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<h3> CHAPTER XLIV. </h3>
<p>Fitzpiers had hardly been gone an hour when Grace began to sicken. The
next day she kept her room. Old Jones was called in; he murmured some
statements in which the words "feverish symptoms" occurred. Grace
heard them, and guessed the means by which she had brought this
visitation upon herself.</p>
<p>One day, while she still lay there with her head throbbing, wondering
if she were really going to join him who had gone before, Grammer
Oliver came to her bedside. "I don't know whe'r this is meant for you
to take, ma'am," she said, "but I have found it on the table. It was
left by Marty, I think, when she came this morning."</p>
<p>Grace turned her hot eyes upon what Grammer held up. It was the phial
left at the hut by her husband when he had begged her to take some
drops of its contents if she wished to preserve herself from falling a
victim to the malady which had pulled down Winterborne. She examined
it as well as she could. The liquid was of an opaline hue, and bore a
label with an inscription in Italian. He had probably got it in his
wanderings abroad. She knew but little Italian, but could understand
that the cordial was a febrifuge of some sort. Her father, her mother,
and all the household were anxious for her recovery, and she resolved
to obey her husband's directions. Whatever the risk, if any, she was
prepared to run it. A glass of water was brought, and the drops
dropped in.</p>
<p>The effect, though not miraculous, was remarkable. In less than an
hour she felt calmer, cooler, better able to reflect—less inclined to
fret and chafe and wear herself away. She took a few drops more. From
that time the fever retreated, and went out like a damped conflagration.</p>
<p>"How clever he is!" she said, regretfully. "Why could he not have had
more principle, so as to turn his great talents to good account?
Perhaps he has saved my useless life. But he doesn't know it, and
doesn't care whether he has saved it or not; and on that account will
never be told by me! Probably he only gave it to me in the arrogance of
his skill, to show the greatness of his resources beside mine, as
Elijah drew down fire from heaven."</p>
<p>As soon as she had quite recovered from this foiled attack upon her
life, Grace went to Marty South's cottage. The current of her being
had again set towards the lost Giles Winterborne.</p>
<p>"Marty," she said, "we both loved him. We will go to his grave
together."</p>
<p>Great Hintock church stood at the upper part of the village, and could
be reached without passing through the street. In the dusk of the late
September day they went thither by secret ways, walking mostly in
silence side by side, each busied with her own thoughts. Grace had a
trouble exceeding Marty's—that haunting sense of having put out the
light of his life by her own hasty doings. She had tried to persuade
herself that he might have died of his illness, even if she had not
taken possession of his house. Sometimes she succeeded in her attempt;
sometimes she did not.</p>
<p>They stood by the grave together, and though the sun had gone down,
they could see over the woodland for miles, and down to the vale in
which he had been accustomed to descend every year, with his portable
mill and press, to make cider about this time.</p>
<p>Perhaps Grace's first grief, the discovery that if he had lived he
could never have claimed her, had some power in softening this, the
second. On Marty's part there was the same consideration; never would
she have been his. As no anticipation of gratified affection had been
in existence while he was with them, there was none to be disappointed
now that he had gone.</p>
<p>Grace was abased when, by degrees, she found that she had never
understood Giles as Marty had done. Marty South alone, of all the
women in Hintock and the world, had approximated to Winterborne's level
of intelligent intercourse with nature. In that respect she had formed
the complement to him in the other sex, had lived as his counterpart,
had subjoined her thought to his as a corollary.</p>
<p>The casual glimpses which the ordinary population bestowed upon that
wondrous world of sap and leaves called the Hintock woods had been with
these two, Giles and Marty, a clear gaze. They had been possessed of
its finer mysteries as of commonplace knowledge; had been able to read
its hieroglyphs as ordinary writing; to them the sights and sounds of
night, winter, wind, storm, amid those dense boughs, which had to Grace
a touch of the uncanny, and even the supernatural, were simple
occurrences whose origin, continuance, and laws they foreknew. They
had planted together, and together they had felled; together they had,
with the run of the years, mentally collected those remoter signs and
symbols which, seen in few, were of runic obscurity, but all together
made an alphabet. From the light lashing of the twigs upon their faces,
when brushing through them in the dark, they could pronounce upon the
species of the tree whence they stretched; from the quality of the
wind's murmur through a bough they could in like manner name its sort
afar off. They knew by a glance at a trunk if its heart were sound, or
tainted with incipient decay, and by the state of its upper twigs, the
stratum that had been reached by its roots. The artifices of the
seasons were seen by them from the conjuror's own point of view, and
not from that of the spectator's.</p>
<p>"He ought to have married YOU, Marty, and nobody else in the world!"
said Grace, with conviction, after thinking somewhat in the above
strain.</p>
<p>Marty shook her head. "In all our out-door days and years together,
ma'am," she replied, "the one thing he never spoke of to me was love;
nor I to him."</p>
<p>"Yet you and he could speak in a tongue that nobody else knew—not even
my father, though he came nearest knowing—the tongue of the trees and
fruits and flowers themselves."</p>
<p>She could indulge in mournful fancies like this to Marty; but the hard
core to her grief—which Marty's had not—remained. Had she been sure
that Giles's death resulted entirely from his exposure, it would have
driven her well-nigh to insanity; but there was always that bare
possibility that his exposure had only precipitated what was
inevitable. She longed to believe that it had not done even this.</p>
<p>There was only one man whose opinion on the circumstances she would be
at all disposed to trust. Her husband was that man. Yet to ask him it
would be necessary to detail the true conditions in which she and
Winterborne had lived during these three or four critical days that
followed her flight; and in withdrawing her original defiant
announcement on that point, there seemed a weakness she did not care to
show. She never doubted that Fitzpiers would believe her if she made a
clean confession of the actual situation; but to volunteer the
correction would seem like signalling for a truce, and that, in her
present frame of mind, was what she did not feel the need of.</p>
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<p>It will probably not appear a surprising statement, after what has been
already declared of Fitzpiers, that the man whom Grace's fidelity could
not keep faithful was stung into passionate throbs of interest
concerning her by her avowal of the contrary.</p>
<p>He declared to himself that he had never known her dangerously full
compass if she were capable of such a reprisal; and, melancholy as it
may be to admit the fact, his own humiliation and regret engendered a
smouldering admiration of her.</p>
<p>He passed a month or two of great misery at Exbury, the place to which
he had retired—quite as much misery indeed as Grace, could she have
known of it, would have been inclined to inflict upon any living
creature, how much soever he might have wronged her. Then a sudden
hope dawned upon him; he wondered if her affirmation were true. He
asked himself whether it were not the act of a woman whose natural
purity and innocence had blinded her to the contingencies of such an
announcement. His wide experience of the sex had taught him that, in
many cases, women who ventured on hazardous matters did so because they
lacked an imagination sensuous enough to feel their full force. In
this light Grace's bold avowal might merely have denoted the
desperation of one who was a child to the realities of obliquity.</p>
<p>Fitzpiers's mental sufferings and suspense led him at last to take a
melancholy journey to the neighborhood of Little Hintock; and here he
hovered for hours around the scene of the purest emotional experiences
that he had ever known in his life. He walked about the woods that
surrounded Melbury's house, keeping out of sight like a criminal. It
was a fine evening, and on his way homeward he passed near Marty
South's cottage. As usual she had lighted her candle without closing
her shutters; he saw her within as he had seen her many times before.</p>
<p>She was polishing tools, and though he had not wished to show himself,
he could not resist speaking in to her through the half-open door.
"What are you doing that for, Marty?"</p>
<p>"Because I want to clean them. They are not mine." He could see,
indeed, that they were not hers, for one was a spade, large and heavy,
and another was a bill-hook which she could only have used with both
hands. The spade, though not a new one, had been so completely
burnished that it was bright as silver.</p>
<p>Fitzpiers somehow divined that they were Giles Winterborne's, and he
put the question to her.</p>
<p>She replied in the affirmative. "I am going to keep 'em," she said,
"but I can't get his apple-mill and press. I wish could; it is going
to be sold, they say."</p>
<p>"Then I will buy it for you," said Fitzpiers. "That will be making you
a return for a kindness you did me." His glance fell upon the girl's
rare-colored hair, which had grown again. "Oh, Marty, those locks of
yours—and that letter! But it was a kindness to send it,
nevertheless," he added, musingly.</p>
<p>After this there was confidence between them—such confidence as there
had never been before. Marty was shy, indeed, of speaking about the
letter, and her motives in writing it; but she thanked him warmly for
his promise of the cider-press. She would travel with it in the autumn
season, as he had done, she said. She would be quite strong enough,
with old Creedle as an assistant.</p>
<p>"Ah! there was one nearer to him than you," said Fitzpiers, referring
to Winterborne. "One who lived where he lived, and was with him when
he died."</p>
<p>Then Marty, suspecting that he did not know the true circumstances,
from the fact that Mrs. Fitzpiers and himself were living apart, told
him of Giles's generosity to Grace in giving up his house to her at the
risk, and possibly the sacrifice, of his own life. When the surgeon
heard it he almost envied Giles his chivalrous character. He expressed
a wish to Marty that his visit to her should be kept secret, and went
home thoughtful, feeling that in more that one sense his journey to
Hintock had not been in vain.</p>
<p>He would have given much to win Grace's forgiveness then. But whatever
he dared hope for in that kind from the future, there was nothing to be
done yet, while Giles Winterborne's memory was green. To wait was
imperative. A little time might melt her frozen thoughts, and lead her
to look on him with toleration, if not with love.</p>
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