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<h2> CHAPTER XXVIII </h2>
<p>Her uncle and both her aunts were in the drawing-room when Fanny went
down. To the former she was an interesting object, and he saw with
pleasure the general elegance of her appearance, and her being in
remarkably good looks. The neatness and propriety of her dress was all
that he would allow himself to commend in her presence, but upon her
leaving the room again soon afterwards, he spoke of her beauty with very
decided praise.</p>
<p>"Yes," said Lady Bertram, "she looks very well. I sent Chapman to her."</p>
<p>"Look well! Oh, yes!" cried Mrs. Norris, "she has good reason to look well
with all her advantages: brought up in this family as she has been, with
all the benefit of her cousins' manners before her. Only think, my dear
Sir Thomas, what extraordinary advantages you and I have been the means of
giving her. The very gown you have been taking notice of is your own
generous present to her when dear Mrs. Rushworth married. What would she
have been if we had not taken her by the hand?"</p>
<p>Sir Thomas said no more; but when they sat down to table the eyes of the
two young men assured him that the subject might be gently touched again,
when the ladies withdrew, with more success. Fanny saw that she was
approved; and the consciousness of looking well made her look still
better. From a variety of causes she was happy, and she was soon made
still happier; for in following her aunts out of the room, Edmund, who was
holding open the door, said, as she passed him, "You must dance with me,
Fanny; you must keep two dances for me; any two that you like, except the
first." She had nothing more to wish for. She had hardly ever been in a
state so nearly approaching high spirits in her life. Her cousins' former
gaiety on the day of a ball was no longer surprising to her; she felt it
to be indeed very charming, and was actually practising her steps about
the drawing-room as long as she could be safe from the notice of her aunt
Norris, who was entirely taken up at first in fresh arranging and injuring
the noble fire which the butler had prepared.</p>
<p>Half an hour followed that would have been at least languid under any
other circumstances, but Fanny's happiness still prevailed. It was but to
think of her conversation with Edmund, and what was the restlessness of
Mrs. Norris? What were the yawns of Lady Bertram?</p>
<p>The gentlemen joined them; and soon after began the sweet expectation of a
carriage, when a general spirit of ease and enjoyment seemed diffused, and
they all stood about and talked and laughed, and every moment had its
pleasure and its hope. Fanny felt that there must be a struggle in
Edmund's cheerfulness, but it was delightful to see the effort so
successfully made.</p>
<p>When the carriages were really heard, when the guests began really to
assemble, her own gaiety of heart was much subdued: the sight of so many
strangers threw her back into herself; and besides the gravity and
formality of the first great circle, which the manners of neither Sir
Thomas nor Lady Bertram were of a kind to do away, she found herself
occasionally called on to endure something worse. She was introduced here
and there by her uncle, and forced to be spoken to, and to curtsey, and
speak again. This was a hard duty, and she was never summoned to it
without looking at William, as he walked about at his ease in the
background of the scene, and longing to be with him.</p>
<p>The entrance of the Grants and Crawfords was a favourable epoch. The
stiffness of the meeting soon gave way before their popular manners and
more diffused intimacies: little groups were formed, and everybody grew
comfortable. Fanny felt the advantage; and, drawing back from the toils of
civility, would have been again most happy, could she have kept her eyes
from wandering between Edmund and Mary Crawford. <i>She</i> looked all
loveliness—and what might not be the end of it? Her own musings were
brought to an end on perceiving Mr. Crawford before her, and her thoughts
were put into another channel by his engaging her almost instantly for the
first two dances. Her happiness on this occasion was very much <i>a</i> <i>la</i>
<i>mortal</i>, finely chequered. To be secure of a partner at first was a
most essential good—for the moment of beginning was now growing
seriously near; and she so little understood her own claims as to think
that if Mr. Crawford had not asked her, she must have been the last to be
sought after, and should have received a partner only through a series of
inquiry, and bustle, and interference, which would have been terrible; but
at the same time there was a pointedness in his manner of asking her which
she did not like, and she saw his eye glancing for a moment at her
necklace, with a smile—she thought there was a smile—which
made her blush and feel wretched. And though there was no second glance to
disturb her, though his object seemed then to be only quietly agreeable,
she could not get the better of her embarrassment, heightened as it was by
the idea of his perceiving it, and had no composure till he turned away to
some one else. Then she could gradually rise up to the genuine
satisfaction of having a partner, a voluntary partner, secured against the
dancing began.</p>
<p>When the company were moving into the ballroom, she found herself for the
first time near Miss Crawford, whose eyes and smiles were immediately and
more unequivocally directed as her brother's had been, and who was
beginning to speak on the subject, when Fanny, anxious to get the story
over, hastened to give the explanation of the second necklace: the real
chain. Miss Crawford listened; and all her intended compliments and
insinuations to Fanny were forgotten: she felt only one thing; and her
eyes, bright as they had been before, shewing they could yet be brighter,
she exclaimed with eager pleasure, "Did he? Did Edmund? That was like
himself. No other man would have thought of it. I honour him beyond
expression." And she looked around as if longing to tell him so. He was
not near, he was attending a party of ladies out of the room; and Mrs.
Grant coming up to the two girls, and taking an arm of each, they followed
with the rest.</p>
<p>Fanny's heart sunk, but there was no leisure for thinking long even of
Miss Crawford's feelings. They were in the ballroom, the violins were
playing, and her mind was in a flutter that forbade its fixing on anything
serious. She must watch the general arrangements, and see how everything
was done.</p>
<p>In a few minutes Sir Thomas came to her, and asked if she were engaged;
and the "Yes, sir; to Mr. Crawford," was exactly what he had intended to
hear. Mr. Crawford was not far off; Sir Thomas brought him to her, saying
something which discovered to Fanny, that <i>she</i> was to lead the way
and open the ball; an idea that had never occurred to her before. Whenever
she had thought of the minutiae of the evening, it had been as a matter of
course that Edmund would begin with Miss Crawford; and the impression was
so strong, that though <i>her</i> <i>uncle</i> spoke the contrary, she
could not help an exclamation of surprise, a hint of her unfitness, an
entreaty even to be excused. To be urging her opinion against Sir Thomas's
was a proof of the extremity of the case; but such was her horror at the
first suggestion, that she could actually look him in the face and say
that she hoped it might be settled otherwise; in vain, however: Sir Thomas
smiled, tried to encourage her, and then looked too serious, and said too
decidedly, "It must be so, my dear," for her to hazard another word; and
she found herself the next moment conducted by Mr. Crawford to the top of
the room, and standing there to be joined by the rest of the dancers,
couple after couple, as they were formed.</p>
<p>She could hardly believe it. To be placed above so many elegant young
women! The distinction was too great. It was treating her like her
cousins! And her thoughts flew to those absent cousins with most unfeigned
and truly tender regret, that they were not at home to take their own
place in the room, and have their share of a pleasure which would have
been so very delightful to them. So often as she had heard them wish for a
ball at home as the greatest of all felicities! And to have them away when
it was given—and for <i>her</i> to be opening the ball—and
with Mr. Crawford too! She hoped they would not envy her that distinction
<i>now</i>; but when she looked back to the state of things in the autumn,
to what they had all been to each other when once dancing in that house
before, the present arrangement was almost more than she could understand
herself.</p>
<p>The ball began. It was rather honour than happiness to Fanny, for the
first dance at least: her partner was in excellent spirits, and tried to
impart them to her; but she was a great deal too much frightened to have
any enjoyment till she could suppose herself no longer looked at. Young,
pretty, and gentle, however, she had no awkwardnesses that were not as
good as graces, and there were few persons present that were not disposed
to praise her. She was attractive, she was modest, she was Sir Thomas's
niece, and she was soon said to be admired by Mr. Crawford. It was enough
to give her general favour. Sir Thomas himself was watching her progress
down the dance with much complacency; he was proud of his niece; and
without attributing all her personal beauty, as Mrs. Norris seemed to do,
to her transplantation to Mansfield, he was pleased with himself for
having supplied everything else: education and manners she owed to him.</p>
<p>Miss Crawford saw much of Sir Thomas's thoughts as he stood, and having,
in spite of all his wrongs towards her, a general prevailing desire of
recommending herself to him, took an opportunity of stepping aside to say
something agreeable of Fanny. Her praise was warm, and he received it as
she could wish, joining in it as far as discretion, and politeness, and
slowness of speech would allow, and certainly appearing to greater
advantage on the subject than his lady did soon afterwards, when Mary,
perceiving her on a sofa very near, turned round before she began to
dance, to compliment her on Miss Price's looks.</p>
<p>"Yes, she does look very well," was Lady Bertram's placid reply. "Chapman
helped her to dress. I sent Chapman to her." Not but that she was really
pleased to have Fanny admired; but she was so much more struck with her
own kindness in sending Chapman to her, that she could not get it out of
her head.</p>
<p>Miss Crawford knew Mrs. Norris too well to think of gratifying <i>her</i>
by commendation of Fanny; to her, it was as the occasion offered—"Ah!
ma'am, how much we want dear Mrs. Rushworth and Julia to-night!" and Mrs.
Norris paid her with as many smiles and courteous words as she had time
for, amid so much occupation as she found for herself in making up
card-tables, giving hints to Sir Thomas, and trying to move all the
chaperons to a better part of the room.</p>
<p>Miss Crawford blundered most towards Fanny herself in her intentions to
please. She meant to be giving her little heart a happy flutter, and
filling her with sensations of delightful self-consequence; and,
misinterpreting Fanny's blushes, still thought she must be doing so when
she went to her after the two first dances, and said, with a significant
look, "Perhaps <i>you</i> can tell me why my brother goes to town
to-morrow? He says he has business there, but will not tell me what. The
first time he ever denied me his confidence! But this is what we all come
to. All are supplanted sooner or later. Now, I must apply to you for
information. Pray, what is Henry going for?"</p>
<p>Fanny protested her ignorance as steadily as her embarrassment allowed.</p>
<p>"Well, then," replied Miss Crawford, laughing, "I must suppose it to be
purely for the pleasure of conveying your brother, and of talking of you
by the way."</p>
<p>Fanny was confused, but it was the confusion of discontent; while Miss
Crawford wondered she did not smile, and thought her over-anxious, or
thought her odd, or thought her anything rather than insensible of
pleasure in Henry's attentions. Fanny had a good deal of enjoyment in the
course of the evening; but Henry's attentions had very little to do with
it. She would much rather <i>not</i> have been asked by him again so very
soon, and she wished she had not been obliged to suspect that his previous
inquiries of Mrs. Norris, about the supper hour, were all for the sake of
securing her at that part of the evening. But it was not to be avoided: he
made her feel that she was the object of all; though she could not say
that it was unpleasantly done, that there was indelicacy or ostentation in
his manner; and sometimes, when he talked of William, he was really not
unagreeable, and shewed even a warmth of heart which did him credit. But
still his attentions made no part of her satisfaction. She was happy
whenever she looked at William, and saw how perfectly he was enjoying
himself, in every five minutes that she could walk about with him and hear
his account of his partners; she was happy in knowing herself admired; and
she was happy in having the two dances with Edmund still to look forward
to, during the greatest part of the evening, her hand being so eagerly
sought after that her indefinite engagement with <i>him</i> was in
continual perspective. She was happy even when they did take place; but
not from any flow of spirits on his side, or any such expressions of
tender gallantry as had blessed the morning. His mind was fagged, and her
happiness sprung from being the friend with whom it could find repose. "I
am worn out with civility," said he. "I have been talking incessantly all
night, and with nothing to say. But with <i>you</i>, Fanny, there may be
peace. You will not want to be talked to. Let us have the luxury of
silence." Fanny would hardly even speak her agreement. A weariness,
arising probably, in great measure, from the same feelings which he had
acknowledged in the morning, was peculiarly to be respected, and they went
down their two dances together with such sober tranquillity as might
satisfy any looker-on that Sir Thomas had been bringing up no wife for his
younger son.</p>
<p>The evening had afforded Edmund little pleasure. Miss Crawford had been in
gay spirits when they first danced together, but it was not her gaiety
that could do him good: it rather sank than raised his comfort; and
afterwards, for he found himself still impelled to seek her again, she had
absolutely pained him by her manner of speaking of the profession to which
he was now on the point of belonging. They had talked, and they had been
silent; he had reasoned, she had ridiculed; and they had parted at last
with mutual vexation. Fanny, not able to refrain entirely from observing
them, had seen enough to be tolerably satisfied. It was barbarous to be
happy when Edmund was suffering. Yet some happiness must and would arise
from the very conviction that he did suffer.</p>
<p>When her two dances with him were over, her inclination and strength for
more were pretty well at an end; and Sir Thomas, having seen her walk
rather than dance down the shortening set, breathless, and with her hand
at her side, gave his orders for her sitting down entirely. From that time
Mr. Crawford sat down likewise.</p>
<p>"Poor Fanny!" cried William, coming for a moment to visit her, and working
away his partner's fan as if for life, "how soon she is knocked up! Why,
the sport is but just begun. I hope we shall keep it up these two hours.
How can you be tired so soon?"</p>
<p>"So soon! my good friend," said Sir Thomas, producing his watch with all
necessary caution; "it is three o'clock, and your sister is not used to
these sort of hours."</p>
<p>"Well, then, Fanny, you shall not get up to-morrow before I go. Sleep as
long as you can, and never mind me."</p>
<p>"Oh! William."</p>
<p>"What! Did she think of being up before you set off?"</p>
<p>"Oh! yes, sir," cried Fanny, rising eagerly from her seat to be nearer her
uncle; "I must get up and breakfast with him. It will be the last time,
you know; the last morning."</p>
<p>"You had better not. He is to have breakfasted and be gone by half-past
nine. Mr. Crawford, I think you call for him at half-past nine?"</p>
<p>Fanny was too urgent, however, and had too many tears in her eyes for
denial; and it ended in a gracious "Well, well!" which was permission.</p>
<p>"Yes, half-past nine," said Crawford to William as the latter was leaving
them, "and I shall be punctual, for there will be no kind sister to get up
for <i>me</i>." And in a lower tone to Fanny, "I shall have only a
desolate house to hurry from. Your brother will find my ideas of time and
his own very different to-morrow."</p>
<p>After a short consideration, Sir Thomas asked Crawford to join the early
breakfast party in that house instead of eating alone: he should himself
be of it; and the readiness with which his invitation was accepted
convinced him that the suspicions whence, he must confess to himself, this
very ball had in great measure sprung, were well founded. Mr. Crawford was
in love with Fanny. He had a pleasing anticipation of what would be. His
niece, meanwhile, did not thank him for what he had just done. She had
hoped to have William all to herself the last morning. It would have been
an unspeakable indulgence. But though her wishes were overthrown, there
was no spirit of murmuring within her. On the contrary, she was so totally
unused to have her pleasure consulted, or to have anything take place at
all in the way she could desire, that she was more disposed to wonder and
rejoice in having carried her point so far, than to repine at the
counteraction which followed.</p>
<p>Shortly afterward, Sir Thomas was again interfering a little with her
inclination, by advising her to go immediately to bed. "Advise" was his
word, but it was the advice of absolute power, and she had only to rise,
and, with Mr. Crawford's very cordial adieus, pass quietly away; stopping
at the entrance-door, like the Lady of Branxholm Hall, "one moment and no
more," to view the happy scene, and take a last look at the five or six
determined couple who were still hard at work; and then, creeping slowly
up the principal staircase, pursued by the ceaseless country-dance,
feverish with hopes and fears, soup and negus, sore-footed and fatigued,
restless and agitated, yet feeling, in spite of everything, that a ball
was indeed delightful.</p>
<p>In thus sending her away, Sir Thomas perhaps might not be thinking merely
of her health. It might occur to him that Mr. Crawford had been sitting by
her long enough, or he might mean to recommend her as a wife by shewing
her persuadableness.</p>
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