<h2><SPAN name="chap11"></SPAN>CHAPTER XI.</h2>
<p>For years, Dorian Gray could not free himself from the influence of this book.
Or perhaps it would be more accurate to say that he never sought to free
himself from it. He procured from Paris no less than nine large-paper copies of
the first edition, and had them bound in different colours, so that they might
suit his various moods and the changing fancies of a nature over which he
seemed, at times, to have almost entirely lost control. The hero, the wonderful
young Parisian in whom the romantic and the scientific temperaments were so
strangely blended, became to him a kind of prefiguring type of himself. And,
indeed, the whole book seemed to him to contain the story of his own life,
written before he had lived it.</p>
<p>In one point he was more fortunate than the novel’s fantastic hero. He
never knew—never, indeed, had any cause to know—that somewhat
grotesque dread of mirrors, and polished metal surfaces, and still water which
came upon the young Parisian so early in his life, and was occasioned by the
sudden decay of a beau that had once, apparently, been so remarkable. It was
with an almost cruel joy—and perhaps in nearly every joy, as certainly in
every pleasure, cruelty has its place—that he used to read the latter
part of the book, with its really tragic, if somewhat overemphasized, account
of the sorrow and despair of one who had himself lost what in others, and the
world, he had most dearly valued.</p>
<p>For the wonderful beauty that had so fascinated Basil Hallward, and many others
besides him, seemed never to leave him. Even those who had heard the most evil
things against him—and from time to time strange rumours about his mode
of life crept through London and became the chatter of the clubs—could
not believe anything to his dishonour when they saw him. He had always the look
of one who had kept himself unspotted from the world. Men who talked grossly
became silent when Dorian Gray entered the room. There was something in the
purity of his face that rebuked them. His mere presence seemed to recall to
them the memory of the innocence that they had tarnished. They wondered how one
so charming and graceful as he was could have escaped the stain of an age that
was at once sordid and sensual.</p>
<p>Often, on returning home from one of those mysterious and prolonged absences
that gave rise to such strange conjecture among those who were his friends, or
thought that they were so, he himself would creep upstairs to the locked room,
open the door with the key that never left him now, and stand, with a mirror,
in front of the portrait that Basil Hallward had painted of him, looking now at
the evil and aging face on the canvas, and now at the fair young face that
laughed back at him from the polished glass. The very sharpness of the contrast
used to quicken his sense of pleasure. He grew more and more enamoured of his
own beauty, more and more interested in the corruption of his own soul. He
would examine with minute care, and sometimes with a monstrous and terrible
delight, the hideous lines that seared the wrinkling forehead or crawled around
the heavy sensual mouth, wondering sometimes which were the more horrible, the
signs of sin or the signs of age. He would place his white hands beside the
coarse bloated hands of the picture, and smile. He mocked the misshapen body
and the failing limbs.</p>
<p>There were moments, indeed, at night, when, lying sleepless in his own
delicately scented chamber, or in the sordid room of the little ill-famed
tavern near the docks which, under an assumed name and in disguise, it was his
habit to frequent, he would think of the ruin he had brought upon his soul with
a pity that was all the more poignant because it was purely selfish. But
moments such as these were rare. That curiosity about life which Lord Henry had
first stirred in him, as they sat together in the garden of their friend,
seemed to increase with gratification. The more he knew, the more he desired to
know. He had mad hungers that grew more ravenous as he fed them.</p>
<p>Yet he was not really reckless, at any rate in his relations to society. Once
or twice every month during the winter, and on each Wednesday evening while the
season lasted, he would throw open to the world his beautiful house and have
the most celebrated musicians of the day to charm his guests with the wonders
of their art. His little dinners, in the settling of which Lord Henry always
assisted him, were noted as much for the careful selection and placing of those
invited, as for the exquisite taste shown in the decoration of the table, with
its subtle symphonic arrangements of exotic flowers, and embroidered cloths,
and antique plate of gold and silver. Indeed, there were many, especially among
the very young men, who saw, or fancied that they saw, in Dorian Gray the true
realization of a type of which they had often dreamed in Eton or Oxford days, a
type that was to combine something of the real culture of the scholar with all
the grace and distinction and perfect manner of a citizen of the world. To them
he seemed to be of the company of those whom Dante describes as having sought
to “make themselves perfect by the worship of beauty.” Like
Gautier, he was one for whom “the visible world existed.”</p>
<p>And, certainly, to him life itself was the first, the greatest, of the arts,
and for it all the other arts seemed to be but a preparation. Fashion, by which
what is really fantastic becomes for a moment universal, and dandyism, which,
in its own way, is an attempt to assert the absolute modernity of beauty, had,
of course, their fascination for him. His mode of dressing, and the particular
styles that from time to time he affected, had their marked influence on the
young exquisites of the Mayfair balls and Pall Mall club windows, who copied
him in everything that he did, and tried to reproduce the accidental charm of
his graceful, though to him only half-serious, fopperies.</p>
<p>For, while he was but too ready to accept the position that was almost
immediately offered to him on his coming of age, and found, indeed, a subtle
pleasure in the thought that he might really become to the London of his own
day what to imperial Neronian Rome the author of the Satyricon once had been,
yet in his inmost heart he desired to be something more than a mere <i>arbiter
elegantiarum</i>, to be consulted on the wearing of a jewel, or the knotting of
a necktie, or the conduct of a cane. He sought to elaborate some new scheme of
life that would have its reasoned philosophy and its ordered principles, and
find in the spiritualizing of the senses its highest realization.</p>
<p>The worship of the senses has often, and with much justice, been decried, men
feeling a natural instinct of terror about passions and sensations that seem
stronger than themselves, and that they are conscious of sharing with the less
highly organized forms of existence. But it appeared to Dorian Gray that the
true nature of the senses had never been understood, and that they had remained
savage and animal merely because the world had sought to starve them into
submission or to kill them by pain, instead of aiming at making them elements
of a new spirituality, of which a fine instinct for beauty was to be the
dominant characteristic. As he looked back upon man moving through history, he
was haunted by a feeling of loss. So much had been surrendered! and to such
little purpose! There had been mad wilful rejections, monstrous forms of
self-torture and self-denial, whose origin was fear and whose result was a
degradation infinitely more terrible than that fancied degradation from which,
in their ignorance, they had sought to escape; Nature, in her wonderful irony,
driving out the anchorite to feed with the wild animals of the desert and
giving to the hermit the beasts of the field as his companions.</p>
<p>Yes: there was to be, as Lord Henry had prophesied, a new Hedonism that was to
recreate life and to save it from that harsh uncomely puritanism that is
having, in our own day, its curious revival. It was to have its service of the
intellect, certainly, yet it was never to accept any theory or system that
would involve the sacrifice of any mode of passionate experience. Its aim,
indeed, was to be experience itself, and not the fruits of experience, sweet or
bitter as they might be. Of the asceticism that deadens the senses, as of the
vulgar profligacy that dulls them, it was to know nothing. But it was to teach
man to concentrate himself upon the moments of a life that is itself but a
moment.</p>
<p>There are few of us who have not sometimes wakened before dawn, either after
one of those dreamless nights that make us almost enamoured of death, or one of
those nights of horror and misshapen joy, when through the chambers of the
brain sweep phantoms more terrible than reality itself, and instinct with that
vivid life that lurks in all grotesques, and that lends to Gothic art its
enduring vitality, this art being, one might fancy, especially the art of those
whose minds have been troubled with the malady of reverie. Gradually white
fingers creep through the curtains, and they appear to tremble. In black
fantastic shapes, dumb shadows crawl into the corners of the room and crouch
there. Outside, there is the stirring of birds among the leaves, or the sound
of men going forth to their work, or the sigh and sob of the wind coming down
from the hills and wandering round the silent house, as though it feared to
wake the sleepers and yet must needs call forth sleep from her purple cave.
Veil after veil of thin dusky gauze is lifted, and by degrees the forms and
colours of things are restored to them, and we watch the dawn remaking the
world in its antique pattern. The wan mirrors get back their mimic life. The
flameless tapers stand where we had left them, and beside them lies the
half-cut book that we had been studying, or the wired flower that we had worn
at the ball, or the letter that we had been afraid to read, or that we had read
too often. Nothing seems to us changed. Out of the unreal shadows of the night
comes back the real life that we had known. We have to resume it where we had
left off, and there steals over us a terrible sense of the necessity for the
continuance of energy in the same wearisome round of stereotyped habits, or a
wild longing, it may be, that our eyelids might open some morning upon a world
that had been refashioned anew in the darkness for our pleasure, a world in
which things would have fresh shapes and colours, and be changed, or have other
secrets, a world in which the past would have little or no place, or survive,
at any rate, in no conscious form of obligation or regret, the remembrance even
of joy having its bitterness and the memories of pleasure their pain.</p>
<p>It was the creation of such worlds as these that seemed to Dorian Gray to be
the true object, or amongst the true objects, of life; and in his search for
sensations that would be at once new and delightful, and possess that element
of strangeness that is so essential to romance, he would often adopt certain
modes of thought that he knew to be really alien to his nature, abandon himself
to their subtle influences, and then, having, as it were, caught their colour
and satisfied his intellectual curiosity, leave them with that curious
indifference that is not incompatible with a real ardour of temperament, and
that, indeed, according to certain modern psychologists, is often a condition
of it.</p>
<p>It was rumoured of him once that he was about to join the Roman Catholic
communion, and certainly the Roman ritual had always a great attraction for
him. The daily sacrifice, more awful really than all the sacrifices of the
antique world, stirred him as much by its superb rejection of the evidence of
the senses as by the primitive simplicity of its elements and the eternal
pathos of the human tragedy that it sought to symbolize. He loved to kneel down
on the cold marble pavement and watch the priest, in his stiff flowered
dalmatic, slowly and with white hands moving aside the veil of the tabernacle,
or raising aloft the jewelled, lantern-shaped monstrance with that pallid wafer
that at times, one would fain think, is indeed the “<i>panis
cælestis</i>,” the bread of angels, or, robed in the garments of the
Passion of Christ, breaking the Host into the chalice and smiting his breast
for his sins. The fuming censers that the grave boys, in their lace and
scarlet, tossed into the air like great gilt flowers had their subtle
fascination for him. As he passed out, he used to look with wonder at the black
confessionals and long to sit in the dim shadow of one of them and listen to
men and women whispering through the worn grating the true story of their
lives.</p>
<p>But he never fell into the error of arresting his intellectual development by
any formal acceptance of creed or system, or of mistaking, for a house in which
to live, an inn that is but suitable for the sojourn of a night, or for a few
hours of a night in which there are no stars and the moon is in travail.
Mysticism, with its marvellous power of making common things strange to us, and
the subtle antinomianism that always seems to accompany it, moved him for a
season; and for a season he inclined to the materialistic doctrines of the
<i>Darwinismus</i> movement in Germany, and found a curious pleasure in tracing
the thoughts and passions of men to some pearly cell in the brain, or some
white nerve in the body, delighting in the conception of the absolute
dependence of the spirit on certain physical conditions, morbid or healthy,
normal or diseased. Yet, as has been said of him before, no theory of life
seemed to him to be of any importance compared with life itself. He felt keenly
conscious of how barren all intellectual speculation is when separated from
action and experiment. He knew that the senses, no less than the soul, have
their spiritual mysteries to reveal.</p>
<p>And so he would now study perfumes and the secrets of their manufacture,
distilling heavily scented oils and burning odorous gums from the East. He saw
that there was no mood of the mind that had not its counterpart in the sensuous
life, and set himself to discover their true relations, wondering what there
was in frankincense that made one mystical, and in ambergris that stirred
one’s passions, and in violets that woke the memory of dead romances, and
in musk that troubled the brain, and in champak that stained the imagination;
and seeking often to elaborate a real psychology of perfumes, and to estimate
the several influences of sweet-smelling roots and scented, pollen-laden
flowers; of aromatic balms and of dark and fragrant woods; of spikenard, that
sickens; of hovenia, that makes men mad; and of aloes, that are said to be able
to expel melancholy from the soul.</p>
<p>At another time he devoted himself entirely to music, and in a long latticed
room, with a vermilion-and-gold ceiling and walls of olive-green lacquer, he
used to give curious concerts in which mad gipsies tore wild music from little
zithers, or grave, yellow-shawled Tunisians plucked at the strained strings of
monstrous lutes, while grinning Negroes beat monotonously upon copper drums
and, crouching upon scarlet mats, slim turbaned Indians blew through long pipes
of reed or brass and charmed—or feigned to charm—great hooded
snakes and horrible horned adders. The harsh intervals and shrill discords of
barbaric music stirred him at times when Schubert’s grace, and
Chopin’s beautiful sorrows, and the mighty harmonies of Beethoven
himself, fell unheeded on his ear. He collected together from all parts of the
world the strangest instruments that could be found, either in the tombs of
dead nations or among the few savage tribes that have survived contact with
Western civilizations, and loved to touch and try them. He had the mysterious
<i>juruparis</i> of the Rio Negro Indians, that women are not allowed to look
at and that even youths may not see till they have been subjected to fasting
and scourging, and the earthen jars of the Peruvians that have the shrill cries
of birds, and flutes of human bones such as Alfonso de Ovalle heard in Chile,
and the sonorous green jaspers that are found near Cuzco and give forth a note
of singular sweetness. He had painted gourds filled with pebbles that rattled
when they were shaken; the long <i>clarin</i> of the Mexicans, into which the
performer does not blow, but through which he inhales the air; the harsh
<i>ture</i> of the Amazon tribes, that is sounded by the sentinels who sit all
day long in high trees, and can be heard, it is said, at a distance of three
leagues; the <i>teponaztli</i>, that has two vibrating tongues of wood and is
beaten with sticks that are smeared with an elastic gum obtained from the milky
juice of plants; the <i>yotl</i>-bells of the Aztecs, that are hung in clusters
like grapes; and a huge cylindrical drum, covered with the skins of great
serpents, like the one that Bernal Diaz saw when he went with Cortes into the
Mexican temple, and of whose doleful sound he has left us so vivid a
description. The fantastic character of these instruments fascinated him, and
he felt a curious delight in the thought that art, like Nature, has her
monsters, things of bestial shape and with hideous voices. Yet, after some
time, he wearied of them, and would sit in his box at the opera, either alone
or with Lord Henry, listening in rapt pleasure to “Tannhauser” and
seeing in the prelude to that great work of art a presentation of the tragedy
of his own soul.</p>
<p>On one occasion he took up the study of jewels, and appeared at a costume ball
as Anne de Joyeuse, Admiral of France, in a dress covered with five hundred and
sixty pearls. This taste enthralled him for years, and, indeed, may be said
never to have left him. He would often spend a whole day settling and
resettling in their cases the various stones that he had collected, such as the
olive-green chrysoberyl that turns red by lamplight, the cymophane with its
wirelike line of silver, the pistachio-coloured peridot, rose-pink and
wine-yellow topazes, carbuncles of fiery scarlet with tremulous, four-rayed
stars, flame-red cinnamon-stones, orange and violet spinels, and amethysts with
their alternate layers of ruby and sapphire. He loved the red gold of the
sunstone, and the moonstone’s pearly whiteness, and the broken rainbow of
the milky opal. He procured from Amsterdam three emeralds of extraordinary size
and richness of colour, and had a turquoise <i>de la vieille roche</i> that was
the envy of all the connoisseurs.</p>
<p>He discovered wonderful stories, also, about jewels. In Alphonso’s
Clericalis Disciplina a serpent was mentioned with eyes of real jacinth, and in
the romantic history of Alexander, the Conqueror of Emathia was said to have
found in the vale of Jordan snakes “with collars of real emeralds growing
on their backs.” There was a gem in the brain of the dragon, Philostratus
told us, and “by the exhibition of golden letters and a scarlet
robe” the monster could be thrown into a magical sleep and slain.
According to the great alchemist, Pierre de Boniface, the diamond rendered a
man invisible, and the agate of India made him eloquent. The cornelian appeased
anger, and the hyacinth provoked sleep, and the amethyst drove away the fumes
of wine. The garnet cast out demons, and the hydropicus deprived the moon of
her colour. The selenite waxed and waned with the moon, and the meloceus, that
discovers thieves, could be affected only by the blood of kids. Leonardus
Camillus had seen a white stone taken from the brain of a newly killed toad,
that was a certain antidote against poison. The bezoar, that was found in the
heart of the Arabian deer, was a charm that could cure the plague. In the nests
of Arabian birds was the aspilates, that, according to Democritus, kept the
wearer from any danger by fire.</p>
<p>The King of Ceilan rode through his city with a large ruby in his hand, as the
ceremony of his coronation. The gates of the palace of John the Priest were
“made of sardius, with the horn of the horned snake inwrought, so that no
man might bring poison within.” Over the gable were “two golden
apples, in which were two carbuncles,” so that the gold might shine by
day and the carbuncles by night. In Lodge’s strange romance ‘A
Margarite of America’, it was stated that in the chamber of the queen one
could behold “all the chaste ladies of the world, inchased out of silver,
looking through fair mirrours of chrysolites, carbuncles, sapphires, and greene
emeraults.” Marco Polo had seen the inhabitants of Zipangu place
rose-coloured pearls in the mouths of the dead. A sea-monster had been
enamoured of the pearl that the diver brought to King Perozes, and had slain
the thief, and mourned for seven moons over its loss. When the Huns lured the
king into the great pit, he flung it away—Procopius tells the
story—nor was it ever found again, though the Emperor Anastasius offered
five hundred-weight of gold pieces for it. The King of Malabar had shown to a
certain Venetian a rosary of three hundred and four pearls, one for every god
that he worshipped.</p>
<p>When the Duke de Valentinois, son of Alexander VI., visited Louis XII. of
France, his horse was loaded with gold leaves, according to Brantome, and his
cap had double rows of rubies that threw out a great light. Charles of England
had ridden in stirrups hung with four hundred and twenty-one diamonds. Richard
II had a coat, valued at thirty thousand marks, which was covered with balas
rubies. Hall described Henry VIII., on his way to the Tower previous to his
coronation, as wearing “a jacket of raised gold, the placard embroidered
with diamonds and other rich stones, and a great bauderike about his neck of
large balasses.” The favourites of James I wore ear-rings of emeralds set
in gold filigrane. Edward II gave to Piers Gaveston a suit of red-gold armour
studded with jacinths, a collar of gold roses set with turquoise-stones, and a
skull-cap <i>parsemé</i> with pearls. Henry II. wore jewelled gloves reaching
to the elbow, and had a hawk-glove sewn with twelve rubies and fifty-two great
orients. The ducal hat of Charles the Rash, the last Duke of Burgundy of his
race, was hung with pear-shaped pearls and studded with sapphires.</p>
<p>How exquisite life had once been! How gorgeous in its pomp and decoration! Even
to read of the luxury of the dead was wonderful.</p>
<p>Then he turned his attention to embroideries and to the tapestries that
performed the office of frescoes in the chill rooms of the northern nations of
Europe. As he investigated the subject—and he always had an extraordinary
faculty of becoming absolutely absorbed for the moment in whatever he took
up—he was almost saddened by the reflection of the ruin that time brought
on beautiful and wonderful things. He, at any rate, had escaped that. Summer
followed summer, and the yellow jonquils bloomed and died many times, and
nights of horror repeated the story of their shame, but he was unchanged. No
winter marred his face or stained his flowerlike bloom. How different it was
with material things! Where had they passed to? Where was the great
crocus-coloured robe, on which the gods fought against the giants, that had
been worked by brown girls for the pleasure of Athena? Where the huge velarium
that Nero had stretched across the Colosseum at Rome, that Titan sail of purple
on which was represented the starry sky, and Apollo driving a chariot drawn by
white, gilt-reined steeds? He longed to see the curious table-napkins wrought
for the Priest of the Sun, on which were displayed all the dainties and viands
that could be wanted for a feast; the mortuary cloth of King Chilperic, with
its three hundred golden bees; the fantastic robes that excited the indignation
of the Bishop of Pontus and were figured with “lions, panthers, bears,
dogs, forests, rocks, hunters—all, in fact, that a painter can copy from
nature”; and the coat that Charles of Orleans once wore, on the sleeves
of which were embroidered the verses of a song beginning “<i>Madame, je
suis tout joyeux</i>,” the musical accompaniment of the words being
wrought in gold thread, and each note, of square shape in those days, formed
with four pearls. He read of the room that was prepared at the palace at Rheims
for the use of Queen Joan of Burgundy and was decorated with “thirteen
hundred and twenty-one parrots, made in broidery, and blazoned with the
king’s arms, and five hundred and sixty-one butterflies, whose wings were
similarly ornamented with the arms of the queen, the whole worked in
gold.” Catherine de Medicis had a mourning-bed made for her of black
velvet powdered with crescents and suns. Its curtains were of damask, with
leafy wreaths and garlands, figured upon a gold and silver ground, and fringed
along the edges with broideries of pearls, and it stood in a room hung with
rows of the queen’s devices in cut black velvet upon cloth of silver.
Louis XIV. had gold embroidered caryatides fifteen feet high in his apartment.
The state bed of Sobieski, King of Poland, was made of Smyrna gold brocade
embroidered in turquoises with verses from the Koran. Its supports were of
silver gilt, beautifully chased, and profusely set with enamelled and jewelled
medallions. It had been taken from the Turkish camp before Vienna, and the
standard of Mohammed had stood beneath the tremulous gilt of its canopy.</p>
<p>And so, for a whole year, he sought to accumulate the most exquisite specimens
that he could find of textile and embroidered work, getting the dainty Delhi
muslins, finely wrought with gold-thread palmates and stitched over with
iridescent beetles’ wings; the Dacca gauzes, that from their transparency
are known in the East as “woven air,” and “running
water,” and “evening dew”; strange figured cloths from Java;
elaborate yellow Chinese hangings; books bound in tawny satins or fair blue
silks and wrought with <i>fleurs-de-lis</i>, birds and images; veils of
<i>lacis</i> worked in Hungary point; Sicilian brocades and stiff Spanish
velvets; Georgian work, with its gilt coins, and Japanese <i>Foukousas</i>,
with their green-toned golds and their marvellously plumaged birds.</p>
<p>He had a special passion, also, for ecclesiastical vestments, as indeed he had
for everything connected with the service of the Church. In the long cedar
chests that lined the west gallery of his house, he had stored away many rare
and beautiful specimens of what is really the raiment of the Bride of Christ,
who must wear purple and jewels and fine linen that she may hide the pallid
macerated body that is worn by the suffering that she seeks for and wounded by
self-inflicted pain. He possessed a gorgeous cope of crimson silk and
gold-thread damask, figured with a repeating pattern of golden pomegranates set
in six-petalled formal blossoms, beyond which on either side was the pine-apple
device wrought in seed-pearls. The orphreys were divided into panels
representing scenes from the life of the Virgin, and the coronation of the
Virgin was figured in coloured silks upon the hood. This was Italian work of
the fifteenth century. Another cope was of green velvet, embroidered with
heart-shaped groups of acanthus-leaves, from which spread long-stemmed white
blossoms, the details of which were picked out with silver thread and coloured
crystals. The morse bore a seraph’s head in gold-thread raised work. The
orphreys were woven in a diaper of red and gold silk, and were starred with
medallions of many saints and martyrs, among whom was St. Sebastian. He had
chasubles, also, of amber-coloured silk, and blue silk and gold brocade, and
yellow silk damask and cloth of gold, figured with representations of the
Passion and Crucifixion of Christ, and embroidered with lions and peacocks and
other emblems; dalmatics of white satin and pink silk damask, decorated with
tulips and dolphins and <i>fleurs-de-lis</i>; altar frontals of crimson velvet
and blue linen; and many corporals, chalice-veils, and sudaria. In the mystic
offices to which such things were put, there was something that quickened his
imagination.</p>
<p>For these treasures, and everything that he collected in his lovely house, were
to be to him means of forgetfulness, modes by which he could escape, for a
season, from the fear that seemed to him at times to be almost too great to be
borne. Upon the walls of the lonely locked room where he had spent so much of
his boyhood, he had hung with his own hands the terrible portrait whose
changing features showed him the real degradation of his life, and in front of
it had draped the purple-and-gold pall as a curtain. For weeks he would not go
there, would forget the hideous painted thing, and get back his light heart,
his wonderful joyousness, his passionate absorption in mere existence. Then,
suddenly, some night he would creep out of the house, go down to dreadful
places near Blue Gate Fields, and stay there, day after day, until he was
driven away. On his return he would sit in front of the picture, sometimes
loathing it and himself, but filled, at other times, with that pride of
individualism that is half the fascination of sin, and smiling with secret
pleasure at the misshapen shadow that had to bear the burden that should have
been his own.</p>
<p>After a few years he could not endure to be long out of England, and gave up
the villa that he had shared at Trouville with Lord Henry, as well as the
little white walled-in house at Algiers where they had more than once spent the
winter. He hated to be separated from the picture that was such a part of his
life, and was also afraid that during his absence some one might gain access to
the room, in spite of the elaborate bars that he had caused to be placed upon
the door.</p>
<p>He was quite conscious that this would tell them nothing. It was true that the
portrait still preserved, under all the foulness and ugliness of the face, its
marked likeness to himself; but what could they learn from that? He would laugh
at any one who tried to taunt him. He had not painted it. What was it to him
how vile and full of shame it looked? Even if he told them, would they believe
it?</p>
<p>Yet he was afraid. Sometimes when he was down at his great house in
Nottinghamshire, entertaining the fashionable young men of his own rank who
were his chief companions, and astounding the county by the wanton luxury and
gorgeous splendour of his mode of life, he would suddenly leave his guests and
rush back to town to see that the door had not been tampered with and that the
picture was still there. What if it should be stolen? The mere thought made him
cold with horror. Surely the world would know his secret then. Perhaps the
world already suspected it.</p>
<p>For, while he fascinated many, there were not a few who distrusted him. He was
very nearly blackballed at a West End club of which his birth and social
position fully entitled him to become a member, and it was said that on one
occasion, when he was brought by a friend into the smoking-room of the
Churchill, the Duke of Berwick and another gentleman got up in a marked manner
and went out. Curious stories became current about him after he had passed his
twenty-fifth year. It was rumoured that he had been seen brawling with foreign
sailors in a low den in the distant parts of Whitechapel, and that he consorted
with thieves and coiners and knew the mysteries of their trade. His
extraordinary absences became notorious, and, when he used to reappear again in
society, men would whisper to each other in corners, or pass him with a sneer,
or look at him with cold searching eyes, as though they were determined to
discover his secret.</p>
<p>Of such insolences and attempted slights he, of course, took no notice, and in
the opinion of most people his frank debonair manner, his charming boyish
smile, and the infinite grace of that wonderful youth that seemed never to
leave him, were in themselves a sufficient answer to the calumnies, for so they
termed them, that were circulated about him. It was remarked, however, that
some of those who had been most intimate with him appeared, after a time, to
shun him. Women who had wildly adored him, and for his sake had braved all
social censure and set convention at defiance, were seen to grow pallid with
shame or horror if Dorian Gray entered the room.</p>
<p>Yet these whispered scandals only increased in the eyes of many his strange and
dangerous charm. His great wealth was a certain element of security.
Society—civilized society, at least—is never very ready to believe
anything to the detriment of those who are both rich and fascinating. It feels
instinctively that manners are of more importance than morals, and, in its
opinion, the highest respectability is of much less value than the possession
of a good <i>chef</i>. And, after all, it is a very poor consolation to be told
that the man who has given one a bad dinner, or poor wine, is irreproachable in
his private life. Even the cardinal virtues cannot atone for half-cold
<i>entrées</i>, as Lord Henry remarked once, in a discussion on the subject,
and there is possibly a good deal to be said for his view. For the canons of
good society are, or should be, the same as the canons of art. Form is
absolutely essential to it. It should have the dignity of a ceremony, as well
as its unreality, and should combine the insincere character of a romantic play
with the wit and beauty that make such plays delightful to us. Is insincerity
such a terrible thing? I think not. It is merely a method by which we can
multiply our personalities.</p>
<p>Such, at any rate, was Dorian Gray’s opinion. He used to wonder at the
shallow psychology of those who conceive the ego in man as a thing simple,
permanent, reliable, and of one essence. To him, man was a being with myriad
lives and myriad sensations, a complex multiform creature that bore within
itself strange legacies of thought and passion, and whose very flesh was
tainted with the monstrous maladies of the dead. He loved to stroll through the
gaunt cold picture-gallery of his country house and look at the various
portraits of those whose blood flowed in his veins. Here was Philip Herbert,
described by Francis Osborne, in his Memoires on the Reigns of Queen Elizabeth
and King James, as one who was “caressed by the Court for his handsome
face, which kept him not long company.” Was it young Herbert’s life
that he sometimes led? Had some strange poisonous germ crept from body to body
till it had reached his own? Was it some dim sense of that ruined grace that
had made him so suddenly, and almost without cause, give utterance, in Basil
Hallward’s studio, to the mad prayer that had so changed his life? Here,
in gold-embroidered red doublet, jewelled surcoat, and gilt-edged ruff and
wristbands, stood Sir Anthony Sherard, with his silver-and-black armour piled
at his feet. What had this man’s legacy been? Had the lover of Giovanna
of Naples bequeathed him some inheritance of sin and shame? Were his own
actions merely the dreams that the dead man had not dared to realize? Here,
from the fading canvas, smiled Lady Elizabeth Devereux, in her gauze hood,
pearl stomacher, and pink slashed sleeves. A flower was in her right hand, and
her left clasped an enamelled collar of white and damask roses. On a table by
her side lay a mandolin and an apple. There were large green rosettes upon her
little pointed shoes. He knew her life, and the strange stories that were told
about her lovers. Had he something of her temperament in him? These oval,
heavy-lidded eyes seemed to look curiously at him. What of George Willoughby,
with his powdered hair and fantastic patches? How evil he looked! The face was
saturnine and swarthy, and the sensual lips seemed to be twisted with disdain.
Delicate lace ruffles fell over the lean yellow hands that were so overladen
with rings. He had been a macaroni of the eighteenth century, and the friend,
in his youth, of Lord Ferrars. What of the second Lord Beckenham, the companion
of the Prince Regent in his wildest days, and one of the witnesses at the
secret marriage with Mrs. Fitzherbert? How proud and handsome he was, with his
chestnut curls and insolent pose! What passions had he bequeathed? The world
had looked upon him as infamous. He had led the orgies at Carlton House. The
star of the Garter glittered upon his breast. Beside him hung the portrait of
his wife, a pallid, thin-lipped woman in black. Her blood, also, stirred within
him. How curious it all seemed! And his mother with her Lady Hamilton face and
her moist, wine-dashed lips—he knew what he had got from her. He had got
from her his beauty, and his passion for the beauty of others. She laughed at
him in her loose Bacchante dress. There were vine leaves in her hair. The
purple spilled from the cup she was holding. The carnations of the painting had
withered, but the eyes were still wonderful in their depth and brilliancy of
colour. They seemed to follow him wherever he went.</p>
<p>Yet one had ancestors in literature as well as in one’s own race, nearer
perhaps in type and temperament, many of them, and certainly with an influence
of which one was more absolutely conscious. There were times when it appeared
to Dorian Gray that the whole of history was merely the record of his own life,
not as he had lived it in act and circumstance, but as his imagination had
created it for him, as it had been in his brain and in his passions. He felt
that he had known them all, those strange terrible figures that had passed
across the stage of the world and made sin so marvellous and evil so full of
subtlety. It seemed to him that in some mysterious way their lives had been his
own.</p>
<p>The hero of the wonderful novel that had so influenced his life had himself
known this curious fancy. In the seventh chapter he tells how, crowned with
laurel, lest lightning might strike him, he had sat, as Tiberius, in a garden
at Capri, reading the shameful books of Elephantis, while dwarfs and peacocks
strutted round him and the flute-player mocked the swinger of the censer; and,
as Caligula, had caroused with the green-shirted jockeys in their stables and
supped in an ivory manger with a jewel-frontleted horse; and, as Domitian, had
wandered through a corridor lined with marble mirrors, looking round with
haggard eyes for the reflection of the dagger that was to end his days, and
sick with that ennui, that terrible <i>tædium vitæ</i>, that comes on those
to whom life denies nothing; and had peered through a clear emerald at the red
shambles of the circus and then, in a litter of pearl and purple drawn by
silver-shod mules, been carried through the Street of Pomegranates to a House
of Gold and heard men cry on Nero Caesar as he passed by; and, as Elagabalus,
had painted his face with colours, and plied the distaff among the women, and
brought the Moon from Carthage and given her in mystic marriage to the Sun.</p>
<p>Over and over again Dorian used to read this fantastic chapter, and the two
chapters immediately following, in which, as in some curious tapestries or
cunningly wrought enamels, were pictured the awful and beautiful forms of those
whom vice and blood and weariness had made monstrous or mad: Filippo, Duke of
Milan, who slew his wife and painted her lips with a scarlet poison that her
lover might suck death from the dead thing he fondled; Pietro Barbi, the
Venetian, known as Paul the Second, who sought in his vanity to assume the
title of Formosus, and whose tiara, valued at two hundred thousand florins, was
bought at the price of a terrible sin; Gian Maria Visconti, who used hounds to
chase living men and whose murdered body was covered with roses by a harlot who
had loved him; the Borgia on his white horse, with Fratricide riding beside him
and his mantle stained with the blood of Perotto; Pietro Riario, the young
Cardinal Archbishop of Florence, child and minion of Sixtus IV., whose beauty
was equalled only by his debauchery, and who received Leonora of Aragon in a
pavilion of white and crimson silk, filled with nymphs and centaurs, and gilded
a boy that he might serve at the feast as Ganymede or Hylas; Ezzelin, whose
melancholy could be cured only by the spectacle of death, and who had a passion
for red blood, as other men have for red wine—the son of the Fiend, as
was reported, and one who had cheated his father at dice when gambling with him
for his own soul; Giambattista Cibo, who in mockery took the name of Innocent
and into whose torpid veins the blood of three lads was infused by a Jewish
doctor; Sigismondo Malatesta, the lover of Isotta and the lord of Rimini, whose
effigy was burned at Rome as the enemy of God and man, who strangled Polyssena
with a napkin, and gave poison to Ginevra d’Este in a cup of emerald, and
in honour of a shameful passion built a pagan church for Christian worship;
Charles VI., who had so wildly adored his brother’s wife that a leper had
warned him of the insanity that was coming on him, and who, when his brain had
sickened and grown strange, could only be soothed by Saracen cards painted with
the images of love and death and madness; and, in his trimmed jerkin and
jewelled cap and acanthuslike curls, Grifonetto Baglioni, who slew Astorre with
his bride, and Simonetto with his page, and whose comeliness was such that, as
he lay dying in the yellow piazza of Perugia, those who had hated him could not
choose but weep, and Atalanta, who had cursed him, blessed him.</p>
<p>There was a horrible fascination in them all. He saw them at night, and they
troubled his imagination in the day. The Renaissance knew of strange manners of
poisoning—poisoning by a helmet and a lighted torch, by an embroidered
glove and a jewelled fan, by a gilded pomander and by an amber chain. Dorian
Gray had been poisoned by a book. There were moments when he looked on evil
simply as a mode through which he could realize his conception of the
beautiful.</p>
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