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<h2> CHAPTER XLVII </h2>
<p>It had been a miserable party, each of the three believing themselves most
miserable. Mrs. Norris, however, as most attached to Maria, was really the
greatest sufferer. Maria was her first favourite, the dearest of all; the
match had been her own contriving, as she had been wont with such pride of
heart to feel and say, and this conclusion of it almost overpowered her.</p>
<p>She was an altered creature, quieted, stupefied, indifferent to everything
that passed. The being left with her sister and nephew, and all the house
under her care, had been an advantage entirely thrown away; she had been
unable to direct or dictate, or even fancy herself useful. When really
touched by affliction, her active powers had been all benumbed; and
neither Lady Bertram nor Tom had received from her the smallest support or
attempt at support. She had done no more for them than they had done for
each other. They had been all solitary, helpless, and forlorn alike; and
now the arrival of the others only established her superiority in
wretchedness. Her companions were relieved, but there was no good for <i>her</i>.
Edmund was almost as welcome to his brother as Fanny to her aunt; but Mrs.
Norris, instead of having comfort from either, was but the more irritated
by the sight of the person whom, in the blindness of her anger, she could
have charged as the daemon of the piece. Had Fanny accepted Mr. Crawford
this could not have happened.</p>
<p>Susan too was a grievance. She had not spirits to notice her in more than
a few repulsive looks, but she felt her as a spy, and an intruder, and an
indigent niece, and everything most odious. By her other aunt, Susan was
received with quiet kindness. Lady Bertram could not give her much time,
or many words, but she felt her, as Fanny's sister, to have a claim at
Mansfield, and was ready to kiss and like her; and Susan was more than
satisfied, for she came perfectly aware that nothing but ill-humour was to
be expected from aunt Norris; and was so provided with happiness, so
strong in that best of blessings, an escape from many certain evils, that
she could have stood against a great deal more indifference than she met
with from the others.</p>
<p>She was now left a good deal to herself, to get acquainted with the house
and grounds as she could, and spent her days very happily in so doing,
while those who might otherwise have attended to her were shut up, or
wholly occupied each with the person quite dependent on them, at this
time, for everything like comfort; Edmund trying to bury his own feelings
in exertions for the relief of his brother's, and Fanny devoted to her
aunt Bertram, returning to every former office with more than former zeal,
and thinking she could never do enough for one who seemed so much to want
her.</p>
<p>To talk over the dreadful business with Fanny, talk and lament, was all
Lady Bertram's consolation. To be listened to and borne with, and hear the
voice of kindness and sympathy in return, was everything that could be
done for her. To be otherwise comforted was out of the question. The case
admitted of no comfort. Lady Bertram did not think deeply, but, guided by
Sir Thomas, she thought justly on all important points; and she saw,
therefore, in all its enormity, what had happened, and neither endeavoured
herself, nor required Fanny to advise her, to think little of guilt and
infamy.</p>
<p>Her affections were not acute, nor was her mind tenacious. After a time,
Fanny found it not impossible to direct her thoughts to other subjects,
and revive some interest in the usual occupations; but whenever Lady
Bertram <i>was</i> fixed on the event, she could see it only in one light,
as comprehending the loss of a daughter, and a disgrace never to be wiped
off.</p>
<p>Fanny learnt from her all the particulars which had yet transpired. Her
aunt was no very methodical narrator, but with the help of some letters to
and from Sir Thomas, and what she already knew herself, and could
reasonably combine, she was soon able to understand quite as much as she
wished of the circumstances attending the story.</p>
<p>Mrs. Rushworth had gone, for the Easter holidays, to Twickenham, with a
family whom she had just grown intimate with: a family of lively,
agreeable manners, and probably of morals and discretion to suit, for to
<i>their</i> house Mr. Crawford had constant access at all times. His
having been in the same neighbourhood Fanny already knew. Mr. Rushworth
had been gone at this time to Bath, to pass a few days with his mother,
and bring her back to town, and Maria was with these friends without any
restraint, without even Julia; for Julia had removed from Wimpole Street
two or three weeks before, on a visit to some relations of Sir Thomas; a
removal which her father and mother were now disposed to attribute to some
view of convenience on Mr. Yates's account. Very soon after the
Rushworths' return to Wimpole Street, Sir Thomas had received a letter
from an old and most particular friend in London, who hearing and
witnessing a good deal to alarm him in that quarter, wrote to recommend
Sir Thomas's coming to London himself, and using his influence with his
daughter to put an end to the intimacy which was already exposing her to
unpleasant remarks, and evidently making Mr. Rushworth uneasy.</p>
<p>Sir Thomas was preparing to act upon this letter, without communicating
its contents to any creature at Mansfield, when it was followed by
another, sent express from the same friend, to break to him the almost
desperate situation in which affairs then stood with the young people.
Mrs. Rushworth had left her husband's house: Mr. Rushworth had been in
great anger and distress to <i>him</i> (Mr. Harding) for his advice; Mr.
Harding feared there had been <i>at</i> <i>least</i> very flagrant
indiscretion. The maidservant of Mrs. Rushworth, senior, threatened
alarmingly. He was doing all in his power to quiet everything, with the
hope of Mrs. Rushworth's return, but was so much counteracted in Wimpole
Street by the influence of Mr. Rushworth's mother, that the worst
consequences might be apprehended.</p>
<p>This dreadful communication could not be kept from the rest of the family.
Sir Thomas set off, Edmund would go with him, and the others had been left
in a state of wretchedness, inferior only to what followed the receipt of
the next letters from London. Everything was by that time public beyond a
hope. The servant of Mrs. Rushworth, the mother, had exposure in her
power, and supported by her mistress, was not to be silenced. The two
ladies, even in the short time they had been together, had disagreed; and
the bitterness of the elder against her daughter-in-law might perhaps
arise almost as much from the personal disrespect with which she had
herself been treated as from sensibility for her son.</p>
<p>However that might be, she was unmanageable. But had she been less
obstinate, or of less weight with her son, who was always guided by the
last speaker, by the person who could get hold of and shut him up, the
case would still have been hopeless, for Mrs. Rushworth did not appear
again, and there was every reason to conclude her to be concealed
somewhere with Mr. Crawford, who had quitted his uncle's house, as for a
journey, on the very day of her absenting herself.</p>
<p>Sir Thomas, however, remained yet a little longer in town, in the hope of
discovering and snatching her from farther vice, though all was lost on
the side of character.</p>
<p><i>His</i> present state Fanny could hardly bear to think of. There was
but one of his children who was not at this time a source of misery to
him. Tom's complaints had been greatly heightened by the shock of his
sister's conduct, and his recovery so much thrown back by it, that even
Lady Bertram had been struck by the difference, and all her alarms were
regularly sent off to her husband; and Julia's elopement, the additional
blow which had met him on his arrival in London, though its force had been
deadened at the moment, must, she knew, be sorely felt. She saw that it
was. His letters expressed how much he deplored it. Under any
circumstances it would have been an unwelcome alliance; but to have it so
clandestinely formed, and such a period chosen for its completion, placed
Julia's feelings in a most unfavourable light, and severely aggravated the
folly of her choice. He called it a bad thing, done in the worst manner,
and at the worst time; and though Julia was yet as more pardonable than
Maria as folly than vice, he could not but regard the step she had taken
as opening the worst probabilities of a conclusion hereafter like her
sister's. Such was his opinion of the set into which she had thrown
herself.</p>
<p>Fanny felt for him most acutely. He could have no comfort but in Edmund.
Every other child must be racking his heart. His displeasure against
herself she trusted, reasoning differently from Mrs. Norris, would now be
done away. <i>She</i> should be justified. Mr. Crawford would have fully
acquitted her conduct in refusing him; but this, though most material to
herself, would be poor consolation to Sir Thomas. Her uncle's displeasure
was terrible to her; but what could her justification or her gratitude and
attachment do for him? His stay must be on Edmund alone.</p>
<p>She was mistaken, however, in supposing that Edmund gave his father no
present pain. It was of a much less poignant nature than what the others
excited; but Sir Thomas was considering his happiness as very deeply
involved in the offence of his sister and friend; cut off by it, as he
must be, from the woman whom he had been pursuing with undoubted
attachment and strong probability of success; and who, in everything but
this despicable brother, would have been so eligible a connexion. He was
aware of what Edmund must be suffering on his own behalf, in addition to
all the rest, when they were in town: he had seen or conjectured his
feelings; and, having reason to think that one interview with Miss
Crawford had taken place, from which Edmund derived only increased
distress, had been as anxious on that account as on others to get him out
of town, and had engaged him in taking Fanny home to her aunt, with a view
to his relief and benefit, no less than theirs. Fanny was not in the
secret of her uncle's feelings, Sir Thomas not in the secret of Miss
Crawford's character. Had he been privy to her conversation with his son,
he would not have wished her to belong to him, though her twenty thousand
pounds had been forty.</p>
<p>That Edmund must be for ever divided from Miss Crawford did not admit of a
doubt with Fanny; and yet, till she knew that he felt the same, her own
conviction was insufficient. She thought he did, but she wanted to be
assured of it. If he would now speak to her with the unreserve which had
sometimes been too much for her before, it would be most consoling; but <i>that</i>
she found was not to be. She seldom saw him: never alone. He probably
avoided being alone with her. What was to be inferred? That his judgment
submitted to all his own peculiar and bitter share of this family
affliction, but that it was too keenly felt to be a subject of the
slightest communication. This must be his state. He yielded, but it was
with agonies which did not admit of speech. Long, long would it be ere
Miss Crawford's name passed his lips again, or she could hope for a
renewal of such confidential intercourse as had been.</p>
<p>It <i>was</i> long. They reached Mansfield on Thursday, and it was not
till Sunday evening that Edmund began to talk to her on the subject.
Sitting with her on Sunday evening—a wet Sunday evening—the
very time of all others when, if a friend is at hand, the heart must be
opened, and everything told; no one else in the room, except his mother,
who, after hearing an affecting sermon, had cried herself to sleep, it was
impossible not to speak; and so, with the usual beginnings, hardly to be
traced as to what came first, and the usual declaration that if she would
listen to him for a few minutes, he should be very brief, and certainly
never tax her kindness in the same way again; she need not fear a
repetition; it would be a subject prohibited entirely: he entered upon the
luxury of relating circumstances and sensations of the first interest to
himself, to one of whose affectionate sympathy he was quite convinced.</p>
<p>How Fanny listened, with what curiosity and concern, what pain and what
delight, how the agitation of his voice was watched, and how carefully her
own eyes were fixed on any object but himself, may be imagined. The
opening was alarming. He had seen Miss Crawford. He had been invited to
see her. He had received a note from Lady Stornaway to beg him to call;
and regarding it as what was meant to be the last, last interview of
friendship, and investing her with all the feelings of shame and
wretchedness which Crawford's sister ought to have known, he had gone to
her in such a state of mind, so softened, so devoted, as made it for a few
moments impossible to Fanny's fears that it should be the last. But as he
proceeded in his story, these fears were over. She had met him, he said,
with a serious—certainly a serious—even an agitated air; but
before he had been able to speak one intelligible sentence, she had
introduced the subject in a manner which he owned had shocked him. "'I
heard you were in town,' said she; 'I wanted to see you. Let us talk over
this sad business. What can equal the folly of our two relations?' I could
not answer, but I believe my looks spoke. She felt reproved. Sometimes how
quick to feel! With a graver look and voice she then added, 'I do not mean
to defend Henry at your sister's expense.' So she began, but how she went
on, Fanny, is not fit, is hardly fit to be repeated to you. I cannot
recall all her words. I would not dwell upon them if I could. Their
substance was great anger at the <i>folly</i> of each. She reprobated her
brother's folly in being drawn on by a woman whom he had never cared for,
to do what must lose him the woman he adored; but still more the folly of
poor Maria, in sacrificing such a situation, plunging into such
difficulties, under the idea of being really loved by a man who had long
ago made his indifference clear. Guess what I must have felt. To hear the
woman whom—no harsher name than folly given! So voluntarily, so
freely, so coolly to canvass it! No reluctance, no horror, no feminine,
shall I say, no modest loathings? This is what the world does. For where,
Fanny, shall we find a woman whom nature had so richly endowed? Spoilt,
spoilt!"</p>
<p>After a little reflection, he went on with a sort of desperate calmness.
"I will tell you everything, and then have done for ever. She saw it only
as folly, and that folly stamped only by exposure. The want of common
discretion, of caution: his going down to Richmond for the whole time of
her being at Twickenham; her putting herself in the power of a servant; it
was the detection, in short—oh, Fanny! it was the detection, not the
offence, which she reprobated. It was the imprudence which had brought
things to extremity, and obliged her brother to give up every dearer plan
in order to fly with her."</p>
<p>He stopt. "And what," said Fanny (believing herself required to speak),
"what could you say?"</p>
<p>"Nothing, nothing to be understood. I was like a man stunned. She went on,
began to talk of you; yes, then she began to talk of you, regretting, as
well she might, the loss of such a—. There she spoke very
rationally. But she has always done justice to you. 'He has thrown away,'
said she, 'such a woman as he will never see again. She would have fixed
him; she would have made him happy for ever.' My dearest Fanny, I am
giving you, I hope, more pleasure than pain by this retrospect of what
might have been—but what never can be now. You do not wish me to be
silent? If you do, give me but a look, a word, and I have done."</p>
<p>No look or word was given.</p>
<p>"Thank God," said he. "We were all disposed to wonder, but it seems to
have been the merciful appointment of Providence that the heart which knew
no guile should not suffer. She spoke of you with high praise and warm
affection; yet, even here, there was alloy, a dash of evil; for in the
midst of it she could exclaim, 'Why would not she have him? It is all her
fault. Simple girl! I shall never forgive her. Had she accepted him as she
ought, they might now have been on the point of marriage, and Henry would
have been too happy and too busy to want any other object. He would have
taken no pains to be on terms with Mrs. Rushworth again. It would have all
ended in a regular standing flirtation, in yearly meetings at Sotherton
and Everingham.' Could you have believed it possible? But the charm is
broken. My eyes are opened."</p>
<p>"Cruel!" said Fanny, "quite cruel. At such a moment to give way to gaiety,
to speak with lightness, and to you! Absolute cruelty."</p>
<p>"Cruelty, do you call it? We differ there. No, hers is not a cruel nature.
I do not consider her as meaning to wound my feelings. The evil lies yet
deeper: in her total ignorance, unsuspiciousness of there being such
feelings; in a perversion of mind which made it natural to her to treat
the subject as she did. She was speaking only as she had been used to hear
others speak, as she imagined everybody else would speak. Hers are not
faults of temper. She would not voluntarily give unnecessary pain to any
one, and though I may deceive myself, I cannot but think that for me, for
my feelings, she would—Hers are faults of principle, Fanny; of
blunted delicacy and a corrupted, vitiated mind. Perhaps it is best for
me, since it leaves me so little to regret. Not so, however. Gladly would
I submit to all the increased pain of losing her, rather than have to
think of her as I do. I told her so."</p>
<p>"Did you?"</p>
<p>"Yes; when I left her I told her so."</p>
<p>"How long were you together?"</p>
<p>"Five-and-twenty minutes. Well, she went on to say that what remained now
to be done was to bring about a marriage between them. She spoke of it,
Fanny, with a steadier voice than I can." He was obliged to pause more
than once as he continued. "'We must persuade Henry to marry her,' said
she; 'and what with honour, and the certainty of having shut himself out
for ever from Fanny, I do not despair of it. Fanny he must give up. I do
not think that even <i>he</i> could now hope to succeed with one of her
stamp, and therefore I hope we may find no insuperable difficulty. My
influence, which is not small shall all go that way; and when once
married, and properly supported by her own family, people of
respectability as they are, she may recover her footing in society to a
certain degree. In some circles, we know, she would never be admitted, but
with good dinners, and large parties, there will always be those who will
be glad of her acquaintance; and there is, undoubtedly, more liberality
and candour on those points than formerly. What I advise is, that your
father be quiet. Do not let him injure his own cause by interference.
Persuade him to let things take their course. If by any officious
exertions of his, she is induced to leave Henry's protection, there will
be much less chance of his marrying her than if she remain with him. I
know how he is likely to be influenced. Let Sir Thomas trust to his honour
and compassion, and it may all end well; but if he get his daughter away,
it will be destroying the chief hold.'"</p>
<p>After repeating this, Edmund was so much affected that Fanny, watching him
with silent, but most tender concern, was almost sorry that the subject
had been entered on at all. It was long before he could speak again. At
last, "Now, Fanny," said he, "I shall soon have done. I have told you the
substance of all that she said. As soon as I could speak, I replied that I
had not supposed it possible, coming in such a state of mind into that
house as I had done, that anything could occur to make me suffer more, but
that she had been inflicting deeper wounds in almost every sentence. That
though I had, in the course of our acquaintance, been often sensible of
some difference in our opinions, on points, too, of some moment, it had
not entered my imagination to conceive the difference could be such as she
had now proved it. That the manner in which she treated the dreadful crime
committed by her brother and my sister (with whom lay the greater
seduction I pretended not to say), but the manner in which she spoke of
the crime itself, giving it every reproach but the right; considering its
ill consequences only as they were to be braved or overborne by a defiance
of decency and impudence in wrong; and last of all, and above all,
recommending to us a compliance, a compromise, an acquiescence in the
continuance of the sin, on the chance of a marriage which, thinking as I
now thought of her brother, should rather be prevented than sought; all
this together most grievously convinced me that I had never understood her
before, and that, as far as related to mind, it had been the creature of
my own imagination, not Miss Crawford, that I had been too apt to dwell on
for many months past. That, perhaps, it was best for me; I had less to
regret in sacrificing a friendship, feelings, hopes which must, at any
rate, have been torn from me now. And yet, that I must and would confess
that, could I have restored her to what she had appeared to me before, I
would infinitely prefer any increase of the pain of parting, for the sake
of carrying with me the right of tenderness and esteem. This is what I
said, the purport of it; but, as you may imagine, not spoken so
collectedly or methodically as I have repeated it to you. She was
astonished, exceedingly astonished—more than astonished. I saw her
change countenance. She turned extremely red. I imagined I saw a mixture
of many feelings: a great, though short struggle; half a wish of yielding
to truths, half a sense of shame, but habit, habit carried it. She would
have laughed if she could. It was a sort of laugh, as she answered, 'A
pretty good lecture, upon my word. Was it part of your last sermon? At
this rate you will soon reform everybody at Mansfield and Thornton Lacey;
and when I hear of you next, it may be as a celebrated preacher in some
great society of Methodists, or as a missionary into foreign parts.' She
tried to speak carelessly, but she was not so careless as she wanted to
appear. I only said in reply, that from my heart I wished her well, and
earnestly hoped that she might soon learn to think more justly, and not
owe the most valuable knowledge we could any of us acquire, the knowledge
of ourselves and of our duty, to the lessons of affliction, and
immediately left the room. I had gone a few steps, Fanny, when I heard the
door open behind me. 'Mr. Bertram,' said she. I looked back. 'Mr.
Bertram,' said she, with a smile; but it was a smile ill-suited to the
conversation that had passed, a saucy playful smile, seeming to invite in
order to subdue me; at least it appeared so to me. I resisted; it was the
impulse of the moment to resist, and still walked on. I have since,
sometimes, for a moment, regretted that I did not go back, but I know I
was right, and such has been the end of our acquaintance. And what an
acquaintance has it been! How have I been deceived! Equally in brother and
sister deceived! I thank you for your patience, Fanny. This has been the
greatest relief, and now we will have done."</p>
<p>And such was Fanny's dependence on his words, that for five minutes she
thought they <i>had</i> done. Then, however, it all came on again, or
something very like it, and nothing less than Lady Bertram's rousing
thoroughly up could really close such a conversation. Till that happened,
they continued to talk of Miss Crawford alone, and how she had attached
him, and how delightful nature had made her, and how excellent she would
have been, had she fallen into good hands earlier. Fanny, now at liberty
to speak openly, felt more than justified in adding to his knowledge of
her real character, by some hint of what share his brother's state of
health might be supposed to have in her wish for a complete
reconciliation. This was not an agreeable intimation. Nature resisted it
for a while. It would have been a vast deal pleasanter to have had her
more disinterested in her attachment; but his vanity was not of a strength
to fight long against reason. He submitted to believe that Tom's illness
had influenced her, only reserving for himself this consoling thought,
that considering the many counteractions of opposing habits, she had
certainly been <i>more</i> attached to him than could have been expected,
and for his sake been more near doing right. Fanny thought exactly the
same; and they were also quite agreed in their opinion of the lasting
effect, the indelible impression, which such a disappointment must make on
his mind. Time would undoubtedly abate somewhat of his sufferings, but
still it was a sort of thing which he never could get entirely the better
of; and as to his ever meeting with any other woman who could—it was
too impossible to be named but with indignation. Fanny's friendship was
all that he had to cling to.</p>
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