<h2>CHAPTER XIX.</h2>
<h3><i>"I'm Not Your Wife Yet!"</i></h3>
<p>Billy, coming back from the biggest town in the country, where
he had gone to pick up another man or two for the round-up which
was at hand, met the Pilgrim face to face as he was crossing the
creek to go to the corrals. It was nearing sundown and it was
Sunday, and those two details, when used in connection with the
Pilgrim, seemed unpleasantly significant. Besides, Billy was
freshly antagonistic because of something he had heard while he was
away; instead of returning the Pilgrim's brazenly cheerful "Hello,"
he scowled and rode on without so much as giving a downward tilt to
his chin. For Charming Billy Boyle was never inclined to diplomacy,
or to hiding his feelings in any way unless driven to it by
absolute necessity.</p>
<p>When he went into the house he saw that Flora had her hair done
in a new way that was extremely pretty, and that she had on a soft,
white silk shirt-waist with lots of lace zigzagged across—a
waist hitherto kept sacred to dances and other glorious
occasions—and a soft, pink bow pinned in her hair; all these
things he mentally connected with the visit of the Pilgrim. When he
turned to see a malicious light in the round, blue eyes of Mama Joy
and a spiteful satisfaction in her very dimples, it suddenly
occurred to him that he would certainly have something to say to
Miss Flora. It was no comfort to know that all winter the Pilgrim
had not been near, because all winter he had been away
somewhere—rumor had it that he spent his winters in Iowa.
Like the birds, he always returned with the spring.</p>
<p>Billy never suspected that Mama Joy read his face and left them
purposely together after supper, though he was surprised when she
arose from the table and said:</p>
<p>"Flora, you make Billy help you with the dishes. I've got a
headache and I'm going to lie down."</p>
<p>At any rate, it gave him the opportunity he wanted.</p>
<p>"Are yuh going to let the Pilgrim hang around here this summer?"
he demanded in his straight-from-the-shoulder fashion while he was
drying the first cup.</p>
<p>"You mean Mr. Walland? I didn't know he ever 'hung around'."
Flora was not meek, and Billy realized that, as he put it mentally,
he had his work cut out for him to pull through without a
quarrel.</p>
<p>"I mean the Pilgrim. And I call it hanging around when a fellow
keeps running to see a girl that's got a loop on her already. I
don't want to lay down the law to yuh, Girlie, but that blamed
Siwash has got to keep away from here. He ain't fit for yuh to
speak to—and I'd a told yuh before, only I didn't have any
right—"</p>
<p>"Are you sure you have a right now?" The tone of Flora was sweet
and calm and patient. "I'll tell you one thing, Charming Billy
Boyle, Mr. Walland has never spoken one word against <i>you</i>.
He—he <i>likes</i> you, and I don't think it's nice for
you—"</p>
<p>"Likes me! Like hell he does!" snorted Billy, not bothering to
choose nice words. "He'd plug me in the back like an Injun if he
thought he could get off with it. I remember him when I hazed him
away from line-camp, the morning after you stayed there, he
promised faithful to kill me. Uh course, he won't, because he's
afraid, but—I don't reckon yuh can call it liking—"</p>
<p>"<i>Why</i> did you 'haze him away,' as you call it, Billy? And
kill his dog? It was a <i>nice</i> dog; I love dogs, and I don't
see how any man—"</p>
<p>Billy flushed hotly. "I hazed him away because he insulted you,"
he said bluntly, not quite believing in her ignorance.</p>
<p>Flora, her hands buried deep in the soapsuds, looked at him
round-eyed. "I never heard of that before," she said slowly. "When,
Billy? And what did he—say?"</p>
<p>Billy stared at her. "<i>I</i> don't know what he said! I
wouldn't think you'd need to ask. When I came in the cabin—I
lied about getting lost from the trail—I turned around and
came back, because I was afraid he might come before I could get
back, and—when I came in, there was <i>something</i>. I could
tell, all right. Yuh sat there behind the table looking like yuh
was—well, kinda cornered. And he was—Flora, he
<i>did</i> say something, or do something! He didn't act right to
yuh. I could tell. <i>Didn't</i> he? Yuh needn't be afraid to tell
me, Girlie. I give him a thrashing for it. What was it? I want to
know." He did not realize how pugnacious was his pose, but he was
leaning toward her with his face quite close, and his eyes were
blue points of intensity. His hands, doubled and pressing hard on
the table, showed white at the knuckles.</p>
<p>Flora rattled the dishes in the pan and laughed unsteadily. "Go
to work, Billy Boy, and don't act stagey," she commanded lightly.
"I'll tell you the exact truth—and that isn't anything to get
excited over. Fred Walland came about three minutes before you did,
and of course I didn't know he belonged there. I was afraid. He
pushed open the door, and he was swearing a little at the ice
there, where we threw out the dish water. I knew it wasn't you, and
I got back in the corner. He came in and looked awfully stunned at
seeing me and said, 'I beg your pardon, fair one'." She blushed and
did not look up. "He said, 'I didn't know there was a lady
present,' and put down the sack of stuff and looked at me for a
minute or two without saying a word. He was just going to speak, I
think, when you burst in. And that's all there was to it, Billy
Boy. I was frightened because I didn't know who he was, and he
<i>did</i> stare—but, so did you, Billy Boy, when I opened
the door and walked in. You stared every bit as hard and long as
Fred Walland did."</p>
<p>"But I'll bet I didn't have the same look in my face. Yuh wasn't
scared of <i>me</i>," Billy asserted shrewdly.</p>
<p>"I was too! I was horribly scared—at first. So if you
fought Fred Walland and killed his dog" (the reproach of her tone,
then!) "because you imagined a lot that wasn't true, you ought to
go straight and apologize."</p>
<p>"I don't <i>think</i> I will! Good Lord! Flora, do yuh think I
don't <i>know</i> the stuff he's made of? He's a low-down, cowardly
cur—the kind uh man that is always bragging about—"
(Billy stuck there. With her big, innocent eyes looking up at him,
he could not say "bragging about the women he's ruined," so he
changed weakly) "about all he's done. He's a murderer that ought by
rights t' be in the pen right now—"</p>
<p>"I think that will do, Billy!" she interrupted indignantly. "You
know he couldn't help killing that man."</p>
<p>"I kinda believed that, too, till I run onto Jim Johnson up in
Tower. You don't know Jim, but he's a straight man and wouldn't
lie. Yuh remember, Flora, the Pilgrim told me the Swede pulled a
knife on him. I stooped down and looked, and <i>I</i> didn't see no
knife—nor gun, either. And I wasn't so blamed excited I'd be
apt to pass up anything like that; I've seen men shot before, and
pass out with their boots on, in more excitable ways than a little,
plain, old killing. So I didn't see anything in the shape of a
weapon. But when I come back, here lays a Colt forty-five right in
plain sight, and the Pilgrim saying, 'He pulled a <i>gun</i> on
me,' right on top uh telling me it was a <i>knife</i>. I thought at
the time there was something queer about that, and about him not
having a gun on him when I know he <i>always</i> packed
one—like every other fool Pilgrim that comes West with the
idea he's got to fight his way along from breakfast to supper, and
sleep with his six-gun under his pillow!"</p>
<p>"And <i>I</i> know you don't like him, and you'd think he had
some ulterior motive if he rolled his cigarette backward once! I
don't see anything but just your dislike trying to twist
things—"</p>
<p>"Well, hold on a minute! I got to talking with Jim, and we're
pretty good friends. So he told me on the quiet that Gus Svenstrom
gave him his gun to keep, that night. Gus was drinking, and said he
didn't want to be packing it around for fear he might get foolish
with it. Jim had it—Jim was tending bar that time in that
little log saloon, in Hardup—when the Swede was killed. So it
wasn't <i>the Swedes</i> gun on the ground—and if he borrowed
one, which he wouldn't be apt to do, why didn't the fellow he got
it from claim it?"</p>
<p>"And if all this is true, why didn't your friend come and
testify at the hearing?" demanded Flora, her eyes glowing. "It
sounds to me exactly like a piece of spiteful old-woman gossip, and
I don't believe a word of it!"</p>
<p>"Jim ain't a gossip. He kept his mouth shut because he didn't
want to make trouble, and he was under the impression the Swede had
borrowed a gun somewhere. Being half drunk, he could easy forget
what he'd done with his own, and the Pilgrim put up such a straight
story—"</p>
<p>"Fred told the truth. I know he did. I don't <i>believe</i> he
had a gun that night, because—because I had asked him as a
favor to please not carry one to dances and places. There, now!
He'd do what I asked him to. I know he would. And I think you're
just mean, to talk like this about him; and, mind you, if he wants
to come here he can. I don't care if he comes <i>every day</i>!"
She was so near to tears that her voice broke and kept her from
saying more that was foolish.</p>
<p>"And I tell yuh, if he comes around here any more I'll chase him
off the ranch with a club!" Billy's voice was not as loud as usual,
but it was harsh and angry. "He ain't going to come here hanging
around you—not while <i>I</i> can help it, and I guess I can,
all right!" He threw down the dish towel, swept a cup off the table
with his elbow when he turned, and otherwise betrayed human,
unromantic rage. "Damn him, I wisht I'd chased him off long ago.
Fred, eh? Hell! <i>I'll</i> Fred him! Yuh think I'm going to stand
for him running after my girl? I'll kick him off the place. He
ain't fit to speak to yuh, or look at yuh; his friendship's an
insult to any decent woman. I'll mighty quick put a stop
to—"</p>
<p>"Will Boyle, you don't <i>dare</i>! I'm not your wife yet,
remember! I'm free to choose my own friends without asking leave of
any one, and if I want Fred Walland to come here, he'll
<i>come</i>, and it will take more than you to stop him.
I—I'll write him a note, and ask him to dinner next Sunday.
I—I'll <i>marry</i> him if I want to, Will Boyle, and you
can't stop me! He—he wants me to, badly enough, and if
you—"</p>
<p>Billy was gone, and the kitchen was rattling with the slam of
the door behind him, before she had time to make any more
declarations that would bring repentance afterward. She stood a
minute, listening to see whether he would come back, and when he
did not, she ran to the door, opened it hastily and looked. She saw
Billy just in the act of swishing his quirt down on the flanks of
Barney so that the horse almost cleared the creek in one bound.
Flora caught her breath and gave a queer little sob. She watched
him, wide-eyed and white, till he was quite out of sight and then
went in and shut the door upon the quiet, early spring
twilight.</p>
<p>As for Billy, he was gone to find the Pilgrim. Just what he
would do when he did find him was not quite plain, because he was
promising himself so many deeds of violence that no man could
possibly perform them all upon one victim. At the creek, he was
going to "shoot him like a coyote." A quarter of a mile farther, he
would "beat his damn' head off," and, as if those were not deaths
sufficient, he was after that determined to "take him by the heels
and snap his measly head off like yuh would a grass snake!"</p>
<p>Threatened as he was, the Pilgrim nevertheless escaped, because
Billy did not happen to come across him before his rage had cooled
to reason. He rode on to Hardup, spent the night there swallowing
more whisky than he had drunk before in six months, and after that
playing poker with a recklessness that found a bitter satisfaction
in losing and thus proving how vilely the world was using him, and
went home rather unsteadily at sunrise and slept heavily in the
bunk-house all that day. For Billy Boyle was distressingly human in
his rages as in his happier moods, and was not given to gentle,
picturesque melancholy and to wailing at the silent stars.</p>
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