<h3>THE HUNGARIAN RHAPSODY</h3>
<h4>I</h4>
<p>After a honeymoon of five weeks in the shining cities of the
Mediterranean and in Paris, they re-entered the British Empire by
the august portals of the Chatham and Dover Railway. They stood
impatiently waiting, part of a well-dressed, querulous crowd, while
a few officials performed their daily task of improvising a
Custom-house for registered luggage on a narrow platform of
Victoria Station. John, Mr. Norris's man, who had met them,
attended behind. Suddenly, with a characteristic movement, the
husband lifted his head, and then looked down at his wife.</p>
<p>'I say, May!'</p>
<p>'Well?'</p>
<p>She knew that he was about to propose some swift alteration of
their plans, but she smiled <SPAN name='Page208' id="Page208"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">208</span> upwards out of her
furs at his grave face, and the tone of her voice granted all
requests in advance.</p>
<p>'I think I'd better go to the office,' he said.</p>
<p>'Now?'</p>
<p>She smiled again, inviting him to do exactly what he chose. She
was already familiar with his restiveness under enforced delays and
inaction, and his unfortunate capacity for being actively bored by
trifles which did not interest him aroused in her a sort of
maternal sympathy.</p>
<p>'Yes,' he answered. 'I can be there and back in an hour or less.
You titivate yourself, and we'll dine at the Savoy, or anywhere you
please. We'll keep the ball rolling to-night. Yes,' he repeated, as
if to convince himself that he was not a deserter, 'I really must
call in at the office. You and John can see to the luggage, can't
you?'</p>
<p>'Of course,' she replied, with calm good-nature, and also with
perfect self-confidence. 'But give me the keys of the trunks, and
don't be late, Ted.'</p>
<p>'Oh, I shan't be late,' he said.</p>
<p>Their fingers touched as she took the keys. <SPAN name='Page209' id="Page209"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">209</span> He went away
enraptured anew by her delightful acquiescences, her unique smile,
her common-sense, her mature charm, and the astonishing elegance of
her person. The honeymoon was over—and with what finished
discretion, combining the innocent girl with the woman of the
world, she had lived through the honeymoon!—another life,
more delicious, was commencing.</p>
<p>'What a wife!' he thought triumphantly. 'She does understand a
man! And fancy leaving any ordinary bride to look after
luggage!'</p>
<p>Nevertheless, once in his offices at Winchester House, he
managed to forget her, and to forget time, for nearly an hour and a
half. When at last he came to himself from the enchantment of
affairs, he jumped into a hansom, and told the driver to drive fast
to Knightsbridge. He was ardent to see her again. In the dark
seclusion of the cab he speculated upon her toilette, the colour of
her shoes. He thought of the last five weeks, of the next five
years. Dwelling on their mutual love and esteem, their health,
their self-knowledge and experience and cheerfulness, her <SPAN name=
'Page210' id="Page210"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">210</span> sense
and grace, his talent for getting money first and keeping it
afterwards, he foresaw nothing but happiness for them. Children?
H'm! Possibly....</p>
<p>At Piccadilly Circus it began to rain—cold, heavy March
rain.</p>
<p>'Window down, sir?' asked the voice of the cabman.</p>
<p>'Yes,' he ordered sardonically. 'Better be suffocated than
drowned.'</p>
<p>'You're right, sir,' said the voice.</p>
<p>Soon, through the streaming glass, which made every gas-jet into
a shooting pillar of flame, Norris discerned vaguely the vast bulk
of Hyde Park Mansions. 'Good!' he muttered, and at that very moment
he was shot through the window into the thin, light-reflecting mire
of the street. Enormous and strange beasts menaced him with
pitiless hoofs. Millions of people crowded about him. In response
to a question that seemed to float slowly towards him, he tried to
give his address. He realized, by a considerable feat of intellect,
that the horse must have fallen down; and then, with a dim notion
that nothing mattered, he went to sleep.</p>
<SPAN name='Page211' id="Page211"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">211</span>
<h4>II</h4>
<p>In the boudoir of the magnificent flat on the first floor,
shielded from the noise and the inclemency of the world by four
silk-hung walls and a double window, and surrounded by all the
multitudinous and costly luxury that a stockbroker with brains and
taste can obtain for the wife of his love, May was leisurely
finishing her toilette. And every detail in the long, elaborate
process was accomplished with a passionate intention to bewitch the
man at Winchester House.</p>
<p>These two had first met seven years before, when May, the
daughter of a successful wholesale draper at Hanbridge, in the Five
Towns district of Staffordshire, was aged twenty-two. Mr. Scarratt
went to Manchester each Tuesday to buy, and about once a month he
took May with him. One day, when they were lunching at the Exchange
Restaurant, a young man came up whom her father introduced as Mr.
Edward Norris, his stockbroker. Mr. Norris, whose years were
thirty, glanced keenly at May, and accepted Mr. Scarratt's
invitation to join them. Ever afterwards May vividly remembered
<SPAN name='Page212' id="Page212"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">212</span>
the wonderful sensation, joyous yet disconcerting, which she then
experienced—the sensation of having captivated her father's
handsome and correct stockbroker. The three talked horses with a
certain freedom, and since May was accustomed to drive the Scarratt
dogcart, so famous in the Five Towns, she could bring her due share
to the conversation. The meal over, Mr. Norris discussed business
matters with his client, and then sedately departed, but not
without the obviously sincere expression of a desire to meet Miss
Scarratt again. The wholesale draper praised Edward's financial
qualities behind his back, and wondered that a man of such aptitude
should remain in Manchester while London existed. As for May, she
decided that she would have a new frock before she came to
Manchester in the following month.</p>
<p>She had a new frock, but not of the colour intended. By the
following month her father was enclosed in a coffin, and it
happened to his estate, as to the estates of many successful men
who employ stockbrokers, that the liabilities far more than covered
the assets. May and her mother were left without a penny. <SPAN name=
'Page213' id="Page213"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">213</span> The
mother did the right thing, and died—it was best. May went
direct to Brunt's, the largest draper in the Five Towns, and asked
for a place under 'Madame' in the dress-making department. Brunt's
daughter, who was about to be married, gave her the place
instantly. Three years later, when 'Madame' returned to Paris, May
stepped into the French-woman's shoes.</p>
<p>On Sundays and on Thursday afternoons, and sometimes (but not
too often) at the theatre, May was the finest walking advertisement
that Brunt's ever had. Old Brunt would have proposed to her, it was
rumoured, had he not been scared by her elegance. Sundry sons of
prosperous manufacturers, unabashed by this elegance, did in fact
secretly propose, but with what result was known only to
themselves.</p>
<p>Later, as May waxed in importance at Brunt's, she was sent to
Manchester to buy. She lunched at the Exchange Restaurant. The
world and Manchester are very small. The first man she set eyes on
was Edward Norris. Another week, Norris said to her with a thrill,
and he would have been gone for ever to <SPAN name='Page214' id="Page214"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">214</span> London. Chance is
not to be flouted. The sequel was inevitable. They loved. And all
the select private bars in Hanbridge tinkled to the news that May
Scarratt had been and hooked a stockbroker!</p>
<p>When the toilette was done, and the maid gone, she wound a thin
black scarf round her olive neck and shoulders, and sat down
negligently on a Chippendale settee in the attitude of a portrait
by Boldini; her little feet were tucked up sideways on the settee;
the perforated lace ends of the scarf fell over her low corsage to
the level of the seat. And she waited, still the bride. He was
late, but she knew he would be late. Sure in the conviction that he
was a strong man, a man of imagination and of deeds, she could
easily excuse this failing in him, as she did that other habit of
impulsive action in trifles. Nay, more, she found keen pleasure in
excusing it. 'Dear thing!' she reflected, 'he forgets so.'
Therefore she waited, content in enjoying the image in the glass of
her dark face, her small plump person, and her Paris
gown—that dream! She thought with assuaged grief of her
father's tragedy; she would have liked him to see her <SPAN name=
'Page215' id="Page215"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">215</span> now,
the jewel in the case—her father and she had understood each
other.</p>
<p>All around, and above and below, she felt, without hearing it,
the activity of the opulent, complex life of the mansions. Her mind
dwelt with satisfaction on long carpeted corridors noiselessly
paraded by flunkeys, mahogany lifts continually ascending and
descending like the angels of the ladder, the great entrance hall
with its fire always burning and its doors always swinging, the
<i>salle à manger</i> sown with rose-shaded candles, and all
the splendid privacies rising stage upon stage to the attics, where
the flunkeys philosophized together. She confessed the beauty and
distinction achieved by this extravagant organization for
gratifying earthly desires. Often, in the pinching days of her
servitude, she had murmured against the injustice of things, and
had called wealth a crime while poverty starved. But now she
perceived that society was what it was inevitably, and could not be
altered. She accepted it in profound peace of mind, gaily fraternal
towards the fortunate, compassionate towards those in
adversity.</p>
<p>In the next flat someone began to play very <SPAN name='Page216' id="Page216"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">216</span> brilliantly a
Hungarian Rhapsody of Liszt's. And even the faint sound of that
riotous torrent of melody, so arrogantly gorgeous, intoxicated her
soul. She shivered under the sudden vision of the splendid joy of
being alive. And how she envied the player! French she had learned
from 'Madame,' but she had no skill on the piano; it was her one
regret.</p>
<p>She touched the bell.</p>
<p>'Has your master come in yet?' she inquired of the maid.</p>
<p>'No, madam, not yet.'</p>
<p>She knew he had not come in, but she could not resist the
impulse to ask.</p>
<p>Ten minutes later, when the piano had ceased, she jumped up,
and, creeping to the front-door of the flat, gazed foolishly across
the corridor at the grille of the lift. She heard the lift in
travail. It appeared and passed out of sight above. No, he had not
come! Glancing aside, she saw the tall slender figure of a girl in
a green tea-gown—a mere girl: it was the player of the
Hungarian Rhapsody. And this girl, too, she thought, was expectant
and disappointed! They shut their doors simultaneously, she and
May, who also had her <SPAN name='Page217' id="Page217"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">217</span> girlish moments.
Then the rhapsody recommenced.</p>
<p>'Oh, madam!' screamed the maid, almost tumbling into the
boudoir.</p>
<p>'What is it?' May demanded with false calm.</p>
<p>The maid lifted the corner of her black apron to her eyes, as
though she had been a stage soubrette in trouble.</p>
<p>'The master, madam! He's fell out of his cab—just in front
of the mansions—and they're bringing him in—such blood
I never did see!'</p>
<p>The maid finished with hysterics.</p>
<h4>III</h4>
<p>'And them just off their honeymoon!'</p>
<p>The inconsolable tones of the lady's-maid came from the kitchen
to the open door of the bedroom, where May was giving instructions
to the elderly cook.</p>
<p>'Send that girl out of the flat this moment!' May said.</p>
<p>'Yes, ma'am.'</p>
<p>'Make the beef-tea in case it's wanted, and <SPAN name='Page218' id="Page218"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">218</span> let me have some
more warm water. There's John and the doctor!'</p>
<p>She started at a knock.</p>
<p>'No, it's only the postman, ma'am.'</p>
<p>Some letters danced on the hall floor and on her nerves.</p>
<p>'Oh dear!' May whispered. 'I thought it was the doctor at
last.'</p>
<p>'John's bound to be back with one in a minute, ma'am. Do bear
up,' urged the cook, hurrying to the kitchen.</p>
<p>She could have destroyed the woman for those last words.</p>
<p>With the proud certainty of being equal to the dreadful crisis,
she turned abruptly into the bedroom, where her husband lay
insensible on one of the new beds. Assisted by the policemen and
the cook, she had done everything that could be done: cut away the
coats and the waistcoat, removed the boots, straightened the limbs,
washed the face and neck—especially the neck—which had
to be sponged continually, and scattered messengers, including
John, over the vicinity in search of medical aid. And now the
policemen had gone, the general emotion on the staircase had
subsided, <SPAN name='Page219' id="Page219"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">219</span> the front-door of the flat was shut. The great
ocean of the life of the mansions had closed smoothly upon her
little episode. She was alone with the shattered organism.</p>
<p>She bent fondly over the bed, and her Paris frock, and the black
scarf which she had not removed, touched its ruinous burden. Her
right hand directed the sponge with ineffable tenderness, and then
the long thin fingers tightened to a frenzied clutch to squeeze it
over the basin. The whole of her being was absorbed in a deep
passion of pity and an intolerable hunger for the doctor.</p>
<p>Through the wall came once more the faint sound of the Hungarian
Rhapsody, astonishingly rapid and brilliant. She set her teeth to
endure its unconscious message of the vast indifference of life to
death.</p>
<p>The organism stirred, and May watched the deathly face for a
sign. The eyes opened and stared at her in agonized bewilderment.
The lips tried to speak, and failed.</p>
<p>'It's all right, darling,' she said softly. 'You're in your own
bed. The doctor will be here directly. Drink this.'</p>
<p>She gave him some brandy-and-water, and <SPAN name='Page220' id="Page220"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">220</span> they looked at each
other. He was no longer Edward Norris, the finely regulated
intelligence, the masterful volition, the conqueror of the world
and of a woman; but merely the embodiment of a frightened,
despairing, flickering, hysterical will-to-live, which glanced in
terror at the corners of the room as though it saw fate there. And
beneath her intense solicitude was the instinctive feeling, which
hurt her, but which she could not dismiss, of her measureless,
dominating superiority. With what glad relief would she have
changed places with him!</p>
<p>'I'm dying, May,' he murmured at length, with a sigh. 'Why
doesn't the doctor come?'</p>
<p>'He is coming,' she replied soothingly. 'You'll be better
soon.'</p>
<p>But his effort in speaking obliged her to use the sponge again,
and he saw it, and drew another sigh, more mortal than the
first.</p>
<p>'Oh! I'm dying,' he repeated.</p>
<p>'Not you, Ted!' And her smile cost her an awful pang.</p>
<p>'I am. I know it.' This time he spoke with sad resignation. 'You
must face it. And—listen.'</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page221' id="Page221"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">221</span> 'What, dear?'</p>
<p>A physical sensation of sickness came over her. She could not
disguise from herself the fact that he was dying. The warped and
pallid face, the panic-struck eyes, the sweat, the wound in the
neck, the damp hands nervously pulling the hem of the
sheet—these indications were not to be gainsaid. The truth
was too horrible to grasp; she wanted to put it away from her.
'This calamity cannot happen to me!' she thought urgently, and all
the while she knew that it was happening to her.</p>
<p>He collected the feeble remnant of his powers by an immense
effort, and began to speak, slowly and fragmentarily, and with such
weakness that she could only catch his words by putting her ear to
his mouth. The restless hands dropped the sheet and took the end of
the black scarf.</p>
<p>'You'll be comfortable—for money,' he said. 'Will made....
It's not that. It's ... I must tell you. It's——'</p>
<p>'Yes?' she encouraged him. 'Tell me. I can hear.'</p>
<p>'It's about your father. I didn't treat him <SPAN name='Page222' id="Page222"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">222</span> quite right ...
once.... Week after I first met you, May.... No, not quite right.
He was holding Hull and Barnsley shares ... you know, railway ...
great gambling stock, then, Hull and Barn—Barnsley. Holding
them on cover; for the rise.... They dropped too much—dropped
to 23.... He couldn't hold any longer ... wired to me to sell and
cut the loss. Understand?'</p>
<p>'Yes,' she said, trembling. 'I quite understand.'</p>
<p>'Well ... I wired back, "Sold at 23." ... But some mistake.
Shares not sold. Clerk's mistake.... Clerk didn't sell.... Next day
rise began.... I didn't wire him shares not sold. Somehow, I
couldn't.... Put it off.... Rise went on.... I took over shares
myself ... you see—myself.... Made nearly five thousand
clear.... I wanted money then.... I think I would have told him,
perhaps, later ... made it right ... but he died ... sudden ... I
wasn't going to let his creditors have that five thou.... No, he'd
meant to sell ... and, look here, May, if those shares had dropped
lower ... 'stead of rising ... I should have had <SPAN name='Page223' id="Page223"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">223</span> to stand the
racket ... with your father, for my clerk's mistake.... See?...
He'd meant to sell.... Hard lines on him, but he'd meant to
sell.... He'd meant——'</p>
<p>'Don't say any more, dear.'</p>
<p>'Must explain this, May. Why didn't I give the money to you ...
when he was dead?... Because I knew you'd only ... give it ... to
creditors.... I knew you.... That's straight.... I've told you
now.'</p>
<p>He lost consciousness again, but for an instant May did not
notice it. She was crying, and her tears fell on his face.</p>
<p>Then came a doctor, a little dark man, who explained with calm
politeness that he had been out when the messenger first arrived.
He took off his coat, hung it up, opened his bag, and proceeded to
a minute examination of the patient. His movements were so
methodical, and he gave orders to May in a tone so quiet, casual,
and ordinary, that she almost lost her sense of the reality of the
scene.</p>
<p>'Yes, yes,' he said, from time to time, as if to himself;
nothing else; not a single enlightening word to May.</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page224' id="Page224"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">224</span> 'I'm dying,' moaned Edward, opening his
eyes.</p>
<p>The doctor glanced round at May and winked. That wink,
deliberate and humorous, was like an electric shock to her. She
could actually feel her heart leap in her breast. If she had not
been afraid of the doctor, she would have fainted.</p>
<p>'You all think you're dying,' the doctor remarked in a low,
amused tone to the ceiling, as he wiped a pair of scissors, 'when
you've been knocked silly, especially if there's a lot of blood
about.'</p>
<p>The door opened.</p>
<p>'Here's John, ma'am,' said the cook, 'with two more doctors.
What am I to do?'</p>
<p>May involuntarily turned towards the door.</p>
<p>'Don't you go, Mrs. Norris,' the little dark man commanded. 'I
want you.' Then he carelessly scrutinized the elderly servant.
'Tell 'em they're too late,' he said. 'It's generally like that
when there's an accident,' he continued after the housekeeper had
gone. 'First you can't get a doctor anywhere, and then in half an
hour or so we come in crowds. I've known seven doctors turn up one
after another. <SPAN name='Page225' id="Page225"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">225</span> But in that affair the man happened to have
been killed outright.'</p>
<p>He smiled grimly. In a little while he was snapping his bag.</p>
<p>'I'll come in the morning, of course,' he said, as he wrote on a
piece of paper. 'Have this made up, and give it him in the night if
he is wakeful. Keep him warm. You might put a couple of hot-water
bags, one on either side of him. You've got beef-tea made, you say?
That's right. Let him have as much as he wants. Mr. Norris, you'll
sleep like a top.'</p>
<p>'But, doctor,' May inquired the next morning in the hall, after
Edward had smiled at a joke, and been informed that he must run
down to Bournemouth in a week, 'have we nothing to fear?'</p>
<p>'I think not,' was the measured answer. 'These affairs nearly
always seem much worse than they are. Of course, the immediate
upset is tremendous—the disorganization, and all that sort of
thing. But Nature's pretty wonderful. You'll find your husband will
soon get over it. I should say he had a good constitution.'</p>
<p>'And there will be no permanent effects?'</p>
<p>'Yes,' said the doctor, with genial cynicism. <SPAN name='Page226' id="Page226"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">226</span> 'There'll be one
permanent effect. Nobody will ever persuade him to ride in a hansom
again. If he can't find a four-wheeler, he'll walk in future.'</p>
<p>She returned to the bedroom. The man on the bed was Edward
Norris once more, in control of himself, risen out of his
humiliation. A feeling of thankfulness overwhelmed her for a
moment, and she sat down.</p>
<p>'Well, May?' he murmured.</p>
<p>'Well, dear.'</p>
<p>They both realized that what they had been through was a common,
daily street accident. The smile of each was self-conscious,
apprehensive, insincere.</p>
<p>'Quite a concert going on next door,' he said with an
affectation of lightness.</p>
<p>It was the Hungarian Rhapsody, impetuous and brilliant as ever.
How she hated it now—this symbol of the hurried, unheeding,
relentless, hollow gaiety of the world! Yet she longed for the
magic fingers of the player, that she, too, might smother grief in
such glittering veils!</p>
<SPAN name='Page227' id="Page227"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">227</span>
<h4>IV</h4>
<p>The marriage which had begun so dramatically fell into placid
routine. Edward fulfilled the prophecy of the doctor. In a week
they were able to go to Bournemouth for a few days, and in less
than a fortnight he was at the office—the strong man again,
confident and ambitious.</p>
<p>After days devoted to finance, he came home in the evenings
high-spirited and determined to enjoy himself. His voice was firm
and his eye steady when he spoke to his wife; there was no trace of
self-consciousness in his demeanour. She admired the masculinity of
the brain that could forget by an effort of will. She felt that he
trusted her to forget also; that he relied on her common-sense, her
characteristic sagacity, to extinguish for ever the memory of an
awkward incident. He loved her. He was intensely proud of her. He
treated her with every sort of generosity. And in return he
expected her to behave like a man.</p>
<p>She loved him. She esteemed him as a wife should. She made a
profession of wifehood. <SPAN name='Page228' id="Page228"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">228</span> He gave his days to
finance and his nights to diversion; but her vocation was always
with her—she was never off duty. She aimed to please him to
the uttermost in everything, to be in all respects the ideal
helpmate of a husband who was at once strenuous, fastidious, and
wealthy. Elegance and suavity were a religion with her. She was the
delight of the eye and of the ear, the soother of groans, the
refuge of distress, the uplifter of the heart.</p>
<p>She made new acquaintances for him, and cemented old
friendships. Her manner towards his old friends enchanted him; but
when they were gone she had a way of making him feel that she was
only his. She thought that she was succeeding in her aim. She
thought that all these sweet, endless labours—of traffic with
dressmakers, milliners, coiffeurs, maids, cooks, and furnishers; of
paying and receiving calls; of delicious surprise journeys to the
City to bring home the breadwinner; of giving and accepting
dinners; of sitting alert and appreciative in theatres and
music-halls; of supping in golden restaurants; of being serious,
cautionary, submissive, and seductive; of smiles, laughter,
<SPAN name='Page229' id="Page229"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">229</span>
and kisses; and of continuous sympathetic responsiveness—she
thought that all these labours had attained their object: Edward's
complete serenity and satisfaction. She imagined that love and duty
had combined successfully to deceive him on one solitary point. She
was sure that he was deceived. But she was wrong.</p>
<p>One evening they were at the theatre alone together. It was a
musical comedy, and they had a large stage-box. May sat a little
behind. After having been darkened for a scenic conjuring trick,
the stage was very suddenly thrown into brilliant light. Edward
turned with equal suddenness to share his appreciation of the
effect with his wife, and the light and his eye caught her
unawares. She smiled instantly, but too late; he had seen the
expression of her features. For a second she felt as if the whole
fabric which she had been building for the last six months had
crumbled; but this disturbing idea passed as she recovered
herself.</p>
<p>'Let's go home, eh?' he said, at the end of the first act.</p>
<p>'Yes,' she agreed. 'It would be nice to be in early, wouldn't
it?'</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page230' id="Page230"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">230</span> In the brougham they exchanged the amiable
banalities of people who are thoroughly intimate. When they reached
the flat, she poured out his whisky-and-potass, and sat on the arm
of his particular arm-chair while he sipped it; then she whispered
that she was going to bed.</p>
<p>'Wait a bit,' he said; 'I want to talk to you seriously.'</p>
<p>'Dear thing!' she murmured, stroking his coat.</p>
<p>She had not the slightest notion of his purpose.</p>
<p>'You've tried your best, May,' he said bluntly, 'but you've
failed. I've suspected it for a long time.'</p>
<p>She flushed, and retired to a sofa, away from the orange
electric lamp.</p>
<p>'What do you mean, Edward?' she asked.</p>
<p>'You know very well what I mean, my dear,' he replied. 'What I
told you—that night! You've tried to forget it. You've tried
to look at me as though you had forgotten it. But you can't do it.
It's on your mind. I've noticed it again and again. I noticed it at
the theatre to-night. So I said <SPAN name='Page231' id="Page231"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">231</span> to myself, "I'll
have it out with her." And I'm having it out.'</p>
<p>'My dear Ted, I assure you——'</p>
<p>'No, you don't,' he stopped her. 'I wish you did. Now you must
just listen. I know exactly what sort of an idiot I was that night
as well as you do. But I couldn't help it. I was a fool to tell
you. Still, I thought I was dying. I simply had a babbling fit.
People are like that. You thought I was dying, too, didn't
you?'</p>
<p>'Yes,' she said quietly, 'for a minute or two.'</p>
<p>'Ah! It was that minute or two that did it. Well, I let it out,
the rotten little secret. I admit it wasn't on the square, that bit
of business. But, on the other hand, it wasn't anything really
bad—like cruelty to animals or ruining a girl. Of course, the
chap was your father, but, but——. Look here, May, you
ought to be able to see that I was exactly the same man after I
told you as I was before. You ought to be able to see that. My
character wasn't wrecked because I happened to split on myself,
like an ass, about that affair. Mind you, I don't blame you. You
can't help your feelings. But do you suppose there's a single
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man on this blessed earth without a secret? I'm not going to grovel
before gods or men. I'm not going to pretend I'm so frightfully
sorry. I'm sorry in a way. But can't you see——'</p>
<p>'Don't say any more, Ted,' she begged him, fingering her sash.
'I know all that. I know it all, and everything else you can say.
Oh, my darling boy! do you think I would look down on you ever so
little because of—what you told me? Who am I? I wouldn't care
twopence even if——'</p>
<p>'But it's between us all the same,' he broke in. 'You can't get
over it.'</p>
<p>'Get over it!' she repeated lamely.</p>
<p>'Can you? Have you?' He pinned her to a direct answer.</p>
<p>She did not flinch.</p>
<p>'No,' she said.</p>
<p>'I thought you would have done,' he remarked, half to himself.
'I thought you would. I thought you were enough a woman of the
world for that, May. It isn't as if the confounded thing had made
any real difference to your father. The old man died,
and——'</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page233' id="Page233"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">233</span> 'Ted!' she exclaimed, 'I shall have to tell
you, after all. It killed him.'</p>
<p>'What killed him? He died of gastritis.'</p>
<p>'He was ill with gastritis, but he died of suicide. It's easy
for a gastritis patient to commit suicide. And father did.'</p>
<p>'Why?'</p>
<p>'Oh, ruin, despair! He'd been in difficulties for a long time.
He said that selling those shares just one day too soon was the end
of it. When he saw them going up day after day, it got on his mind.
He said he knew he would never, never have any luck. And then
...'</p>
<p>'You kept it quiet.' He was walking about the room.</p>
<p>'Yes, that was pretty easy.'</p>
<p>'And did your mother know?'</p>
<p>He turned and looked at her.</p>
<p>'Yes, mother knew. It finished her. Oh, Ted!' she burst out, 'if
you'd only telegraphed to him the next morning that the shares
weren't sold, things might have been quite different.'</p>
<p>'You mean I killed your father—and your mother.'</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page234' id="Page234"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">234</span> 'No, I don't,' she cried passionately. 'I tell
you I don't. You didn't know. But I think of it all, sometimes. And
that's why—that's why——'</p>
<p>She sat down again.</p>
<p>'By God, May,' he swore, 'I'm frightfully sorry!'</p>
<p>'I never meant to tell you,' she said, composing herself. 'But,
there! things slip out. Good-night.'</p>
<p>She was gone, but in passing him she had timidly caressed his
shoulder.</p>
<p>'It's all up,' he said to himself. 'This will always be between
us. No one could expect her to forget it.'</p>
<h4>V</h4>
<p>Gradually her characteristic habits deserted her; she seemed to
lose energy and a part of her interest in those things which had
occupied her most. She changed her dress less frequently, ignoring
dressmakers, and she showed no longer the ravishing elegance of the
bride. She often lay in bed till noon, she who had always entered
the dining-room at <SPAN name='Page235' id="Page235"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">235</span> nine o'clock precisely to dispense his coffee
and listen to his remarks on the contents of the newspaper. She
said 'As you please' to the cook, and the meals began to lose their
piquancy. She paid no calls, but some of her women friends
continued, nevertheless, to visit her. Lastly, she took to sewing.
The little dark doctor, who had become an acquaintance, smiled at
her and told her to do no more than she felt disposed to do. She
reclined on sofas in shaded rooms, and appeared to meditate. She
was not depressed, but thoughtful. It was as though she had much to
settle in her own mind. At intervals the faint sound of the
Hungarian Rhapsody mingled with her reveries.</p>
<p>As for Edward, his behaviour was immaculate. During the day he
made money furiously. In the evening he sat with his wife. They did
not talk much, and he never questioned her. She developed a certain
curious whimsicality now and then; but for him she could do no
wrong.</p>
<p>The past was not mentioned. They both looked apprehensively
towards the future, towards a crisis which they knew was inexorably
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approaching. They were afraid, while pretending to have no
fear.</p>
<p>And one afternoon, precipitately, surprisingly, the crisis
came.</p>
<p>'You are the father of a son—a very noisy son,' said the
doctor, coming into the drawing-room where Edward had sat in
torture for three hours.</p>
<p>'And May?'</p>
<p>'Oh, never fear: she's doing excellently.'</p>
<p>'Can I go and see her?' he asked, like a humble petitioner.</p>
<p>'Well—yes,' said the doctor, 'for one minute; not
more.'</p>
<p>So he went into the bedroom as into a church, feeling a fool.
The nurse, miraculously white and starched, stood like a sentinel
at the foot of the bed of mystery.</p>
<p>'All serene, May?' he questioned. If he had attempted to say
another word he would have cried.</p>
<p>The pale mother nodded with a fatigued smile, and by a scarcely
perceptible gesture drew his attention to a bundle. From the next
flat came a faint, familiar sound, insolently joyous.</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page237' id="Page237"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">237</span> 'Yes,' he thought, 'but if they had both been
lying dead here that tune would have been the same.'</p>
<p>Two months later he left the office early, telling his secretary
that he had a headache. It was a mere fibbing excuse. He suffered
from sudden fits of anxiety about his wife and child. When he
reached the flat, he found no one at home but the cook.</p>
<p>'Where's your mistress?' he demanded.</p>
<p>'She's out in the park with baby and nurse, sir.'</p>
<p>'But it's going to rain,' he cried angrily. 'It is raining.
They'll get wet through.'</p>
<p>He rushed into the corridor, and met the procession—May,
the perambulator, and the nursemaid.</p>
<p>'Only fancy, Ted!' May exclaimed, 'the perambulator will go into
the lift, after all. Aren't you glad?'</p>
<p>'Yes,' he said. 'But you're wet, surely?'</p>
<p>'Not a drop. We just got in in time.'</p>
<p>'Sure?'</p>
<p>'Quite.'</p>
<p>The tableau of May, elegant as ever, but her eyes brighter and
her body more leniently <SPAN name='Page238' id="Page238"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">238</span> curved, of the
hooded perambulator, and of the fluffy-white nursemaid
behind—it was too much for him. Touching clumsily the apron
of the perambulator, the stockbroker turned into his doorway. Just
then the girl from the next flat came out into the corridor,
dressed for social rites of the afternoon. The perambulator was her
excuse for stopping.</p>
<p>'What a pretty boy!' she exclaimed in ecstasy, trying to squeeze
her picture hat under the hood of the perambulator.</p>
<p>'Do you really think so?' said the mother, enchanted.</p>
<p>'Of course! The darling! How I envy you!'</p>
<p>May wanted to reciprocate this politeness.</p>
<p>'I can't tell you,' she said, 'how I envy you your
piano-playing. There's one piece——'</p>
<p>'Envy me! Why! It's only a pianola we've got!'</p>
<p>'Isn't he the picture of his granddad?' said May to Edward when
they bent over the cot that night before retiring.</p>
<p>And as she said it there was such candour in her voice, such
content in her smiling and <SPAN name='Page239' id="Page239"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">239</span> courageous eyes,
that Edward could not fail to comprehend her message to him. Down
in some very secret part of his soul he felt for the first time the
real force of the great explanatory truth that one generation
succeeds another.</p>
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