<h2><SPAN name="Chapter_II" id="Chapter_II" /><i>Chapter II</i></h2>
<h2>I</h2>
<p>"I have told him," said Mrs. Baxter, as the two women walked beneath
the yews that morning after breakfast. "He said he didn't mind."</p>
<p>Maggie did not speak. She had come out just as she was, hatless, but
had caught up a spud that stood in the hall, and at that instant had
stopped to destroy a youthful plantain that had established himself
with infinite pains on the slope of the path. She attacked for a few
seconds, extricated what was possible of the root with her strong
fingers, tossed the corpse among the ivy, and then moved on.</p>
<p>"I don't know whether to say anything to Mrs. Stapleton or not,"
pursued the old lady.</p>
<p>"I think I shouldn't, auntie," said the girl slowly.</p>
<p>They spoke of it for a minute or two as they passed up and down, but
Maggie only attended with one superficies of her mind.</p>
<p>She had gone up as usual to Mass that morning, and had been astonished
to find Laurie already in church; they had walked back together, and,
to her surprise, he had told her that the Mass had been for his own
intention.</p>
<p>She had answered as well as she could; but a sentence or two of his as
they came near home had vaguely troubled her.</p>
<p>It was not that he had said anything he ought not, as a Catholic, to
have said; yet her instinct told her that something was wrong. It was
his manner, his air, that troubled her. What strange people these
converts were! There was so much ardor at one time, so much chilliness
at another; there was so little of that steady workaday acceptance of
religious facts that marked the born Catholic.</p>
<p>"Mrs. Stapleton is a New Thought kind of person," she said presently.</p>
<p>"So I understand," said the old lady, with a touch of peevishness. "A
vegetarian last year. And I believe she was a sort of Buddhist five or
six years ago. And then she nearly became a Christian Scientist a
little while ago."</p>
<p>Maggie smiled.</p>
<p>"I wonder what she'll talk about," she said.</p>
<p>"I hope she won't be very advanced," went on the old lady. "And you
think I'd better not tell her about Laurie?"</p>
<p>"I'm sure it's best not," said the girl, "or she'll tell him about
Deep Breathing, or saying Om, or something. No; I should let Laurie
alone."</p>
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<p>It was a little before one o'clock that the motor arrived, and that
there descended from it at the iron gate a tall, slender woman, hooded
and veiled, who walked up the little path, observed by Maggie from her
bedroom, with a kind of whisking step. The motor moved on, wheeled in
through the gates at the left, and sank into silence in the
stable-yard.</p>
<p>"It's too charming of you, dear Mrs. Baxter," Maggie heard as she came
into the drawing-room a minute or two later, "to let me come over like
this. I've heard so much about this house. Lady Laura was telling me
how very psychical it all was."</p>
<p>"My adopted daughter, Miss Deronnais," observed the old lady.</p>
<p>Maggie saw a rather pretty, passé face, triangular in shape, with
small red lips, looking at her, as she made her greetings.</p>
<p>"Ah! how perfect all this is," went on the guest presently, looking
about her, "how suggestive, how full of meaning!"</p>
<p>She threw back her cloak presently, and Maggie observed that she was
busy with various very beautiful little emblems—a scarab, a snake
swallowing its tail, and so forth—all exquisitely made, and hung upon
a slender chain of some green enamel-like material. Certainly she was
true to type. As the full light fell upon her it became plain that
this other-worldly soul did not disdain to use certain toilet
requisites upon her face; and a curious Eastern odor exhaled from her
dress.</p>
<p>Fortunately, Maggie had a very deep sense of humor, and she hardly
resented all this at all, nor even the tactful hints dropped from time
to time, after the conventional part of the conversation was over, to
the effect that Christianity was, of course, played out, and that a
Higher Light had dawned. Mrs. Stapleton did not quite say this
outright, but it amounted to as much. Even before Laurie came
downstairs it appeared that the lady did not go to church, yet that,
such was her broad-mindedness, she did not at all object to do so. It
was all one, it seemed, in the Deeper Unity. Nothing particular was
true; but all was very suggestive and significant and symbolical of
something else to which Mrs. Stapleton and a few friends had the key.</p>
<p>Mrs. Baxter made more than one attempt to get back to more mundane
subjects, but it was useless. When even the weather serves as a
symbol, the plain man is done for.</p>
<p>Then Laurie came in.</p>
<p>He looked very self-contained and rather pinched this morning, and
shook hands with the lady without a word. Then they moved across
presently to the green-hung dining-room across the hall, and the
exquisite symbol of Luncheon made its appearance.</p>
<p>Lady Laura, it appeared, was one of those who had felt the charm of
Stantons; only for her it was psychical rather than physical, and all
this was passed on by her friend. It seemed that the psychical
atmosphere of most modern houses was of a yellow tint, but that this
one emanated a brown-gold radiance which was very peculiar and
exceptional. Indeed, it was this singularity that had caused Mrs.
Stapleton to apply for an invitation to the house. More than once
during lunch, in a pause of the conversation, Maggie saw her throw
back her head slightly as if to appreciate some odor or color not
experienced by coarser-nerved persons. Once, indeed, she actually put
this into words.</p>
<p>"Dear Laura was quite right," cried the lady; "there is something very
unique about this place. How fortunate you are, dear Mrs. Baxter!"</p>
<p>"My dear husband's grandfather bought the place," observed the
mistress plaintively. "We have always found it very soothing and
pleasant."</p>
<p>"How right you are! And—and have you had any experiences here?"
Mrs. Baxter eyed her in alarm. Maggie had an irrepressible burst of
internal laughter, which, however, gave no hint of its presence in her
steady features. She glanced at Laurie, who was eating mutton with a
depressed air.</p>
<p>"I was talking to Mr. Vincent, the great spiritualist," went on the
other vivaciously, "only last week. You have heard of him, Mrs.
Baxter? I was suggesting to him that any place where great emotions
have been felt is colored and stained by them as objectively as old
walls are weather-beaten. I had such an interesting conversation, too,
with Cardinal Newman on the subject"—she smiled brilliantly at
Maggie, as if to reassure her of her own orthodoxy—"scarcely six
weeks ago."</p>
<p>There was a pregnant silence. Mrs. Baxter's fork sank to her plate.</p>
<p>"I don't understand," she said faintly. "Cardinal Newman—surely—"</p>
<p>"Why yes," said the other gently. "I know it sounds very startling to
orthodox ears; but to us of the Higher Thought all these things are
quite familiar. Of course, I need hardly say that Cardinal Newman is
no longer—but perhaps I had better not go on."</p>
<p>She glanced archly at Maggie.</p>
<p>"Oh, please go on," said Maggie genially. "You were saying that
Cardinal Newman—"</p>
<p>"Dear Miss Deronnais, are you sure you will not be offended?"</p>
<p>"I am always glad to receive new light," said Maggie solemnly.</p>
<p>The other looked at her doubtfully; but there was no hint of irony in
the girl's face.</p>
<p>"Well," she began, "of course on the Other Side they see things very
differently. I don't mean at all that any religion is exactly untrue.
Oh no; they tell us that if we cannot welcome the New Light, then the
old lights will do very well for the present. Indeed, when there are
Catholics present Cardinal Newman does not scruple to give them a
Latin blessing—"</p>
<p>"Is it true that he speaks with an American accent?" asked Maggie
gravely. The other laughed with a somewhat shrill geniality.</p>
<p>"That is too bad, Miss Deronnais. Well, of course, the personality of
the medium affects the vehicle through which the communications come.
That is no difficulty at all when once you understand the principle—"</p>
<p>Mrs. Baxter interrupted. She could bear it no longer.</p>
<p>"Mrs. Stapleton. Do you mean that Cardinal Newman really speaks to
you?"</p>
<p>"Why yes," said the other, with a patient indulgence. "That is a very
usual experience, but Mr. Vincent does much more than that. It is
quite a common experience not only to hear him, but to see him. I have
shaken hands with him more than once ... and I have seen a Catholic
kiss his ring."</p>
<p>Mrs. Baxter looked helplessly at the girl; and Maggie came to the
rescue once more. "This sounds rather advanced to us," she said.
"Won't you explain the principles first?"</p>
<p>Mrs. Stapleton laid her knife and fork down, leaned back, and began to
discourse. When a little later her plate was removed, she refused
sweets with a gesture, and continued.</p>
<p>Altogether she spoke for about ten minutes, uninterrupted, enjoying
herself enormously. The others ate food or refused it in attentive
silence. Then at last she ended.</p>
<p>"... I know all this must sound quite mad and fanatical to those who
have not experienced it; and yet to us who have been disciples it is
as natural to meet our friends who have crossed over as to meet those
who have not.... Dear Mrs. Baxter, think how all this enlarges life.
There is no longer any death to those who understand. All those
limitations are removed; it is no more than going into another
room. All are together in the Hands of the All-Father"—Maggie
recognized the jetsam of Christian Science. "'O death!' as Paul says,
'where is thy sting? O grave, where is thy victory?'"</p>
<p>Mrs. Stapleton flashed a radiant look of helpfulness round the faces,
lingering for an instant on Laurie's, and leaned back.</p>
<p>There followed a silence.</p>
<p>"Shall we go into the drawing-room?" suggested Mrs. Baxter, feebly
rising. The guest rose too, again with a brilliant patient smile, and
swept out. Maggie crossed herself and looked at Laurie. The boy had an
expression, half of disgust, half of interest, and his eyelids sank a
little and rose again. Then Maggie went out after the others.</p>
<h2>II</h2>
<p>"A dreadful woman," observed Mrs. Baxter half an hour later, as the
two strolled back up the garden path, after seeing Mrs. Stapleton wave
a delicately gloved hand encouragingly to them over the back of the
throbbing motor.</p>
<p>"I suppose she thinks she believes it all," said Maggie.</p>
<p>"My dear, that woman would believe anything. I hope poor Laurie was
not too much distressed."</p>
<p>"Oh! I think Laurie took it all right."</p>
<p>"It was most unfortunate, all that about death and the rest.... Why,
here comes Laurie; I thought he would be gone out by now!"</p>
<p>The boy strolled towards them round the corner of the house, tossing
away the fragment of his cigarette. He was still in his dark suit,
bareheaded, with no signs of riding about him.</p>
<p>"So you've not gone out yet, dear boy?" remarked his mother.</p>
<p>"Not yet," he said, and hesitated as they went on.</p>
<p>Mrs. Baxter noticed it.</p>
<p>"I'll go and get ready," she said. "The carriage will be round at
three, Maggie."</p>
<p>When she was gone the two moved out together on to the lawn.</p>
<p>"What did you think of that woman?" demanded Laurie with a detached
air.</p>
<p>Maggie glanced at him. His tone was a little too much detached.</p>
<p>"I thought her quite dreadful," she said frankly. "Didn't you?" she
added.</p>
<p>"Oh yes, I suppose so," said Laurie. He drew out a cigarette and
lighted it. "You know a lot of people think there's something in it,"
he said.</p>
<p>"In what?"</p>
<p>"Spiritualism."</p>
<p>"I daresay," said Maggie.</p>
<p>She perceived out of the corner of her eye that Laurie looked at her
suddenly and sharply. For herself, she loathed what little she knew of
the subject, so cordially and completely, that she could hardly have
put it into words. Nine-tenths of it she believed to be fraud—a
matter of wigs and Indian muslin and cross-lights—and the other
tenth, by the most generous estimate, an affair of the dingiest and
foulest of all the backstairs of life. The prophetic outpourings of
Mrs. Stapleton had not altered her opinion.</p>
<p>"Oh! if you feel like that—" went on Laurie.</p>
<p>She turned on him.</p>
<p>"Laurie," she said, "I think it perfectly detestable. I acknowledge I
don't know much about it; but what little I do know is enough, thank
you."</p>
<p>Laurie smiled in a faintly patronizing way.</p>
<p>"Well," he said indulgently, "if you think that, it's not much use
discussing it."</p>
<p>"Indeed it's not," said Maggie, with her nose in the air.</p>
<p>There was not much more to be said; and the sounds of stamping and
whoaing in the stable-yard presently sent the girl indoors in a hurry.</p>
<p>Mrs. Baxter was still mildly querulous during the drive. It appeared
to her, Maggie perceived, a kind of veiled insult that things should
be talked about in her house which did not seem to fit in with her own
scheme of the universe. Mrs. Baxter knew perfectly well that every
soul when it left this world went either to what she called Paradise,
or in extremely exceptional cases, to a place she did not name; and
that these places, each in its own way, entirely absorbed the
attention of its inhabitants. Further, it was established in her view
that all the members of the spiritual world, apart from the unhappy
ones, were a kind of Anglicans, with their minds no doubt enlarged
considerably, but on the original lines.</p>
<p>Tales like this of Cardinal Newman therefore were extremely tiresome
and upsetting.</p>
<p>And Maggie had her theology also; to her also it appeared quite
impossible that Cardinal Newman should frequent the drawing-room of
Mr. Vincent in order to exchange impressions with Mrs. Stapleton; but
she was more elementary in her answer. For her the thing was simply
untrue; and that was the end of it. She found it difficult therefore
to follow her companion's train of thought.</p>
<p>"What was it she said?" demanded Mrs. Baxter presently. "I didn't
understand her ideas about materialism."</p>
<p>"I think she called it materialization," explained Maggie patiently.
"She said that when things were very favorable, and the medium a very
good one, the soul that wanted to communicate could make a kind of
body for itself out of what she called the astral matter of the medium
or the sitters."</p>
<p>"But surely our bodies aren't like that?"</p>
<p>"No; I can't say that I think they are. But that's what she said."</p>
<p>"My dear, please explain. I want to understand the woman."</p>
<p>Maggie frowned a little.</p>
<p>"Well, the first thing she said was that those souls want to
communicate; and that they begin generally by things like
table-rapping, or making blue lights. Then when you know they're
there, they can go further. Sometimes they gain control of the medium
who is in a trance, and speak through him, or write with his hand.
Then, if things are favorable, they begin to draw out this matter, and
make it into a kind of body for themselves, very thin and ethereal, so
that you can pass your hand through it. Then, as things get better and
better, they go further still, and can make this body so solid that
you can touch it; only this is sometimes rather dangerous, as it is
still, in a sort of way, connected with the medium. I think that's the
idea."</p>
<p>"But what's the good of it all?"</p>
<p>"Well, you see, Mrs. Stapleton thinks that they really are souls from
the other world, and that they can tell us all kinds of things about
it all, and what's true, and so on."</p>
<p>"But you don't believe that?"</p>
<p>Maggie turned her large eyes on the old lady; and a spark of humor
rose and glimmered in them.</p>
<p>"Of course I don't," she said.</p>
<p>"Then how do you explain it?"</p>
<p>"I think it's probably all a fraud. But I really don't know. It
doesn't seem to me to matter much—"</p>
<p>"But if it should be true?"</p>
<p>Maggie raised her eyebrows, smiling.</p>
<p>"Dear auntie, do put it out of your head. How can it possibly be
true?"</p>
<p>Mrs. Baxter set her lips in as much severity as she could.</p>
<p>"I shall ask the Vicar," she said. "We might stop at the Vicarage on
the way back."</p>
<p>Mrs. Baxter did not often stop at the Vicarage; as she did not
altogether approve of the Vicar's wife. There was a good deal of pride
in the old lady, and it seemed to her occasionally as if Mrs. Rymer
did not understand the difference between the Hall and the Parsonage.
She envied sometimes, secretly, the Romanist idea of celibacy: it was
so much easier to get on with your spiritual adviser if you did not
have to consider his wife. But here, was a matter which a clergyman
must settle for her once and for all; so she put on a slight air of
dignity which became her very well, and a little after four o'clock
the Victoria turned up the steep little drive that led to the
Vicarage.</p>
<h2>III</h2>
<p>Thee dusk was already fallen before Laurie, strolling vaguely in the
garden, heard the carriage wheels draw up at the gate outside.</p>
<p>He had ridden again alone, and his mind had run, to a certain extent,
as might be expected, upon the recent guest and her very startling
conversation. He was an intelligent young man, and he had not been in
the least taken in by her pseudo-mystical remarks. Yet there had been
something in her extreme assurance that had affected him, as a man may
smile sourly at a good story in bad taste. His attitude, in fact, was
that of most Christians under the circumstances. He did not, for an
instant, believe that such things really and literally happened, and
yet it was difficult to advance any absolutely conclusive argument
against them. Merely, they had not come his way; they appeared to
conflict with experience, and they usually found as their advocates
such persons as Mrs. Stapleton.</p>
<p>Two things, however, prevailed to keep the matter before his mind.
The first was his own sense of loss, his own experience, sore and hot
within him, of the unapproachable emptiness of death; the second,
Maggie's attitude. When a plainly sensible and controlled young woman
takes up a position of superiority, she is apt, unless the young man
in her company happens to be in love with her—and sometimes even when
he is—to provoke and irritate him into a camp of opposition. She is
still more apt to do so if her relations to him have once been in the
line of even greater tenderness.</p>
<p>Laurie then was not in the most favorable of moods to receive the
dicta of the Vicar.</p>
<p>They were announced to him immediately after Mrs. Baxter had received
from Maggie's hands her first cup of tea.</p>
<p>"Mr. Rymer tells me it's all nonsense," she said.</p>
<p>Laurie looked up.</p>
<p>"What?" he said.</p>
<p>"Mr. Rymer tells me Spiritualism is all nonsense. He told me about
someone called Eglingham, who kept a beard in his portmanteau."</p>
<p>"Eglinton, I think, auntie," put in Maggie.</p>
<p>"I daresay, my dear. Anyhow, it's all the same. I felt sure it must be
so." Laurie took a bun, with a thoughtful air.</p>
<p>"Does Mr. Rymer know very much about it, do you think, mother?"</p>
<p>"Dear boy, I think he knows all that anyone need know. Besides, if you
come to think of it, how could Cardinal Newman possibly appear in a
drawing-room? Particularly when Mrs. Stapleton says he isn't a
Christian any longer."</p>
<p>This had a possible and rather pleasing double interpretation; but
Laurie decided it was not worth while to be humorous.</p>
<p>"What about the Witch of Endor?" he asked innocently, instead.</p>
<p>"That was in the Old Testament," answered his mother rapidly. "Mr.
Rymer said something about that too."</p>
<p>"Oh! wasn't it really Samuel who appeared?"</p>
<p>"Mr. Rymer thinks that things were permitted then that are not
permitted now."</p>
<p>Laurie drank up his cup of tea. It is a humiliating fact that extreme
grief often renders the mourner rather cross. There was a distinct air
of crossness about Laurie at this moment. His nerves were very near
the top.</p>
<p>"Well, that's very convenient," he said. "Maggie, do you know if
there's any book on Spiritualism in the house?"</p>
<p>The girl glanced uneasily near the fire-place.</p>
<p>"I don't know," she said. "Yes; I think there's something up there. I
believe I saw it the other day."</p>
<p>Laurie rose and stood opposite the shelves.</p>
<p>"What color is it? (No, no more tea, thanks.)"</p>
<p>"Er ... black and red, I think," said the girl. "I forget."</p>
<p>She looked up at him, faintly uneasy, as he very deliberately drew
down a book from the shelf and turned the pages.</p>
<p>"Yes ... this is it," he said. "Thanks very much.... No, really no
more tea, thanks, mother."</p>
<p>Then he went to the door, with his easy, rather long steps, and
disappeared. They heard his steps in the inner hall. Then a door
closed overhead.</p>
<p>Mrs. Baxter contentedly poured herself out another cup of tea.</p>
<p>"Poor boy," she said. "He's thinking of that girl still. I'm glad he's
got something to occupy his mind."</p>
<p>The end room, on the first floor, was Laurie's possession. It was a
big place, with two windows, and a large open fire, and he had
skillfully masked the fact that it was a bedroom by disposing his
furniture, with the help of a screen, in such a manner as completely
to hide the bed and the washing arrangements.</p>
<p>The rest of the room he had furnished in a pleasing male kind of
fashion, with a big couch drawn across the fire, a writing-table and
chairs, a deep easy chair near the door, and a long, high bookcase
covering the wall between the door and the windows. His college oar,
too, hung here, and there were pleasant groups and pictures scattered
on the other walls.</p>
<p>Maggie did not often come in here, except by invitation, but about
seven o'clock on this evening, half an hour before she had to go and
dress, she thought she would look in on him for a few minutes. She was
still a little uncomfortable; she did not quite know why: it was too
ridiculous, she told, herself, that a sensible boy like Laurie could
be seriously affected by what she considered the wicked nonsense of
Spiritualism.</p>
<p>Yet she went, telling herself that Laurie's grief was an excuse for
showing him a little marked friendliness. Besides, she would like to
ask him whether he was really going back to town on Thursday.</p>
<p>She tapped twice before an answer came; and then it seemed a rather
breathless voice which spoke.</p>
<p>The boy was sitting bolt upright on the edge of the sofa, with a
couple of candles at his side, and the book in his hands. There was a
strained and intensely interested look in his eyes.</p>
<p>"May I come in for a few minutes? It's nearly dressing time," she
said.</p>
<p>"Oh—er—certainly."</p>
<p>He got up, rather stiffly, still keeping his place in the book with
one finger, while she sat down. Then he too sat again, and there was
silence for a moment.</p>
<p>"Why, you're not smoking," she said.</p>
<p>"I forgot. I will now, if you don't mind!"</p>
<p>She saw his fingers tremble a little as he put out his hand to a box
of cigarettes at his side. But he put the book down, after looking at
the page.</p>
<p>She could keep her question in no longer.</p>
<p>"What do you think of that," she said, nodding at the book.</p>
<p>He filled his lungs with smoke and exhaled again slowly.</p>
<p>"I think it's extraordinary," he said shortly.</p>
<p>"In what way?"</p>
<p>Again he paused before answering. Then he answered deliberately.</p>
<p>"If human evidence is worth anything, those things happen," he said.</p>
<p>"What things?"</p>
<p>"The dead return."</p>
<p>Maggie looked at him, aware of his deliberate attempt at dramatic
brevity. He was watching the end of his cigarette with elaborate
attention, and his face had that white, rather determined look that
she had seen on it once or twice before, in the presence of a domestic
crisis.</p>
<p>"Do you really mean you believe that?" she said, with a touch of
careful bitterness in her voice.</p>
<p>"I do," he said, "or else—"</p>
<p>"Well?"</p>
<p>"Or else human evidence is worth nothing at all."</p>
<p>Maggie understood him perfectly; but she realized that this was not an
occasion to force issues. She still put the tone of faint irony into
her voice.</p>
<p>"You really believe that Cardinal Newman comes to Mr. Vincent's
drawing room and raps on tables?"</p>
<p>"I really believe that it is possible to get into touch with those
whom we call dead. Each instance, of course, depends on its own
evidence."</p>
<p>"And Cardinal Newman?"</p>
<p>"I have not studied the evidence for Cardinal Newman," remarked Laurie
in a head-voice.</p>
<p>"Let's have a look at that book," said Maggie impulsively.</p>
<p>He handed it to her; and she began to turn the pages, pausing now and
again to read a particular paragraph, and once for nearly a minute
while she examined an illustration. Certainly the book seemed
interestingly written, and she read an argument or two that appeared
reasonably presented. Yet she was extraordinarily repelled even by the
dead paper and ink she had in her hands. It was as if it was something
obscene. Finally she tossed it back on to the couch.</p>
<p>Laurie waited; but she said nothing.</p>
<p>"Well?" he asked at last, still refraining from looking at her.</p>
<p>"I think it's horrible," she said.</p>
<p>Laurie delicately adjusted a little tobacco protruding from his
cigarette.</p>
<p>"Isn't that a little unreasonable?" he asked. "You've hardly looked at
it yet."</p>
<p>Maggie knew this mood of his only too well. He reserved it for
occasions when he was determined to fight. Argument was a useless
weapon against it.</p>
<p>"My dear boy," she said with an effort, "I'm sorry. I daresay it is
unreasonable. But that kind of thing does seem to me so disgusting.
That's all.... I didn't come to talk about that.... Tell me—"</p>
<p>"Didn't you?" said Laurie.</p>
<p>Maggie was silent.</p>
<p>"Didn't you?"</p>
<p>"Well—yes I did. But I don't want to any more."</p>
<p>Laurie smiled so that it might be seen.</p>
<p>"Well, what else did you want to say?" He glanced purposely at the
book. Maggie ignored his glance.</p>
<p>"I just came to see how you were getting on."</p>
<p>"How do you mean? With the book?"</p>
<p>"No; in every way."</p>
<p>He looked up at her swiftly and suddenly, and she saw that his agony
of sorrow was acute beneath all his attempts at superiority, his
courteous fractiousness, and his set face. She was filled suddenly
with an enormous pity.</p>
<p>"Oh! Laurie, I'm so sorry," she cried out. "Can't I do anything?"</p>
<p>"Nothing, thanks; nothing at all," he said quietly.</p>
<p>Again pity and misery surged up within her, and she cast all prudence
to the winds. She had not realized how fond she was of this boy till
she saw once more that look in his eyes.</p>
<p>"Oh! Laurie, you know I didn't like it; but—but I don't know what to
do, I'm so sorry. But don't spoil it all," she said wildly, hardly
knowing what she feared.</p>
<p>"I beg your pardon?"</p>
<p>"You know what I mean. Don't spoil it, by—by fancying things."</p>
<p>"Maggie," said the boy quietly, "you must let me alone. You can't
help."</p>
<p>"Can't I?"</p>
<p>"You can't help," he repeated. "I must go my own way. Please don't say
any more. I can't stand it."</p>
<p>There followed a dead silence. Then Maggie recovered and stood up. He
rose with her.</p>
<p>"Forgive me, Laurie, won't you? I must say this. You'll remember I'll
always do anything I can, won't you?"</p>
<p>Then she was gone.</p>
<h2>IV</h2>
<p>The ladies went to bed early at Stantons. At ten o'clock precisely a
clinking of bedroom candlesticks was heard in the hall, followed by
the sound of locking doors. This was the signal. Mrs. Baxter laid
aside her embroidery with the punctuality of a religious at the sound
of a bell, and said two words—</p>
<p>"My dears."</p>
<p>There were occasionally exclamatory expostulations from the two at the
piquet-table, but in nine cases out of ten the game had been designed
with an eye upon the clock, and hardly any delay followed. Mrs. Baxter
kissed her son, and passed her arm through Maggie's. Laurie followed;
gave them candles, and generally took one himself.</p>
<p>But this evening there was no piquet. Laurie had stayed later than
usual in the dining-room, and had wandered rather restlessly about
when he had joined the others. He looked at a London evening paper for
a little, paced about, vanished again, and only returned as the ladies
were making ready to depart. Then he gave them their candlesticks, and
himself came back to the drawing room.</p>
<p>He was, in fact, in a far more perturbed and excited mood than even
Maggie had had any idea of. She had interrupted him half-way through
the book, but he had read again steadily until five minutes before
dinner, and had, indeed, gone back again to finish it afterwards. He
had now finished it; and he wanted to think.</p>
<p>It had had a surprising effect on him, coming as it did upon a state
of mind intensely stirred to its depths by his sorrow. Crossness, as I
have said, had been the natural psychological result of his emotions;
but his emotions were none the less real. The froth of whipped cream
is real cream, after all.</p>
<p>Now Laurie had seen perfectly well the extreme unconvincingness of
Mrs. Stapleton, and had been genuine enough in his little shrug of
disapproval in answer to Maggie's, after lunch; yet that lady's
remarks had been sufficient just to ignite the train of thought. This
train had smoldered in the afternoon, had been fanned ever so slightly
by two breezes—the sense of Maggie's superiority and the faint
rebellious reaction which had come upon him with regard to his
personal religion. Certainly he had had Mass said for Amy this
morning; but it had been by almost a superstitious rather than a
religious instinct. He was, in fact, in that state of religious
unreality which occasionally comes upon converts within a year or two
of the change of their faith. The impetus of old association is
absent, and the force of novelty has died.</p>
<p>Underneath all this then, it must be remembered that the one thing
that was intensely real to him was his sense of loss of the one soul
in whom his own had been wrapped up. Even this afternoon as yesterday,
even this morning as he lay awake, he had been conscious of an
irresistible impulse to demand some sign, to catch some glimpse of
that which was now denied to him.</p>
<p>It was in this mood that he had read the book; and it is not to be
wondered at that he had been excited by it.</p>
<p>For it opened up to him, beneath all its sham mysticism, its
intolerable affectations, its grotesque parody of spirituality—of all
of which he was largely aware—a glimmering avenue of a faintly
possible hope of which he had never dreamed—a hope, at least, of that
half self-deception which is so tempting to certain characters.</p>
<p>Here, in this book, written by a living man, whose name and address
were given, were stories so startling, and theories so apparently
consonant with themselves and with other partly known facts—stories
and theories, too, which met so precisely his own overmastering
desire, that it is little wonder that he was affected by them.</p>
<p>Naturally, even during his reading, a thousand answers and adverse
comments had sprung to his mind—suggestions of fraud, of lying, of
hallucination—but yet, here the possibility remained. Here were
living men and women who, with the usual complement of senses and
reason, declared categorically and in detail, that on this and that
date, in this place and the other, after having taken all possible
precautions against fraud, they had received messages from the
dead—messages of which the purport was understood by none but
themselves—that they had seen with their eyes, in sufficient light,
the actual features of the dead whom they loved, that they had even
clasped their hands, and held for an instant the bodies of those whom
they had seen die with their own eyes, and buried.</p>
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<p>When the ladies' footsteps had ceased to sound overhead, Laurie went
to the French window, opened it, and passed on to the lawn.</p>
<p>He was astonished at the warmth of the September night. The little
wind that had been chilly this afternoon had dropped with the coming
of the dark, and high overhead he could see the great masses of the
leaves motionless against the sky. He passed round the house, and
beneath the yews, and sat down on the garden bench.</p>
<p>It was darker here than outside on the lawn. Beneath his feet were the
soft needles from the trees, and above him, as he looked out, still
sunk in his thought, he could see the glimmer of a star or two between
the branches.</p>
<p>It was a fragrant, kindly night. From the hamlet of half a dozen
houses beyond the garden came no sound; and the house, too, was still
behind him. An illuminated window somewhere on the first floor went
out as he looked at it, like a soul leaving a body; once a sleepy bird
somewhere in the shrubbery chirped to its mate and was silent again.</p>
<p>Then as he still labored in argument, putting this against that, and
weighing that against the other, his emotion rose up in an
irresistible torrent, and all consideration ceased. One thing
remained: he must have Amy, or he must die.</p>
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<p>It was five or six minutes before he moved again from that attitude of
clenched hands and tensely strung muscles into which his sudden
passion had cast him.</p>
<p>During those minutes he had willed with his whole power that she
should come to him now and here, down in this warm and fragrant
darkness, hidden from all eyes—in this sweet silence, round which
sleep kept its guard. Such things had happened before; such things
must have happened, for the will and the love of man are the mightiest
forces in creation. Surely again and again it had happened; there must
be somewhere in the world man after man who had so called back the
dead—a husband sobbing silently in the dark, a child wailing for his
mother; surely that force had before, in the world's history, willed
back again from the mysterious dark of space the dear personality that
was all that even heaven could give, had even compelled into a
semblance of life some sort of body to clothe it in. These things must
have happened—only secrets had been well kept.</p>
<p>So this boy had willed it; yet the dark had remained empty; and no
shadow, no faintly outlined face, had even for an instant blotted out
the star on which he stared; no touch on his shoulder, no whisper in
his ear. It had seemed as he strove there, in the silence, that it
must be done; that there was no limit to power concentrated and
intense. Yet it had not happened....</p>
<p>Once he had shuddered a little; and the very shudder of fear had had
in it a touch of delicious, trembling expectation. Yet it had not
happened.</p>
<p>Laurie relaxed his muscles therefore, let his breath exhale in a long
sigh, and once more remembered the book he had read and Mrs.
Stapleton's feverish, self-conscious thought.</p>
<p>Half an hour later his mother, listening in her bed, heard his
footsteps pass her room.</p>
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