<h2>I</h2>
<p>One morning, when Gregor Samsa woke from troubled dreams, he found himself
transformed in his bed into a horrible vermin. He lay on his armour-like back,
and if he lifted his head a little he could see his brown belly, slightly domed
and divided by arches into stiff sections. The bedding was hardly able to cover
it and seemed ready to slide off any moment. His many legs, pitifully thin
compared with the size of the rest of him, waved about helplessly as he looked.</p>
<p>“What’s happened to me?” he thought. It wasn’t a dream.
His room, a proper human room although a little too small, lay peacefully
between its four familiar walls. A collection of textile samples lay spread out
on the table—Samsa was a travelling salesman—and above it there
hung a picture that he had recently cut out of an illustrated magazine and
housed in a nice, gilded frame. It showed a lady fitted out with a fur hat and
fur boa who sat upright, raising a heavy fur muff that covered the whole of her
lower arm towards the viewer.</p>
<p>Gregor then turned to look out the window at the dull weather. Drops of rain
could be heard hitting the pane, which made him feel quite sad. “How
about if I sleep a little bit longer and forget all this nonsense”, he
thought, but that was something he was unable to do because he was used to
sleeping on his right, and in his present state couldn’t get into that
position. However hard he threw himself onto his right, he always rolled back
to where he was. He must have tried it a hundred times, shut his eyes so that
he wouldn’t have to look at the floundering legs, and only stopped when
he began to feel a mild, dull pain there that he had never felt before.</p>
<p>“Oh, God”, he thought, “what a strenuous career it is that
I’ve chosen! Travelling day in and day out. Doing business like this
takes much more effort than doing your own business at home, and on top of that
there’s the curse of travelling, worries about making train connections,
bad and irregular food, contact with different people all the time so that you
can never get to know anyone or become friendly with them. It can all go to
Hell!” He felt a slight itch up on his belly; pushed himself slowly up on
his back towards the headboard so that he could lift his head better; found
where the itch was, and saw that it was covered with lots of little white spots
which he didn’t know what to make of; and when he tried to feel the place
with one of his legs he drew it quickly back because as soon as he touched it
he was overcome by a cold shudder.</p>
<p>He slid back into his former position. “Getting up early all the
time”, he thought, “it makes you stupid. You’ve got to get
enough sleep. Other travelling salesmen live a life of luxury. For instance,
whenever I go back to the guest house during the morning to copy out the
contract, these gentlemen are always still sitting there eating their
breakfasts. I ought to just try that with my boss; I’d get kicked out on
the spot. But who knows, maybe that would be the best thing for me. If I
didn’t have my parents to think about I’d have given in my notice a
long time ago, I’d have gone up to the boss and told him just what I
think, tell him everything I would, let him know just what I feel. He’d
fall right off his desk! And it’s a funny sort of business to be sitting
up there at your desk, talking down at your subordinates from up there,
especially when you have to go right up close because the boss is hard of
hearing. Well, there’s still some hope; once I’ve got the money
together to pay off my parents’ debt to him—another five or six
years I suppose—that’s definitely what I’ll do. That’s
when I’ll make the big change. First of all though, I’ve got to get
up, my train leaves at five.”</p>
<p>And he looked over at the alarm clock, ticking on the chest of drawers.
“God in Heaven!” he thought. It was half past six and the hands
were quietly moving forwards, it was even later than half past, more like
quarter to seven. Had the alarm clock not rung? He could see from the bed that
it had been set for four o’clock as it should have been; it certainly
must have rung. Yes, but was it possible to quietly sleep through that
furniture-rattling noise? True, he had not slept peacefully, but probably all
the more deeply because of that. What should he do now? The next train went at
seven; if he were to catch that he would have to rush like mad and the
collection of samples was still not packed, and he did not at all feel
particularly fresh and lively. And even if he did catch the train he would not
avoid his boss’s anger as the office assistant would have been there to
see the five o’clock train go, he would have put in his report about
Gregor’s not being there a long time ago. The office assistant was the
boss’s man, spineless, and with no understanding. What about if he
reported sick? But that would be extremely strained and suspicious as in
five years of service Gregor had never once yet been ill. His boss would
certainly come round with the doctor from the medical insurance company, accuse
his parents of having a lazy son, and accept the doctor’s recommendation
not to make any claim as the doctor believed that no-one was ever ill but that
many were workshy. And what’s more, would he have been entirely wrong in
this case? Gregor did in fact, apart from excessive sleepiness after sleeping
for so long, feel completely well and even felt much hungrier than usual.</p>
<p>He was still hurriedly thinking all this through, unable to decide to get out
of the bed, when the clock struck quarter to seven. There was a cautious knock
at the door near his head. “Gregor”, somebody called—it was
his mother—“it’s quarter to seven. Didn’t you want to
go somewhere?” That gentle voice! Gregor was shocked when he heard his
own voice answering, it could hardly be recognised as the voice he had had
before. As if from deep inside him, there was a painful and uncontrollable
squeaking mixed in with it, the words could be made out at first but then there
was a sort of echo which made them unclear, leaving the hearer unsure whether
he had heard properly or not. Gregor had wanted to give a full answer and
explain everything, but in the circumstances contented himself with saying:
“Yes, mother, yes, thank-you, I’m getting up now.” The change
in Gregor’s voice probably could not be noticed outside through the
wooden door, as his mother was satisfied with this explanation and shuffled
away. But this short conversation made the other members of the family aware
that Gregor, against their expectations was still at home, and soon his father
came knocking at one of the side doors, gently, but with his fist.
“Gregor, Gregor”, he called, “what’s wrong?” And
after a short while he called again with a warning deepness in his voice:
“Gregor! Gregor!” At the other side door his sister came
plaintively: “Gregor? Aren’t you well? Do you need anything?”
Gregor answered to both sides: “I’m ready, now”, making an
effort to remove all the strangeness from his voice by enunciating very
carefully and putting long pauses between each, individual word. His father
went back to his breakfast, but his sister whispered: “Gregor, open the
door, I beg of you.” Gregor, however, had no thought of opening the door,
and instead congratulated himself for his cautious habit, acquired from his
travelling, of locking all doors at night even when he was at home.</p>
<p>The first thing he wanted to do was to get up in peace without being disturbed,
to get dressed, and most of all to have his breakfast. Only then would he
consider what to do next, as he was well aware that he would not bring his
thoughts to any sensible conclusions by lying in bed. He remembered that he had
often felt a slight pain in bed, perhaps caused by lying awkwardly, but that
had always turned out to be pure imagination and he wondered how his imaginings
would slowly resolve themselves today. He did not have the slightest doubt that
the change in his voice was nothing more than the first sign of a serious cold,
which was an occupational hazard for travelling salesmen.</p>
<p>It was a simple matter to throw off the covers; he only had to blow himself up
a little and they fell off by themselves. But it became difficult after that,
especially as he was so exceptionally broad. He would have used his arms and
his hands to push himself up; but instead of them he only had all those little
legs continuously moving in different directions, and which he was moreover
unable to control. If he wanted to bend one of them, then that was the first
one that would stretch itself out; and if he finally managed to do what he
wanted with that leg, all the others seemed to be set free and would move about
painfully. “This is something that can’t be done in bed”,
Gregor said to himself, “so don’t keep trying to do it”.</p>
<p>The first thing he wanted to do was get the lower part of his body out of the
bed, but he had never seen this lower part, and could not imagine what it
looked like; it turned out to be too hard to move; it went so slowly; and
finally, almost in a frenzy, when he carelessly shoved himself forwards with
all the force he could gather, he chose the wrong direction, hit hard against
the lower bedpost, and learned from the burning pain he felt that the lower
part of his body might well, at present, be the most sensitive.</p>
<p>So then he tried to get the top part of his body out of the bed first,
carefully turning his head to the side. This he managed quite easily, and
despite its breadth and its weight, the bulk of his body eventually followed
slowly in the direction of the head. But when he had at last got his head out
of the bed and into the fresh air it occurred to him that if he let himself
fall it would be a miracle if his head were not injured, so he became afraid to
carry on pushing himself forward the same way. And he could not knock himself
out now at any price; better to stay in bed than lose consciousness.</p>
<p>It took just as much effort to get back to where he had been earlier, but when
he lay there sighing, and was once more watching his legs as they struggled
against each other even harder than before, if that was possible, he could
think of no way of bringing peace and order to this chaos. He told himself once
more that it was not possible for him to stay in bed and that the most sensible
thing to do would be to get free of it in whatever way he could at whatever
sacrifice. At the same time, though, he did not forget to remind himself that
calm consideration was much better than rushing to desperate conclusions. At
times like this he would direct his eyes to the window and look out as clearly
as he could, but unfortunately, even the other side of the narrow street was
enveloped in morning fog and the view had little confidence or cheer to offer
him. “Seven o’clock, already”, he said to himself when the
clock struck again, “seven o’clock, and there’s still a fog
like this.” And he lay there quietly a while longer, breathing lightly as
if he perhaps expected the total stillness to bring things back to their real
and natural state.</p>
<p>But then he said to himself: “Before it strikes quarter past seven
I’ll definitely have to have got properly out of bed. And by then
somebody will have come round from work to ask what’s happened to me as
well, as they open up at work before seven o’clock.” And so he set
himself to the task of swinging the entire length of his body out of the bed
all at the same time. If he succeeded in falling out of bed in this way and
kept his head raised as he did so he could probably avoid injuring it. His back
seemed to be quite hard, and probably nothing would happen to it falling onto
the carpet. His main concern was for the loud noise he was bound to make, and
which even through all the doors would probably raise concern if not alarm. But
it was something that had to be risked.</p>
<p>When Gregor was already sticking half way out of the bed—the new method
was more of a game than an effort, all he had to do was rock back and
forth—it occurred to him how simple everything would be if somebody came
to help him. Two strong people—he had his father and the maid in
mind—would have been more than enough; they would only have to push their
arms under the dome of his back, peel him away from the bed, bend down with the
load and then be patient and careful as he swang over onto the floor, where,
hopefully, the little legs would find a use. Should he really call for help
though, even apart from the fact that all the doors were locked? Despite all
the difficulty he was in, he could not suppress a smile at this thought.</p>
<p>After a while he had already moved so far across that it would have been hard
for him to keep his balance if he rocked too hard. The time was now ten past
seven and he would have to make a final decision very soon. Then there was a
ring at the door of the flat. “That’ll be someone from work”,
he said to himself, and froze very still, although his little legs only became
all the more lively as they danced around. For a moment everything remained
quiet. “They’re not opening the door”, Gregor said to
himself, caught in some nonsensical hope. But then of course, the maid’s
firm steps went to the door as ever and opened it. Gregor only needed to hear
the visitor’s first words of greeting and he knew who it was—the
chief clerk himself. Why did Gregor have to be the only one condemned to work
for a company where they immediately became highly suspicious at the slightest
shortcoming? Were all employees, every one of them, louts, was there not one of
them who was faithful and devoted who would go so mad with pangs of conscience
that he couldn’t get out of bed if he didn’t spend at least a
couple of hours in the morning on company business? Was it really not enough to
let one of the trainees make enquiries—assuming enquiries were even
necessary—did the chief clerk have to come himself, and did they have to
show the whole, innocent family that this was so suspicious that only the chief
clerk could be trusted to have the wisdom to investigate it? And more because
these thoughts had made him upset than through any proper decision, he swang
himself with all his force out of the bed. There was a loud thump, but it
wasn’t really a loud noise. His fall was softened a little by the carpet,
and Gregor’s back was also more elastic than he had thought, which made
the sound muffled and not too noticeable. He had not held his head carefully
enough, though, and hit it as he fell; annoyed and in pain, he turned it and
rubbed it against the carpet.</p>
<p>“Something’s fallen down in there”, said the chief clerk in
the room on the left. Gregor tried to imagine whether something of the sort
that had happened to him today could ever happen to the chief clerk too; you
had to concede that it was possible. But as if in gruff reply to this question,
the chief clerk’s firm footsteps in his highly polished boots could now
be heard in the adjoining room. From the room on his right, Gregor’s
sister whispered to him to let him know: “Gregor, the chief clerk is
here.” “Yes, I know”, said Gregor to himself; but without
daring to raise his voice loud enough for his sister to hear him.</p>
<p>“Gregor”, said his father now from the room to his left, “the
chief clerk has come round and wants to know why you didn’t leave on the
early train. We don’t know what to say to him. And anyway, he wants to
speak to you personally. So please open up this door. I’m sure
he’ll be good enough to forgive the untidiness of your room.” Then
the chief clerk called “Good morning, Mr. Samsa”. “He
isn’t well”, said his mother to the chief clerk, while his father
continued to speak through the door. “He isn’t well, please believe
me. Why else would Gregor have missed a train! The lad only ever thinks about
the business. It nearly makes me cross the way he never goes out in the
evenings; he’s been in town for a week now but stayed home every evening.
He sits with us in the kitchen and just reads the paper or studies train
timetables. His idea of relaxation is working with his fretsaw. He’s made
a little frame, for instance, it only took him two or three evenings,
you’ll be amazed how nice it is; it’s hanging up in his room;
you’ll see it as soon as Gregor opens the door. Anyway, I’m glad
you’re here; we wouldn’t have been able to get Gregor to open the
door by ourselves; he’s so stubborn; and I’m sure he isn’t
well, he said this morning that he is, but he isn’t.”
“I’ll be there in a moment”, said Gregor slowly and
thoughtfully, but without moving so that he would not miss any word of the
conversation. “Well I can’t think of any other way of explaining
it, Mrs. Samsa”, said the chief clerk, “I hope it’s nothing
serious. But on the other hand, I must say that if we people in commerce ever
become slightly unwell then, fortunately or unfortunately as you like, we
simply have to overcome it because of business considerations.”
“Can the chief clerk come in to see you now then?”, asked his
father impatiently, knocking at the door again. “No”, said Gregor.
In the room on his right there followed a painful silence; in the room on his
left his sister began to cry.</p>
<p>So why did his sister not go and join the others? She had probably only just
got up and had not even begun to get dressed. And why was she crying? Was it
because he had not got up, and had not let the chief clerk in, because he was
in danger of losing his job and if that happened his boss would once more
pursue their parents with the same demands as before? There was no need to
worry about things like that yet. Gregor was still there and had not the
slightest intention of abandoning his family. For the time being he just lay
there on the carpet, and no-one who knew the condition he was in would
seriously have expected him to let the chief clerk in. It was only a minor
discourtesy, and a suitable excuse could easily be found for it later on, it
was not something for which Gregor could be sacked on the spot. And it seemed
to Gregor much more sensible to leave him now in peace instead of disturbing
him with talking at him and crying. But the others didn’t know what was
happening, they were worried, that would excuse their behaviour.</p>
<p>The chief clerk now raised his voice, “Mr. Samsa”, he called to
him, “what is wrong? You barricade yourself in your room, give us no more
than yes or no for an answer, you are causing serious and unnecessary concern
to your parents and you fail—and I mention this just by the way—you
fail to carry out your business duties in a way that is quite unheard of.
I’m speaking here on behalf of your parents and of your employer, and
really must request a clear and immediate explanation. I am astonished, quite
astonished. I thought I knew you as a calm and sensible person, and now you
suddenly seem to be showing off with peculiar whims. This morning, your
employer did suggest a possible reason for your failure to appear, it’s
true—it had to do with the money that was recently entrusted to
you—but I came near to giving him my word of honour that that could not
be the right explanation. But now that I see your incomprehensible stubbornness
I no longer feel any wish whatsoever to intercede on your behalf. And nor is
your position all that secure. I had originally intended to say all this to you
in private, but since you cause me to waste my time here for no good reason I
don’t see why your parents should not also learn of it. Your turnover has
been very unsatisfactory of late; I grant you that it’s not the time of
year to do especially good business, we recognise that; but there simply is no
time of year to do no business at all, Mr. Samsa, we cannot allow there to
be.”</p>
<p>“But Sir”, called Gregor, beside himself and forgetting all else in
the excitement, “I’ll open up immediately, just a moment. I’m
slightly unwell, an attack of dizziness, I haven’t been able to get up.
I’m still in bed now. I’m quite fresh again now, though. I’m
just getting out of bed. Just a moment. Be patient! It’s not quite as
easy as I’d thought. I’m quite alright now, though. It’s
shocking, what can suddenly happen to a person! I was quite alright last night,
my parents know about it, perhaps better than me, I had a small symptom of it
last night already. They must have noticed it. I don’t know why I
didn’t let you know at work! But you always think you can get over an
illness without staying at home. Please, don’t make my parents suffer!
There’s no basis for any of the accusations you’re making;
nobody’s ever said a word to me about any of these things. Maybe you
haven’t read the latest contracts I sent in. I’ll set off with the
eight o’clock train, as well, these few hours of rest have given me
strength. You don’t need to wait, sir; I’ll be in the office soon
after you, and please be so good as to tell that to the boss and recommend me
to him!”</p>
<p>And while Gregor gushed out these words, hardly knowing what he was saying, he
made his way over to the chest of drawers—this was easily done, probably
because of the practise he had already had in bed—where he now tried to
get himself upright. He really did want to open the door, really did want to
let them see him and to speak with the chief clerk; the others were being so
insistent, and he was curious to learn what they would say when they caught
sight of him. If they were shocked then it would no longer be Gregor’s
responsibility and he could rest. If, however, they took everything calmly he
would still have no reason to be upset, and if he hurried he really could be at
the station for eight o’clock. The first few times he tried to climb up
on the smooth chest of drawers he just slid down again, but he finally gave
himself one last swing and stood there upright; the lower part of his body was
in serious pain but he no longer gave any attention to it. Now he let himself
fall against the back of a nearby chair and held tightly to the edges of it
with his little legs. By now he had also calmed down, and kept quiet so that he
could listen to what the chief clerk was saying.</p>
<p>“Did you understand a word of all that?” the chief clerk asked his
parents, “surely he’s not trying to make fools of us”.
“Oh, God!” called his mother, who was already in tears, “he
could be seriously ill and we’re making him suffer. Grete! Grete!”
she then cried. “Mother?” his sister called from the other side.
They communicated across Gregor’s room. “You’ll have to go
for the doctor straight away. Gregor is ill. Quick, get the doctor. Did you
hear the way Gregor spoke just now?” “That was the voice of an
animal”, said the chief clerk, with a calmness that was in contrast with
his mother’s screams. “Anna! Anna!” his father called into
the kitchen through the entrance hall, clapping his hands, “get a
locksmith here, now!” And the two girls, their skirts swishing,
immediately ran out through the hall, wrenching open the front door of the flat
as they went. How had his sister managed to get dressed so quickly? There was
no sound of the door banging shut again; they must have left it open; people
often do in homes where something awful has happened.</p>
<p>Gregor, in contrast, had become much calmer. So they couldn’t understand
his words any more, although they seemed clear enough to him, clearer than
before—perhaps his ears had become used to the sound. They had realised,
though, that there was something wrong with him, and were ready to help. The
first response to his situation had been confident and wise, and that made him
feel better. He felt that he had been drawn back in among people, and from the
doctor and the locksmith he expected great and surprising
achievements—although he did not really distinguish one from the other.
Whatever was said next would be crucial, so, in order to make his voice as
clear as possible, he coughed a little, but taking care to do this not too
loudly as even this might well sound different from the way that a human coughs
and he was no longer sure he could judge this for himself. Meanwhile, it had
become very quiet in the next room. Perhaps his parents were sat at the table
whispering with the chief clerk, or perhaps they were all pressed against the
door and listening.</p>
<p>Gregor slowly pushed his way over to the door with the chair. Once there he let
go of it and threw himself onto the door, holding himself upright against it
using the adhesive on the tips of his legs. He rested there a little while to
recover from the effort involved and then set himself to the task of turning
the key in the lock with his mouth. He seemed, unfortunately, to have no proper
teeth—how was he, then, to grasp the key?—but the lack of teeth
was, of course, made up for with a very strong jaw; using the jaw, he really
was able to start the key turning, ignoring the fact that he must have been
causing some kind of damage as a brown fluid came from his mouth, flowed over
the key and dripped onto the floor. “Listen”, said the chief clerk
in the next room, “he’s turning the key.” Gregor was greatly
encouraged by this; but they all should have been calling to him, his father
and his mother too: “Well done, Gregor”, they should have cried,
“keep at it, keep hold of the lock!” And with the idea that they
were all excitedly following his efforts, he bit on the key with all his
strength, paying no attention to the pain he was causing himself. As the key
turned round he turned around the lock with it, only holding himself upright
with his mouth, and hung onto the key or pushed it down again with the whole
weight of his body as needed. The clear sound of the lock as it snapped back
was Gregor’s sign that he could break his concentration, and as he
regained his breath he said to himself: “So, I didn’t need the
locksmith after all”. Then he lay his head on the handle of the door to
open it completely.</p>
<p>Because he had to open the door in this way, it was already wide open before he
could be seen. He had first to slowly turn himself around one of the double
doors, and he had to do it very carefully if he did not want to fall flat on
his back before entering the room. He was still occupied with this difficult
movement, unable to pay attention to anything else, when he heard the chief
clerk exclaim a loud “Oh!”, which sounded like the soughing of the
wind. Now he also saw him—he was the nearest to the door—his hand
pressed against his open mouth and slowly retreating as if driven by a steady
and invisible force. Gregor’s mother, her hair still dishevelled from bed
despite the chief clerk’s being there, looked at his father. Then she
unfolded her arms, took two steps forward towards Gregor and sank down onto the
floor into her skirts that spread themselves out around her as her head
disappeared down onto her breast. His father looked hostile, and clenched his
fists as if wanting to knock Gregor back into his room. Then he looked
uncertainly round the living room, covered his eyes with his hands and wept so
that his powerful chest shook.</p>
<p>So Gregor did not go into the room, but leant against the inside of the other
door which was still held bolted in place. In this way only half of his body
could be seen, along with his head above it which he leant over to one side as
he peered out at the others. Meanwhile the day had become much lighter; part of
the endless, grey-black building on the other side of the street—which
was a hospital—could be seen quite clearly with the austere and regular
line of windows piercing its façade; the rain was still falling, now throwing
down large, individual droplets which hit the ground one at a time. The washing
up from breakfast lay on the table; there was so much of it because, for
Gregor’s father, breakfast was the most important meal of the day and he
would stretch it out for several hours as he sat reading a number of different
newspapers. On the wall exactly opposite there was photograph of Gregor when he
was a lieutenant in the army, his sword in his hand and a carefree smile on his
face as he called forth respect for his uniform and bearing. The door to the
entrance hall was open and as the front door of the flat was also open he could
see onto the landing and the stairs where they began their way down below.</p>
<p>“Now, then”, said Gregor, well aware that he was the only one to
have kept calm, “I’ll get dressed straight away now, pack up my
samples and set off. Will you please just let me leave? You can see”, he
said to the chief clerk, “that I’m not stubborn and I like to do my
job; being a commercial traveller is arduous but without travelling I
couldn’t earn my living. So where are you going, in to the office? Yes?
Will you report everything accurately, then? It’s quite possible for
someone to be temporarily unable to work, but that’s just the right time
to remember what’s been achieved in the past and consider that later on,
once the difficulty has been removed, he will certainly work with all the more
diligence and concentration. You’re well aware that I’m seriously
in debt to our employer as well as having to look after my parents and my
sister, so that I’m trapped in a difficult situation, but I will work my
way out of it again. Please don’t make things any harder for me than they
are already, and don’t take sides against me at the office. I know that
nobody likes the travellers. They think we earn an enormous wage as well as
having a soft time of it. That’s just prejudice but they have no
particular reason to think better of it. But you, sir, you have a better
overview than the rest of the staff, in fact, if I can say this in confidence,
a better overview than the boss himself—it’s very easy for a
businessman like him to make mistakes about his employees and judge them more
harshly than he should. And you’re also well aware that we travellers
spend almost the whole year away from the office, so that we can very easily
fall victim to gossip and chance and groundless complaints, and it’s
almost impossible to defend yourself from that sort of thing, we don’t
usually even hear about them, or if at all it’s when we arrive back home
exhausted from a trip, and that’s when we feel the harmful effects of
what’s been going on without even knowing what caused them. Please,
don’t go away, at least first say something to show that you grant that
I’m at least partly right!”</p>
<p>But the chief clerk had turned away as soon as Gregor had started to speak,
and, with protruding lips, only stared back at him over his trembling shoulders
as he left. He did not keep still for a moment while Gregor was speaking, but
moved steadily towards the door without taking his eyes off him. He moved very
gradually, as if there had been some secret prohibition on leaving the room. It
was only when he had reached the entrance hall that he made a sudden movement,
drew his foot from the living room, and rushed forward in a panic. In the hall,
he stretched his right hand far out towards the stairway as if out there, there
were some supernatural force waiting to save him.</p>
<p>Gregor realised that it was out of the question to let the chief clerk go away
in this mood if his position in the firm was not to be put into extreme danger.
That was something his parents did not understand very well; over the years,
they had become convinced that this job would provide for Gregor for his entire
life, and besides, they had so much to worry about at present that they had
lost sight of any thought for the future. Gregor, though, did think about the
future. The chief clerk had to be held back, calmed down, convinced and finally
won over; the future of Gregor and his family depended on it! If only his
sister were here! She was clever; she was already in tears while Gregor was
still lying peacefully on his back. And the chief clerk was a lover of women,
surely she could persuade him; she would close the front door in the entrance
hall and talk him out of his shocked state. But his sister was not there,
Gregor would have to do the job himself. And without considering that he still
was not familiar with how well he could move about in his present state, or
that his speech still might not—or probably would not—be
understood, he let go of the door; pushed himself through the opening; tried to
reach the chief clerk on the landing who, ridiculously, was holding on to the
banister with both hands; but Gregor fell immediately over and, with a little
scream as he sought something to hold onto, landed on his numerous little legs.
Hardly had that happened than, for the first time that day, he began to feel
alright with his body; the little legs had the solid ground under them; to his
pleasure, they did exactly as he told them; they were even making the effort to
carry him where he wanted to go; and he was soon believing that all his sorrows
would soon be finally at an end. He held back the urge to move but swayed from
side to side as he crouched there on the floor. His mother was not far away in
front of him and seemed, at first, quite engrossed in herself, but then she
suddenly jumped up with her arms outstretched and her fingers spread shouting:
“Help, for pity’s sake, Help!” The way she held her head
suggested she wanted to see Gregor better, but the unthinking way she was
hurrying backwards showed that she did not; she had forgotten that the table
was behind her with all the breakfast things on it; when she reached the table
she sat quickly down on it without knowing what she was doing; without even
seeming to notice that the coffee pot had been knocked over and a gush of
coffee was pouring down onto the carpet.</p>
<p>“Mother, mother”, said Gregor gently, looking up at her. He had
completely forgotten the chief clerk for the moment, but could not help himself
snapping in the air with his jaws at the sight of the flow of coffee. That set
his mother screaming anew, she fled from the table and into the arms of his
father as he rushed towards her. Gregor, though, had no time to spare for his
parents now; the chief clerk had already reached the stairs; with his chin on
the banister, he looked back for the last time. Gregor made a run for him; he
wanted to be sure of reaching him; the chief clerk must have expected
something, as he leapt down several steps at once and disappeared; his shouts
resounding all around the staircase. The flight of the chief clerk seemed,
unfortunately, to put Gregor’s father into a panic as well. Until then he
had been relatively self controlled, but now, instead of running after the
chief clerk himself, or at least not impeding Gregor as he ran after him,
Gregor’s father seized the chief clerk’s stick in his right hand
(the chief clerk had left it behind on a chair, along with his hat and
overcoat), picked up a large newspaper from the table with his left, and used
them to drive Gregor back into his room, stamping his foot at him as he went.
Gregor’s appeals to his father were of no help, his appeals were simply
not understood, however much he humbly turned his head his father merely
stamped his foot all the harder. Across the room, despite the chilly weather,
Gregor’s mother had pulled open a window, leant far out of it and pressed
her hands to her face. A strong draught of air flew in from the street towards
the stairway, the curtains flew up, the newspapers on the table fluttered and
some of them were blown onto the floor. Nothing would stop Gregor’s
father as he drove him back, making hissing noises at him like a wild man.
Gregor had never had any practice in moving backwards and was only able to go
very slowly. If Gregor had only been allowed to turn round he would have been
back in his room straight away, but he was afraid that if he took the time to
do that his father would become impatient, and there was the threat of a lethal
blow to his back or head from the stick in his father’s hand any moment.
Eventually, though, Gregor realised that he had no choice as he saw, to his
disgust, that he was quite incapable of going backwards in a straight line; so
he began, as quickly as possible and with frequent anxious glances at his
father, to turn himself round. It went very slowly, but perhaps his father was
able to see his good intentions as he did nothing to hinder him, in fact now
and then he used the tip of his stick to give directions from a distance as to
which way to turn. If only his father would stop that unbearable hissing! It
was making Gregor quite confused. When he had nearly finished turning round,
still listening to that hissing, he made a mistake and turned himself back a
little the way he had just come. He was pleased when he finally had his head in
front of the doorway, but then saw that it was too narrow, and his body was too
broad to get through it without further difficulty. In his present mood, it
obviously did not occur to his father to open the other of the double doors so
that Gregor would have enough space to get through. He was merely fixed on the
idea that Gregor should be got back into his room as quickly as possible. Nor
would he ever have allowed Gregor the time to get himself upright as
preparation for getting through the doorway. What he did, making more noise
than ever, was to drive Gregor forwards all the harder as if there had been
nothing in the way; it sounded to Gregor as if there was now more than one
father behind him; it was not a pleasant experience, and Gregor pushed himself
into the doorway without regard for what might happen. One side of his body
lifted itself, he lay at an angle in the doorway, one flank scraped on the
white door and was painfully injured, leaving vile brown flecks on it, soon he
was stuck fast and would not have been able to move at all by himself, the
little legs along one side hung quivering in the air while those on the other
side were pressed painfully against the ground. Then his father gave him a
hefty shove from behind which released him from where he was held and sent him
flying, and heavily bleeding, deep into his room. The door was slammed shut
with the stick, then, finally, all was quiet.</p>
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