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<p>It was remarked that his face was fearfully worn, and that it looked the
whiter for the white wig above it and the black gown beneath. His large
eyes flamed as with fire. "The sword too keen for the scabbard," whispered
somebody.</p>
<p>There is a kind of aloofness in strong men at great moments. Nobody
approaches them. They move onward of themselves, and stand or fall alone.
Everybody in court rose as Philip entered, but no one offered his hand.
Even the ex-Governor only bowed from the Governor's seat under the canopy.</p>
<p>Philip took his customary place as Deemster. He was then at the right of
the Governor, the Bishop being on the left. Behind the bishop sat the
Attorney-General, and behind Philip the Clerk of the Rolls. The cheers
that had greeted Philip on his entrance ended with the clapping of hands,
and died off like a wave falling back from the shingle. Then he rose and
turned to the Governor.</p>
<p>"I do not know if you are aware, your Excellency, that this is Deemster's
Court-day?"</p>
<p>The Governor smiled, and a titter went round the court. "We will dispense
with that," he said. "We have better business this morning." 34</p>
<p>"Excuse me, your Excellency," said Philip; "I am still Deemster. With your
leave we will do everything according to rule."</p>
<p>There was a slight pause, a questioning look, then a cold answer. "Of
course, if you wish it; but your sense of duty——"</p>
<p>The ladies in the galleries bad ceased to flutter their fans, and the
members of the House of Keys were shifting in their seats in the well
below.</p>
<p>The Clerk of the Deemster's Court pushed through to the space beneath the
bench. "There is only one case, your Honour," he whispered up.</p>
<p>"Speak out, sir," said Philip. "What case is it?"</p>
<p>The Clerk gave an informal answer. It was the case of the young woman who
had attempted her life at Ramsey, and had been kept at Her Majesty's
pleasure.</p>
<p>"How long has she been in prison?"—"Seven weeks, your Honour."</p>
<p>"Give me the book and I will sign the order for her release."</p>
<p>The book was handed to the bench. Philip signed it, handed it back to the
Clerk, and said with his face to the jailor—</p>
<p>"But keep her until somebody comes to fetch her."</p>
<p>There had been a cold silence during these proceedings. When they were
over, the ladies breathed freely. "You remember the case—left her
husband and little child—divorced since, I'm told—a worthless
person."—"Ah! yes, wasn't she first tried the day the Deemster fell
ill in court?"—"Men are too tender with such creatures."</p>
<p>Philip had risen again. "Your Excellency, I have done the last of my
duties as Deemster." His voice had hoarsened. He was a worn and stricken
figure.</p>
<p>The ex Governor's warmth had been somewhat cooled by the unexpected
interruption. Nevertheless, the pock-marks smoothed out of his forehead,
and he rose with a smile. At the same moment the Clerk of the Rolls
stepped up and laid two books on the desk before him—a New Testament
in a tattered leather binding, and the <i>Liber Juramentorum</i>, the Book
of Oaths.</p>
<p>"The regret I feel," said the ex-Governor, "and feel increasingly, day by
day, at the severance of the ties which have bound me to this beautiful
island is tempered by the satisfaction I experience that the choice of my
successor has fallen upon one whom I know to be a gentleman of powerful
intellect and stainless honour. He will preserve that autonomous
independence which has come down to you from a remote antiquity, at the
same time that he will uphold the fidelity of a people who have always
been loyal to the Crown. I pray that the blessing of Almighty God may
attend his administration, and that, if the time ever comes when he too
shall stand in the position I occupy to-day, he may have recollections as
lively of the support and kindness he has met with, and regrets as deep at
his separation from the little Manx nation which he leaves behind."</p>
<p>Then the Governor took the staff of office, and gave the signal for
rising. Everybody rose. "And now, sir," he said, turning to Philip with a
smile, "to do everything, as you say, according to rule, let us first take
Her Majesty's commission of your appointment."</p>
<p>There was a moment's pause, and then Philip said in a cold clear voice—</p>
<p>"Your Excellency, I have no commission. The commission which I received I
have returned. I have, therefore, no right to be installed as Governor.
Also, I have resigned my office as Deemster, and, though my resignation
has not yet been accepted, I am, in reality, no longer in the service of
the State."</p>
<p>The people looked at the speaker with eyes that were full of the
stupefaction of surprise. Somebody bad risen at the back of the bench. It
was the Clerk of the Rolls. He stretched out his hand as if to touch
Philip on the shoulder. Then he hesitated and sat down again.</p>
<p>"Gentlemen of the Council and of the Keys," continued Philip, "you will
think you have assembled to see a man take a leap into an abyss more dark
than death. That is as it may be. You have a right to an explanation, and
I am here to make it. What I have done has been at the compulsion of
conscience. I am not worthy of the office I hold, still less of the office
that is offered me."</p>
<p>There was a half-articulate interruption from behind Philip's chair.</p>
<p>"Ah! do not think, old friend, that I am dealing in vague self
depreciation. I should have preferred not to speak more exactly, but what
must be, must be. Your Excellency has spoken of my honour as spotless.
Would to God it were so; but it is deeply stained with sin."</p>
<p>He stopped, made an effort to begin afresh, and stopped again. Then, in a
low tone, with measured utterance, amid breathless silence, he said—
"I have lived a double life. Beneath the life that you have seen there has
been another—God only knows how full of wrongdoing and disgrace and
shame. It is no part of my duty to involve others in this confession. Let
it be enough that my career has been built on falsehood and robbery, that
I have deceived the woman who loved me with her heart of hearts, and
robbed the man who would have trusted me with his soul."</p>
<p>The people began to breathe audibly. There was the scraping of a chair
behind the speaker. The Clerk of the Rolls had risen. His florid face was
violently agitated.</p>
<p>"May it please your Excellency," he began, faltering and stammering, in a
husky voice, "it will be within your Excellency's knowledge, and the
knowledge of every one on the island, that his Honour has only just risen
from a long and serious illness, brought on by overwork, by too zealous
attention to his duties, and that—in fact, that—well, not to
blink the plain truth, that——"</p>
<p>A sigh of immense relief had passed over the court, and the Governor,
grown very pale, was nodding in assent. But Philip only smiled sadly and
shook his head.</p>
<p>"I have been ill indeed," he said, "but not from the cause you speak of.
The just judgment of God has overtaken me."</p>
<p>The Clerk of the Rolls sank back into his seat.</p>
<p>"The moment came when I had to sit in judgment on my own sin, the moment
when she who had lost her honour in trusting to mine stood in the dock
before me. I, who had been the first cause of her misfortunes, sat on the
bench as her judge. She is now in prison and I am here. The same law which
has punished her failing with infamy has advanced me to power."</p>
<p>There was an icy quiet in the court, such as comes with the first gleam of
the dawn. By that quick instinct which takes possession of a crowd at
great moments, the people understood everything—the impurity of the
character that had seemed so pure, the nullity of the life that had seemed
so noble.</p>
<p>"When I asked myself what there was left to me to do, I could see but one
thing. It was impossible to go on administering justice, being myself
unjust, and remembering that higher bar before which I too was yet to
stand. I must cease to be Deemster. But that was only my protection
against the future, not my punishment for the past. I could not surrender
myself to any earthly court, because I was guilty of no crime against
earthly law. The law cannot take a man into the court of the conscience.
He must take himself there."</p>
<p>He stopped again, and then said quietly, "My sentence is this open
confession of my sin, and renunciation of the worldly advantages which
have been bought by the suffering of others."</p>
<p>It was no longer possible to doubt him. He had sinned, and he had reaped
the reward of his sin. Those rewards were great and splendid, but he had
come to renounce them all. The dreams of ambition were fulfilled, the
miracle of life was realised, the world was conquered and at his feet, yet
he was there to give up all. The quiet of the court had warmed to a hush
of awe. He turned to the bench, but every face was down. Then his own eyes
fell.</p>
<p>"Gentlemen of the Council, you who have served the island so long and so
honourably, perhaps you blame me for permitting you to come together for
the hearing of this confession. But if you knew the temptation I was under
to fly away without making it, to turn my back on my past, to shuffle, my
fault on to Fate, to lay the blame on Life, to persuade myself that I
could not have acted differently, you would believe it was not lightly,
and God knows, not vainly, that I suffered you to come here to see me
mount my scaffold."</p>
<p>He turned back to the body of the court.</p>
<p>"My countrymen and countrywomen, you who have been so much more kind to me
than my character justified or my conduct merited. I say good-bye; but not
as one who is going away. In conquering the impulse to go without
confessing, I conquered the desire to go at all. Here, where my old life
has fallen to ruin, my new life must be built up. That is the only
security. It is also the only justice. On this island, where my fall is
known, my uprising may come—as is most right—only with bitter
struggle and sorrow and tears. But when it comes, it will come securely.
It may be in years, in many years, but I am willing to wait—I am
ready to labour. And, meantime, she who was worthy of my highest honour
will share my lowest degradation. That is the way of all women—God
love and keep them!"</p>
<p>The exaltation of his tones infected everybody.</p>
<p>"It may be that you think I am to be pitied. There have been hours of my
life when I have been deserving of pity. But they have been the hours, the
dark hours, when, in the prodigality of your gratitude, you have loaded me
with distinctions, and a shadow has haunted me, saying, 'Philip Christian,
they think you a just judge—you are not a just judge; they think you
an upright man—you are not an upright man.' Do not pity me now, when
the dark hours are passed, when the new life has begun, when I am
listening at length to the voice of my heart, which has all along been the
voice of God."</p>
<p>His eyes shone, his mouth was smiling.</p>
<p>"If you think how narrowly I escaped the danger of letting things go on as
they were going, of covering up my fault, of concealing my true character,
of living as a sham and dying as a hypocrite, you will consider me worthy
of envy instead. Good-bye! good-bye! God bless you!"</p>
<p>Before any one appeared to be aware that his voice had ceased he was gone
from the bench, and the Deemster's chair stood empty. Then the people
turned and looked into each other's stricken faces. They were still
standing, for nobody had thought of sitting down.</p>
<p>There was no further speaking that day. Without a word or a sign the
Governor descended from his seat and the proceedings came to an end. Every
one moved towards the door. "A great price to pay for it, though," thought
the men. "How he must have loved her, after all," thought the women.</p>
<p>At that moment the big Queen Elizabeth clock of the Castle was striking
twelve, and the fishermen on Irish waters were raising a cheer for their
friend at home. A loud detonation rang out over the town. It was the
report of a gun. There was another, and then a third. The shots were from
a steamer that was passing the bay.</p>
<p>Philip remembered—it was Pete's last farewell.</p>
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