<h2>CHAPTER IV</h2>
<h3>AN INTIMACY</h3>
<p>'Does father really mean it about me going to the works
to-morrow?' Ethel asked that night.</p>
<p>'I suppose so, my dear,' replied Leonora, and she added: 'You
must do all you can to help him.'</p>
<p>Ethel's clear gift of interpreting even the most delicate
modulations in her mother's voice, instantly gave her the first
faint sense of alarm.</p>
<p>'Why, mamma! what do you mean?'</p>
<p>'What I say, dear,' Leonora murmured with neutral calm. 'You
must do all you can to help him. We look on you as a woman
now.'</p>
<p>'You don't, you don't!' Ethel thought passionately as she went
upstairs. 'And you never will. Never!'</p>
<p>The profound instinctive sympathy which existed between her
mother and herself was continually being disturbed by the manifest
insincerity of that assertion contained in Leonora's last sentence.
The girl was in arms, without knowing <SPAN name='Page88' id="Page88"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">88</span>it, against a whole
order of things. She could scarcely speak to Millicent in the
bedroom. She was disgusted with her father, and she was disgusted
with Leonora for pretending that her father was sagacious and
benevolent, for not admitting that he was merely a trial to be
endured. She was disgusted with Fred Ryley because he was not as
other young men were—Harry Burgess for instance. The
startling hint from Leonora that perhaps all was not well at the
works exasperated her. She held the works in abhorrence. With her
sisters, she had always regarded the works as a vague something
which John Stanway went to and came away from, as the mysterious
source of food, raiment, warmth. But she was utterly ignorant of
its mechanism, and she wished to remain ignorant. That its
mechanism should be in danger of breaking down, that it should even
creak, was to her at first less a disaster than a matter for
resentment. She hated the works as one is sometimes capable of
unreasonably hating a benefactor.</p>
<p>On Monday morning, rising a little earlier than usual, she was
surprised to find her mother alone at a disordered
breakfast-table.</p>
<p>'Has dad finished his breakfast already?' she inquired,
determined to be cheerful. Sleep, and her fundamental good-nature,
had modified her <SPAN name='Page89' id="Page89"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">89</span>mood, and for the moment she meant to play the
rôle of dutiful daughter as well as she could.</p>
<p>'He has had to go off to Manchester by the first train,' said
Leonora. 'He'll be away all day. So you won't begin till
to-morrow.' She smiled gravely.</p>
<p>'Oh, good!' Ethel exclaimed with intense momentary relief.</p>
<p>But now again in Leonora's voice, and in her eye, there was the
soft warning, which Ethel seized, and which, without a relevant
word spoken, she communicated to her sisters. John Stanway's young
women began to reflect apprehensively upon the sudden
irregularities of his recent movements, his conferences with his
lawyer, his bluffing air; a hundred trifles too insignificant for
separate notice collected themselves together and became
formidable. A certain atmosphere of forced and false cheerfulness
spread through the house.</p>
<p>'Not gone to bed!' said Stanway briskly, when he returned home
by the late train and discovered his three girls in the
drawing-room. They allowed him to imagine that his jaunty air
deceived them; they were jaunty too; but all the while they read
his soul and pitied him with the intolerable condescension of youth
towards age.</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page90' id="Page90"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">90</span>The next day Ethel had a further reprieve of
several hours, for Stanway said that he must go over to Hanbridge
in the morning, and would come back to Hillport for dinner, and
escort Ethel to the works immediately afterwards. None asked a
question, but everyone knew that he could only be going to
Hanbridge to consult with David Dain. This time the programme was
in fact executed. At two o'clock Ethel found herself in her
father's office.</p>
<p>As she took off her hat and jacket in the hard sinister room,
she looked like a violet roughly transplanted and bidden to blossom
in the mire. She knew that amid that environment she could be
nothing but incapable, dull, stupid, futile, and plain. She knew
that she had no brains to comprehend and no energy to prevail.
Every detail repelled her—the absence of fire-irons in the
hearth, the business almanacs on the discoloured walls, the great
flat table-desk, the dusty samples of tea-pots in the window, the
vast green safe in the corner, the glimpses of industrial squalor
in the yard, the sound of uncouth voices from the clerks' office,
the muffled beat of machinery under the floor, and the strange
uninhabited useless appearance of a small room seen through a
half-open door near the safe. She would have given a year of life,
in that first moment, to be helping <SPAN name='Page91' id="Page91"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">91</span>her mother in some
despised monotonous household task at Hillport.</p>
<p>She felt that she was being outrageously deprived of a natural
right, hitherto enjoyed without let, to have the golden fruits of
labour brought to her in discreet silence as to their origin.</p>
<p>Stanway struck a bell with determination, and the manager
appeared, a tall, thin, sandy-haired man of middle age, who wore a
grey tailed-coat and a white apron.</p>
<p>'Ha! Mayer! That you?'</p>
<p>'Yes, sir.... Good afternoon, miss.'</p>
<p>'Good afternoon,' Ethel simpered foolishly, and she had it in
her to have slain both men because she felt such a silly
schoolgirl.</p>
<p>'I wanted Ryley. Where is he?'</p>
<p>'He's somewhere on the bank,<SPAN name='FNanchor_3_3' id="FNanchor_3_3"></SPAN><SPAN href='#Footnote_3_3'><sup>[3]</sup></SPAN>
sir—speaking to the mouldmaker, I think.'</p>
<p class='footnote'><SPAN name='Footnote_3_3' id="Footnote_3_3"></SPAN><SPAN href='#FNanchor_3_3'>[3]</SPAN>Bank =
earthenware manufactory. But here the word is used in a limited
sense, meaning the industrial, as distinguished from the
bureaucratic, part of the manufactory.</p>
<p>'Well, just bring me in that letter from Paris that came on
Saturday, will you?' Stanway requested.</p>
<p>'I've several things to speak to you about,' said Mr. Mayer,
when he had brought the letter.</p>
<p>'Directly,' Stanway answered, waving him away, and then turning
to Ethel: 'Now, young <SPAN name='Page92' id="Page92"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">92</span>lady, I want this letter translating.' He placed
it before her on the table, together with some blank paper.</p>
<p>'Yes, father,' she said humbly.</p>
<p>Three hours a week for seven years she had sat in front of
French manuals at the school at Oldcastle; but she knew that, even
if the destiny of nations turned on it, she could not translate
that letter of ten lines. Nevertheless she was bound to make a
pretence of doing so.</p>
<p>'I don't think I can without a dictionary,' she plaintively
murmured, after a few minutes.</p>
<p>'Oh! Here's a French dictionary,' he replied, producing one from
a drawer, much to her chagrin; she had hoped that he would not have
a dictionary.</p>
<p>Then Stanway began to look through a pile of correspondence, and
to scribble in a large saffron-coloured diary. He went out to Mr.
Mayer; Mr. Mayer came in to him; they called to each other from
room to room. The machinery stopped beneath and started again. A
horse fell down in the yard, and Stanway, watching from the window,
exclaimed: 'Tsh! That carter!'</p>
<p>Various persons unceremoniously entered and asked questions, all
of which Stanway answered with equal dryness and certainty. At
intervals he poked the fire with an old walking-stick, <SPAN name=
'Page93' id="Page93"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">93</span>Ethel never
glanced up. In a dream she handled the dictionary, the letter, the
blank paper, and wrote unfinished phrases with the thick office
pen.</p>
<p>'Done it?' he inquired at last.</p>
<p>'I—I—can't make out the figures,' she stammered. 'Is
that a 5 or a 7?' She pushed the letter across.</p>
<p>'Oh! That's a French 7,' he replied, and proceeded to make shots
at the meaning of sentences with a <i>flair</i> far surpassing her
own skill, though it was notorious that he knew no French whatever.
She had a sudden perception of his cleverness, his capacity, his
force, his mysterious hold on all kinds of things which eluded her
grasp and dismayed her.</p>
<p>'Let's see what you've done,' he demanded. She sighed in
despair, hesitating to give up the paper.</p>
<p>'Mr. Twemlow, by appointment,' announced a clerk, and Arthur
Twemlow walked into the office.</p>
<p>'Hallo, Twemlow!' said Stanway, meeting him gaily. 'I was just
expecting you. My new confidential clerk. Eh?' He pointed to Ethel,
who flushed to advantage. 'You've plenty of them over there,
haven't you—girl-clerks?'</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page94' id="Page94"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">94</span>Twemlow assented, and remarked that he himself
employed a 'lady secretary.'</p>
<p>'Yes,' Stanway eagerly went on. 'That's what I mean to do. I
mean to buy a type-writer, and Miss shall learn shorthand and
type-writing.'</p>
<p>Ethel was astounded at the glibness of invention which could
instantly bring forth such an idea. She felt quite sure that until
that moment her father had had no plan at all in regard to her
attendance at the office.</p>
<p>'I'm sure I can't learn,' she said with genuine modesty, and as
she spoke she became very attractive to Twemlow, who said nothing,
but smiled at her sympathetically, protectively. She returned the
smile. By a swift miracle the violet was back again in its native
bed.</p>
<p>'You can go in there and finish your work, we shall disturb
you,' said her father, pointing to the little empty room, and she
meekly disappeared with the letter, the dictionary, and the piece
of paper.</p>
<hr class='short' />
<p>'Well, how's business, Twemlow? By the way, have a cigar.'</p>
<p>Ethel, at the dusty table in the little room, could just see her
father's broad back through the door which, in her nervousness, she
had forgotten to <SPAN name='Page95' id="Page95"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">95</span>close. She felt that the door ought to have been
latched, but she could not find courage deliberately to get up and
latch it now.</p>
<p>'Thanks,' said Arthur Twemlow. 'Business is going right
along.'</p>
<p>She heard the striking of a match, and the pleasant twang of
cigar-smoke greeted her nostrils. The two men seemed splendidly
masculine, important, self-sufficient. The triviality of feminine
atoms like herself, Rose, and Millicent, occurred to her almost as
a new fact, and she was ashamed of her existence.</p>
<p>'Buying much this trip?' asked Stanway.</p>
<p>'Not much, and not your sort,' said Twemlow. 'The truth is, I'm
fixing up a branch in London.'</p>
<p>'But, my dear fellow, surely there's no American business done
through London in English goods?'</p>
<p>'No, perhaps not,' said Twemlow. 'But that don't say there isn't
going to be. Besides, I've got a notion of coming in for a share of
your colonial shipping trade. And let me tell you there's a lot of
business done through London between the United States and the
Continent, in glass and fancy goods.'</p>
<p>'Oh, yes, I know there is,' Stanway conceded. 'And so you think
you're going to teach the old country a thing or two?'</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page96' id="Page96"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">96</span>'That depends.'</p>
<p>'On what?'</p>
<p>'On whether the old country's made up her mind yet to sit down
and learn.' He laughed.</p>
<p>Ethel saw by the change of colour in her father's neck that the
susceptibilities of his patriotism had been assailed.</p>
<p>'What do you mean?' Stanway asked pugnaciously.</p>
<p>'I mean that you are falling behind here,' said Twemlow with
cold, nonchalant firmness. 'Every one knows that. You're getting
left. Look how you're being cut out in cheap toilet stuff. In ten
years you won't be shipping a hundred dollars' worth per annum of
cheap toilet to the States.'</p>
<p>'But listen, Twemlow,' said Stanway impressively.</p>
<p>Twemlow continued, imperturbable: 'You in the Five Towns stick
to old-fashioned methods. You can't cut it fine enough.'</p>
<p>'Old-fashioned? Not cut it fine enough?' Stanway exclaimed,
rising.</p>
<p>Twemlow laughed with real mirth. 'Yes,' he said.</p>
<p>'Give me one instance—one instance,' cried Stanway.</p>
<p>'Well,' said Twemlow, 'take firing. I hear <SPAN name='Page97' id="Page97"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">97</span>you still pay your
firemen by the oven, and your placers by the day, instead of
settling all oven-work by scorage.'</p>
<p>'Tell me about that—the Trenton system. I'd like to hear
about that. It's been mentioned once or twice,' said Stanway,
resuming his chair.</p>
<p>'Mentioned!'</p>
<p>Ethel perceived vaguely that the forceful man who held her in
the hollow of his hand had met more than his match. Over that
spectacle she rejoiced like a small child; but at the same time
Arthur Twemlow's absolute conviction that the Five Towns was losing
ground frightened her, made her feel that life was earnest, and
stirred faint longings for the serious way. It seemed to her that
she was weighed down by knowledge of the world, whereas gay
Millicent, and Rose with her silly examinations.... She plunged
again into the actuality of the letter from Paris....</p>
<p>'I called really to speak to you about my father's estate.'</p>
<p>Ethel was startled into attention by the sudden careful
politeness in Arthur Twemlow's manner and by a quivering in his
voice.</p>
<p>'What of it?' said Stanway. 'I've forgotten all the details.
Fifteen years since, you know.'</p>
<p>'Yes. But it's on behalf of my sister, and I haven't been over
before. Besides, it wasn't till <SPAN name='Page98' id="Page98"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">98</span>she heard I was coming
to England that she—asked me.'</p>
<p>'Well,' said Stanway. 'Of course I was the sole executor, and
it's my duty——'</p>
<p>'That's it,' Twemlow broke in. 'That's what makes it a little
awkward. No one's got the right to go behind you as executor. But
the fact is, my sister—we—my sister was surprised at
the smallness of the estate. We want to know what he did with his
money, that is, how much he really received before he died. Perhaps
you won't mind letting me look at the annual balance-sheets of the
old firm, say for 1875, 6, and 7. You see——'</p>
<p>Twemlow stopped as Stanway half-turned to look at the door
between the two rooms.</p>
<p>'Go on, go on,' said Stanway in his grandiose manner. 'That's
all right.'</p>
<p>Ethel knew in a flash that her father would have given a great
deal to have had the door shut, and equally that nothing on earth
would have induced him to shut it.</p>
<p>'That's all right,' he repeated. 'Go on.'</p>
<p>Twemlow's voice regained steadiness. 'You can perhaps understand
my sister's feelings.' Then a long pause. 'Naturally, if you don't
care to show me the balance-sheets——'</p>
<p>'My dear Twemlow,' said John stiffly, 'I <SPAN name='Page99' id="Page99"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">99</span>shall be delighted to
show you anything you wish to see.'</p>
<p>'I only want to know——'</p>
<p>'Certainly, certainly. Quite justifiable and proper. I'll have
them looked up.'</p>
<p>'Any time will do.'</p>
<p>'Well, we're rather busy. Say a week to-day—if you're to
be here that long.'</p>
<p>'I guess that'll suit me,' said Twemlow.</p>
<p>His tone had a touch of cynical cruel patience.</p>
<p>The intangible and shapeless suspicions which Ethel had caught
from Leonora took a misty form and substance, only to be
immediately dispelled in that inconstant mind by the sudden
refreshing sound of Milly's voice: 'We've called to take Ethel
home, papa—oh, mother, here's Mr. Twemlow!'</p>
<p>In another moment the office was full of chatter and scent, and
Milly had run impulsively to Ethel: 'What <i>has</i> father given
you to do?'</p>
<p>'Oh dear!' Ethel sighed, with a fatigued gesture of knowing
nothing whatever.</p>
<p>'It's half-past five,' said Leonora, glancing into the inner
room, after she had spoken to Mr. Twemlow.</p>
<p>Three hours and a half had Ethel been in thrall! It was like a
century to her. She could have dropped into her mother's arms.</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page100' id="Page100"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">100</span>'What have you come in, Nora?' asked Stanway,
'the trap?'</p>
<p>'No, the four-wheeled dog-cart, dear.'</p>
<p>'Well, Twemlow, drive up and have tea with us. Come along and
have a Five Towns high-tea.'</p>
<p>'Oh, Mr. Twemlow, do!' said Milly, nearly drowning Leonora's
murmured invitation.</p>
<p>Arthur hesitated.</p>
<p>'Come <i>along</i>,' Stanway insisted genially. 'Of course you
will.'</p>
<p>'Thank you,' was the rather feeble answer. 'But I shall have to
leave pretty early.'</p>
<p>'We'll see about that,' said Stanway. 'You can take Mr. Twemlow
and the girls, Nora, and I'll follow as quick as I can. I must
dictate a letter or two.'</p>
<p>The three women, Twemlow in the midst, escaped like a pretty
cloud out of the rude, dingy office, and their bright voices echoed
<i>diminuendo</i> down the stair. Stanway rang his bell fiercely.
The dictionary and the letter and Ethel's paper lay forgotten on
the dusty table of the inner room.</p>
<hr class='short' />
<p>Arthur Twemlow felt that he ought to have been annoyed, but he
could do no more than keep up a certain reserve of manner. Neither
<SPAN name='Page101' id="Page101"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">101</span>the memory of his humiliating clumsy lies about
his sister in broaching the matter of his father's estate to
Stanway, nor his clear perception that Stanway was a dishonest and
a frightened man, nor his strong theoretical objection to Stanway's
tactics in so urgently inviting him to tea, could overpower the
sensation of spiritual comfort and complacency which possessed him
as he sat between Leonora and Ethel at Leonora's splendidly laden
table. He fought doggedly against this sensation. He tried to
assume the attitude of a philosopher observing humanity, of a
spider watching flies; he tried to be critical, cold, aloof. He
listened as one set apart, and answered in monosyllables. But
despite his own volition the monosyllables were accompanied by a
smile that destroyed the effect of their curtness. The intimate
charm of the domesticity subdued his logical antipathies. He knew
that he was making a good impression among these women, that for
them there was something romantic and exciting about his history
and personality. And he liked them all. He liked even Rose, so
pale, strange, and contentious. In regard to Milly, whom he had
begun by despising, he silently admitted that a girl so vivacious,
supple, sparkling, and pretty, had the right to be as pertly
foolish as she chose. He took a direct fancy to Ethel. And he
decided <SPAN name='Page102' id="Page102"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">102</span>once for ever that Leonora was a magnificent
creature.</p>
<p>In the play of conversation on domestic trifles, the most
ordinary phrases seemed to him to be charged with a peculiar
fascination. The little discussions about Milly's attempts at
housekeeping, about the austere exertions of Rose, Ethel's first
day at the office, Bran's new biscuits, the end of the lawn-tennis
season, the propriety of hockey for girls, were so mysteriously
pleasant to his ears that he felt it a sort of privilege to have
been admitted to them. And yet he clearly perceived the
shortcomings of each person in this little world of which the
totality was so delightful. He knew that Ethel was languidly
futile, Rose cantankerous, Milly inane, Stanway himself crafty and
meretricious, and Leonora often supine when she should not be. He
dwelt specially on the more odious aspects of Stanway's character,
and swore that, had Stanway forty womenfolk instead of four, he,
Arthur Twemlow, should still do his obvious duty of finishing what
he had begun. In chatting with his host after tea, he marked his
own attitude with much care, and though Stanway pretended not to
observe it, he knew that Stanway observed it well enough.</p>
<p>The three girls disappeared and returned in street attire. Rose
was going to the science <SPAN name='Page103' id="Page103"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">103</span>classes at the
Wedgwood Institution, Ethel and Millicent to the rehearsal of the
Amateur Operatic Society. Again, in this distribution of the
complex family energy, there reappeared the suggestion of a
mysterious domestic charm.</p>
<p>'Don't be late to-night,' said Stanway severely to
Millicent.</p>
<p>'Now, grumbler,' retorted the intrepid child, putting her gloved
hand suddenly over her father's mouth; Stanway submitted. The
picture of the two in this delicious momentary contact remained
long in Twemlow's mind; and he thought that Stanway could not be
such a brute after all.</p>
<p>'Play something for us, Nora,' said the august paterfamilias,
spreading at ease in his chair in the drawing-room, when the girls
were gone. Leonora removed her bangles and began to play 'The Bees'
Wedding.' But she had not proceeded far before Milly ran in
again.</p>
<p>'A note from Mr. Dain, pa.'</p>
<p>Milly had vanished in an instant, and Leonora continued to play
as if nothing had happened, but Arthur was conscious of a change in
the atmosphere as Stanway opened the letter and read it.</p>
<p>'I must just go over the way and speak to a neighbour,' said
Stanway carelessly when Leonora <SPAN name='Page104' id="Page104"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">104</span>had struck the final
chord. 'You'll excuse me, I know. Sha'n't be long.'</p>
<p>'Don't mention it,' Arthur replied with politeness, and then,
after Stanway had gone, leaving the door open, he turned to Leonora
at the piano, and said: 'Do play something else.'</p>
<p>Instead of answering, she rose, resumed her jewellery, and took
the chair which Stanway had left. She smiled invitingly, evasively,
inscrutably at her guest.</p>
<p>'Tell me about American women,' she said: 'I've always wanted to
know.'</p>
<p>He thought her attitude in the great chair the most enchanting
thing he had ever seen.</p>
<hr class='short' />
<p>Leonora had watched Twemlow's demeanour from the moment when she
met him in her husband's office. She had guessed, but not
certainly, that it was still inimical at least to John, and the
exact words of Uncle Meshach's warning had recurred to her time
after time as she met his reluctant, cautious eyes. Nevertheless,
it was by the sudden uprush of an instinct, rather than by a
calculated design, that she, in her home and surrounded by her
daughters, began the process of enmeshing him in the web of
influences which she spun ceaselessly from the bright threads of
her own individuality. Her mind had food <SPAN name='Page105' id="Page105"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">105</span>for sombre
preoccupation—the lost battle with Milly during the day about
Milly's comic-opera housekeeping; the tale told by John's nervous,
effusive, guilty manner; and especially the episode of the letter
from Dain and John's disappearance: these things were grave enough
to the mother and wife. But they receded like negligible trifles
into the distance as she rose so suddenly and with such a radiant
impulse from the piano. In the new enterprise of consciously
arousing the sympathy of a man, she had almost forgotten even the
desperate motive which had decided her to undertake it should she
get the chance.</p>
<p>'Tell me about American women,' she said. All her person was a
challenge. And then: 'Would you mind shutting the door after Jack?'
She followed him with her gaze as he crossed and recrossed the
room.</p>
<p>'What about American women?' he said, dropping all his previous
reserve like a garment. 'What do you want to know?'</p>
<p>'I've never seen one. I want to know what makes them so
charming.'</p>
<p>The fresh desirous interest in her voice flattered him, and he
smiled his content.</p>
<p>'Oh!' he drawled, leaning back in his chair, which faced hers by
the fire. 'I never noticed <SPAN name='Page106' id="Page106"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">106</span>they were so
specially charming. Some of them are pretty nice, I expect, but
most of the young ones put on too much lugs, at any rate for an
Englishman.'</p>
<p>'But they're always marrying Englishmen. So how do you explain
that? I did think you'd be able to tell me about the American
women.'</p>
<p>'Perhaps I haven't met enough of just the right sort,' he
said.</p>
<p>'You're too critical,' she remarked, as though his case was a
peculiarly interesting one and she was studying it on its
merits.</p>
<p>'You only say that because I'm over forty and unmarried, Mrs.
Stanway. I'm not at all critical.'</p>
<p>'Over forty!' she exclaimed, and left a pause. He nodded. 'But
you are too critical,' she went on. 'It isn't that women don't
interest you—they do——'</p>
<p>'I should think they did,' he murmured, gratified.</p>
<p>'But you expect too much from them.'</p>
<p>'Look here!' he said, 'how do you know?'</p>
<p>She smiled with an assumption of the sadness of all knowledge;
she made him feel like a boy again: 'If you didn't expect too much
from them, you would have married long ago. It isn't as if you
hadn't seen the world.'</p>
<p><SPAN name='Page107' id="Page107"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">107</span>'Seen the world!' he repeated. 'I've never seen
anything half so charming as your home, Mrs. Stanway.'</p>
<p>Both were extremely well satisfied with the course of the
conversation. Both wished that the interview might last for
indefinite hours, for they had slipped, as into a socket, into the
supreme topic, and into intimacy. They were happy and they knew it.
The egotism of each tingled sensitively with eager joy. They felt
that this was 'life,' one of the justifications of existence.</p>
<p>She shook her head slowly.</p>
<p>'Yes,' he continued, 'it's you who stay quietly at home that are
to be envied.'</p>
<p>'And you, a free bachelor, say that! Why, I should have
thought——'</p>
<p>'That's just it. You're quite wrong, if you'll let me say so.
Here am I, a free bachelor, as you call it. Can do what I like. Go
where I like. And yet I would sell my soul for a home like this.
Something ... you know. No, you don't. People say that women
understand men and what men feel, but they can't—they
can't.'</p>
<p>'No,' said Leonora seriously, 'I don't think they
can—still, I have a notion of what you mean.' She spoke with
modest sympathy.</p>
<p>'Have you?' he questioned.</p>
<p>She nodded. For a fraction of an instant she <SPAN name='Page108' id="Page108"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">108</span>thought of her
husband, stolid with all his impulsiveness, over at David
Dain's.</p>
<p>'People say to me, "Why don't you get married?"' Twemlow went
on, drawn by the subtle invitation of her manner. 'But how can I
get married? I can't get married by taking thought. They make me
tired. I ask them sometimes whether they imagine I keep single for
the fun of the thing.... Do you know that I've never yet been in
love—no, not the least bit.'</p>
<p>He presented her with this fact as with a jewel, and she so
accepted it.</p>
<p>'What a pity!' she said, gently.</p>
<p>'Yes, it's a pity,' he admitted. 'But look here. That's the
worst of me. When I get talking about myself I'm likely to become a
bore.'</p>
<p>Offering him the cigarette cabinet she breathed the old,
effective, sincere answer: 'Not at all, it's very interesting.'</p>
<p>'Let me see, this house belongs to you, doesn't it?' he said in
a different casual tone as he lighted a cigarette.</p>
<p>Shortly afterwards he departed. John had not returned from
Dain's, but Twemlow said that he could not possibly stay, as he had
an appointment at Hanbridge. He shook hands with restrained ardour.
Her last words to him were: 'I'm so sorry my husband isn't back,'
and <SPAN name='Page109' id="Page109"></SPAN><span class="pagenum">109</span>even these ordinary words struck him as a
beautiful phrase. Alone in the drawing-room, she sighed happily and
examined herself in the large glass over the mantelpiece. The
shaded lights left her loveliness unimpaired; and yet, as she gazed
at the mirror, the worm gnawing at the root of her happiness was
not her husband's precarious situation, nor his deviousness, nor
even his mere existence, but the one thought: 'Oh! That I were
young again!'</p>
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<p>'Mother, whatever do you think?' cried Millicent, running in
eagerly in advance of Ethel at ten o'clock. 'Lucy Turner's sister
died to-day, and so she can't sing in the opera, and I am to have
her part if I can learn it in three weeks.'</p>
<p>'What is her part?' Leonora asked, as though waking up.</p>
<p>'Why, mother, you know! Patience, of course! Isn't it
splendid?'</p>
<p>'Where are father and Mr. Twemlow? Ethel inquired, falling into
a chair.</p>
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