<h2><SPAN name="chap09"></SPAN>CHAPTER IX.</h2>
<p>As he was sitting at breakfast next morning, Basil Hallward was shown into the
room.</p>
<p>“I am so glad I have found you, Dorian,” he said gravely. “I
called last night, and they told me you were at the opera. Of course, I knew
that was impossible. But I wish you had left word where you had really gone to.
I passed a dreadful evening, half afraid that one tragedy might be followed by
another. I think you might have telegraphed for me when you heard of it first.
I read of it quite by chance in a late edition of <i>The Globe</i> that I
picked up at the club. I came here at once and was miserable at not finding
you. I can’t tell you how heart-broken I am about the whole thing. I know
what you must suffer. But where were you? Did you go down and see the
girl’s mother? For a moment I thought of following you there. They gave
the address in the paper. Somewhere in the Euston Road, isn’t it? But I
was afraid of intruding upon a sorrow that I could not lighten. Poor woman!
What a state she must be in! And her only child, too! What did she say about it
all?”</p>
<p>“My dear Basil, how do I know?” murmured Dorian Gray, sipping some
pale-yellow wine from a delicate, gold-beaded bubble of Venetian glass and
looking dreadfully bored. “I was at the opera. You should have come on
there. I met Lady Gwendolen, Harry’s sister, for the first time. We were
in her box. She is perfectly charming; and Patti sang divinely. Don’t
talk about horrid subjects. If one doesn’t talk about a thing, it has
never happened. It is simply expression, as Harry says, that gives reality to
things. I may mention that she was not the woman’s only child. There is a
son, a charming fellow, I believe. But he is not on the stage. He is a sailor,
or something. And now, tell me about yourself and what you are painting.”</p>
<p>“You went to the opera?” said Hallward, speaking very slowly and
with a strained touch of pain in his voice. “You went to the opera while
Sibyl Vane was lying dead in some sordid lodging? You can talk to me of other
women being charming, and of Patti singing divinely, before the girl you loved
has even the quiet of a grave to sleep in? Why, man, there are horrors in store
for that little white body of hers!”</p>
<p>“Stop, Basil! I won’t hear it!” cried Dorian, leaping to his
feet. “You must not tell me about things. What is done is done. What is
past is past.”</p>
<p>“You call yesterday the past?”</p>
<p>“What has the actual lapse of time got to do with it? It is only shallow
people who require years to get rid of an emotion. A man who is master of
himself can end a sorrow as easily as he can invent a pleasure. I don’t
want to be at the mercy of my emotions. I want to use them, to enjoy them, and
to dominate them.”</p>
<p>“Dorian, this is horrible! Something has changed you completely. You look
exactly the same wonderful boy who, day after day, used to come down to my
studio to sit for his picture. But you were simple, natural, and affectionate
then. You were the most unspoiled creature in the whole world. Now, I
don’t know what has come over you. You talk as if you had no heart, no
pity in you. It is all Harry’s influence. I see that.”</p>
<p>The lad flushed up and, going to the window, looked out for a few moments on
the green, flickering, sun-lashed garden. “I owe a great deal to Harry,
Basil,” he said at last, “more than I owe to you. You only taught
me to be vain.”</p>
<p>“Well, I am punished for that, Dorian—or shall be some day.”</p>
<p>“I don’t know what you mean, Basil,” he exclaimed, turning
round. “I don’t know what you want. What do you want?”</p>
<p>“I want the Dorian Gray I used to paint,” said the artist sadly.</p>
<p>“Basil,” said the lad, going over to him and putting his hand on
his shoulder, “you have come too late. Yesterday, when I heard that Sibyl
Vane had killed herself—”</p>
<p>“Killed herself! Good heavens! is there no doubt about that?” cried
Hallward, looking up at him with an expression of horror.</p>
<p>“My dear Basil! Surely you don’t think it was a vulgar accident? Of
course she killed herself.”</p>
<p>The elder man buried his face in his hands. “How fearful,” he
muttered, and a shudder ran through him.</p>
<p>“No,” said Dorian Gray, “there is nothing fearful about it.
It is one of the great romantic tragedies of the age. As a rule, people who act
lead the most commonplace lives. They are good husbands, or faithful wives, or
something tedious. You know what I mean—middle-class virtue and all that
kind of thing. How different Sibyl was! She lived her finest tragedy. She was
always a heroine. The last night she played—the night you saw
her—she acted badly because she had known the reality of love. When she
knew its unreality, she died, as Juliet might have died. She passed again into
the sphere of art. There is something of the martyr about her. Her death has
all the pathetic uselessness of martyrdom, all its wasted beauty. But, as I was
saying, you must not think I have not suffered. If you had come in yesterday at
a particular moment—about half-past five, perhaps, or a quarter to
six—you would have found me in tears. Even Harry, who was here, who
brought me the news, in fact, had no idea what I was going through. I suffered
immensely. Then it passed away. I cannot repeat an emotion. No one can, except
sentimentalists. And you are awfully unjust, Basil. You come down here to
console me. That is charming of you. You find me consoled, and you are furious.
How like a sympathetic person! You remind me of a story Harry told me about a
certain philanthropist who spent twenty years of his life in trying to get some
grievance redressed, or some unjust law altered—I forget exactly what it
was. Finally he succeeded, and nothing could exceed his disappointment. He had
absolutely nothing to do, almost died of <i>ennui</i>, and became a confirmed
misanthrope. And besides, my dear old Basil, if you really want to console me,
teach me rather to forget what has happened, or to see it from a proper
artistic point of view. Was it not Gautier who used to write about <i>la
consolation des arts</i>? I remember picking up a little vellum-covered book in
your studio one day and chancing on that delightful phrase. Well, I am not like
that young man you told me of when we were down at Marlow together, the young
man who used to say that yellow satin could console one for all the miseries of
life. I love beautiful things that one can touch and handle. Old brocades,
green bronzes, lacquer-work, carved ivories, exquisite surroundings, luxury,
pomp—there is much to be got from all these. But the artistic temperament
that they create, or at any rate reveal, is still more to me. To become the
spectator of one’s own life, as Harry says, is to escape the suffering of
life. I know you are surprised at my talking to you like this. You have not
realized how I have developed. I was a schoolboy when you knew me. I am a man
now. I have new passions, new thoughts, new ideas. I am different, but you must
not like me less. I am changed, but you must always be my friend. Of course, I
am very fond of Harry. But I know that you are better than he is. You are not
stronger—you are too much afraid of life—but you are better. And
how happy we used to be together! Don’t leave me, Basil, and don’t
quarrel with me. I am what I am. There is nothing more to be said.”</p>
<p>The painter felt strangely moved. The lad was infinitely dear to him, and his
personality had been the great turning point in his art. He could not bear the
idea of reproaching him any more. After all, his indifference was probably
merely a mood that would pass away. There was so much in him that was good, so
much in him that was noble.</p>
<p>“Well, Dorian,” he said at length, with a sad smile, “I
won’t speak to you again about this horrible thing, after to-day. I only
trust your name won’t be mentioned in connection with it. The inquest is
to take place this afternoon. Have they summoned you?”</p>
<p>Dorian shook his head, and a look of annoyance passed over his face at the
mention of the word “inquest.” There was something so crude and
vulgar about everything of the kind. “They don’t know my
name,” he answered.</p>
<p>“But surely she did?”</p>
<p>“Only my Christian name, and that I am quite sure she never mentioned to
any one. She told me once that they were all rather curious to learn who I was,
and that she invariably told them my name was Prince Charming. It was pretty of
her. You must do me a drawing of Sibyl, Basil. I should like to have something
more of her than the memory of a few kisses and some broken pathetic
words.”</p>
<p>“I will try and do something, Dorian, if it would please you. But you
must come and sit to me yourself again. I can’t get on without
you.”</p>
<p>“I can never sit to you again, Basil. It is impossible!” he
exclaimed, starting back.</p>
<p>The painter stared at him. “My dear boy, what nonsense!” he cried.
“Do you mean to say you don’t like what I did of you? Where is it?
Why have you pulled the screen in front of it? Let me look at it. It is the
best thing I have ever done. Do take the screen away, Dorian. It is simply
disgraceful of your servant hiding my work like that. I felt the room looked
different as I came in.”</p>
<p>“My servant has nothing to do with it, Basil. You don’t imagine I
let him arrange my room for me? He settles my flowers for me
sometimes—that is all. No; I did it myself. The light was too strong on
the portrait.”</p>
<p>“Too strong! Surely not, my dear fellow? It is an admirable place for it.
Let me see it.” And Hallward walked towards the corner of the room.</p>
<p>A cry of terror broke from Dorian Gray’s lips, and he rushed between the
painter and the screen. “Basil,” he said, looking very pale,
“you must not look at it. I don’t wish you to.”</p>
<p>“Not look at my own work! You are not serious. Why shouldn’t I look
at it?” exclaimed Hallward, laughing.</p>
<p>“If you try to look at it, Basil, on my word of honour I will never speak
to you again as long as I live. I am quite serious. I don’t offer any
explanation, and you are not to ask for any. But, remember, if you touch this
screen, everything is over between us.”</p>
<p>Hallward was thunderstruck. He looked at Dorian Gray in absolute amazement. He
had never seen him like this before. The lad was actually pallid with rage. His
hands were clenched, and the pupils of his eyes were like disks of blue fire.
He was trembling all over.</p>
<p>“Dorian!”</p>
<p>“Don’t speak!”</p>
<p>“But what is the matter? Of course I won’t look at it if you
don’t want me to,” he said, rather coldly, turning on his heel and
going over towards the window. “But, really, it seems rather absurd that
I shouldn’t see my own work, especially as I am going to exhibit it in
Paris in the autumn. I shall probably have to give it another coat of varnish
before that, so I must see it some day, and why not to-day?”</p>
<p>“To exhibit it! You want to exhibit it?” exclaimed Dorian Gray, a
strange sense of terror creeping over him. Was the world going to be shown his
secret? Were people to gape at the mystery of his life? That was impossible.
Something—he did not know what—had to be done at once.</p>
<p>“Yes; I don’t suppose you will object to that. Georges Petit is
going to collect all my best pictures for a special exhibition in the Rue de
Sèze, which will open the first week in October. The portrait will only be away
a month. I should think you could easily spare it for that time. In fact, you
are sure to be out of town. And if you keep it always behind a screen, you
can’t care much about it.”</p>
<p>Dorian Gray passed his hand over his forehead. There were beads of perspiration
there. He felt that he was on the brink of a horrible danger. “You told
me a month ago that you would never exhibit it,” he cried. “Why
have you changed your mind? You people who go in for being consistent have just
as many moods as others have. The only difference is that your moods are rather
meaningless. You can’t have forgotten that you assured me most solemnly
that nothing in the world would induce you to send it to any exhibition. You
told Harry exactly the same thing.” He stopped suddenly, and a gleam of
light came into his eyes. He remembered that Lord Henry had said to him once,
half seriously and half in jest, “If you want to have a strange quarter
of an hour, get Basil to tell you why he won’t exhibit your picture. He
told me why he wouldn’t, and it was a revelation to me.” Yes,
perhaps Basil, too, had his secret. He would ask him and try.</p>
<p>“Basil,” he said, coming over quite close and looking him straight
in the face, “we have each of us a secret. Let me know yours, and I shall
tell you mine. What was your reason for refusing to exhibit my picture?”</p>
<p>The painter shuddered in spite of himself. “Dorian, if I told you, you
might like me less than you do, and you would certainly laugh at me. I could
not bear your doing either of those two things. If you wish me never to look at
your picture again, I am content. I have always you to look at. If you wish the
best work I have ever done to be hidden from the world, I am satisfied. Your
friendship is dearer to me than any fame or reputation.”</p>
<p>“No, Basil, you must tell me,” insisted Dorian Gray. “I think
I have a right to know.” His feeling of terror had passed away, and
curiosity had taken its place. He was determined to find out Basil
Hallward’s mystery.</p>
<p>“Let us sit down, Dorian,” said the painter, looking troubled.
“Let us sit down. And just answer me one question. Have you noticed in
the picture something curious?—something that probably at first did not
strike you, but that revealed itself to you suddenly?”</p>
<p>“Basil!” cried the lad, clutching the arms of his chair with
trembling hands and gazing at him with wild startled eyes.</p>
<p>“I see you did. Don’t speak. Wait till you hear what I have to say.
Dorian, from the moment I met you, your personality had the most extraordinary
influence over me. I was dominated, soul, brain, and power, by you. You became
to me the visible incarnation of that unseen ideal whose memory haunts us
artists like an exquisite dream. I worshipped you. I grew jealous of every one
to whom you spoke. I wanted to have you all to myself. I was only happy when I
was with you. When you were away from me, you were still present in my art....
Of course, I never let you know anything about this. It would have been
impossible. You would not have understood it. I hardly understood it myself. I
only knew that I had seen perfection face to face, and that the world had
become wonderful to my eyes—too wonderful, perhaps, for in such mad
worships there is peril, the peril of losing them, no less than the peril of
keeping them.... Weeks and weeks went on, and I grew more and more absorbed in
you. Then came a new development. I had drawn you as Paris in dainty armour,
and as Adonis with huntsman’s cloak and polished boar-spear. Crowned with
heavy lotus-blossoms you had sat on the prow of Adrian’s barge, gazing
across the green turbid Nile. You had leaned over the still pool of some Greek
woodland and seen in the water’s silent silver the marvel of your own
face. And it had all been what art should be—unconscious, ideal, and
remote. One day, a fatal day I sometimes think, I determined to paint a
wonderful portrait of you as you actually are, not in the costume of dead ages,
but in your own dress and in your own time. Whether it was the realism of the
method, or the mere wonder of your own personality, thus directly presented to
me without mist or veil, I cannot tell. But I know that as I worked at it,
every flake and film of colour seemed to me to reveal my secret. I grew afraid
that others would know of my idolatry. I felt, Dorian, that I had told too
much, that I had put too much of myself into it. Then it was that I resolved
never to allow the picture to be exhibited. You were a little annoyed; but then
you did not realize all that it meant to me. Harry, to whom I talked about it,
laughed at me. But I did not mind that. When the picture was finished, and I
sat alone with it, I felt that I was right.... Well, after a few days the thing
left my studio, and as soon as I had got rid of the intolerable fascination of
its presence, it seemed to me that I had been foolish in imagining that I had
seen anything in it, more than that you were extremely good-looking and that I
could paint. Even now I cannot help feeling that it is a mistake to think that
the passion one feels in creation is ever really shown in the work one creates.
Art is always more abstract than we fancy. Form and colour tell us of form and
colour—that is all. It often seems to me that art conceals the artist far
more completely than it ever reveals him. And so when I got this offer from
Paris, I determined to make your portrait the principal thing in my exhibition.
It never occurred to me that you would refuse. I see now that you were right.
The picture cannot be shown. You must not be angry with me, Dorian, for what I
have told you. As I said to Harry, once, you are made to be worshipped.”</p>
<p>Dorian Gray drew a long breath. The colour came back to his cheeks, and a smile
played about his lips. The peril was over. He was safe for the time. Yet he
could not help feeling infinite pity for the painter who had just made this
strange confession to him, and wondered if he himself would ever be so
dominated by the personality of a friend. Lord Henry had the charm of being
very dangerous. But that was all. He was too clever and too cynical to be
really fond of. Would there ever be some one who would fill him with a strange
idolatry? Was that one of the things that life had in store?</p>
<p>“It is extraordinary to me, Dorian,” said Hallward, “that you
should have seen this in the portrait. Did you really see it?”</p>
<p>“I saw something in it,” he answered, “something that seemed
to me very curious.”</p>
<p>“Well, you don’t mind my looking at the thing now?”</p>
<p>Dorian shook his head. “You must not ask me that, Basil. I could not
possibly let you stand in front of that picture.”</p>
<p>“You will some day, surely?”</p>
<p>“Never.”</p>
<p>“Well, perhaps you are right. And now good-bye, Dorian. You have been the
one person in my life who has really influenced my art. Whatever I have done
that is good, I owe to you. Ah! you don’t know what it cost me to tell
you all that I have told you.”</p>
<p>“My dear Basil,” said Dorian, “what have you told me? Simply
that you felt that you admired me too much. That is not even a
compliment.”</p>
<p>“It was not intended as a compliment. It was a confession. Now that I
have made it, something seems to have gone out of me. Perhaps one should never
put one’s worship into words.”</p>
<p>“It was a very disappointing confession.”</p>
<p>“Why, what did you expect, Dorian? You didn’t see anything else in
the picture, did you? There was nothing else to see?”</p>
<p>“No; there was nothing else to see. Why do you ask? But you mustn’t
talk about worship. It is foolish. You and I are friends, Basil, and we must
always remain so.”</p>
<p>“You have got Harry,” said the painter sadly.</p>
<p>“Oh, Harry!” cried the lad, with a ripple of laughter. “Harry
spends his days in saying what is incredible and his evenings in doing what is
improbable. Just the sort of life I would like to lead. But still I don’t
think I would go to Harry if I were in trouble. I would sooner go to you,
Basil.”</p>
<p>“You will sit to me again?”</p>
<p>“Impossible!”</p>
<p>“You spoil my life as an artist by refusing, Dorian. No man comes across
two ideal things. Few come across one.”</p>
<p>“I can’t explain it to you, Basil, but I must never sit to you
again. There is something fatal about a portrait. It has a life of its own. I
will come and have tea with you. That will be just as pleasant.”</p>
<p>“Pleasanter for you, I am afraid,” murmured Hallward regretfully.
“And now good-bye. I am sorry you won’t let me look at the picture
once again. But that can’t be helped. I quite understand what you feel
about it.”</p>
<p>As he left the room, Dorian Gray smiled to himself. Poor Basil! How little he
knew of the true reason! And how strange it was that, instead of having been
forced to reveal his own secret, he had succeeded, almost by chance, in
wresting a secret from his friend! How much that strange confession explained
to him! The painter’s absurd fits of jealousy, his wild devotion, his
extravagant panegyrics, his curious reticences—he understood them all
now, and he felt sorry. There seemed to him to be something tragic in a
friendship so coloured by romance.</p>
<p>He sighed and touched the bell. The portrait must be hidden away at all costs.
He could not run such a risk of discovery again. It had been mad of him to have
allowed the thing to remain, even for an hour, in a room to which any of his
friends had access.</p>
<h2><SPAN name="chap10"></SPAN>CHAPTER X.</h2>
<p>When his servant entered, he looked at him steadfastly and wondered if he had
thought of peering behind the screen. The man was quite impassive and waited
for his orders. Dorian lit a cigarette and walked over to the glass and glanced
into it. He could see the reflection of Victor’s face perfectly. It was
like a placid mask of servility. There was nothing to be afraid of, there. Yet
he thought it best to be on his guard.</p>
<p>Speaking very slowly, he told him to tell the house-keeper that he wanted to
see her, and then to go to the frame-maker and ask him to send two of his men
round at once. It seemed to him that as the man left the room his eyes wandered
in the direction of the screen. Or was that merely his own fancy?</p>
<p>After a few moments, in her black silk dress, with old-fashioned thread mittens
on her wrinkled hands, Mrs. Leaf bustled into the library. He asked her for the
key of the schoolroom.</p>
<p>“The old schoolroom, Mr. Dorian?” she exclaimed. “Why, it is
full of dust. I must get it arranged and put straight before you go into it. It
is not fit for you to see, sir. It is not, indeed.”</p>
<p>“I don’t want it put straight, Leaf. I only want the key.”</p>
<p>“Well, sir, you’ll be covered with cobwebs if you go into it. Why,
it hasn’t been opened for nearly five years—not since his lordship
died.”</p>
<p>He winced at the mention of his grandfather. He had hateful memories of him.
“That does not matter,” he answered. “I simply want to see
the place—that is all. Give me the key.”</p>
<p>“And here is the key, sir,” said the old lady, going over the
contents of her bunch with tremulously uncertain hands. “Here is the key.
I’ll have it off the bunch in a moment. But you don’t think of
living up there, sir, and you so comfortable here?”</p>
<p>“No, no,” he cried petulantly. “Thank you, Leaf. That will
do.”</p>
<p>She lingered for a few moments, and was garrulous over some detail of the
household. He sighed and told her to manage things as she thought best. She
left the room, wreathed in smiles.</p>
<p>As the door closed, Dorian put the key in his pocket and looked round the room.
His eye fell on a large, purple satin coverlet heavily embroidered with gold, a
splendid piece of late seventeenth-century Venetian work that his grandfather
had found in a convent near Bologna. Yes, that would serve to wrap the dreadful
thing in. It had perhaps served often as a pall for the dead. Now it was to
hide something that had a corruption of its own, worse than the corruption of
death itself—something that would breed horrors and yet would never die.
What the worm was to the corpse, his sins would be to the painted image on the
canvas. They would mar its beauty and eat away its grace. They would defile it
and make it shameful. And yet the thing would still live on. It would be always
alive.</p>
<p>He shuddered, and for a moment he regretted that he had not told Basil the true
reason why he had wished to hide the picture away. Basil would have helped him
to resist Lord Henry’s influence, and the still more poisonous influences
that came from his own temperament. The love that he bore him—for it was
really love—had nothing in it that was not noble and intellectual. It was
not that mere physical admiration of beauty that is born of the senses and that
dies when the senses tire. It was such love as Michelangelo had known, and
Montaigne, and Winckelmann, and Shakespeare himself. Yes, Basil could have
saved him. But it was too late now. The past could always be annihilated.
Regret, denial, or forgetfulness could do that. But the future was inevitable.
There were passions in him that would find their terrible outlet, dreams that
would make the shadow of their evil real.</p>
<p>He took up from the couch the great purple-and-gold texture that covered it,
and, holding it in his hands, passed behind the screen. Was the face on the
canvas viler than before? It seemed to him that it was unchanged, and yet his
loathing of it was intensified. Gold hair, blue eyes, and rose-red
lips—they all were there. It was simply the expression that had altered.
That was horrible in its cruelty. Compared to what he saw in it of censure or
rebuke, how shallow Basil’s reproaches about Sibyl Vane had
been!—how shallow, and of what little account! His own soul was looking
out at him from the canvas and calling him to judgement. A look of pain came
across him, and he flung the rich pall over the picture. As he did so, a knock
came to the door. He passed out as his servant entered.</p>
<p>“The persons are here, Monsieur.”</p>
<p>He felt that the man must be got rid of at once. He must not be allowed to know
where the picture was being taken to. There was something sly about him, and he
had thoughtful, treacherous eyes. Sitting down at the writing-table he
scribbled a note to Lord Henry, asking him to send him round something to read
and reminding him that they were to meet at eight-fifteen that evening.</p>
<p>“Wait for an answer,” he said, handing it to him, “and show
the men in here.”</p>
<p>In two or three minutes there was another knock, and Mr. Hubbard himself, the
celebrated frame-maker of South Audley Street, came in with a somewhat
rough-looking young assistant. Mr. Hubbard was a florid, red-whiskered little
man, whose admiration for art was considerably tempered by the inveterate
impecuniosity of most of the artists who dealt with him. As a rule, he never
left his shop. He waited for people to come to him. But he always made an
exception in favour of Dorian Gray. There was something about Dorian that
charmed everybody. It was a pleasure even to see him.</p>
<p>“What can I do for you, Mr. Gray?” he said, rubbing his fat
freckled hands. “I thought I would do myself the honour of coming round
in person. I have just got a beauty of a frame, sir. Picked it up at a sale.
Old Florentine. Came from Fonthill, I believe. Admirably suited for a religious
subject, Mr. Gray.”</p>
<p>“I am so sorry you have given yourself the trouble of coming round, Mr.
Hubbard. I shall certainly drop in and look at the frame—though I
don’t go in much at present for religious art—but to-day I only
want a picture carried to the top of the house for me. It is rather heavy, so I
thought I would ask you to lend me a couple of your men.”</p>
<p>“No trouble at all, Mr. Gray. I am delighted to be of any service to you.
Which is the work of art, sir?”</p>
<p>“This,” replied Dorian, moving the screen back. “Can you move
it, covering and all, just as it is? I don’t want it to get scratched
going upstairs.”</p>
<p>“There will be no difficulty, sir,” said the genial frame-maker,
beginning, with the aid of his assistant, to unhook the picture from the long
brass chains by which it was suspended. “And, now, where shall we carry
it to, Mr. Gray?”</p>
<p>“I will show you the way, Mr. Hubbard, if you will kindly follow me. Or
perhaps you had better go in front. I am afraid it is right at the top of the
house. We will go up by the front staircase, as it is wider.”</p>
<p>He held the door open for them, and they passed out into the hall and began the
ascent. The elaborate character of the frame had made the picture extremely
bulky, and now and then, in spite of the obsequious protests of Mr. Hubbard,
who had the true tradesman’s spirited dislike of seeing a gentleman doing
anything useful, Dorian put his hand to it so as to help them.</p>
<p>“Something of a load to carry, sir,” gasped the little man when
they reached the top landing. And he wiped his shiny forehead.</p>
<p>“I am afraid it is rather heavy,” murmured Dorian as he unlocked
the door that opened into the room that was to keep for him the curious secret
of his life and hide his soul from the eyes of men.</p>
<p>He had not entered the place for more than four years—not, indeed, since
he had used it first as a play-room when he was a child, and then as a study
when he grew somewhat older. It was a large, well-proportioned room, which had
been specially built by the last Lord Kelso for the use of the little grandson
whom, for his strange likeness to his mother, and also for other reasons, he
had always hated and desired to keep at a distance. It appeared to Dorian to
have but little changed. There was the huge Italian <i>cassone</i>, with its
fantastically painted panels and its tarnished gilt mouldings, in which he had
so often hidden himself as a boy. There the satinwood book-case filled with his
dog-eared schoolbooks. On the wall behind it was hanging the same ragged
Flemish tapestry where a faded king and queen were playing chess in a garden,
while a company of hawkers rode by, carrying hooded birds on their gauntleted
wrists. How well he remembered it all! Every moment of his lonely childhood
came back to him as he looked round. He recalled the stainless purity of his
boyish life, and it seemed horrible to him that it was here the fatal portrait
was to be hidden away. How little he had thought, in those dead days, of all
that was in store for him!</p>
<p>But there was no other place in the house so secure from prying eyes as this.
He had the key, and no one else could enter it. Beneath its purple pall, the
face painted on the canvas could grow bestial, sodden, and unclean. What did it
matter? No one could see it. He himself would not see it. Why should he watch
the hideous corruption of his soul? He kept his youth—that was enough.
And, besides, might not his nature grow finer, after all? There was no reason
that the future should be so full of shame. Some love might come across his
life, and purify him, and shield him from those sins that seemed to be already
stirring in spirit and in flesh—those curious unpictured sins whose very
mystery lent them their subtlety and their charm. Perhaps, some day, the cruel
look would have passed away from the scarlet sensitive mouth, and he might show
to the world Basil Hallward’s masterpiece.</p>
<p>No; that was impossible. Hour by hour, and week by week, the thing upon the
canvas was growing old. It might escape the hideousness of sin, but the
hideousness of age was in store for it. The cheeks would become hollow or
flaccid. Yellow crow’s feet would creep round the fading eyes and make
them horrible. The hair would lose its brightness, the mouth would gape or
droop, would be foolish or gross, as the mouths of old men are. There would be
the wrinkled throat, the cold, blue-veined hands, the twisted body, that he
remembered in the grandfather who had been so stern to him in his boyhood. The
picture had to be concealed. There was no help for it.</p>
<p>“Bring it in, Mr. Hubbard, please,” he said, wearily, turning
round. “I am sorry I kept you so long. I was thinking of something
else.”</p>
<p>“Always glad to have a rest, Mr. Gray,” answered the frame-maker,
who was still gasping for breath. “Where shall we put it, sir?”</p>
<p>“Oh, anywhere. Here: this will do. I don’t want to have it hung up.
Just lean it against the wall. Thanks.”</p>
<p>“Might one look at the work of art, sir?”</p>
<p>Dorian started. “It would not interest you, Mr. Hubbard,” he said,
keeping his eye on the man. He felt ready to leap upon him and fling him to the
ground if he dared to lift the gorgeous hanging that concealed the secret of
his life. “I shan’t trouble you any more now. I am much obliged for
your kindness in coming round.”</p>
<p>“Not at all, not at all, Mr. Gray. Ever ready to do anything for you,
sir.” And Mr. Hubbard tramped downstairs, followed by the assistant, who
glanced back at Dorian with a look of shy wonder in his rough uncomely face. He
had never seen any one so marvellous.</p>
<p>When the sound of their footsteps had died away, Dorian locked the door and put
the key in his pocket. He felt safe now. No one would ever look upon the
horrible thing. No eye but his would ever see his shame.</p>
<p>On reaching the library, he found that it was just after five o’clock and
that the tea had been already brought up. On a little table of dark perfumed
wood thickly incrusted with nacre, a present from Lady Radley, his
guardian’s wife, a pretty professional invalid who had spent the
preceding winter in Cairo, was lying a note from Lord Henry, and beside it was
a book bound in yellow paper, the cover slightly torn and the edges soiled. A
copy of the third edition of <i>The St. James’s Gazette</i> had been
placed on the tea-tray. It was evident that Victor had returned. He wondered if
he had met the men in the hall as they were leaving the house and had wormed
out of them what they had been doing. He would be sure to miss the
picture—had no doubt missed it already, while he had been laying the
tea-things. The screen had not been set back, and a blank space was visible on
the wall. Perhaps some night he might find him creeping upstairs and trying to
force the door of the room. It was a horrible thing to have a spy in
one’s house. He had heard of rich men who had been blackmailed all their
lives by some servant who had read a letter, or overheard a conversation, or
picked up a card with an address, or found beneath a pillow a withered flower
or a shred of crumpled lace.</p>
<p>He sighed, and having poured himself out some tea, opened Lord Henry’s
note. It was simply to say that he sent him round the evening paper, and a book
that might interest him, and that he would be at the club at eight-fifteen. He
opened <i>The St. James’s</i> languidly, and looked through it. A red
pencil-mark on the fifth page caught his eye. It drew attention to the
following paragraph:</p>
<p class="letter">
I<small>NQUEST ON AN</small> A<small>CTRESS</small>.—An inquest was held
this morning at the Bell Tavern, Hoxton Road, by Mr. Danby, the District
Coroner, on the body of Sibyl Vane, a young actress recently engaged at the
Royal Theatre, Holborn. A verdict of death by misadventure was returned.
Considerable sympathy was expressed for the mother of the deceased, who was
greatly affected during the giving of her own evidence, and that of Dr.
Birrell, who had made the post-mortem examination of the deceased.</p>
<p>He frowned, and tearing the paper in two, went across the room and flung the
pieces away. How ugly it all was! And how horribly real ugliness made things!
He felt a little annoyed with Lord Henry for having sent him the report. And it
was certainly stupid of him to have marked it with red pencil. Victor might
have read it. The man knew more than enough English for that.</p>
<p>Perhaps he had read it and had begun to suspect something. And, yet, what did
it matter? What had Dorian Gray to do with Sibyl Vane’s death? There was
nothing to fear. Dorian Gray had not killed her.</p>
<p>His eye fell on the yellow book that Lord Henry had sent him. What was it, he
wondered. He went towards the little, pearl-coloured octagonal stand that had
always looked to him like the work of some strange Egyptian bees that wrought
in silver, and taking up the volume, flung himself into an arm-chair and began
to turn over the leaves. After a few minutes he became absorbed. It was the
strangest book that he had ever read. It seemed to him that in exquisite
raiment, and to the delicate sound of flutes, the sins of the world were
passing in dumb show before him. Things that he had dimly dreamed of were
suddenly made real to him. Things of which he had never dreamed were gradually
revealed.</p>
<p>It was a novel without a plot and with only one character, being, indeed,
simply a psychological study of a certain young Parisian who spent his life
trying to realize in the nineteenth century all the passions and modes of
thought that belonged to every century except his own, and to sum up, as it
were, in himself the various moods through which the world-spirit had ever
passed, loving for their mere artificiality those renunciations that men have
unwisely called virtue, as much as those natural rebellions that wise men still
call sin. The style in which it was written was that curious jewelled style,
vivid and obscure at once, full of <i>argot</i> and of archaisms, of technical
expressions and of elaborate paraphrases, that characterizes the work of some
of the finest artists of the French school of <i>Symbolistes</i>. There were in
it metaphors as monstrous as orchids and as subtle in colour. The life of the
senses was described in the terms of mystical philosophy. One hardly knew at
times whether one was reading the spiritual ecstasies of some mediæval saint
or the morbid confessions of a modern sinner. It was a poisonous book. The
heavy odour of incense seemed to cling about its pages and to trouble the
brain. The mere cadence of the sentences, the subtle monotony of their music,
so full as it was of complex refrains and movements elaborately repeated,
produced in the mind of the lad, as he passed from chapter to chapter, a form
of reverie, a malady of dreaming, that made him unconscious of the falling day
and creeping shadows.</p>
<p>Cloudless, and pierced by one solitary star, a copper-green sky gleamed through
the windows. He read on by its wan light till he could read no more. Then,
after his valet had reminded him several times of the lateness of the hour, he
got up, and going into the next room, placed the book on the little Florentine
table that always stood at his bedside and began to dress for dinner.</p>
<p>It was almost nine o’clock before he reached the club, where he found
Lord Henry sitting alone, in the morning-room, looking very much bored.</p>
<p>“I am so sorry, Harry,” he cried, “but really it is entirely
your fault. That book you sent me so fascinated me that I forgot how the time
was going.”</p>
<p>“Yes, I thought you would like it,” replied his host, rising from
his chair.</p>
<p>“I didn’t say I liked it, Harry. I said it fascinated me. There is
a great difference.”</p>
<p>“Ah, you have discovered that?” murmured Lord Henry. And they
passed into the dining-room.</p>
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