Lord—who has always guided me, when I do not depart too far<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_359" id="Page_359">[359]</SPAN></span>
from Him—that this happened so; for my heart was up, and
my brain had not a whisper left in it. Life and death are mere
gossamer, at such moments.</p>
<p>On the table lay a long sharp ham-knife. If Bulwrag had
said a word, or even stirred, he would never have done one or
other again. That knife would have been in his heart. And
I—well, the gallows and the devil would be welcome to me
afterwards. He saw my eyes dwell on that blade, and he was
cowed. He knew that he had a madman standing over him;
and happily for both of us, he fell into a faint.</p>
<p>“Blackguard,” I shouted, “you have had a narrow shave.
This comes of meddling between man and wife.”</p>
<p>I seized the long knife, while he pawed with his fat hands,
and flung it just clear of his big yellow head. The blade cleft
the panel of black oak behind him, and quivered, and rang like
the tongue of a bell.</p>
<p>Without another word I left him thus, flinging the door of
the room wide open, that every one might see his condition.
The footman, or whatever he called himself, fell back against
the wall, and let me pass, which was the only wise thing he
could do. Then I walked away quietly, and found my horse,
and declining all talk with Mrs. Wilcox rode back to Sunbury
with a great weight off my mind.</p>
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<h2>CHAPTER LVI.<br/> <small>ANOTHER TRACE.</small></h2>
<p class="unindent"><span class="smcap">So</span> far as my experience goes, it has never been an easy thing
to find a man in whom the sense of justice is adjusted perfectly.
That is to say, not overdrawn, nor strained to a pitch
that is at discord with all human nature; neither on the other
hand so lax and flabby, that it yields to every breath, and has
no distinctive tone. Therefore I cannot expect to be approved
by everybody for my recent act; but the glow of a tender
conscience told me that I had not behaved amiss.</p>
<p>Yet the remembrance of my own rage, and utter loss of
self-command, frightened me more than I can express, for a
single word, a look, a gesture, even a flicker across my own
will would have made me then and there a murderer. What<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_360" id="Page_360">[360]</SPAN></span>
a thing for Kitty to hear—if ever she should hear of me again—that
my unhappy love of her had been cut short by the
hangman! I formed the sensible resolve to keep out of Bulwrag’s
way henceforth, unless he should come to seek me; and
then his blood must be on his own head.</p>
<p>At first I did not tell my uncle of that brief but hot engagement,
because, as I came to think about it, the folly of it
dawned on me. For the fierce enjoyment of a minute, I had
sacrificed all hope of tracing such faint clues as we had won,
and I had shown the arch-enemy in the most palpable form,
my suspicions of him. This was unsound policy, and I was
loth to confess it yet, lest my chief friend should be discouraged,
as well as angry with me. However, the whole thing soon
came out, and with so much more tacked on to it, that I was
forced to recount the simple facts. But instead of being vexed,
as in my opinion a truly wise man must have been, my uncle
shouted with delight, and shook his thick sides with laughter.</p>
<p>“So you pulled his nose! Kit Orchardson pulled the nose
of the future Lord Roarmore, and the son-in-law of the Earl
of Clerinhouse! Show me how you did it. This is too fine!”</p>
<p>“No. I scarcely pulled his nose. I cannot be said to have
pulled his nose. All I did was to take him by the nose, and he
came after it wonderfully.”</p>
<p>“I see, I see. He just followed his nose; and a lawyer
could prove that there was no assault. A man follows his
nose without assault or battery. Well, I never thought you
were so clever, Kit.”</p>
<p>“Because I never boast,” I answered calmly; and it
struck him for the first time that this might be so.</p>
<p>“What will he do?” he asked; “whatever will he do?
He can’t very well put up with it; and yet how can he get
satisfaction? You wouldn’t fight him, I suppose, even if he
deigned to ask you.”</p>
<p>“I never thought of it. Let him try. He has done the
wickedness. What I have done is nothing.”</p>
<p>“Well, I think it was something good—the very best
thing you could have done; much better than knocking him
down, or even cow-hiding him, as the Yankees say. How
your Aunt Parslow will be delighted! She is coming over
here to-morrow. You know what you put into her head.
She will call on the parson again about it. The poor girl is
very ill; worse than ever. I hope he will agree to it.”</p>
<p>“Aunt Parslow seems very fond of Sunbury now,” I<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_361" id="Page_361">[361]</SPAN></span>
replied, with a curious glance at him; “why should she
always be coming over here so?”</p>
<p>“You had better ask her. I daresay she can answer for
herself. You must not expect to pull everybody’s nose.”</p>
<p>It had lately appeared to me, more and more, as if my
Aunt Parslow were beginning to set her cap at my Uncle Corny;
or rather—to put it more politely—as if he were doffing his
wide-awake to her—a wide-awake proceeding, no doubt, on his
part, and a proof of capacity on hers; but not a thing at all to
my liking, nor in any way savouring of those lofty feelings
which are so essential to wedlock. And without any mercenary
motives whatever, or even a dream of self-seeking, I had felt
(with good grounds for it) a delicate and genial interest in my
dear aunt’s affairs. If after countless years of single blessedness,
she thought to double the rest by a joint-stock company,
all I could do was to wish her well, and hope profoundly for
her happiness. There were few better men than my Uncle
Corny, and no woman better than my Aunt Parslow; and
they might rub on together rarely, if each would let the other
rub, fair turn and turn about. But I feared that they scarcely
had the give-and-take for that, and being both of strong metal,
it would come to groans and sparks.</p>
<p>Nevertheless I must put up with events; and the little
inquiry I had offered, as above, had not been received with
gratitude. The surest way to bring this wild idea into fact,
would be for me to show opposition to it. But I knew that
Aunt Parslow was still romantic, as all women of true nature
are. She had felt her own love affairs in early days; but she
would not want to think that Uncle Corny had felt his; and
I resolved to let her hear of them by his own sighs; if he could
be brought to sigh about anything but markets.</p>
<p>When she arrived the next day, I saw that she was in fine
spirits. But a little ashamed, as it seemed to me, of the exceedingly
spirited dress she wore, quite as if she were going to
the races. Moreover, she had brought <i>Jupiter</i>, as if to introduce
him to some one who might influence his future life; and
at this I ventured to express surprise, in a friendly manner, and
with my hand upon his head.</p>
<p>“Oh, he does love a change, and it does him so much good!”
she exclaimed, as if she had been in her teens; “and I should
like to hear what Mr. Orchardson thinks of him. He is a good
judge of dogs, you said.”</p>
<p>Alas, if one ever tells a story, how quick it is in kicking up<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_362" id="Page_362">[362]</SPAN></span>
its heels! In charity, I had said something of the kind, when
I wished to make goodwill between them. Here was <i>Jupiter</i>
come to prove me a liar, and perhaps to sway my destinies.</p>
<p>“Don’t get out with that lovely dress on,” I said very craftily.
“Let us go down to Mr. Golightly’s; I know that you
want to see him. I will jump on the box, and show coachy the
way. It will save you a lot of trouble.”</p>
<p>Accordingly we drove on to the parson’s, and I went in to
announce her. She had called upon him twice before, and he
liked her, and was grateful for her good intentions.</p>
<p>He received us kindly; but we could see that his heart was
in nothing he was talking of. He looked most sadly worn
and thin, and his eyes fell every now and then, as a short low
cough came from another room.</p>
<p>“And how is your sweet Bessy?” Miss Parslow asked;
“you know she is quite an old friend of mine. What a favour
you could do me, if you only would! I have taken such
a liking to her.”</p>
<p>“And she to you. I will go and fetch her. I fear you will
find her looking very little stronger.”</p>
<p>“Call this furniture! I call it hardware,” my aunt said in
a low tone, when he had left the room; “no wonder the poor
girl is all bones. Now back me up, Kit, about Baycliff. It is
your prescription, you remember.”</p>
<p>It was as much as my aunt could do, being of a very kindly
nature, to keep a smile upon her face, when the sickly girl
came towards her. And the father looked from one to the
other, and tried to make some little joke, but his eyes were
sparkling with something else.</p>
<p>“You know what you promised me, my dear, if your good
father would allow it;” Miss Parslow stroked her silky hair,
and looked into her soft eyes, as she spoke; “and now everything
is arranged and settled, I am sure you will not throw
me over. The rooms are taken, and I cannot go alone; it would
be so miserable for me. Your father will come to see you
every week, and you shall teach him to catch prawns. And
where do you suppose it is? Not at any strange place at all, but
a place my nephew knows quite well, and the very same house
that he was in. And he would come down, and be near us.”</p>
<p>“Oh, that would be nice. I should not feel strange. Kit
is so kind and gentle to me. I like to be where Kit is.”</p>
<p>She came and placed her thin hands in mine; for I had
become like an elder brother to her. She knew of my<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_363" id="Page_363">[363]</SPAN></span>
sorrow, and I of hers. It was not this world that she grieved to
quit, but her father all alone in it.</p>
<p>It was a terrible pain to me, and almost more than I could
bear, to find myself in this lovely place, without any love to
respond to it. At every turn there was something to recall, at
every view of gliding boat, or breaking wave, or flitting gull,
some memory of a trifle said, and misery of having no one now
to say it. But for the good of others I was forced to put these
fancies by, for we could not have found another spot so suitable
for the poor sick child. And as it proved, there was something
even here to compensate me.</p>
<p>It had not been thought worth while to take any lodgings for
me in the place, as I could not be spared throughout the week
from the busy fruit season at Sunbury. Whenever I found
time to run down to Baycliff, I could get a bed at the inn, and
spend the day with my aunt and her delicate charge. This
suited me also much better, because I did not like to be long
away from the neighbourhood of London, where, as I always
felt somehow, the strange mystery of my life must be cleared
up, if it ever were so.</p>
<p>Mrs. Perowne was a very nice person, and deeply interested
in our affairs. Kitty and I had lodged with her for a week,
and although we could not afford to take her best rooms, she
treated us exactly like first-floor people, and would have kept
us for nothing, as she assured us, if only she could have
afforded it. And now it rejoiced me to do her a good turn, by
inducting my aunt at three guineas a week, which was nothing
for her to think twice of. Six of the Leatherhead dogs came
down for the refreshment of their systems, and Miss Golightly
was delighted with them, and spent half the day on the sands
scratching their heads. The weather was all that could be
wished, for we were come to the end of September now; and
the summer as a whole had done its utmost to atone for the
atrocities of the year before.</p>
<p>Mrs. Perowne and Miss Parslow now were as good friends
as any two people can be, with money coming weekly between
them. And they never spent less than an hour a day in talking
of my loss and wondering. Till it chanced that the landlady
called to mind a little thing that happened after we had left
her, and to which she had paid no attention at the time. But
my aunt considered it of some importance, and begged her to
tell me all about it, the very next Saturday I should come down.</p>
<p>“Well, Mr. Kit,” she said, upon the Sunday morning, for,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_364" id="Page_364">[364]</SPAN></span>
I had been too late on Saturday to see them; “it may have
been a week after you were gone, or it may have been no more
than one day, but at any rate there came to this house a very
quiet gentleman, not over young, about fifty you might say,
and not over tall, but about half-way between five feet and
six feet, and he asked for you—Mr. Orchardson by name, and
then the new Mrs. Orchardson. And when our Jenny told
him that you were gone, he sighed, Jenny says—though you
never must be certain of anything that Jenny says—just as if
he had lost his pocket-book. And then he asked for me, and
he was shown up here, the drawing-room floor being vacant, as
you may remember; and I came up to see him, but I happened
to be a little flustered, about having all the house on my hands
so. And when I found that he was not even looking out for
lodgings, perhaps I was a little short with him. But whether
or no, he did not push on with his questions as some people do.
But he took up his hat, and begged me to excuse him for
intruding upon my valuable time, and away he went with a
very solid walk, and I was sorry afterwards.”</p>
<p>“But what was he like? Can you at all describe him?
Even his dress would help a little.” I thought it most likely
that this was the man who had come for my Kitty in Philip
Moggs’ boat, and taken her doubtless in Clipson’s cab from
Shepperton to Woking Road.</p>
<p>“I think I should know him, if I saw him again; but
I won’t be quite sure,” replied Mrs. Perowne; “he was a
gentleman I should say decidedly, though not in a fashionable
cut of clothes; and I think he had gray hair, though I won’t
be sure, because so many people have that now. He looked
highly educated, and his voice was very nice, and he wore a
broad hat with a cord to it.”</p>
<p>“Why, it must be the Professor himself,” exclaimed my
aunt; “according to all I have heard of him, and according
to your description, Kit. He came to see how you were getting
on, and whether you and Kitty had fought yet.”</p>
<p>“Oh, that reminds me of a curious thing; and I thought
it so odd,” said the landlady; “he did seem to think that you
must have quarrelled, or at least that there was something
unpleasant between you, I remember now that he did quite
well, because I was astonished at such an idea. For if ever
there was a young couple suited—intended by the Lord for one
another—”</p>
<p>“It cannot have been the Professor,” I broke in, “for the<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_365" id="Page_365">[365]</SPAN></span>
simple reason that he must already have left the shores of
England. We had a telegram from Falmouth proving that.
And her father would never for a moment have imagined that
Kitty and I had fallen out already. What did this man say,
to show that he supposed it?”</p>
<p>“Well, I don’t know that he did exactly that; but he
inquired particularly about your health, or rather I should say
your state of mind, as if you were not quite—you know what I
mean—as if you were rather flighty, sir.”</p>
<p>“Well, and so I am,” I answered smiling; “a great many
people would have flown off altogether, if they had been through
half what I have. And now this again is another wicked
puzzle for me. The only thing certain is that I shall never find
it out. I always come just a bit too late. I hear of a thing
when it is no good. I inquire of people, when they have
forgotten everything.”</p>
<p>This was rather rude of me; for Mrs. Perowne had done
her best to assist me; and she could not be blamed for not
talking by the hour with a stranger, about her late lodger’s
affairs.</p>
<p>“Did he say what he meant to do?” I asked, for really all
these things were very tantalizing; “did he give you any idea
why he should take such an interest in us? Did he ask
where we were? Did he mention my uncle? Did he go on,
as if—”</p>
<p>“I am truly sorry, Mr. Kit, I am indeed. But I can’t tell
you another thing about him. And I am not sure that all I
have told you occurred. Some of it may have come out of
my own head, I can’t carry everything, I can’t indeed.”</p>
<p>Mrs. Perowne was almost crying, and it was plainly useless
to question her further. Such is evidence, even with
people who are not fools, and who do their very best. Yet in
a court of justice, an unhappy witness is badgered and insulted
by some brazen-headed fellow, who could not tell a tale
himself in its true order, if he had just read it in a spelling-book.</p>
<p>The only conclusion I could come to was that Mrs.
Perowne’s visitor and the passenger in the boat and cab, who
had taken my wife away, were one and the same person,
acting no doubt under Bulwrag’s orders. But why he should
have shown himself in the first case plainly, and made his
second visit in that furtive manner, was more than I could
even pretend to explain.</p>
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