<h2>CHAPTER VIII</h2>
<h3>THE DANCE</h3>
<p>About three months after its rendering of <i>Patience</i>, the
Bursley Amateur Operatic Society arranged to give a commemorative
dance in the very scene of that histrionic triumph. The fête
was to surpass in splendour all previous entertainments of the kind
recorded in the annals of the town. It was talked about for weeks
in advance; several dressmakers nearly died of it; and as the day
approached the difficulty of getting one's self invited became
extreme.</p>
<p>'You know, Mrs. Stanway,' said Harry Burgess when he met Leonora
one afternoon in the street, 'we are relying on you to be the
best-dressed woman in the place.'</p>
<p>She smiled with a calmness which had in it a touch of gentle
cynicism. 'You shouldn't,' she answered.</p>
<p>'But you're coming, aren't you?' he inquired with eager concern.
Of late, owing to the capricious frigidity of Millicent's attitude
towards <SPAN name='Page207' id="Page207"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">207</span>him, he had been much less a frequenter of
Leonora's house, and he was no longer privy to all its doings.</p>
<p>'Oh, yes,' she said, 'I suppose I shall come.'</p>
<p>'That's all right,' he exclaimed. 'If you come you conquer.'
They passed on their ways.</p>
<p>Leonora's existence had slipped back into its old groove since
the departure of Twemlow, and the groove had deepened. She lived by
the force of habit, hoping nothing from the future, but fearing
more than a little. She seemed to be encompassed by vague and
sinister portents. After another brief interlude of apparent
security, John's situation was again disquieting. Trade was good in
the Five Towns; at least the manufacturers had temporarily
forgotten to complain that it was very bad, and the Monday
afternoon football-matches were magnificently attended. Moreover,
John had attracted favourable attention to himself by his shrewd
proposals to the Manufacturers' Association for reform in the
method of paying firemen and placers; his ability was everywhere
recognised. At the same time, however, the Five Towns looked
askance at him. Rumour revived, and said that he could not keep up
his juggling performance for ever. He was known to have speculated
heavily for a rise in the shares of a great brewery which had
falsified <SPAN name='Page208' id="Page208"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">208</span>the prophecies of its founders when they
benevolently sold it to the investing public. Some people wondered
how long John could hold those shares in a falling market. Leonora
had no definite knowledge of her husband's affairs, since neither
John nor any other person breathed a word to her about them. And
yet she knew, by certain vibrations in the social atmosphere as
mysterious and disconcerting as those discovered by Röntgen in
the physical, that disaster, after having been repelled, was
returning from afar. Money flowed through the house as usual;
nevertheless often, as she drove about Bursley, consciously
exciting the envy and admiration which a handsome woman behind a
fast cob is bound to excite, her shamed fancy pictured the day when
Prince should belong to another and she should walk perforce on the
pavement in attire genteelly preserved from past affluence. Only
women know the keenest pang of these secret misgivings, at once
desperate and helpless.</p>
<p>Nor did she find solace in her girls. One Saturday afternoon
Ethel came back from the duty-visit to Aunt Hannah and said as it
were confidentially to Leonora: 'Fred called in while I was there,
mother, and stayed for tea.' What could Leonora answer? Who could
deny Fred <SPAN name='Page209' id="Page209"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">209</span>the right to visit his great-aunt and his
great-uncle, both rapidly ageing? And of what use to tell John? She
desired Ethel's happiness, but from that moment she felt like an
accomplice in the furtive wooing, and it seemed to her that she had
forfeited both the confidence of her husband and the respect of her
daughter. Months ago she had meant by force of some initiative to
regularise this idyll which by its stealthiness wounded the
self-respect of all concerned. Vain aspiration! And now the fact
that Fred Ryley had begun to call at Church Street appeared to
indicate between him and Uncle Meshach a closer understanding which
could only be detrimental to the interests of John.</p>
<p>As for Rose, that child of misfortune did well during the first
four days of the examination, but on the fifth day one of her
chronic sick-headaches had in two hours nullified all the intense
and ceaseless effort of two years. It was precisely in chemistry
that she had failed. She arrived from London in tears, and the
tears were renewed when the formal announcement of defeat came
three weeks later by telegraph and John added gaiety to the
occasion by remarking: 'What did I tell you?' The girl's proud and
tenacious spirit, weakened by the long strain, was daunted at last.
She lounged in the house and garden, <SPAN name='Page210' id="Page210"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">210</span>listless, supine,
torpid, instinctively waiting for Nature's recovery.</p>
<p>Millicent alone in the house was unreservedly cheerful and
light-hearted. She had the advantage of Mr. Corfe's instruction for
two hours every Wednesday, and expressed herself as well satisfied
with his methods. Her own intimate friends knew that she quite
intended to go on the stage, but they were enjoined to say nothing.
Consequently John Stanway was one of the few people in Bursley
unaware of the definiteness of Milly's private plans; Leonora was
another. Leonora sometimes felt that Milly's assertive and
indestructible vivacity must be due to some specific cause, but Mr.
Cecil Corfe's reputation for seriousness and discretion precluded
the idea that he was encouraging the girl to dream dreams without
the consent of her parents.</p>
<p>Leonora might have questioned Milly, but she perceived the
futility of doing so. It became more and more clear to her that she
did not possess the confidence of her daughters. They loved her and
they admired her; and she for her part made a point of trusting
them; but their confidence was withheld. Under the influence of
Arthur Twemlow she had tried to assuage the customary asperities of
home life, so far as possible, by a demeanour of generous quick
acquiescence, <SPAN name='Page211' id="Page211"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">211</span>and she had not entirely failed. Yet the girls,
with all the obtuseness and insensibility of adolescence, never
thought of giving her the one reward which she desired. She sought
tremulously to win their intimacy, but she sought too late. Rose
and Milly simply ignored her diffident advances, and even Ethel was
not responsive. Leonora had trained up her children as she herself
had been trained. She saw her error only when it could not be
retrieved. The dear but transient vision of four women who had no
secrets from each other, who understood each other, was finally
dissolved.</p>
<p>Amid the secret desolation of a life which however was not
without love, amid her vain regrets for an irrecoverable youth and
her horror of the approach of age, amid the empty lassitudes which
apparently were all that remained of the excitement caused by
Arthur Twemlow's presence, Leonora found a mournful and sweet
pleasure in imagining that she had a son. This son combined the
best qualities of Harry Burgess and Fred Ryley. She made him tall
as herself, handsome as herself, and like herself elegant. Shrewd,
clever, and passably virtuous, he was nevertheless distinctly
capable of follies; but he told her everything, even the worst, and
though sometimes she frowned he smiled away the frown. He <SPAN name=
'Page212' id="Page212"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">212</span>adored
her; he appreciated all the feminine in her; he yielded to her
whims; he kissed her chin and her wrist, held her sunshade, opened
doors for her, allowed her to beat him at tennis, and deliciously
frightened her by driving her very fast round corners in a very
high dog-cart. And if occasionally she said, 'I am not as young as
I was, Gerald,' he always replied: 'Oh rot, mater!'</p>
<p>When Ethel or Milly remarked at breakfast, as they did now and
then, that Mr. Twemlow had not fulfilled his promise of writing,
Leonora would answer evenly, 'No, I expect he's forgotten us.' And
she would go and live with her son for a little.</p>
<hr class='short' />
<p>She summoned this Gerald—and it was for the last
time—as she stood irresolutely waiting for her husband at the
door of the ladies' cloak-room in the Town Hall. She was dressed in
black mousseline de soie. The corsage, which fitted loosely except
at the waist and the shoulders, where it was closely confined, was
not too low, but it disclosed the beautiful diminutive rondures
above the armpits, and, behind, the fine hollow of her back. The
sleeves were long and full with tight wrists, ending in black lace.
A band of pale pink silk, covered with white lace, wandered up one
sleeve, crossed her breast in strict con<SPAN name='Page213' id="Page213"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">213</span>formity with the top
of the corsage, and wandered down the other sleeve; at the armpits,
below the rondures, this band was punctuated with a pink rose. An
extremely narrow black velvet ribbon clasped her neck. From the
belt, which was pink, the full skirt ran down in a thousand
perpendicular pleats. The effect of the loose corsage and of the
belt on Leonora's perfect figure was to make her look girlish,
ingenuous, immaculate, and with a woman's instinct she heightened
the effect by swinging her programme restlessly on its ivory-tinted
cord.</p>
<p>They had arrived somewhat late, owing partly to John's
indecision and partly to an accident with Rose's costume. On
reaching the Town Hall, not only Ethel and Milly, but Rose also,
had deserted Leonora eagerly, impatiently, as ducklings scurry into
a pond; they passed through the cloak-room in a moment, Rose first;
Rose was human that evening. Leonora did not mind; she anticipated
the dance with neither joy nor melancholy, hoping nothing from it
in her mood of neutral calm. John was talking with David Dain at
the entrance to the gentlemen's cloak-room, further down the
corridor. Presently, old Mr. Hawley, the doctor at Hillport, joined
the other two, and then Dain moved away, leaving John and the
doctor in conversation. Dain <SPAN name='Page214' id="Page214"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">214</span>approached and
saluted his client's wife with characteristic sheepishness.</p>
<p>'Large company, I believe,' he said awkwardly. In evening dress
he was always particularly awkward.</p>
<p>She smiled kindly on him, thinking the while what a clumsy and
objectionable fat little man he was. She knew he admired her, and
would have given much to dance with her; but she did not care for
his heavy eyes, and she despised him because he could not screw
himself up to demand a place on her programme.</p>
<p>'Yes, very large company, I believe,' he said again, moving
about nervously on his toes.</p>
<p>'Do you know how many invitations?' she asked.</p>
<p>'No, I don't.'</p>
<p>'Dain!' John called out, 'come and listen to this.' And the
lawyer escaped from her presence like a schoolboy running out of
school.</p>
<p>'What men!' she thought bitterly, standing neglected with all
her charm and all her distinction. 'What chivalry! What
courtliness! What style!' Her son belonged to a different race of
beings.</p>
<p>Down the corridor came Harry Burgess deep in converse with a
male friend; the two were walking quickly. She did not choose to
greet <SPAN name='Page215' id="Page215"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">215</span>them waiting there alone, and so she
deliberately turned and put her head within the curtains of the
cloak-room as if to speak to some one inside.</p>
<p>'Twemlow was saying——'</p>
<p>It seemed to her that Harry in passing had uttered that phrase
to his companion. She flushed, and shook from head to foot. Then
she reflected that Twemlow was a name common to dozens of people in
the Five Towns. She bit her lip, surprised and angered at her own
agitation. At the same time she remembered—and why should she
remember?—some gossip of John's to the effect that Harry
Burgess was under a cloud at the Bank because he had gone to London
by a day-trip on the previous Thursday without leave. London ...
perhaps....</p>
<p>'Am I forty—or fourteen?' she contemptuously asked
herself.</p>
<p>She heard John and Dain laugh loudly, and the jolly voice of the
old doctor: 'Come along into the refreshment-room for a minute.'
Determined not to linger another moment for these boors, she moved
into the corridor.</p>
<p>At the end of the vista of red carpet and gas-jets rose the
grand staircase, and on the lowest stair stood Arthur Twemlow. She
had begun to traverse the corridor and she could not stop now, and
fifty feet lay between them.</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page216' id="Page216"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">216</span>'Oh!' her heart cried in the intolerable spasm
of a swift and mysterious convulsion. 'Why do you thus torture me?'
Every step was an agony.</p>
<p>He moved towards her, and she noticed that he was extremely
pale. They met. His hand found hers. Then it was that she
perceived, with a passionate gratitude, how heaven had been
watching over her. If John had not hesitated about coming, if her
daughters had not deserted her in the cloak-room, if the old doctor
had not provided himself with a new supply of naughty stories, if
indeed everything had not occurred exactly as it had
occurred—she would have been forced to undergo in the
presence of witnesses the shock which she had just experienced; and
she would have died. She felt that in those seconds she had endured
emotion to the last limit of her capacity. She traced a providence
even in Harry's chance phrase, which had warned her and so broken
the force of the stroke.</p>
<p>'Why, cruel one, did you play this trick on me? Can you not see
what I suffer!' It was her sad glittering eyes that reproachfully
appealed to him.</p>
<p>'Did I know what would happen?' his answered. 'Am I not equally
a victim?'</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page217' id="Page217"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">217</span>She smiled pensively, and her lips murmured:
'Well, wonders will never cease.'</p>
<p>Such were the first words.</p>
<p>'I found I had to come back to London,' he was soon explaining.
'And I met young Burgess at the Empire on Thursday night, and he
told me about this affair and gave me a ticket, and so I thought as
I had been at the opera I might as well——' He
hesitated.</p>
<p>'Have you seen the girls?' she inquired.</p>
<p>He had not.</p>
<p>On the flower-bordered staircase her foot slipped; she felt like
a convalescent trying to walk after a long illness. Arthur with a
silent questioning gesture offered his arm.</p>
<p>'Yes, please,' she said, gladly. She wished not to say it, but
she said it, and the next instant he was supporting her up the
steps. Anything might happen now, she thought; the most impossible
things might come to pass.</p>
<p>At the top of the staircase they paused. They could hear the
music faintly through closed doors. They had the precious illusion
of being aloof, apart, separated from the world, sufficient to
themselves and gloriously sufficient. Then some one opened the
doors from within; the sound of the music, suddenly freed, rushed
out and smote them; and they entered the ball-room. <SPAN name=
'Page218' id="Page218"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">218</span>She was
acutely conscious of her beauty, and of the distinction of his
blanched, stern face.</p>
<hr class='short' />
<p>The floor was thronged by entwined couples who, under the
rhythmic domination of the music, glided and revolved in the
elaborate pattern of a mazurka. With their rapt gaze, and their
rigid bodies floating smoothly over a hidden mechanism of flying
feet, they seemed to be the victims of some enchantment, of which
the music was only a mode, and which led them enthralled through
endless curves of infallible beauty and grace. Form, colour,
movement, melody, and the voluptuous galvanism of delicate contacts
were all combined in this unique ritual of the dance, this strange
convention whose significance emerged from one mystery deeper than
the fundamental notes of the bass-fiddle, and lost itself in
another more light than the sudden flash of a shirt-front or the
tremor of a lock of hair. The goddess reigned. And round about the
hall, the guardians of decorum, the enemies of Aphrodite, enchanted
too, watched with the simplicity of doves the great Aphrodisian
festival, blind to the eternal verities of a satin slipper, a
drooping eyelash, a parted lip.</p>
<p>The music ceased, the spell was lifted for a time. And while old
alliances were being dis<SPAN name='Page219' id="Page219"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">219</span>solved and new ones
formed in the eager promiscuity of this interval, all remarked
proudly on the success of the evening; in the gleam of every eye
the sway of the goddess was acknowledged. Romance was justified.
Life itself was justified. The shop-girl who had put ten thousand
stitches into the ruching of her crimson skirt well symbolised the
human attitude that night. As leaning heavily on a man's arm she
crossed the floor under the blazing chandelier, she secretly
exulted in each stitch of her incredible labour. Two hours, and she
would be back in the cold, celibate bedroom, littered with the
shabby realities of existence; and the spotted glass would mirror
her lugubrious yawn! Eight hours, and she would be in the dreadful
shop, tying on the black apron! The crimson skirt would never look
the same again; such rare blossoms fade too soon! And in exchange
for the toil, the fatigue, and the distressing reaction, what had
she won? She could not have said what she had won, but she knew
that it was worth the ruinous cost—this bright fallacy, this
fleeting chimera, this delusive ecstasy, this shadow and
counterfeit of bliss which the goddess vouchsafed to her
communicants.</p>
<hr class='short' />
<p>So thick and confused was the crowd that Leonora and Arthur,
having inserted themselves <SPAN name='Page220' id="Page220"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">220</span>into a corner near
the west door, escaped the notice of any of their friends. They
were as solitary there as on the landing outside. But Leonora saw
quite near, in another corner, Ethel talking to Fred Ryley; she
noticed how awkward Fred looked in his new dress-suit, and she
liked him for his awkwardness; it seemed to her that Ethel was very
beautiful. Arthur pointed out Rose, who was standing up with the
lady member of the School Board. Then Leonora caught sight of
Millicent in the distance, handing her programme to the conductor
of the opera; she recalled the notorious boast of the conductor
that he never knowingly danced with a bad dancer, whatever her
fascinations. Always when they met at a ball the conductor would
ask Leonora for a couple of waltzes, and would lead her out with an
air of saying to the company: 'Now see what fine dancing is!' Like
herself, he danced with the frigidity of a professor. She wondered
whether Arthur could dance really well.</p>
<p>The placard by the orchestra said, 'Extra.'</p>
<p>'Shall we?' Arthur whispered.</p>
<p>He made a way for her through the outer fringe of people to the
middle space where the couples were forming. Her last thoughts as
she gave him her hand were thoughts half-pitiful and half-scornful
of John, David Dain, and <SPAN name='Page221' id="Page221"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">221</span>the doctor, brutishly
content in the refreshment-room.</p>
<p>There stole out, troubling the expectant air, softly,
alluringly, invocatively, the first warning notes of that unique
classic of the ball-room, that extraordinary composition which more
than any other work of art unites all western nations in a common
delight, which is adored equally by profound musicians and by the
lightest cocottes, and which, unscathed and splendid, still
miraculously survives the deadly ordeal of eternal perfunctory
reiterance: the masterpiece of Johann Strauss.</p>
<p>'Why,' Leonora exclaimed, her excitement straining impatiently
in the leash, 'The Blue Danube!'</p>
<p>He laughed, quietly gay.</p>
<p>While the chords, with tantalising pauses and deliberation,
approached the magic moment of the waltz itself, she was conscious
that his hold of her became firmer and more assertive, and she
surrendered to an overmastering influence as one surrenders to
chloroform, desperately, but luxuriously.</p>
<p>And when at the invitation of the melody the whole company in
the centre of the floor broke into movement, and the spell was
resumed, she lost all remembrance of that which had passed, and all
apprehension of that which was to come. <SPAN name='Page222' id="Page222"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">222</span>She lived,
passionately and yet languorously, in the vivid present. Her eyes
were level with his shoulder, and they looked with an entranced
gaze along his arm, seeing automatically the faces, the lights, and
the colours which swam in a rapid confused procession across their
field of vision. She did not reason nor recognise. These fleeting
images, appearing and disappearing on the horizon of Arthur's
elbow, produced no effect on her. She had no thoughts. Her entire
being was absorbed in a transport of obedience to the beat of the
music, and to Arthur's directing pressures. She was happy, but her
bliss had in it that element of stinging pain, of intolerable
anticipation, which is seldom absent from a felicity too intense.
'Surely I shall sink down and die!' said her heart, seeming to
faint at the joyous crises of the music, which rose and fell in
tides of varying rapture. Nevertheless she was determined to drink
the cup slowly, to taste every drop of that sweet and excruciating
happiness. She would not utterly abandon herself. The fear of
inanition was only a wayward pretence, after all, and her strong
nature cried out for further tests to prove its fortitude and its
power of dissimulation. As the band slipped into the final section
of the waltz, she wilfully dragged the time, deepening a little the
curious <SPAN name='Page223' id="Page223"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">223</span>superficial languor which concealed her
secrets, and at the same time increasing her consciousness of
Arthur's control. She dreaded now that what had been intolerable
should cease; she wished ardently to avert the end. The glare of
lights, the separate sounds of the instruments, the slurring of
feet on the smooth floor, the lineaments of familiar faces, all the
multitudinous and picturesque detail of gyrating humanity around
her—these phenomena forced themselves on her unwilling
perception; and she tried to push them back, and to spend every
faculty in savouring the ecstasy of that one physical presence
which was so close, so enveloping, and so inexplicably dear. But in
vain, in vain! The band rioted through the last bars of the waltz,
a strange, disconcerting silence and inertia supervened, and Arthur
loosed her.</p>
<hr class='short' />
<p>As she sat down on the cane chair which Arthur had found,
Leonora's characteristic ease of manner deserted her. She felt
conspicuous and embarrassed, and she could neither maintain her
usual cold nonchalant glance in examining the room, nor look at
Arthur in a natural way. She had the illusion that every one must
be staring at her with amazed curiosity. Yet her furtive searching
eye could not discover a single <SPAN name='Page224' id="Page224"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">224</span>person except Arthur
who seemed to notice her existence. All were preoccupied that night
with immediate neighbours.</p>
<p>'Will you come down into the refreshment-room?' Arthur asked.
She observed with annoyance that he too was confused, nervous, and
still very pale.</p>
<p>She shook her head, without meeting his gaze. She wished above
all things to behave simply and sincerely, to speak in her ordinary
voice, and to use familiar phrases. But she could not. On the
contrary she was seized with a strong impulse to say to him
entreatingly: 'Leave me,' as though she were a person on the stage.
She thought of other phrases, such as 'Please go away,' and 'Do you
mind leaving me for a while?' but her tongue, somehow insisting on
the melodramatic, would not utter these.</p>
<p>'Leave me!' She was frightened by her own words, and added
hastily, with the most seductive smile that her lips had
ever-framed: 'Do you mind?'</p>
<p>'I shall call to-morrow,' he said anxiously, almost gruffly.
'Shall you be in?'</p>
<p>She nodded, and he left her; she did not watch him depart.</p>
<p>'May I have the honour, gracious lady?'</p>
<p>It was the conductor of the opera who <SPAN name='Page225' id="Page225"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">225</span>addressed her in his
even, apparently sarcastic tones.</p>
<p>'I'm afraid I must rest a bit,' she said, smiling quite
naturally. 'I've hurt my foot a little—Oh, it's nothing, it's
nothing. But I must sit still for a bit.'</p>
<p>She could not comprehend why, unintentionally and without
design, she should have told this stupid lie, and told it so
persuasively. She foresaw how the tedious consequences of the
fiction might continue throughout the evening. For a moment she had
the idea of announcing a sprained ankle and of returning home at
once. But the thought of old Dr. Hawley's presence in the building
deterred her. She perceived that her foot must get gradually
better, and that she must be resigned.</p>
<p>'Oh, mamma!' cried Rose, coming up to her. 'Just fancy Mr.
Twemlow being back again! But why did you let him leave?'</p>
<p>'Has he gone?'</p>
<p>'Yes. He just saw me on the stairs, and told me he must catch
the last car to Knype.'</p>
<p>'Our dance, I think, Miss Rose,' said a young man with a
gardenia, and Rose, flushed and sparkling, was carried off. The
ball proceeded.</p>
<hr class='short' />
<p>John Stanway had a singular capacity for not <SPAN name='Page226' id="Page226"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">226</span>enjoying himself
on those social occasions when to enjoy one's self is a duty to the
company. But this evening, as the hour advanced, he showed the
symptoms of a sharp attack of gaiety such as visited him from time
to time. He and Dr. Hawley and Dain formed an ebullient centre of
high spirits, and they upheld the ancient traditions; they
professed a liking for old-fashioned dances, and for old-fashioned
ways of dancing the steps which modern enthusiasm for the waltz had
not extinguished. And they found an appreciable number of
followers. The organisers of the ball, the upholders of
correctness, punctilio, and the mode, fretted and fought against
the antagonistic influence. 'Ass!' said the conductor of the opera
bitterly when Harry Burgess told him that Stanway had suggested Sir
Roger de Coverley for an extra, 'I wonder what his wife thinks of
him!' Sir Roger de Coverley was not danced, but twenty or thirty
late stayers, with Stanway and Dain in charge, crossed hands in a
circle and sang 'Auld Lang Syne' at the close. It was one of those
incredible things that can only occur between midnight and
cock-crow. During this revolting rite, the conductor and his
friends sought sanctuary in the refreshment-room. Leonora, Ethel,
and Milly were also there, but Rose and the lady-member of the
School <SPAN name='Page227' id="Page227"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">227</span>Board had remained upstairs to sing 'Auld Lang
Syne.'</p>
<p>'Now, girls,' said Stanway with loud good humour, invading the
select apartment with his followers, 'time to go. Carpenter's been
waiting half-an-hour. Your foot all right again, Nora?'</p>
<p>'Quite,' she replied. 'Are you really ready?'</p>
<p>She had so interminably waited that she could not believe the
evening to be at length actually finished.</p>
<p>They all exchanged adieux, Stanway and his cronies effusively,
the opposing and outraged faction with a certain fine acrimony.
'Good-night, Fred,' said John, throwing a backward patronising
glance at Ryley, who had strolled uneasily into the room. The young
man paused before replying. 'Good-night,' he said stiffly, and his
demeanour indicated: 'Do not patronise me too much.' Fred could not
dance, but he had audaciously sat out four dances with Ethel, at
this his first ball, and the serious young man had the strange
agreeable sensation of feeling a dog. He dared not, however,
accompany Ethel to the carriage, as Harry Burgess accompanied
Millicent. Harry had been partially restored to favour again during
the latter half of the entertainment, just in time to prevent him
from getting tipsy. The fact was that Millicent had vaguely
expected, in <SPAN name='Page228' id="Page228"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">228</span>view of her position as prima donna, to be 'the
belle of the ball'; but there had been no belle, and Millicent was
put to the inconvenience of discovering that she could do nothing
without footlights.</p>
<p>'I asked Twemlow to come up to-morrow night, Nora,' said John,
still elated, turning on the box-seat as the waggonette rattled
briskly over the paved crossing at the top of Oldcastle Street.</p>
<p>She mumbled something through her furs.</p>
<p>'And is he coming?' asked Rose.</p>
<p>'He said he'd try to.' John lighted a cigar.</p>
<p>'He's very queer,' said Millicent.</p>
<p>'How?' Rose aggressively demanded.</p>
<p>'Well, imagine him going off like that. He's always going off
suddenly.' Millicent stopped and then added: 'He only danced with
mother. But he's a good dancer.'</p>
<p>'I should think he was!' Ethel murmured, roused from lethargy.
'Isn't he just, mother?'</p>
<p>Leonora mumbled again.</p>
<p>'Your mother's knocked up,' said John drily. 'These late nights
don't suit her. So you reckon Mr. Twemlow's a good dancer, eh?'</p>
<p>No one spoke further. John threw his cigar into the road.</p>
<p>Under the rug Leonora could feel the knees <SPAN name='Page229' id="Page229"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">229</span>of all her daughters
as they sat huddled and limp with fatigue in the small body of the
waggonette. Her shoulders touched Ethel's, and every one of Milly's
fidgety movements communicated itself to her. Mother and children
were so close that they could not have been closer had they lain in
the same grave. And yet the girls, and John too, had no slightest
suspicion how far away the mother was from them, how blind they
were, how amazingly they had been deceived. They deemed Leonora to
be like themselves, the victim of reaction and weariness; so drowsy
that even the joltings of the carriage could not prevent a doze.
She marvelled, she could not help marvelling, that her spiritual
detachment should remain unnoticed; the phenomenon frightened her
as something full of strange risks. Was it possible that none had
caught a glimpse of the intense illumination and activity of her
brain, burning and labouring there so conspicuously amid the other
brains sombre and dormant? And was it possible that the girls had
observed the qualities of Arthur's dancing and had observed nothing
else? Common sense tried to reassure her, and did not quite
succeed. Her attitude resembled that of a person who leans against
a firm rail over the edge of a precipice: there is no danger, but
the precipice is so deep that he fears; <SPAN name='Page230' id="Page230"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">230</span>and though the fear
is a torture the sinister magnetism of the abyss forbids him to
withdraw. She lived again in the waltz; in the gliding motions of
it, the delicious fluctuations of the reverse, the long trance-like
union, the instinctive avoidances of other contact. She whispered
the music, endlessly repeating those poignant and voluptuous
phrases which linger in the memory of all the world. And she
recalled and reconstituted Arthur's physical presence, and the
emanating charm of his disposition, and dwelt on them long and
long. Instead of lessening, the secret commotion within her
increased and continued to increase. While brooding with feverish
joy over the immediate past, her mind reached forward and existed
in the appalling and fatal moment, for whose reality however her
eagerness could scarcely wait, when she should see him once more.
And it asked unanswerable questions about his surprising return
from New York, and his pallor, and the tremor in his voice, and his
swift departure. Suddenly she knew that she was planning to have
the girls out of the house to-morrow afternoon between four and
five o'clock.... Her spine shivered, she grew painfully hot, and
tears rushed to her eyes. She pitied herself profoundly. She said
that she did not know what was the matter with her, or what was
going to happen. She could <SPAN name='Page231' id="Page231"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">231</span>not give names to
things. She only felt that she was too violently alive.</p>
<p>'Now, missis,' John roused her. The carriage had stopped and he
had already descended. She got out last, and Carpenter drove away
while John was still fumbling in his hip-pocket for the latchkey.
The night was humid and very dark. Leonora and the girls stood
waiting on the gravel, and John groped his way into the blackness
of the portico to unfasten the door. A faint gleam from the
hall-gas came through the leaded fanlight. This scarcely
perceptible glow and the murmur of John's expletives were all that
came to the women from the mystery of the house. The key grated in
the lock, and the door opened.</p>
<p>'G——d d——n!' Stanway exclaimed
distinctly, with fierce annoyance. He had fallen headlong into the
hall, and his silk hat could be heard hopping towards the
staircase.</p>
<p>'Pa! 'Milly protested, shocked.</p>
<p>John sprang up, fuming, turned the gas on to the full, and
rushed back to the doorway.</p>
<p>'Ah!' he shouted. 'I knew it was a tramp lying there. Get up. Is
the beggar asleep?'</p>
<p>They all bent down, startled into gravity, to examine a form
which lay in the portico, nearly parallel with the step and below
it.</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page232' id="Page232"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">232</span>'It's Uncle Meshach,' said Ethel. 'Oh!
mother!'</p>
<p>'Then my aunt's had another attack,' cried John, 'and he's come
up to tell us, and—Milly, run for Carpenter.'</p>
<p>It seemed to Leonora, as with sudden awe she vaguely figured an
august and capricious power which conferred experience on mortals
like a wonderful gift, that that bestowing hand was never more full
than when it had given most.</p>
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