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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Columbus Day comes up as cold as Christmas.
I listen to the weather forecast the night before,
to see how it’ll be for the beach. “High winds,
unseasonably low temperatures,” the guy says.
He would.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I get up at eight-thirty the next morning,
though, figuring he’d be wrong and it would be
a nice sunny day. I slip on my pants and shirt
and go downstairs with Cat to have a look out.
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Cat slides out and is halfway down the stoop
when a blast of cold wind hits him. His tail goes
up and he spooks back in between my legs. I
push the door shut against the icy wind.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Mom is sitting in the kitchen drinking her
tea and she says, “My goodness, why are you up
so early on a holiday? Do you feel sick?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Nah, I’m all right.” I pour out a cup of coffee
to warm my hands on and dump in three or four
spoons of sugar.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Davey, have you got a chill? You don’t look
to me as if you felt quite right.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Mom, for Pete’s sake, it’s <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-variant: small-caps">cold</span></span> out! I feel
fine.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Well, you don’t have to go out. Why don’t
you just go back to bed and snooze and read a
bit, and I’ll bring you some breakfast.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I see it’s got to be faced, so while I’m getting
down the cereal and a bowl, I say, “Well, as a
matter of fact, I’m going over to Coney Island
today.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Coney <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-variant: small-caps">island</span></span>!” Mom sounds like it was
Siberia. “What in the world are you going to do
there in the middle of winter?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Mom, it’s only Columbus Day. We figured
we’d go to the aquarium and then—uh—well,
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fool around. Some of the pitches are still open,
and we’ll get hot dogs and stuff.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Who’s going? Nick?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Nick wasn’t sure—I’ll stop by his house and
see.” I’d just as soon steer clear of this “who’s
going” business, so I start into a long spiel about
how we’re studying marine life in biology, and
we have to take some notes at the aquarium.
Mom is swallowing this pretty well, but Pop
comes into the kitchen just then and gives me
the fishy eye.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“First time I ever heard of you spending a
holiday on homework. I bet they got a new twist
palace going out there.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I slam down my coffee cup. “Holy cats! Can’t
I walk out of here on a holiday without going
through the third degree? What am I, some kind
of a nut or a convict?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Just a growing boy,” says Pop. “And don’t
talk so sassy to your mother.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“I’m talking to you!”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Pop draws in a breath to start bellowing, but
Mom beats him to it by starting to wheeze,
which she can do without drawing breath.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Pop pats her on the shoulder and gives me a
dirty look. “Now, Agnes, that’s all right. I’m not
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sore. I was just trying to kid him a little bit, and
he flies off the handle.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em"><span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">I</span></span> fly off the handle! How do you like that?</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I give Mom a kiss. “Cheer up, Mom. I won’t
ride on the roller coaster. It’s not even running.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I grab a sweater and gloves and money and
get out before they can start anymore questions.
On the subway I start wondering if Mary will
show up. It’s almost two months since we made
this sort of crazy date, and the weather sure isn’t
helping any.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Coney Island is made to be crowded and
noisy. All the billboards scream at you, as if they
had to get your attention. So when the place is
empty, it looks like the whole thing was a freak
or an accident.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">It’s sure empty today. There’s practically no
one on the street in the five or six blocks from
the subway station to the aquarium. But it’s
not quiet. There are a few places open—merry-go-rounds
and hot-dog shops—and tinny little
trickles of music come out of them, but the big
noise is the wind. All the signs are swinging and
screeching. Rubbish cans blow over and their
tops clang and bang rolling down the street. The
wind makes a whistling noise all by itself.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I lean into the wind and walk up the empty
street. My sweater is about as warm as a sieve.
I wonder if I’m crazy to have come. No girl
would get out on a boardwalk on a day like this.
It must be practically a hurricane.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">She’s there, though. As soon as I turn the
corner to the beach, I can see one figure, with
its back to the ocean, scarf and hair blowing
inland toward me. I can’t see her face, but it’s
Mary, all right. There isn’t another soul in sight.
I wave and she hunches her shoulders up and
down to semaphore, not wishing to take her
hands out of her pockets.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I come up beside her on the boardwalk and
turn my back to the ocean, too. I’d like to go
on looking at it—it’s all black and white and
thundery—but the wind blows your breath right
back down into your stomach. I freeze.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“I was afraid you wouldn’t come on a day like
this,” I say.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Me too. I mean I was afraid <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">you</span></span> wouldn’t.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Mom and Pop thought I was crazy. I spent
about an hour arguing with them. What’d your
mother say?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Nothing. She thinks I’m walking alone with
the wind in my hair, thinking poetic thoughts.”</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Huh? What for?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Mary shrugs. “Mom’s like that. You’ll see.
Come on, let’s go home and make cocoa or something
to warm up, and then we’ll think up something
to do. We can’t just stand here.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">She’s right about that, so I don’t argue. Her
house is a few blocks away, a two-family type
with a sloped driveway going down into a cellar
garage. Neat. My pop is always going nuts hunting
for a place to park.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Mary goes in and shouts, “Hi, Nina! I
brought a friend home. We’re going to make
some cocoa. We’re freezing.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I wonder who Nina is. I don’t hear her mother
come into the kitchen. Then I turn around and
there she is. Holy crow! We got some pretty
beat-looking types at school, but this is the first
time I’ve ever seen a beatnik mother.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">She’s got on a black T-shirt and blue jeans and
old sneakers, and her hair is in a long braid,
with uneven bangs in front.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Mary waves a saucepan vaguely at us both and
says, “Nina—Davey—this is my mother.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">So Nina is her mother. I stick out my hand.
“Uh—how do you do?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Hel-looo.” Her voice is low and musical. “I
think there is coffee on the stove.”</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“I thought I’d make cocoa for a change,”
says Mary.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“All right.” Nina puts a cigarette in her
mouth and offers one to me.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I say, “No, thank you.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Tell me....” She talks in this low, intense
kind of voice. “Are you in school with Mary?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">So I tell her I live in Manhattan, and how I
ran into Mary when I had Cat on the beach,
because that makes it sound sort of respectable,
not like a pickup. But she doesn’t seem to be
interested in Cat and the beach.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“What do you <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">read</span></span>? In your school?” she asks,
launching each question like a torpedo.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I remember Mary saying something about her
mother and poetry, so I say, “Well, uh—last week
we read ‘The Highwayman’ and ‘The Wreck of
the Hesperus.’ They’re about—I mean, we were
studying metaphors and similes. Looking at the
ocean today, I sure can see what Longfellow
meant about the icy....”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I thought I was doing pretty well, but she cut
me off again.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Don’t you read any <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">real</span></span> poetry? Donne?
Auden? Baudelaire?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Three more torpedoes. “We didn’t get to
them yet.”</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Nina blows out a great angry cloud of smoke
and explodes, “Schools!” Then she sails out of
the kitchen.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I guess I look a little shook up. Mary laughs
and shoves a mug of cocoa and a plate of cinnamon
toast in front of me. “Don’t mind Mother.
She just can’t get used to New York schools. Or
Coney Island. Or hardly anything around here.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“She grew up on the Left Bank in Paris. Her
father was an artist and her mother was a writer,
and they taught her to read at home, starting
with Chaucer, probably. She never read a kids’
book in her life.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Anything I ever tell her about school pretty
much sounds either childish or stupid to her.
What I really love is science—experiments and
stuff—and she can’t see that for beans.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Our science teacher is a dope,” I say, because
she is, “so I really never got very interested in
science. But I told Mom and Dad I was coming
to the aquarium to take notes today, so they
wouldn’t kick up such a fuss.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Mary shakes her head. “We ought to get our
mothers together. Mine thinks I’m wasting time
if I even <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">go</span></span> to the aquarium. I do, though, all
the time. I love the walrus.”</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“What does your pop do?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Father? He teaches philosophy at Brooklyn
College. So I get it from both sides. Just think,
think, think. Father and Nina aren’t hardly even
interested in <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">food</span></span>. Once in a while Nina spends
all day cooking some great fish soup or a chicken
in wine, but the rest of the time I’m the only
one who takes time off from thinking to cook a
hamburger. They live on rolls and coffee and
sardines.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Mary puts our cups in the sink and then
opens a low cupboard. Instead of pots and pans
it has stacks of records in it. She pulls out <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">West
Side Story</span></span> and then I see there’s a record player
on a side table. What d’you know? A record
player in the kitchen! This Left Bank style of
living has its advantages.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“I sit down here and eat and play records
while I do my homework,” says Mary, which
sounds pretty nice.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I ask her if she has any Belafonte, and she
says, “Yes, a couple,” but she puts on something
else. It’s slow, but sort of powerful, and it makes
you feel kind of powerful yourself, as if you
could do anything.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“What’s that?” I ask.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“It’s called ‘The Moldau’—that’s a river in
Europe. It’s by a Czech named Smetana.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I wander around the kitchen and look out the
window. The wind’s still howling, but not so
hard. I remember the ocean, all gray and powerful,
spotted with whitecaps. I’d like to be out
on it.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“You know what’d be fun?” I say out loud.
“To be out in a boat on the harbor today. If you
didn’t sink.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“We could take the Staten Island ferry,” Mary
says.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Huh?” I hadn’t even thought there was really
any boat we could get on. “Really? Where do
you get it?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Down at Sixty-ninth Street and Fourth
Avenue. It’s quite a ways. I’ve always gone there
in a car. But maybe we could do it on bikes, if
we don’t freeze.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“We won’t freeze. But what about bikes?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“You can use my brother’s. He’s away at college.
Maybe I can find a windbreaker of his,
too.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">She finds the things and we get ready and go
into the living room, where Nina is sitting reading
and sipping a glass of wine.</p>
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<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“We’re going on our bikes to the ferry and
over to Staten Island,” Mary says. She doesn’t
even ask.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“Oh-h-h.” It’s a long, low note, faintly
questioning.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">“We thought with the wind blowing and all,
it’d be exciting,” Mary explains, and I think,
Uh-o, that’s going to cook it. <span class="tei tei-hi"><span style="font-style: italic">My</span></span> mother would
have kittens if I said I was going out on a ferry
in a storm.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">But Nina just says, “I see,” and goes back to
reading her book. I say good-bye and she looks
up again and smiles, and that’s all.</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">It’s another funny thing—Nina doesn’t seem
to pay any attention to who Mary brings home,
like most mothers are always snooping if their
daughter brings home a guy. Without stopping
to think, I say, “Do you bring home a lot of
guys?”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">Mary laughs. “Not a lot. Sometimes one of the
boys at school comes home when we’re studying
for a science test.”</p>
<p class="tei tei-p" style="margin-bottom: 1.00em">I laugh, too, but what I’m thinking of is how
Pop would look if I brought a girl home and
said we were studying for a test!</p>
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