<h2 id="id01629" style="margin-top: 4em">CHAPTER XXXIII.</h2>
<h5 id="id01630">THE LADIES ON GYLINGDEN HEATH.</h5>
<p id="id01631" style="margin-top: 2em">Just at this moment they became aware of a timid little tapping which had
been going on at the window during the latter part of this conference,
and looking up, the attorney and the vicar saw 'little Fairy's' violet
eyes peering under his light hair, with its mild, golden shadow, and the
odd, sensitive smile, at once shy and arch; his cheeks were wet with
tears, and his pretty little nose red, though he was smiling; and he drew
his face aside among the jessamine, when he saw the gaunt attorney
directing his patronising smile upon him.</p>
<p id="id01632">'I beg pardon,' said the vicar, rising with a sudden smile, and going to
the window. 'It is my little man. Fairy! Fairy! What has brought you
here; my little man?'</p>
<p id="id01633">Fairy glanced, still smiling, but very shamefacedly at the grand
attorney, and in his little fist he held a pair of rather seedy gloves to
the window pane.</p>
<p id="id01634">'So I did. I protest I forgot my gloves. Thank you, little man. Who is
with you? Oh! I see. That is right.'</p>
<p id="id01635">The maid ducked a short courtesy.</p>
<p id="id01636">'Indeed, Sir, please, Master Fairy was raising the roof (a nursery
phrase, which implied indescribable bellowing), and as naughty as could
be, until missis allowed him to come after you.'</p>
<p id="id01637">'Oh! my little man, you must not do that. Ask nicely, you know; always
quietly, like a little gentleman.'</p>
<p id="id01638">'But, oh! Wapsie, your hands would be cold;' and he held the gloves to
him against the glass.</p>
<p id="id01639">'Well, darling, thank you; you are a kind little man, and I'll be with
you in a moment,' said the vicar, smiling very lovingly on his naughty
little man.</p>
<p id="id01640">'Mr. Larkin,' said he, turning very gratefully to the attorney 'you can
lay this Christian comfort to your kind heart, that you have made mine a
hundredfold lighter since I entered this blessed room; indeed, you have
lifted a mountain from it by the timely proffer of your invaluable
assistance.'</p>
<p id="id01641">Again the attorney waved off, with a benignant and humble smile, rather
oppressive to see, all idea of obligation, and accompanied his grateful
client to the glass door of his little porch, where Fairy was already
awaiting him with the gloves in his hand.</p>
<p id="id01642">'I do believe,' said the good vicar, as he walked down what Mr. Larkin
called 'the approach,' and looking up with irrepressible gratitude to the
blue sky and the white clouds sailing over his head, 'if it be not
presumption, I must believe that I have been directed hither—yes,
darling, yes, my hands are warm' (this was addressed to little Fairy, who
was clamouring for information on the point, and clinging to his arm as
he capered by his side). 'What immense relief;' and he murmured another
thanksgiving, and then quite hilariously—</p>
<p id="id01643">'If little man would like to come with his Wapsie, we'll take such a nice
little walk together, and we'll go and see poor Widow Maddock; and we'll
buy three muffins on our way home, for a feast this evening; and we'll
look at the pictures in the old French "Josephus;" and Mamma and I will
tell stories; and I have a halfpenny to buy apples for little Fairy.'</p>
<p id="id01644">The attorney stood at his window with a shadow on his face, and his small
eyes a little contracted and snakelike, following the slim figure of the
threadbare vicar and his golden-haired, dancing little comrade; and then
he mounted a chair, and took down successively four of his japanned
boxes; two of them, in yellow letters, bore respectively the label
'<i>Brandon, No. 1</i>,' and '<i>No. 2</i>;' the other '<i>Wylder, No. 1</i>,' and '<i>No.
2</i>.'</p>
<p id="id01645">He opened the 'Wylder' box first, and glanced through a neat little
'statement of title,' prepared for counsel when draughting the deed of
settlement for the marriage which was never to take place.</p>
<p id="id01646">'The limitations, let me see, is not there something that one might be
safe in advancing a trifle upon—eh?—h'm—yes.'</p>
<p id="id01647">And, with his lip in his finger and thumb, he conned over those
remainders and reversions with a skilled and rapid eye.</p>
<p id="id01648">Rachel Lake was glad to see the slender and slightly-stooped figure of
the vicar standing that morning—his bright little boy by the hand—in
the wicket of the tiny flower-garden of Redman's Farm. She went out
quickly to greet him. The sick man likes the sound of his kind doctor's
step on the stairs; and, be his skill much or little, trusts in him, and
will even joke a little asthmatic joke, and smile a feeble hectic smile
about his ailments, when he is present.</p>
<p id="id01649">So they fell into discourse among the autumnal flowers and withered
leaves; and, as the day was still and genial, they remained standing in
the garden; and away went busy little 'Fairy,' smiling and chatting with
Margery, to see the hens and chickens in the yard.</p>
<p id="id01650">The physician, after a while, finds the leading features of most cases
pretty much alike. He knows when inflammation may be expected and fever
will supervene; he is not surprised if the patient's mind wanders a
little at times; expects the period of prostration and the return of
appetite; and has his measures and his palliatives ready for each
successive phase of sickness and recovery. In like manner, too, the good
and skilful parson comes by experience to know the signs and stages of
the moral ailments and recoveries which some of them know how so tenderly
and so wisely to care for. They, too, have ready—having often proved
their consolatory efficacy—their febrifuges and their tonics, culled
from that tree of life whose 'leaves are for the healing of the nations.'</p>
<p id="id01651">Poor Rachel's hours were dark, and life had grown in some sort terrible,
and death seemed now so real and near—aye, quite a fact—and, somehow,
not unfriendly. But, oh! the immense futurity beyond, that could not be
shirked, to which she was certainly going.</p>
<p id="id01652">Death, and sleep so welcome! But, oh! that stupendous LIFE EVERLASTING,
now first unveiled. She could only close her eyes and wring her hands.
Oh! for some friendly voice and hand to stay her through the Valley of
the Shadow of Death!</p>
<p id="id01653">They talked a long while—Rachel chiefly a listener, and often quietly
weeping; and, at last, a very kindly parting, and a promise from the
simple and gentle vicar that he would often look in at Redman's Farm.</p>
<p id="id01654">She watched his retreating figure as he and little Fairy walked down the
tenebrose road to Gylingden, following them with a dismal gaze, as a
benighted and wounded wayfarer in that 'Valley' would the pale lamp's
disappearing that had for a few minutes, in a friendly hand, shone over
his dreadful darkness.</p>
<p id="id01655">And when, in fitful reveries, fancy turned for a moment to an earthly
past and future, all there was a blank—the past saddened, the future
bleak. She did not know, or even suspect, that she had been living in an
aerial castle, and worshipping an unreal image, until, on a sudden, all
was revealed in that chance gleam of cruel lightning, the line in that
letter, which she read so often, spelled over, and puzzled over so
industriously, though it was clear enough. How noble, how good, how
bright and true, was that hero of her unconscious romance.</p>
<p id="id01656">Well, no one else suspected that incipient madness—that was something;
and brave Rachel would quite master it. Happy she had discovered it so
soon. Besides, it was, even if Chelford were at her feet, a wild
impossibility now; and it was well, though despair were in the pang, that
she had, at last, quite explained this to herself.</p>
<p id="id01657">As Rachel stood in her little garden, on the spot where she had bidden
farewell to the vicar, she was roused from her vague and dismal reverie
by the sound of a carriage close at hand. She had just time to see that
it was a brougham, and to recognise the Brandon liveries, when it drew up
at the garden wicket, and Dorcas called to her from the open window.</p>
<p id="id01658">'I'm come, Rachel, expressly to take you with me; and I won't be denied.'</p>
<p id="id01659">'You are very good, Dorcas; thank you, dear, very much; but I am not very
well, and a very dull companion to-day.'</p>
<p id="id01660">'You think I am going to bore you with visits. No such thing, I assure
you. I have taken a fancy to walk on the common, that is all—a kind of
longing; and you must come with me; quite to ourselves, you and I. You
won't refuse me, darling; I know you'll come.'</p>
<p id="id01661">Well, Rachel did go. And away they drove through the quiet town of
Gylingden together, and through the short street on the right, and so
upon the still quieter common.</p>
<p id="id01662">This plain of green turf broke gradually into a heath; and an irregular
screen of timber and underwood divided the common of Gylingden in sylvan
fashion from the moor. The wood passed, Dorcas stopped the carriage, and
the two young ladies descended. It was a sunny day, and the air still;
and the open heath contrasted pleasantly with the sombre and confined
scenery of Redman's Dell; and altogether Rachel was glad now that she had
made the effort, and come with her cousin.</p>
<p id="id01663">'It was good of you to come, Rachel,' said Miss Brandon; 'and you look
tired; but you sha'n't speak more than you like; and I'll tell you all
the news. Chelford is just returned from Brighton; he arrived this
morning; and he and Lady Chelford will stay for the Hunt Ball. I made it
a point. And he called at Hockley, on his way back, to see Sir Julius. Do
you know him?'</p>
<p id="id01664">'Sir Julius Hockley? No—I've heard of him only.'</p>
<p id="id01665">'Well, they say he is wasting his property very fast; and I think him
every way very nearly a fool; but Chelford wanted to see him about Mr.
Wylder. Mark Wylder, you know, of course, has turned up again in England.
His letter to Chelford, six weeks ago, was from Boulogne; but his last
was from Brighton; and Sir Julius Hockley witnessed—I think they call
it—that letter of attorney which Mark sent about a week since to Mr.
Larkin; and Chelford, who is most anxious to trace Mark Wylder, having to
surrender—I think they call it—a "trust" is not it—or something—I
really don't understand these things—to him, and not being able to find
out his address, Mr. Larkin wrote to Sir Julius, whom Chelford did not
find at home, to ask him for a description of Mark, to ascertain whether
he had disguised himself; and Sir Julius wrote to Chelford such an absurd
description of poor Mark, in doggrel rhyme—so like—his odd walk, his
great whiskers, and everything. Chelford does not like personalities, but
he could not help laughing. Are you ill, darling?'</p>
<p id="id01666">Though she was walking on beside her companion, Rachel looked on the
point of fainting.</p>
<p id="id01667">'My darling, you must sit down; you do look very ill. I forgot my promise
about Mark Wylder. How stupid I have been! and perhaps I have distressed
you.'</p>
<p id="id01668">'No, Dorcas, I am pretty well; but I have been ill, and I am a little
tired; and, Dorcas, I don't deny it, I <i>am</i> amazed, you tell me such
things. That letter of attorney, or whatever it is, must not be acted
upon. It is incredible. It is all horrible wickedness. Mark Wylder's fate
is dreadful, and Stanley is the mover of all this. Oh! Dorcas, darling, I
wish I could tell you everything. Some day I may be—I am sick and
terrified.'</p>
<p id="id01669">They had sat down, by this time, side by side, on the crisp bank. Each
lady looked down, the one in suffering, the other in thought.</p>
<p id="id01670">'You are better, darling; are not you better?' said Dorcas, laying her
hand on Rachel's, and looking on her with a melancholy gaze.</p>
<p id="id01671">'Yes, dear, better—very well'—answered Rachel, looking up but without
an answering glance at her cousin.</p>
<p id="id01672">'You blame your brother, Rachel, in this affair.'</p>
<p id="id01673">'Did I? Well—maybe—yes, he <i>is</i> to blame—the miserable man—whom I
hate to think of, and yet am always thinking of—Stanley well knows is
not in a state to do it.'</p>
<p id="id01674">'Don't you think, Rachel, remembering what I have confided to you, that
you might be franker with me in this?'</p>
<p id="id01675">'Oh, Dorcas! don't misunderstand me. If the secret were all my
own—Heaven knows, hateful as it is, how boldly I would risk all, and
throw myself on your fidelity or your mercy—I know not how you might
view it; but it is different, Dorcas, at least for the present. You know
me—you know how I hate secrets; but this <i>is</i> not mine—only in
part—that is, I dare not tell it—but may be soon free—and to us all,
dear Dorcas, a woful, <i>woful</i>, day will it be.'</p>
<p id="id01676">'I made you a promise, Rachel,' said her beautiful cousin, gravely, and a
little coldly and sadly, too; 'I will never break it again—it was
thoughtless. Let us each try to forget that there is anything hidden
between us.'</p>
<p id="id01677">'If ever the time comes, dear Dorcas, when I may tell it to you, I don't
know whether you will bless or hate me for having kept it so well; at all
events, I think you'll pity me, and at last understand your miserable
cousin.'</p>
<p id="id01678">'I said before, Rachel, that I liked you. You are one of us, Rachel. You
are beautiful, wayward, and daring, and one way or another, misfortune
always waylays us; and I have, I know it, calamity before me. Death comes
to other women in its accustomed way; but we have a double death. There
is not a beautiful portrait in Brandon that has not a sad and true story.
Early death of the frail and fair tenement of clay—but a still earlier
death of happiness. Come, Rachel, shall we escape from the spell and the
destiny into solitude? What do you think of my old plan of the valleys
and lakes of Wales? a pretty foreign tongue spoken round us, and no one
but ourselves to commune with, and books, and music. It is not, Radie,
altogether jest. I sometimes yearn for it, as they say foreign girls do
for convent life.'</p>
<p id="id01679">'Poor Dorcas,' said Rachel, very softly, fixing her eyes upon her with a
look of inexpressible sadness and pity.</p>
<p id="id01680">'Rachel,' said Dorcas, 'I am a changeable being—violent, self-willed. My
fate may be quite a different one from that which <i>I</i> suppose or <i>you</i>
imagine. I may yet have to retract <i>my</i> secret.'</p>
<p id="id01681">'Oh! would it were so—would to Heaven it were so.'</p>
<p id="id01682">'Suppose, Rachel, that I had been deceiving you—perhaps deceiving
myself—time will show.'</p>
<p id="id01683">There was a wild smile on beautiful Dorcas's face as she said this, which
faded soon into the proud serenity that was its usual character.</p>
<p id="id01684">'Oh! Dorcas, if your good angel is near, listen to his warnings.'</p>
<p id="id01685">'We have no good angels, my poor Rachel: what modern necromancers,
conversing with tables, call "mocking spirits," have always usurped their
place with us: singing in our drowsy ears, like Ariel—visiting our
reveries like angels of light—being really our evil genii—ah, yes!'</p>
<p id="id01686">'Dorcas, dear,' said Rachel, after both had been silent for a time,
speaking suddenly, and with a look of pale and keen entreaty—'Beware of
Stanley—oh! beware, beware. I think I am beginning to grow afraid of him
myself.'</p>
<p id="id01687">Dorcas was not given to sighing—but she sighed—gazing sadly across the
wide, bleak moor, with her proud, apathetic look, which seemed passively
to defy futurity—and then, for awhile, they were silent.</p>
<p id="id01688">She turned, and caressingly smoothed the golden tresses over Rachel's
frank, white forehead, and kissed them as she did so.</p>
<p id="id01689">'You are better, darling; you are rested?' she said.</p>
<p id="id01690">'Yes, dear Dorcas,' and she kissed the slender hand that smoothed her
hair.</p>
<p id="id01691">Each understood that the conversation on that theme was ended, and
somehow each was relieved.</p>
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