<h2><SPAN name="CHAPTER_XIX" id="CHAPTER_XIX"></SPAN>CHAPTER XIX</h2>
<div class="blockquot"><p>"Oh, little booke—how darst thou put thyself in press for
drede?"—<span class="smcap">Chaucer.</span></p>
</div>
<p>We sat quietly waiting. I had drawn a chair near
Desire. Phillida and Vere were together, chairs
touching, her right hand curled into his left. Bagheera
the cat had slipped into the room before the
door was closed, and lay pressed against his mistress's
stout little boot. Our small garrison was assembled,
surely for as strange a defense as ever sober moderns
undertook. For my part, it was wonder enough to
study that captive who was at once so strange yet so
intimately well known to me.</p>
<p>The Tiffany clock on the mantel shelf chimed
midnight. Soon after, we began to experience the
first break in the heavy monotony of heat and fog
that had overlaid the place for three days. The
temperature began to fall. The fog did not lift.
The flowered cretonne curtains hung straight from
their rods unstirred by any movement of air. But
the atmosphere in the room steadily grew colder. I
saw Phillida shiver in the chill dampness and pull<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_266" id="Page_266"></SPAN></span>
closer the collar of her thin blouse. When Desire
finally spoke, we three started as if her low tones had
been the clang of a hammer.</p>
<p>"I have tried to judge what is best," she said,
not raising her face from its shadowing veil of hair.
"I am not very wise. But it seems better that there
should be no ignorance between us. If I had been
either wise or good, I should never have come down
from the convent to draw another into danger and
horror without purpose or hope of any good ending."</p>
<p>"The convent?" I echoed, memory turning to
the bleak building far up the hillside. "You came
from there?"</p>
<p>"There is a path through the woods. I am very
strong and vigorous. But I had to wait until all
there were asleep before I could come. Sometimes I
could not come at all. For this house, I had my
father's old key. It was only for this little time
while I am being taught. Soon I will put on a nun's
dress and cut my hair, and—and never—never leave
there any more."</p>
<p>Stupefied, I thought of the black loneliness of the
wooded hillside behind us. No wonder the fog was
wet upon her hair! Her slight feet had traversed that<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_267" id="Page_267"></SPAN></span>
path night after night, had brought her to the door
her key fitted, had come through the dark house to
the door of the room upstairs. When she left me, she
had toiled that desolate way back. For what? Humility
bent me, and bewilderment.</p>
<p>"But why?" Phillida gasped. "Why? Cousin
Roger hunted everywhere to find you. He would
have gone anywhere you told him to see you. Didn't
you know that?"</p>
<p>"I never meant him to see me."</p>
<p>"Why not?"</p>
<p>"I am Desire Michell, fourth of that name; all
women who brought misfortune upon those who
cared for them," she answered, her voice lower still.
"How shall I make you understand? I was brought
up to know the wrath and doom upon me, yet I myself
can scarcely understand. My father knew all, yet he
fell in weakness."</p>
<p>"Your father?" I questioned, recalling Mrs.
Hill's positive genealogy of the Michells in which
there was no place for this daughter of the line.</p>
<p>"He was the last of his family. When he was
very young the conviction came to him that his duty
was never to marry, so our race might cease to exist.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_268" id="Page_268"></SPAN></span>
He lived here and preached against evil. He studied
the ancient learning that he might be fitted to wrestle
with sin. But in the end horror of what was here
gained upon him so that he closed the house and
went abroad to work as a missionary. There was a
girl; the daughter of the clergyman who was leaving
the mission. My father—fell in love. He forgot all
his convictions and married her. He knew it was a
sin, but it was stronger than he was. She only lived
one year. When I was born, she died. He prayed
that I would die, too. But—I——"</p>
<p>Her voice died into silence. I ventured to lean
nearer and take her hand into mine.</p>
<p>"Desire," I said, "why should you be a sufferer
for the actions of a woman who died over two centuries
ago? What is the long dead Desire Michell
to you?"</p>
<p>A strange and solemn hush followed my question.
The words seemed to take a significance and importance
beyond their simple meaning. The hand I
held trembled in my clasp. She answered at last,
just audibly:</p>
<p>"You know. You said that you had read
her book."</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_269" id="Page_269"></SPAN></span>"But the book tells so little, Desire. Just such
a chronicle of superstition as may be found in a
hundred old records."</p>
<p>She shook her head slightly.</p>
<p>"Not that! Bring me the book."</p>
<p>The book was upstairs in the room from which I
had carried her half an hour before in something
very like a panic flight. Before I could release her
hand and rise, before I comprehended his intention,
Vere was out of the living room and upon the stairs.
It was too late to overtake him. The man who had
been a professional skater covered the stairs in a few
easy, swinging strides. We heard his light tread on
the floor overhead, heard him stop beside the table
where the book lay. Then, he was returning. My door
closed. His step sounded on the stairs again; in a
moment he was back among us, and quietly offering
the volume to our guest. His dark eyes met mine
reassuringly, deprecating the thoughts I am sure my
face expressed.</p>
<p>"Lights burning and all serene up there," he
announced.</p>
<p>Desire touched the book with a curious repugnance.</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_270" id="Page_270"></SPAN></span>"I was looking for this, the first night I came
here," she murmured. "That is why I came to
America after my father died. I had promised him
to destroy this record. When I heard that the house
was sold to a gentleman from New York, I came
down from the convent on the hill to find the bookcase
holding the old history. I did not know anyone
was here, that night, until you touched my hair."</p>
<p>I remembered the bookcase near the bed, where I
stood my candle and matches. Unaware, I had prevented
her finding the thing she sought, and so forced
her to return. Afterward, the house had been full
of workmen making alterations and improvements,
until later still Phillida had transferred the bookcase
and its contents to her sewing room. If I had not
taken the whim to sleep in the old house on the night
of my purchase, or if I had chosen another room, the
existence of Desire Michell might never have been
known to me.</p>
<p>Would the creature from the Barrier have appeared
to me, if I had not known her?</p>
<p>She was drawing something from behind the
portrait of the first Desire Michell; a thin, small
book that had lain concealed between the cover of the<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_271" id="Page_271"></SPAN></span>
larger volume and the page bearing the woodcut,
where a sort of pocket was formed that had escaped
our notice. Laid upon the table, the little book
rolled away from the girl's fingers and lay curled
upon itself in the lamplight. The limp morocco cover
was spotted with mildew and half-revealed pages of
close, fine writing blotched in places with rusty stains.
It gave out an odor of mould and age in an atmosphere
made sweet by Desire's presence.</p>
<p>Phillida, who had been silent even when Vere left
her to go upstairs, shrank away from the book on the
table. She darted a glance over her shoulder at
the curtained windows behind her.</p>
<p>"Drawls, I cannot help what everybody thinks of
me," she said plaintively. "I am cold. The fire is
ready laid in the grate. Will you put a match to
it, please?"</p>
<p>No one smiled at the request. Her husband
uttered some soothing phrase of compliance. We all
looked on while the flame caught and began to creep
up among the apple-logs. Bagheera rose and changed
his position to one before the hearth. When Vere
stood erect, Desire leaned toward him.</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_272" id="Page_272"></SPAN></span>"Will you read, aloud, sir?" she asked of him,
and made a gesture toward the morocco book.</p>
<p>She surprised us all by that choice. I was unreasoning
enough to feel slighted, although the task
was one for which I felt a strong dislike. I fancied
Vere liked the idea no better, from his expression.
However, he offered no demur, but sat down at the
table and began to flatten the warped pages that
perversely sprang back and clung about his fingers.
Desire slowly turned her lovely eyes to me, eyes that
looked by gift of nature as if their long corners had
been brushed with kohl. She said nothing, yet somehow
conveyed her meaning and intent. I understood
that she did not wish to hear me read those pages;
that it was painful to her that they should be read
at all.</p>
<p>Vere was ready. He glanced around our circle,
then began with the simple directness that gave him a
dignity peculiarly his own.</p>
<p>"'Mistress Desire Michell, her booke, Beginning
at the nineteenth year of her Age,'" he read, in
his leisurely voice.</p>
<p>The living Desire Michell and I were regarding
one another. I smiled at the quaint wording, but she
shuddered, and put her hands across her eyes.</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_273" id="Page_273"></SPAN></span>Yet there was nothing in those first pages except
a girl's chronicle of village life. This book evidently
carried on a diary kept from early childhood; a diary
written out of loneliness. Apparently the bare colonial
life pressed heavily upon the writer; who, having
no companions of the intellect, turned to this record
of her own mind as a prisoner might talk to his reflection
in a mirror rather than go mad from sheer
silence. Discontent and restlessness beat through the
lines like fluttering wings. She wrote of her own
beauty with a cool appraisal oddly removed from
vanity, almost with resentment of a possession she
could not use.</p>
<p>"Like a man who finds treasure in a desert isle,
I am rich in coin that I may not spend," she wrote.
"I stand before my mirror and take a tress of my
hair in either hand; I spread wide my arms full
reach, yet I cannot touch the end of those tresses.
Nor can my two hands clasp the bulk of them. There
have been other women who had such hair, who were
of body straight and white, and had the eyes—but I
cannot read that they stayed poor and obscure."</p>
<p>There followed some quotations from the classics
of which I was able to give but vague translations<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_274" id="Page_274"></SPAN></span>
when Vere passed the book to me, both because my
knowledge was scanty and because of their daring
unconventionality. There were allusions, too, to
ladies of later history who had found fairness a
broad staircase for ambition to mount. Of the
writer's learning, there could be no question; a learning
amazing in one so young and so situated. The
source of this became apparent. Her father was
consumed with the passion of scholarship, and the
girl's hungry mind fed in the pastures where he
led the way.</p>
<p>Here crept into view an anomaly of character.
The austere Puritan divine, whose life was open and
blank, bare and cold as a winter field, cherished a
secret dissipation of the mind. He labored upon a
book on the errors of magic. So laboring, he became
snared by the thing he denounced. He believed
in the hidden lore while he condemned it.
Deeper and deeper into forbidden knowledge his
eagerness for research led him. Unsanctioned by
any church were the books Dr. Michell starved his
body to buy from Jews or other furtive dealers in
unusual wares. The titles in his library comprehended
the names of more charlatans than bishops.<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_275" id="Page_275"></SPAN></span>
He could define the distinctions between necromancy,
sorcery, and magic. The marvelous calculations of
the Pythagoreans engaged him, and the lost mysteries
of the Cabiri.</p>
<p>From such studies he would arise on the Sabbath
to preach sermons that held his dull flock agape.
Bitter draughts of salvation he poured for their spiritual
drinking. He scarcely saw how any man might
escape hell-fire, all being so vile. Against witchcraft
and tampering with Satan's agents he was eloquent.
He rode sixty miles in midwinter to see a Quaker
whipped and a woman hung who had been convicted
as a witch.</p>
<p>Of all this, his daughter wrote with an elfin
mockery. Her brilliant eye of youth saw through
the inconsistency of the beliefs he strove to reconcile.
She learned his lore, read his books, and discarded
his doctrine.</p>
<p>"I study with him, but I think alone," she set
down her independence.</p>
<p>Without his knowledge, she proceeded to actual
experiment with rude crucible and alembic in her
own chamber. She essayed some age-old recipes
of blended herbs and ingredients within her reach,<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_276" id="Page_276"></SPAN></span>
handled at certain hours of the night and phases of the
moon. All were innocent enough, it seemed. She
cured a beloved old dog of rheumatism and partial
blindness. She discovered an exquisite perfume
which she named Rose of Jerusalem.</p>
<p>But the experiments were not fortunate, she
made obscure complaint. The dog, cured, lived only
a few weeks. The perfume, in which she revelled
with a fierce, long-denied appetite, steeping her rich
hair in it and her severely dull garments, awoke many
whispers in a community where sweet odors were
unknown and disapproved. She alluded, with a
mingling of freezing scorn and triumph, to the young
men who followed after her—"seeking a wife who
would be at their hearth as fatal a guest as that fair
woman sent by an enemy to Alexander the Great,
whose honey breath was deadly poison to who so
kissed there."</p>
<p>Into this situation rode the fine gentleman from
the colonial world of fashion who was to fix the fate
of Desire Michell and his own.</p>
<p>From this point on, the diary was a record of
the same story as the "History of Ye foule Witch,
Desire Michell."</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_277" id="Page_277"></SPAN></span>The love affair that followed Sir Austin's visit
to the clergyman's house leaped hot and instant as
flame from oil and fire brought together. The girl
was parched with thirst for life, yet despised all
around her. The man was dazzled by a beauty and
mentality foreign as a bird of paradise found nested
in Connecticut snow. A mad, wild passion linked
them that was more than half a duel. For Sir Austin
was already betrothed. Honor might not have
chained him for long, but his need of his betrothed's
fortune proved more enduring. He was a man bred
to wealth, who did not possess it. He offered Desire
Michell his left hand.</p>
<p>He was turned out of her father's house with a
red weal struck across his face like a brand.</p>
<p>Of course he returned. The arrow was firmly
fixed. He asked her to marry him, and was refused
with savage contempt. He would not take the refusal.
Her heart and ambition were hidden traitors
to his cause. In the end she surrendered and the
marriage day was set.</p>
<p>Sir Austin rode away to set his house in order,
while Desire turned from alchemy to make her wedding
garments.</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_278" id="Page_278"></SPAN></span>The entries during this interval were sweetly gentle
and feminine. Her Rose of Jerusalem fragrance
was all her own, and was kept so, but she made less-rare
essences and sold them through a pedlar in
order to buy fine linen and brocade for a trousseau
not designed to be worn in a Puritan village. She
was happy and at rest in expectation.</p>
<p>On her wedding day the destroying news fell.
Sir Austin hid a weak spirit within a strong and
handsome body. Away from Desire's glamour, back
in New York, he had not broken his engagement to
the heiress. Instead, he had married her on the day
arranged before he met the clergyman's daughter.</p>
<p>There was never again a connected record in the
diary. Pages were torn out in places, entries were
broken off, half-made. But the story Vere's slow,
steady voice conveyed to us was the one we knew;
the one my Desire had told to me the first night I
slept in this house. The half-mad girl turned to
her father's deadly books. Sir Austin died as his
waxen image dissolved before the fire, where the
girl sat watching with merciless hate. He died,
raving and frothing, on her door-sill. She never
saw him after the day he rode away to prepare for<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_279" id="Page_279"></SPAN></span>
their marriage. She set open her window that she
might hear his progress to that hard death, but never
deigned to turn her glance upon him.</p>
<p>The clergyman was dead, now; of shame, or
perhaps of terror at the child he had reared. The
girl was alone.</p>
<p>The diary grew wilder, with gaps of weeks where
there were no entries. More frequently, pages were
missing and paragraphs obliterated by the reddish
blotches like rust or blood. There were accounts of
weird, half-told experiments ranging through the
three degrees of magic set forth by Talmud and
Cabala. She wrote of legions of kingdoms between
earth and heaven, and the twelve unearthly worlds of
Plato. She alluded to a Barrier between men and
other orders of beings, beyond which dwelt Those
whom the magicians of old glimpsed after long toil
and incantation.</p>
<p>"Those of whom Vertabied, the Armenian, says:
'<i>Their orders differ from one another in situation and
degree of glory, just as there are different ranks
among men, though they are all of one nature.</i>' They
cannot cross nor overthrow this Wall, nor can
man alone; but if they and man join together—<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_280" id="Page_280"></SPAN></span>—One
there beyond whispers to me of power, splendor,
victory——"</p>
<p>Days later, there was entered a passage of mad
triumph and terror. The Barrier was broken
through. Out of the breach issued the One whom
she had invited to her silver lamps; colossal, formless,
whose approach froze blood and spirit. Eyes of unspeakable
meaning glared across the dark, whispers
unbearable to humanity beat upon her intelligence and
named her comrade.</p>
<p>Now as Vere read this, I felt again that quiver
of the house or air he had likened to an earth shock
and held responsible for the fall of the willow tree
that had destroyed our hope of escape by automobile.
I looked at my companions and saw no evidence of
anyone having noticed what I had seemed to feel.
Vere indeed was pale; while Phillida, who sat beside
him, was highly flushed with excitement and wonder
as she listened. Desire had not stirred in her chair,
except to bend her head so her face was shaded by
the loosened richness of her hair. Seeing them so
undisturbed, I kept silence. A storm might be
approaching, but I made no pretense to myself of
believing that shock either thunder or earthquake.</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_281" id="Page_281"></SPAN></span>The tone of the diary altered rapidly. At first,
the unknown from beyond the wall appalled the
woman only by its unhuman strangeness, the repugnance
of flesh and blood for its loathly neighborhood.
Fear emanated from its presence, seen yet
unseen, a blackness moving in the black of night when
it visited her. Yet she had courage to endure those
awful colloquies. She listened. She strove by the
spell and incantation to subdue This to her service,
as the demon Orthone served the Lord of Corasse,
as Paracelsus was served by his Familiar, or Gyges
by the spirit of his ring.</p>
<p>Alas for the sorceress, misguided by legend and
fantasy! She had evoked no phantom, but a fact
actual as nature always is even if nature is not
humanly understood. The Thing was real.</p>
<p>The awe of the magician became the stricken
panic of the woman. She had unloosed what she
could not bind. She had called a servant, and gained
a master. Gone forever were the dreams of power
and splendor and triumph. Now she learned that
only pure magic can discharge the spirits it has summoned,
nor could a murderess attain that lofty art.</p>
<p>We were given a glimpse of a frantic girl<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_282" id="Page_282"></SPAN></span>
crouched in the useless pentagram traced on the floor
for her protection, covering her beauty with the
cloak of her hair against the eyes that burned upon
her between the overturned silver lamps.</p>
<p>A deepening horror gathered about the house of
Mistress Desire Michell. The old dame who had
been the girl's nurse and caretaker fled the place and
fell into mumbling dotage in a night. No child
would come near the garden, though fruit and nuts
rotted away where they dropped from overripeness.
No neighbor crossed the doorstep where Sir Austin
had died. She lived in utter solitude by day. By
night she waged hideous battle against her Visitor;
using woman's cunning, essaying every expedient and
art her books suggested to her desperate need.</p>
<p>With each conflict, her strength and resource
waned, while That which she held at bay knew no
weariness. Time was not, for it, nor change
of purpose.</p>
<p>"I faint, I fail!" she wrote. "The Sea of
Dread breaks about my feet. It is midnight. The
pentagram fades from the floor—the nine lamps
die—the breath of the One at the casement is
upon me——"</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_283" id="Page_283"></SPAN></span>Vere stopped.</p>
<p>"A handful of pages have been torn out here,"
he stated. "The next entry that I can read is in the
middle of a stained page, and must be considerably
later on."</p>
<p>Phillida made an odd little noise like a whimper,
clutching at his sleeve. The third shock for which
I had been waiting shuddered through the house,
this time distinctly enough for all to feel. A gust of
wind went through the wet trees outside like a gasp.</p>
<p>"Ethan, what was that?" she stammered.
"Oh, I'm afraid! Cousin Roger——?"</p>
<p>I had no voice to answer her. In my ears was
the rush and surge of that sea whose waters had
gripped me in the past night. I felt the icy death-tide
hiss around me in its first returning wave, rise to
my knee's height, then sink away down its unearthly
beach. What I had dimly known all day, underlying
Vere's sturdy cheerfulness and our plans and efforts,
was the truth. Through those intervening hours of
daylight I had remained my enemy's prisoner, bound
on that shore we both knew well, until It pleased or
had power to return and finish with me. No doubt
It was governed by laws, as we are.</p>
<p><span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_284" id="Page_284"></SPAN></span>As before, the cold struck a paralysis across my
senses. Vere's reassurance sounded faint and distant.</p>
<p>"The thunder is getting closer," he said. "That
was a storm wind, all right! Would you rather go
upstairs and lie down, and not hear any more of this
stuff tonight?"</p>
<p>"No! Oh, no! I could not bear to be alone,"
she refused. "Just, just go on, dear. Of course it is
the coming storm that makes the room so cold."</p>
<p>He put his left arm around her as she nestled
against him. His right hand held the diary flattened
on the table under the light.</p>
<p>"The next entry is just one line in the middle
of a page where everything else is blotted out,"
Vere repeated. "It reads: 'The child is a week
old today.'"</p>
<p>The wave crashed foaming in tumult up the
strand, flowing higher, drenching me in cold sharp as
fire. The tide rose faster tonight. The silence that
held the others dumb before the significance of that
last sentence covered my silence from notice. Desire's
face was quite hidden; lamplight and firelight wavered
and gleamed across her bent head. I wanted to
arise and go to her, to take her hands and tell her<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_285" id="Page_285"></SPAN></span>
to have patience and courage. But when this wave
ebbed, my strength drained away with the receding
water. Moreover, the darkness curdled and moved
beyond the window opposite me. The curtains hung
between were no bar to my vision, as the light and
presence of my companions were no bar to the Thing
that kept rendezvous with me. Since last night, we
were nearer to one another.</p>
<p>A breath of chill foulness crept across the pungent
odor of the burning apple-log in the fireplace.
A whisper spoke to my intelligence.</p>
<p>"Man conquered by me, fall down before me.
Beg my forbearance. Beg life of me—and take
the gift!"</p>
<p>"No," my thought answered Its.</p>
<p>"You die, Man."</p>
<p>"All men die."</p>
<p>"Not as they die who are mine."</p>
<p>"I am not yours. You kill me, as a wild beast
might. But I am not yours; not dying nor dead am
I yours."</p>
<p>"Would you not live, pygmy?"</p>
<p>"Not as your pensioner."</p>
<p>The logs on the hearth crackled and sank down<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_286" id="Page_286"></SPAN></span>
with a soft rustle, burned through to a core of glowing
red. Phillida spoke with a hushed urgency,
drawing still closer to her husband, so that her forehead
rested against his shoulder.</p>
<p>"Go on, Ethan. Finish and let us be done."</p>
<p>Vere bent his head above the book on the table to
obey her. Across the dark I suddenly saw the Eyes
glare in upon him.</p>
<p>"On the next page, the writing begins again,"
he said. "It says:</p>
<p>"'I am offered the kingdoms of earth. But I
crave that kingdom of myself which I cast away.
The child is sent to England. The circle is drawn.
The names are traced and the lamps filled. Tonight
I make the last essay. There remains untried one
mighty spell. This Mystery——'"</p>
<p>A clap of thunder right over the house
overwhelmed the reader's voice. Phillida screamed as a
violent wind volleyed through the place with a crashing
of doors and shutters, upstairs and down. The
diary was ripped from beneath Vere's hand and
hurled straight to the center of that nest of fire
formed by the settling of the logs. A long tongue of
flame leaped high in the chimney as the spread leaves<span class='pagenum'><SPAN name="Page_287" id="Page_287"></SPAN></span>
of the book caught and flared, fanned by wind and
draft. Vere sprang up, but Phillida's clinging arms
delayed him. When he reached the fire-tongs there
was nothing to rescue except a charring mass half-way
toward ashes.</p>
<p>He turned toward me, perhaps at last surprised
by my immobility.</p>
<p>"I am sorry, Mr. Locke," he apologized.</p>
<p>Desire had started up with the others when the
sudden uproar of the storm burst upon them. Now
she cried out, breaking Vere's excuse of the loss.
Her small face blanched, she ran a few steps
toward me.</p>
<p>"It has come! He will die—he is dying.
Look, look!"</p>
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