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Master of the Vineyard

<h2 class="gap3 chaphead">VI</h2> <h2 class="chaphead">More Stately Mansions</h2> <div class="sidenote">A New Point of View</div> The new joy surged in every heart-beat as Rosemary went up the Hill of the Muses, late in the afternoon. Instinctively, she sought the place of fulfilment, yearning to be alone with the memory of yesterday. Nothing was wrong in all the world; nothing ever could be wrong any more. She accepted the brown alpaca and the brown gingham as she did the sordid tasks of every day. That morning, for the first time, it had been a pleasure to wash dishes and happiness to build a fire. Grandmother and Aunt Matilda had been annoyances to her ever since she could remember. Their continual nagging had fretted her, their constant restraint had chafed her, their narrowness had cramped her. To-day she saw them from a new point of view. Grandmother was no longer a malicious spirit of evil who took delight in thwarting her, but a poor, fretful old lady whose soul was bound in shallows. And Aunt Matilda? Rosemary's eyes filled at the thought of Aunt[Pg 77] Matilda, unloved and unsought. Nobody wanted her, she belonged to nobody, in all her lonely life she had had nothing. She sat and listened to Grandmother, she did the annual sewing, and day by day resented more keenly the emptiness of her life. It was the conscious lack that made them both cross. Rosemary saw it now, with the clear vision that had come to her during the past twenty-four hours. <div class="sidenote">The Joy of Living</div> She wanted to be very kind to Grandmother and Aunt Matilda. It was not a philanthropic resolution, but a spontaneous desire to share her own gladness, and to lead the others, if she might, from the chill darkness in which they dwelt to the clear air of the heights. Oh, but it was good to be alive! The little birds that hopped from bough to bough chirped ecstatically, the nine silver-clad birches swayed and nodded in the cool wind, and the peaceful river in the valley below sparkled and dimpled at the caress of the sun. The thousand sounds and fragrances of Spring thrilled her to eager answer; she, too, aspired and yearned upward as the wakened grass-blades pierced the sod and the violets of last year dreamed once more of bloom. Yesterday she had emerged from darkness into light. She had been born again as surely as the tiny dweller of the sea casts off his shell. The outworn habitation of the past was for[Pg 78]ever left behind her, to be swept back, by the tides of the new life, into some forgotten cave. <div class="poem"><div class="stanza"> "Build thee more stately mansions, oh my soul, As the swift seasons roll." </div> </div> <div class="sidenote">The Same, Yet Different</div> The words said themselves aloud. She had learned the whole poem long ago, but, to-day, the beautiful lines assumed a fresh significance, for had she not, by a single step, passed from the cell of self into comradeship with the whole world? Was she not a part of everything and had not everything become a part of her? What could go wrong when the finite was once merged with the infinite, the individual with the universal soul? She sat down on the log that Alden had rolled back against the two trees, three years ago, when they had first begun to come to the Hill of the Muses for an occasional hour of friendly talk. Everything was the same, and yet subtly different, as though seen from another aspect or in another light. Over yonder, on the hillside farthest from the valley, he had put his arm around her and refused to let her go. She remembered vividly every word and every look and that first shy kiss. Of course they belonged together! How foolish they had been not to see it before! Was she not the only woman he knew, and was he not the[Pg 79] only man to whom she could say more than "How do you do?" God had meant it so from the beginning, ever since He said: "Let there be light, and there was light." <div class="sidenote">An Unwonted Shyness</div> Dreaming happily, Rosemary sat on the fallen tree, leaning against the great oak that towered above her. The first pink leaves had come out upon the brown branches, and through them she could see the blue sky, deep as turquoise, without a single cloud. It seemed that she had always been happy, but had never known it until this new light shone upon her, flooding with divine radiance every darkened recess of her soul. She went to the hollow tree, took out the wooden box, and unwound the scarlet ribbon. Yesterday, little dreaming of the portent that for once accompanied the signal, she had tied it in its accustomed place, and gone back, calmly to wait. The school bell echoed through the valley as she stood there, her eyes laughing, but her mouth very grave. She had taken two or three steps toward the birches when an unwonted shyness possessed her, and she hurried back. "I can't," she said to herself. "Oh, I can't—to-day!" So she restored it to its place, wondering, as she did so, why love should make such mysterious changes in the common things of every day. Won and awakened though she[Pg 80] was, her womanhood imperatively demanded now that she must be sought and never seek, that she must not even beckon him to her, and that she must wait, according to her destiny, as women have waited since the world began. <div class="sidenote">Waiting</div> Yet it was part of the beautiful magic of the day that presently he should come to her, unsummoned save by her longing and his own desire. "Where is the ribbon?" he inquired, reproachfully, when he came within speaking distance. "Where it belongs," she answered, with a flush. "Didn't you want me to come?" "Of course." "Then why didn't you hang it up?" "Just because I wanted you to come." Alden laughed at her feminine inconsistency, as he took her face between his hands and kissed her, half-shyly still. "Did you sleep last night?" he asked. "Yes, but I had a horrible dream. I was glad to wake up this morning." "I didn't sleep, so all my dreams were wakeful ones. You're not sorry, are you, Rosemary?" "No, indeed! How could I ever be sorry?" "You never shall be, if I can help it. I want to be good to you, dear. If I'm ever otherwise, you'll tell me so, won't you?"[Pg 81] <div class="sidenote">Always</div> "Perhaps—I won't promise." "Why not?" "Because, even if you weren't good to me, I'd know you never meant it." Rosemary's eyes were grave and sweet; eloquent, as they were, of her perfect trust in him. He laughed again. "I'd be a brute not to be good to you, whether I meant it or not." "That sounds twisted," she commented, with a smile. "But it isn't, as long as you know what I mean." "I'll always know," sighed Rosemary, blissfully leaning her head against his shoulder. "I'll always understand and I'll never fail you. That's because I love you better than everything else in the world." "Dear little saint," he murmured; "you're too good for me." "No, I'm not. On the contrary, I'm not half good enough." Then, after a pause, she asked the old, old question, first always from the lips of the woman beloved: "When did you begin to—care?" "I must have cared when we first began to come here, only I was so blind I didn't know it." "When did you—know?" "Yesterday. I didn't keep it to myself very long."[Pg 82] <div class="sidenote">When Shall It Be?</div> "Dear yesterday!" she breathed, half regretfully. "Do you want it back?" She turned reproachful eyes upon him. "Why should I want yesterday when I have to-day?" "And to-morrow," he supplemented, "and all the to-morrows to come." "Together," she said, with a swift realisation of the sweetness underlying the word. "Yesterday was perfect, like a jewel that we can put away and keep. When we want to, we can always go back and look at it." "No, dear," he returned, soberly; "no one can ever go back to yesterday." Then, with a swift change of mood, he asked: "When shall we be married?" "Whenever you like," she whispered, her eyes downcast and her colour receding. "In the Fall, then, when the grapes have been gathered and just before school begins?" He could scarcely hear her murmured: "Yes." "I want to take you to town and let you see things. Theatres, concerts, operas, parks, shops, art galleries, everything. If the crop is in early, we should be able to have two weeks. Do you think you could crowd all the lost opportunities of a lifetime into two weeks?" "Into a day, with you." He drew her closer. This sort of thing was[Pg 83] very sweet to him, and the girl's dull personality had bloomed like some pale, delicate flower. He saw unfathomed depths in her grey eyes, shining now, with the indescribable light that comes from within. She had been negative and colourless, but now she was a lovely mystery—a half-blown windflower on some brown, bare hillside, where Life, in all its fulness, was yet to come. <div class="sidenote">What Will They Say?</div> "Did you tell your Grandmother and Aunt Matilda?" "No. How could I?" "You'd better not. They'd only make it hard for you, and I wouldn't be allowed in the parlour anyway." Rosemary had not thought of that. It was only that her beautiful secret was too sacred to put into words. "They'll have to know some time," she temporised. "Yes, of course, but not until the last minute. The day we're to be married, you can just put on your hat and say: 'Grandmother, and Aunty, I'm going out now, to be married to Alden Marsh. I shan't be back, so good-bye." She laughed, but none the less the idea filled her with consternation. "What will they say!" she exclaimed. "It doesn't matter what they say, as long as you're not there to hear it." "Clothes," she said, half to herself. "I can't be married in brown alpaca, can I?"[Pg 84] <div class="sidenote">The Difference</div> "I don't know why not. We'll take the fatal step as early as possible in the morning, catch the first train to town, you can shop all the afternoon to your heart's content, and be dressed like a fine lady in time for dinner in the evening." "Grandmother was married in brown alpaca," she continued, irrelevantly, "and Aunt Matilda wore it the night the minister came to call." "Did he never come again?" "No. Do you think it could have been the alpaca?" "I'm sure it wasn't. Aunt Matilda was foreordained to be an old maid." "She won't allow anyone to speak of her as an old maid. She says she's a spinster." "What's the difference?" "I think," returned Rosemary, pensively, "that an old maid is a woman who never could have married and a spinster is merely one who hasn't." "Is it a question of opportunity?" "I believe so." "Then you're wrong, because some of the worst old maids I've ever known have been married women. I've seen men, too, who deserve the title." "Poor Aunt Matilda," Rosemary sighed; "I'm sorry for her." "Why?"[Pg 85] <div class="sidenote">Alden's Mother</div> "Because she hasn't anyone to love her—because she hasn't you. I'm sorry for every other woman in the world," she concluded, generously, "because I have you all to myself." "Sweet," he answered, possessing himself of her hand, "don't forget that you must divide me with mother." "I won't. Will she care, do you think, because—" Her voice trailed off into an indistinct murmur. "Of course not. She's glad. I told her this morning." "Oh!" cried Rosemary, suddenly tremulous and afraid. "What did she say?" "She was surprised at first." Alden carefully refrained from saying how much his mother had been surprised and how long it had been before she found herself equal to the occasion. "Yes—and then?" "Then she said she was glad; that she wanted me to be happy. She told me that she had always liked you and that the house wouldn't be so lonely after you came to live with us. Then she asked me to bring you to see her, as soon as you were ready to come." The full tide overflowed in the girl's heart. She yearned toward Mrs. Marsh with worship, adoration, love. The mother-hunger made her faint with longing for a woman's arms around[Pg 86] her, for a woman's tears of joy to mingle with her own. <div class="sidenote">Madame's Welcome</div> "Take me to her," Rosemary pleaded. "Take me now!" Madame saw them coming and went to the door to meet them. Rosemary was not at all what she had fancied in the way of a daughter-in-law, but, wisely, she determined to make the best of Alden's choice. Something in her stirred in answer to the infinite appeal in the girl's eyes. At the crowning moment of her life, Rosemary stood alone, fatherless, motherless, friendless, with only brown alpaca to take the place of all the pretty things that seem girlhood's right. Madame smiled, then opened her arms. Without a word, Rosemary went to her, laid her head upon the sweet, silken softness of the old lady's shoulder, and began to cry softly. "Daughter," whispered Madame, holding her close. "My dear daughter! Please don't!" Rosemary laughed through her tears, then wiped her eyes. "It's only an April rain," she said. "I'm crying because I'm so happy." "I wish," responded Madame, gently, with a glance at her son, "that I might be sure all the tears either of you are ever to shed would be tears of joy. It's the bitterness that hurts."[Pg 87] <div class="sidenote">Tears</div> "Don't be pessimistic, Mother," said Alden, with a little break in his voice. Rosemary's tears woke all his tenderness. He longed to shield and shelter her; to stand, if he might, between her and the thousand pricks and stabs of the world. "We'll have tea," Madame went on, brightly, ringing a silver bell as she spoke. "Then we shan't be quite so serious." "Woman's inevitable solace," Alden observed, lounging about the room with his hands in his pockets. Man-like, he welcomed the change of mood. "I wonder," he continued, with forced cheerfulness, "why people always cry at weddings and engagements and such things? A husband or wife is the only relative we are permitted to choose—we even have very little to say when it comes to a mother-in-law. With parents, brothers, sisters, uncles, aunts, and cousins all provided by a generous but sometimes indiscriminating Fate, it seems hard that one's only choice should be made unpleasant by salt water. "Why," he went on, warming to his subject, "I remember how a certain woman angled industriously for months to capture an unsuspecting young man for her daughter. When she finally landed him, and the ceremony came off to the usual accompaniment of Mendelssohn and a crowded church, I[Pg 88] feared that the bridal couple might have to come down the aisle from the altar in a canoe, on account of the maternal tears." <div class="sidenote">A Contrast</div> "Perhaps," suggested Rosemary, timidly, "she was only crying because she was happy." "If she was as happy as all those tears would indicate, it's a blessed wonder she didn't burst." Madame smiled fondly at her son as she busied herself with the tea things. Rosemary watched the white, plump hands that moved so gracefully among the cups, and her heart contracted with a swift little pang of envy, of which she was immediately ashamed. Unconsciously, she glanced at her own rough, red hands. Madame saw the look, and understood. "We'll soon fix them, my dear," she said, kindly. "I'll show you how to take care of them." "Really?" cried Rosemary, gratefully. "Oh, thank you! Do you suppose that—that they'll ever look like yours?" "Wait and see," Madame temporised. She was fond of saying that it took three generations of breeding to produce the hand of a lady. The kettle began to sing and the cover danced cheerily. Tiny clouds of steam trailed off into space, disappearing in the late afternoon sunshine like a wraith at dawn. Madame[Pg 89] filled the blue china tea-pot and the subtle fragrance permeated the room. <div class="sidenote">A Cup of Tea</div> "Think," she said, as she waited the allotted five minutes for it to steep, "of all I give you in a cup of tea. See the spicy, sunlit fields, where men, women, and children, in little jackets of faded blue, pick it while their queues bob back and forth. Think of all the chatter that goes in with the picking—marriage and birth and death and talk of houses and worldly possessions, and everything else that we speak of here. "Then the long, sweet drying, and the packing in dim storehouses, and then the long journey. Sand and heat and purple dusk, tinkle of bells and scent of myrrh, the rustle of silks and the gleam of gold. Then the open sea, with infinite spaces of shining blue, and a wake of pearl and silver following the ship. Dreams and moonbeams and starry twilights, from the other side of the world—here, my dear, I give them all to you." She offered Rosemary the cup as she concluded and the girl smiled back at her happily. This was all so different from the battered metal tea-pot that always stood on the back of the stove at Grandmother's, to be boiled and re-boiled until the colour was gone from the leaves. Alden was looking into his cup with assumed anxiety.[Pg 90] <div class="sidenote">In the Bottom of the Cup</div> "What's the matter, dear?" asked his mother. "Isn't it right?" "I was looking for the poem," he laughed, "and I see nothing but a stranger." "Coming?" she asked, idly. "Of course. See?" "You're right—a stranger and trouble. What is there in your cup, Rosemary?" "Nothing at all," she answered, with a smile, "but a little bit of sugar—just a few grains." Alden came and looked over her shoulder. Then, with his arm over the back of her chair, he pressed his cheek to hers. "I hope, my dear, that whenever you come to the dregs, you'll always have that much sweetness left." Rosemary, flushed and embarrassed, made her adieus awkwardly. "Come again very soon, dear, won't you?" asked Madame. "Yes, indeed, if I may, and thank you so much. Good-bye, Mrs. Marsh." "'Mrs. Marsh?'" repeated the old lady, reproachfully. Some memory of her lost Virginia made her very tender toward the motherless girl. "May I?" Rosemary faltered. "Do you mean it?" Madame smiled and lifted her beautiful old face. Rosemary stooped and kissed her. "Mother," she said, for the first time in her life. "Dear Mother! Good-bye!" [Pg 91] <div style="break-after:column;"></div>

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