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<h3>CHAPTER XXIII</h3>
<h2><i>I TALK WITH DOCTOR BRYERLY</i></h2>
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<p>Doctor Bryerly had, indeed, arrived at half-past twelve o'clock
at night. His summons at the hall-door was little heard at our
remote side of the old house of Knowl; and when the sleepy,
half-dressed servant opened the door, the lank Doctor, in glossy
black clothing, was standing alone, his portmanteau on its end
upon the steps, and his vehicle disappearing in the shadows of
the old trees.</p>
<p>In he came, sterner and sharper of aspect than usual.</p>
<p>'I've been expected? I'm Doctor Bryerly. Haven't I? So,
let whoever is in charge of the body be called. I must visit it
forthwith.'</p>
<p>So the Doctor sat in the back drawing-room, with a solitary
candle; and Mrs. Rusk was called up, and, grumbling much and
very peevish, dressed and went down, her ill-temper subsiding in
a sort of fear as she approached the visitor.</p>
<p>'How do you do, Madam? A sad visit this. Is anyone watching
in the room where the remains of your late master are
laid?'</p>
<p>'No.'</p>
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<p>'So much the better; it is a foolish custom. Will you please
conduct me to the room? I must pray where he lies—no longer
<i>he</i>! And be good enough to show me my bedroom, and so no
one need wait up, and I shall find my way.'</p>
<p>Accompanied by the man who carried his valise, Mrs. Rusk
showed him to his apartment; but he only looked in, and then
glanced rapidly about to take 'the bearings' of the door.</p>
<p>'Thank you—yes. Now we'll proceed, here, along here? Let
me see. A turn to the right and another to the left—yes. He has
been dead some days. Is he yet in his coffin?'</p>
<p>'Yes, sir; since yesterday afternoon.'</p>
<p>Mrs. Rusk was growing more and more afraid of this lean
figure sheathed in shining black cloth, whose eyes glittered with
a horrible sort of cunning, and whose long brown fingers groped
before him, as if indicating the way by guess.</p>
<p>'But, of course, the lid's not on; you've not screwed him down,
hey?'</p>
<p>'No, sir.'</p>
<p>'That's well. I must look on the face as I pray. He is in his
place; I here on earth. He in the spirit; I in the flesh. The
neutral ground lies there. So are carried the vibrations, and so
the light of earth and heaven reflected back and forward—apaugasma,
a wonderful though helpless engine, the ladder of
Jacob, and behold the angels of God ascending and descending
on it. Thanks, I'll take the key. Mysteries to those who <i>will</i> live
altogether in houses of clay, no mystery to such as will use their
eyes and read what is revealed. <i>This</i> candle, it is the longer,
please; no—no need of a pair, thanks; just this, to hold in my
hand. And remember, all depends upon the willing mind. Why
do you look frightened? Where is your faith? Don't you know
that spirits are about us at all times? Why should you fear to
be near the body? The spirit is everything; the flesh profiteth
nothing.'</p>
<p>'Yes, sir,' said Mrs. Rusk, making him a great courtesy in the
threshold.</p>
<p>She was frightened by his eerie talk, which grew, she fancied,
more voluble and energetic as they approached the corpse.</p>
<p>'Remember, then, that when you fancy yourself alone and
wrapt in darkness, you stand, in fact, in the centre of a theatre,
as wide as the starry floor of heaven, with an audience, whom
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no man can number, beholding you under a flood of light.
Therefore, though your body be in solitude and your mortal
sense in darkness, remember to walk as being in the light, surrounded
with a cloud of witnesses. Thus walk; and when the
hour comes, and you pass forth unprisoned from the tabernacle
of the flesh, although it still has its relations and its rights'—and
saying this, as he held the solitary candle aloft in the doorway,
he nodded towards the coffin, whose large black form was
faintly traceable against the shadows beyond—'you will rejoice;
and being clothed upon with your house from on high, you will
not be found naked. On the other hand, he that loveth corruption
shall have enough thereof. Think upon these things. Good-night.'</p>
<p>And the Swedenborgian Doctor stepped into the room, taking
the candle with him, and closed the door upon the shadowy
still-life there, and on his own sharp and swarthy visage, leaving
Mrs. Rusk in a sort of panic in the dark alone, to find her way
to her room the best way she could.</p>
<p>Early in the morning Mrs. Rusk came to my room to tell me
that Doctor Bryerly was in the parlour, and begged to know
whether I had not a message for him. I was already dressed,
so, though it was dreadful seeing a stranger in my then mood,
taking the key of the cabinet in my hand, I followed Mrs. Rusk
downstairs.</p>
<p>Opening the parlour door, she stepped in, and with a little
courtesy said,—</p>
<p>'Please, sir, the young mistress—Miss Ruthyn.'</p>
<p>Draped in black and very pale, tall and slight, 'the young
mistress' was; and as I entered I heard a newspaper rustle, and
the sound of steps approaching to meet me.</p>
<p>Face to face we met, near the door; and, without speaking,
I made him a deep courtesy.</p>
<p>He took my hand, without the least indication on my part, in
his hard lean grasp, and shook it kindly, but familiarly, peering
with a stern sort of curiosity into my face as he continued to
hold it. His ill-fitting, glossy black cloth, ungainly presence, and
sharp, dark, vulpine features had in them, as I said before, the
vulgarity of a Glasgow artisan in his Sabbath suit. I made an
instantaneous motion to withdraw my hand, but he held it
firmly.</p>
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<p>Though there was a grim sort of familiarity, there was also
decision, shrewdness, and, above all, kindness, in his dark face—a
gleam on the whole of the masterly and the honest—that
along with a certain paleness, betraying, I thought, restrained
emotion, indicated sympathy and invited confidence.</p>
<p>'I hope, Miss, you are pretty well?' He pronounced 'pretty'
as it is spelt. 'I have come in consequence of a solemn promise
exacted more than a year since by your deceased father, the late
Mr. Austin Ruthyn of Knowl, for whom I cherished a warm
esteem, being knit besides with him in spiritual bonds. It has
been a shock to you, Miss?'</p>
<p>'It has, indeed, sir.'</p>
<p>'I've a doctor's degree, I have—Doctor of Medicine, Miss. Like
St. Luke, preacher and doctor. I was in business once, but this
is better. As one footing fails, the Lord provides another. The
stream of life is black and angry; how so many of us get across
without drowning, I often wonder. The best way is not to look
too far before—just from one stepping-stone to another; and
though you may wet your feet, He won't let you drown—He has
not allowed me.'</p>
<p>And Doctor Bryerly held up his head, and wagged it resolutely.</p>
<p>'You are born to this world's wealth; in its way a great blessing,
though a great trial, Miss, and a great trust; but don't
suppose you are destined to exemption from trouble on that
account, any more than poor Emmanuel Bryerly. As the sparks
fly upwards, Miss Ruthyn! Your cushioned carriage may overturn
on the highroad, as I may stumble and fall upon the footpath.
There are other troubles than debt and privation. Who
can tell how long health may last, or when an accident may
happen the brain; what mortifications may await you in your
own high sphere; what unknown enemies may rise up in your
path; or what slanders may asperse your name—ha, ha! It is
a wonderful equilibrium—a marvellous dispensation—ha, ha!'
and he laughed with a shake of his head, I thought a little sarcastically,
as if he was not sorry my money could not avail to
buy immunity from the general curse.</p>
<p>'But what money can't do, <i>prayer</i> can—bear that in mind, Miss
Ruthyn. We can all pray; and though thorns and snares, and
stones of fire lie strewn in our way, we need not fear them. He
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will give His angels charge over us, and in their hands they will
bear us up, for He hears and sees everywhere, and His angels
are innumerable.'</p>
<p>He was now speaking gently and solemnly, and paused. But
another vein of thought he had unconsciously opened in my
mind, and I said—</p>
<p>'And had my dear papa no other medical adviser?'</p>
<p>He looked at me sharply, and flushed a little under his dark
tint. His medical skill was, perhaps, the point on which his
human vanity vaunted itself, and I dare say there was something
very disparaging in my tone.</p>
<p>'And if he <i>had</i> no other, he might have done worse. I've had
many critical cases in my hands, Miss Ruthyn. I can't charge
myself with any miscarriage through ignorance. My diagnosis
in Mr. Ruthyn's case has been verified by the result. But I was
<i>not</i> alone; Sir Clayton Barrow saw him, and took my view;
a note will reach him in London. But this, excuse me, is not
to the present purpose. The late Mr. Ruthyn told me I was to
receive a key from you, which would open a cabinet where he
had placed his will—ha! thanks,—in his study. And, I think, as
there may be directions about the funeral, it had better be read
forthwith. Is there any gentleman—a relative or man of business—near
here, whom you would wish sent for?'</p>
<p>'No, none, thank you; I have confidence in you, sir.'</p>
<p>I think I spoke and looked frankly, for he smiled very kindly,
though with closed lips.</p>
<p>'And you may be sure, Miss Ruthyn, your confidence shall not
be disappointed.' Here was a long pause. 'But you are very
young, and you must have some one by in your interest, who
has some experience in business. Let me see. Is not the Rector,
Dr. Clay, at hand? In the town?—very good; and Mr. Danvers,
who manages the estate, <i>he</i> must come. And get Grimston—you
see I know all the names—Grimston, the attorney; for though he
was not employed about this will, he has been Mr. Ruthyn's
solicitor a great many years: we must have Grimston; for, as I
suppose you know, though it is a short will, it is a very strange
one. I expostulated, but you know he was very decided when
he took a view. He read it to you, eh?'</p>
<p>'No, sir.'</p>
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<p>'Oh, but he told you so much as relates to you and your
uncle, Mr. Silas Ruthyn, of Bartram-Haugh?'</p>
<p>'No, indeed, sir.'</p>
<p>'Ha! I wish he had.'</p>
<p>And with these words Doctor Bryerly's countenance darkened.</p>
<p>'Mr. Silas Ruthyn is a religious man?'</p>
<p>'Oh, <i>very</i>!' said I.</p>
<p>'You've seen a good deal of him?'</p>
<p>'No, I never saw him,' I answered.</p>
<p>'H'm? Odder and odder! But he's a good man, isn't he?'</p>
<p>'Very good, indeed, sir—a very religious man.'</p>
<p>Doctor Bryerly was watching my countenance as I spoke,
with a sharp and anxious eye; and then he looked down, and
read the pattern of the carpet like bad news, for a while, and
looking again in my face, askance, he said—</p>
<p>'He was very near joining <i>us</i>—on the point. He got into
correspondence with Henry Voerst, one of our best men. They
call us Swedenborgians, you know; but I dare say that won't go
much further, now. I suppose, Miss Ruthyn, one o'clock would
be a good hour, and I am sure, under the circumstances, the
gentlemen will make a point of attending.'</p>
<p>'Yes, Dr. Bryerly, the notes shall be sent, and my cousin,
Lady Knollys, would I am sure attend with me while the will is
being read—there would be no objection to her presence?'</p>
<p>'None in the world. I can't be quite sure who are joined with
me as executors. I'm almost sorry I did not decline; but it is
too late regretting. One thing you must believe Miss Ruthyn:
in framing the provisions of the will I was never consulted—although
I expostulated against the only very unusual one it
contains when I heard it. I did so strenuously, but in vain.
There was one other against which I protested—having a right
to do so—with better effect. In no other way does the will in
any respect owe anything to my advice or dissuasion. You will
please believe this; also that I am your friend. Yes, indeed, it
is my duty.'</p>
<p>The latter words he spoke looking down again, as it were in
soliloquy; and thanking him, I withdrew.</p>
<p>When I reached the hall, I regretted that I had not asked him
to state distinctly what arrangements the will made so nearly
affecting, as it seemed, my relations with my uncle Silas, and
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for a moment I thought of returning and requesting an explanation.
But then, I bethought me, it was not very long to wait
till one o'clock—so <i>he</i>, at least, would think. I went up-stairs,
therefore, to the 'school-room,' which we used at present as a
sitting-room, and there I found Cousin Monica awaiting me.</p>
<p>'Are you quite well, dear?' asked Lady Knollys, as she came
to meet and kiss me.</p>
<p>'Quite well, Cousin Monica.'</p>
<p>'No nonsense, Maud! you're as white as that handkerchief—what's
the matter? Are you ill—are you frightened? Yes, you're
trembling—you're terrified, child.'</p>
<p>'I believe I <i>am</i> afraid. There <i>is</i> something in poor papa's will
about Uncle Silas—about <i>me</i>. I don't know—Doctor Bryerly says,
and he seems so uncomfortable and frightened himself, I am
sure it is something very bad. I am <i>very</i> much frightened—I am—I
<i>am</i>. Oh, Cousin Monica! you won't leave me?'</p>
<p>So I threw my arms about her neck, clasping her very close,
and we kissed one another, I crying like a frightened child—and
indeed in experience of the world I was no more.</p>
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