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<h3>CHAPTER XIII</h3>
<h2><i>BEFORE AND AFTER BREAKFAST</i></h2>
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<p>Next morning early I visited my favourite full-length portrait
in the chocolate coat and top-boots. Scanty as had been my
cousin Monica's notes upon this dark and eccentric biography,
they were everything to me. A soul had entered that enchanted
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form. Truth had passed by with her torch, and a sad light
shone for a moment on that enigmatic face.</p>
<p>There stood the <i>rou�</i>—the duellist—and, with all his faults, the
hero too! In that dark large eye lurked the profound and fiery
enthusiasm of his ill-starred passion. In the thin but exquisite
lip I read the courage of the paladin, who would have 'fought
his way,' though single-handed, against all the magnates of his
county, and by ordeal of battle have purged the honour of the
Ruthyns. There in that delicate half-sarcastic tracery of the nostril
I detected the intellectual defiance which had politically
isolated Silas Ruthyn and opposed him to the landed oligarchy
of his county, whose retaliation had been a hideous slander.
There, too, and on his brows and lip, I traced the patience of a
cold disdain. I could now see him as he was—the prodigal, the
hero, and the martyr. I stood gazing on him with a girlish interest
and admiration. There was indignation, there was pity,
there was hope. Some day it might come to pass that I, girl as
I was, might contribute by word or deed towards the vindication
of that long-suffering, gallant, and romantic prodigal. It was a
flicker of the Joan of Arc inspiration, common, I fancy, to many
girls. I little then imagined how profoundly and strangely involved
my uncle's fate would one day become with mine.</p>
<p>I was interrupted by Captain Oakley's voice at the window.
He was leaning on the window-sill, and looking in with a smile—the
window being open, the morning sunny, and his cap lifted
in his hand.</p>
<p>'Good-morning, Miss Ruthyn. What a charming old place!
quite the setting for a romance; such timber, and this really
<i>beautiful</i> house. I <i>do</i> so like these white and black
houses—wonderful old things. By-the-by, you treated us very badly last
night—you did, indeed; upon my word, now, it really was too
bad—running away, and drinking tea with Lady Knollys—so
she says. I really—I should not like to tell you how very savage
I felt, particularly considering how very short my time is.'</p>
<p>I was a shy, but not a giggling country miss. I knew I was an
heiress; I knew I was somebody. I was not the least bit in the
world conceited, but I think this knowledge helped to give me
a certain sense of security and self-possession, which might have
been mistaken for dignity or simplicity. I am sure I looked at
him with a fearless enquiry, for he answered my thoughts.</p>
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<p>'I do really assure you, Miss Ruthyn, I am quite serious;
you have no idea how very much we have missed you.'</p>
<p>There was a little pause, and, like a fool, I lowered
my eyes, and blushed.</p>
<p>'I—I was thinking of leaving to-day; I am so unfortunate—my
leave is just out—it is so unlucky; but I don't quite know
whether my aunt Knollys will allow me to go.'</p>
<p>'<i>I</i>?—certainly, my dear Charlie, <i>I</i> don't want you at all,'
exclaimed a voice—Lady Knollys's—briskly, from an open window
close by; 'what could put that in your head, dear?'</p>
<p>And in went my cousin's head, and the window shut down.</p>
<p>'She is <i>such</i> an oddity, poor dear Aunt Knollys,' murmured
the young man, ever so little put out, and he laughed. 'I never
know quite what she wishes, or how to please her; but she's
<i>so</i> good-natured; and when she goes to town for the season—she
does not always, you know—her house is really very gay—you
can't think——'</p>
<p>Here again he was interrupted, for the door opened, and
Lady Knollys entered. 'And you know, Charles,' she continued,
'it would not do to forget your visit to Snodhurst; you wrote,
you know, and you have only to-night and to-morrow. You are
thinking of nothing but that moor; I heard you talking to the
gamekeeper; I know he is—is not he, Maud, the brown man
with great whiskers, and leggings? I'm very sorry, you know, but
I really must spoil your shooting, for they do expect you at
Snodhurst, Charlie; and do not you think this window a little
too much for Miss Ruthyn? Maud, my dear, the air is very sharp;
shut it down, Charles, and you'd better tell them to get a fly for
you from the town after luncheon. Come, dear,' she said to me.
'Was not that the breakfast bell? Why does not your papa
get a gong?—it is so hard to know one bell from another.'</p>
<p>I saw that Captain Oakley lingered for a last look, but I did
not give it, and went out smiling with Cousin Knollys, and
wondering why old ladies are so uniformly disagreeable.</p>
<p>In the lobby she said, with an odd, good-natured look—</p>
<p>'Don't allow any of his love-making, my dear. Charles Oakley
has not a guinea, and an heiress would be very convenient.
Of course he has his eyes about him. Charles is not by any
means foolish; and I should not be at all sorry to see him well
married, for I don't think he will do much good any other way;
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but there are degrees, and his ideas are sometimes very impertinent.'</p>
<p>I was an admiring reader of the <i>Albums</i>, the <i>Souvenirs</i>, the
<i>Keepsakes</i>, and all that flood of Christmas-present lore which yearly
irrigated England, with pretty covers and engravings;
and floods of elegant twaddle—the milk, not destitute of water,
on which the babes of literature were then fed. On this, my
genius throve. I had a little album, enriched with many gems
of original thought and observation, which I jotted down in
suitable language. Lately, turning over these faded leaves of
rhyme and prose, I lighted, under this day's date, upon the following sage
reflection, with my name appended:—</p>
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<p>'Is there not in the female heart an ineradicable jealousy,
which, if it sways the passions of the young, rules also the <i>advice</i>
of the <i>aged</i>? Do they not grudge to youth the sentiments (though
Heaven knows how <i>shadowed</i> with sorrow) which they can <i>no longer
inspire</i>, perhaps even <i>experience</i>; and does not youth, in turn,
sigh over the envy which has <i>power to blight</i>?</p>
<p class="signature">M<small>AUD</small> A<small>YLMER</small> R<small>UTHYN</small>.'</p>
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<p>'He has not been making love to me,' I said rather tartly,
'and he does not seem to me at all impertinent, and I really
don't care the least whether he goes or stays.'</p>
<p>Cousin Monica looked in my face with her old waggish smile,
and laughed.</p>
<p>'You'll understand those London dandies better some day,
dear Maud; they are very well, but they like money—not to keep,
of course—but still they like it and know its value.'</p>
<p>At breakfast my father told Captain Oakley where he might
have shooting, or if he preferred going to Dilsford, only half
an hour's ride, he might have his choice of hunters, and find
the dogs there that morning.</p>
<p>The Captain smiled archly at me, and looked at his aunt.
There was a suspense. I hope I did not show how much I was
interested—but it would not do. Cousin Monica was inexorable.</p>
<p>'Hunting, hawking, fishing, fiddle-de-dee! You know, Charlie,
my dear, it is quite out of the question. He is going to Snodhurst this
afternoon, and without quite a rudeness, in which
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I should be involved too, he really can't—you know you can't,
Charles! and—and he <i>must</i> go and keep his engagement.'</p>
<p>So papa acquiesced with a polite regret, and hoped another
time.</p>
<p>'Oh, leave all that to me. When you want him, only write me
a note, and I'll send him or bring him if you let me. I always
know where to find him—don't I, Charlie?—and we shall be only
too happy.'</p>
<p>Aunt Monica's influence with her nephew was special, for she
'tipped' him handsomely every now and then, and he had
formed for himself agreeable expectations, besides, respecting her
will. I felt rather angry at his submitting to this sort of tutelage,
knowing nothing of its motive; I was also disgusted by Cousin
Monica's tyranny.</p>
<p>So soon as he had left the room, Lady Knollys, not minding
me, said briskly to papa, 'Never let that young man into your
house again. I found him making speeches, this morning, to
little Maud here; and he really has not two pence in the world—it
is amazing impudence—and you know such absurd things
do happen.'</p>
<p>'Come, Maud, what compliments did he pay you?' asked my
father.</p>
<p>I was vexed, and therefore spoke courageously. 'His compliments
were not to me; they were all to the house,' I said, drily.</p>
<p>'Quite as it should be—the house, of course; it is that he's in
love with,' said Cousin Knollys.</p>
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<p>'Twas on a widow's jointure land,</p>
<p>The archer, Cupid, took his stand.'</p>
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<p>'Hey! I don't quite understand,' said my father, slily.</p>
<p>'Tut! Austin; you forget Charlie is my nephew.'</p>
<p>'So I did,' said my father.</p>
<p>'Therefore the literal widow in this case <i>can</i> have no interest
in view but one, and that is yours and Maud's. I wish him well,
but he shan't put my little cousin and her expectations into his
empty pocket—<i>not</i> a bit of it. And <i>there's</i> another
reason, Austin, why you should marry—you have no eye for these things,
whereas a clever <i>woman</i> would see at a glance and prevent mischief.'</p>
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<p>'So she would,' acquiesced my father, in his gloomy, amused
way. 'Maud, you must try to be a clever woman.'</p>
<p>'So she will in her time, but that is not come yet; and I tell
you, Austin Ruthyn, if you won't look about and marry somebody,
somebody may possibly marry you.'</p>
<p>'You were always an oracle, Monica; but <i>here</i> I am lost in
total perplexity,' said my father.</p>
<p>'Yes; sharks sailing round you, with keen eyes and large
throats; and you have come to the age precisely when men <i>are</i>
swallowed up alive like Jonah.'</p>
<p>'Thank you for the parallel, but you know that was not a
happy union, even for the fish, and there was a separation in a
few days; not that I mean to trust to that; but there's no one to
throw me into the jaws of the monster, and I've no notion of
jumping there; and the fact is, Monica, there's no monster at
all.'</p>
<p>'I'm not so sure.'</p>
<p>'But I'm quite sure,' said my father, a little drily. 'You forget
how old I am, and how long I've lived alone—I and little Maud;'
and he smiled and smoothed my hair, and, I thought, sighed.</p>
<p>'No one is ever too old to do a foolish thing,' began Lady
Knollys.</p>
<p>'Nor to say a foolish thing, Monica. This has gone on too
long. Don't you see that little Maud here is silly enough to be
frightened at your fun.'</p>
<p>So I was, but I could not divine how he guessed it.</p>
<p>'And well or ill, wisely or madly, I'll <i>never</i> marry; so put
that out of your head.'</p>
<p>This was addressed rather to me, I think, than to Lady
Knollys, who smiled a little waggishly on me, and said—</p>
<p>'To be sure, Maud; maybe you are right; a stepdame is a
risk, and I ought to have asked you first what you thought of
it; and upon my honour,' she continued merrily but kindly, observing
that my eyes, I know not exactly from what feeling,
filled with tears, 'I'll never again advise your papa to marry,
unless you first tell me you wish it.'</p>
<p>This was a great deal from Lady Knollys, who had a taste
for advising her friends and managing their affairs.</p>
<p>'I've a great respect for instinct. I believe, Austin, it is truer
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than reason, and yours and Maud's are both against me, though
I know I have reason on my side.'</p>
<p>My father's brief wintry smile answered, and Cousin Monica
kissed me, and said—</p>
<p>'I've been so long my own mistress that I sometimes forget
there are such things as fear and jealousy; and are you going to
your governess, Maud?'</p>
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