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<h3> XXVIII. BLITHEDALE PASTURE </h3>
<p>Blithedale, thus far in its progress, had never found the necessity of
a burial-ground. There was some consultation among us in what spot
Zenobia might most fitly be laid. It was my own wish that she should
sleep at the base of Eliot's pulpit, and that on the rugged front of
the rock the name by which we familiarly knew her, Zenobia,—and not
another word, should be deeply cut, and left for the moss and lichens
to fill up at their long leisure. But Hollingsworth (to whose ideas on
this point great deference was due) made it his request that her grave
might be dug on the gently sloping hillside, in the wide pasture,
where, as we once supposed, Zenobia and he had planned to build their
cottage. And thus it was done, accordingly.</p>
<p>She was buried very much as other people have been for hundreds of
years gone by. In anticipation of a death, we Blithedale colonists had
sometimes set our fancies at work to arrange a funereal ceremony, which
should be the proper symbolic expression of our spiritual faith and
eternal hopes; and this we meant to substitute for those customary
rites which were moulded originally out of the Gothic gloom, and by
long use, like an old velvet pall, have so much more than their first
death-smell in them. But when the occasion came we found it the
simplest and truest thing, after all, to content ourselves with the old
fashion, taking away what we could, but interpolating no novelties, and
particularly avoiding all frippery of flowers and cheerful emblems.
The procession moved from the farmhouse. Nearest the dead walked an
old man in deep mourning, his face mostly concealed in a white
handkerchief, and with Priscilla leaning on his arm. Hollingsworth and
myself came next. We all stood around the narrow niche in the cold
earth; all saw the coffin lowered in; all heard the rattle of the
crumbly soil upon its lid,—that final sound, which mortality awakens
on the utmost verge of sense, as if in the vain hope of bringing an
echo from the spiritual world.</p>
<p>I noticed a stranger,—a stranger to most of those present, though
known to me,—who, after the coffin had descended, took up a handful of
earth and flung it first into the grave. I had given up
Hollingsworth's arm, and now found myself near this man.</p>
<p>"It was an idle thing—a foolish thing—for Zenobia to do," said he.
"She was the last woman in the world to whom death could have been
necessary. It was too absurd! I have no patience with her."</p>
<p>"Why so?" I inquired, smothering my horror at his cold comment, in my
eager curiosity to discover some tangible truth as to his relation with
Zenobia. "If any crisis could justify the sad wrong she offered to
herself, it was surely that in which she stood. Everything had failed
her; prosperity in the world's sense, for her opulence was gone,—the
heart's prosperity, in love. And there was a secret burden on her, the
nature of which is best known to you. Young as she was, she had tried
life fully, had no more to hope, and something, perhaps, to fear. Had
Providence taken her away in its own holy hand, I should have thought
it the kindest dispensation that could be awarded to one so wrecked."</p>
<p>"You mistake the matter completely," rejoined Westervelt.</p>
<p>"What, then, is your own view of it?" I asked.</p>
<p>"Her mind was active, and various in its powers," said he. "Her heart
had a manifold adaptation; her constitution an infinite buoyancy, which
(had she possessed only a little patience to await the reflux of her
troubles) would have borne her upward triumphantly for twenty years to
come. Her beauty would not have waned—or scarcely so, and surely not
beyond the reach of art to restore it—in all that time. She had
life's summer all before her, and a hundred varieties of brilliant
success. What an actress Zenobia might have been! It was one of her
least valuable capabilities. How forcibly she might have wrought upon
the world, either directly in her own person, or by her influence upon
some man, or a series of men, of controlling genius! Every prize that
could be worth a woman's having—and many prizes which other women are
too timid to desire—lay within Zenobia's reach."</p>
<p>"In all this," I observed, "there would have been nothing to satisfy
her heart."</p>
<p>"Her heart!" answered Westervelt contemptuously. "That troublesome
organ (as she had hitherto found it) would have been kept in its due
place and degree, and have had all the gratification it could fairly
claim. She would soon have established a control over it. Love had
failed her, you say. Had it never failed her before? Yet she survived
it, and loved again,—possibly not once alone, nor twice either. And
now to drown herself for yonder dreamy philanthropist!"</p>
<p>"Who are you," I exclaimed indignantly, "that dare to speak thus of the
dead? You seem to intend a eulogy, yet leave out whatever was noblest
in her, and blacken while you mean to praise. I have long considered
you as Zenobia's evil fate. Your sentiments confirm me in the idea,
but leave me still ignorant as to the mode in which you have influenced
her life. The connection may have been indissoluble, except by death.
Then, indeed,—always in the hope of God's infinite mercy,—I cannot
deem it a misfortune that she sleeps in yonder grave!"</p>
<p>"No matter what I was to her," he answered gloomily, yet without actual
emotion. "She is now beyond my reach. Had she lived, and hearkened to
my counsels, we might have served each other well. But there Zenobia
lies in yonder pit, with the dull earth over her. Twenty years of a
brilliant lifetime thrown away for a mere woman's whim!"</p>
<p>Heaven deal with Westervelt according to his nature and deserts!—that
is to say, annihilate him. He was altogether earthy, worldly, made for
time and its gross objects, and incapable—except by a sort of dim
reflection caught from other minds—of so much as one spiritual idea.
Whatever stain Zenobia had was caught from him; nor does it seldom
happen that a character of admirable qualities loses its better life
because the atmosphere that should sustain it is rendered poisonous by
such breath as this man mingled with Zenobia's. Yet his reflections
possessed their share of truth. It was a woeful thought, that a woman
of Zenobia's diversified capacity should have fancied herself
irretrievably defeated on the broad battlefield of life, and with no
refuge, save to fall on her own sword, merely because Love had gone
against her. It is nonsense, and a miserable wrong,—the result, like
so many others, of masculine egotism,—that the success or failure of
woman's existence should be made to depend wholly on the affections,
and on one species of affection, while man has such a multitude of
other chances, that this seems but an incident. For its own sake, if
it will do no more, the world should throw open all its avenues to the
passport of a woman's bleeding heart.</p>
<p>As we stood around the grave, I looked often towards Priscilla,
dreading to see her wholly overcome with grief. And deeply grieved, in
truth, she was. But a character so simply constituted as hers has room
only for a single predominant affection. No other feeling can touch
the heart's inmost core, nor do it any deadly mischief. Thus, while we
see that such a being responds to every breeze with tremulous
vibration, and imagine that she must be shattered by the first rude
blast, we find her retaining her equilibrium amid shocks that might
have overthrown many a sturdier frame. So with Priscilla; her one
possible misfortune was Hollingsworth's unkindness; and that was
destined never to befall her, never yet, at least, for Priscilla has
not died.</p>
<p>But Hollingsworth! After all the evil that he did, are we to leave him
thus, blest with the entire devotion of this one true heart, and with
wealth at his disposal to execute the long-contemplated project that
had led him so far astray? What retribution is there here? My mind
being vexed with precisely this query, I made a journey, some years
since, for the sole purpose of catching a last glimpse of
Hollingsworth, and judging for myself whether he were a happy man or
no. I learned that he inhabited a small cottage, that his way of life
was exceedingly retired, and that my only chance of encountering him or
Priscilla was to meet them in a secluded lane, where, in the latter
part of the afternoon, they were accustomed to walk. I did meet them,
accordingly. As they approached me, I observed in Hollingsworth's face
a depressed and melancholy look, that seemed habitual; the powerfully
built man showed a self-distrustful weakness, and a childlike or
childish tendency to press close, and closer still, to the side of the
slender woman whose arm was within his. In Priscilla's manner there
was a protective and watchful quality, as if she felt herself the
guardian of her companion; but, likewise, a deep, submissive,
unquestioning reverence, and also a veiled happiness in her fair and
quiet countenance.</p>
<p>Drawing nearer, Priscilla recognized me, and gave me a kind and
friendly smile, but with a slight gesture, which I could not help
interpreting as an entreaty not to make myself known to Hollingsworth.
Nevertheless, an impulse took possession of me, and compelled me to
address him.</p>
<p>"I have come, Hollingsworth," said I, "to view your grand edifice for
the reformation of criminals. Is it finished yet?"</p>
<p>"No, nor begun," answered he, without raising his eyes. "A very small
one answers all my purposes."</p>
<p>Priscilla threw me an upbraiding glance. But I spoke again, with a
bitter and revengeful emotion, as if flinging a poisoned arrow at
Hollingsworth's heart.</p>
<p>"Up to this moment," I inquired, "how many criminals have you reformed?"</p>
<p>"Not one," said Hollingsworth, with his eyes still fixed on the ground.
"Ever since we parted, I have been busy with a single murderer."</p>
<p>Then the tears gushed into my eyes, and I forgave him; for I remembered
the wild energy, the passionate shriek, with which Zenobia had spoken
those words, "Tell him he has murdered me! Tell him that I'll haunt
him!"—and I knew what murderer he meant, and whose vindictive shadow
dogged the side where Priscilla was not.</p>
<p>The moral which presents itself to my reflections, as drawn from
Hollingsworth's character and errors, is simply this, that, admitting
what is called philanthropy, when adopted as a profession, to be often
useful by its energetic impulse to society at large, it is perilous to
the individual whose ruling passion, in one exclusive channel, it thus
becomes. It ruins, or is fearfully apt to ruin, the heart, the rich
juices of which God never meant should be pressed violently out and
distilled into alcoholic liquor by an unnatural process, but should
render life sweet, bland, and gently beneficent, and insensibly
influence other hearts and other lives to the same blessed end. I see
in Hollingsworth an exemplification of the most awful truth in Bunyan's
book of such, from the very gate of heaven there is a by-way to the pit!</p>
<p>But, all this while, we have been standing by Zenobia's grave. I have
never since beheld it, but make no question that the grass grew all the
better, on that little parallelogram of pasture land, for the decay of
the beautiful woman who slept beneath. How Nature seems to love us!
And how readily, nevertheless, without a sigh or a complaint, she
converts us to a meaner purpose, when her highest one—that of a
conscious intellectual life and sensibility has been untimely balked!
While Zenobia lived, Nature was proud of her, and directed all eyes
upon that radiant presence, as her fairest handiwork. Zenobia
perished. Will not Nature shed a tear? Ah, no!—she adopts the
calamity at once into her system, and is just as well pleased, for
aught we can see, with the tuft of ranker vegetation that grew out of
Zenobia's heart, as with all the beauty which has bequeathed us no
earthly representative except in this crop of weeds. It is because the
spirit is inestimable that the lifeless body is so little valued.</p>
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