<h2>XIII.</h2>
<p>"Just like old times," Jason said
when Brucco came into the room
with a tray of food. Without a word
Brucco served Jason and the wounded
men in the other beds, then left.
"Thanks," Jason called after his retreating
back.</p>
<p>A joke, a twist of a grin, like it
always was. Sure. But even as he
grinned and his lips shaped a joke,
Jason felt them like a veneer on the
outside. Something plastered on with
a life of its own. Inside he was numb
and immovable. His body was stiff
as his eyes still watched that arch of
alien flesh descend and smother the
one-armed Pyrran with its million
burning fingers.</p>
<p>He could feel himself under the
arch. After all, hadn't the wounded
man taken his place? He finished the
meal without realizing that he ate.</p>
<p>Ever since that morning, when he
had recovered consciousness, it had
been like this. He knew that he
should have died out there in that
battle-torn street. <i>His</i> life should
have been snuffed out, for making
the mistake of thinking that he could
actually help the battling Pyrrans.
Instead of being underfoot and in
the way. If it hadn't been for Jason,
the man with the wounded arm
would have been brought here to the
safety of the reorientation buildings.
He knew he was lying in the bed
that belonged to that man.</p>
<p>The man who had given his life
for Jason's.</p>
<p>The man whose name he didn't
even know.</p>
<p>There were drugs in the food and
they made him sleep. The medicated
pads soaked the pain and rawness
out of the burns where the tentacles
had seared his face. When he awoke
the second time, his touch with reality
had been restored.</p>
<p>A man had died so he could live.
Jason faced the fact. He couldn't
restore that life, no matter how much
he wanted to. What he could do was
make the man's death worth while.
If it can be said that any death was
worth while ... He forced his
thoughts from that track.</p>
<p>Jason knew what he had to do.
His work was even more important
now. If he could solve the riddle of
this deadly world, he could repay in
part the debt he owed.</p>
<p>Sitting up made his head spin and
he held to the edge of the bed until
it slowed down. The others in the
room ignored him as he slowly and
painfully dragged on his clothes.
Brucco came in, saw what he was
doing, and left again without a
word.</p>
<p>Dressing took a long time, but it
was finally done. When Jason finally
left the room he found Kerk waiting
for him.</p>
<p>"Kerk ... I want to tell you ..."</p>
<p>"Tell me <i>nothing</i>!" The thunder
of Kerk's voice bounced back from
the ceiling and walls. "I'm telling
<i>you</i>. I'll tell you once and that will
be the end of it. You're not wanted
on Pyrrus, Jason dinAlt, neither you
nor your precious off-world schemes
are wanted here. I let you convince
me once with your twisted tongue.
Helped you at the expense of more
important work. I should have
known what the result of your 'logic'
would be. Now I've seen. Welf died
so you could live. He was twice the
man you will ever be."</p>
<p>"Welf? Was that his name?" Jason
asked stumblingly. "I didn't
know—"</p>
<p>"You didn't even know." Kerk's
lips pulled back from his teeth in a
grimace of disgust. "You didn't even
know his name—yet he died that
you might continue your miserable
existence." Kerk spat, as if the
words gave a vile flavor to his
speech, and stamped towards the exit
lock. Almost as an afterthought he
turned back to Jason.</p>
<p>"You'll stay here in the sealed
buildings until the ship returns in
two weeks. Then you will leave this
planet and never come back. If you
do, I'll kill you instantly. With pleasure."
He started through the lock.</p>
<p>"Wait," Jason shouted. "You
can't decide like that. You haven't
even seen the evidence I've uncovered.
Ask Meta—" The lock thumped
shut and Kerk was gone.</p>
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<p>The whole thing was just too stupid.
Anger began to replace the
futile despair of a moment before.
He was being treated like an irresponsible
child, the importance of
his discovery of the log completely
ignored.</p>
<p>Jason turned and saw for the first
time that Brucco was standing there.
"Did you hear that?" Jason asked
him.</p>
<p>"Yes. And I quite agree. You can
consider yourself lucky."</p>
<p>"Lucky!" Jason was the angry one
now. "Lucky to be treated like a
moronic child, with contempt for
everything I do—"</p>
<p>"I said lucky," Brucco snapped.
"Welf was Kerk's only surviving
son. Kerk had high hopes for him,
was training him to take his place
eventually." He turned to leave but
Jason called after him.</p>
<p>"Wait. I'm sorry about Welf. I
can't be any sorrier knowing that he
was Kerk's son. But at least it explains
why Kerk is so quick to throw
me out—as well as the evidence I
have uncovered. The log of the
ship—"</p>
<p>"I know, I've seen it," Brucco
said. "Meta brought it in. Very interesting
historical document."</p>
<p>"That's all you can see it as—an
historical document? The significance
of the planetary change escapes
you?"</p>
<p>"It doesn't escape me," Brucco
answered briefly, "but I cannot see
that it has any relevancy today. The
past is unchangeable and we must
fight in the present. That is enough
to occupy all our energies."</p>
<p>Jason felt too exhausted to argue
the point any more. He ran into the
same stone wall with all the Pyrrans.
Theirs was a logic of the moment.
The past and the future unchangeable,
unknowable—and uninteresting.
"How is the perimeter battle
going?" he asked, wanting to change
the subject.</p>
<p>"Finished. Or in the last stages at
least," Brucco was almost enthusiastic
as he showed Jason some stereos
of the attackers. He did not notice
Jason's repressed shudder.</p>
<p>"This was one of the most serious
breakthroughs in years, but we
caught it in time. I hate to think
what would have happened if they
hadn't been detected for a few weeks
more."</p>
<p>"What are those things?" Jason
asked. "Giant snakes of some
kind?"</p>
<p>"Don't be absurd," Brucco snorted.
He tapped the stereo with his
thumbnail. "Roots. That's all. Greatly
modified, but still roots. They
came in under the perimeter barrier,
much deeper than anything we've
had before. Not a real threat in
themselves as they have very little
mobility. Die soon after being cut.
The danger came from their being
used as access tunnels. They're bored
through and through with animal
runs, and two or three species of
beasts live in a sort of symbiosis inside.</p>
<p>"Now we know what they are
we can watch for them. The danger
was they could have completely undermined
the perimeter and come in
from all sides at once. Not much we
could have done then."</p>
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<p>The edge of destruction. Living
on the lip of a volcano. The Pyrrans
took satisfaction from any day that
passed without total annihilation.
There seemed no way to change
their attitude. Jason let the conversation
die there. He picked up the
log of the <i>Pollux Victory</i> from
Brucco's quarters and carried it back
to his room. The wounded Pyrrans
there ignored him as he dropped
onto the bed and opened the book to
the first page.</p>
<p>For two days he did not leave his
quarters. The wounded men were
soon gone and he had the room to
himself. Page by page he went
through the log, until he knew every
detail of the settlement of Pyrrus.
His notes and cross-references piled
up. He made an accurate map of the
original settlement, superimposed
over a modern one. They didn't
match at all.</p>
<p>It was a dead end. With one map
held over the other, what he had
suspected was painfully clear. The
descriptions of terrain and physical
features in the log were accurate
enough. The city had obviously been
moved since the first landing. Whatever
records had been kept would be
in the library—and he had exhausted
that source. Anything else
would have been left behind and
long since destroyed.</p>
<p>Rain lashed against the thick window
above his head, lit suddenly by
a flare of lightning. The unseen volcanoes
were active again, vibrating
the floor with their rumblings deep
in the earth.</p>
<p>The shadow of defeat pressed
heavily down on Jason. Rounding
his shoulders and darkening, even
more, the overcast day.</p>
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