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<p>Cleve steadied Joan in her saddle, and stood a moment beside her, holding
her hands. The darkness seemed clearing before her eyes and the sick pain
within her seemed numbing out.</p>
<p>“Brace up! Hang—to your saddle!” Jim was saying, earnestly. “Any
moment some of the other bandits might come.... You lead the way. I'll
follow and drive the pack-horse.”</p>
<p>“But, Jim, I'll never be able to find the back-trail,” said Joan.</p>
<p>“I think you will. You'll remember every yard of the trail on which you
were brought in here. You won't realize that till you see.”</p>
<p>Joan started and did not look back. Cabin Gulch was like a place in a
dream. It was a relief when she rode out into the broad valley. The
grazing horses lifted their heads to whistle. Joan saw the clumps of
bushes and the flowers, the waving grass, but never as she had seen them
before. How strange that she knew exactly which way to turn, to head, to
cross! She trotted her horse so fast that Jim called to say he could not
drive a pack-animal and keep to her gait. Every rod of the trail lessened
a burden. Behind was something hideous and incomprehensible and terrible;
before beckoned something beginning to seem bright. And it was not the
ruddy, calm sunset, flooding the hills with color. That something called
from beyond the hills.</p>
<p>She led straight to a camp-site she remembered long before she came to it;
and the charred logs of the fire, the rocks, the tree under which she had
lain—all brought back the emotions she had felt there. She grew
afraid of the twilight, and when night settled down there were phantoms
stalking in the shadows. When Cleve, in his hurried camp duties, went out
of her sight, she wanted to cry out to him, but had not the voice; and
when he was close still she trembled and was cold. He wrapped blankets
round her and held her in his arms, yet the numb chill and the dark clamp
of mind remained with her. Long she lay awake. The stars were pitiless.
When she shut her eyes the blackness seemed unendurable. She slept, to
wake out of nightmare, and she dared sleep no more. At last the day came.</p>
<p>For Joan that faint trail seemed a broad road, blazoned through the wild
canons and up the rocky fastness and through the thick brakes. She led on
and on and up and down, never at fault, with familiar landmarks near and
far. Cleve hung close to her, and now his call to her or to the pack-horse
took on a keener note. Every rough and wild mile behind them meant so
much. They did not halt at the noon hour. They did not halt at the next
camp-site, still more darkly memorable to Joan. And sunset found them
miles farther on, down on the divide, at the head of Lost Canon.</p>
<p>Here Joan ate and drank, and slept the deep sleep of exhaustion. Sunrise
found them moving, and through the winding, wild cañon they made fast
travel. Both time and miles passed swiftly. At noon they reached the
little open cabin, and they dismounted for a rest and a drink at the
spring. Joan did not speak a word here. That she could look into the cabin
where she had almost killed a bandit, and then, through silent, lonely
weeks, had nursed him back to life, was a proof that the long ride and
distance were helping her, sloughing away the dark deadlock to hope and
brightness. They left the place exactly as they had found it, except that
Cleve plucked the card from the bark of the balsam-tree—Gulden's ace—of—hearts
target with its bullet—holes.</p>
<p>Then they rode on, out of that cañon, over the rocky ridge, down into
another cañon, on and on, past an old camp-site, along a babbling brook
for miles, and so at last out into the foot—hills.</p>
<p>Toward noon of the next day, when approaching a clump of low trees in a
flat valley, Joan pointed ahead.</p>
<p>“Jim—it was in there—where Roberts and I camped—and—”</p>
<p>“You ride around. I'll catch up with you,” replied Cleve.</p>
<p>She made a wide detour, to come back again to her own trail, so different
here. Presently Cleve joined her. His face was pale and sweaty, and he
looked sick. They rode on silently, and that night they camped without
water on her own trail, made months before. The single tracks were there,
sharp and clear in the earth, as if imprinted but a day.</p>
<p>Next morning Joan found that as the wild border lay behind her so did the
dark and hateful shadow of gloom. Only the pain remained, and it had
softened. She could think now.</p>
<p>Jim Cleve cheered up. Perhaps it was her brightening to which he
responded. They began to talk and speech liberated feeling. Miles of that
back-trail they rode side by side, holding hands, driving the pack-horse
ahead, and beginning to talk of old associations. Again it was sunset when
they rode down the hill toward the little village of Hoadley. Joan's heart
was full, but Jim was gay.</p>
<p>“Won't I have it on your old fellows!” he teased. But he was grim, too.</p>
<p>“Jim! You—won't tell—just yet!” she faltered.</p>
<p>“I'll introduce you as my wife! They'll all think we eloped.”</p>
<p>“No. They'll say I ran after you!... Please, Jim! Keep it secret a little.
It'll be hard for me. Aunt Jane will never understand.”</p>
<p>“Well, I'll keep it secret till you want to tell—for two things,” he
said.</p>
<p>“What?”</p>
<p>“Meet me to—night, under the spruces where we had that quarrel. Meet
just like we did then, but differently. Will you?”</p>
<p>“I'll be—so glad.”</p>
<p>“And put on your mask now!... You know, Joan, sooner or later your story
will be on everybody's tongue. You'll be Dandy Dale as long as you live
near this border. Wear the mask, just for fun. Imagine your Aunt Jane—and
everybody!”</p>
<p>“Jim! I'd forgotten how I look!” exclaimed Joan in dismay. “I didn't bring
your long coat. Oh, I can't face them in this suit!”</p>
<p>“You'll have to. Besides, you look great. It's going to tickle me—the
sensation you make. Don't you see, they'll never recognize you till you
take the mask off.... Please, Joan.”</p>
<p>She yielded, and donned the black mask, not without a twinge. And thus
they rode across the log bridge over the creek into the village. The few
men and women they met stared in wonder, and, recognizing Cleve, they grew
excited. They followed, and others joined them.</p>
<p>“Joan, won't it be strange if Uncle Bill really is the Overland of Alder
Creek? We've packed out every pound of Overland's gold. Oh! I hope—I
believe he's your uncle.... Wouldn't it be great, Joan?”</p>
<p>But Joan could not answer. The word gold was a stab. Besides, she saw Aunt
Jane and two neighbors standing before a log cabin, beginning to show
signs of interest in the approaching procession.</p>
<p>Joan fell back a little, trying to screen herself behind Jim. Then Jim
halted with a cheery salute.</p>
<p>“For the land's sake!” ejaculated a sweet-faced, gray-haired woman.</p>
<p>“If it isn't Jim Cleve!” cried another.</p>
<p>Jim jumped off and hugged the first speaker. She seemed overjoyed to see
him and then overcome. Her face began to work.</p>
<p>“Jim! We always hoped you'd—you'd fetch Joan back!”</p>
<p>“Sure!” shouted Jim, who had no heart now for even an instant's deception.
“There she is!”</p>
<p>“Who?... What?”</p>
<p>Joan slipped out of her saddle and, tearing off the mask, she leaped
forward with a little sob.</p>
<p>“Auntie! Auntie!... It's Joan—alive—well!... Oh, so glad to be
home!... Don't look at my clothes—look at me!”</p>
<p>Aunt Jane evidently sustained a shock of recognition, joy, amaze,
consternation, and shame, of which all were subservient to the joy. She
cried over Joan and murmured over her. Then, suddenly alive to the curious
crowd, she put Joan from her.</p>
<p>“You—you wild thing! You desperado! I always told Bill you'd run
wild some day!... March in the house and get out of that indecent rig!”</p>
<p>That night under the spruces, with the starlight piercing the lacy
shadows, Joan waited for Jim Cleve. It was one of the white, silent,
mountain nights. The brook murmured over the stones and the wind rustled
the branches.</p>
<p>The wonder of Joan's home-coming was in learning that Uncle Bill Hoadley
was indeed Overland, the discoverer of Alder Creek. Years and years of
profitless toil had at last been rewarded in this rich gold strike.</p>
<p>Joan hated to think of gold. She had wanted to leave the gold back in
Cabin Gulch, and she would have done so had Jim permitted it. And to think
that all that gold which was not Jim Cleve's belonged to her uncle! She
could not believe it.</p>
<p>Fatal and terrible forever to Joan would be the significance of gold. Did
any woman in the world or any man know the meaning of gold as well as she
knew it? How strange and enlightening and terrible had been her
experience! She had grown now not to blame any man, honest miner or bloody
bandit. She blamed only gold. She doubted its value. She could not see it
a blessing. She absolutely knew its driving power to change the souls of
men. Could she ever forget that vast ant-hill of toiling diggers and
washers, blind and deaf and dumb to all save gold?</p>
<p>Always limned in figures of fire against the black memory would be the
forms of those wild and violent bandits! Gulden, the monster, the gorilla,
the cannibal! Horrible as was the memory of him, there was no horror in
thought of his terrible death. That seemed to be the one memory that did
not hurt.</p>
<p>But Kells was indestructible—he lived in her mind. Safe out of the
border now and at home, she could look back clearly. Still all was not
clear and never would be. She saw Kells the ruthless bandit, the
organizer, the planner, and the blood-spiller. He ought have no place in a
good woman's memory. Yet he had. She never condoned one of his deeds or
even his intentions. She knew her intelligence was not broad enough to
grasp the vastness of his guilt. She believed he must have been the worst
and most terrible character on that wild border. That border had developed
him. It had produced the time and the place and the man. And therein lay
the mystery. For over against this bandit's weakness and evil she could
contrast strength and nobility. She alone had known the real man in all
the strange phases of his nature, and the darkness of his crime faded out
of her mind. She suffered remorse—almost regret. Yet what could she
have done? There had been no help for that impossible situation as, there
was now no help for her in a right and just placing of Kells among men. He
had stolen her—wantonly murdering for the sake of lonely, fruitless
hours with her; he had loved her—and he had changed; he had gambled
away her soul and life—a last and terrible proof of the evil power
of gold; and in the end he had saved her—he had gone from her white,
radiant, cool, with strange, pale eyes and his amiable, mocking smile, and
all the ruthless force of his life had expended itself in one last
magnificent stand. If only he had known her at the end—when she
lifted his head! But no—there had been only the fading light—the
strange, weird look of a retreating soul, already alone forever.</p>
<p>A rustling of leaves, a step thrilled Joan out of her meditation.</p>
<p>Suddenly she was seized from behind, and Jim Cleve showed that though he
might be a joyous and grateful lover, he certainly would never be an
actor. For if he desired to live over again that fatal meeting and quarrel
which had sent them out to the border, he failed utterly in his part.
There was possession in the gentle grasp of his arms and bliss in the
trembling of his lips.</p>
<p>“Jim, you never did it that way!” laughed Joan. “If you had—do you
think I could ever have been furious?”</p>
<p>Jim in turn laughed happily. “Joan, that's exactly the way I stole upon
you and mauled you!”.</p>
<p>“You think so! Well, I happen to remember. Now you sit here and make
believe you are Joan. And let me be Jim Cleve!... I'll show you!”</p>
<p>Joan stole away in the darkness, and noiselessly as a shadow she stole
back—to enact that violent scene as it lived in her memory.</p>
<p>Jim was breathless, speechless, choked.</p>
<p>“That's how you treated me,” she said.</p>
<p>“I—I don't believe I could have—been such a—a bear!”
panted Jim.</p>
<p>“But you were. And consider—I've not half your strength.”</p>
<p>“Then all I say is—you did right to drive me off.... Only you should
never have trailed me out to the border.”</p>
<p>“Ah!... But, Jim, in my fury I discovered my love!”</p>
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