fastened.
Hjalmar grinned and let
out his breath.</p>
<p>"There," he said, and jerked
hard on the rope, testing it with
a long hard pull. The rocky outcrop
broke, with a sharp crack,
split, and toppled entirely into the
rapids, the sudden jerk almost
pulling Hjalmar off his feet. The
boulder rolled, with a great
bouncing splash, faster and faster
down the mountain, taking the
rope with it.</p>
<p>We just stood and stared for
a minute. Hjalmar swore horribly,
in the unprintable filth of
the mountain tongue, and his
brothers joined in. "How the
devil was I to know the <i>rock</i>
would split off?"</p>
<p>"Better for it to split now
than when we were depending
on it," Kyla said stolidly. "I
have a better idea." She was untying
herself from the rope as
she spoke, and knotting one of
the spares through her belt. She
handed the other end of the rope
to Lerrys. "Hold on to this," she
said, and slipped out of her
blankety windbreak, standing
shivering in a thin sweater. She
unstrapped her boots and tossed
them to me. "Now boost me on
your shoulders, Hjalmar."</p>
<p>Too late, I guessed her intention
and shouted, "No, don't
try—!" But she had already
clambered to an unsteady perch
on the big Darkovan's shoulders
and made a flying grab for the
lowest loop of the trailmen's
bridge. She hung there, swaying
slightly and sickeningly, as the
loose lianas gave to her weight.</p>
<p>"Hjalmar—Lerrys—haul her
down!"</p>
<p>"I'm lighter than any of you,"
Kyla called shrilly, "and not
hefty enough to be any use on
the ropes!" Her voice quavered
somewhat as she added, "—and
hang on to that rope, Lerrys! If
you lose it, I'll have done this
for nothing!"</p>
<p>She gripped the loop of vine
and reached, with her free hand,
for the next loop. Now she was
swinging out over the edge of
the boiling rapids. Tight-mouthed,
I gestured to the others to
spread out slightly below—not
that anything would help her if
she fell.</p>
<p>Hjalmar, watching as the
woman gained the third loop—which
joggled horribly to her
slight weight—shouted suddenly,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_113" id="Page_113"></SPAN></span>
"Kyla, quick! The loop <i>beyond</i>—don't
touch the next one! It's
frayed—rotted through!"</p>
<p>Kyla brought her left hand up
to her right on the third loop.
She made a long reach, missed
her grab, swung again, and
clung, breathing hard, to the
safe fifth loop. I watched, sick
with dread. The damned girl
should have told me what she intended.</p>
<p>Kyla glanced down and we got
a glimpse of her face, glistening
with the mixture of sunburn
cream and sweat, drawn with effort.
Her tiny swaying figure
hung twelve feet above the
white tumbling water, and if she
lost her grip, only a miracle
could bring her out alive. She
hung there for a minute, jiggling
slightly, then started a long
back-and-forward swing. On the
third forward swing she made
a long leap and grabbed at the
final loop.</p>
<p>It slipped through her fingers;
she made a wild grab with the
other hand, and the liana dipped
sharply under her weight, raced
through her fingers, and with a
sharp snap, broke in two. She
gave a wild shriek as it parted,
and twisted her body frantically
in mid-air, landing asprawl half-in,
half-out of the rapids, but on
the further bank. She hauled her
legs up on dry land and crouched
there, drenched to the waist but
safe.</p>
<hr class="hr2" />
<p>The Darkovans were yelling
in delight. I motioned to Lerrys
to make his end of the rope fast<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_114" id="Page_114"></SPAN></span>
around a hefty tree-root, and
shouted, "Are you hurt?" She
indicated in pantomime that the
thundering of the water drowned
words, and bent to belay her
end of the rope. In sign-language
I gestured to her to make very
sure of the knots; if anyone slipped,
she hadn't the weight to
hold us.</p>
<p>I hauled on the rope myself to
test it, and it held fast. I slung
her boots around my neck by
their cords, then, gripping the
fixed rope, Kendricks and I stepped
into the water.</p>
<p>It was even icier than I expected,
and my first step was
nearly the last; the rush of the
white water knocked me to my
knees, and I floundered and
would have measured my length
except for my hands on the
fixed rope. Buck Kendricks grabbed
at me, letting go the rope
to do it, and I swore at him, raging,
while we got on our feet
again and braced ourselves
against the onrushing current.
While we struggled in the pounding
waters, I admitted to myself;
we could never have crossed
without the rope Kyla had risked
her life to fix.</p>
<p>Shivering, we got across and
hauled ourselves out. I signalled
to the others to cross two at a
time, and Kyla seized my elbow.
"Jason—"</p>
<p>"Later, dammit!" I had to
shout to make myself heard over
the roaring water, as I held out
a hand to help Rafe get his footing
on the ledge.</p>
<p>"This—can't—wait," she yelled,
cupping her hands and
shouting into my ear. I turned
on her. "<i>What!</i>"</p>
<p>"There are—<i>trailmen</i>—on the
top level—of that bridge! I saw
them! They cut the loop!"</p>
<p>Regis and Hjalmar came
struggling across last; Regis,
lightly-built, was swept off his
feet and Hjalmar turned to grab
him, but I shouted to him to
keep clear—they were still roped
together and if the ropes fouled
we might drown someone. Lerrys
and I leaped down and hauled
Regis clear; he coughed, spitting
icy water, drenched to the skin.</p>
<p>I motioned to Lerrys to leave
the fixed rope, though I had little
hope that it would be there when
we returned, and looked quickly
around, debating what to do.
Regis and Rafe and I were wet
clear through; the others to well
above the knee. At this altitude,
this was dangerous, although we
were not yet high enough to
worry about frostbite. Trailmen
or no trailmen, we must run the
lesser risk of finding a place
where we could kindle a fire and
dry out.</p>
<p>"Up there—there's a clearing,"
I said briefly, and hurried
them along.</p>
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