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CHAPTER IV
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MEDITATION AND RECOLLECTION
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<p>Recollection, the art which the practical man is now invited to
learn, is in essence no more and no less than the subjection of the attention to
the control of the will. It is not, therefore, a purely mystical activity. In
one form or another it is demanded of all who would get control of their own
mental processes; and does or should represent the first great step in the
education of the human consciousness. So slothful, however, is man in all that
concerns his higher faculties, that few deliberately undertake this education at
all. They are content to make their contacts with things by a vague, unregulated
power, ever apt to play truant, ever apt to fail them. Unless they be spurred to
it by that passion for ultimate things which expresses itself in religion,
philosophy, or art, they seldom learn the secret of a voluntary concentration of
the mind.</p>
<p>Since the philosopher's interests are mainly objective, and the
artist seldom cogitates on his own processes, it is, in the end, to the initiate
of religion that we are forced to go, if we would learn how to undertake this
training for ourselves. The religious contemplative has this further attraction
for us: that he is by nature a missionary as well. The vision which he has
achieved is the vision of an intensely loving heart; and love, which cannot keep
itself to itself, urges him to tell the news as widely and as clearly as he may.
In his works, he is ever trying to reveal the secret of his own deeper life and
wider vision, and to help his fellow men to share it: hence he provides the
clearest, most orderly, most practical teachings on the art of contemplation
that we are likely to find. True, our purpose in attempting this art may seem to
us very different from his: though if we carry out the principles involved to
their last term, we shall probably find that they have brought us to the place
at which he aimed from the first. But the method, in its earlier stages, must be
the same; whether we call the Reality which is the object of our quest
aesthetic, cosmic, or divine. The athlete must develop much the same muscles,
endure much the same discipline, whatever be the game he means to play.</p>
<p>So we will go straight to St. Teresa, and inquire of her what
was the method by which she taught her daughters to gather themselves together,
to capture and hold the attitude most favourable to communion with the spiritual
world. She tells us--and here she accords with the great tradition of the
Christian contemplatives, a tradition which was evolved under the pressure of
long experience--that the process is a gradual one. The method to be employed is
a slow, patient training of material which the licence of years has made
intractable; not the sudden easy turning of the mind in a new direction, that it
may minister to a new fancy for "the mystical view of things." Recollection
begins, she says, in the deliberate and regular practice of meditation; a
perfectly natural form of mental exercise, though at first a hard one.</p>
<p>Now meditation is a half-way house between thinking and
contemplating: and as a discipline, it derives its chief value from this
transitional character. The real mystical life, which is the truly practical
life, begins at the beginning; not with supernatural acts and ecstatic
apprehensions, but with the normal faculties of the normal man. "I do not
require of you," says Teresa to her pupils in meditation, "to form great and
curious considerations in your understanding: I require of you no more than to
<i>look</i>."</p>
<p>It might be thought that such looking at the spiritual world,
simply, intensely, without cleverness--such an opening of the Eye of
Eternity--was the essence of contemplation itself: and indeed one of the best
definitions has described that art as a "loving sight," a "peering into heaven
with the ghostly eye." But the self who is yet at this early stage of the
pathway to Reality is not asked to look at anything new, to peer into the deeps
of things: only to gaze with a new and cleansed vision on the ordinary
intellectual images, the labels and the formula, the "objects" and ideas--even
the external symbols--amongst which it has always dwelt. It is not yet advanced
to the seeing of fresh landscapes: it is only able to re-examine the furniture
of its home, and obtain from this exercise a skill, and a control of the
attention, which shall afterwards be applied to greater purposes. Its task is
here to <i>consider</i> that furniture, as the Victorines called this
preliminary training: to take, that is, a more starry view of it: standing back
from the whirl of the earth, and observing the process of things.</p>
<p>Take, then, an idea, an object, from amongst the common stock,
and hold it before your mind. The selection is large enough: all sentient beings
may find subjects of meditation to their taste, for there lies a universal
behind every particular of thought, however concrete it may appear, and within
the most rational propositions the meditative eye may glimpse a dream.</p>
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<p> "Reason has moons, but moons not hers<br/>
Lie mirror'd on her sea,<br/>
Confounding her astronomers <br/>
But, O delighting me."</p>
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<p>Even those objects which minister to our sense-life may well be
used to nourish our spirits too. Who has not watched the intent meditations of a
comfortable cat brooding upon the Absolute Mouse? You, if you have a philosophic
twist, may transcend such relative views of Reality, and try to meditate on
Time, Succession, even Being itself: or again on human intercourse, birth,
growth, and death, on a flower, a river, the various tapestries of the sky. Even
your own emotional life will provide you with the ideas of love, joy, peace,
mercy, conflict, desire. You may range, with Kant, from the stars to the moral
law. If your turn be to religion, the richest and most evocative of fields is
open to your choice: from the plaster image to the mysteries of Faith.</p>
<p>But, the choice made, it must be held and defended during the
time of meditation against all invasions from without, however insidious their
encroachments, however "spiritual" their disguise. It must be brooded upon,
gazed at, seized again and again, as distractions seem to snatch it from your
grasp. A restless boredom, a dreary conviction of your own incapacity, will
presently attack you. This, too, must be resisted at sword-point. The first
quarter of an hour thus spent in attempted meditation will be, indeed, a time of
warfare; which should at least convince you how unruly, how ill-educated is your
attention, how miserably ineffective your will, how far away you are from the
captaincy of your own soul. It should convince, too, the most common-sense of
philosophers of the distinction between real time, the true stream of duration
which is life, and the sequence of seconds so carefully measured by the clock.
Never before has the stream flowed so slowly, or fifteen minutes taken so long
to pass. Consciousness has been lifted to a longer, slower rhythm, and is not
yet adjusted to its solemn march.</p>
<p>But, striving for this new poise, intent on the achievement of
it, presently it will happen to you to find that you have indeed--though how you
know not--entered upon a fresh plane of perception, altered your relation with
things.</p>
<p>First, the subject of your meditation begins, as you surrender
to its influence, to exhibit unsuspected meaning, beauty, power. A perpetual
growth of significance keeps pace with the increase of attention which you bring
to bear on it; that attention which is the one agent of all your apprehensions,
physical and mental alike. It ceases to be thin and abstract. You sink as it
were into the deeps of it, rest in it, "unite" with it; and learn, in this
still, intent communion, something of its depth and breadth and height, as we
learn by direct intercourse to know our friends.</p>
<p>Moreover, as your meditation becomes deeper it will defend you
from the perpetual assaults of the outer world. You will hear the busy hum of
that world as a distant exterior melody, and know yourself to be in some sort
withdrawn from it. You have set a ring of silence between you and it; and
behold! within that silence you are free. You will look at the coloured scene,
and it will seem to you thin and papery: only one amongst countless possible
images of a deeper life as yet beyond your reach. And gradually, you will come
to be aware of an entity, a <i>You</i>, who can thus hold at arm's length, be
aware of, look at, an idea--a universe--other than itself. By this voluntary
painful act of concentration, this first step upon the ladder which goes--as the
mystics would say--from "multiplicity to unity," you have to some extent
withdrawn yourself from that union with unrealities, with notions and concepts,
which has hitherto contented you; and at once all the values of existence are
changed. "The road to a Yea lies through a Nay." You, in this preliminary
movement of recollection, are saying your first deliberate No to the claim which
the world of appearance makes to a total possession of your consciousness: and
are thus making possible some contact between that consciousness and the World
of Reality.</p>
<p>Now turn this new purified and universalised gaze back upon
yourself. Observe your own being in a fresh relation with things, and surrender
yourself willingly to the moods of astonishment, humility, joy--perhaps of deep
shame or sudden love--which invade your heart as you look. So doing patiently,
day after day, constantly recapturing the vagrant attention, ever renewing the
struggle for simplicity of sight, you will at last discover that there is
something within you--something behind the fractious, conflicting life of
desire--which you can recollect, gather up, make effective for new life. You
will, in fact, know your own soul for the first time: and learn that there is a
sense in which this real <i>You</i> is distinct from, an alien within, the world
in which you find yourself, as an actor has another life when he is not on the
stage. When you do not merely believe this but know it; when you have achieved
this power of withdrawing yourself, of making this first crude distinction
between appearance and reality, the initial stage of the contemplative life has
been won. It is not much more of an achievement than that first proud effort in
which the baby stands upright for a moment and then relapses to the more natural
and convenient crawl: but it holds within it the same earnest of future
development.</p>
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