<h2><SPAN name="CHAPTER_XVI" id="CHAPTER_XVI"></SPAN>CHAPTER XVI</h2>
<p class="cap">Patricia awoke rudely and with an
appalling sense that she had made a
shocking fool of herself. Heywood
Pennington suddenly vanished out of her life
as completely as though Fifth Avenue had
opened and swallowed him. Very suddenly
he had left New York, they said. And upon
her breakfast tray one morning Patricia found
the following in a handwriting unfamiliar
and evidently disguised:</p>
<div class="blockquot">
<p class="noi right">March 12, 19—</p>
<p class="noi">Mrs. Mortimer Crabb,</p>
<p>Dear Madam:</p>
<p>I have in my possession twenty-one letters
and notes written by you to Mr. Heywood
Pennington, formerly of Philadelphia.
Kindly acknowledge receipt of this communication
and bring to this office, in person, on
Wednesday of next week, five thousand dollars<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_174" id="Page_174">[174]</SPAN></span>
in cash or the letters will be mailed to
Mr. Crabb.</p>
<p class="noi right">
(Signed) <span class="smcap">John Doe</span>, <br/>
Care of Fairman and Brooke, <br/>
No. —— Liberty Street.</p>
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<p>There in her fingers it flaunted its brutality.
What could it mean? Her letters? To Heywood
Pennington? Why—they were only
notes—harmless little records of their friendship.
What had she said? How had this
odious Doe——?</p>
<p>It was a week since she had seen the prodigal.
They had quarreled some days ago, for
Mr. Pennington’s lazy humor had turned to
a reckless unconvention which had somewhat
startled her. Her secret declaration of independence
had led her a little out of her
depth, and she began to feel more and more
like the child with the jam-pot—only the
jam-pot was out of all proportion to real jam-pots
and the smears seemed to defy the most
generous use of soap and water. This horrible
Doe was the neighbor’s boy who told, and<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_175" id="Page_175">[175]</SPAN></span>
Mortimer Crabb was suddenly invested with
a newly-born parental dignity and wisdom.
Mort! It made her shudder to think of her
husband receiving those letters. She knew
him so well and yet she knew him so little.
She felt tempted to throw all else to the winds
and make a full confession—of what? of
a childish ingenuousness—which confession
would magnify a hundred-fold. What had
she to confess? Meetings in the Park? Her
face burned with shame. It would have
seemed less childish if her face had burned
with shame at things a little more tangible.
Lunches in out-of-the-way restaurants, innocent
enough in themselves, whose only pleasure
was the knowledge that she took them unpermitted.
She knew that she deserved to be
stood in the corner or be sent to bed without
her supper, but she quailed at the thought of
meeting her husband’s eye. She knew that he
could make it singularly cold and uncompromising.</p>
<p>And the letters. Why hadn’t Heywood<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_176" id="Page_176">[176]</SPAN></span>
burned them? And yet why should he have?
Pennington’s ideas of a compromising position
she realized, with some bitterness, differed
somewhat from hers. And she knew she
<i>couldn’t</i> have written anything to regret. She
tried to think, and a phrase here and there recurred
to her. Perhaps Mort might know her
well enough to guess how little they meant—but
perhaps he didn’t. Words written to
another were so desperately easy to misunderstand.</p>
<p>How could these letters have fallen into the
hands of a stranger? The more she thought
of it the more impenetrable became the mystery.
How could this villainous Doe have
guessed her identity? A few of these letters
were signed merely “Patty,” but most of them
were not signed at all. It was dreadful to be
insulted with no redress at any hand. Five
thousand dollars! The very insignificance of
the figures made her position worse. Was this
the value of her reputation? Truly her fortunes
had sunk to their lowest ebb. She tried<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_177" id="Page_177">[177]</SPAN></span>
to picture John Doe, a small ferret of a man
with heavy eyes, red hair, and a rumpled
shirt-front, sitting in a dingy office up three
flights of stairs, fingering her little scented
notes with his soiled fingers. Oh, it was horrible—horrible!
Yet how could she escape?
Would she not tarnish her soul still more by
paying the wretched money—Mort’s money—in
forfeit of her disobedience to him? Every
instinct revolted at the thought. Wouldn’t
it be better after all to throw herself upon
Mort’s mercy? She knew now how much
bigger and better he was than anything else
in the world. She loved him now. She knew
it. There wouldn’t ever be any more might-have-beens.
She longed to feel his protecting
arms about her and hear his quiet steady voice
in her ears, even though it was to scold her for
the mere child that she was. His arms seemed
the greater sanctuary now—now that she was
not sure that they ever could be opened to
her. Still clasping the letter she buried her
face in the pillows of her couch and wept.<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_178" id="Page_178">[178]</SPAN></span>
That night she sent down word that she had a
headache, but a night’s rest did wonders. A
cheerful, smiling person descended on Crabb
in the midst of his morning coffee.</p>
<p>“What! Patty! At the breakfast table?
Will the wonders never cease?”</p>
<p>“I didn’t come to breakfast, Mort. I wanted
to see you before you went out.”</p>
<p>Crabb smiled over the top of his coffee
cup.</p>
<p>“What is it, Patty? A hat bill or an opera
cloak? I’m prepared. Tell me the awful
worst.”</p>
<p>“Don’t, Mort—please. I can’t bear you
facetious. It’s—er—about Madame Jacquard’s
bill and some others. They’ve gotten
a little large and she—she wants me to help
her out to-day—if I can—if you can—and I
told her I would——”</p>
<p>Crabb was wrapped in contemplation of his
muffin. But he allowed his wife to struggle
through to the end. Then he looked up a little
seriously from under heavy brows.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_179" id="Page_179">[179]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>“Um—er—how much, Patty? A thousand?
I think it can be managed——”</p>
<p>“No, Mort,” she interrupted, tremulously,
“you see I have had to get so many things of
late—we’ve been going out a great deal you
know—a lot of other things you wouldn’t understand.”</p>
<p>“Oh! Perhaps I might.”</p>
<p>“No—I—I’m afraid I’ve been rather extravagant
this winter. I didn’t tell you but I—I’ve
used up my allowance long—ever so
long ago.”</p>
<p>Mortimer Crabb’s brows were now really
menacing.</p>
<p>“It seems to me——” he began. But she
interrupted him at once.</p>
<p>“I know I ought to be called a beggar on
horseback, because I really have ridden
rather—rather fast this winter——”</p>
<p>“Two thousand?” he questioned.</p>
<p>“No, Mort, you see, it isn’t only the dresses
and the hats. I’m afraid I’ve been losing more
than I should have lost at auction.”</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_180" id="Page_180">[180]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>“Bridge!” he said, pitilessly, “I thought——”</p>
<p>“Yes—bub—bridge.”</p>
<p>“I thought my warning might be sufficient.
I’m sorry——”</p>
<p>“So am I,” she whispered, her head lowered,
now thoroughly abased. “I am not going
to play any more.”</p>
<p>“How much—three thousand?” he asked
again.</p>
<p>“No,” she said, desperately, “more. I’m
afraid it will take five thousand dollars to pay
everything.”</p>
<p>“Phew!” he whistled. “How in the name
of all that’s expensive——”</p>
<p>“Oh, I don’t know——” helplessly, “money
adds up so fast—I suppose that father
might help me if you can’t—but I didn’t
want to ask him if I could help it; you know
he——”</p>
<p>“Oh, no,” said Crabb, with a sudden move
of the hand. “It can be managed, of course,
but I admit I’m surprised—very much surprised<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_181" id="Page_181">[181]</SPAN></span>
that you haven’t thought fit to take me
closer into your confidence.”</p>
<p>“I’m sorry, Mort,” she muttered, humbly.
“It won’t happen again.”</p>
<p>Crabb pushed back his chair and rose.
“Oh, well, don’t say anything more about it,
Patty. It must be attended to, of course.
Just give me a list of the items and I’ll send
out the checks.”</p>
<p>“But, Mort, I’d like to——”</p>
<p>“I’ll just stop in at Madame Jacquard’s on
the way uptown and——”</p>
<p>Patty started up and then sank back weakly.</p>
<p>“Oh, Mort, dear,” she faltered, “it isn’t
worth while. It would be so much out of
your way——”</p>
<p>“Not a bit,” said Crabb, striding cheerfully
to the door. “It’s only a step from the subway,
and then I can come on up the Avenue——”</p>
<p>But Patricia by this time had fastened
tightly upon the lapels of his coat, and was
looking half tearfully up into his face.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_182" id="Page_182">[182]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>“I—I want to see Madame about some
things she hasn’t sent up yet—I must go there
to-day. I’ll—I’ll tell her, Mort, and then if
you’ll arrange it, I’ll just send it to her to-morrow.”</p>
<p>Mortimer Crabb looked into the blue eyes
that she raised to his and relented.</p>
<p>“All right,” he said, “you shall have your
own way.” And then, with the suspicion of
a smile, “Shall I make a check to your order?”</p>
<p>“To—to mine, Mort—it always makes me
feel more important to pay my bills myself—and
besides—the bub—bridge, you know.”</p>
<p>When Patricia heard the front door shut behind
her husband, she gave a great sigh and
sank on the divan in a state of utter collapse.</p>
<p>The next day Patricia dressed herself in
a plain, dark skirt, a long grey coat and wore
two heavy veils over an unobtrusive sailor hat.
In her hand she clutched a small hand satchel
containing the precious check and the odious
letter of John Doe. First she went to the
bank and converted the check into crisp thousand<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_183" id="Page_183">[183]</SPAN></span>
dollar notes. Then walking rapidly she
took the elevated for that unknown region
which men call down-town. There was little
difficulty in finding the place. The narrow
doorway she had imagined was wide—even
imposing, and an Irish janitor with a cheerful
countenance, was sweeping the pavement and
whistling. It was not in the least Dickens-ish,
or Machiavellian. The atmosphere was that
of a very cheerful and modern New York and
Patricia’s spirits revived. A cleanly boy in
buttons ran the elevator.</p>
<p>But as the elevator shot up, Patty’s heart
shot down. She had hoped there would be
stairs to climb. The imminence of the visit
filled her with alarm, and before she realized
it, she was deposited—a bundle of quivering
nerves, before the very door. Gathering her
shattered forces together, she knocked timorously
and entered. It was a cheerful room
with a bright carpet and an outlook over the
river. A small boy who sat inside a wooden
railing, sprang up and came forward.</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_184" id="Page_184">[184]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>“I wish to see Mr. Doe,” stammered Patty,
“Mr. John Doe.”</p>
<p>“Must be a mistake,” said the youth. “This
is Fairman & Brookes, Investments. Nobody
that name here, ma’am.”</p>
<p>At that moment an elderly man of very
proper appearance came forward from an inner
office.</p>
<p>“Mrs. Crabb?” he inquired, politely. “That
will do, Dick, you may go inside,” and then
rather quizzically: “You wished to see Mr.—er—Mr.—Doe?
Mr. John Doe? I think
he was expecting you. If you’ll wait a moment
I’ll see,” and he entered a door which
led to another office.</p>
<p>Patricia dropped into a chair by the railing
completely baffled. This villainous creature
expected her! How could he expect her?
It was only Friday and the appointment was
not until the Wednesday of the following
week. She looked at her surroundings, trying
to find a flaw in their prosperous garb of respectability.
That such rascality could exist<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_185" id="Page_185">[185]</SPAN></span>
under the guise of decent business! And the
benevolent person who had carried her name
might very properly serve upon the vestry of
St. ——’s church! Truly there were depths
of iniquity in this vile community of business
people that her little social plummet could
never seek to sound. The little red-headed
man with the ferret eyes had vanished from
her mind. In his place she saw a type even
more alarming—the sleek, well-groomed man
with dissipated eyes that she and Mort had
often seen dining at popular restaurants. Her
mission would not be as easy to accomplish
as it had seemed. Her speech to the ferret-eyed
man which she had so carefully rehearsed
had gone completely from her mind. What
she should say to this other man, whom she
both loathed and feared, her vagrant wits refused
to invent. So in spite of a brave poise of
the head she sat in a kind of syncope of dismay,
and awaited—she knew not what.</p>
<p>The benevolent vestryman returned smiling.</p>
<p>“Mr. Doe has just come in, Mrs. Crabb. If<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_186" id="Page_186">[186]</SPAN></span>
you’ll kindly come this way.” He opened the
door and stood aside with an old-world courtliness
that all but disarmed her. He followed
her into the inner corridor and opened another
door, smiling the while, and Patricia,
trembling from head to foot, yet resolute, went
in, while the elderly person carefully closed
the door behind her. A tall figure in an overcoat
and soft hat was bending over the fireplace
upon the opposite side of the room adjusting
a log.</p>
<p>“Mr. Doe?” came in a small, muffled voice
from behind Patricia’s veil.</p>
<p>The man at the fireplace still poked at the
logs and made no move to take off his hat.</p>
<p>“The brute—the utter brute,” thought Patricia—and
then aloud, “Mr. Doe, I believe.”</p>
<p>“Yes, madam,” said a voice at last. “I’m
John Doe—what can I do for you?”</p>
<p>“I came about the letters—the letters, you
know, you wrote me about. I am prepared
to—to redeem them.”</p>
<p><span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_187" id="Page_187">[187]</SPAN></span></p>
<p>“H—m,” growled the overcoat. “It’s
Crabb, isn’t it? Mrs. Crabb? I’m always getting
the Cobb and Crabb letters mixed—six of
one and half a dozen of the other——”</p>
<p>“I beg pardon,” faltered Patty.</p>
<p>“Cases very similar. Bad man—good
woman. Trusting husband—hey? Well,”
he muttered brutally, “did you bring the
money?”</p>
<p>“It is here,” said Patricia, trembling. “Now
the letters—and let me go.”</p>
<p>The man moved slowly toward a desk
against the wall with his back still turned,
took out a package, rose and, turning, handed
it to Patricia.</p>
<p>Had her gaze not been fixed so eagerly upon
the handwriting on the package she could not
have failed to note the smiling gray eyes above
the upturned coat collar.</p>
<p>“Why, it is sealed and addressed to me!”
she cried, in surprise. “The package hasn’t
even been opened.”</p>
<p>“I never said it had,” said the man in the<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_188" id="Page_188">[188]</SPAN></span>
overcoat, removing his hat. “I didn’t want
to read the stuff, Patty.”</p>
<p>The package fell to the floor amid the fluttering
bills. Patricia’s knees trembled and
she would have fallen had not a pair of strong
arms gone about her and held her up.</p>
<p>“It’s only Mort, Patty,” said a voice.
“Don’t you understand? It’s all been a deception
and mistake. There isn’t any John
Doe. It’s only your husband——”</p>
<p>“Oh, how could you, Mort?” sobbed Patricia.
“How could you be so hard—so—so
cruel?”</p>
<p>Crabb’s answer was to push the veil back
from his wife’s face and kiss away her tears.
She did not resist now and sank against him
with a restful sigh that told him more than
any words could do the full measure of her
penitence. But in a moment she started up
pale and wide-eyed.</p>
<p>“But this office—these people—do they
know——”</p>
<p>“Bless you, no,” laughed Crabb. “Fairman’s<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_189" id="Page_189">[189]</SPAN></span>
a sort of business associate of mine. I
only borrowed his private office for an hour or
so. He thinks it is a practical joke. It was—is—a
cruel one——”</p>
<p>“But he’ll guess——”</p>
<p>“Oh, no, he won’t,” laughed Crabb.</p>
<p>Patricia’s gaze fell quietly upon the floor
where the bills and the package still lay in
disordered confusion.</p>
<p>“And the letters—you never even read
them?”</p>
<p>“Oh, Patty,” said her husband, “I didn’t
want to read ’em.”</p>
<p>“Can you ever forgive me, Mort?” She
broke away from him, bent to the floor, picked
up the package, and broke the seal.</p>
<p>“But you <i>shall</i> read them, Mort,” she cried,
her face flaming, “every last silly one of
them.”</p>
<p>But Crabb’s hands closed over hers and
took the package gently from her. His only
answer was to throw the papers into the fire.</p>
<p>“Oh, Mort,” she murmured, horrified,<span class="pagenum"><SPAN name="Page_190" id="Page_190">[190]</SPAN></span>
“what have you done—you might believe
<i>anything</i> of me now.”</p>
<p>“I shall,” he chuckled, “that’s your penance.”</p>
<p>“Please, Mort—there’s time yet—just read
a few——”</p>
<p>Crabb poked vigorously at the fire.</p>
<p>“Oh, Mort, it’s inhuman! You only knew
Heywood Pennington——”</p>
<p>“Sh——” said Crabb, putting his hand over
her lips. “No names——”</p>
<p>“But he——”</p>
<p>“No, no.” And then, after a pause, “He
wasn’t even a might-have-been, Patty.” She
said no more. They sat hand in hand watching
the record of Patricia’s foolishness go up
in smoke. And when the last scrap had vanished,
he sprang cheerfully to his feet and
picked up the scattered bills.</p>
<p>“Come, Patty, luncheon! And after that”—Mortimer
Crabb stopped again and blinked
quizzically at the fire—“hadn’t we better keep
your engagement—with Madame Jacquard?”</p>
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