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<h3>CHAPTER LVII</h3>
<h2><i>THE LETTER</i></h2>
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<p>'Come away, lass,' whispered Beauty, very pale; 'he's here—Tom Brice.'</p>
<p>And she led the way, shoving aside the leafless underwood,
and we reached Tom. The slender youth, groom or poacher—he
might answer for either—with his short coat and gaitered
legs, was sitting on a low horizontal bough, with his shoulder
against the trunk.</p>
<p>'<i>Don't</i> ye mind; sit ye still, lad,' said Meg, observing that he
was preparing to rise, and had entangled his hat in the boughs.
'Sit ye still, and hark to the lady. He'll take it, Miss Maud, if
he can; wi' na ye, lad?'</p>
<p>'E'es, I'll take it,' he replied, holding out his hand.</p>
<p>'Tom Brice, you won't deceive me?'</p>
<p>'Noa, sure,' said Tom and Meg nearly in the same breath.</p>
<p>'You are an honest English lad, Tom—you would not betray
me?' I was speaking imploringly.</p>
<p>'Noa, sure,' repeated Tom.</p>
<p>There was something a little unsatisfactory in the countenance
of this light-haired youth, with the sharpish upturned nose.
Throughout our interview he said next to nothing, and smiled
lazily to himself, like a man listening to a child's solemn nonsense,
and leading it on, with an amused irony, from one wise
sally to another.</p>
<p>Thus it seemed to me that this young clown, without in the
least intending to be offensive, was listening to me with a profound
and lazy mockery.</p>
<p>I could not choose, however; and, such as he was, I must
employ him or none.</p>
<p>'Now, Tom Brice, a great deal depends on this.'</p>
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<p>'That's true for her, Tom Brice,' said Meg, who now and then
confirmed my asseverations.</p>
<p>'I'll give you a pound <i>now</i>, Tom,' and I placed the coin and
the letter together in his hand. 'And you are to give this letter
to Lady Knollys, at Elverston; you know Elverston, don't you?'</p>
<p>'He does, Miss. Don't ye, lad?'</p>
<p>'E'es.'</p>
<p>'Well, do so, Tom, and I'll be good to you so long as I live.'</p>
<p>'D'ye hear, lad?'</p>
<p>'E'es,' said Tom; 'it's very good.'</p>
<p>'You'll take the letter, Tom? 'I said, in much greater trepidation as to
his answer than I showed.</p>
<p>'E'es, I'll take the letter,' said he, rising, and turning it about
in his fingers under his eye, like a curiosity.</p>
<p>'Tom Brice,' I said, 'If you can't be true to me, say so; but
don't take the letter except to give it to Lady Knollys, at Elverston. If
you won't promise that, let me have the note back.
Keep the pound; but tell me that you won't mention my having
asked you to carry a letter to Elverston to anyone.'</p>
<p>For the first time Tom looked perfectly serious. He twiddled
the corner of my letter between his finger and thumb, and wore
very much the countenance of a poacher about to be committed.</p>
<p>'I don't want to chouce ye, Miss; but I must take care o' myself,
ye see. The letters goes all through Silas's fingers to the
post, and he'd know damn well this worn't among 'em. They do
say he opens 'em, and reads 'em before they go; an' that's his
diversion. I don't know; but I do believe that's how it be; an'
if this one turned up, they'd all know it went be hand, and I'd
be spotted for't.'</p>
<p>'But you know who I am, Tom, and I'd save you,' said I,
eagerly.</p>
<p>'Ye'd want savin' yerself, I'm thinkin', if that feel oot,' said
Tom, cynically. 'I don't say, though, I'll not take it—only this—I
won't run my head again a wall for no one.'</p>
<p>'Tom,' I said, with a sudden inspiration, 'give me back the
letter, and take me out of Bartram; take me to Elverston; it
will be the best thing—for <i>you</i>, Tom, I mean—it will indeed—that
ever befell you.'</p>
<p>With this clown I was pleading, as for my life; my hand was
on his sleeve. I was gazing imploringly in his face.</p>
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<p>But it would not do; Tom Brice looked amused again, swung
his head a little on one side, grinning sheepishly over his shoulder on the
roots of the trees beside him, as if he were striving
to keep himself from an uncivil fit of laughter.</p>
<p>'I'll do what a wise lad may, Miss; but ye don't know they
lads; they bain't that easy come over; and I won't get knocked
on the head, nor sent to gaol 'appen, for no good to thee nor me.
There's Meg there, she knows well enough I could na' manage
that; so I won't try it, Miss, by no chance; no offence, Miss;
but I'd rayther not, an' I'll just try what I can make o'this;
that's all I can do for ye.'</p>
<p>Tom Brice, with these words, stood up, and looked uneasily
in the direction of the Windmill Wood.</p>
<p>'Mind ye, Miss, coom what will, ye'll not tell o' me?'</p>
<p>'Whar 'ill ye go now, Tom?' inquired Meg, uneasily.</p>
<p>'Never ye mind, lass,' answered he, breaking his way through
the thicket, and soon disappearing.</p>
<p>'E'es that 'ill be it—he'll git into the sheepwalk behind the
mound. They're all down yonder; git ye back, Miss, to the hoose—be
the side-door; mind ye, don't go round the corner; and
I'll jest sit awhile among the bushes, and wait a good time for
a start. And good-bye, Miss; and don't ye show like as if there
was aught out o' common on your mind. Hish!'</p>
<p>There was a distant hallooing.</p>
<p>'That be fayther!' she whispered, with a very blank countenance,
and listened with her sunburnt hand to her ear.</p>
<p>'Tisn't me, only Davy he'll be callin',' she said, with a great
sigh, and a joyless smile. 'Now git ye away i' God's name.'</p>
<p>So running lightly along the path, under cover of this thick
wood, I recalled Mary Quince, and together we hastened back
again to the house, and entered, as directed, by the side-door,
which did not expose us to be seen from the Windmill Wood,
and, like two criminals, we stole up by the backstairs, and so
through the side-gallery to my room; and there sat down to collect
my wits, and try to estimate the exact effect of what had
just occurred.</p>
<p>Madame had not returned. That was well; she always visited
my room first, and everything was precisely as I had left it—a
certain sign that her prying eyes and busy fingers had not been
at work during my absence.</p>
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<p>When she did appear, strange to say, it was to bring me unexpected comfort.
She had in her hand a letter from my dear Lady
Knollys—a gleam of sunlight from the free and happy outer
world entered with it. The moment Madame left me to myself,
I opened it and read as follows:—</p>
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<p>'I am so happy, my dearest Maud, in the immediate prospect
of seeing you. I have had a really kind letter from poor Silas—<i>poor</i>
I say, for I really compassionate his situation, about
which he has been, I do believe, quite frank—at least Ilbury
says so, and somehow he happens to know. I have had quite an
affecting, changed letter. I will tell you all when I see you. He
wants me ultimately to undertake that which would afford me
the most unmixed happiness—I mean the care of you, my dear
girl. I only fear lest my too eager acceptance of the trust should
excite that vein of opposition which is in most human beings,
and induce him to think over his offer less favourably again.
He says I must come to Bartram, and stay a night, and promises
to lodge me comfortably; about which last I honestly do not
care a pin, when the chance of a comfortable evening's gossip
with you is in view. Silas explains his sad situation, and must
hold himself in readiness for early flight, if he would avoid
the risk of losing his personal liberty. It is a sad thing that he
should have so irretrievably ruined himself, that poor Austin's
liberality seems to have positively precipitated his extremity.
His great anxiety is that I should see you before you leave for
your short stay in France. He thinks you must leave before a
fortnight. I am thinking of asking you to come over here; I
know you would be just as well at Elverston as in France; but
perhaps, as he seems disposed to do what we all wish, it may
be safer to let him set about it in his own way. The truth is,
I have so set my heart upon it that I fear to risk it by crossing
him even in a trifle. He says I must fix an early day next week,
and talks as if he meant to urge me to make a longer visit than
he defined. I shall be only too happy. I begin, my dear Maud, to
think that there is no use in trying to control events, and that
things often turn out best, and most exactly to our wishes, by
being left quite to themselves. I think it was Talleyrand who
praised the talent of <i>waiting</i> so much. In high spirits, and with
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my head brimful of plans, I remain, dearest Maud, ever your
affectionate cousin,</p>
<p class="signature">M<small>ONICA</small>.'</p>
<p>Here was an inexplicable puzzle! A faint radiance of hope,
however, began to overspread a landscape only a few minutes
before darkened by total eclipse; but construct what theory I
might, all were inconsistent with many well-established and
awful incongruities, and their wrecks lay strown over the troubled
waters of the gulf into which I gazed.</p>
<p>Why was Madame here? Why was Dudley concealed about
the place? Why was I a prisoner within the walls? What were
those dangers which Meg Hawkes seemed to think so great and
so imminent as to induce her to risk her lover's safety for my
deliverance? All these menacing facts stood grouped together
against the dark certainty that never were men more deeply interested in
making away with one human being, than were Uncle
Silas and Dudley in removing me.</p>
<p>Sometimes to these dreadful evidences I abandoned my soul.
Sometimes, reading Cousin Monica's sunny letter, the sky would
clear, and my terrors melt away like nightmares in the morning.
I never repented, however, that I had sent my letter by Tom
Brice. Escape from Bartram-Haugh was my hourly longing.</p>
<p>That evening Madame invited herself to tea with me. I did
not object. It was better just then to be on friendly relations
with everybody, if possible, even on their own terms. She was in
one of her boisterous and hilarious moods, and there was a perfume
of brandy.</p>
<p>She narrated some compliments paid her that morning in Feltram
by that 'good crayature' Mrs. Litheways, the silk-mercer,
and what ''ansom faylow' was her new foreman—(she intended
plainly that I should 'queez' her)—and how 'he follow' her
with his eyes wherever she went. I thought, perhaps, he fancied
she might pocket some of his lace or gloves. And all the time
her great wicked eyes were rolling and glancing according to her
ideas of fascination, and her bony face grinning and flaming
with the 'strong drink' in which she delighted. She sang twaddling
chansons, and being, as was her wont under such exhilarating influences, in
a vapouring mood, she vowed that I should have my carriage and horses immediately.</p>
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<p>'I weel try what I can do weeth your Uncle Silas. We are
very good old friends, Mr. Ruthyn and I,' she said with a leer
which I did not understand, and which yet frightened me.</p>
<p>I never could quite understand why these Jezebels like to insinuate the
dreadful truth against themselves; but they do. Is
it the spirit of feminine triumph overcoming feminine shame,
and making them vaunt their fall as an evidence of bygone fascination and
existing power? Need we wonder? Have not women
preferred hatred to indifference, and the reputation of witchcraft, with
all its penalties, to absolute insignificance? Thus,
as they enjoyed the fear inspired among simple neighbours by
their imagined traffic with the father of ill, did Madame, I
think, relish with a cynical vainglory the suspicion of her satanic
superiority.</p>
<p>Next morning Uncle Silas sent for me. He was seated at his
table, and spoke his little French greeting, smiling as usual,
pointing to a chair opposite.</p>
<p>'How far, I forget,' he said, carelessly laying his newspaper on
the table, 'did you yesterday guess Dudley to be?'</p>
<p>'Eleven hundred miles I thought it was.'</p>
<p>'Oh yes, so it was;' and then there was an abstracted pause.
'I have been writing to Lord Ilbury, your trustee,' he resumed.
I ventured to say, my dear Maud—(for having thoughts of a
different arrangement for you, more suitable under my distressing
circumstances, I do not wish to vacate without some expression of
your estimate of my treatment of you while under my
roof)—I ventured to say that you thought me kind, considerate,
indulgent,—may I say so?'</p>
<p>I assented. What could I say?</p>
<p>'I said you had enjoyed our poor way of living here—our
rough ways and liberty. Was I right?'</p>
<p>Again I assented.</p>
<p>'And, in fact, that you had nothing to object against your
poor old uncle, except indeed his poverty, which you forgave. I
think I said truth. Did I, dear Maud?'</p>
<p>Again I acquiesced.</p>
<p>All this time he was fumbling among the papers in his coatpocket.</p>
<p>'That is satisfactory. So I expected you to say,' he murmured.
'I expected no less.'</p>
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<p>On a sudden a frightful change spread across his face. He
rose like a spectre with a white scowl.</p>
<p>'Then how do you account for that?' he shrieked in a voice
of thunder, and smiting my open letter to Lady Knollys, face upward, upon
the table.</p>
<p>I stared at my uncle, unable to speak, until I seemed to lose
sight of him; but his voice, like a bell, still yelled in my ears.</p>
<p>'There! young hypocrite and liar! explain that farrago of
slander which you bribed my servant to place in the hands of my
kinswoman, Lady Knollys.'</p>
<p>And so on and on it went, I gazing into darkness, until the
voice itself became indistinct, grew into a buzz, and hummed
away into silence.</p>
<p>I think I must have had a fit.</p>
<p>When I came to myself I was drenched with water, my hair,
face, neck, and dress. I did not in the least know where I was. I
thought my father was ill, and spoke to him. Uncle Silas was
standing near the window, looking unspeakably grim. Madame
was seated beside me, and an open bottle of ether, one of Uncle
Silas's restoratives, on the table before me.</p>
<p>'Who's that—who's ill—is anyone dead?' I cried.</p>
<p>At last I was relieved by long paroxysms of weeping. When I
was sufficiently recovered, I was conveyed into my own room.</p>
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