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<h2> CHAPTER 51. THE BEGINNING OF A LONGER JOURNEY </h2>
<p>It was yet early in the morning of the following day, when, as I was
walking in my garden with my aunt (who took little other exercise now,
being so much in attendance on my dear Dora), I was told that Mr. Peggotty
desired to speak with me. He came into the garden to meet me half-way, on
my going towards the gate; and bared his head, as it was always his custom
to do when he saw my aunt, for whom he had a high respect. I had been
telling her all that had happened overnight. Without saying a word, she
walked up with a cordial face, shook hands with him, and patted him on the
arm. It was so expressively done, that she had no need to say a word. Mr.
Peggotty understood her quite as well as if she had said a thousand.</p>
<p>‘I’ll go in now, Trot,’ said my aunt, ‘and look after Little Blossom, who
will be getting up presently.’</p>
<p>‘Not along of my being heer, ma’am, I hope?’ said Mr. Peggotty. ‘Unless my
wits is gone a bahd’s neezing’—by which Mr. Peggotty meant to say,
bird’s-nesting—‘this morning, ‘tis along of me as you’re a-going to
quit us?’</p>
<p>‘You have something to say, my good friend,’ returned my aunt, ‘and will
do better without me.’</p>
<p>‘By your leave, ma’am,’ returned Mr. Peggotty, ‘I should take it kind,
pervising you doen’t mind my clicketten, if you’d bide heer.’</p>
<p>‘Would you?’ said my aunt, with short good-nature. ‘Then I am sure I
will!’</p>
<p>So, she drew her arm through Mr. Peggotty’s, and walked with him to a
leafy little summer-house there was at the bottom of the garden, where she
sat down on a bench, and I beside her. There was a seat for Mr. Peggotty
too, but he preferred to stand, leaning his hand on the small rustic
table. As he stood, looking at his cap for a little while before beginning
to speak, I could not help observing what power and force of character his
sinewy hand expressed, and what a good and trusty companion it was to his
honest brow and iron-grey hair.</p>
<p>‘I took my dear child away last night,’ Mr. Peggotty began, as he raised
his eyes to ours, ‘to my lodging, wheer I have a long time been expecting
of her and preparing fur her. It was hours afore she knowed me right; and
when she did, she kneeled down at my feet, and kiender said to me, as if
it was her prayers, how it all come to be. You may believe me, when I
heerd her voice, as I had heerd at home so playful—and see her
humbled, as it might be in the dust our Saviour wrote in with his blessed
hand—I felt a wownd go to my ‘art, in the midst of all its
thankfulness.’</p>
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<p>He drew his sleeve across his face, without any pretence of concealing
why; and then cleared his voice.</p>
<p>‘It warn’t for long as I felt that; for she was found. I had on’y to think
as she was found, and it was gone. I doen’t know why I do so much as
mention of it now, I’m sure. I didn’t have it in my mind a minute ago, to
say a word about myself; but it come up so nat’ral, that I yielded to it
afore I was aweer.’</p>
<p>‘You are a self-denying soul,’ said my aunt, ‘and will have your reward.’</p>
<p>Mr. Peggotty, with the shadows of the leaves playing athwart his face,
made a surprised inclination of the head towards my aunt, as an
acknowledgement of her good opinion; then took up the thread he had
relinquished.</p>
<p>‘When my Em’ly took flight,’ he said, in stern wrath for the moment, ‘from
the house wheer she was made a prisoner by that theer spotted snake as
Mas’r Davy see,—and his story’s trew, and may GOD confound him!—she
took flight in the night. It was a dark night, with a many stars
a-shining. She was wild. She ran along the sea beach, believing the old
boat was theer; and calling out to us to turn away our faces, for she was
a-coming by. She heerd herself a-crying out, like as if it was another
person; and cut herself on them sharp-pinted stones and rocks, and felt it
no more than if she had been rock herself. Ever so fur she run, and there
was fire afore her eyes, and roarings in her ears. Of a sudden—or so
she thowt, you unnerstand—the day broke, wet and windy, and she was
lying b’low a heap of stone upon the shore, and a woman was a-speaking to
her, saying, in the language of that country, what was it as had gone so
much amiss?’</p>
<p>He saw everything he related. It passed before him, as he spoke, so
vividly, that, in the intensity of his earnestness, he presented what he
described to me, with greater distinctness than I can express. I can
hardly believe, writing now long afterwards, but that I was actually
present in these scenes; they are impressed upon me with such an
astonishing air of fidelity.</p>
<p>‘As Em’ly’s eyes—which was heavy—see this woman better,’ Mr.
Peggotty went on, ‘she know’d as she was one of them as she had often
talked to on the beach. Fur, though she had run (as I have said) ever so
fur in the night, she had oftentimes wandered long ways, partly afoot,
partly in boats and carriages, and know’d all that country, ‘long the
coast, miles and miles. She hadn’t no children of her own, this woman,
being a young wife; but she was a-looking to have one afore long. And may
my prayers go up to Heaven that ‘twill be a happiness to her, and a
comfort, and a honour, all her life! May it love her and be dootiful to
her, in her old age; helpful of her at the last; a Angel to her heer, and
heerafter!’</p>
<p>‘Amen!’ said my aunt.</p>
<p>‘She had been summat timorous and down,’ said Mr. Peggotty, ‘and had sat,
at first, a little way off, at her spinning, or such work as it was, when
Em’ly talked to the children. But Em’ly had took notice of her, and had
gone and spoke to her; and as the young woman was partial to the children
herself, they had soon made friends. Sermuchser, that when Em’ly went that
way, she always giv Em’ly flowers. This was her as now asked what it was
that had gone so much amiss. Em’ly told her, and she—took her home.
She did indeed. She took her home,’ said Mr. Peggotty, covering his face.</p>
<p>He was more affected by this act of kindness, than I had ever seen him
affected by anything since the night she went away. My aunt and I did not
attempt to disturb him.</p>
<p>‘It was a little cottage, you may suppose,’ he said, presently, ‘but she
found space for Em’ly in it,—her husband was away at sea,—and
she kep it secret, and prevailed upon such neighbours as she had (they was
not many near) to keep it secret too. Em’ly was took bad with fever, and,
what is very strange to me is,—maybe ‘tis not so strange to
scholars,—the language of that country went out of her head, and she
could only speak her own, that no one unnerstood. She recollects, as if
she had dreamed it, that she lay there always a-talking her own tongue,
always believing as the old boat was round the next pint in the bay, and
begging and imploring of ‘em to send theer and tell how she was dying, and
bring back a message of forgiveness, if it was on’y a wured. A’most the
whole time, she thowt,—now, that him as I made mention on just now
was lurking for her unnerneath the winder; now that him as had brought her
to this was in the room,—and cried to the good young woman not to
give her up, and know’d, at the same time, that she couldn’t unnerstand,
and dreaded that she must be took away. Likewise the fire was afore her
eyes, and the roarings in her ears; and theer was no today, nor yesterday,
nor yet tomorrow; but everything in her life as ever had been, or as ever
could be, and everything as never had been, and as never could be, was a
crowding on her all at once, and nothing clear nor welcome, and yet she
sang and laughed about it! How long this lasted, I doen’t know; but then
theer come a sleep; and in that sleep, from being a many times stronger
than her own self, she fell into the weakness of the littlest child.’</p>
<p>Here he stopped, as if for relief from the terrors of his own description.
After being silent for a few moments, he pursued his story.</p>
<p>‘It was a pleasant arternoon when she awoke; and so quiet, that there
warn’t a sound but the rippling of that blue sea without a tide, upon the
shore. It was her belief, at first, that she was at home upon a Sunday
morning; but the vine leaves as she see at the winder, and the hills
beyond, warn’t home, and contradicted of her. Then, come in her friend to
watch alongside of her bed; and then she know’d as the old boat warn’t
round that next pint in the bay no more, but was fur off; and know’d where
she was, and why; and broke out a-crying on that good young woman’s bosom,
wheer I hope her baby is a-lying now, a-cheering of her with its pretty
eyes!’</p>
<p>He could not speak of this good friend of Emily’s without a flow of tears.
It was in vain to try. He broke down again, endeavouring to bless her!</p>
<p>‘That done my Em’ly good,’ he resumed, after such emotion as I could not
behold without sharing in; and as to my aunt, she wept with all her heart;
‘that done Em’ly good, and she begun to mend. But, the language of that
country was quite gone from her, and she was forced to make signs. So she
went on, getting better from day to day, slow, but sure, and trying to
learn the names of common things—names as she seemed never to have
heerd in all her life—till one evening come, when she was a-setting
at her window, looking at a little girl at play upon the beach. And of a
sudden this child held out her hand, and said, what would be in English,
“Fisherman’s daughter, here’s a shell!”—for you are to unnerstand
that they used at first to call her “Pretty lady”, as the general way in
that country is, and that she had taught ‘em to call her “Fisherman’s
daughter” instead. The child says of a sudden, “Fisherman’s daughter,
here’s a shell!” Then Em’ly unnerstands her; and she answers, bursting out
a-crying; and it all comes back!</p>
<p>‘When Em’ly got strong again,’ said Mr. Peggotty, after another short
interval of silence, ‘she cast about to leave that good young creetur, and
get to her own country. The husband was come home, then; and the two
together put her aboard a small trader bound to Leghorn, and from that to
France. She had a little money, but it was less than little as they would
take for all they done. I’m a’most glad on it, though they was so poor!
What they done, is laid up wheer neither moth or rust doth corrupt, and
wheer thieves do not break through nor steal. Mas’r Davy, it’ll outlast
all the treasure in the wureld.</p>
<p>‘Em’ly got to France, and took service to wait on travelling ladies at a
inn in the port. Theer, theer come, one day, that snake. —Let him
never come nigh me. I doen’t know what hurt I might do him!—Soon as
she see him, without him seeing her, all her fear and wildness returned
upon her, and she fled afore the very breath he draw’d. She come to
England, and was set ashore at Dover.</p>
<p>‘I doen’t know,’ said Mr. Peggotty, ‘for sure, when her ‘art begun to fail
her; but all the way to England she had thowt to come to her dear home.
Soon as she got to England she turned her face tow’rds it. But, fear of
not being forgiv, fear of being pinted at, fear of some of us being dead
along of her, fear of many things, turned her from it, kiender by force,
upon the road: “Uncle, uncle,” she says to me, “the fear of not being
worthy to do what my torn and bleeding breast so longed to do, was the
most fright’ning fear of all! I turned back, when my ‘art was full of
prayers that I might crawl to the old door-step, in the night, kiss it,
lay my wicked face upon it, and theer be found dead in the morning.”</p>
<p>‘She come,’ said Mr. Peggotty, dropping his voice to an awe-stricken
whisper, ‘to London. She—as had never seen it in her life—alone—without
a penny—young—so pretty—come to London. A’most the
moment as she lighted heer, all so desolate, she found (as she believed) a
friend; a decent woman as spoke to her about the needle-work as she had
been brought up to do, about finding plenty of it fur her, about a lodging
fur the night, and making secret inquiration concerning of me and all at
home, tomorrow. When my child,’ he said aloud, and with an energy of
gratitude that shook him from head to foot, ‘stood upon the brink of more
than I can say or think on—Martha, trew to her promise, saved her.’</p>
<p>I could not repress a cry of joy.</p>
<p>‘Mas’r Davy!’ said he, gripping my hand in that strong hand of his, ‘it
was you as first made mention of her to me. I thankee, sir! She was
arnest. She had know’d of her bitter knowledge wheer to watch and what to
do. She had done it. And the Lord was above all! She come, white and
hurried, upon Em’ly in her sleep. She says to her, “Rise up from worse
than death, and come with me!” Them belonging to the house would have
stopped her, but they might as soon have stopped the sea. “Stand away from
me,” she says, “I am a ghost that calls her from beside her open grave!”
She told Em’ly she had seen me, and know’d I loved her, and forgive her.
She wrapped her, hasty, in her clothes. She took her, faint and trembling,
on her arm. She heeded no more what they said, than if she had had no
ears. She walked among ‘em with my child, minding only her; and brought
her safe out, in the dead of the night, from that black pit of ruin!</p>
<p>‘She attended on Em’ly,’ said Mr. Peggotty, who had released my hand, and
put his own hand on his heaving chest; ‘she attended to my Em’ly, lying
wearied out, and wandering betwixt whiles, till late next day. Then she
went in search of me; then in search of you, Mas’r Davy. She didn’t tell
Em’ly what she come out fur, lest her ‘art should fail, and she should
think of hiding of herself. How the cruel lady know’d of her being theer,
I can’t say. Whether him as I have spoke so much of, chanced to see ‘em
going theer, or whether (which is most like, to my thinking) he had heerd
it from the woman, I doen’t greatly ask myself. My niece is found.</p>
<p>‘All night long,’ said Mr. Peggotty, ‘we have been together, Em’ly and me.
‘Tis little (considering the time) as she has said, in wureds, through
them broken-hearted tears; ‘tis less as I have seen of her dear face, as
grow’d into a woman’s at my hearth. But, all night long, her arms has been
about my neck; and her head has laid heer; and we knows full well, as we
can put our trust in one another, ever more.’</p>
<p>He ceased to speak, and his hand upon the table rested there in perfect
repose, with a resolution in it that might have conquered lions.</p>
<p>‘It was a gleam of light upon me, Trot,’ said my aunt, drying her eyes,
‘when I formed the resolution of being godmother to your sister Betsey
Trotwood, who disappointed me; but, next to that, hardly anything would
have given me greater pleasure, than to be godmother to that good young
creature’s baby!’</p>
<p>Mr. Peggotty nodded his understanding of my aunt’s feelings, but could not
trust himself with any verbal reference to the subject of her
commendation. We all remained silent, and occupied with our own
reflections (my aunt drying her eyes, and now sobbing convulsively, and
now laughing and calling herself a fool); until I spoke.</p>
<p>‘You have quite made up your mind,’ said I to Mr. Peggotty, ‘as to the
future, good friend? I need scarcely ask you.’</p>
<p>‘Quite, Mas’r Davy,’ he returned; ‘and told Em’ly. Theer’s mighty
countries, fur from heer. Our future life lays over the sea.’</p>
<p>‘They will emigrate together, aunt,’ said I.</p>
<p>‘Yes!’ said Mr. Peggotty, with a hopeful smile. ‘No one can’t reproach my
darling in Australia. We will begin a new life over theer!’</p>
<p>I asked him if he yet proposed to himself any time for going away.</p>
<p>‘I was down at the Docks early this morning, sir,’ he returned, ‘to get
information concerning of them ships. In about six weeks or two months
from now, there’ll be one sailing—I see her this morning—went
aboard—and we shall take our passage in her.’</p>
<p>‘Quite alone?’ I asked.</p>
<p>‘Aye, Mas’r Davy!’ he returned. ‘My sister, you see, she’s that fond of
you and yourn, and that accustomed to think on’y of her own country, that
it wouldn’t be hardly fair to let her go. Besides which, theer’s one she
has in charge, Mas’r Davy, as doen’t ought to be forgot.’</p>
<p>‘Poor Ham!’ said I.</p>
<p>‘My good sister takes care of his house, you see, ma’am, and he takes
kindly to her,’ Mr. Peggotty explained for my aunt’s better information.
‘He’ll set and talk to her, with a calm spirit, wen it’s like he couldn’t
bring himself to open his lips to another. Poor fellow!’ said Mr.
Peggotty, shaking his head, ‘theer’s not so much left him, that he could
spare the little as he has!’</p>
<p>‘And Mrs. Gummidge?’ said I.</p>
<p>‘Well, I’ve had a mort of consideration, I do tell you,’ returned Mr.
Peggotty, with a perplexed look which gradually cleared as he went on,
‘concerning of Missis Gummidge. You see, wen Missis Gummidge falls
a-thinking of the old ‘un, she an’t what you may call good company.
Betwixt you and me, Mas’r Davy—and you, ma’am—wen Mrs.
Gummidge takes to wimicking,’—our old country word for crying,—‘she’s
liable to be considered to be, by them as didn’t know the old ‘un,
peevish-like. Now I DID know the old ‘un,’ said Mr. Peggotty, ‘and I
know’d his merits, so I unnerstan’ her; but ‘tan’t entirely so, you see,
with others—nat’rally can’t be!’</p>
<p>My aunt and I both acquiesced.</p>
<p>‘Wheerby,’ said Mr. Peggotty, ‘my sister might—I doen’t say she
would, but might—find Missis Gummidge give her a leetle trouble
now-and-again. Theerfur ‘tan’t my intentions to moor Missis Gummidge ‘long
with them, but to find a Beein’ fur her wheer she can fisherate for
herself.’ (A Beein’ signifies, in that dialect, a home, and to fisherate
is to provide.) ‘Fur which purpose,’ said Mr. Peggotty, ‘I means to make
her a ‘lowance afore I go, as’ll leave her pretty comfort’ble. She’s the
faithfullest of creeturs. ‘Tan’t to be expected, of course, at her time of
life, and being lone and lorn, as the good old Mawther is to be knocked
about aboardship, and in the woods and wilds of a new and fur-away
country. So that’s what I’m a-going to do with her.’</p>
<p>He forgot nobody. He thought of everybody’s claims and strivings, but his
own.</p>
<p>‘Em’ly,’ he continued, ‘will keep along with me—poor child, she’s
sore in need of peace and rest!—until such time as we goes upon our
voyage. She’ll work at them clothes, as must be made; and I hope her
troubles will begin to seem longer ago than they was, wen she finds
herself once more by her rough but loving uncle.’</p>
<p>My aunt nodded confirmation of this hope, and imparted great satisfaction
to Mr. Peggotty.</p>
<p>‘Theer’s one thing furder, Mas’r Davy,’ said he, putting his hand in his
breast-pocket, and gravely taking out the little paper bundle I had seen
before, which he unrolled on the table. ‘Theer’s these here banknotes—fifty
pound, and ten. To them I wish to add the money as she come away with.
I’ve asked her about that (but not saying why), and have added of it up. I
an’t a scholar. Would you be so kind as see how ‘tis?’</p>
<p>He handed me, apologetically for his scholarship, a piece of paper, and
observed me while I looked it over. It was quite right.</p>
<p>‘Thankee, sir,’ he said, taking it back. ‘This money, if you doen’t see
objections, Mas’r Davy, I shall put up jest afore I go, in a cover
directed to him; and put that up in another, directed to his mother. I
shall tell her, in no more wureds than I speak to you, what it’s the price
on; and that I’m gone, and past receiving of it back.’</p>
<p>I told him that I thought it would be right to do so—that I was
thoroughly convinced it would be, since he felt it to be right.</p>
<p>‘I said that theer was on’y one thing furder,’ he proceeded with a grave
smile, when he had made up his little bundle again, and put it in his
pocket; ‘but theer was two. I warn’t sure in my mind, wen I come out this
morning, as I could go and break to Ham, of my own self, what had so
thankfully happened. So I writ a letter while I was out, and put it in the
post-office, telling of ‘em how all was as ‘tis; and that I should come
down tomorrow to unload my mind of what little needs a-doing of down
theer, and, most-like, take my farewell leave of Yarmouth.’</p>
<p>‘And do you wish me to go with you?’ said I, seeing that he left something
unsaid.</p>
<p>‘If you could do me that kind favour, Mas’r Davy,’ he replied. ‘I know the
sight on you would cheer ‘em up a bit.’</p>
<p>My little Dora being in good spirits, and very desirous that I should go—as
I found on talking it over with her—I readily pledged myself to
accompany him in accordance with his wish. Next morning, consequently, we
were on the Yarmouth coach, and again travelling over the old ground.</p>
<p>As we passed along the familiar street at night—Mr. Peggotty, in
despite of all my remonstrances, carrying my bag—I glanced into Omer
and Joram’s shop, and saw my old friend Mr. Omer there, smoking his pipe.
I felt reluctant to be present, when Mr. Peggotty first met his sister and
Ham; and made Mr. Omer my excuse for lingering behind.</p>
<p>‘How is Mr. Omer, after this long time?’ said I, going in.</p>
<p>He fanned away the smoke of his pipe, that he might get a better view of
me, and soon recognized me with great delight.</p>
<p>‘I should get up, sir, to acknowledge such an honour as this visit,’ said
he, ‘only my limbs are rather out of sorts, and I am wheeled about. With
the exception of my limbs and my breath, howsoever, I am as hearty as a
man can be, I’m thankful to say.’</p>
<p>I congratulated him on his contented looks and his good spirits, and saw,
now, that his easy-chair went on wheels.</p>
<p>‘It’s an ingenious thing, ain’t it?’ he inquired, following the direction
of my glance, and polishing the elbow with his arm. ‘It runs as light as a
feather, and tracks as true as a mail-coach. Bless you, my little Minnie—my
grand-daughter you know, Minnie’s child—puts her little strength
against the back, gives it a shove, and away we go, as clever and merry as
ever you see anything! And I tell you what—it’s a most uncommon
chair to smoke a pipe in.’</p>
<p>I never saw such a good old fellow to make the best of a thing, and find
out the enjoyment of it, as Mr. Omer. He was as radiant, as if his chair,
his asthma, and the failure of his limbs, were the various branches of a
great invention for enhancing the luxury of a pipe.</p>
<p>‘I see more of the world, I can assure you,’ said Mr. Omer, ‘in this
chair, than ever I see out of it. You’d be surprised at the number of
people that looks in of a day to have a chat. You really would! There’s
twice as much in the newspaper, since I’ve taken to this chair, as there
used to be. As to general reading, dear me, what a lot of it I do get
through! That’s what I feel so strong, you know! If it had been my eyes,
what should I have done? If it had been my ears, what should I have done?
Being my limbs, what does it signify? Why, my limbs only made my breath
shorter when I used ‘em. And now, if I want to go out into the street or
down to the sands, I’ve only got to call Dick, Joram’s youngest ‘prentice,
and away I go in my own carriage, like the Lord Mayor of London.’</p>
<p>He half suffocated himself with laughing here.</p>
<p>‘Lord bless you!’ said Mr. Omer, resuming his pipe, ‘a man must take the
fat with the lean; that’s what he must make up his mind to, in this life.
Joram does a fine business. Ex-cellent business!’</p>
<p>‘I am very glad to hear it,’ said I.</p>
<p>‘I knew you would be,’ said Mr. Omer. ‘And Joram and Minnie are like
Valentines. What more can a man expect? What’s his limbs to that!’</p>
<p>His supreme contempt for his own limbs, as he sat smoking, was one of the
pleasantest oddities I have ever encountered.</p>
<p>‘And since I’ve took to general reading, you’ve took to general writing,
eh, sir?’ said Mr. Omer, surveying me admiringly. ‘What a lovely work that
was of yours! What expressions in it! I read it every word—every
word. And as to feeling sleepy! Not at all!’</p>
<p>I laughingly expressed my satisfaction, but I must confess that I thought
this association of ideas significant.</p>
<p>‘I give you my word and honour, sir,’ said Mr. Omer, ‘that when I lay that
book upon the table, and look at it outside; compact in three separate and
indiwidual wollumes—one, two, three; I am as proud as Punch to think
that I once had the honour of being connected with your family. And dear
me, it’s a long time ago, now, ain’t it? Over at Blunderstone. With a
pretty little party laid along with the other party. And you quite a small
party then, yourself. Dear, dear!’</p>
<p>I changed the subject by referring to Emily. After assuring him that I did
not forget how interested he had always been in her, and how kindly he had
always treated her, I gave him a general account of her restoration to her
uncle by the aid of Martha; which I knew would please the old man. He
listened with the utmost attention, and said, feelingly, when I had done:</p>
<p>‘I am rejoiced at it, sir! It’s the best news I have heard for many a day.
Dear, dear, dear! And what’s going to be undertook for that unfortunate
young woman, Martha, now?’</p>
<p>‘You touch a point that my thoughts have been dwelling on since
yesterday,’ said I, ‘but on which I can give you no information yet, Mr.
Omer. Mr. Peggotty has not alluded to it, and I have a delicacy in doing
so. I am sure he has not forgotten it. He forgets nothing that is
disinterested and good.’</p>
<p>‘Because you know,’ said Mr. Omer, taking himself up, where he had left
off, ‘whatever is done, I should wish to be a member of. Put me down for
anything you may consider right, and let me know. I never could think the
girl all bad, and I am glad to find she’s not. So will my daughter Minnie
be. Young women are contradictory creatures in some things—her
mother was just the same as her—but their hearts are soft and kind.
It’s all show with Minnie, about Martha. Why she should consider it
necessary to make any show, I don’t undertake to tell you. But it’s all
show, bless you. She’d do her any kindness in private. So, put me down for
whatever you may consider right, will you be so good? and drop me a line
where to forward it. Dear me!’ said Mr. Omer, ‘when a man is drawing on to
a time of life, where the two ends of life meet; when he finds himself,
however hearty he is, being wheeled about for the second time, in a
speeches of go-cart; he should be over-rejoiced to do a kindness if he
can. He wants plenty. And I don’t speak of myself, particular,’ said Mr.
Omer, ‘because, sir, the way I look at it is, that we are all drawing on
to the bottom of the hill, whatever age we are, on account of time never
standing still for a single moment. So let us always do a kindness, and be
over-rejoiced. To be sure!’</p>
<p>He knocked the ashes out of his pipe, and put it on a ledge in the back of
his chair, expressly made for its reception.</p>
<p>‘There’s Em’ly’s cousin, him that she was to have been married to,’ said
Mr. Omer, rubbing his hands feebly, ‘as fine a fellow as there is in
Yarmouth! He’ll come and talk or read to me, in the evening, for an hour
together sometimes. That’s a kindness, I should call it! All his life’s a
kindness.’</p>
<p>‘I am going to see him now,’ said I.</p>
<p>‘Are you?’ said Mr. Omer. ‘Tell him I was hearty, and sent my respects.
Minnie and Joram’s at a ball. They would be as proud to see you as I am,
if they was at home. Minnie won’t hardly go out at all, you see, “on
account of father”, as she says. So I swore tonight, that if she didn’t
go, I’d go to bed at six. In consequence of which,’ Mr. Omer shook himself
and his chair with laughter at the success of his device, ‘she and Joram’s
at a ball.’</p>
<p>I shook hands with him, and wished him good night.</p>
<p>‘Half a minute, sir,’ said Mr. Omer. ‘If you was to go without seeing my
little elephant, you’d lose the best of sights. You never see such a
sight! Minnie!’ A musical little voice answered, from somewhere upstairs,
‘I am coming, grandfather!’ and a pretty little girl with long, flaxen,
curling hair, soon came running into the shop.</p>
<p>‘This is my little elephant, sir,’ said Mr. Omer, fondling the child.
‘Siamese breed, sir. Now, little elephant!’</p>
<p>The little elephant set the door of the parlour open, enabling me to see
that, in these latter days, it was converted into a bedroom for Mr. Omer
who could not be easily conveyed upstairs; and then hid her pretty
forehead, and tumbled her long hair, against the back of Mr. Omer’s chair.</p>
<p>‘The elephant butts, you know, sir,’ said Mr. Omer, winking, ‘when he goes
at a object. Once, elephant. Twice. Three times!’</p>
<p>At this signal, the little elephant, with a dexterity that was next to
marvellous in so small an animal, whisked the chair round with Mr. Omer in
it, and rattled it off, pell-mell, into the parlour, without touching the
door-post: Mr. Omer indescribably enjoying the performance, and looking
back at me on the road as if it were the triumphant issue of his life’s
exertions.</p>
<p>After a stroll about the town I went to Ham’s house. Peggotty had now
removed here for good; and had let her own house to the successor of Mr.
Barkis in the carrying business, who had paid her very well for the
good-will, cart, and horse. I believe the very same slow horse that Mr.
Barkis drove was still at work.</p>
<p>I found them in the neat kitchen, accompanied by Mrs. Gummidge, who had
been fetched from the old boat by Mr. Peggotty himself. I doubt if she
could have been induced to desert her post, by anyone else. He had
evidently told them all. Both Peggotty and Mrs. Gummidge had their aprons
to their eyes, and Ham had just stepped out ‘to take a turn on the beach’.
He presently came home, very glad to see me; and I hope they were all the
better for my being there. We spoke, with some approach to cheerfulness,
of Mr. Peggotty’s growing rich in a new country, and of the wonders he
would describe in his letters. We said nothing of Emily by name, but
distantly referred to her more than once. Ham was the serenest of the
party.</p>
<p>But, Peggotty told me, when she lighted me to a little chamber where the
Crocodile book was lying ready for me on the table, that he always was the
same. She believed (she told me, crying) that he was broken-hearted;
though he was as full of courage as of sweetness, and worked harder and
better than any boat-builder in any yard in all that part. There were
times, she said, of an evening, when he talked of their old life in the
boat-house; and then he mentioned Emily as a child. But, he never
mentioned her as a woman.</p>
<p>I thought I had read in his face that he would like to speak to me alone.
I therefore resolved to put myself in his way next evening, as he came
home from his work. Having settled this with myself, I fell asleep. That
night, for the first time in all those many nights, the candle was taken
out of the window, Mr. Peggotty swung in his old hammock in the old boat,
and the wind murmured with the old sound round his head.</p>
<p>All next day, he was occupied in disposing of his fishing-boat and tackle;
in packing up, and sending to London by waggon, such of his little
domestic possessions as he thought would be useful to him; and in parting
with the rest, or bestowing them on Mrs. Gummidge. She was with him all
day. As I had a sorrowful wish to see the old place once more, before it
was locked up, I engaged to meet them there in the evening. But I so
arranged it, as that I should meet Ham first.</p>
<p>It was easy to come in his way, as I knew where he worked. I met him at a
retired part of the sands, which I knew he would cross, and turned back
with him, that he might have leisure to speak to me if he really wished. I
had not mistaken the expression of his face. We had walked but a little
way together, when he said, without looking at me:</p>
<p>‘Mas’r Davy, have you seen her?’</p>
<p>‘Only for a moment, when she was in a swoon,’ I softly answered.</p>
<p>We walked a little farther, and he said:</p>
<p>‘Mas’r Davy, shall you see her, d’ye think?’</p>
<p>‘It would be too painful to her, perhaps,’ said I.</p>
<p>‘I have thowt of that,’ he replied. ‘So ‘twould, sir, so ‘twould.’</p>
<p>‘But, Ham,’ said I, gently, ‘if there is anything that I could write to
her, for you, in case I could not tell it; if there is anything you would
wish to make known to her through me; I should consider it a sacred
trust.’</p>
<p>‘I am sure on’t. I thankee, sir, most kind! I think theer is something I
could wish said or wrote.’</p>
<p>‘What is it?’</p>
<p>We walked a little farther in silence, and then he spoke.</p>
<p>‘’Tan’t that I forgive her. ‘Tan’t that so much. ‘Tis more as I beg of her
to forgive me, for having pressed my affections upon her. Odd times, I
think that if I hadn’t had her promise fur to marry me, sir, she was that
trustful of me, in a friendly way, that she’d have told me what was
struggling in her mind, and would have counselled with me, and I might
have saved her.’</p>
<p>I pressed his hand. ‘Is that all?’ ‘Theer’s yet a something else,’ he
returned, ‘if I can say it, Mas’r Davy.’</p>
<p>We walked on, farther than we had walked yet, before he spoke again. He
was not crying when he made the pauses I shall express by lines. He was
merely collecting himself to speak very plainly.</p>
<p>‘I loved her—and I love the mem’ry of her—too deep—to be
able to lead her to believe of my own self as I’m a happy man. I could
only be happy—by forgetting of her—and I’m afeerd I couldn’t
hardly bear as she should be told I done that. But if you, being so full
of learning, Mas’r Davy, could think of anything to say as might bring her
to believe I wasn’t greatly hurt: still loving of her, and mourning for
her: anything as might bring her to believe as I was not tired of my life,
and yet was hoping fur to see her without blame, wheer the wicked cease
from troubling and the weary are at rest—anything as would ease her
sorrowful mind, and yet not make her think as I could ever marry, or as
‘twas possible that anyone could ever be to me what she was—I should
ask of you to say that—with my prayers for her—that was so
dear.’</p>
<p>I pressed his manly hand again, and told him I would charge myself to do
this as well as I could.</p>
<p>‘I thankee, sir,’ he answered. ‘’Twas kind of you to meet me. ‘Twas kind
of you to bear him company down. Mas’r Davy, I unnerstan’ very well,
though my aunt will come to Lon’on afore they sail, and they’ll unite once
more, that I am not like to see him agen. I fare to feel sure on’t. We
doen’t say so, but so ‘twill be, and better so. The last you see on him—the
very last—will you give him the lovingest duty and thanks of the
orphan, as he was ever more than a father to?’</p>
<p>This I also promised, faithfully.</p>
<p>‘I thankee agen, sir,’ he said, heartily shaking hands. ‘I know wheer
you’re a-going. Good-bye!’</p>
<p>With a slight wave of his hand, as though to explain to me that he could
not enter the old place, he turned away. As I looked after his figure,
crossing the waste in the moonlight, I saw him turn his face towards a
strip of silvery light upon the sea, and pass on, looking at it, until he
was a shadow in the distance.</p>
<p>The door of the boat-house stood open when I approached; and, on entering,
I found it emptied of all its furniture, saving one of the old lockers, on
which Mrs. Gummidge, with a basket on her knee, was seated, looking at Mr.
Peggotty. He leaned his elbow on the rough chimney-piece, and gazed upon a
few expiring embers in the grate; but he raised his head, hopefully, on my
coming in, and spoke in a cheery manner.</p>
<p>‘Come, according to promise, to bid farewell to ‘t, eh, Mas’r Davy?’ he
said, taking up the candle. ‘Bare enough, now, an’t it?’ ‘Indeed you have
made good use of the time,’ said I.</p>
<p>‘Why, we have not been idle, sir. Missis Gummidge has worked like a—I
doen’t know what Missis Gummidge an’t worked like,’ said Mr. Peggotty,
looking at her, at a loss for a sufficiently approving simile.</p>
<p>Mrs. Gummidge, leaning on her basket, made no observation.</p>
<p>‘Theer’s the very locker that you used to sit on, ‘long with Em’ly!’ said
Mr. Peggotty, in a whisper. ‘I’m a-going to carry it away with me, last of
all. And heer’s your old little bedroom, see, Mas’r Davy! A’most as bleak
tonight, as ‘art could wish!’</p>
<p>In truth, the wind, though it was low, had a solemn sound, and crept
around the deserted house with a whispered wailing that was very mournful.
Everything was gone, down to the little mirror with the oyster-shell
frame. I thought of myself, lying here, when that first great change was
being wrought at home. I thought of the blue-eyed child who had enchanted
me. I thought of Steerforth: and a foolish, fearful fancy came upon me of
his being near at hand, and liable to be met at any turn.</p>
<p>‘’Tis like to be long,’ said Mr. Peggotty, in a low voice, ‘afore the boat
finds new tenants. They look upon ‘t, down heer, as being unfortunate
now!’</p>
<p>‘Does it belong to anybody in the neighbourhood?’ I asked.</p>
<p>‘To a mast-maker up town,’ said Mr. Peggotty. ‘I’m a-going to give the key
to him tonight.’</p>
<p>We looked into the other little room, and came back to Mrs. Gummidge,
sitting on the locker, whom Mr. Peggotty, putting the light on the
chimney-piece, requested to rise, that he might carry it outside the door
before extinguishing the candle.</p>
<p>‘Dan’l,’ said Mrs. Gummidge, suddenly deserting her basket, and clinging
to his arm ‘my dear Dan’l, the parting words I speak in this house is, I
mustn’t be left behind. Doen’t ye think of leaving me behind, Dan’l! Oh,
doen’t ye ever do it!’</p>
<p>Mr. Peggotty, taken aback, looked from Mrs. Gummidge to me, and from me to
Mrs. Gummidge, as if he had been awakened from a sleep.</p>
<p>‘Doen’t ye, dearest Dan’l, doen’t ye!’ cried Mrs. Gummidge, fervently.
‘Take me ‘long with you, Dan’l, take me ‘long with you and Em’ly! I’ll be
your servant, constant and trew. If there’s slaves in them parts where
you’re a-going, I’ll be bound to you for one, and happy, but doen’t ye
leave me behind, Dan’l, that’s a deary dear!’</p>
<p>‘My good soul,’ said Mr. Peggotty, shaking his head, ‘you doen’t know what
a long voyage, and what a hard life ‘tis!’ ‘Yes, I do, Dan’l! I can
guess!’ cried Mrs. Gummidge. ‘But my parting words under this roof is, I
shall go into the house and die, if I am not took. I can dig, Dan’l. I can
work. I can live hard. I can be loving and patient now—more than you
think, Dan’l, if you’ll on’y try me. I wouldn’t touch the ‘lowance, not if
I was dying of want, Dan’l Peggotty; but I’ll go with you and Em’ly, if
you’ll on’y let me, to the world’s end! I know how ‘tis; I know you think
that I am lone and lorn; but, deary love, ‘tan’t so no more! I ain’t sat
here, so long, a-watching, and a-thinking of your trials, without some
good being done me. Mas’r Davy, speak to him for me! I knows his ways, and
Em’ly’s, and I knows their sorrows, and can be a comfort to ‘em, some odd
times, and labour for ‘em allus! Dan’l, deary Dan’l, let me go ‘long with
you!’</p>
<p>And Mrs. Gummidge took his hand, and kissed it with a homely pathos and
affection, in a homely rapture of devotion and gratitude, that he well
deserved.</p>
<p>We brought the locker out, extinguished the candle, fastened the door on
the outside, and left the old boat close shut up, a dark speck in the
cloudy night. Next day, when we were returning to London outside the
coach, Mrs. Gummidge and her basket were on the seat behind, and Mrs.
Gummidge was happy.</p>
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