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<h1> THE FRIENDLY ROAD </h1>
<h1> New Adventures in Contentment </h1>
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<h2> By David Grayson (Pseud. of Ray Stannard Baker) </h2>
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<p>Author of<br/>
“Adventure in Contentment,”<br/>
“Adventures in Friendship”<br/></p>
<h3> Illustrated by Thomas Fogarty <br/><br/> Copyright, 1913, by DOUBLEDAY, PAGE & COMPANY </h3>
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<p>“Surely it is good to be alive at a time like this.”<br/></p>
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<h2> THE FRIENDLY ROAD </h2>
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<h2> A WORD TO HIM WHO OPENS THIS BOOK </h2>
<p>I did not plan when I began writing these chapters to make an entire book,
but only to put down the more or less unusual impressions, the events and
adventures, of certain quiet pilgrimages in country roads. But when I had
written down all of these things, I found I had material in plenty.</p>
<p>“What shall I call it now that I have written it?” I asked myself.</p>
<p>At first I thought I should call it “Adventures on the Road,” or “The
Country Road,” or something equally simple, for I would not have the title
arouse any appetite which the book itself could not satisfy. One pleasant
evening I was sitting on my porch with my dog sleeping near me, and
Harriet not far away rocking and sewing, and as I looked out across the
quiet fields I could see in the distance a curving bit of the town road. I
could see the valley below it and the green hill beyond, and my mind went
out swiftly along the country road which I had so recently travelled on
foot, and I thought with deep satisfaction of all the people I had met on
my pilgrimages—the Country Minister with his problems, the buoyant
Stanleys, Bill Hahn the Socialist, the Vedders in their garden, the Brush
Peddler. I thought of the Wonderful City, and of how for a time I had been
caught up into its life. I thought of the men I met at the livery stable,
especially Healy, the wit, and of that strange Girl of the Street. And it
was good to think of them all living around me, not so very far away,
connected with me through darkness and space by a certain mysterious human
cord. Most of all I love that which I cannot see beyond the hill.</p>
<p>“Harriet,” I said aloud, “it grows more wonderful every year how full the
world is of friendly people!”</p>
<p>So I got up quickly and came in here to my room, and taking a fresh sheet
of paper I wrote down the title of my new book:</p>
<p>“The Friendly Road.”</p>
<p>I invite you to travel with me upon this friendly road. You may find, as I
did, something which will cause you for a time, to forget yourself into
contentment. But if you chance to be a truly serious person, put down my
book. Let nothing stay your hurried steps, nor keep you from your way.</p>
<p>As for those of us who remain, we will loiter as much as ever we please.
We'll take toll of these spring days, we'll stop wherever evening
overtakes us, we'll eat the food of hospitality—and make friends for
life!</p>
<p>DAVID GRAYSON. <br/> <br/></p>
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<h2> Contents </h2>
<p><SPAN href="#link2H_4_0001"> THE FRIENDLY ROAD </SPAN><br/><br/> <SPAN href="#link2H_4_0002"> A WORD TO HIM WHO OPENS THIS BOOK </SPAN><br/><br/></p>
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0001"> CHAPTER I. </SPAN>
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I LEAVE MY FARM
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0002"> CHAPTER II. </SPAN>
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I WHISTLE
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0003"> CHAPTER III. </SPAN>
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THE HOUSE BY THE SIDE OF THE ROAD
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0004"> CHAPTER IV. </SPAN>
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I AM THE SPECTATOR OF A MIGHTY BATTLE
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0005"> CHAPTER V. </SPAN>
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I PLAY THE PART OF A SPECTACLE PEDDLER
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0006"> CHAPTER VI. </SPAN>
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AN EXPERIMENT IN HUMAN NATURE
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0007"> CHAPTER VII. </SPAN>
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THE UNDISCOVERED COUNTRY
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0008"> CHAPTER VIII. </SPAN>
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THE HEDGE
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0009"> CHAPTER IX. </SPAN>
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THE MAN POSSESSED
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0010"> CHAPTER X. </SPAN>
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I AM CAUGHT UP INTO LIFE
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0011"> CHAPTER XI. </SPAN>
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I COME TO GRAPPLE WITH THE CITY
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<SPAN href="#link2HCH0012"> CHAPTER XII. </SPAN>
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THE RETURN
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<h2> CHAPTER I. I LEAVE MY FARM </h2>
<p>“Is it so small a thing<br/>
To have enjoyed the sun,<br/>
To have lived light in spring?”<br/></p>
<p>It is eight o'clock of a sunny spring morning. I have been on the road for
almost three hours. At five I left the town of Holt, before six I had
crossed the railroad at a place called Martin's Landing, and an hour ago,
at seven, I could see in the distance the spires of Nortontown. And all
the morning as I came tramping along the fine country roads with my
pack-strap resting warmly on my shoulder, and a song in my throat—just
nameless words to a nameless tune—and all the birds singing, and all
the brooks bright under their little bridges, I knew that I must soon step
aside and put down, if I could, some faint impression of the feeling of
this time and place. I cannot hope to convey any adequate sense of it all—of
the feeling of lightness, strength, clearness, I have as I sit here under
this maple tree—but I am going to write as long as ever I am happy
at it, and when I am no longer happy at it, why, here at my very hand lies
the pleasant country road, stretching away toward newer hills and richer
scenes.</p>
<p>Until to-day I have not really been quite clear in my own mind as to the
step I have taken. My sober friend, have you ever tried to do anything
that the world at large considers not quite sensible, not quite sane? Try
it! It is easier to commit a thundering crime. A friend of mine delights
in walking to town bareheaded, and I fully believe the neighbourhood is
more disquieted thereby than it would be if my friend came home drunken or
failed to pay his debts.</p>
<p>Here I am then, a farmer, forty miles from home in planting time, taking
his ease under a maple tree and writing in a little book held on his knee!
Is not that the height of absurdity? Of all my friends the Scotch Preacher
was the only one who seemed to understand why it was that I must go away
for a time. Oh, I am a sinful and revolutionary person!</p>
<p>When I left home last week, if you could have had a truthful picture of me—for
is there not a photography so delicate that it will catch the dim
thought-shapes which attend upon our lives?—if you could have had
such a truthful picture of me, you would have seen, besides a farmer named
Grayson with a gray bag hanging from his shoulder, a strange company
following close upon his steps. Among this crew you would have made out
easily:</p>
<p>Two fine cows. Four Berkshire pigs. One team of gray horses, the old mare
a little lame in her right foreleg. About fifty hens, four cockerels, and
a number of ducks and geese.</p>
<p>More than this—I shall offer no explanation in these writings of any
miracles that may appear—you would have seen an entirely respectable
old farmhouse bumping and hobbling along as best it might in the rear. And
in the doorway, Harriet Grayson, in her immaculate white apron, with the
veritable look in her eyes which she wears when I am not comporting myself
with quite the proper decorum.</p>
<p>Oh, they would not let me go! How they all followed clamoring after me. My
thoughts coursed backward faster than ever I could run away. If you could
have heard that motley crew of the barnyard as I did—the hens all
cackling, the ducks quacking, the pigs grunting, and the old mare neighing
and stamping, you would have thought it a miracle that I escaped at all.</p>
<p>So often we think in a superior and lordly manner of our possessions,
when, as a matter of fact, we do not really possess them, they possess us.
For ten years I have been the humble servant, attending upon the commonest
daily needs of sundry hens, ducks, geese, pigs, bees, and of a fussy and
exacting old gray mare. And the habit of servitude, I find, has worn deep
scars upon me. I am almost like the life prisoner who finds the door of
his cell suddenly open, and fears to escape. Why, I had almost become ALL
farmer.</p>
<p>On the first morning after I left home I awoke as usual about five o'clock
with the irresistible feeling that I must do the milking. So well
disciplined had I become in my servitude that I instinctively thrust my
leg out of bed—but pulled it quickly back in again, turned over,
drew a long, luxurious breath, and said to myself:</p>
<p>“Avaunt cows! Get thee behind me, swine! Shoo, hens!”</p>
<p>Instantly the clatter of mastery to which I had responded so quickly for
so many years grew perceptibly fainter, the hens cackled less
domineeringly, the pigs squealed less insistently, and as for the
strutting cockerel, that lordly and despotic bird stopped fairly in the
middle of a crow, and his voice gurgled away in a spasm of astonishment.
As for the old farmhouse, it grew so dim I could scarcely see it at all!
Having thus published abroad my Declaration of Independence, nailed my
defiance to the door, and otherwise established myself as a free person, I
turned over in my bed and took another delicious nap.</p>
<p>Do you know, friend, we can be free of many things that dominate our lives
by merely crying out a rebellious “Avaunt!”</p>
<p>But in spite of this bold beginning, I assure you it required several days
to break the habit of cows and hens. The second morning I awakened again
at five o'clock, but my leg did not make for the side of the bed; the
third morning I was only partially awakened, and on the fourth morning I
slept like a millionaire (or at least I slept as a millionaire is supposed
to sleep!) until the clock struck seven.</p>
<p>For some days after I left home—and I walked out as casually that
morning as though I were going to the barn—I scarcely thought or
tried to think of anything but the Road. Such an unrestrained sense of
liberty, such an exaltation of freedom, I have not known since I was a
lad. When I came to my farm from the city many years ago it was as one
bound, as one who had lost out in the World's battle and was seeking to
get hold again somewhere upon the realities of life. I have related
elsewhere how I thus came creeping like one sore wounded from the field of
battle, and how, among our hills, in the hard, steady labour in the soil
of the fields, with new and simple friends around me, I found a sort of
rebirth or resurrection. I that was worn out, bankrupt both physically and
morally, learned to live again. I have achieved something of high
happiness in these years, something I know of pure contentment; and I have
learned two or three deep and simple things about life: I have learned
that happiness is not to be had for the seeking, but comes quietly to him
who pauses at his difficult task and looks upward. I have learned that
friendship is very simple, and, more than all else, I have learned the
lesson of being quiet, of looking out across the meadows and hills, and of
trusting a little in God.</p>
<p>And now, for the moment, I am regaining another of the joys of youth—that
of the sense of perfect freedom. I made no plans when I left home, I
scarcely chose the direction in which I was to travel, but drifted out, as
a boy might, into the great busy world. Oh, I have dreamed of that! It
seems almost as though, after ten years, I might again really touch the
highest joys of adventure!</p>
<p>So I took the Road as it came, as a man takes a woman, for better or worse—I
took the Road, and the farms along it, and the sleepy little villages, and
the streams from the hillsides—all with high enjoyment. They were
good coin in my purse! And when I had passed the narrow horizon of my
acquaintanceship, and reached country new to me, it seemed as though every
sense I had began to awaken. I must have grown dull, unconsciously, in the
last years there on my farm. I cannot describe the eagerness of discovery
I felt at climbing each new hill, nor the long breath I took at the top of
it as I surveyed new stretches of pleasant countryside.</p>
<p>Assuredly this is one of the royal moments of all the year—fine,
cool, sparkling spring weather. I think I never saw the meadows richer and
greener—and the lilacs are still blooming, and the catbirds and
orioles are here. The oaks are not yet in full leaf, but the maples have
nearly reached their full mantle of verdure—they are very beautiful
and charming to see.</p>
<p>It is curious how at this moment of the year all the world seems astir. I
suppose there is no moment in any of the seasons when the whole army of
agriculture, regulars and reserves, is so fully drafted for service in the
fields. And all the doors and windows, both in the little villages and on
the farms, stand wide open to the sunshine, and all the women and girls
are busy in the yards and gardens. Such a fine, active, gossipy,
adventurous world as it is at this moment of the year!</p>
<p>It is the time, too, when all sorts of travelling people are afoot. People
who have been mewed up in the cities for the winter now take to the open
road—all the peddlers and agents and umbrella-menders, all the
nursery salesmen and fertilizer agents, all the tramps and scientists and
poets—all abroad in the wide sunny roads. They, too, know well this
hospitable moment of the spring; they, too, know that doors and hearts are
open and that even into dull lives creeps a bit of the spirit of
adventure. Why, a farmer will buy a corn planter, feed a tramp, or listen
to a poet twice as easily at this time of year as at any other!</p>
<p>For several days I found myself so fully occupied with the bustling life
of the Road that I scarcely spoke to a living soul, but strode straight
ahead. The spring has been late and cold: most of the corn and some of the
potatoes are not yet in, and the tobacco lands are still bare and brown.
Occasionally I stopped to watch some ploughman in the fields: I saw with a
curious, deep satisfaction how the moist furrows, freshly turned,
glistened in the warm sunshine. There seemed to be something right and fit
about it, as well as human and beautiful. Or at evening I would stop to
watch a ploughman driving homeward across his new brown fields, raising a
cloud of fine dust from the fast drying furrow crests. The low sun shining
through the dust and glorifying it, the weary-stepping horses, the man all
sombre-coloured like the earth itself and knit into the scene as though a
part of it, made a picture exquisitely fine to see.</p>
<p>And what a joy I had also of the lilacs blooming in many a dooryard, the
odour often trailing after me for a long distance in the road, and of the
pungent scent at evening in the cool hollows of burning brush heaps and
the smell of barnyards as I went by—not unpleasant, not offensive—and
above all, the deep, earthy, moist odour of new-ploughed fields.</p>
<p>And then, at evening, to hear the sound of voices from the dooryards as I
pass quite unseen; no words, but just pleasant, quiet intonations of human
voices, borne through the still air, or the low sounds of cattle in the
barnyards, quieting down for the night, and often, if near a village, the
distant, slumbrous sound of a church bell, or even the rumble of a train—how
good all these sounds are! They have all come to me again this week with
renewed freshness and impressiveness. I am living deep again!</p>
<p>It was not, indeed, until last Wednesday that I began to get my fill,
temporarily, of the outward satisfaction of the Road—the primeval
takings of the senses—the mere joys of seeing, hearing, smelling,
touching. But on that day I began to wake up; I began to have a desire to
know something of all the strange and interesting people who are working
in their fields, or standing invitingly in their doorways, or so busily
afoot in the country roads. Let me add, also, for this is one of the most
important parts of my present experience, that this new desire was far
from being wholly esoteric. I had also begun to have cravings which would
not in the least be satisfied by landscapes or dulled by the sights and
sounds of the road. A whiff here and there from a doorway at mealtime had
made me long for my own home, for the sight of Harriet calling from the
steps:</p>
<p>“Dinner, David.”</p>
<p>But I had covenanted with myself long before starting that I would
literally “live light in spring.” It was the one and primary condition I
made with myself—and made with serious purpose—and when I came
away I had only enough money in my pocket and sandwiches in my pack to see
me through the first three or four days. Any man may brutally pay his way
anywhere, but it is quite another thing to be accepted by your humankind
not as a paid lodger but as a friend. Always, it seems to me, I have
wanted to submit myself, and indeed submit the stranger, to that test.
Moreover, how can any man look for true adventure in life if he always
knows to a certainty where his next meal is coming from? In a world so
completely dominated by goods, by things, by possessions, and smothered by
security, what fine adventure is left to a man of spirit save the
adventure of poverty?</p>
<p>I do not mean by this the adventure of involuntary poverty, for I maintain
that involuntary poverty, like involuntary riches, is a credit to no man.
It is only as we dominate life that we really live. What I mean here, if I
may so express it, is an adventure in achieved poverty. In the lives of
such true men as Francis of Assisi and Tolstoi, that which draws the world
to them in secret sympathy is not that they lived lives of poverty, but
rather, having riches at their hands, or for the very asking, that they
chose poverty as the better way of life.</p>
<p>As for me, I do not in the least pretend to have accepted the final logic
of an achieved poverty. I have merely abolished temporarily from my life a
few hens and cows, a comfortable old farmhouse, and—certain other
emoluments and hereditaments—but remain the slave of sundry cloth
upon my back and sundry articles in my gray bag—including a fat
pocket volume or so, and a tin whistle. Let them pass now. To-morrow I may
wish to attempt life with still less. I might survive without my battered
copy of “Montaigne” or even submit to existence without that sense of
distant companionship symbolized by a postage-stamp, and as for trousers—</p>
<p>In this deceptive world, how difficult of attainment is perfection!</p>
<p>No, I expect I shall continue for a long time to owe the worm his silk,
the beast his hide, the sheep his wool, and the cat his perfume! What I am
seeking is something as simple and as quiet as the trees or the hills—just
to look out around me at the pleasant countryside, to enjoy a little of
this show, to meet (and to help a little if I may) a few human beings, and
thus to get nearly into the sweet kernel of human life. My friend, you may
or may not think this a worthy object; if you do not, stop here, go no
further with me; but if you do, why, we'll exchange great words on the
road; we'll look up at the sky together, we'll see and hear the finest
things in this world! We'll enjoy the sun! We'll live light in spring!</p>
<p>Until last Tuesday, then, I was carried easily and comfortably onward by
the corn, the eggs, and the honey of my past labours, and before Wednesday
noon I began to experience in certain vital centres recognizable symptoms
of a variety of discomfort anciently familiar to man. And it was all the
sharper because I did not know how or where I could assuage it. In all my
life, in spite of various ups and downs in a fat world, I don't think I
was ever before genuinely hungry. Oh, I've been hungry in a reasonable,
civilized way, but I have always known where in an hour or so I could get
all I wanted to eat—a condition accountable, in this world, I am
convinced, for no end of stupidity. But to be both physically and, let us
say, psychologically hungry, and not to know where or how to get anything
to eat, adds something to the zest of life.</p>
<p>By noon on Wednesday, then, I was reduced quite to a point of necessity.
But where was I to begin, and how? I know from long experience the
suspicion with which the ordinary farmer meets the Man of the Road—the
man who appears to wish to enjoy the fruits of the earth without working
for them with his hands. It is a distrust deep-seated and ages old. Nor
can the Man of the Road ever quite understand the Man of the Fields. And
here was I, for so long the stationary Man of the Fields, essaying the
role of the Man of the Road. I experienced a sudden sense of the
enlivenment of the faculties: I must now depend upon wit or cunning or
human nature to win my way, not upon mere skill of the hand or strength in
the bent back. Whereas in my former life, when I was assailed by a Man of
the Road, whether tramp or peddler or poet, I had only to stand
stock-still within my fences and say nothing—though indeed I never
could do that, being far too much interested in every one who came my way—and
the invader was soon repelled. There is nothing so resistant as the dull
security of possession the stolidity of ownership!</p>
<p>Many times that day I stopped by a field side or at the end of a lane, or
at a house-gate, and considered the possibilities of making an attack. Oh,
I measured the houses and barns I saw with a new eye! The kind of country
I had known so long and familiarly became a new and foreign land, full of
strange possibilities. I spied out the men in the fields and did not fail,
also, to see what I could of the commissary department of each farmstead
as I passed. I walked for miles looking thus for a favourable opening—and
with a sensation of embarrassment at once disagreeable and pleasurable. As
the afternoon began to deepen I saw that I must absolutely do something: a
whole day tramping in the open air without a bite to eat is an
irresistible argument.</p>
<p>Presently I saw from the road a farmer and his son planting potatoes in a
sloping field. There was no house at all in view. At the bars stood a
light wagon half filled with bags of seed potatoes, and the horse which
had drawn it stood quietly, not far off, tied to the fence. The man and
the boy, each with a basket on his arm, were at the farther end of the
field, dropping potatoes. I stood quietly watching them. They stepped
quickly and kept their eyes on the furrows: good workers. I liked the
looks of them. I liked also the straight, clean furrows; I liked the
appearance of the horse.</p>
<p>“I will stop here,” I said to myself.</p>
<p>I cannot at all convey the sense of high adventure I had as I stood there.
Though I had not the slightest idea of what I should do or say, yet I was
determined upon the attack.</p>
<p>Neither father nor son saw me until they had nearly reached the end of the
field.</p>
<p>“Step lively, Ben,” I heard the man say with some impatience; “we've got
to finish this field to-day.”</p>
<p>“I AM steppin' lively, dad,” responded the boy, “but it's awful hot. We
can't possibly finish to-day. It's too much.”</p>
<p>“We've got to get through here to-day,” the man replied grimly; “we're
already two weeks late.”</p>
<p>I know just how the man felt; for I knew well the difficulty a farmer has
in getting help in planting time. The spring waits for no man. My heart
went out to the man and boy struggling there in the heat of their field.
For this is the real warfare of the common life.</p>
<p>“Why,” I said to myself with a curious lift of the heart, “they have need
of a fellow just like me.”</p>
<p>At that moment the boy saw me and, missing a step in the rhythm of the
planting, the father also looked up and saw me. But neither said a word
until the furrows were finished, and the planters came to refill their
baskets.</p>
<p>“Fine afternoon,” I said, sparring for an opening.</p>
<p>“Fine,” responded the man rather shortly, glancing up from his work. I
recalled the scores of times I had been exactly in his place, and had
glanced up to see the stranger in the road.</p>
<p>“Got another basket handy?” I asked.</p>
<p>“There is one somewhere around here,” he answered not too cordially. The
boy said nothing at all, but eyed me with absorbing interest. The gloomy
look had already gone from his face.</p>
<p>I slipped my gray bag from my shoulder, took off my coat, and put them
both down inside the fence. Then I found the basket and began to fill it
from one of the bags. Both man and boy looked up at me questioningly. I
enjoyed the situation immensely.</p>
<p>“I heard you say to your son,” I said, “that you'd have to hurry in order
to get in your potatoes to-day. I can see that for myself. Let me take a
hand for a row or two.”</p>
<p>The unmistakable shrewd look of the bargainer came suddenly into the man's
face, but when I went about my business without hesitation or questioning,
he said nothing at all. As for the boy, the change in his countenance was
marvellous to see. Something new and astonishing had come into the world.
Oh, I know what a thing it is to be a boy and to work in trouting time!</p>
<p>“How near are you planting, Ben?” I asked.</p>
<p>“About fourteen inches.”</p>
<p>So we began in fine spirits. I was delighted with the favourable beginning
of my enterprise; there is nothing which so draws men together as their
employment at a common task.</p>
<p>Ben was a lad some fifteen years old-very stout and stocky, with a fine
open countenance and a frank blue eye—all boy. His nose was as
freckled as the belly of a trout. The whole situation, including the
prospect of help in finishing a tiresome job, pleased him hugely. He stole
a glimpse from time to time at me then at his father. Finally he said:</p>
<p>“Say, you'll have to step lively to keep up with dad.”</p>
<p>“I'll show you,” I said, “how we used to drop potatoes when I was a boy.”</p>
<p>And with that I began to step ahead more quickly and make the pieces
fairly fly.</p>
<p>“We old fellows,” I said to the father, “must give these young sprouts a
lesson once in a while.”</p>
<p>“You will, will you?” responded the boy, and instantly began to drop the
potatoes at a prodigious speed. The father followed with more dignity, but
with evident amusement, and so we all came with a rush to the end of the
row.</p>
<p>“I guess that beats the record across THIS field!” remarked the lad,
puffing and wiping his forehead. “Say, but you're a good one!”</p>
<p>It gave me a peculiar thrill of pleasure; there is nothing more pleasing
than the frank admiration of a boy.</p>
<p>We paused a moment and I said to the man: “This looks like fine potato
land.”</p>
<p>“The' ain't any better in these parts,” he replied with some pride in his
voice.</p>
<p>And so we went at the planting again: and as we planted we had great talk
of seed potatoes and the advantages and disadvantages of mechanical
planters, of cultivating and spraying, and all the lore of prices and
profits. Once we stopped at the lower end of the field to get a drink from
a jug of water set in the shade of a fence corner, and once we set the
horse in the thills and moved the seed farther up the field. And tired and
hungry as I felt I really enjoyed the work; I really enjoyed talking with
this busy father and son, and I wondered what their home life was like and
what were their real ambitions and hopes. Thus the sun sank lower and
lower, the long shadows began to creep into the valleys, and we came
finally toward the end of the field. Suddenly the boy Ben cried out:</p>
<p>“There's Sis!”</p>
<p>I glanced up and saw standing near the gateway a slim, bright girl of
about twelve in a fresh gingham dress.</p>
<p>“We're coming!” roared Ben, exultantly.</p>
<p>While we were hitching up the horse, the man said to me:</p>
<p>“You'll come down with us and have some supper.”</p>
<p>“Indeed I will,” I replied, trying not to make my response too eager.</p>
<p>“Did mother make gingerbread to-day?” I heard the boy whisper audibly.</p>
<p>“Sh-h—” replied the girl, “who is that man?”</p>
<p>“<i>I</i> don't know” with a great accent of mystery—“and dad don't
know. Did mother make gingerbread?”</p>
<p>“Sh-h—he'll hear you.”</p>
<p>“Gee! but he can plant potatoes. He dropped down on us out of a clear
sky.”</p>
<p>“What is he?” she asked. “A tramp?”</p>
<p>“Nope, not a tramp. He works. But, Sis, did mother make gingerbread?”</p>
<p>So we all got into the light wagon and drove briskly out along the shady
country road. The evening was coming on, and the air was full of the scent
of blossoms. We turned finally into a lane and thus came promptly, for the
horse was as eager as we, to the capacious farmyard. A motherly woman came
out from the house, spoke to her son, and nodded pleasantly to me. There
was no especial introduction. I said merely, “My name is Grayson,” and I
was accepted without a word.</p>
<p>I waited to help the man, whose name I had now learned—it was
Stanley—with his horse and wagon, and then we came up to the house.
Near the back door there was a pump, with a bench and basin set just
within a little cleanly swept, open shed. Rolling back my collar and
baring my arms I washed myself in the cool water, dashing it over my head
until I gasped, and then stepping back, breathless and refreshed, I found
the slim girl, Mary, at my elbow with a clean soft towel. As I stood
wiping quietly I could smell the ambrosial odours from the kitchen. In all
my life I never enjoyed a moment more than that, I think.</p>
<p>“Come in now,” said the motherly Mrs. Stanley.</p>
<p>So we filed into the roomy kitchen, where an older girl, called Kate, was
flying about placing steaming dishes upon the table. There was also an
older son, who had been at the farm chores. It was altogether a fine,
vigorous, independent American family. So we all sat down and drew up our
chairs. Then we paused a moment, and the father, bowing his head, said in
a low voice:</p>
<p>“For all Thy good gifts, Lord, we thank Thee. Preserve us and keep us
through another night.”</p>
<p>I suppose it was a very ordinary farm meal, but it seems to me I never
tasted a better one. The huge piles of new baked bread, the sweet farm
butter, already delicious with the flavour of new grass, the bacon and
eggs, the potatoes, the rhubarb sauce, the great plates of new, hot
gingerbread and, at the last, the custard pie—a great wedge of it,
with fresh cheese. After the first ravenous appetite of hardworking men
was satisfied, there came to be a good deal of lively conversation. The
girls had some joke between them which Ben was trying in vain to fathom.
The older son told how much milk a certain Alderney cow had given, and Mr.
Stanley, quite changed now as he sat at his own table from the rather grim
farmer of the afternoon, revealed a capacity for a husky sort of fun,
joking Ben about his potato-planting and telling in a lively way of his
race with me. As for Mrs. Stanley, she sat smiling behind her tall coffee
pot, radiating good cheer and hospitality. They asked me no questions at
all, and I was so hungry and tired that I volunteered no information.</p>
<p>After supper we went out for half or three quarters of an hour to do some
final chores, and Mr. Stanley and I stopped in the cattle yard and looked
over the cows, and talked learnedly about the pigs, and I admired his
spring calves to his hearts content, for they really were a fine lot. When
we came in again the lamps had been lighted in the sitting-room and the
older daughter was at the telephone exchanging the news of the day with
some neighbour—and with great laughter and enjoyment. Occasionally
she would turn and repeat some bit of gossip to the family, and Mrs.
Stanley would claim:</p>
<p>“Do tell!”</p>
<p>“Can't we have a bit of music to-night?” inquired Mr. Stanley.</p>
<p>Instantly Ben and the slim girl, Mary, made a wild dive for the front room—the
parlour—and came out with a first-rate phonograph which they placed
on the table.</p>
<p>“Something lively now,” said Mr. Stanley.</p>
<p>So they put on a rollicking negro song called. “My Georgia Belle,” which,
besides the tuneful voices, introduced a steamboat whistle and a musical
clangour of bells. When it wound up with a bang, Mr. Stanley took his big
comfortable pipe out of his mouth and cried out:</p>
<p>“Fine, fine!”</p>
<p>We had further music of the same sort and with one record the older
daughter, Kate, broke into the song with a full, strong though
uncultivated voice—which pleased us all very much indeed.</p>
<p>Presently Mrs. Stanley, who was sitting under the lamp with a basket of
socks to mend, began to nod.</p>
<p>“Mother's giving the signal,” said the older son.</p>
<p>“No, no, I'm not a bit sleepy,” exclaimed Mrs. Stanley.</p>
<p>But with further joking and laughing the family began to move about. The
older daughter gave me a hand lamp and showed me the way upstairs to a
little room at the end of the house.</p>
<p>“I think,” she said with pleasant dignity, “you will find everything you
need.”</p>
<p>I cannot tell with what solid pleasure I rolled into bed or how soundly
and sweetly I slept.</p>
<p>This was the first day of my real adventures.</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER II. I WHISTLE </h2>
<p>When I was a boy I learned after many discouragements to play on a tin
whistle. There was a wandering old fellow in our town who would sit for
hours on the shady side of a certain ancient hotel-barn, and with his
little whistle to his lips, and gently swaying his head to his tune and
tapping one foot in the gravel, he would produce the most wonderful and
beguiling melodies. His favourite selections were very lively; he played,
I remember, “Old Dan Tucker,” and “Money Musk,” and the tune of a
rollicking old song, now no doubt long forgotten, called “Wait for the
Wagon.” I can see him yet, with his jolly eyes half closed, his lips
puckered around the whistle, and his fingers curiously and stiffly poised
over the stops. I am sure I shall never forget the thrill which his music
gave to the heart of a certain barefoot boy.</p>
<p>At length, by means I have long since forgotten, I secured a tin whistle
exactly like Old Tom Madison's and began diligently to practise such tunes
as I knew. I am quite sure now that I must have made a nuisance of myself,
for it soon appeared to be the set purpose of every member of the family
to break up my efforts. Whenever my father saw me with the whistle to my
lips, he would instantly set me at some useful work (oh, he was an adept
in discovering useful work to do—for a boy!). And at the very sight
of my stern aunt I would instantly secrete my whistle in my blouse and fly
for the garret or cellar, like a cat caught in the cream. Such are the
early tribulations of musical genius!</p>
<p>At last I discovered a remote spot on a beam in the hay-barn where,
lighted by a ray of sunlight which came through a crack in the eaves and
pointed a dusty golden finger into that hay-scented interior, I practised
rapturously and to my heart's content upon my tin whistle. I learned
“Money Musk” until I could play it in Old Tom Madison's best style—even
to the last nod and final foot-tap. I turned a certain church hymn called
“Yield Not to Temptation” into something quite inspiriting, and I played
“Marching Through Georgia” until all the “happy hills of hay” were to the
fervid eye of a boy's imagination full of tramping soldiers. Oh, I shall
never forget the joys of those hours in the hay-barn, nor the music of
that secret tin whistle! I can hear yet the crooning of the pigeons in the
eaves, and the slatey sound of their wings as they flew across the open
spaces in the great barn; I can smell yet the odour of the hay.</p>
<p>But with years, and the city, and the shame of youth, I put aside and
almost forgot the art of whistling. When I was preparing for the present
pilgrimage, however, it came to me with a sudden thrill of pleasure that
nothing in the wide world now prevented me from getting a whistle and
seeing whether I had forgotten my early cunning. At the very first
good-sized town I came to I was delighted to find at a little candy and
toy shop just the sort of whistle I wanted, at the extravagant price of
ten cents. I bought it and put it in the bottom of my knapsack.</p>
<p>“Am I not old enough now,” I said to myself, “to be as youthful as I
choose?”</p>
<p>Isn't it the strangest thing in the world how long it takes us to learn to
accept the joys of simple pleasures?—and some of us never learn at
all. “Boo!” says the neighbourhood, and we are instantly frightened into
doing a thousand unnecessary and unpleasant things, or prevented from
doing a thousand beguiling things.</p>
<p>For the first few days I was on the road I thought often with pleasure of
the whistle lying there in my bag, but it was not until after I left the
Stanleys' that I felt exactly in the mood to try it.</p>
<p>The fact is, my adventures on the Stanley farm had left me in a very
cheerful frame of mind. They convinced me that some of the great things I
had expected of my pilgrimage were realizable possibilities. Why, I had
walked right into the heart of as fine a family as I have seen these many
days.</p>
<p>I remained with them the entire day following the potato-planting. We were
out at five o'clock in the morning, and after helping with the chores, and
eating a prodigious breakfast, we went again to the potato-field, and part
of the time I helped plant a few remaining rows, and part of the time I
drove a team attached to a wing-plow to cover the planting of the previous
day.</p>
<p>In the afternoon a slashing spring rain set in, and Mr. Stanley, who was a
forehanded worker, found a job for all of us in the barn. Ben, the younger
son, and I sharpened mower-blades and a scythe or so, Ben turning the
grindstone and I holding the blades and telling him stories into the
bargain. Mr. Stanley and his stout older son overhauled the work-harness
and tinkered the corn-planter. The doors at both ends of the barn stood
wide open, and through one of them, framed like a picture, we could see
the scudding floods descend upon the meadows, and through the other,
across a fine stretch of open country, we could see all the roads
glistening and the treetops moving under the rain.</p>
<p>“Fine, fine!” exclaimed Mr. Stanley, looking out from time to time, “we
got in our potatoes just in the nick of time.”</p>
<p>After supper that evening I told them of my plan to leave them on the
following morning.</p>
<p>“Don't do that,” said Mrs. Stanley heartily; “stay on with us.”</p>
<p>“Yes,” said Mr. Stanley, “we're shorthanded, and I'd be glad to have a man
like you all summer. There ain't any one around here will pay a good man
more'n I will, nor treat 'im better.”</p>
<p>“I'm sure of it, Mr. Stanley,” I said, “but I can't stay with you.”</p>
<p>At that the tide of curiosity which I had seen rising ever since I came
began to break through. Oh, I know how difficult it is to let the wanderer
get by without taking toll of him! There are not so many people here in
the country that we can afford to neglect them. And as I had nothing in
the world to conceal, and, indeed, loved nothing better than the give and
take of getting acquainted, we were soon at it in good earnest.</p>
<p>But it was not enough to tell them that my name was David Grayson and
where my farm was located, and how many acres there were, and how much
stock I had, and what I raised. The great particular “Why?”—as I
knew it would be—concerned my strange presence on the road at this
season of the year and the reason why I should turn in by chance, as I had
done, to help at their planting. If a man is stationary, it seems quite
impossible for him to imagine why any one should care to wander; and as
for the wanderer it is inconceivable to him how any one can remain
permanently at home.</p>
<p>We were all sitting comfortably around the table in the living-room. The
lamps were lighted, and Mr. Stanley, in slippers, was smoking his pipe and
Mrs. Stanley was darning socks over a mending-gourd, and the two young
Stanleys were whispering and giggling about some matter of supreme
consequence to youth. The windows were open, and we could smell the sweet
scent of the lilacs from the yard and hear the drumming of the rain as it
fell on the roof of the porch.</p>
<p>“It's easy to explain,” I said. “The fact is, it got to the point on my
farm that I wasn't quite sure whether I owned it or it owned me. And I
made up my mind I'd get away for a while from my own horses and cattle and
see what the world was like. I wanted to see how people lived up here, and
what they are thinking about, and how they do their farming.”</p>
<p>As I talked of my plans and of the duty one had, as I saw it, to be a good
broad man as well as a good farmer, I grew more and more interested and
enthusiastic. Mr. Stanley took his pipe slowly from his mouth, held it
poised until it finally went out, and sat looking at me with a rapt
expression. I never had a better audience. Finally, Mr. Stanley said very
earnestly:</p>
<p>“And you have felt that way, too?”</p>
<p>“Why, father!” exclaimed Mrs. Stanley, in astonishment.</p>
<p>Mr. Stanley hastily put his pipe back into his mouth and confusedly
searched in his pockets for a match; but I knew I had struck down deep
into a common experience. Here was this brisk and prosperous farmer having
his dreams too—dreams that even his wife did not know!</p>
<p>So I continued my talk with even greater fervour. I don't think that the
boy Ben understood all that I said, for I was dealing with experiences
common mostly to older men, but he somehow seemed to get the spirit of it,
for quite unconsciously he began to hitch his chair toward me, then he
laid his hand on my chair-arm and finally and quite simply he rested his
arm against mine and looked at me with all his eyes. I keep learning that
there is nothing which reaches men's hearts like talking straight out the
convictions and emotions of your innermost soul. Those who hear you may
not agree with you, or they may not understand you fully, but something
incalculable, something vital, passes. And as for a boy or girl it is one
of the sorriest of mistakes to talk down to them; almost always your lad
of fifteen thinks more simply, more fundamentally, than you do; and what
he accepts as good coin is not facts or precepts, but feelings and
convictions—LIFE. And why shouldn't we speak out?</p>
<p>“I long ago decided,” I said, “to try to be fully what I am and not to be
anything or anybody else.”</p>
<p>“That's right, that's right,” exclaimed Mr. Stanley, nodding his head
vigorously.</p>
<p>“It's about the oldest wisdom there is,” I said, and with that I thought
of the volume I carried in my pocket, and straightway I pulled it out and
after a moment's search found the passage I wanted.</p>
<p>“Listen,” I said, “to what this old Roman philosopher said”—and I
held the book up to the lamp and read aloud:</p>
<p>“'You can be invincible if you enter into no contest in which it is not in
your power to conquer. Take care, then, when you observe a man honoured
before others or possessed of great power, or highly esteemed for any
reason, not to suppose him happy and be not carried away by the
appearance. For if the nature of the good is in our power, neither envy
nor jealousy will have a place in us. But you yourself will not wish to be
a general or a senator or consul, but a free man, and there is only one
way to do this, to care not for the things which are not in our power.'”</p>
<p>“That,” said Mr. Stanley, “is exactly what I've always said, but I didn't
know it was in any book. I always said I didn't want to be a senator or a
legislator, or any other sort of office-holder. It's good enough for me
right here on this farm.”</p>
<p>At that moment I glanced down into Ben's shining eyes.</p>
<p>“But I want to be a senator or—something—when I grow up,” he
said eagerly.</p>
<p>At this the older brother, who was sitting not far off, broke into a
laugh, and the boy, who for a moment had been drawn out of his reserve,
shrank back again and coloured to the hair.</p>
<p>“Well, Ben,” said I, putting my hand on his knee, “don't you let anything
stop you. I'll back you up; I'll vote for you.”</p>
<p>After breakfast the next morning Mr. Stanley drew me aside and said:</p>
<p>“Now I want to pay you for your help yesterday and the day before.”</p>
<p>“No,” I said. “I've had more than value received. You've taken me in like
a friend and brother. I've enjoyed it.”</p>
<p>So Mrs. Stanley half filled my knapsack with the finest luncheon I've seen
in many a day, and thus, with as pleasant a farewell as if I'd been a near
relative, I set off up the country road. I was a little distressed in
parting to see nothing of the boy Ben, for I had formed a genuine liking
for him, but upon reaching a clump of trees which hid the house from the
road I saw him standing in the moist grass of a fence corner.</p>
<p>“I want to say good-bye,” he said in the gruff voice of embarrassment.</p>
<p>“Ben,” I said, “I missed you, and I'd have hated to go off without seeing
you again. Walk a bit with me.”</p>
<p>So we walked side by side, talking quietly and when at last I shook his
hand I said:</p>
<p>“Ben, don't you ever be afraid of acting up to the very best thoughts you
have in your heart.”</p>
<p>He said nothing for a moment, and then: “Gee! I'm sorry you're goin'
away!”</p>
<p>“Gee!” I responded, “I'm sorry, too!”</p>
<p>With that we both laughed, but when I reached the top of the hill, and
looked back, I saw him still standing there bare-footed in the road
looking after me. I waved my hand and he waved his: and I saw him no more.</p>
<p>No country, after all, produces any better crop than its inhabitants. And
as I travelled onward I liked to think of these brave, temperate,
industrious, God-friendly American people. I have no fear of the country
while so many of them are still to be found upon the farms and in the
towns of this land.</p>
<p>So I tramped onward full of cheerfulness. The rain had ceased, but all the
world was moist and very green and still. I walked for more than two hours
with the greatest pleasure. About ten o'clock in the morning I stopped
near a brook to drink and rest, for I was warm and tired. And it was then
that I bethought me of the little tin pipe in my knapsack, and straightway
I got it out, and, sitting down at the foot of a tree near the brook, I
put it to my lips and felt for the stops with unaccustomed fingers. At
first I made the saddest sort of work of it, and was not a little
disappointed, indeed, with the sound of the whistle itself. It was nothing
to my memory of it! It seemed thin and tinny.</p>
<p>However, I persevered at it, and soon produced a recognizable imitation of
Tom Madison's “Old Dan Tucker.” My success quite pleased me, and I became
so absorbed that I quite lost account of the time and place. There was no
one to hear me save a bluejay which for an hour or more kept me company.
He sat on a twig just across the brook, cocking his head at me, and
saucily wagging his tail. Occasionally he would dart off among the trees
crying shrilly; but his curiosity would always get the better of him and
back he would come again to try to solve the mystery of this rival
whistling, which I'm sure was as shrill and as harsh as his own.</p>
<p>Presently, quite to my astonishment, I saw a man standing near the
brookside not a dozen paces away from me. How long he had been there I
don't know, for I had heard nothing of his coming. Beyond him in the town
road I could see the head of his horse and the top of his buggy. I said
not a word, but continued with my practising. Why shouldn't I? But it gave
me quite a thrill for the moment; and at once I began to think of the
possibilities of the situation. What a thing it was have so many
unexpected and interesting situations developing! So I nodded my head and
tapped my foot, and blew into my whistle all the more energetically. I
knew my visitor could not possibly keep away. And he could not; presently
he came nearer and said:</p>
<p>“What are you doing, neighbour?”</p>
<p>I continued a moment with my playing, but commanded him with my eye.</p>
<p>Oh, I assure you I assumed all the airs of a virtuoso. When I had finished
my tune I removed my whistle deliberately and wiped my lips.</p>
<p>“Why, enjoying myself,” I replied with greatest good humour. “What are you
doing?”</p>
<p>“Why,” he said, “watching you enjoy yourself. I heard you playing as I
passed in the road, and couldn't imagine what it could be.”</p>
<p>I told him I thought it might still be difficult, having heard me near at
hand, to imagine what it could be—and thus, tossing the ball of
good-humoured repartee back and forth, we walked down to the road
together. He had a quiet old horse and a curious top buggy with the
unmistakable box of an agent or peddler built on behind.</p>
<p>“My name,” he said, “is Canfield. I fight dust.”</p>
<p>“And mine,” I said, “is Grayson. I whistle.”</p>
<p>I discovered that he was an agent for brushes, and he opened his box and
showed me the greatest assortment of big and little brushes: bristle
brushes, broom brushes, yarn brushes, wire brushes, brushes for man and
brushes for beast, brushes of every conceivable size and shape that ever I
saw in all my life. He had out one of his especial pets—he called it
his “leader”—and feeling it familiarly in his hand he instinctively
began the jargon of well-handled and voice-worn phrases which went with
that particular brush. It was just as though some one had touched a button
and had started him going. It was amazing to me that any one in the world
should be so much interested in mere brushes—until he actually began
to make me feel that brushes were as interesting as anything else!</p>
<p>What a strange, little, dried-up old fellow he was, with his balls of
muttonchop sidewhiskers, his thick eyebrows, and his lively blue eyes!—a
man evidently not readily turned aside by rebuffs. He had already shown
that his wit as a talker had been sharpened by long and varied contact
with a world of reluctant purchasers. I was really curious to know more of
him, so I said finally:</p>
<p>“See here, Mr. Canfield, it's just noon. Why not sit down here with me and
have a bit of luncheon?”</p>
<p>“Why not?” he responded with alacrity. “As the fellow said, why not?”</p>
<p>He unhitched his horse, gave him a drink from the brook, and then tethered
him where he could nip the roadside grass. I opened my bag and explored
the wonders of Mrs. Stanley's luncheon. I cannot describe the absolutely
carefree feeling I had. Always at home, when I would have liked to stop at
the roadside with a stranger, I felt the nudge of a conscience troubled
with cows and corn, but here I could stop where I liked, or go on when I
liked, and talk with whom I pleased, as long as I pleased.</p>
<p>So we sat there, the brush-peddler and I, under the trees, and ate Mrs.
Stanley's fine luncheon, drank the clear water from the brook, and talked
great talk. Compared with Mr. Canfield I was a babe at wandering—and
equally at talking. Was there any business he had not been in, or any
place in the country he had not visited? He had sold everything from
fly-paper to threshing-machines, he had picked up a large working
knowledge of the weaknesses of human nature, and had arrived at the age of
sixty-six with just enough available cash to pay the manufacturer for a
new supply of brushes. In strict confidence, I drew certain conclusions
from the colour of his nose! He had once had a family, but dropped them
somewhere along the road. Most of our brisk neighbours would have put him
down as a failure—an old man, and nothing laid by! But I wonder—I
wonder. One thing I am coming to learn in this world, and that is to let
people haggle along with their lives as I haggle along with mine.</p>
<p>We both made tremendous inroads on the luncheon, and I presume we might
have sat there talking all the afternoon if I had not suddenly bethought
myself with a not unpleasant thrill that my resting-place for the night
was still gloriously undecided.</p>
<p>“Friend,” I said, “I've got to be up and going. I haven't so much as a
penny in my pocket, and I've got to find a place to sleep.”</p>
<p>The effect of this remark upon Mr. Canfield was magical. He threw up both
his hands and cried out:</p>
<p>“You're that way, are you?”—as though for the first time he really
understood. We were at last on common ground.</p>
<p>“Partner,” said he, “you needn't tell nothin' about it. I've been right
there myself.”</p>
<p>At once he began to bustle about with great enthusiasm. He was for taking
complete charge of me, and I think, if I had permitted it, would instantly
have made a brush-agent of me. At least he would have carried me along
with him in his buggy; but when he suggested it I felt very much, I think,
as some old monk must have who had taken a vow to do some particular thing
in some particular way. With great difficulty I convinced him finally that
my way was different from his—though he was regally impartial as to
what road he took next—and, finally, with some reluctance, he
started to climb into his buggy.</p>
<p>A thought, however, struck him suddenly, and he stepped down again, ran
around to the box at the back of his buggy, opened it with a mysterious
and smiling look at me, and took out a small broom-brush with which he
instantly began brushing off my coat and trousers—in the liveliest
and most exuberant way. When he had finished this occupation, he quickly
handed the brush to me.</p>
<p>“A token of esteem,” he said, “from a fellow traveller.”</p>
<p>I tried in vain to thank him, but he held up his hand, scrambled quickly
into his buggy, and was for driving off instantly, but paused and beckoned
me toward him. When I approached the buggy, he took hold of one the lapels
of my coat, bent over, and said with the utmost seriousness:</p>
<p>“No man ought to take the road without a brush. A good broom-brush is the
world's greatest civilizer. Are you looking seedy or dusty?—why,
this here brush will instantly make you a respectable citizen. Take my
word for it, friend, never go into any strange house without stoppin' and
brushin' off. It's money in your purse! You can get along without dinner
sometimes, or even without a shirt, but without a brush—never!
There's nothin' in the world so necessary to rich AN' poor, old AN' young
as a good brush!”</p>
<p>And with a final burst of enthusiasm the brush-peddler drove off up the
hill. I stood watching him and when he turned around I waved the brush
high over my head in token of a grateful farewell.</p>
<p>It was a good, serviceable, friendly brush. I carried it throughout my
wanderings; and as I sit here writing in my study, at this moment, I can
see it hanging on a hook at the side of my fireplace.</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER III. THE HOUSE BY THE SIDE OF THE ROAD </h2>
<p>“Everyone,” remarks Tristram Shandy, “will speak of the fair as his own
market has gone in it.”</p>
<p>It came near being a sorry fair for me on the afternoon following my
parting with the amiable brush-peddler. The plain fact is, my success at
the Stanleys', and the easy manner in which I had fallen in with Mr.
Canfield, gave me so much confidence in myself as a sort of Master of the
Road that I proceeded with altogether too much assurance.</p>
<p>I am firmly convinced that the prime quality to be cultivated by the
pilgrim is humility of spirit; he must be willing to accept Adventure in
whatever garb she chooses to present herself. He must be able to see the
shining form of the unusual through the dull garments of the normal.</p>
<p>The fact is, I walked that afternoon with my head in air and passed many a
pleasant farmstead where men were working in the fields, and many an open
doorway, and a mill or two, and a town—always looking for some Great
Adventure.</p>
<p>Somewhere upon this road, I thought to myself, I shall fall in with a
Great Person, or become a part of a Great Incident. I recalled with keen
pleasure the experience of that young Spanish student of Carlyle writes in
one of his volumes, who, riding out from Madrid one day, came unexpectedly
upon the greatest man in the world. This great man, of whom Carlyle
observes (I have looked up the passage since I came home), “a kindlier,
meeker, braver heart has seldom looked upon the sky in this world,” had
ridden out from the city for the last time in his life “to take one other
look at the azure firmament and green mosaic pavements and the strange
carpentry and arras work of this noble palace of a world.”</p>
<p>As the old story has it, the young student “came pricking on hastily,
complaining that they went at such a pace as gave him little chance of
keeping up with them. One of the party made answer that the blame lay with
the horse of Don Miguel de Cervantes, whose trot was of the speediest. He
had hardly pronounced the name when the student dismounted and, touching
the hem of Cervantes' left sleeve, said, 'Yes, yes, it is indeed the
maimed perfection, the all-famous, the delightful writer, the joy and
darling of the Muses! You are that brave Miguel.'”</p>
<p>It may seem absurd to some in this cool and calculating twentieth century
that any one should indulge in such vain imaginings as I have described—and
yet, why not? All things are as we see them. I once heard a man—a
modern man, living to-day—tell with a hush in his voice, and a
peculiar light in his eye, how, walking in the outskirts of an unromantic
town in New Jersey, he came suddenly upon a vigorous, bearded, rather
rough-looking man swinging his stick as he walked, and stopping often at
the roadside and often looking up at the sky. I shall never forget the
curious thrill in his voice as he said:</p>
<p>“And THAT was Walt Whitman.”</p>
<p>And thus quite absurdly intoxicated by the possibilities of the road, I
let the big full afternoon slip by—I let slip the rich possibilities
of half a hundred farms and scores of travelling people—and as
evening began to fall I came to a stretch of wilder country with wooded
hills and a dashing stream by the roadside. It was a fine and beautiful
country—to look at—but the farms, and with them the chances of
dinner, and a friendly place to sleep, grew momentarily scarcer. Upon the
hills here and there, indeed, were to be seen the pretentious summer homes
of rich dwellers from the cities, but I looked upon them with no great
hopefulness.</p>
<p>“Of all places in the world,” I said to myself, “surely none could be more
unfriendly to a man like me.”</p>
<p>But I amused myself with conjectures as to what might happen (until the
adventure seemed almost worth trying) if a dusty man with a bag on his
back should appear at the door of one of those well-groomed
establishments. It came to me, indeed, with a sudden deep sense of
understanding, that I should probably find there, as everywhere else, just
men and women. And with that I fell into a sort of Socratic dialogue with
myself:</p>
<p>ME: Having decided that the people in these houses are, after all, merely
men and women, what is the best way of reaching them?</p>
<p>MYSELF: Undoubtedly by giving them something they want and have not.</p>
<p>ME: But these are rich people from the city; what can they want that they
have not?</p>
<p>MYSELF: Believe me, of all people in the world those who want the most are
those who have the most. These people are also consumed with desires.</p>
<p>ME: And what, pray, do you suppose they desire?</p>
<p>MYSELF: They want what they have not got; they want the unattainable: they
want chiefly the rarest and most precious of all things—a little
mystery in their lives.</p>
<p>“That's it!” I said aloud; “that's it! Mystery—the things of the
spirit, the things above ordinary living—is not that the essential
thing for which the world is sighing, and groaning, and longing—consciously,
or unconsciously?”</p>
<p>I have always believed that men in their innermost souls desire the
highest, bravest, finest things they can hear, or see, or feel in all the
world. Tell a man how he can increase his income and he will be grateful
to you and soon forget you; but show him the highest, most mysterious
things in his own soul and give him the word which will convince him that
the finest things are really attainable, and he will love and follow you
always.</p>
<p>I now began to look with much excitement to a visit at one of the houses
on the hill, but to my disappointment I found the next two that I
approached still closed up, for the spring was not yet far enough advanced
to attract the owners to the country. I walked rapidly onward through the
gathering twilight, but with increasing uneasiness as to the prospects for
the night, and thus came suddenly upon the scene of an odd adventure.</p>
<p>From some distance I had seen a veritable palace set high among the trees
and overlooking a wonderful green valley—and, drawing nearer, I saw
evidences of well-kept roadways and a visible effort to make invisible the
attempt to preserve the wild beauty of the place. I saw, or thought I saw,
people on the wide veranda, and I was sure I heard the snort of a climbing
motor-car, but I had scarcely decided to make my way up to the house when
I came, at the turning of the country road, upon a bit of open land laid
out neatly as a garden, near the edge of which, nestling among the trees,
stood a small cottage. It seemed somehow to belong to the great estate
above it, and I concluded, at the first glance, that it was the home of
some caretaker or gardener.</p>
<p>It was a charming place to see, and especially the plantation of trees and
shrubs. My eye fell instantly upon a fine magnolia—rare in this
country—which had not yet cast all its blossoms, and I paused for a
moment to look at it more closely. I myself have tried to raise magnolias
near my house, and I know how difficult it is.</p>
<p>As I approached nearer to the cottage, I could see a man and woman sitting
on the porch in the twilight and swaying back and forth in rocking-chairs.
I fancied—it may have been only a fancy—that when I first saw
them their hands were clasped as they rocked side by side.</p>
<p>It was indeed a charming little cottage. Crimson ramblers, giving promise
of the bloom that was yet to come, climbed over one end of the porch, and
there were fine dark-leaved lilac-bushes near the doorway: oh, a pleasant,
friendly, quiet place!</p>
<p>I opened the front gate and walked straight in, as though I had at last
reached my destination. I cannot give any idea of the lift of the heart
with which I entered upon this new adventure. Without the premeditation
and not knowing what I should say or do, I realized that everything
depended upon a few sentences spoken within the next minute or two.
Believe me, this experience to a man who does not know where his next meal
is coming from, nor where he is to spend the night, is well worth having.
It is a marvellous sharpener of the facts.</p>
<p>I knew, of course, just how these people of the cottage would ordinarily
regard an intruder whose bag and clothing must infallibly class him as a
follower of the road. And so many followers of the road are—well—</p>
<p>As I came nearer, the man and woman stopped rocking, but said nothing. An
old dog that had been sleeping on the top step rose slowly and stood
there.</p>
<p>“As I passed your garden,” I said, grasping desperately for a way of
approach, “I saw your beautiful specimen of the magnolia tree—the
one still in blossom. I myself have tried to grow magnolias—but with
small success—and I'm making bold to inquire what variety you are so
successful with.”</p>
<p>It was a shot in the air—but I knew from what I had seen that they
must be enthusiastic gardeners. The man glanced around at the magnolia
with evident pride, and was about to answer when the woman rose and with a
pleasant, quiet cordiality said:</p>
<p>“Won't you step up and have a chair?”</p>
<p>I swung my bag from my shoulder and took the proffered seat. As I did so I
saw, on the table just behind me a number magazines and books—books
of unusual sizes and shapes, indicating that they were not mere summer
novels.</p>
<p>“They like books!” I said to myself, with a sudden rise of spirits.</p>
<p>“I have tried magnolias, too,” said the man, “but this is the only one
that has been really successful. It is a Chinese white magnolia.”</p>
<p>“The one Downing describes?” I asked.</p>
<p>This was also a random shot, but I conjectured that if they loved both
books gardens they would know Downing—Bible of the gardener. And if
they did, we belonged to the same church.</p>
<p>“The very same,” exclaimed the woman; “it was Downing's enthusiasm for the
Chinese magnolia which led us first to try it.”</p>
<p>With that, like true disciples, we fell into great talk of Downing, at
first all in praise of him, and later—for may not the faithful be
permitted latitude in their comments so long as it is all within the
cloister?—we indulged in a bit of higher criticism.</p>
<p>“It won't do,” said the man, “to follow too slavishly every detail of
practice as recommended by Downing. We have learned a good many things
since the forties.”</p>
<p>“The fact is,” I said, “no literal-minded man should be trusted with
Downing.”</p>
<p>“Any more than with the Holy Scriptures,” exclaimed the woman.</p>
<p>“Exactly!” I responded with the greatest enthusiasm; “exactly! We go to
him for inspiration, for fundamental teachings, for the great literature
and poetry of the art. Do you remember,” I asked, “that passage in which
Downing quotes from some old Chinaman upon the true secret of the
pleasures of a garden—?”</p>
<p>“Do we?” exclaimed the man, jumping up instantly; “do we? Just let me get
the book—”</p>
<p>With that he went into the house and came back immediately bringing a lamp
in one hand—for it had grown pretty dark—and a familiar,
portly, blue-bound book in the other. While he was gone the woman said:</p>
<p>“You have touched Mr. Vedder in his weakest spot.”</p>
<p>“I know of no combination in this world,” said I, “so certain to produce a
happy heart as good books and a farm or garden.”</p>
<p>Mr. Vedder, having returned, slipped on his spectacles, sat forward on the
edge of his rocking-chair, and opened the book with pious hands.</p>
<p>“I'll find it,” he said. “I can put my finger right on it.”</p>
<p>“You'll find it,” said Mrs. Vedder, “in the chapter on 'Hedges.'”</p>
<p>“You are wrong, my dear,” he responded, “it is in 'Mistakes of Citizens in
Country Life.'”</p>
<p>He turned the leaves eagerly.</p>
<p>“No,” he said, “here it is in 'Rural Taste.' Let me read you the passage,
Mr.—”</p>
<p>“Grayson.”</p>
<p>“—Mr. Grayson. The Chinaman's name was Lieu-tscheu. 'What is it,'
asks this old Chinaman, 'that we seek in the pleasure of a garden? It has
always been agreed that these plantations should make men amends for
living at a distance from what would be their more congenial and agreeable
dwelling-place—in the midst of nature, free and unrestrained.'”</p>
<p>“That's it,” I exclaimed, “and the old Chinaman was right! A garden
excuses civilization.”</p>
<p>“It's what brought us here,” said Mrs. Vedder.</p>
<p>With that we fell into the liveliest discussion of gardening and farming
and country life in all their phases, resolving that while there were bugs
and blights, and droughts and floods, yet upon the whole there was no life
so completely satisfying as life in which one may watch daily the
unfolding of natural life.</p>
<p>A hundred things we talked about freely that had often risen dimly in my
own mind almost to the point—but not quite—of spilling over
into articulate form. The marvellous thing about good conversation is that
it brings to birth so many half-realized thoughts of our own—besides
sowing the seed of innumerable other thought-plants. How they enjoyed
their garden, those two, and not only the garden itself, but all the lore
and poetry of gardening!</p>
<p>We had been talking thus an hour or more when, quite unexpectedly, I had
what was certainly one of the most amusing adventures of my whole life. I
can scarcely think of it now without a thrill of pleasure. I have had pay
for my work in many but never such a reward as this.</p>
<p>“By the way,” said Mr. Vedder, “I have recently come across a book which
is full of the spirit of the garden as we have long known it, although the
author is not treating directly of gardens, but of farming and of human
nature.”</p>
<p>“It is really all one subject,” I interrupted.</p>
<p>“Certainly,” said Mr. Vedder, “but many gardeners are nothing but
gardeners. Well, the book to which I refer is called 'Adventures in
Contentment,' and is by—Why, a man of your own name!”</p>
<p>With that Mr. Vedder reached for a book—a familiar-looking book—on
the table, but Mrs. Vedder looked at me. I give you my word, my heart
turned entirely over, and in a most remarkable way righted itself again;
and I saw Roman candles and Fourth of July rockets in front of my eyes.
Never in all my experience was I so completely bowled over. I felt like a
small boy who has been caught in the pantry with one hand in the jam-pot—and
plenty of jam on his nose. And like that small boy I enjoyed the jam, but
did not like being caught at it.</p>
<p>Mr. Vedder had no sooner got the book in his hand than I saw Mrs. Vedder
rising as though she had seen a spectre, and pointing dramatically at me,
she exclaimed:</p>
<p>“You are David Grayson!”</p>
<p>I can say truthfully now that I know how the prisoner at the bar must feel
when the judge, leaning over his desk, looks at him sternly and says:</p>
<p>“I declare you guilty of the offence as charged, and sentence you—”
and so on, and so on.</p>
<p>Mr. Vedder stiffened up, and I can see him yet looking at me through his
glasses. I must have looked as foolishly guilty as any man ever looked,
for Mr. Vedder said promptly:</p>
<p>“Let me take you by the hand, sir. We know you, and have known you for a
long time.”</p>
<p>I shall not attempt to relate the conversation which followed, nor tell of
the keen joy I had in it—after the first cold plunge. We found that
we had a thousand common interests and enthusiasms. I had to tell them of
my farm, and why I had left it temporarily, and of the experiences on the
road. No sooner had I related what had befallen me at the Stanleys' than
Mrs. Vedder disappeared into the house and came out again presently with a
tray loaded with cold meat, bread, a pitcher of fine milk, and other good
things.</p>
<p>“I shall not offer any excuses,” said I, “I'm hungry,” and with that I
laid in, Mr. Vedder helping with the milk, and all three of us talking as
fast as ever we could.</p>
<p>It was nearly midnight when at last Mr. Vedder led the way to the
immaculate little bedroom where I spent the night.</p>
<p>The next morning I awoke early, and quietly dressing, slipped down to the
garden and walked about among the trees and the shrubs and the
flower-beds. The sun was just coming up over the hill, the air was full of
the fresh odours of morning, and the orioles and cat-birds were singing.</p>
<p>In the back of the garden I found a charming rustic arbour with seats
around a little table. And here I sat down to listen to the morning
concert, and I saw, cut or carved upon the table, this verse, which so
pleased me that I copied it in my book:</p>
<p>A garden is a lovesome thing, God wot!<br/>
Rose plot,<br/>
Fringed pool,<br/>
Ferned grot—<br/>
The veriest school of peace; and yet<br/>
the fool<br/>
Contends that God is not—<br/>
Not God! in gardens? when the even<br/>
is cool?<br/>
Nay, but I have a sign,<br/>
'Tis very sure God walks in mine.<br/></p>
<p>I looked about after copying this verse, and said aloud:</p>
<p>“I like this garden: I like these Vedders.”</p>
<p>And with that I had a moment of wild enthusiasm.</p>
<p>“I will come,” I said, “and buy a little garden next them, and bring
Harriet, and we will live here always. What's a farm compared with a
friend?”</p>
<p>But with that I thought of the Scotch preacher, and of Horace, and Mr. and
Mrs. Starkweather, and I knew I could never leave the friends at home.</p>
<p>“It's astonishing how many fine people there are in this world,” I said
aloud; “one can't escape them!”</p>
<p>“Good morning, David Grayson,” I heard some one saying, and glancing up I
saw Mrs. Vedder at the doorway. “Are you hungry?”</p>
<p>“I am always hungry,” I said.</p>
<p>Mr. Vedder came out and linking his arm in mine and pointing out various
spireas and Japanese barberries, of which he was very proud, we walked
into the house together.</p>
<p>I did not think of it especially at time—Harriet says I never see
anything really worth while, by which she means dishes, dresses, doilies,
and such like but as I remembered afterward the table that Mrs. Vedder set
was wonderfully dainty—dainty not merely with flowers (with which it
was loaded), but with the quality of the china and silver. It was plainly
the table of no ordinary gardener or caretaker—but this conclusion
did not come to me until afterward, for as I remember it, we were in a
deep discussion of fertilizers.</p>
<p>Mrs. Vedder cooked and served breakfast herself, and did it with a skill
almost equal to Harriet's—so skillfully that the talk went on and we
never once heard the machinery of service.</p>
<p>After breakfast we all went out into the garden, Mrs. Vedder in an old
straw hat and a big apron, and Mr. Vedder in a pair of old brown overalls.
Two men had appeared from somewhere, and were digging in the vegetable
garden. After giving them certain directions Mr. Vedder and I both found
five-tined forks and went into the rose garden and began turning over the
rich soil, while Mrs. Vedder, with pruning-shears, kept near us, cutting
out the dead wood.</p>
<p>It was one of the charming forenoons of my life. This pleasant work,
spiced with the most interesting conversation and interrupted by a hundred
little excursions into other parts of the garden, to see this or that
wonder of vegetation, brought us to dinner-time before we fairly knew it.</p>
<p>About the middle of the afternoon I made the next discovery. I heard first
the choking cough of a big motor-car in the country road, and a moment
later it stopped at our gate. I thought I saw the Vedders exchanging
significant glances. A number of merry young people tumbled out, and an
especially pretty girl of about twenty came running through the garden.</p>
<p>“Mother,” she exclaimed, “you MUST come with us!”</p>
<p>“I can't, I can't,” said Mrs. Vedder, “the roses MUST be pruned—and
see! The azaleas are coming into bloom.”</p>
<p>With that she presented me to her daughter.</p>
<p>And, then, shortly, for it could no longer be concealed, I learned that
Mr. and Mrs. Vedder were not the caretakers but the owners of the estate
and of the great house I had seen on the hill. That evening, with an air
almost of apology, they explained to me how it all came about.</p>
<p>“We first came out here,” said Mrs. Vedder, “nearly twenty years ago, and
built the big house on the hill. But the more we came to know of country
life the more we wanted to get down into it. We found it impossible up
there—so many unnecessary things to see to and care for—and we
couldn't—we didn't see—”</p>
<p>“The fact is,” Mr. Vedder put in, “we were losing touch with each other.”</p>
<p>“There is nothing like a big house,” said Mrs. Vedder, “to separate a man
and his wife.”</p>
<p>“So we came down here,” said Mr. Vedder, “built this little cottage, and
developed this garden mostly with our own hands. We would have sold the
big house long ago if it hadn't been for our friends. They like it.”</p>
<p>“I have never heard a more truly romantic story,” said I.</p>
<p>And it WAS romantic: these fine people escaping from too many possessions,
too much property, to the peace and quietude of a garden where they could
be lovers again.</p>
<p>“It seems, sometimes,” said Mrs. Vedder, “that I never really believed in
God until we came down here—”</p>
<p>“I saw the verse on the table in the arbour,” said I.</p>
<p>“And it is true,” said Mr. Vedder. “We got a long, long way from God for
many years: here we seem to get back to Him.”</p>
<p>I had fully intended to take the road again that afternoon, but how could
any one leave such people as those? We talked again late that night, but
the next morning, at the leisurely Sunday breakfast, I set my hour of
departure with all the firmness I could command. I left them, indeed,
before ten o'clock that forenoon. I shall never forget the parting. They
walked with me to the top of the hill, and there we stopped and looked
back. We could see the cottage half hidden among the trees, and the little
opening that the precious garden made. For a time we stood there quite
silent.</p>
<p>“Do you remember,” I said presently, “that character in Homer who was a
friend of men and lived in a house by the side of the road? I shall always
think of you as friends of men—you took in a dusty traveller. And I
shall never forget your house by the side of the road.”</p>
<p>“The House by the Side of the Road—you have christened it anew,
David Grayson,” exclaimed Mrs. Vedder.</p>
<p>And so we parted like old friends, and I left them to return to their
garden, where “'tis very sure God walks.”</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER IV. I AM THE SPECTATOR OF A MIGHTY BATTLE, IN WHICH CHRISTIAN MEETS APPOLLYON </h2>
<p>It is one of the prime joys of the long road that no two days are ever
remotely alike—no two hours even; and sometimes a day that begins
calmly will end with the most stirring events.</p>
<p>It was thus, indeed, with that perfect spring Sunday, when I left my
friends, the Vedders, and turned my face again to the open country. It
began as quietly as any Sabbath morning of my life, but what an end it
had! I would have travelled a thousand miles for the adventures which a
bounteous road that day spilled carelessly into my willing hands.</p>
<p>I can give no adequate reason why it should be so, but there are Sunday
mornings in the spring—at least in our country—which seem to
put on, like a Sabbath garment, an atmosphere of divine quietude. Warm,
soft, clear, but, above all, immeasurably serene.</p>
<p>Such was that Sunday morning; and I was no sooner well afoot than I
yielded to the ingratiating mood of the day. Usually I am an active
walker, loving the sense of quick motion and the stir it imparts to both
body and mind, but that morning I found myself loitering, looking widely
about me, and enjoying the lesser and quieter aspects of nature. It was a
fine wooded country in which I found myself, and I soon struck off the
beaten road and took to the forest and the fields. In places the ground
was almost covered with meadow-rue, like green shadows on the hillsides,
not yet in seed, but richly umbrageous. In the long green grass of the
meadows shone the yellow star-flowers, and the sweet-flags were blooming
along the marshy edges of the ponds. The violets had disappeared, but they
were succeeded by wild geraniums and rank-growing vetches.</p>
<p>I remember that I kept thinking from time to time, all the forenoon, as my
mind went back swiftly and warmly to the two fine friends from whom I had
so recently parted:</p>
<p>How the Vedders would enjoy this! Or, I must tell the Vedders that. And
two or three times I found myself in animated conversations with them in
which I generously supplied all three parts. It may be true for some
natures, as Leonardo said, that “if you are alone you belong wholly to
yourself; if you have a companion, you belong only half to yourself”; but
it is certainly not so with me. With me friendship never divides: it
multiplies. A friend always makes me more than I am, better than I am,
bigger than I am. We two make four, or fifteen, or forty.</p>
<p>Well, I loitered through the fields and woods for a long time that Sunday
forenoon, not knowing in the least that Chance held me close by the hand
and was leading me onward to great events. I knew, of course, that I had
yet to find a place for the night, and that this might be difficult on
Sunday, and yet I spent that forenoon as a man spends his immortal youth—with
a glorious disregard for the future.</p>
<p>Some time after noon—for the sun was high and the day was growing
much warmer—I turned from the road, climbed an inviting little hill,
and chose a spot in an old meadow in the shade of an apple tree and there
I lay down on the grass, and looked up into the dusky shadows of the
branches above me. I could feel the soft airs on my face; I could hear the
buzzing of bees in the meadow flowers, and by turning my head just a
little I could see the slow fleecy clouds, high up, drifting across the
perfect blue of the sky. And the scent of the fields in spring!—he
who has known it, even once, may indeed die happy.</p>
<p>Men worship God in various ways: it seemed to me that Sabbath morning, as
I lay quietly there in the warm silence of midday, that I was truly
worshipping God. That Sunday morning everything about me seemed somehow to
be a miracle—a miracle gratefully accepted and explainable only by
the presence of God. There was another strange, deep feeling which I had
that morning, which I have had a few other times in my life at the rare
heights of experience—I hesitate always when I try to put down the
deep, deep things of the human heart—a feeling immeasurably real,
that if I should turn my head quickly I should indeed SEE that Immanent
Presence....</p>
<p>One of the few birds I know that sings through the long midday is the
vireo. The vireo sings when otherwise the woods are still. You do not see
him; you cannot find him; but you know he is there. And his singing is
wild, and shy, and mystical. Often it haunts you like the memory of some
former happiness. That day I heard the vireo singing....</p>
<p>I don't know how long I lay there under the tree in the meadow, but
presently I heard, from no great distance, the sound of a church-bell. It
was ringing for the afternoon service which among the farmers of this part
of the country often takes the place, in summer, of both morning and
evening services.</p>
<p>“I believe I'll go,” I said, thinking first of all, I confess, of the
interesting people I might meet there.</p>
<p>But when I sat up and looked about me the desire faded, and rummaging in
my bag I came across my tin whistle. Immediately I began practising a tune
called “Sweet Afton,” which I had learned when a boy; and, as I played, my
mood changed swiftly, and I began to smile at myself as a tragically
serious person, and to think of pat phrases with which to characterize the
execrableness of my attempts upon the tin whistle. I should have liked
some one near to joke with.</p>
<p>Long ago I made a motto about boys: Look for a boy anywhere. Never be
surprised when you shake a cherry tree if a boy drops out of it; never be
disturbed when you think yourself in complete solitude if you discover a
boy peering out at you from a fence corner.</p>
<p>I had not been playing long before I saw two boys looking at me from out
of a thicket by the roadside; and a moment later two others appeared.</p>
<p>Instantly I switched into “Marching Through Georgia,” and began to nod my
head and tap my toe in the liveliest fashion. Presently one boy climbed up
on the fence, then another, then a third. I continued to play. The fourth
boy, a little chap, ventured to climb up on the fence.</p>
<p>They were bright-faced, tow-headed lads, all in Sunday clothes.</p>
<p>“It's hard luck,” said I, taking my whistle from my lips, “to have to wear
shoes and stockings on a warm Sunday like this.”</p>
<p>“You bet it is!” said the bold leader.</p>
<p>“In that case,” said I, “I will play 'Yankee Doodle.'”</p>
<p>I played. All the boys, including the little chap, came up around me, and
two of them sat down quite familiarly on the grass. I never had a more
devoted audience. I don't know what interesting event might have happened
next, for the bold leader, who stood nearest, was becoming dangerously
inflated with questions—I don't know what might have happened had we
not been interrupted by the appearance of a Spectre in Black. It appeared
before us there in the broad daylight in the middle of a sunny afternoon
while we were playing “Yankee Doodle.” First I saw the top of a black hat
rising over the rim of the hill. This was followed quickly by a black tie,
a long black coat, black trousers, and, finally, black shoes. I admit I
was shaken, but being a person of iron nerve in facing such phenomena, I
continued to play “Yankee Doodle.” In spite of this counter-attraction,
toward which all four boys turned uneasy glances, I held my audience. The
Black Spectre, with a black book under its arm, drew nearer. Still I
continued to play and nod my head and tap my toe. I felt like some modern
Pied Piper piping away the children of these modern hills—piping
them away from older people who could not understand them.</p>
<p>I could see an accusing look on the Spectre's face. I don't know what put
it into my head, and I had no sooner said it than I was sorry for my
levity, but the figure with the sad garments there in the matchless and
triumphant spring day affected me with a curious, sharp impatience. Had
any one the right to look out so dolefully upon such a day and such a
scene of simple happiness as this? So I took my whistle from my lips and
asked:</p>
<p>“Is God dead?”</p>
<p>I shall never forget the indescribable look of horror and astonishment
that swept over the young man's face.</p>
<p>“What do you mean, sir?” he asked with an air of stern authority which
surprised me. His calling for the moment lifted him above himself: it was
the Church which spoke.</p>
<p>I was on my feet in an instant, regretting the pain I had given him; and
yet it seemed worth while now, having made my inadvertent remark, to show
him frankly what lay in my mind. Such things sometimes help men.</p>
<p>“I meant no offence, sir,” I said, “and I apologize for my flummery, but
when I saw you coming up the hill, looking so gloomy and disconsolate on
this bright day, as though you disapproved of God's world, the question
slipped out before I knew it.”</p>
<p>My words evidently struck deep down into some disturbed inner
consciousness, for he asked—and his words seemed to slip out before
he thought:</p>
<p>“Is THAT the way I impressed you?”</p>
<p>I found my heart going out strongly toward him. “Here,” I thought to
myself, “is a man in trouble.”</p>
<p>I took a good long look at him. He still a young man, though worn-looking—and
sad as I now saw it, rather than gloomy—with the sensitive lips and
the unworldly look one sees sometimes in the faces of saints. His black
coat was immaculately neat, but the worn button-covers and the shiny
lapels told their own eloquent story. Oh, it seemed to me I knew him as
well as if every incident of his life were written plainly upon his high,
pale forehead! I have lived long in a country neighbourhood, and I knew
him—poor flagellant of the rural church—I knew how he groaned
under the sins of a Community too comfortably willing to cast all its
burdens on the Lord, or on the Lord's accredited local representative. I
inferred also the usual large family and the low salary (scandalously
unpaid) and the frequent moves from place to place.</p>
<p>Unconsciously heaving a sigh the young man turned partly aside and said to
me in a low, gentle voice:</p>
<p>“You are detaining my boys from church.”</p>
<p>“I am very sorry,” I said, “and I will detain them no longer,” and with
that I put aside my whistle, took up my bag and moved down the hill with
them.</p>
<p>“The fact is,” I said, “when I heard your bell I thought of going to
church myself.”</p>
<p>“Did you?” he asked eagerly. “Did you?”</p>
<p>I could see that my proposal of going to church had instantly affected his
spirits. Then he hesitated abruptly with a sidelong glance at my bag and
rusty clothing. I could see exactly what was passing in his mind.</p>
<p>“No,” I said, smiling, as though answering a spoken question, “I am not
exactly what you would call a tramp.”</p>
<p>He flushed.</p>
<p>“I didn't mean—I WANT you to come. That's what a church is for. If I
thought—”</p>
<p>But he did not tell me what he thought; and, though he walked quietly at
my side, he was evidently deeply disturbed. Something of his
discouragement I sensed even then, and I don't think I was ever sorrier
for a man in my life than I was for him at that moment. Talk about the
suffering sinners! I wonder if they are to be compared with the trials of
the saints?</p>
<p>So we approached the little white church, and caused, I am certain, a
tremendous sensation. Nowhere does the unpredictable, the unusual, excite
such confusion as in that settled institution—the church.</p>
<p>I left my bag in the vestibule, where I have no doubt it was the object of
much inquiring and suspicious scrutiny, and took my place in a convenient
pew. It was a small church with an odd air of domesticity, and the
proportion of old ladies and children in the audience was pathetically
large. As a ruddy, vigorous, out-of-door person, with the dust of life
upon him, I felt distinctly out of place.</p>
<p>I could pick out easily the Deacon, the Old Lady Who Brought Flowers, the
President of the Sewing Circle, and, above all, the Chief Pharisee,
sitting in his high place. The Chief Pharisee—his name I learned was
Nash, Mr. J. H. Nash (I did not know then that I was soon to make his
acquaintance)—the Chief Pharisee looked as hard as nails, a
middle-aged man with stiff chin-whiskers, small round, sharp eyes, and a
pugnacious jaw.</p>
<p>“That man,” said I to myself, “runs this church,” and instantly I found
myself looking upon him as a sort of personification of the troubles I had
seen in the minister's eyes.</p>
<p>I shall not attempt to describe the service in detail. There was a
discouraging droop and quaver in the singing, and the mournful-looking
deacon who passed the collection-plate seemed inured to disappointment.
The prayer had in it a note of despairing appeal which fell like a cold
hand upon one's living soul. It gave one the impression that this was
indeed a miserable, dark, despairing world, which deserved to be
wrathfully destroyed, and that this miserable world was full of equally
miserable, broken, sinful, sickly people.</p>
<p>The sermon was a little better, for somewhere hidden within him this pale
young man had a spark of the divine fire, but it was so dampened by the
atmosphere of the church that it never rose above a pale luminosity.</p>
<p>I found the service indescribably depressing. I had an impulse to rise up
and cry out—almost anything to shock these people into opening their
eyes upon real life. Indeed, though I hesitate about setting it down here,
I was filled for some time with the liveliest imaginings of the following
serio-comic enterprise:</p>
<p>I would step up the aisle, take my place in front of the Chief Pharisee,
wag my finger under his nose, and tell him a thing or two about the
condition of the church.</p>
<p>“The only live thing here,” I would tell him, “is the spark in that pale
minister's soul; and you're doing your best to smother that.”</p>
<p>And I fully made up my mind that when he answered back in his
chief-pharisaical way I would gently—but firmly remove him from his
seat, shake him vigorously two or three times (men's souls have often been
saved with less!), deposit him flat in the aisle, and yes—stand on
him while I elucidated the situation to the audience at large. While I
confined this amusing and interesting project to the humours of the
imagination I am still convinced that something of the sort would have
helped enormously in clearing up the religious and moral atmosphere of the
place.</p>
<p>I had a wonderful sensation of relief when at last I stepped out again
into the clear afternoon sunshine and got a reviving glimpse of the
smiling green hills and the quiet fields and the sincere trees—and
felt the welcome of the friendly road.</p>
<p>I would have made straight for the hills, but the thought of that pale
minister held me back; and I waited quietly there under the trees till he
came out. He was plainly looking for me, and asked me to wait and walk
along with him, at which his four boys, whose acquaintance I had made
under such thrilling circumstances earlier in the day, seemed highly
delighted, and waited with me under the tree and told me a hundred
important things about a certain calf, a pig, a kite, and other things at
home.</p>
<p>Arriving at the minister's gate, I was invited in with a whole-heartedness
that was altogether charming. The minister's wife, a faded-looking woman
who had once possessed a delicate sort of prettiness, was waiting for us
on the steps with a fine chubby baby on her arm—number five.</p>
<p>The home was much the sort of place I had imagined—a small house
undesirably located (but cheap!), with a few straggling acres of garden
and meadow upon which the minister and his boys were trying with
inexperienced hands to piece out their inadequate living. At the very
first glimpse of the garden I wanted to throw off my coat and go at it.</p>
<p>And yet—and yet——what a wonderful thing love is! There
was, after all, something incalculable, something pervasively beautiful
about this poor household. The moment the minister stepped inside his own
door he became a different and livelier person. Something boyish crept
into his manner, and a new look came into the eyes of his faded wife that
made her almost pretty again. And the fat, comfortable baby rolled and
gurgled about on the floor as happily as though there had been two nurses
and a governess to look after him. As for the four boys, I have never seen
healthier or happier ones.</p>
<p>I sat with them at their Sunday-evening luncheon. As the minister bowed
his head to say grace I felt him clasp my hand on one side while the
oldest boy clasped my hand on the other, and thus, linked together, and
accepting the stranger utterly, the family looked up to God.</p>
<p>There was a fine, modest gayety about the meal. In front of Mrs. Minister
stood a very large yellow bowl filled with what she called rusk—a
preparation unfamiliar to me, made by browning and crushing the crusts of
bread and then rolling them down into a coarse meal. A bowl of this, with
sweet, rich, yellow milk (for they kept their own cow), made one of the
most appetizing dishes that ever I ate. It was downright good: it gave one
the unalloyed aroma of the sweet new milk and the satisfying taste of the
crisp bread.</p>
<p>Nor have I ever enjoyed a more perfect hospitality. I have been in many a
richer home where there was not a hundredth part of the true gentility—the
gentility of unapologizing simplicity and kindness.</p>
<p>And after it was over and cleared away—the minister himself donning
a long apron and helping his wife—and the chubby baby put to bed, we
all sat around the table in the gathering twilight.</p>
<p>I think men perish sometimes from sheer untalked talk. For lack of a
creative listener they gradually fill up with unexpressed emotion.
Presently this emotion begins to ferment, and finally—bang!—they
blow up, burst, disappear in thin air. In all that community I suppose
there was no one but the little faded wife to whom the minister dared open
his heart, and I think he found me a godsend. All I really did was to look
from one to the other and put in here and there an inciting comment or ask
an understanding question. After he had told me his situation and the
difficulties which confronted him and his small church, he exclaimed
suddenly:</p>
<p>“A minister should by rights be a leader, not only inside of his church,
but outside it in the community.”</p>
<p>“You are right,” I exclaimed with great earnestness; “you are right.”</p>
<p>And with that I told him of our own Scotch preacher and how he led and
moulded our community; and as I talked I could see him actually growing,
unfolding, under my eyes.</p>
<p>“Why,” said I, “you not only ought to be the moral leader of this
community, but you are!”</p>
<p>“That's what I tell him,” exclaimed his wife.</p>
<p>“But he persists in thinking, doesn't he, that he is a poor sinner?”</p>
<p>“He thinks it too much,” she laughed.</p>
<p>“Yes, yes,” he said, as much to himself as to us, “a minister ought to be
a fighter!”</p>
<p>It was beautiful, the boyish flush which now came into his face and the
light that came into his eyes. I should never have identified him with the
Black Spectre of the afternoon.</p>
<p>“Why,” said I, “you ARE a fighter; you're fighting the greatest battle in
the world today—the only real battle—the battle for the
spiritual view of life.”</p>
<p>Oh, I knew exactly what was the trouble with his religion—at least
the religion which, under the pressure of that church he felt obliged to
preach! It was the old, groaning, denying, resisting religion. It was the
sort of religion which sets a man apart and assures him that the entire
universe in the guise of the Powers of Darkness is leagued against him.
What he needed was a reviving draught of the new faith which affirms,
accepts, rejoices, which feels the universe triumphantly behind it. And so
whenever the minister told me what he ought to be—for he too sensed
the new impulse—I merely told him he was just that. He needed only
this little encouragement to unfold.</p>
<p>“Yes,” said he again, “I am the real moral leader here.”</p>
<p>At this I saw Mrs. Minister nodding her head vigorously.</p>
<p>“It's you,” she said, “and not Mr. Nash, who should lead this community.”</p>
<p>How a woman loves concrete applications. She is your only true pragmatist.
If a philosophy will not work, says she, why bother with it?</p>
<p>The minister rose quickly from his chair, threw back his head, and strode
quickly up and down the room.</p>
<p>“You are right,” said he; “and I WILL lead it. I'll have my farmers'
meetings as I planned.”</p>
<p>It may have been the effect of the lamplight, but it seemed to me that
little Mrs. Minister, as she glanced up at him, looked actually pretty.</p>
<p>The minister continued to stride up and down the room with his chin in the
air.</p>
<p>“Mr. Nash,” said she in a low voice to me, “is always trying to hold him
down and keep him back. My husband WANTS to do the great things”—wistfully.</p>
<p>“By every right,” the minister was repeating, quite oblivious of our
presence, “I should lead these people.”</p>
<p>“He sees the weakness of the church,” she continued, “as well as any one,
and he wants to start some vigorous community work—have agricultural
meetings and boys' clubs, and lots of things like that—but Mr. Nash
says it is no part of a minister's work: that it cheapens religion. He
says that when a parson—Mr. Nash always calls him parson, and I just
LOATHE that name—has preached, and prayed, and visited the sick,
that's enough for HIM.”</p>
<p>At this very moment a step sounded upon the walk, and an instant later a
figure appeared in the doorway.</p>
<p>“Why, Mr. Nash,” exclaimed little Mrs. Minister, exhibiting that
astonishing gift of swift recovery which is the possession of even the
simplest women, “come right in.”</p>
<p>It was some seconds before the minister could come down from the heights
and greet Mr. Nash. As for me, I was never more interested in my life.</p>
<p>“Now,” said I to myself, “we shall see Christian meet Apollyon.”</p>
<p>As soon as Mrs. Minister lighted the lamp I was introduced to the great
man. He looked at me sharply with his small, round eyes, and said:</p>
<p>“Oh, you are the—the man who was in church this afternoon.”</p>
<p>I admitted it, and he looked around at the minister with an accusing
expression. He evidently did not approve of me, nor could I wholly blame
him, for I knew well how he, as a rich farmer, must look upon a rusty man
of the road like me. I should have liked dearly to cross swords with him
myself, but greater events were imminent.</p>
<p>In no time at all the discussion, which had evidently been broken off at
some previous meeting, concerning the proposed farmers' assembly at the
church, had taken on a really lively tone. Mr. Nash was evidently in the
somewhat irritable mood with which important people may sometimes indulge
themselves, for he bit off his words in a way that was calculated to make
any but an unusually meek and saintly man exceedingly uncomfortable. But
the minister, with the fine, high humility of those whose passion is for
great or true things, was quite oblivious to the harsh words. Borne along
by an irresistible enthusiasm, he told in glowing terms what his plan
would mean to the community, how the people needed a new social and civic
spirit—a “neighbourhood religious feeling” he called it. And as he
talked his face flushed, and his eyes shone with the pure fire of a great
purpose. But I could see that all this enthusiasm impressed the practical
Mr. Nash as mere moonshine. He grew more and more uneasy. Finally he
brought his hand down with a resounding thwack upon his knee, and said in
a high, cutting voice:</p>
<p>“I don't believe in any such newfangled nonsense. It ain't none of a
parson's business what the community does. You're hired, ain't you, an'
paid to run the church? That's the end of it. We ain't goin' to have any
mixin' of religion an' farmin' in THIS neighbourhood.”</p>
<p>My eyes were on the pale man of God. I felt as though a human soul were
being weighed in the balance. What would he do now? What was he worth
REALLY as a man as well as a minister?</p>
<p>He paused a moment with downcast eyes. I saw little Mrs. Minister glance
at him—once—wistfully. He rose from his place, drew himself up
to his full height—I shall not soon forget the look on his face—and
uttered these amazing words:</p>
<p>“Martha, bring the ginger-jar.”</p>
<p>Mrs. Minister, without a word, went to a little cupboard on the farther
side of the room and took down a brown earthenware jar, which she brought
over and placed on the table, Mr. Nash following her movements with
astonished eyes. No one spoke.</p>
<p>The minister took the jar in his hands as he might the communion-cup just
before saying the prayer of the sacrament.</p>
<p>“Mr. Nash,” said he in a loud voice, “I've decided to hold that farmers'
meeting.”</p>
<p>Before Mr. Nash could reply the minister seated himself and was pouring
out the contents of the jar upon the table—a clatter of dimes,
nickels, pennies, a few quarters and half dollars, and a very few bills.</p>
<p>“Martha, just how much money is there?”</p>
<p>“Twenty-four dollars and sixteen cents.”</p>
<p>The minister put his hand into his pocket and, after counting out certain
coins, said:</p>
<p>“Here's one dollar and eighty-four cents more. That makes twenty-six
dollars. Now, Mr. Nash, you're the largest contributor to my salary in
this neighbourhood. You gave twenty-six dollars last year—fifty
cents a week. It is a generous contribution, but I cannot take it any
longer. It is fortunate that my wife has saved up this money to buy a
sewing-machine, so that we can pay back your contribution in full.”</p>
<p>He paused; no one of us spoke a word.</p>
<p>“Mr. Nash,” he continued, and his face was good to see, “I am the minister
here. I am convinced that what the community needs is more of a religious
and social spirit, and I am going about getting it in the way the Lord
leads me.”</p>
<p>At this I saw Mrs. Minister look up at her husband with such a light in
her eyes as any man might well barter his life for—I could not keep
my own eyes from pure beauty of it.</p>
<p>I knew too what this defiance meant. It meant that this little family was
placing its all upon the altar—even the pitiful coins for which they
had skimped and saved for months for a particular purpose. Talk of the
heroism of the men who charged with Pickett at Gettysburg! Here was a
courage higher and whiter than that; here was a courage that dared to
fight alone.</p>
<p>As for Mr. Nash, the face of that Chief Pharisee was a study. Nothing is
so paralyzing to a rich man as to find suddenly that his money will no
longer command him any advantage. Like all hard-shelled, practical people,
Mr. Nash could only dominate in a world which recognized the same material
supremacy that he recognized. Any one who insisted upon flying was lost to
Mr. Nash.</p>
<p>The minister pushed the little pile of coins toward him.</p>
<p>“Take it, Mr. Nash,” said he.</p>
<p>At that Mr. Nash rose hastily.</p>
<p>“I will not,” he said gruffly.</p>
<p>He paused, and looked at the minister with a strange expression in his
small round eyes—was it anger, or was it fear, or could it have been
admiration?</p>
<p>“If you want to waste your time on fiddlin' farmers' meetings—a man
that knows as little of farmin' as you do—why go ahead for all o'
me. But don't count me in.”</p>
<p>He turned, reached for his hat, and then went out of the door into the
darkness.</p>
<p>For a moment we all sat perfectly silent, then the minister rose, and said
solemnly:</p>
<p>“Martha, let's sing something.”</p>
<p>Martha crossed the room to the cottage organ and seated herself on the
stool.</p>
<p>“What shall we sing?” said she.</p>
<p>“Something with fight in it, Martha,” he responded; “something with plenty
of fight in it.”</p>
<p>So we sang “Onward, Christian Soldier, Marching as to War,” and followed
up with:</p>
<p>Awake, my soul, stretch every nerve And press with rigour on; A heavenly
race demands thy zeal And an immortal crown.</p>
<p>When we had finished, and as Martha rose from her seat, the minister
impulsively put his hands on her shoulders, and said:</p>
<p>“Martha, this is the greatest night of my life.”</p>
<p>He took a turn up and down the room, and then with an exultant boyish
laugh said:</p>
<p>“We'll go to town to-morrow and pick out that sewing-machine!”</p>
<p>I remained with them that night and part of the following day, taking a
hand with them in the garden, but of the events of that day I shall speak
in another chapter.</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER V. I PLAY THE PART OF A SPECTACLE PEDDLER </h2>
<p>Yesterday was exactly the sort of a day I love best—a spicy,
unexpected, amusing day—crowned with a droll adventure.</p>
<p>I cannot account for it, but it seems to me I take the road each morning
with a livelier mind and keener curiosity. If you were to watch me
narrowly these days you would see I am slowly shedding my years. I suspect
that some one of the clear hill streams from which I have been drinking
(lying prone on my face) was in reality the fountain of eternal youth. I
shall not go back to see.</p>
<p>It seems to me, when I feel like this, that in every least thing upon the
roadside, or upon the hill, lurks the stuff of adventure. What a world it
is! A mile south of here I shall find all that Stanley found in the
jungles of Africa; a mile north I am Peary at the Pole!</p>
<p>You there, brown-clad farmer on the tall seat of your wagon, driving
townward with a red heifer for sale, I can show you that life—your
life—is not all a gray smudge, as you think it is, but crammed,
packed, loaded with miraculous things. I can show you wonders past belief
in your own soul. I can easily convince you that you are in reality a
poet, a hero, a true lover, a saint.</p>
<p>It is because we are not humble enough in the presence of the divine daily
fact that adventure knocks so rarely at our door. A thousand times I have
had to learn this truth (what lesson so hard to learn as the lesson of
humility!) and I suppose I shall have to learn it a thousand times more.
This very day, straining my eyes to see the distant wonders of the
mountains, I nearly missed a miracle by the roadside.</p>
<p>Soon after leaving the minister and his family—I worked with them in
their garden with great delight most of the forenoon—I came, within
a mile—to the wide white turnpike—the Great Road.</p>
<p>Now, I usually prefer the little roads, the little, unexpected, curving,
leisurely country roads. The sharp hills, the pleasant deep valleys, the
bridges not too well kept, the verdure deep grown along old fences, the
houses opening hospitably at the very roadside, all these things I love.
They come to me with the same sort of charm and flavour, only vastly
magnified, which I find often in the essays of the older writers—those
leisurely old fellows who took time to write, REALLY write. The important
thing to me about a road, as about life—and literature, is not that
it goes anywhere, but that it is livable while it goes. For if I were to
arrive—and who knows that I ever shall arrive?—I think I
should be no happier than I am here.</p>
<p>Thus I have commonly avoided the Great White Road—the broad, smooth
turnpike—rock-bottomed and rolled by a State—without so much
as a loitering curve to whet one's curiosity, nor a thank-you-ma'am to
laugh over, nor a sinful hill to test your endurance—not so much as
a dreamy valley! It pursues its hard, unshaded, practical way directly
from some particular place to some other particular place and from time to
time a motor-car shoots in at one end of it and out at the other, leaving
its dust to settle upon quiet travellers like me.</p>
<p>Thus to-day when I came to the turnpike I was at first for making straight
across it and taking to the hills beyond, but at that very moment a
motor-car whirled past me as I stood there and a girl with a merry face
waved her hand at me. I lifted my hat in return—and as I watched
them out of sight I felt a curious new sense of warmth and friendliness
there in the Great Road.</p>
<p>“These are just people, too,” I said aloud—“and maybe they really
like it!”</p>
<p>And with that I began laughing at myself, and at the whole, big, amazing,
interesting world. Here was I pitying them for their benighted state, and
there were they, no doubt, pitying me for mine!</p>
<p>And with that pleasant and satisfactory thought in my mind and a song in
my throat I swung into the Great Road.</p>
<p>“It doesn't matter in the least,” said I to myself, “whether a man takes
hold of life by the great road or the little ones so long as he takes
hold.”</p>
<p>And oh, it was a wonderful day! A day with movement in it; a day that
flowed! In every field the farmers were at work, the cattle fed widely in
the meadows, and the Great Road itself was alive with a hundred varied
sorts of activity. Light winds stirred the tree-tops and rippled in the
new grass; and from the thickets I heard the blackbirds crying. Everything
animate and inanimate, that morning, seemed to have its own clear voice
and to cry out at me for my interest, or curiosity, or sympathy. Under
such circumstances it could not have been long—nor was it long—before
I came plump upon the first of a series of odd adventures.</p>
<p>A great many people, I know, abominate the roadside sign. It seems to them
a desecration of nature, the intrusion of rude commercialism upon the
perfection of natural beauty. But not I. I have no such feeling. Oh, the
signs in themselves are often rude and unbeautiful, and I never wished my
own barn or fences to sing the praises of swamp root or sarsaparilla—and
yet there is something wonderfully human about these painted and pasted
vociferations of the roadside signs; and I don't know why they are less
“natural” in their way than a house or barn or a planted field of corn.
They also tell us about life. How eagerly they cry out at us, “Buy me, buy
me!” What enthusiasm they have in their own concerns, what boundless faith
in themselves! How they speak of the enormous energy, activity,
resourcefulness of human kind!</p>
<p>Indeed, I like all kinds of signs. The autocratic warnings of the road,
the musts and the must-nots of traffic, I observe in passing; and I often
stand long at the crossings and look up at the finger-posts, and consider
my limitless wealth as a traveller. By this road I may, at my own
pleasure, reach the Great City; by that—who knows?—the far
wonders of Cathay. And I respond always to the appeal which the devoted
pilgrim paints on the rocks at the roadside: “Repent ye, for the kingdom
of God is at hand,” and though I am certain that the kingdom of God is
already here, I stop always and repent—just a little—knowing
that there is always room for it. At the entrance of the little towns,
also, or in the squares of the villages, I stop often to read the signs of
taxes assessed, or of political meetings; I see the evidences of homes
broken up in the notices of auction sales, and of families bereaved in the
dry and formal publications of the probate court. I pause, too, before the
signs of amusements flaming red and yellow on the barns (boys, the circus
is coming to town!), and I pause also, but no longer, to read the silent
signs carved in stone in the little cemeteries as I pass. Symbols, you
say? Why, they're the very stuff of life. If you cannot see life here in
the wide road, you will never see it at all.</p>
<p>Well, I saw a sign yesterday at the roadside that I never saw anywhere
before. It was not a large sign—indeed rather inconspicuous—consisting
of a single word rather crudely painted in black (as by an amateur) upon a
white board. It was nailed to a tree where those in swift passing cars
could not avoid seeing it:</p>
<p>[ REST ]</p>
<p>I cannot describe the odd sense of enlivenment, of pleasure I had when I
saw this new sign.</p>
<p>“Rest!” I exclaimed aloud. “Indeed I will,” and I sat down on a stone not
far away.</p>
<p>“Rest!”</p>
<p>What a sign for this very spot! Here in the midst of the haste and hurry
of the Great Road a quiet voice was saying, “Rest.” Some one with
imagination, I thought, evidently put that up; some quietist offering this
mild protest against the breathless progress of the age. How often I have
felt the same way myself—as though I were being swept onward through
life faster than I could well enjoy it. For nature passes the dishes far
more rapidly than we can help ourselves.</p>
<p>Or perhaps, thought I, eagerly speculating, this may be only some cunning
advertiser with rest for sale (in these days even rest has its price),
thus piquing the curiosity of the traveller for the disclosure which he
will make a mile or so farther on. Or else some humourist wasting his wit
upon the Fraternity of the Road, too willing (like me, perhaps) to accept
his ironical advice. But it would be well worth while should I find him,
to see him chuckle behind his hand.</p>
<p>So I sat there very much interested, for a long time, even framing a
rather amusing picture in my own mind of the sort of person who painted
these signs, deciding finally that he must be a zealot rather than a
trader or humourist. (Confidentially, I could not make a picture of him in
which he was not endowed with plentiful long hair). As I walked onward
again, I decided that in any guise I should like to see him, and I enjoyed
thinking what I should say if I met him. A mile farther up the road I saw
another sign exactly like the first.</p>
<p>“Here he is again,” I said exultantly, and that sign being somewhat nearer
the ground I was able to examine it carefully front and back, but it bore
no evidence of its origin.</p>
<p>In the next few miles I saw two other signs with nothing on them but the
word “Rest.”</p>
<p>Now this excellent admonition—like much of the excellent admonitions
in this world—affected me perversely: it made me more restless than
ever. I felt that I could not rest properly until I found out who wanted
me to rest, and why. It opened indeed a limitless vista for new adventure.</p>
<p>Presently, away ahead of me in the road, I saw a man standing near a
one-horse wagon. He seemed to be engaged in some activity near the
roadside, but I could not tell exactly what. As I hastened nearer I
discovered that he was a short, strongly built, sun-bronzed man in
working-clothes—and with the shortest of short hair. I saw him take
a shovel from the wagon and begin digging. He was the road-worker.</p>
<p>I asked the road-worker if he had seen the curious signs. He looked up at
me with a broad smile (he had good-humoured, very bright blue eyes).</p>
<p>“Yes,” he said, “but they ain't for me.”</p>
<p>“Then you don't follow the advice they give?”</p>
<p>“Not with a section like mine,” said he, and he straightened up and looked
first one way of the road and then the other. “I have from Grabow Brook,
but not the bridge, to the top o' Sullivan Hill, and all the culverts
between, though two of 'em are by rights bridges. And I claim that's a job
for any full-grown man.”</p>
<p>He began shovelling again in the road as if to prove how busy he was.
There had been a small landslide from an open cut on one side and a mass
of gravel and small boulders lay scattered on the smooth macadam. I
watched him for a moment. I love to watch the motions of vigorous men at
work, the easy play of the muscles, the swing of the shoulders, the vigour
of stoutly planted legs. He evidently considered the conversation closed,
and I, as—well, as a dusty man of the road—easily dismissed.
(You have no idea, until you try it, what a weight of prejudice the man of
the road has to surmount before he is accepted on easy terms by the
ordinary members of the human race.)</p>
<p>A few other well-intentioned observations on my part having elicited
nothing but monosyllabic replies, I put my bag down by the roadside and,
going up to the wagon, got out a shovel, and without a word took my place
at the other end of the landslide and began to shovel for all I was worth.</p>
<p>I said not a word to the husky road-worker and pretended not to look at
him, but I saw him well enough out of the corner of my eye. He was
evidently astonished and interested, as I knew he would be: it was
something entirely new on the road. He didn't quite know whether to be
angry, or amused, or sociable. I caught him looking over at me several
times, but I offered no response; then he cleared his throat and said:</p>
<p>“Where you from?”</p>
<p>I answered with a monosyllable which I knew he could not quite catch.
Silence again for some time, during which I shovelled valiantly and with
great inward amusement. Oh, there is nothing like cracking a hard human
nut! I decided at that moment, to have him invite me to supper.</p>
<p>Finally, when I showed no signs of stopping my work, he himself paused and
leaned on his shovel. I kept right on.</p>
<p>“Say, partner,” said he, finally, “did YOU read those signs as you come up
the road?”</p>
<p>“Yes,” I said, “but they weren't for me, either. My section's a long one,
too.”</p>
<p>“Say, you ain't a road-worker, are you?” he asked eagerly.</p>
<p>“Yes,” said I, with a sudden inspiration, “that's exactly what I am—a
road-worker.”</p>
<p>“Put her there, then, partner,” he said, with a broad smile on his bronzed
face.</p>
<p>He and I struck hands, rested on our shovels (like old hands at it), and
looked with understanding into each other's eyes. We both knew the trade
and the tricks of the trade; all bars were down between us. The fact is,
we had both seen and profited by the peculiar signs at the roadside.</p>
<p>“Where's your section?” he asked easily.</p>
<p>“Well,” I responded after considering the question, “I have a very long
and hard section. It begins at a place called Prosy Common—do you
know it?—and reaches to the top of Clear Hill. There are several bad
spots on the way, I can tell you.”</p>
<p>“Don't know it,” said the husky road-worker; “'tain't round here, is it?
In the town of Sheldon, maybe?”</p>
<p>Just at this moment, perhaps fortunately, for there is nothing so
difficult to satisfy as the appetite of people for specific information, a
motor-car whizzed past, the driver holding up his hand in greeting, and
the road-worker and I responding in accordance with the etiquette of the
Great Road.</p>
<p>“There he goes in the ruts again,” said the husky road-worker. “Why is it,
I'd like to know, that every one wants to run in the same identical track
when they've got the whole wide road before 'em?”</p>
<p>“That's what has long puzzled me, too,” I said. “Why WILL people continue
to run in ruts?”</p>
<p>“It don't seem to do no good to put up signs,” said the road-worker.</p>
<p>“Very little indeed,” said I. “The fact is, people have got to be bumped
out of the ruts they get into.”</p>
<p>“You're right,” said he enthusiastically, and his voice dropped into the
tone of one speaking to a member of the inner guild. “I know how to get
'em.”</p>
<p>“How?” I asked in an equally mysterious voice.</p>
<p>“I put a stone or two in the ruts!”</p>
<p>“Do you?” I exclaimed. “I've done that very thing myself—many a
time! Just place a good hard tru—I mean stone, with a bit of common
dust sprinkled over it, in the middle of the rut, and they'll look out for
THAT rut for some time to come.”</p>
<p>“Ain't it gorgeous,” said the husky road-worker, chuckling joyfully, “to
see 'em bump?”</p>
<p>“It is,” said I—“gorgeous.”</p>
<p>After that, shovelling part of the time in a leisurely way, and part of
the time responding to the urgent request of the signs by the roadside (it
pays to advertise!), the husky road-worker and I discussed many great and
important subjects, all, however, curiously related to roads. Working all
day long with his old horse, removing obstructions, draining out the
culverts, filling ruts and holes with new stone, and repairing the damage
of rain and storm, the road-worker was filled with a world of practical
information covering roads and road-making. And having learned that I was
of the same calling, we exchanged views with the greatest enthusiasm. It
was astonishing to see how nearly in agreement we were as to what
constituted an ideal road.</p>
<p>“Almost everything,” said he, “depends on depth. If you get a good solid
foundation, the' ain't anything that can break up your road.”</p>
<p>“Exactly what I have discovered,” I responded. “Get down to bedrock and do
an honest job of building.”</p>
<p>“And don't have too many sharp turns.”</p>
<p>“No,” said I, “long, leisurely curves are best—all through life. You
have observed that nearly all the accidents on the road are due to sharp
turnings.”</p>
<p>“Right you are!” he exclaimed.</p>
<p>“A man who tries to turn too sharply on his way nearly always skids.”</p>
<p>“Or else turns turtle in the ditch.”</p>
<p>But it was not until we reached the subject of oiling that we mounted to
the real summit of enthusiastic agreement. Of all things on the road, or
above the road, or in the waters under the road, there is nothing that the
road-worker dislikes more than oil.</p>
<p>“It's all right,” said he, “to use oil for surfacin' and to keep down the
dust. You don't need much and it ain't messy. But sometimes when you see
oil pumped on a road, you know that either the contractor has been
jobbin', or else the road's worn out and ought to be rebuilt.”</p>
<p>“That's exactly what I've found,” said I. “Let a road become almost
impassable with ruts and rocks and dust, and immediately some man says,
'Oh, it's all right—put on a little oil—'”</p>
<p>“That's what our supervisor is always sayin',” said the road-worker.</p>
<p>“Yes,” I responded, “it usually is the supervisor. He lives by it. He
wants to smooth over the defects, he wants to lay the dust that every
passerby kicks up, he tries to smear over the truth regarding conditions
with messy and ill-smelling oil. Above everything, he doesn't want the
road dug up and rebuilt—says it will interfere with traffic, injure
business, and even set people to talking about changing the route
entirely! Oh, haven't I seen it in religion, where they are doing their
best to oil up roads that are entirely worn out—and as for politics,
is not the cry of the party-roadster and the harmony-oilers abroad in the
land?”</p>
<p>In the excited interest with which this idea now bore me along I had
entirely forgotten the existence of my companion, and as I now glanced at
him I saw him standing with a curious look of astonishment and suspicion
on his face. I saw that I had unintentionally gone a little too far. So I
said abruptly:</p>
<p>“Partner, let's get a drink. I'm thirsty.”</p>
<p>He followed me, I thought a bit reluctantly, to a little brook not far up
the road where we had been once before. As we were drinking, silently, I
looked at the stout young fellow standing there, and I thought to myself:</p>
<p>What a good, straightforward young fellow he is anyway, and how thoroughly
he knows his job. I thought how well he was equipped with unilluminated
knowledge, and it came to me whimsically, that here was a fine bit of
road-mending for me to do.</p>
<p>Most people have sight, but few have insight; and as I looked into the
clear blue eyes of my friend I had a sudden swift inspiration, and before
I could repent of it I had said to him in the most serious voice that I
could command:</p>
<p>“Friend, I am in reality a spectacle-peddler—”</p>
<p>His glance shifted uncomfortably to my gray bag.</p>
<p>“And I want to sell you a pair of spectacles,” I said. “I see that you are
nearly blind.”</p>
<p>“Me blind!”</p>
<p>It would be utterly impossible to describe the expression on his face. His
hand went involuntarily to his eyes, and he glanced quickly, somewhat
fearfully, about.</p>
<p>“Yes, nearly blind,” said I. “I saw it when I first met you. You don't
know it yourself yet, but I can assure you it is a bad case.”</p>
<p>I paused, and shook my head slowly. If I had not been so much in earnest,
I think I should have been tempted to laugh outright. I had begun my talk
with him half jestingly, with the amusing idea of breaking through his
shell, but I now found myself tremendously engrossed, and desired nothing
in the world (at that moment) so much as to make him see what I saw. I
felt as though I held a live human soul in my hand.</p>
<p>“Say, partner,” said the road-worker, “are you sure you aren't—” He
tapped his forehead and began to edge away.</p>
<p>I did not answer his question at all, but continued, with my eyes fixed on
him:</p>
<p>“It is a peculiar sort of blindness. Apparently, as you look about, you
see everything there is to see, but as a matter of fact you see nothing in
the world but this road—”</p>
<p>“It's time that I was seein' it again then,” said he, making as if to turn
back to work, but remaining with a disturbed expression on his
countenance.</p>
<p>“The Spectacles I have to sell,” said I, “are powerful magnifiers”—he
glanced again at the gray bag. “When you put them on you will see a
thousand wonderful things besides the road—”</p>
<p>“Then you ain't road-worker after all!” he said, evidently trying to be
bluff and outright with me.</p>
<p>Now your substantial, sober, practical American will stand only about so
much verbal foolery; and there is nothing in the world that makes him more
uncomfortable—yes, downright mad!—than to feel that he is
being played with. I could see that I had nearly reached the limit with
him, and that if I held him now it must be by driving the truth straight
home. So I stepped over toward him and said very earnestly:</p>
<p>“My friend, don't think I am merely joking you. I was never more in
earnest in all my life. When I told you I was a road-worker I meant it,
but I had in mind the mending of other kinds of roads than this.”</p>
<p>I laid my hand on his arm, and explained to him as directly and simply as
English words could do it, how, when he had spoken of oil for his roads, I
thought of another sort of oil for another sort of roads, and when he
spoke of curves in his roads I was thinking of curves in the roads I dealt
with, and I explained to him what my roads were. I have never seen a man
more intensely interested: he neither moved nor took his eyes from my
face.</p>
<p>“And when I spoke of selling you a pair of spectacles,” said I, “it was
only a way of telling you how much I wanted to make you see my kinds of
roads as well as your own.”</p>
<p>I paused, wondering if, after all, he could be made to see. I know now how
the surgeon must feel at the crucial moment of his accomplished operation.
Will the patient live or die?</p>
<p>The road-worker drew a long breath as he came out from under the
anesthetic.</p>
<p>“I guess, partner,” said he, “you're trying to put a stone or two in my
ruts!”</p>
<p>I had him!</p>
<p>“Exactly,” I exclaimed eagerly.</p>
<p>We both paused. He was the first to speak—with some embarrassment:</p>
<p>“Say, you're just like a preacher I used to know when I was a kid. He was
always sayin' things that meant something else and when you found out what
he was drivin' at you always felt kind of queer in your insides.”</p>
<p>I laughed.</p>
<p>“It's a mighty good sign,” I said, “when a man begins to feel queer in the
insides. It shows that something is happening to him.”</p>
<p>With that we walked back to the road, feeling very close and friendly—and
shovelling again, not saying much. After quite a time, when we had nearly
cleaned up the landslide, I heard the husky road-worker chuckling to
himself; finally, straightening up, he said:</p>
<p>“Say, there's more things in a road than ever I dreamt of.”</p>
<p>“I see,” said I, “that the new spectacles are a good fit.”</p>
<p>The road-worker laughed long and loud.</p>
<p>“You're a good one, all right,” he said. “I see what YOU mean. I catch
your point.”</p>
<p>“And now that you've got them on,” said I, “and they are serving you so
well, I'm not going to sell them to you at all. I'm going to present them
to you—for I haven't seen anybody in a long time that I've enjoyed
meeting more than I have you.”</p>
<p>We nurse a fiction that people love to cover up their feelings; but I have
learned that if the feeling is real and deep they love far better to find
a way to uncover it.</p>
<p>“Same here,” said the road-worker simply, but with a world of genuine
feeling in his voice.</p>
<p>Well, when it came time to stop work the road-worker insisted that I get
in and go home with him.</p>
<p>“I want you to see my wife and kids,” said he.</p>
<p>The upshot of it was that I not only remained for supper—and a good
supper it was—but I spent the night in his little home, close at the
side of the road near the foot of a fine hill. And from time to time all
night long, it seemed to me, I could hear the rush of cars going by in the
smooth road outside, and sometimes their lights flashed in at my window,
and sometimes I heard them sound their brassy horns.</p>
<p>I wish I could tell more of what I saw there, of the garden back of the
house, and of all the road-worker and his wife told me of their simple
history—but, the road calls!</p>
<p>When I set forth early this morning the road-worker followed me out to the
smooth macadam (his wife standing in the doorway with her hands rolled in
her apron) and said to me, a bit shyly:</p>
<p>“I'll be more sort o'—sort o' interested in roads since I've seen
you.”</p>
<p>“I'll be along again some of these days,” said I, laughing, “and I'll stop
in and show you my new stock of spectacles. Maybe I can sell you another
pair!”</p>
<p>“Maybe you kin,” and he smiled a broad, understanding smile.</p>
<p>Nothing brings men together like having a joke in common.</p>
<p>So I walked off down the road—in the best of spirits—ready for
the events of another day.</p>
<p>It will surely be a great adventure, one of these days, to come this way
again—and to visit the Stanleys, and the Vedders, and the Minister,
and drop in and sell another pair of specs to the Road-worker. It seems to
me I have a wonderfully rosy future ahead of me!</p>
<p>P. S.—I have not yet found out who painted the curious signs; but I
am not as uneasy about it as I was. I have seen two more of them already
this morning—and find they exert quite a psychological influence.</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER VI. AN EXPERIMENT IN HUMAN NATURE </h2>
<p>In the early morning after I left the husky road-mender (wearing his new
spectacles), I remained steadfastly on the Great Road or near it. It was a
prime spring day, just a little hazy, as though promising rain, but soft
and warm.</p>
<p>“They will be working in the garden at home,” I thought, “and there will
be worlds of rhubarb and asparagus.” Then I remembered how the morning
sunshine would look on the little vine-clad back porch (reaching halfway
up the weathered door) of my own house among the hills.</p>
<p>It was the first time since my pilgrimage began that I had thought with
any emotion of my farm—or of Harriet.</p>
<p>And then the road claimed me again, and I began to look out for some
further explanation of the curious sign, the single word “Rest,” which had
interested me so keenly on the preceding day. It may seem absurd to some
who read these lines—some practical people!—but I cannot
convey the pleasure I had in the very elusiveness and mystery of the sign,
nor how I wished I might at the next turn come upon the poet himself. I
decided that no one but a poet could have contented himself with a lyric
in one word, unless it might have been a humourist, to whom sometimes a
single small word is more blessed than all the verbal riches of Webster
himself. For it is nothing short of genius that uses one word when twenty
will say the same thing!</p>
<p>Or, would he, after all, turn out to be only a more than ordinarily
alluring advertiser? I confess my heart went into my throat that morning,
when I first saw the sign, lest it read:</p>
<p>[ RESTaurant 2 miles east ]</p>
<p>nor should I have been surprised if it had.</p>
<p>I caught a vicarious glimpse of the sign-man to-day, through the eyes of a
young farmer. Yes, he s'posed he'd seen him, he said; wore a slouch hat,
couldn't tell whether he was young or old. Drove into the bushes (just
down there beyond the brook) and, standin' on the seat of his buggy,
nailed something to a tree. A day or two later—the dull wonder of
mankind!—the young farmer, passing that way to town, had seen the
odd sign “Rest” on the tree: he s'posed the fellow put it there.</p>
<p>“What does it mean?”</p>
<p>“Well, naow, I hadn't thought,” said the young farmer.</p>
<p>“Did the fellow by any chance have long hair?”</p>
<p>“Well, naow, I didn't notice,” said he.</p>
<p>“Are you sure he wore a slouch hat?”</p>
<p>“Ye-es—or it may a-been straw,” replied the observant young farmer.</p>
<p>So I tramped that morning; and as I tramped I let my mind go out warmly to
the people living all about on the farms or in the hills. It is pleasant
at times to feel life, as it were, in general terms: no specific Mr. Smith
or concrete Mr. Jones, but just human life. I love to think of people all
around going out busily in the morning to their work and returning at
night, weary, to rest. I like to think of them growing up, growing old,
loving, achieving, sinning, failing—in short, living.</p>
<p>In such a live-minded mood as this it often happens that the most ordinary
things appear charged with new significance. I suppose I had seen a
thousand rural-mail boxes along country roads before that day, but I had
seen them as the young farmer saw the sign-man. They were mere inert
objects of iron and wood.</p>
<p>But as I tramped, thinking of the people in the hills, I came quite
unexpectedly upon a sandy by-road that came out through a thicket of scrub
oaks and hazel-brush, like some shy countryman, to join the turn-pike. As
I stood looking into it—for it seemed peculiarly inviting—I
saw at the entrance a familiar group of rural-mail boxes. And I saw them
not as dead things, but for the moment—the illusion was
over-powering—they were living, eager hands outstretched to the
passing throng I could feel, hear, see the farmers up there in the hills
reaching out to me, to all the world, for a thousand inexpressible things,
for more life, more companionship, more comforts, more money.</p>
<p>It occurred to me at that moment, whimsically and yet somehow seriously,
that I might respond to the appeal of the shy country road and the
outstretched hands. At first I did not think of anything I could do—save
to go up and eat dinner with one of the hill farmers, which might not be
an unmixed blessing!—and then it came to me.</p>
<p>“I will write a letter!”</p>
<p>Straightway and with the liveliest amusement I began to formulate in my
mind what I should say:</p>
<p>Dear Friend: You do not know me. I am a passerby in the road. My name is
David Grayson. You do not know me, and it may seem odd to you to receive a
letter from an entire stranger. But I am something of a farmer myself, and
as I went by I could not help thinking of you and your family and your
farm. The fact is, I should like to look you up, and talk with you about
many things. I myself cultivate a number of curious fields, and raise many
kinds of crops—</p>
<p>At this interesting point my inspiration suddenly collapsed, for I had a
vision, at once amusing and disconcerting, of my hill farmer (and his
practical wife!) receiving such a letter (along with the country paper, a
circular advertising a cure for catarrh, and the most recent catalogue of
the largest mail-order house in creation). I could see them standing there
in their doorway, the man with his coat off, doubtfully scratching his
head as he read my letter, the woman wiping her hands on her apron and
looking over his shoulder, and a youngster squeezing between the two and
demanding, “What is it, Paw?”</p>
<p>I found myself wondering how they would receive such an unusual letter,
what they would take it to mean. And in spite of all I could do, I could
imagine no expression on their faces save one of incredulity and
suspicion. I could fairly see the shrewd worldly wise look come into the
farmer's face; I could hear him say:</p>
<p>“Ha, guess he thinks we ain't cut our eye-teeth!” And he would instantly
begin speculating as to whether this was a new scheme for selling him
second-rate nursery stock, or the smooth introduction of another
sewing-machine agent.</p>
<p>Strange world, strange world! Sometimes it seems to me that the hardest
thing of all to believe in is simple friendship. Is it not a comment upon
our civilization that it is so often easier to believe that a man is a
friend-for-profit, or even a cheat, than that he is frankly a well-wisher
of his neighbours?</p>
<p>These reflections put such a damper upon my enthusiasm that I was on the
point of taking again to the road, when it came to me powerfully: Why not
try the experiment? Why not?</p>
<p>“Friendship,” I said aloud, “is the greatest thing in the world. There is
no door it will not unlock, no problem it will not solve. It is, after
all, the only real thing in this world.”</p>
<p>The sound of my own voice brought me suddenly to myself, and I found that
I was standing there in the middle of the public road, one clenched fist
absurdly raised in air, delivering an oration to a congregation of
rural-mail boxes!</p>
<p>And yet, in spite of the humorous aspects of the idea, it still appeared
to me that such an experiment would not only fit in with the true object
of my journeying, but that it might be full of amusing and interesting
adventures. Straightway I got my notebook out of my bag and, sitting down
near the roadside, wrote my letter. I wrote it as though my life depended
upon it, with the intent of making some one household there in the hills
feel at least a little wave of warmth and sympathy from the great world
that was passing in the road below. I tried to prove the validity of a
kindly thought with no selling device attached to it; I tried to make it
such a word of frank companionship as I myself, working in my own fields,
would like to receive.</p>
<p>Among the letter-boxes in the group was one that stood a little detached
and behind the others, as though shrinking from such prosperous company.
It was made of unpainted wood, with leather hinges, and looked shabby in
comparison with the jaunty red, green, and gray paint of some of the other
boxes (with their cocky little metallic flags upraised). It bore the good
American name of Clark—T. N. Clark—and it seemed to me that I
could tell something of the Clarks by the box at the crossing.</p>
<p>“I think they need a friendly word,” I said to myself.</p>
<p>So I wrote the name T. N. Clark on my envelope and put the letter in his
box.</p>
<p>It was with a sense of joyous adventure that I now turned aside into the
sandy road and climbed the hill. My mind busied itself with thinking how I
should carry out my experiment, how I should approach these Clarks, and
how and what they were. A thousand ways I pictured to myself the receipt
of the letter: it would at least be something new for them, something just
a little disturbing, and I was curious to see whether it might open the
rift of wonder wide enough to let me slip into their lives.</p>
<p>I have often wondered why it is that men should be so fearful of new
ventures in social relationships, when I have found them so fertile, so
enjoyable. Most of us fear (actually fear) people who differ from
ourselves, either up or down the scale. Your Edison pries fearlessly into
the intimate secrets of matter; your Marconi employs the mysterious
properties of the “jellied ether,” but let a man seek to experiment with
the laws of that singular electricity which connects you and me (though
you be a millionaire and I a ditch-digger), and we think him a wild
visionary, an academic person. I think sometimes that the science of
humanity to-day is in about the state of darkness that the natural
sciences were when Linneus and Cuvier and Lamarck began groping for the
great laws of natural unity. Most of the human race is still groaning
under the belief that each of us is a special and unrelated creation, just
as men for ages saw no relationships between the fowls of the air, the
beasts of the field, and the fish of the sea. But, thank God, we are
beginning to learn that unity is as much a law of life as selfish
struggle, and love a more vital force than avarice or lust of power or
place. A Wandering Carpenter knew it, and taught it, twenty centuries ago.</p>
<p>“The next house beyond the ridge,” said the toothless old woman, pointing
with a long finger, “is the Clarks'. You can't miss it,” and I thought she
looked at me oddly.</p>
<p>I had been walking briskly for some three miles, and it was with keen
expectation that I now mounted the ridge and saw the farm for which I was
looking, lying there in the valley before me. It was altogether a wild and
beautiful bit of country—stunted cedars on the knolls of the rolling
hills, a brook trailing its way among alders and willows down a long
valley, and shaggy old fields smiling in the sun. As I came nearer I could
see that the only disharmony in the valley was the work (or idleness) of
men. A broken mowing-machine stood in the field where it had been left the
summer before, rusty and forlorn, and dead weeds marked the edges of a
field wherein the spring ploughing was now only half done. The whole
farmstead, indeed, looked tired. As for the house and barn, they had
reached that final stage of decay in which the best thing that could be
said of them was that they were picturesque. Everything was as different
from the farm of the energetic and joyous Stanleys, whose work I had
shared only a few days before, as anything that could be imagined.</p>
<p>Now, my usual way of getting into step with people is simplicity itself. I
take off my coat and go to work with them and the first thing I know we
have become first-rate friends. One doesn't dream of the possibilities of
companionship in labour until he has tried it.</p>
<p>But how shall one get into step with a man who is not stepping?</p>
<p>On the porch of the farmhouse, there in the mid-afternoon, a man sat idly;
and children were at play in the yard. I went in at the gate, not knowing
in the least what I should say or do, but determined to get hold of the
problem somewhere. As I approached the step, I swung my bag from my
shoulder.</p>
<p>“Don't want to buy nothin',” said the man.</p>
<p>“Well,” said I, “that is fortunate, for I have nothing to sell. But you've
got something I want.”</p>
<p>He looked at me dully.</p>
<p>“What's that?”</p>
<p>“A drink of water.”</p>
<p>Scarcely moving his head, he called to a shy older girl who had just
appeared in the doorway.</p>
<p>“Mandy, bring a dipper of water.”</p>
<p>As I stood there the children gathered curiously around me, and the man
continued to sit in his chair, saying absolutely nothing, a picture of
dull discouragement.</p>
<p>“How they need something to stir them up,” I thought.</p>
<p>When I had emptied the dipper, I sat down on the top step of the porch,
and, without saying a word to the man, placed my bag beside me and began
to open it. The shy girl paused, dipper in hand, the children stood on
tiptoe, and even the man showed signs of curiosity. With studied
deliberation I took out two books I had with me and put them on the porch;
then I proceeded to rummage for a long time in the bottom of the bag as
though I could not find what I wanted. Every eye was glued upon me, and I
even heard the step of Mrs. Clark as she came to the but I did not look up
or speak. Finally I pulled out my tin whistle and, leaning back against
the porch column, placed it to my lips, and began playing in Tom Madison's
best style (eyes half closed, one toe tapping to the music, head nodding,
fingers lifted high from the stops), I began playing “Money Musk,” and
“Old Dan Tucker.” Oh, I put vim into it, I can tell you! And bad as my
playing was, I had from the start an absorption of attention from my
audience that Paderewski himself might have envied. I wound up with a
lively trill in the high notes and took my whistle from my lips with a
hearty laugh, for the whole thing had been downright good fun, the playing
itself, the make-believe which went with it, the surprise and interest in
the children's faces, the slow-breaking smile of the little girl with the
dipper.</p>
<p>“I'll warrant you, madam,” I said to the woman who now stood frankly in
the doorway with her hands wrapped in her apron, “you haven't heard those
tunes since you were a girl and danced to 'em.”</p>
<p>“You're right,” she responded heartily.</p>
<p>“I'll give you another jolly one,” I said, and, replacing my whistle, I
began with even greater zest to play “Yankee Doodle.”</p>
<p>When I had gone through it half a dozen times with such added variations
and trills as I could command, and had two of the children hopping about
in the yard, and the forlorn man tapping his toe to the tune, and a smile
on the face of the forlorn woman, I wound up with a rush and then, as if I
could hold myself in no longer (and I couldn't either!), I suddenly burst
out:</p>
<p>Yankee doodle dandy!<br/>
Yankee doodle dandy!<br/>
Mind the music and the step,<br/>
And with the girls be handy.<br/></p>
<p>It may seem surprising, but I think I can understand why it was—when
I looked up at the woman in the doorway there were tears in her eyes!</p>
<p>“Do you know 'John Brown's Body'?” eagerly inquired the little girl with
the dipper, and then, as if she had done something quite bold and
improper, she blushed and edged toward the doorway.</p>
<p>“How does it go?” I asked, and one of the bold lads in the yard instantly
puckered his lips to show me, and immediately they were all trying it.</p>
<p>“Here goes,” said I, and for the next few minutes, and in my very best
style, I hung Jeff Davis on the sour apple-tree, and I sent the soul of
John Brown marching onward with an altogether unnecessary number of
hallelujahs.</p>
<p>I think sometimes that people—whole families of 'em—literally
perish for want of a good, hearty, whole-souled, mouth-opening,
throat-stretching, side-aching laugh. They begin to think themselves the
abused of creation, they begin to advise with their livers and to hate
their neighbours, and the whole world becomes a miserable dark blue place
quite unfit for human habitation. Well, all this is often only the result
of a neglect to exercise properly those muscles of the body (and of the
soul) which have to do with honest laughter.</p>
<p>I've never supposed I was an especially amusing person, but before I got
through with it I had the Clark family well loosened up with laughter,
although I wasn't quite sure some of the time whether Mrs. Clark was
laughing or crying. I had them all laughing and talking, asking questions
and answering them as though I were an old and valued neighbour.</p>
<p>Isn't it odd how unconvinced we often are by the crises in the lives of
other people? They seem to us trivial or unimportant; but the fact is, the
crises in the life of a boy, for example, or of a poor man, are as
commanding as the crises in the life of the greatest statesman or
millionaire, for they involve equally the whole personality, the entire
prospects.</p>
<p>The Clark family, I soon learned, had lost its pig. A trivial matter, you
say? I wonder if anything is ever trivial. A year of poor crops, sickness,
low prices, discouragement and, at the end of it, on top of it all, the
cherished pig had died!</p>
<p>From all accounts (and the man on the porch quite lost his apathy in
telling me about it) it must have been a pig of remarkable virtues and
attainments, a paragon of pigs—in whom had been bound up the many
possibilities of new shoes for the children, a hat for the lady, a new
pair of overalls for the gentleman, and I know not what other kindred
luxuries. I do not think, indeed, I ever had the portrait of a pig drawn
for me with quite such ardent enthusiasm of detail, and the more questions
I asked the more eager the story, until finally it became necessary for me
to go to the barn, the cattle-pen, the pig-pen and the chicken-house, that
I might visualize more clearly the scene of the tragedy. The whole family
trooped after us like a classic chorus, but Mr. Clark himself kept the
centre of the stage.</p>
<p>How plainly I could read upon the face of the land the story of this hill
farmer and his meagre existence—his ill-directed effort to wring a
poor living for his family from these upland fields, his poverty, and,
above all, his evident lack of knowledge of his own calling. Added to
these things, and perhaps the most depressing of all his difficulties, was
the utter loneliness of the task, the feeling that it mattered little to
any one whether the Clark family worked or not, or indeed whether they
lived or died. A perfectly good American family was here being wasted,
with the precious land they lived on, because no one had taken the trouble
to make them feel that they were a part of this Great American Job.</p>
<p>As we went back to the house, a freckled-nosed neighbour's boy came in at
the gate.</p>
<p>“A letter for you, Mr. Clark,” said he. “I brought it up with our mail.”</p>
<p>“A letter!” exclaimed Mrs. Clark.</p>
<p>“A letter!” echoed at least three of the children in unison.</p>
<p>“Probably a dun from Brewster,” said Mr. Clark discouragingly.</p>
<p>I felt a curious sensation about the heart, and an eagerness of interest I
have rarely experienced. I had no idea what a mere letter—a mere
unopened unread letter—would mean to a family like this.</p>
<p>“It has no stamp on it!” exclaimed the older girl.</p>
<p>Mrs. Clark turned it over wonderingly in her hands. Mr. Clark hastily put
on a pair of steel-bowed spectacles.</p>
<p>“Let me see it,” he said, and when he also had inspected it minutely he
solemnly tore open the envelope and drew forth my letter.</p>
<p>'I assure you I never awaited the reading of any writing of mine with such
breathless interest. How would they take it? Would they catch the meaning
that I meant to convey? And would they suspect me of having written it?</p>
<p>Mr. Clark sat on the porch and read the letter slowly through to the end,
turned the sheet over and examined it carefully, and then began reading it
again to himself, Mrs. Clark leaning over his shoulder.</p>
<p>“What does it mean?” asked Mr. Clark.</p>
<p>“It's too good to be true,” said Mrs. Clark with a sigh.</p>
<p>I don't know how long the discussion might have continued—probably
for days or weeks—had not the older girl, now flushed of face and
rather pretty, looked at me and said breathlessly (she was as sharp as a
briar):</p>
<p>“You wrote it.”</p>
<p>I stood the battery of all their eyes for a moment, smiling and rather
excited.</p>
<p>“Yes,” I said earnestly, “I wrote it, and I mean every word of it.”</p>
<p>I had anticipated some shock of suspicion and inquiry, but to my surprise
it was accepted as simply as a neighbourly good morning. I suppose the
mystery of it was eclipsed by my astonishing presence there upon the scene
with my tin whistle.</p>
<p>At any rate, it was a changed, eager, interested family which now occupied
the porch of that dilapidated farmhouse. And immediately we fell into a
lively discussion of crops and farming, and indeed the whole farm
question, in which I found both the man and his wife singularly acute—sharpened
upon the stone of hard experience.</p>
<p>Indeed, I found right here, as I have many times found among our American
farmers, an intelligence (a literacy growing out of what I believe to be
improper education) which was better able to discuss the problems of rural
life than to grapple with and solve them. A dull, illiterate Polish
farmer, I have found, will sometimes succeed much better at the job of
life than his American neighbour.</p>
<p>Talk with almost any man for half an hour, and you will find that his
conversation, like an old-fashioned song, has a regularly recurrent
chorus. I soon discovered Mr. Clark's chorus.</p>
<p>“Now, if only I had a little cash,” he sang, or, “If I had a few dollars,
I could do so and so.”</p>
<p>Why, he was as helplessly, dependent upon money as any soft-handed
millionairess. He considered himself poor and helpless because he lacked
dollars, whereas people are really poor and helpless only when they lack
courage and faith.</p>
<p>We were so much absorbed in our talk that I was greatly surprised to hear
Mrs. Clark's voice at the doorway.</p>
<p>“Won't you come in to supper?”</p>
<p>After we had eaten, there was a great demand for more of my tin whistle
(oh, I know how Caruso must feel!), and I played over every blessed tune I
knew, and some I didn't, four or five times, and after that we told
stories and cracked jokes in a way that must have been utterly astonishing
in that household. After the children had been, yes, driven to bed, Mr.
Clark seemed about to drop back into his lamentations over his condition
(which I have no doubt had come to give him a sort of pleasure), but I
turned to Mrs. Clark, whom I had come to respect very highly, and began to
talk about the little garden she had started, which was about the most
enterprising thing about the place.</p>
<p>“Isn't it one of the finest things in this world,” said I, “to go out into
a good garden in the summer days and bring in loaded baskets filled with
beets and cabbages and potatoes, just for the gathering?”</p>
<p>I knew from the expression on Mrs. Clark's face that I had touched a
sounding note.</p>
<p>“Opening the green corn a little at the top to see if it is ready and then
stripping it off and tearing away the moist white husks—”</p>
<p>“And picking tomatoes?” said Mrs. Clark. “And knuckling the watermelons to
see if they are ripe? Oh, I tell you there are thousands of people in this
country who'd like to be able to pick their dinner in the garden!”</p>
<p>“It's fine!” said Mrs. Clark with amused enthusiasm, “but I like best to
hear the hens cackling in the barnyard in the morning after they've laid,
and to go and bring in the eggs.”</p>
<p>“Just like a daily present!” I said.</p>
<p>“Ye-es,” responded the soundly practical Mrs. Clark, thinking, no doubt,
that there were other aspects of the garden and chicken problem.</p>
<p>“I'll tell you another thing I like about a farmer's life,” said I,
“that's the smell in the house in the summer when there are preserves, or
sweet pickles, or jam, or whatever it is, simmering on the stove. No
matter where you are, up in the garret or down cellar, it's cinnamon, and
allspice, and cloves, and every sort of sugary odour. Now, that gets me
where I live!”</p>
<p>“It IS good!” said Mrs. Clark with a laugh that could certainly be called
nothing if not girlish.</p>
<p>All this time I had been keeping one eye on Mr. Clark. It was amusing to
see him struggling against a cheerful view of life. He now broke into the
conversation.</p>
<p>“Well, but—” he began.</p>
<p>Instantly I headed him off.</p>
<p>“And think,” said I, “of living a life in which you are beholden to no
man. It's a free life, the farmer's life. No one can discharge you because
you are sick, or tired, or old, or because you are a Democrat or a
Baptist!”</p>
<p>“Well, but—”</p>
<p>“And think of having to pay no rent, nor of having to live upstairs in a
tenement!”</p>
<p>“Well, but—”</p>
<p>“Or getting run over by a street-car, or having the children play in the
gutters.”</p>
<p>“I never did like to think of what my children would do if we went to
town,” said Mrs. Clark.</p>
<p>“I guess not!” I exclaimed.</p>
<p>The fact is, most people don't think half enough of themselves and of
their jobs; but before we went to bed that night I had the forlorn T. N.
Clark talking about the virtues of his farm in quite a surprising way.</p>
<p>I even saw him eying me two or three times with a shrewd look in his eyes
(your American is an irrepressible trader) as though I might possibly be
some would-be purchaser in disguise.</p>
<p>(I shall write some time a dissertation on the advantages, of wearing
shabby clothing.)</p>
<p>The farm really had many good points. One of them was a shaggy old orchard
of good and thriving but utterly neglected apple-trees.</p>
<p>“Man alive,” I said, when we went out to see it in the morning, “you've
got a gold mine here!” And I told him how in our neighbourhood we were
renovating the old orchards, pruning them back, spraying, and bringing
them into bearing again.</p>
<p>He had never, since he owned the place, had a salable crop of fruit. When
we came in to breakfast I quite stirred the practical Mrs. Clark with my
enthusiasm, and she promised at once to send for a bulletin on apple-tree
renovation, published by the state experiment station. I am sure I was no
more earnest in my advice than the conditions warranted.</p>
<p>After breakfast we went into the field, and I suggested that instead of
ploughing any more land—for the season was already late—we get
out all the accumulations of rotted manure from around the barn and strew
it on the land already ploughed and harrow it in.</p>
<p>“A good job on a little piece of land,” I said, “is far more profitable
than a poor job on a big piece of land.”</p>
<p>Without more ado we got his old team hitched up and began loading, and
hauling out the manure, and spent all day long at it. Indeed, such was the
height of enthusiasm which T. N. Clark now reached (for his was a
temperament that must either soar in the clouds or grovel in the mire),
that he did not wish to stop when Mrs. Clark called us in to supper. In
that one day his crop of corn, in perspective, overflowed his crib, he
could not find boxes and barrels for his apples, his shed would not hold
all his tobacco, and his barn was already being enlarged to accommodate a
couple more cows! He was also keeping bees and growing ginseng.</p>
<p>But it was fine, that evening, to see Mrs. Clark's face, the renewed hope
and courage in it. I thought as I looked at her (for she was the strong
and steady one in that house):</p>
<p>“If you can keep the enthusiasm up, if you can make that husband of yours
grow corn, and cows, and apples as you raise chickens and make garden,
there is victory yet in this valley.”</p>
<p>That night it rained, but in spite of the moist earth we spent almost all
of the following day hard at work in the field, and all the time talking
over ways and means for the future, but the next morning, early, I swung
my bag on my back and left them.</p>
<p>I shall not attempt to describe the friendliness of our parting. Mrs.
Clark followed me wistfully to the gate.</p>
<p>“I can't tell you—” she began, with the tears starting in her eyes.</p>
<p>“Then don't try—” said I, smiling.</p>
<p>And so I swung off down the country road, without looking back.</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER VII. THE UNDISCOVERED COUNTRY </h2>
<p>In some strange deep way there is no experience of my whole pilgrimage
that I look back upon with so much wistful affection as I do upon the
events of the day—the day and the wonderful night—which
followed my long visit with the forlorn Clark family upon their hill farm.
At first I hesitated about including an account of it here because it
contains so little of what may be called thrilling or amusing incident.</p>
<p>“They want only the lively stories of my adventures,” I said to myself,
and I was at the point of pushing my notes to the edge of the table where
(had I let go) they would have fallen into the convenient oblivion of the
waste-basket. But something held me back.</p>
<p>“No,” said I, “I'll tell it; if it means so much to me, it may mean
something to the friends who are following these lines.”</p>
<p>For, after all, it is not what goes on outside of a man, the clash and
clatter of superficial events, that arouses our deepest interest, but what
goes on inside. Consider then that in this narrative I shall open a little
door in my heart and let you look in, if you care to, upon the experiences
of a day and a night in which I was supremely happy.</p>
<p>If you had chanced to be passing, that crisp spring morning, you would
have seen a traveller on foot with a gray bag on his shoulder, swinging
along the country road; and you might have been astonished to see him lift
his hat at you and wish you a good morning. You might have turned to look
back at him, as you passed, and found him turning also to look back at you—and
wishing he might know you. But you would not have known what he was
chanting under his breath as he tramped (how little we know of a man by
the shabby coat he wears), nor how keenly he was enjoying the light airs
and the warm sunshine of that fine spring morning.</p>
<p>After leaving the hill farm he had walked five miles up the valley, had
crossed the ridge at a place called the Little Notch, where all the world
lay stretched before him like the open palm of his hand, and had come thus
to the boundaries of the Undiscovered Country. He had been for days
troubled with the deep problems of other people, and it seemed to him this
morning as though a great stone had been rolled from the door of his
heart, and that he was entering upon a new world—a wonderful, high,
free world. And, as he tramped, certain lines of a stanza long ago caught
up in his memory from some forgotten page came up to his lips, and these
were the words (you did not know as you passed) that he was chanting under
his breath as he tramped, for they seem charged with the spirit of the
hour:</p>
<p>I've bartered my sheets for a starlit bed; I've traded my meat for a crust
of bread; I've changed my book for a sapling cane, And I'm off to the end
of the world again.</p>
<p>In the Undiscovered Country that morning it was wonderful how fresh the
spring woods were, and how the birds sang in the trees, and how the brook
sparkled and murmured at the roadside. The recent rain had washed the
atmosphere until it was as clear and sparkling and heady as new wine, and
the footing was firm and hard. As one tramped he could scarcely keep from
singing or shouting aloud for the very joy of the day.</p>
<p>“I think,” I said to myself, “I've never been in a better country,” and it
did not seem to me I cared to know where the gray road ran, nor how far
away the blue hills were.</p>
<p>“It is wonderful enough anywhere here,” I said.</p>
<p>And presently I turned from the road and climbed a gently sloping hillside
among oak and chestnut trees. The earth was well carpeted for my feet, and
here and there upon the hillside, where the sun came through the green
roof of foliage, were warm splashes Of yellow light, and here and there,
on shadier slopes, the new ferns were spread upon the earth like some lacy
coverlet. I finally sat down at the foot of a tree where through a rift in
the foliage in the valley below I could catch a glimpse in the distance of
the meadows and the misty blue hills. I was glad to rest, just rest, for
the two previous days of hard labour, the labour and the tramping, had
wearied me, and I sat for a long time quietly looking about me, scarcely
thinking at all, but seeing, hearing, smelling—feeling the spring
morning, and the woods and the hills, and the patch of sky I could see.</p>
<p>For a long, long time I sat thus, but finally my mind began to flow again,
and I thought how fine it would be if I had some good friend there with me
to enjoy the perfect surroundings—some friend who would understand.
And I thought of the Vedders with whom I had so recently spent a wonderful
day; and I wished that they might be with me; there were so many things to
be said—to be left unsaid. Upon this it occurred to me, suddenly,
whimsically, and I exclaimed aloud:</p>
<p>“Why, I'll just call them up.”</p>
<p>Half turning to the trunk of the tree where I sat, I placed one hand to my
ear and the other to my lips and said:</p>
<p>“Hello, Central, give me Mr. Vedder.”</p>
<p>I waited a moment, smiling a little at my own absurdity and yet quite
captivated by the enterprise.</p>
<p>“Is this Mr. Vedder? Oh, Mrs. Vedder! Well, this is David Grayson.”....</p>
<p>“Yes, the very same. A bad penny, a rolling stone.”....</p>
<p>“Yes. I want you both to come here as quickly as you can. I have the most
important news for you. The mountain laurels are blooming, and the wild
strawberries are setting their fruit. Yes, yes, and in the fields—all
around here, to-day there are wonderful white patches of daisies, and from
where I sit I can see an old meadow as yellow as gold with buttercups. And
the bobolinks are hovering over the low spots. Oh, but it is fine here—and
we are not together!”....</p>
<p>“No; I cannot give exact directions. But take the Long Road and turn at
the turning by the tulip-tree, and you will find me at home. Come right in
without knocking.”</p>
<p>I hung up the receiver. For a single instant it had seemed almost true,
and indeed I believe—I wonder—</p>
<p>Some day, I thought, just a bit sadly, for I shall probably not be here
then—some day, we shall be able to call our friends through space
and time. Some day we shall discover that marvellously simple coherer by
which we may better utilize the mysterious ether of love.</p>
<p>For a time I was sad with thoughts of the unaccomplished future, and then
I reflected that if I could not call up the Vedders so informally I could
at least write down a few paragraphs which would give them some faint
impression of that time and place. But I had no sooner taken out my
note-book and put down a sentence or two than I stuck fast. How foolish
and feeble written words are anyway! With what glib facility they
describe, but how inadequately they convey. A thousand times I have
thought to myself, “If only I could WRITE!”</p>
<p>Not being able to write I turned, as I have so often turned before, to
some good old book, trusting that I might find in the writing of another
man what I lacked in my own. I took out my battered copy of Montaigne and,
opening it at random, as I love to do, came, as luck would have it, upon a
chapter devoted to coaches, in which there is much curious (and worthless)
information, darkened with Latin quotations. This reading had an
unexpected effect upon me.</p>
<p>I could not seem to keep my mind down upon the printed page; it kept
bounding away at the sight of the distant hills, at the sound of a
woodpecker on a dead stub which stood near me, and at the thousand and one
faint rustlings, creepings, murmurings, tappings, which animate the
mystery of the forest. How dull indeed appeared the printed page in
comparison with the book of life, how shut-in its atmosphere, how tinkling
and distant the sound of its voices. Suddenly I shut my book with a snap.</p>
<p>“Musty coaches and Latin quotations!” I exclaimed. “Montaigne's no writer
for the open air. He belongs at a study fire on a quiet evening!”</p>
<p>I had anticipated, when I started out, many a pleasant hour by the
roadside or in the woods with my books, but this was almost the first
opportunity I had found for reading (as it was almost the last), so full
was the present world of stirring events. As for poor old Montaigne, I
have been out of harmony with him ever since, nor have I wanted him in the
intimate case at my elbow.</p>
<p>After a long time in the forest, and the sun having reached the high
heavens, I gathered up my pack and set forth again along the slope of the
hills—not hurrying, just drifting and enjoying every sight and
sound. And thus walking I came in sight, through the trees, of a
glistening pool of water and made my way straight toward it.</p>
<p>A more charming spot I have rarely seen. In some former time an old mill
had stood at the foot of the little valley, and a ruinous stone dam still
held the water in a deep, quiet pond between two round hills. Above it a
brook ran down through the woods, and below, with a pleasant musical
sound, the water dripped over the mossy stone lips of the dam and fell
into the rocky pool below. Nature had long ago healed the wounds of men;
she had half-covered the ruined mill with verdure, had softened the stone
walls of the dam with mosses and lichens, and had crept down the steep
hillside and was now leaning so far out over the pool that she could see
her reflection in the quiet water.</p>
<p>Near the upper end of the pond I found a clear white sand-bank, where no
doubt a thousand fishermen had stood, half hidden by the willows, to cast
for trout in the pool below. I intended merely to drink and moisten my
face, but as I knelt by the pool and saw my reflection in the clear water
wanted something more than that! In a moment I had thrown aside my bag and
clothes and found myself wading naked into the water.</p>
<p>It was cold! I stood a moment there in the sunny air, the great world open
around me, shuddering, for I dreaded the plunge—and then with a run,
a shout and a splash I took the deep water. Oh, but it was fine! With
long, deep strokes I carried myself fairly to the middle of the pond. The
first chill was succeeded by a tingling glow, and I can convey no idea
whatever of the glorious sense of exhilaration I had. I swam with the
broad front stroke, I swam on my side, head half submerged, with a deep
under stroke, and I rolled over on my back and swam with the water lapping
my chin. Thus I came to the end of the pool near the old dam, touched my
feet on the bottom, gave a primeval whoop, and dove back into the water
again. I have rarely experienced keener physical joy. After swimming thus
boisterously for a time, I quieted down to long, leisurely strokes,
conscious of the water playing across my shoulders and singing at my ears,
and finally, reaching the centre of the pond, I turned over on my back
and, paddling lazily, watched the slow procession of light clouds across
the sunlit openings of the trees above me. Away up in the sky I could see
a hawk slowly swimming about (in his element as I was in mine), and nearer
at hand, indeed fairly in the thicket about the pond, I could hear a
wood-thrush singing.</p>
<p>And so, shaking the water out of my hair and swimming with long and
leisurely strokes, I returned to the sand-bank, and there, standing in a
spot of warm sunshine, I dried myself with the towel from my bag. And I
said to myself:</p>
<p>“Surely it is good to be alive at a time like this!”</p>
<p>Slowly I drew on my clothes, idling there in the sand, and afterward I
found an inviting spot in an old meadow where I threw myself down on the
grass under an apple-tree and looked up into the shadowy places in the
foliage above me. I felt a delicious sense of physical well-being, and I
was pleasantly tired.</p>
<p>So I lay there—and the next thing I knew, I turned over, feeling
cold and stiff, and opened my eyes upon the dusky shadows of late evening.
I had been sleeping for hours!</p>
<p>The next few minutes (or was it an hour or eternity?), I recall as
containing some of the most exciting and, when all is said, amusing
incidents in my whole life. And I got quite a new glimpse of that
sometimes bumptious person known as David Grayson.</p>
<p>The first sensation I had was one of complete panic. What was I to do?
Where was I to go?</p>
<p>Hastily seizing my bag—and before I was half awake—I started
rapidly across the meadow, in my excitement tripping and falling several
times in the first hundred yards. In daylight I have no doubt that I
should easily have seen a gateway or at least an opening from the old
meadow, but in the fast-gathering darkness it seemed to me that the open
field was surrounded on every side by impenetrable forests. Absurd as it
may seem, for no one knows what his mind will do at such a moment, I
recalled vividly a passage from Stanley's story of his search for
Livingstone, in which he relates how he escaped from a difficult place in
the jungle by KEEPING STRAIGHT AHEAD.</p>
<p>I print these words in capitals because they seemed written that night
upon the sky. KEEPING STRAIGHT AHEAD, I entered the forest on one side of
the meadow (with quite a heroic sense of adventure), but scraped my shin
on a fallen log and ran into a tree with bark on it that felt like a
gigantic currycomb—and stopped!</p>
<p>Up to this point I think I was still partly asleep. Now, however, I waked
up.</p>
<p>“All you need,” said I to myself in my most matter-of-fact tone, “is a
little cool sense. Be quiet now and reason it out.”</p>
<p>So I stood there for some moments reasoning it out, with the result that I
turned back and found the meadow again.</p>
<p>“What a fool I've been!” I said. “Isn't it perfectly plain that I should
have gone down to the pond, crossed over the inlet, and reached the road
by the way I came?”</p>
<p>Having thus settled my problem, and congratulating myself on my
perspicacity, I started straight for the mill-pond, but to my utter
amazement, in the few short hours while I had been asleep, that entire
body of water had evaporated, the dam had disappeared, and the stream had
dried up. I must certainly present the facts in this remarkable case to
some learned society.</p>
<p>I then decided to return to the old apple-tree where I had slept, which
now seemed quite like home, but, strange to relate, the apple-tree had
also completely vanished from the enchanted meadow. At that I began to
suspect that in coming out of the forest I had somehow got into another
and somewhat similar old field. I have never had a more confused or eerie
sensation; not fear, but a sort of helplessness in which for an instant I
actually began to doubt whether it was I myself, David Grayson, who stood
there in the dark meadow, or whether I was the victim of a peculiarly bad
dream. I suppose many other people have had these sensations under similar
conditions, but they were new to me.</p>
<p>I turned slowly around and looked for a light; I think I never wanted so
much to see some sign of human habitation as I did at that moment.</p>
<p>What a coddled world we live in, truly. That being out after dark in a
meadow should so disturb the very centre of our being! In all my life,
indeed, and I suppose the same is true of ninety-nine out of a hundred of
the people in America to-day, I had never before found myself where
nothing stood between nature and me, where I had no place to sleep, no
shelter for the night—nor any prospect of finding one. I was
infinitely less resourceful at that moment than a rabbit, or a partridge,
or a gray squirrel.</p>
<p>Presently I sat down on the ground where I had been standing, with a vague
fear (absurd to look back upon) that it, too, in some manner might slip
away from under me. And as I sat there I began to have familiar gnawings
at the pit of my stomach, and I remembered that, save for a couple of Mrs.
Clark's doughnuts eaten while I was sitting on the hillside, ages ago, I
had had nothing since my early breakfast.</p>
<p>With this thought of my predicament—and the glimpse I had of myself
“hungry and homeless”—the humour of the whole situation suddenly
came over me, and, beginning with a chuckle, I wound up, as my mind dwelt
upon my recent adventures, with a long, loud, hearty laugh.</p>
<p>As I laughed—and what a roar it made in that darkness!—I got
up on my feet and looked up at the sky. One bright star shone out over the
woods, and in high heavens I could see dimly the white path of the Milky
Way. And all at once I seemed again to be in command of myself and of the
world. I felt a sudden lift and thrill of the spirits, a warm sense that
this too was part of the great adventure—the Thing Itself.</p>
<p>“This is the light,” I said looking up again at the sky and the single
bright star, “which is set for me to-night. I will make my bed by it.”</p>
<p>I can hope to make no one understand (unless he understands already) with
what joy of adventure I now crept through the meadow toward the wood. It
was an unknown, unexplored world I was in, and I, the fortunate
discoverer, had here to shift for himself, make his home under the stars!
Marquette on the wild shores of the Mississippi, or Stanley in Africa, had
no joy that I did not know at that moment.</p>
<p>I crept along the meadow and came at last to the wood. Here I chose a
somewhat sheltered spot at the foot of a large tree—and yet a spot
not so obscured that I could not look out over the open spaces of the
meadow and see the sky. Here, groping in the darkness, like some primitive
creature, I raked together a pile of leaves with my fingers, and found
dead twigs and branches of trees; but in that moist forest (where the rain
had fallen only the day before) my efforts to kindle a fire were
unavailing. Upon this, I considered using some pages from my notebook, but
another alternative suggested itself:</p>
<p>“Why not Montaigne?”</p>
<p>With that I groped for the familiar volume, and with a curious sensation
of satisfaction I tore out a handful of pages from the back.</p>
<p>“Better Montaigne than Grayson,” I said, with a chuckle. It was amazing
how Montaigne sparkled and crackled when he was well lighted.</p>
<p>“There goes a bundle of quotations from Vergil,” I said, “and there's his
observations on the eating of fish. There are more uses than one for the
classics.”</p>
<p>So I ripped out a good part of another chapter, and thus, by coaxing, got
my fire to going. It was not difficult after that to find enough fuel to
make it blaze up warmly.</p>
<p>I opened my bag and took out the remnants of the luncheon which Mrs. Clark
had given me that morning; and I was surprised and delighted to find,
among the other things, a small bottle of coffee. This suggested all sorts
of pleasing possibilities and, the spirit of invention being now awakened,
I got out my tin cup, split a sapling stick so I could fit it into the
handle, and set the cup, full of coffee, on the coals at the edge of the
fire. It was soon heated, and although I spilled some of it in getting it
off, and although it was well spiced with ashes, I enjoyed it, with Mrs.
Clark's doughnuts and sandwiches (some of which I toasted with a sapling
fork) as thoroughly, I think, as ever I enjoyed any meal.</p>
<p>How little we know—we who dread life—how much there is in
life!</p>
<p>My activities around the fire had warmed me to the bone, and after I was
well through with my meal I gathered a plentiful supply of wood and placed
it near at hand, I got out my waterproof cape and put it on, and, finally
piling more sticks on the fire, I sat down comfortably at the foot of the
tree.</p>
<p>I wish I could convey the mystery and the beauty of that night. Did you
ever sit by a campfire and watch the flames dance, and the sparks fly
upward into the cool dark air? Did you ever see the fitful light among the
tree-depths, at one moment opening vast shadowy vistas into the forest, at
the next dying downward and leaving it all in sombre mystery? It came to
me that night with the wonderful vividness of a fresh experience.</p>
<p>And what a friendly and companionable thing a campfire is! How generous
and outright it is! It plays for you when you wish so be lively, and it
glows for you when you wish to be reflective.</p>
<p>After a while, for I did not feel in the least sleepy, I stepped out of
the woods to the edge of the pasture. All around me lay the dark and
silent earth, and above the blue bowl of the sky, all glorious with the
blaze of a million worlds. Sometimes I have been oppressed by this
spectacle of utter space, of infinite distance, of forces too great for me
to grasp or understand, but that night it came upon me with fresh wonder
and power, and with a sense of great humility that I belonged here too,
that I was a part of it all—and would not be neglected or forgotten.
It seemed to me I never had a moment of greater faith than that.</p>
<p>And so, with a sense of satisfaction and peace, I returned to my fire. As
I sat there I could hear the curious noises of the woods, the little
droppings, cracklings, rustlings which seemed to make all the world alive.
I even fancied I could see small bright eyes looking out at my fire, and
once or twice I was almost sure I heard voices—whispering—,
perhaps the voices of the woods.</p>
<p>Occasionally I added, with some amusement, a few dry pages of Montaigne to
the fire, and watched the cheerful blaze that followed.</p>
<p>“No,” said I, “Montaigne is not for the open spaces and the stars. Without
a roof over his head Montaigne would—well, die of sneezing.”</p>
<p>So I sat all night long there by the tree. Occasionally I dropped into a
light sleep, and then, as my fire died down, I grew chilly and awakened,
to build up the fire and doze again. I saw the first faint gray streaks of
dawn above the trees, I saw the pink glow in the east before the sunrise,
and I watched the sun himself rise upon a new day—</p>
<p>When I walked out into the meadow by daylight and looked about me
curiously, I saw, not forty rods away, the back of a barn.</p>
<p>“Be you the fellow that was daown in my cowpasture all night?” asked the
sturdy farmer.</p>
<p>“I'm that fellow,” I said.</p>
<p>“Why didn't you come right up to the house?”</p>
<p>“Well—” I said, and then paused.</p>
<p>“Well...” said I.</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER VIII. THE HEDGE </h2>
<h3> Strange, strange, how small the big world is! </h3>
<p>“Why didn't you come right into the house?” the sturdy farmer had asked me
when I came out of the meadow where I had spent the night under the stars.</p>
<p>“Well,” I said, turning the question as adroitly as I could, “I'll make it
up by going into the house now.”</p>
<p>So I went with him into his fine, comfortable house.</p>
<p>“This is my wife,” said he.</p>
<p>A woman stood there facing me. “Oh!” she exclaimed, “Mr. Grayson!”</p>
<p>I recalled swiftly a child—a child she seemed then—with braids
down her back, whom I had known when I first came to my farm. She had
grown up, married, and had borne three children, while I had been looking
the other way for a minute or two. She had not been in our neighborhood
for several years.</p>
<p>“And how is your sister and Doctor McAlway?”</p>
<p>Well, we had quite a wonderful visit, she made breakfast for me, asking
and talking eagerly as I ate.</p>
<p>“We've just had news that old Mr. Toombs is dead.”</p>
<p>“Dead!” I exclaimed, dropping my fork; “old Nathan Toombs!”</p>
<p>“Yes, he was my uncle. Did you know him?”</p>
<p>“I knew Nathan Toombs,” I said.</p>
<p>I spent two days there with the Ransomes, for they would not hear of my
leaving, and half of our spare time, I think, was spent in discussing
Nathan Toombs. I was not able to get him out of my mind for days, for his
death was one of those events which prove so much and leave so much
unproven.</p>
<p>I can recall vividly my astonishment at the first evidence I ever had of
the strange old man or of his work. It was not very long after I came to
my farm to live. I had taken to spending my spare evenings—the long
evenings of summer—in exploring the country roads for miles around,
getting acquainted with each farmstead, each bit of grove and meadow and
marsh, making my best bow to each unfamiliar hill, and taking everywhere
that toll of pleasure which comes of quiet discovery.</p>
<p>One evening, having walked farther than usual, I came quite suddenly
around a turn in the road and saw stretching away before me an
extraordinary sight.</p>
<p>I feel that I am conveying no adequate impression of what I beheld by
giving it any such prim and decorous name as—a Hedge. It was a
menagerie, a living, green menagerie! I had no sooner seen it than I began
puzzling my brain as to whether one of the curious ornaments into which
the upper part of the hedge had been clipped and trimmed was made to
represent the head of a horse, or a camel, or an Egyptian sphinx.</p>
<p>The hedge was of arbor vitae and as high as a man's waist. At more or less
regular intervals the trees in it had been allowed to grow much taller and
had been wonderfully pruned into the similitude of towers, pinnacles,
bells, and many other strange designs. Here and there the hedge held up a
spindling umbrella of greenery, sometimes a double umbrella—a little
one above the big one—and over the gateway at the centre; as a sort
of final triumph, rose a grandiose arch of interlaced branches upon which
the artist had outdone himself in marvels of ornamentation.</p>
<p>I shall never forget the sensation of delight I had over this discovery,
or of how I walked, tiptoe, along the road in front, studying each of the
marvellous adornments. How eagerly, too, I looked over at the house beyond—a
rather bare, bleak house set on a slight knoll or elevation and guarded at
one corner by a dark spruce tree. At some distance behind I saw a number
of huge barns, a cattle yard and a silo—all the evidences of
prosperity—with well-nurtured fields, now yellowing with the summer
crops, spreading pleasantly away on every hand.</p>
<p>It was nearly dark before I left that bit of roadside, and I shall never
forget the eerie impression I had as I turned back to take a final look at
the hedge, the strange, grotesque aspect it presented there in the half
light with the bare, lonely house rising from the knoll behind.</p>
<p>It was not until some weeks later that I met the owner of the wonderful
hedge. By that time, however, having learned of my interest, I found the
whole countryside alive with stories about it and about Old Nathan Toombs,
its owner. It was as though I had struck the rock of refreshment in a
weary land.</p>
<p>I remember distinctly how puzzled was by the stories I heard. The
neighbourhood portrait—and ours is really a friendly neighbourhood—was
by no means flattering. Old Toombs was apparently of that type of
hard-shelled, grasping, self-reliant, old-fashioned farmer not unfamiliar
to many country neighbourhoods. He had come of tough old American stock
and he was a worker, a saver, and thus he had grown rich, the richest
farmer in the whole neighbourhood. He was a regular individualistic
American.</p>
<p>“A dour man,” said the Scotch Preacher, “but just—you must admit
that he is just.”</p>
<p>There was no man living about whom the Scotch Preacher could not find
something good to say.</p>
<p>“Yes, just,” replied Horace, “but hard—hard, and as mean as pusley.”</p>
<p>This portrait was true enough in itself, for I knew just the sort of an
aggressive, undoubtedly irritable old fellow it pictured, but somehow, try
as I would, I could not see any such old fellow wasting his moneyed hours
clipping bells, umbrellas, and camel's heads on his ornamental greenery.
It left just that incongruity which is at once the lure, the humour, and
the perplexity of human life. Instead of satisfying my curiosity I was
more anxious than ever to see Old Toombs with my own eyes.</p>
<p>But the weeks passed and somehow I did not meet him. He was a lonely,
unneighbourly old fellow. He had apparently come to fit into the community
without ever really becoming a part of it. His neighbours accepted him as
they accepted a hard hill in the town road. From time to time he would
foreclose a mortgage where he had loaned money to some less thrifty
farmer, or he would extend his acres by purchase, hard cash down, or he
would build a bigger barn. When any of these things happened the community
would crowd over a little, as it were, to give him more room. It is a
curious thing, and tragic, too, when you come to think of it, how the
world lets alone those people who appear to want to be let alone. “I can
live to myself,” says the unneighbourly one. “Well, live to yourself,
then,” cheerfully responds the world, and it goes about its more or less
amusing affairs and lets the unneighbourly one cut himself off.</p>
<p>So our small community had let Old Toombs go his way with all his money,
his acres, his hedge, and his reputation for being a just man.</p>
<p>Not meeting him, therefore, in the familiar and friendly life of the
neighbourhood, I took to walking out toward his farm, looking freshly at
the wonderful hedge and musing upon that most fascinating of all subjects—how
men come to be what they are. And at last I was rewarded.</p>
<p>One day I had scarcely reached the end of the hedge when I saw Old Toombs
himself, moving toward me down the country road. Though I had never seen
him before, I was at no loss to identify him. The first and vital
impression he gave me, if I can compress it into a single word, was, I
think, force—force. He came stubbing down the country road with a
brown hickory stick in his hand which at every step he set vigorously into
the soft earth. Though not tall, he gave the impression of being
enormously strong. He was thick, solid, firm—thick through the body,
thick through the thighs; and his shoulders—what shoulders they
were!—round like a maple log; and his great head with its thatching
of coarse iron-gray hair, though thrust slightly forward, seemed set
immovably upon them.</p>
<p>He presented such a forbidding appearance that I was of two minds about
addressing him. Dour he was indeed! Nor shall I ever forget how he looked
when I spoke to him. He stopped short there in the road. On his big square
nose he wore a pair of curious spring-bowed glasses with black rims. For a
moment he looked at me through these glasses, raising his chin a little,
and then, deliberately wrinkling his nose, they fell off and dangled at
the length of the faded cord by which they were hung. There was something
almost uncanny about this peculiar habit of his and of the way in which,
afterward, he looked at me from under his bushy gray brows. This was in
truth the very man of the neighbourhood portrait.</p>
<p>“I am a new settler here,” I said, “and I've been interested in looking at
your wonderful hedge.”</p>
<p>The old man's eyes rested upon me a moment with a mingled look of
suspicion and hostility.</p>
<p>“So you've heard o' me,” he said in a high-pitched voice, “and you've
heard o' my hedge.”</p>
<p>Again he paused and looked me over. “Well,” he said, with an indescribably
harsh, cackling laugh, “I warrant you've heard nothing good o' me down
there. I'm a skinflint, ain't I? I'm a hard citizen, ain't I? I grind the
faces o' the poor, don't I?”</p>
<p>At first his words were marked by a sort of bitter humour, but as he
continued to speak his voice rose higher and higher until it was
positively menacing.</p>
<p>There were just two things I could do—haul down the flag and retreat
ingloriously, or face the music. With a sudden sense of rising spirits—for
such things do not often happen to a man in a quiet country road—I
paused a moment, looking him square in the eye.</p>
<p>“Yes,” I said, with great deliberation, “you've given me just about the
neighborhood picture of yourself as I have had it. They do say you are a
skinflint, yes, and a hard man. They say that you are rich and friendless;
they say that while you are a just man, you do not know mercy. These are
terrible things to say of any man if they are true.”</p>
<p>I paused. The old man looked for a moment as though he were going to
strike me with his stick, but he neither stirred nor spoke. It was
evidently a wholly new experience for him.</p>
<p>“Yes,” I said, “you are not popular in this community, but what do you
suppose I care about that? I'm interested in your hedge. What I'm curious
to know—and I might as well tell you frankly—is how such a man
as you are reputed to be could grow such an extraordinary hedge. You must
have been at it a very long time.”</p>
<p>I was surprised at the effect of my words. The old man turned partly aside
and looked for a moment along the proud and flaunting embattlements of the
green marvel before us. Then he said in a moderate voice:</p>
<p>“It's a putty good hedge, a putty good hedge.”</p>
<p>“I've got him,” I thought exultantly, “I've got him!”</p>
<p>“How long ago did you start it?” I pursued my advantage eagerly.</p>
<p>“Thirty-two years come spring,” said he.</p>
<p>“Thirty-two years!” I repeated; “you've been at it a long time.”</p>
<p>With that I plied him with questions in the liveliest manner, and in five
minutes I had the gruff old fellow stumping along at my side and pointing
out the various notable-features of his wonderful creation. His suppressed
excitement was quite wonderful to see. He would point his hickory stick
with a poking motion, and, when he looked up, instead of throwing back his
big, rough head, he bent at the hips, thus imparting an impression of
astonishing solidity.</p>
<p>“It took me all o' ten years to get that bell right,” he said, and, “Take
a look at that arch: now what is your opinion o' that?”</p>
<p>Once, in the midst of our conversation, he checked himself abruptly and
looked around at me with a sudden dark expression of suspicion. I saw
exactly what lay in his mind, but I continued my questioning as though I
perceived no change in him. It was only momentary, however, and he was
soon as much interested as before. He talked as though he had not had such
an opportunity before in years—and I doubt whether he had. It was
plain to see that if any one ever loved anything in this world, Old Toombs
loved that hedge of his. Think of it, indeed! He had lived with it,
nurtured it, clipped it, groomed it—for thirty-two years.</p>
<p>So we walked down the sloping field within the hedge, and it seemed as
though one of the deep mysteries of human nature was opening there before
me. What strange things men set their hearts upon!</p>
<p>Thus, presently, we came nearly to the farther end of the hedge. Here the
old man stopped and turned around, facing me.</p>
<p>“Do you see that valley?” he asked. “Do you see that slopin' valley up
through the meadow?”</p>
<p>His voice rose suddenly to a sort of high-pitched violence.</p>
<p>“That' passel o' hounds up there,” he said, “want to build a road down my
valley.”</p>
<p>He drew his breath fiercely.</p>
<p>“They want to build a road through my land. They want to ruin my farm—they
want to cut down my hedge. I'll fight 'em. I'll fight 'em. I'll show 'em
yet!”</p>
<p>It was appalling. His face grew purple, his eyes narrowed to pin points
and grew red and angry—like the eyes of an infuriated boar. His
hands shook. Suddenly he turned upon me, poising his stick in his hand,
and said violently.</p>
<p>“And who are you? Who are you? Are you one of these surveyor fellows?”</p>
<p>“My name,” I answered as quietly as I could, “is Grayson. I live on the
old Mather farm. I am not in the least interested in any of your road
troubles.”</p>
<p>He looked at me a moment more, and then seemed to shake himself or
shudder, his eyes dropped away and he began walking toward his house. He
had taken only a few steps, however, before he turned, and, without
looking at me, asked if I would like to see the tools he used for trimming
his hedge. When I hesitated, for I was decidedly uncomfortable, he came up
to me and laid his hand awkwardly on my arm.</p>
<p>“You'll see something, I warrant, you never see before.”</p>
<p>It was so evident that he regretted his outbreak that I followed him, and
he showed me an odd double ladder set on low wheels which he said he used
in trimming the higher parts of his hedge.</p>
<p>“It's my own invention,” he said with pride.</p>
<p>“And that”—he pointed as we came out of the tool shed—“is my
house—a good house. I planned it all myself. I never needed to take
lessons of any carpenter I ever see. And there's my barns. What do you
think o' my barns? Ever see any bigger ones? They ain't any bigger in this
country than Old Toombs's barns. They don't like Old Toombs, but they
ain't any of one of 'em can ekal his barns!”</p>
<p>He followed me down to the roadside now quite loquacious. Even after I had
thanked him and started to go he called after me.</p>
<p>When I stopped he came forward hesitatingly—and I had the
impressions, suddenly, and for the first time that he was an old man. It
may have been the result of his sudden fierce explosion of anger, but his
hand shook, his face was pale, and he seemed somehow broken.</p>
<p>“You—you like my hedge?” he asked.</p>
<p>“It is certainly wonderful hedge,” I said. “I never have seen anything
like it?”</p>
<p>“The' AIN'T nothing like it,” he responded, quickly. “The' ain't nothing
like it anywhere.”</p>
<p>In the twilight as I passed onward I saw the lonely figure of the old man
moving with his hickory stick up the pathway to his lonely house. The poor
rich old man!</p>
<p>“He thinks he can live wholly to himself,” I said aloud.</p>
<p>I thought, as I tramped homeward, of our friendly and kindly community, of
how we often come together of an evening with skylarking and laughter, of
how we weep with one another, of how we join in making better roads and
better schools, and building up the Scotch Preacher's friendly little
church. And in all these things Old Toombs has never had a part. He is not
even missed.</p>
<p>As a matter of fact, I reflected, and this is a strange, deep thing, no
man is in reality more dependent upon the community which he despises and
holds at arm's length than this same Old Nathan Toombs. Everything he has,
everything he does, gives evidence of it. And I don't mean this in any
mere material sense, though of course his wealth and his farm would mean
no more than the stones in his hills to him if he did not have us here
around him. Without our work, our buying, our selling, our governing, his
dollars would be dust. But we are still more necessary to him in other
ways: the unfriendly man is usually the one who demands most from his
neighbours. Thus, if he have not people's love or confidence, then he will
smite them until they fear him, or admire him, or hate him. Oh, no man,
however may try, can hold himself aloof!</p>
<p>I came home deeply stirred from my visit with Old Toombs and lost no time
in making further inquiries. I learned, speedily, that there was indeed
something in the old man's dread of a road being built through his farm.
The case was already in the courts. His farm was a very old one and
extensive, and of recent years a large settlement of small farmers had
been developing the rougher lands in the upper part of the townships
called the Swan Hill district. Their only way to reach the railroad was by
a rocky, winding road among the 'hills,' while their outlet was down a
gently sloping valley through Old Toombs's farm. They were now so numerous
and politically important that they had stirred up the town authorities. A
proposition had been made to Old Toombs for a right-of-way; they argued
with him that it was a good thing for the whole country, that it would
enhance the values of his own upper lands, and that they would pay him far
more for a right-of-way than the land was actually worth, but he had
spurned them—I can imagine with what vehemence.</p>
<p>“Let 'em drive round,” he said. “Didn't they know what they'd have to do
when they settled up there? What a passel o' curs! They can keep off o' my
land, or I'll have the law on 'em.”</p>
<p>And thus the matter came to the courts with the town attempting to condemn
the land for a road through Old Toombs's farm.</p>
<p>“What can we do?” asked the Scotch Preacher, who was deeply distressed by
the bitterness of feeling displayed. “There is no getting to the man. He
will listen to no one.”</p>
<p>At one time I thought of going over and talking with Old Toombs myself,
for it seemed that I had been able to get nearer to him than any one had
in a long time. But I dreaded it. I kept dallying—for what, indeed,
could I have said to him? If he had been suspicious of me before, how much
more hostile he might be when I expressed an interest in his difficulties.
As to reaching the Swan Hill settlers, they were now aroused to an
implacable state of bitterness; and they had the people of the whole
community with them, for no one liked Old Toombs.</p>
<p>Thus while I hesitated time passed and my next meeting with Old Toombs,
instead of being premeditated, came about quite unexpectedly. I was
walking in the town road late one afternoon when I heard a wagon rattling
behind me, and then, quite suddenly, a shouted, “Whoa.”</p>
<p>Looking around, I saw Old Toombs, his great solid figure mounted high on
the wagon seat, the reins held fast in the fingers of one hand. I was
struck by the strange expression in his face—a sort of grim
exaltation. As I stepped aside he burst out in a loud, shrill, cackling
laugh:</p>
<p>“He-he-he—he-he-he—”</p>
<p>I was too astonished to speak at once. Ordinarily when I meet any one in
the town road it is in my heart to cry out to him,</p>
<p>“Good morning, friend,” or, “How are you, brother?” but I had no such
prompting that day.</p>
<p>“Git in, Grayson,” he said; “git in, git in.”</p>
<p>I climbed up beside him, and he slapped me on the knee with another burst
of shrill laughter.</p>
<p>“They thought they had the old man,” he said, starting up his horses.
“They thought there weren't no law left in Israel. I showed 'em.”</p>
<p>I cannot convey the bitter triumphancy of his voice.</p>
<p>“You mean the road case?” I asked.</p>
<p>“Road case!” he exploded, “they wan't no road case; they didn't have no
road case. I beat 'em. I says to 'em, 'What right hev any o' you on my
property? Go round with you,' I says. Oh, I beat 'em. If they'd had their
way, they'd 'a' cut through my hedge—the hounds!”</p>
<p>When he set me down at my door, I had said hardly a word. There seemed
nothing that could be said. I remember I stood for some time watching the
old man as he rode away, his wagon jolting in the country road, his stout
figure perched firmly in the seat. I went in with a sense of heaviness at
the heart.</p>
<p>“Harriet,” I said, “there are some things in this world beyond human
remedy.”</p>
<p>Two evenings later I was surprised to see the Scotch Preacher drive up to
my gate and hastily tie his horse.</p>
<p>“David,” said he, “there's bad business afoot. A lot of the young fellows
in Swan Hill are planning a raid on Old Toombs's hedge. They are coming
down to-night.”</p>
<p>I got my hat and jumped in with him. We drove up the hilly road and out
around Old Toombs's farm and thus came, near to the settlement. I had no
conception of the bitterness that the lawsuit had engendered.</p>
<p>“Where once you start men hating one another,” said the Scotch Preacher,
“there's utterly no end of it.”</p>
<p>I have seen our Scotch Preacher in many difficult places, but never have I
seen him rise to greater heights than he did that night. It is not in his
preaching that Doctor McAlway excels, but what a power he is among men! He
was like some stern old giant, standing there and holding up the portals
of civilization. I saw men melt under his words like wax; I saw wild young
fellows subdued into quietude; I saw unwise old men set to thinking.</p>
<p>“Man, man,” he'd say, lapsing in his earnestness into the broad Scotch
accent of his youth, “you canna' mean plunder, and destruction, and riot!
You canna! Not in this neighbourhood!”</p>
<p>“What about Old Toombs?” shouted one of the boys.</p>
<p>I never shall forget how Doctor McAlway drew himself up nor the majesty
that looked from his eye.</p>
<p>“Old Toombs!” he said in a voice that thrilled one to the bone, “Old
Toombs! Have you no faith, that you stand in the place of Almighty God and
measure punishments?”</p>
<p>Before we left it was past midnight and we drove home, almost silent, in
the darkness.</p>
<p>“Doctor McAlway,” I said, “if Old Toombs could know the history of this
night it might change his point of view.”</p>
<p>“I doot it,” said the Scotch Preacher. “I doot it.”</p>
<p>The night passed serenely; the morning saw Old Toombs's hedge standing as
gorgeous as ever. The community had again stepped aside and let Old Toombs
have his way: they had let him alone, with all his great barns, his wide
acres and his wonderful hedge. He probably never even knew what had
threatened him that night, nor how the forces of religion, of social
order, of neighbourliness in the community which he despised had, after
all, held him safe. There is a supreme faith among common people—it
is, indeed, the very taproot of democracy—that although the
unfriendly one may persist long in his power and arrogance, there is a
moving Force which commands events.</p>
<p>I suppose if I were writing a mere story I should tell how Old Toombs was
miraculously softened at the age of sixty-eight years, and came into new
relationships with his neighbours, or else I should relate how the mills
of God, grinding slowly, had crushed the recalcitrant human atom into
dust.</p>
<p>Either of these results conceivably might have happened—all things
are possible—and being ingeniously related would somehow have
answered a need in the human soul that the logic of events be constantly
and conclusively demonstrated in the lives of individual men and women.</p>
<p>But as a matter of fact, neither of these things did happen in this quiet
community of ours. There exists, assuredly, a logic of events, oh, a
terrible, irresistible logic of events, but it is careless of the span of
any one man's life. We would like to have each man enjoy the sweets of his
own virtues and suffer the lash of his own misdeeds—but it rarely so
happens in life. No, it is the community which lives or dies, is
regenerated or marred by the deeds of men.</p>
<p>So Old Toombs continued to live. So he continued to buy more land, raise
more cattle, collect more interest, and the wonderful hedge continued to
flaunt its marvels still more notably upon the country road. To what end?
Who knows? Who knows?</p>
<p>I saw him afterward from time to time, tried to maintain some sort of
friendly relations with him; but it seemed as the years passed that he
grew ever lonelier and more bitter, and not only more friendless, but
seemingly more incapable of friendliness. In times past I have seen what
men call tragedies—I saw once a perfect young man die in his
strength—but it seems to me I never knew anything more tragic than
the life and death of Old Toombs. If it cannot be said of a man when he
dies that either his nation, his state, his neighborhood, his family, or
at least his wife or child, is better for his having lived, what CAN be
said for him?</p>
<p>Old Toombs is dead. Like Jehoram, King of Judah, of whom it is terribly
said in the Book of Chronicles, “he departed without being desired.”</p>
<p>Of this story of Nathan Toombs we talked much and long there in the
Ransome home. I was with them, as I said, about two days—kept inside
most of the time by a driving spring rain which filled the valley with a
pale gray mist and turned all the country roads into running streams. One
morning, the weather having cleared, I swung my bag to my shoulder, and
with much warmth of parting I set my face again to the free road and the
open country.</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER IX. THE MAN POSSESSED </h2>
<p>I suppose I was predestined (and likewise foreordained) to reach the city
sooner or later. My fate in that respect was settled for me when I placed
my trust in the vagrant road. I thought for a time that I was more than a
match for the Road, but I soon learned that the Road was more than a match
for me. Sly? There's no name for it. Alluring, lovable, mysterious—as
the heart of a woman. Many a time I followed the Road where it led through
innocent meadows or climbed leisurely hill slopes only to find that it had
crept around slyly and led me before I knew it into the back door of some
busy town.</p>
<p>Mostly in this country the towns squat low in the valleys, they lie in
wait by the rivers, and often I scarcely know of their presence until I am
so close upon them that I can smell the breath of their heated nostrils
and hear their low growlings and grumblings.</p>
<p>My fear of these lesser towns has never been profound. I have even been
bold enough, when I came across one of them, to hasten straight through as
though assured that Cerberus was securely chained; but I found, after a
time, what I might indeed have guessed, that the Road, also led
irresistibly to the lair of the Old Monster himself, the He-one of the
species, where he lies upon the plain, lolling under his soiled gray
blanket of smoke.</p>
<p>It is wonderful to be safe at home again, to watch the tender, reddish
brown shoots of the Virginia creeper reaching in at my study window, to
see the green of my own quiet fields, to hear the peaceful clucking of the
hens in the sunny dooryard—and Harriet humming at her work in the
kitchen.</p>
<p>When I left the Ransomes that fine spring morning, I had not the slightest
presentiment of what the world held in store for me. After being a
prisoner of the weather for so long, I took to the Road with fresh joy.
All the fields were of a misty greenness and there were pools still
shining in the road, but the air was deliciously clear, clean, and soft. I
came through the hill country for three or four miles, even running down
some of the steeper places for the very joy the motion gave me, the feel
of the air on my face.</p>
<p>Thus I came finally to the Great Road, and stood for a moment looking
first this way, then that.</p>
<p>“Where now?” I asked aloud.</p>
<p>With an amusing sense of the possibilities that lay open before me, I
closed my eyes, turned slowly around several times and then stopped. When
I opened my eyes I was facing nearly southward: and that way I set out,
not knowing in the least what Fortune had presided at that turning. If I
had gone the other way—</p>
<p>I walked vigorously for two or three hours, meeting or passing many people
upon the busy road. Automobiles there were in plenty, and loaded wagons,
and jolly families off for town, and a herdsman driving sheep, and small
boys on their way to school with their dinner pails, and a gypsy wagon
with lean, led horses following behind, and even a Jewish peddler with a
crinkly black beard, whom I was on the very point of stopping.</p>
<p>“I should like sometime to know a Jew,” I said to myself.</p>
<p>As I travelled, feeling like one who possesses hidden riches, I came quite
without warning upon the beginning of my great adventure. I had been
looking for a certain thing all the morning, first on one side of the
road, then the other, and finally I was rewarded. There it was, nailed
high upon tree, the curious, familiar sign:</p>
<p>[ REST ]</p>
<p>I stopped instantly. It seemed like an old friend.</p>
<p>“Well,” said I. “I'm not at all tired, but I want to be agreeable.”</p>
<p>With that I sat down on a convenient stone, took off my hat, wiped my
forehead, and looked about me with satisfaction, for it was a pleasant
country.</p>
<p>I had not been sitting there above two minutes when my eyes fell upon one
of the oddest specimens of humanity (I thought then) that ever I saw. He
had been standing near the roadside, just under the tree upon which I had
seen the sign, “Rest.” My heart dotted and carried one.</p>
<p>“The sign man himself!” I exclaimed.</p>
<p>I arose instantly and walked down the road toward him.</p>
<p>“A man has only to stop anywhere here,” I said exultantly, “and things
happen.”</p>
<p>The stranger's appearance was indeed extraordinary. He seemed at first
glimpse to be about twice as large around the hips as he was at the
shoulders, but this I soon discovered to be due to no natural avoir-dupois
but to the prodigious number of soiled newspapers and magazines with which
the low-hanging pockets of his overcoat were stuffed. For he was still
wearing an old shabby overcoat though the weather was warm and bright—and
on his head was an odd and outlandish hat. It was of fur, flat at the top,
flat as a pie tin, with the moth-eaten earlaps turned up at the sides and
looking exactly like small furry ears. These, with the round steel
spectacles which he wore—the only distinctive feature of his
countenance—gave him an indescribably droll appearance.</p>
<p>“A fox!” I thought.</p>
<p>Then I looked at him more closely.</p>
<p>“No,” said I, “an owl, an owl!”</p>
<p>The stranger stepped out into the road and evidently awaited my approach.
My first vivid impression of his face—I remember it afterward
shining with a strange inward illumination—was not favourable. It
was a deep-lined, scarred, worn-looking face, insignificant if not indeed
ugly in its features, and yet, even at the first glance, revealing
something inexplainable—incalculable—</p>
<p>“Good day, friend,” I said heartily.</p>
<p>Without replying to my greeting, he asked:</p>
<p>“Is this the road to Kilburn?”—with a faint flavour of foreignness
in his words.</p>
<p>“I think it is,” I replied, and I noticed as he lifted his hand to thank
me that one finger was missing and that the hand itself was cruelly
twisted and scarred.</p>
<p>The stranger instantly set off up the Road without giving me much more
attention than he would have given any other signpost. I stood a moment
looking after him—the wings of his overcoat beating about his legs
and the small furry ears on his cap wagging gently.</p>
<p>“There,” said I aloud, “is a man who is actually going somewhere.”</p>
<p>So many men in this world are going nowhere in particular that when one
comes along—even though he be amusing and insignificant—who is
really (and passionately) going somewhere, what a stir he communicates to
a dull world! We catch sparks of electricity from the very friction of his
passage.</p>
<p>It was so with this odd stranger. Though at one moment I could not help
smiling at him, at the next I was following him.</p>
<p>“It may be,” said I to myself, “that this is really the sign man!”</p>
<p>I felt like Captain Kidd under full sail to capture a treasure ship; and
as I approached I was much agitated as to the best method of grappling and
boarding. I finally decided, being a lover of bold methods, to let go my
largest gun first—for moral effect.</p>
<p>“So,” said I, as I ran alongside, “you are the man who puts up the signs.”</p>
<p>He stopped and looked at me.</p>
<p>“What signs?”</p>
<p>“Why the sign 'Rest' along this road.”</p>
<p>He paused for some seconds with a perplexed expression on his face.</p>
<p>“Then you are not the sign man?” I said.</p>
<p>“No,” he replied, “I ain't any sign man.”</p>
<p>I was not a little disappointed, but having made my attack, I determined
to see if there was any treasure aboard—which, I suppose, should be
the procedure of any well-regulated pirate.</p>
<p>“I'm going this way myself,” I said, “and if you have no objections—”</p>
<p>He stood looking at me curiously, indeed suspiciously, through his round
spectacles.</p>
<p>“Have you got the passport?” he asked finally.</p>
<p>“The passport!” I exclaimed, mystified in my turn.</p>
<p>“Yes,” said he, “the passport. Let me see your hand.”</p>
<p>When I held out my hand he looked at it closely for a moment, and then
took it with a quick warm pressure in one of his, and gave it a little
shake, in a way not quite American.</p>
<p>“You are one of us,” said he, “you work.”</p>
<p>I thought at first that it was a bit of pleasantry, and I was about to
return it in kind when I saw plainly in his face a look of solemn intent.</p>
<p>“So,” he said, “we shall travel like comrades.”</p>
<p>He thrust his scarred hand through my arm, and we walked up the road side
by side, his bulging pockets beating first against his legs and then
against mine, quite impartially.</p>
<p>“I think,” said the stranger, “that we shall be arrested at Kilburn.”</p>
<p>“We shall!” I exclaimed with something, I admit, of a shock.</p>
<p>“Yes,” he said, “but it is all in the day's work.”</p>
<p>“How is that?”</p>
<p>He stopped in the road and faced me. Throwing back his overcoat he pointed
to a small red button on his coat lapel.</p>
<p>“They don't want me in Kilburn,” said he, “the mill men are strikin'
there, and the bosses have got armed men on every corner. Oh, the
capitalists are watchin' for me, all right.”</p>
<p>I cannot convey the strange excitement I felt. It seemed as though these
words suddenly opened a whole new world around me—a world I had
heard about for years, but never entered. And the tone in which he had
used the word “capitalist!” I had almost to glance around to make sure
that there were no ravening capitalists hiding behind the trees.</p>
<p>“So you are a Socialist,” I said.</p>
<p>“Yes,” he answered. “I'm one of those dangerous persons.”</p>
<p>First and last I have read much of Socialism, and thought about it, too,
from the quiet angle of my farm among the hills, but this was the first
time I had ever had a live Socialist on my arm. I could not have been more
surprised if the stranger had said, “Yes, I am Theodore Roosevelt.”</p>
<p>One of the discoveries we keep making all our life long (provided we
remain humble) is the humorous discovery of the ordinariness of the
extraordinary. Here was this disrupter of society, this man of the red
flag—here he was with his mild spectacled eyes and his furry ears
wagging as he walked. It was unbelievable!—and the sun shining on
him quite as impartially as it shone on me.</p>
<p>Coming at last to a pleasant bit of woodland, where a stream ran under the
roadway, I said:</p>
<p>“Stranger, let's sit down and have a bite of luncheon.”</p>
<p>He began to expostulate, said he was expected in Kilburn.</p>
<p>“Oh, I've plenty for two,” I said, “and I can say, at least, that I am a
firm believer in cooperation.”</p>
<p>Without more urging he followed me into the woods, where we sat down
comfortably under a tree.</p>
<p>Now, when I take a fine thick sandwich out of my bag, I always feel like
making it a polite bow, and before I bite into a big brown doughnut, I am
tempted to say, “By your leave, madam,” and as for MINCE PIE——-Beau
Brummel himself could not outdo me in respectful consideration. But Bill
Hahn neither saw, nor smelled, nor, I think, tasted Mrs. Ransome's
cookery. As soon as we sat down he began talking. From time to time he
would reach out for another sandwich or doughnut or pickle (without
knowing in the least which he was getting), and when that was gone some
reflex impulse caused him to reach out for some more. When the last crumb
of our lunch had disappeared Bill Hahn still reached out. His hand groped
absently about, and coming in contact with no more doughnuts or pickles he
withdrew it—and did not know, I think, that the meal was finished.
(Confidentially, I have speculated on what might have happened if the
supply had been unlimited!)</p>
<p>But that was Bill Hahn. Once started on his talk, he never thought of food
or clothing or shelter; but his eyes glowed, his face lighted up with a
strange effulgence, and he quite lost himself upon the tide of his own
oratory. I saw him afterward by a flare-light at the centre of a great
crowd of men and women—but that is getting ahead of my story.</p>
<p>His talk bristled with such words as “capitalism,” “proletariat,”
“class-consciousness”—and he spoke with fluency of “economic
determinism” and “syndicalism.” It was quite wonderful! And from time to
time, he would bring in a smashing quotation from Aristotle, Napoleon,
Karl Marx, or Eugene V. Debs, giving them all equal value, and he cited
statistics!—oh, marvellous statistics, that never were on sea or
land.</p>
<p>Once he was so swept away by his own eloquence that he sprang to his feet
and, raising one hand high above his head (quite unconscious that he was
holding up a dill pickle), he worked through one of his most thrilling
periods.</p>
<p>Yes, I laughed, and yet there was so brave a simplicity about this odd,
absurd little man that what I laughed at was only his outward appearance
(and that he himself had no care for), and all the time I felt a growing
respect and admiration for him. He was not only sincere, but he was
genuinely simple—a much higher virtue, as Fenelon says. For while
sincere people do not aim at appearing anything but what they are, they
are always in fear of passing for something they are not. They are forever
thinking about themselves, weighing all their words and thoughts and
dwelling upon what they have done, in the fear of having done too much or
too little, whereas simplicity, as Fenelon says, is an uprightness of soul
which has ceased wholly to dwell upon itself or its actions. Thus there
are plenty of sincere folk in the world but few who are simple.</p>
<p>Well, the longer he talked, the less interested I was in what he said and
the more fascinated I became in what he was. I felt a wistful interest in
him: and I wanted to know what way he took to purge himself of himself. I
think if I had been in that group nineteen hundred years ago, which
surrounded the beggar who was born blind, but whose anointed eyes now
looked out upon glories of the world, I should have been among the
questioners:</p>
<p>“What did he to thee? How opened he thine eyes?”</p>
<p>I tried ineffectually several times to break the swift current of his
oratory and finally succeeded (when he paused a moment to finish off a bit
of pie crust).</p>
<p>“You must have seen some hard experiences in your life,” I said.</p>
<p>“That I have,” responded Bill Hahn, “the capitalistic system—”</p>
<p>“Did you ever work in the mills yourself?” I interrupted hastily.</p>
<p>“Boy and man,” said Bill Hahn, “I worked in that hell for thirty-two years—The
class-conscious proletariat have only to exert themselves—”</p>
<p>“And your wife, did she work too—and your sons and daughters?”</p>
<p>A spasm of pain crossed his face.</p>
<p>“My daughter?” he said. “They killed her in the mills.”</p>
<p>It was appalling—the dead level of the tone in which he uttered
those words—the monotone of an emotion long ago burned out, and yet
leaving frightful scars.</p>
<p>“My friend!” I exclaimed, and I could not help laying my hand on his arm.</p>
<p>I had the feeling I often have with troubled children—an
indescribable pity that they have had to pass through the valley of the
shadow, and I not there to take them by the hand.</p>
<p>“And was this—your daughter—what brought you to your present
belief?”</p>
<p>“No,” said he, “oh, no. I was a Socialist, as you might say, from youth
up. That is, I called myself a Socialist, but, comrade, I've learned this
here truth: that it ain't of so much importance that you possess a belief,
as that the belief possess you. Do you understand?”</p>
<p>“I think,” said I, “that I understand.”</p>
<p>Well, he told me his story, mostly in a curious, dull, detached way—as
though he were speaking of some third person in whom he felt only a
brotherly interest, but from time to time some incident or observation
would flame up out of the narrative, like the opening of the door of a
molten pit—so that the glare hurt one!—and then the story
would die back again into quiet narrative.</p>
<p>Like most working people he had never lived in the twentieth century at
all. He was still in the feudal age, and his whole life had been a blind
and ceaseless struggle for the bare necessaries of life, broken from time
to time by fierce irregular wars called strikes. He had never known
anything of a real self-governing commonwealth, and such progress as he
and his kind had made was never the result of their citizenship, of their
powers as voters, but grew out of the explosive and ragged upheavals, of
their own half-organized societies and unions.</p>
<p>It was against the “black people” he said, that he was first on strike
back in the early nineties. He told me all about it, how he had been
working in the mills pretty comfortably—he was young and strong
then; with a fine growing family and a small home of his own.</p>
<p>“It was as pretty a place as you would want to see,” he said; “we grew
cabbages and onions and turnips—everything grew fine!—in the
garden behind the house.”</p>
<p>And then the “black people” began to come in, little by little at first,
and then by the carload. By the “black people” he meant the people from
Southern Europe, he called them “hordes”—“hordes and hordes of 'em”—Italians
mostly, and they began getting into the mills and underbidding for the
jobs, so that wages slowly went down and at the same time the machines
were speeded up. It seems that many of these “black people” were single
men or vigorous young married people with only themselves to support,
while the old American workers were men with families and little homes to
pay for, and plenty of old grandfathers and mothers, to say nothing of
babies, depending upon them.</p>
<p>“There wasn't a living for a decent family left,” he said.</p>
<p>So they struck—and he told me in his dull monotone of the long
bitterness of that strike, the empty cupboards, the approach of winter
with no coal for the stoves and no warm clothing for the children. He told
me that many of the old workers began to leave the town (some bound for
the larger cities, some for the Far West).</p>
<p>“But,” said he with a sudden outburst of emotion, “I couldn't leave. I had
the woman and the children!”</p>
<p>And presently the strike collapsed, and the workers rushed helter skelter
back to the mills to get their old jobs. “Begging like whipped dogs,” he
said bitterly.</p>
<p>Many of them found their places taken by the eager “black people,” and
many had to go to work at lower wages in poorer places—punished for
the fight they had made.</p>
<p>But he got along somehow, he said—“the woman was a good manager”—until
one day he had the misfortune to get his hand caught in the machinery. It
was a place which should have been protected with guards, but was not. He
was laid up for several weeks, and the company, claiming that the accident
was due to his own stupidity and carelessness, refused even to pay his
wages while he was idle. Well, the family had to live somehow, and the
woman and the daughter—“she was a little thing,” he said, “and
frail”—the woman and the daughter went into the mill. But even with
this new source of income they began to fall behind. Money which should
have gone toward making the last payments on their home (already long
delayed by the strike) had now to go to the doctor and the grocer.</p>
<p>“We had to live,” said Bill Hahn.</p>
<p>Again and again he used this same phrase, “We had to live!” as a sort of
bedrock explanation for all the woes of life.</p>
<p>After a time, with one finger gone and a frightfully scarred hand—he
held it up for me to see—he went back into the mill.</p>
<p>“But it kept getting worse and worse,” said he, “and finally I couldn't
stand it any longer.”</p>
<p>He and a group of friends got together secretly and tried to organize a
union, tried to get the workmen together to improve their own condition;
but in some way (“they had spies everywhere,” he said) the manager learned
of the attempt and one morning when he reported at the mill he was handed
a slip asking him to call for his wages, that his help was no longer
required.</p>
<p>“I'd been with that one company for twenty years and four months,” he said
bitterly, “I'd helped in my small way to build it up, make it a big
concern payin' 28 per cent. dividends every year; I'd given part of my
right hand in doin' it—and they threw me out like an old shoe.”</p>
<p>He said he would have pulled up and gone away, but he still had the little
home and the garden, and his wife and daughter were still at work, so he
hung on grimly, trying to get some other job. “But what good is a man for
any other sort of work,” he said, “when he has been trained to the mills
for thirty-two years!”</p>
<p>It was not very long after that when the “great strike” began—indeed,
it grew out of the organization which he had tried to launched—and
Bill Hahn threw himself into it with all his strength. He was one of the
leaders. I shall not attempt to repeat here his description of the bitter
struggle, the coming of the soldiery, the street riots, the long lists of
arrests (“some,” said he, “got into jail on purpose, so that they could at
least have enough to eat!”), the late meetings of strikers, the wild
turmoil and excitement.</p>
<p>Of all this he told me, and then he stopped suddenly, and after a long
pause he said in a low voice:</p>
<p>“Comrade, did ye ever see your wife and your sickly daughter and your kids
sufferin' for bread to eat?”</p>
<p>He paused again with a hard, dry sob in his voice.</p>
<p>“Did ye ever see that?”</p>
<p>“No,” said I, very humbly, “I have never seen anything like that.”</p>
<p>He turned on me suddenly, and I shall never forget the look on his face,
nor the blaze in his eyes:</p>
<p>“Then what can you know about working-men?”</p>
<p>What could I answer?</p>
<p>A moment passed and then he said, as if a little remorseful at having
turned thus on me:</p>
<p>“Comrade, I tell you, the iron entered my soul—them days.”</p>
<p>It seems that the leaders of the strike were mostly old employees like
Bill Hahn, and the company had conceived the idea that if these men could
be eliminated the organization would collapse, and the strikers be forced
back to work. One day Bill Hahn found that proceedings had been started to
turn him out of his home, upon which he had not been able to keep up his
payments, and at the same time the merchant, of whom he had been a
respected customer for years, refused to give him any further credit.</p>
<p>“But we lived somehow,” he said, “we lived and we fought.”</p>
<p>It was then that he began to see clearly what it all meant. He said he
made a great discovery: that the “black people” against whom they had
struck in 1894 were not to blame!</p>
<p>“I tell you,” said he, “we found when we got started that them black
people—we used to call 'em dagoes—were just workin' people
like us—and in hell with us. They were good soldiers, them
Eyetalians and Poles and Syrians, they fought with us to the end.”</p>
<p>I shall not soon forget the intensely dramatic but perfectly simple way in
which he told me how he came, as he said, “to see the true light.” Holding
up his maimed right hand (that trembled a little), he pointed one finger
upward.</p>
<p>“I seen the big hand in the sky,” he said, “I seen it as clear as
daylight.”</p>
<p>He said he saw at last what Socialism meant. One day he went home from a
strikers' meeting—one of the last, for the men were worn out with
their long struggle. It was a bitter cold day, and he was completely
discouraged. When he reached his own street he saw a pile of household
goods on the sidewalk in front of his home. He saw his wife there wringing
her hands and crying. He said he could not take a step further, but sat
down on a neighbour's porch and looked and looked. “It was curious,” he
said, “but the only thing I could see or think about was our old family
clock which they had stuck on top of the pile, half tipped over. It looked
odd and I wanted to set it up straight. It was the clock we bought when we
were married, and we'd had it about twenty years on the mantel in the
livin'-room. It was a good clock,” he said.</p>
<p>He paused and then smiled a little.</p>
<p>“I never have figured it out why I should have been able to think of
nothing but that clock,” he said, “but so it was.”</p>
<p>When he got home, he found his frail daughter just coming out of the empty
house, “coughing as though she was dyin'.” Something, he said, seemed to
stop inside him. Those were his words: “Something seemed to stop inside 'o
me.”</p>
<p>He turned away without saying a word, walked back to strike headquarters,
borrowed a revolver from a friend, and started out along the main road
which led into the better part of the town.</p>
<p>“Did you ever hear o' Robert Winter?” he asked.</p>
<p>“No,” said I.</p>
<p>“Well, Robert Winter was the biggest gun of 'em all. He owned the mills
there and the largest store and the newspaper—he pretty nearly owned
the town.”</p>
<p>He told me much more about Robert Winter which betrayed still a curious
sort of feudal admiration for him, and for his great place and power; but
I need not dwell on it here. He told me how he climbed through a hemlock
hedge (for the stone gateway was guarded) and walked through the snow
toward the great house.</p>
<p>“An' all the time I seemed to be seein' my daughter Margy right there
before my eyes coughing as though she was dyin'.”</p>
<p>It was just nightfall and all the windows were alight. He crept up to a
clump of bushes under a window and waited there a moment while he drew out
and cocked his revolver. Then he slowly reached upward until his head
cleared the sill and he could look into the room. “A big, warm room,” he
described it.</p>
<p>“Comrade,” said he, “I had murder in my heart that night.”</p>
<p>So he stood there looking in with the revolver ready cocked in his hand.</p>
<p>“And what do you think I seen there?” he asked.</p>
<p>“I cannot guess,” I said.</p>
<p>“Well,” said Bill Hahn, “I seen the great Robert Winter that we had been
fighting for five long months—and he was down on his hands and knees
on the carpet—he had his little daughter on his back—and he
was creepin' about with her—an' she was laughin'.”</p>
<p>Bill Hahn paused.</p>
<p>“I had a bead on him,” he said, “but I couldn't do it—I just
couldn't do it.”</p>
<p>He came away all weak and trembling and cold, and, “Comrade,” he said, “I
was cryin' like a baby, and didn't know why.”</p>
<p>The next day the strike collapsed and there was the familiar stampede for
work—but Bill Hahn did not go back. He knew it would be useless. A
week later his frail daughter died and was buried in the paupers field.</p>
<p>“She was as truly killed,” he said, “as though some one had fired a bullet
at her through a window.”</p>
<p>“And what did you do after that?” I asked, when he had paused for a long
time with his chin on his breast.</p>
<p>“Well,” said he, “I did a lot of thinking them days, and I says to myself:
'This thing is wrong, and I will go out and stop it—I will go out
and stop it.'”</p>
<p>As he uttered these words, I looked at him curiously—his absurd flat
fur hat with the moth-eaten ears, the old bulging overcoat, the round
spectacles, the scarred, insignificant face—he seemed somehow
transformed, a person elevated above himself, the tool of some vast
incalculable force.</p>
<p>I shall never forget the phrase he used to describe his own feelings when
he had reached this astonishing decision to go out and stop the wrongs of
the World. He said he “began to feel all clean inside.”</p>
<p>“I see it didn't matter what become o' me, and I began to feel all clean
inside.”</p>
<p>It seemed, he explained, as though something big and strong had got hold
of him, and he began to be happy.</p>
<p>“Since then,” he said in a low voice, “I've been happier than I ever was
before in all my life. I ain't got any family, nor any home—rightly
speakin'—nor any money, but, comrade, you see here in front of you,
a happy man.”</p>
<p>When he had finished his story we sat quiet for some time.</p>
<p>“Well,” said he, finally, “I must be goin'. The committee will wonder
what's become o' me.”</p>
<p>I followed him out to the road. There I put my hand on his shoulder, and
said:</p>
<p>“Bill Hahn, you are a better man than I am.”</p>
<p>He smiled, a beautiful smile, and we walked off together down the road.</p>
<p>I wish I had gone on with him at that time into the city, but somehow I
could not do it. I stopped near the top of the hill where one can see in
the distance that smoky huddle of buildings which is known as Kilburn, and
though he urged me, I turned aside and sat down in the edge of a meadow.
There were many things I wanted to think about, to get clear in my mind.</p>
<p>As I sat looking out toward that great city, I saw three men walking in
the white road. As I watched them, I could see them coming quickly,
eagerly. Presently they threw up their hands and evidently began to shout,
though I could not hear what they said. At that moment I saw my friend
Bill Hahn running in the road, his coat skirts flapping heavily about his
legs. When they met they almost fell into another's arms.</p>
<p>I suppose it was so that the early Christians, those who hid in the Roman
catacombs, were wont to greet one another.</p>
<p>So I sat thinking.</p>
<p>“A man,” I said to myself, “who can regard himself as a function, not an
end of creation, has arrived.”</p>
<p>After a time I got up and walked down the hill—some strange force
carrying me onward—and came thus to the city of Kilburn.</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER X. I AM CAUGHT UP INTO LIFE </h2>
<p>I can scarcely convey in written words the whirling emotions I felt when I
entered the city of Kilburn. Every sight, every sound, recalled vividly
and painfully the unhappy years I had once spent in another and greater
city. Every mingled odour of the streets—and there is nothing that
will so surely re-create (for me) the inner emotion of a time or place as
a remembered odour—brought back to me the incidents of that
immemorial existence.</p>
<p>For a time, I confess it frankly here, I felt afraid. More than once I
stopped short in the street where I was walking, and considered turning
about and making again for the open country. Some there may be who will
feel that I am exaggerating my sensations and impressions, but they do not
know of my memories of a former life, nor of how, many years ago, I left
the city quite defeated, glad indeed that I was escaping, and thinking (as
I have related elsewhere) that I should never again set foot upon a paved
street. These things went deep with me. Only the other day, when a friend
asked me how old I was, I responded instantly—our unpremeditated
words are usually truest—with the date of my arrival at this farm.</p>
<p>“Then you are only ten years old!” he exclaimed with a laugh, thinking I
was joking.</p>
<p>“Well,” I said, “I am counting only the years worth living.”</p>
<p>No; I existed, but I never really lived until I was reborn, that wonderful
summer here among these hills.</p>
<p>I said I felt afraid in the streets of Kilburn, but it was no physical
fear. Who could be safer in a city than the man who has not a penny in his
pockets? It was rather a strange, deep, spiritual shrinking. There seemed
something so irresistible about this life of the city, so utterly
overpowering. I had a sense of being smaller than I had previously felt
myself, that in some way my personality, all that was strong or
interesting or original about me, was being smudged over, rubbed out. In
the country I had in some measure come to command life, but here, it
seemed to me, life was commanding me and crushing me down. It is a
difficult thing to describe: I never felt just that way before.</p>
<p>I stopped at last on the main street of Kilburn in the very heart of the
town. I stopped because it seemed necessary to me, like a man in a flood,
to touch bottom, to get hold upon something immovable and stable. It was
just at that hour of evening when the stores and shops are pouring forth
their rivulets of humanity to join the vast flood of the streets. I
stepped quickly aside into a niche near the corner of an immense building
of brick and steel and glass, and there I stood with my back to the wall,
and I watched the restless, whirling, torrential tide of the streets. I
felt again, as I had not felt it before in years, the mysterious urge of
the city—the sense of unending, overpowering movement.</p>
<p>There was another strange, indeed uncanny, sensation that began to creep
over me as I stood there. Though hundreds upon hundreds of men and women
were passing me every minute, not one of them seemed to see me. Most of
them did not even look in my direction, and those who did turn their eyes
toward me see me to glance through me to the building behind. I wonder if
this is at all a common experience, or whether I was unduly sensitive that
day, unduly wrought up? I began to feel like one clad in garments of
invisibility. I could see, but was not seen. I could feel, but was not
felt. In the country there are few who would not stop to speak to me, or
at least appraise me with their eyes; but here I was a wraith, a ghost—not
a palpable human being at all. For a moment I felt unutterably lonely.</p>
<p>It is this way with me. When I have reached the very depths of any serious
situation or tragic emotion, something within me seems at last to stop—how
shall I describe it?—and I rebound suddenly and see the world, as it
were, double—see that my condition instead of being serious or
tragic is in reality amusing—and I usually came out of it with an
utterly absurd or whimsical idea. It was so upon this occasion. I think it
was the image of my robust self as a wraith that did it.</p>
<p>“After all,” I said aloud taking a firm hold on the good hard flesh of one
of my legs, “this is positively David Grayson.”</p>
<p>I looked out again into that tide of faces—interesting, tired,
passive, smiling, sad, but above all, preoccupied faces.</p>
<p>“No one,” I thought, “seems to know that David Grayson has come to town.”</p>
<p>I had the sudden, almost irresistible notion of climbing up a step near
me, holding up one hand, and crying out:</p>
<p>“Here I am, my friends. I am David Grayson. I am real and solid and
opaque; I have plenty of red blood running in my veins. I assure you that
I am a person well worth knowing.”</p>
<p>I should really have enjoyed some such outlandish enterprise, and I am not
at all sure yet that it would not have brought me adventures and made me
friends worth while. We fail far more often by under-daring than by
over-daring.</p>
<p>But this imaginary object had the result, at least, of giving me a new
grip on things. I began to look out upon the amazing spectacle before me
in a different mood. It was exactly like some enormous anthill into which
an idle traveller had thrust his cane. Everywhere the ants were running
out of their tunnels and burrows, many carrying burdens and giving one
strangely the impression that while they were intensely alive and active,
not more than half of them had any clear idea of where they were going.
And serious, deadly serious, in their haste! I felt a strong inclination
to stop a few of them and say:</p>
<p>“Friends, cheer up. It isn't half as bad as you think it is. Cheer up!”</p>
<p>After a time the severity of the human flood began to abate, and here and
there at the bottom of that gulch of a street, which had begun to fill
with soft, bluish-gray shadows, the evening lights a appeared. The air had
grown cooler; in the distance around a corner I heard a street organ break
suddenly and joyously into the lively strains of “The Wearin' o' the
Green.”</p>
<p>I stepped out into the street with quite a new feeling of adventure. And
as if to testify that I was now a visible person a sharp-eyed newsboy
discovered me—the first human being in Kilburn who had actually seen
me—and came up with a paper in his hand.</p>
<p>“Herald, boss?”</p>
<p>I was interested in the shrewd, world-wise, humorous look in the urchin's
eyes.</p>
<p>“No,” I began, with the full intent of bantering him into some sort of
acquaintance; but he evidently measured my purchasing capacity quite
accurately, for he turned like a flash to another customer. “Herald,
boss?”</p>
<p>“You'll have to step lively, David Grayson,” I said to myself, “if you get
aboard in this city.”</p>
<p>A slouchy negro with a cigarette in his fingers glanced at me in passing
and then, hesitating, turned quickly toward me.</p>
<p>“Got a match, boss?”</p>
<p>I gave him a match.</p>
<p>“Thank you, boss,” and he passed on down the street.</p>
<p>“I seem to be 'boss' around here,” I said.</p>
<p>This contact, slight as it was, gave me a feeling of warmth, removed a
little the sensation of aloofness I had felt, and I strolled slowly down
the street, looking in at the gay windows, now ablaze with lights, and
watching the really wonderful procession of vehicles of all shapes and
sizes that rattled by on the pavement. Even at that hour of the day I
think there were more of them in one minute than I see in a whole month at
my farm.</p>
<p>It's a great thing to wear shabby clothes and an old hat. Some of the best
things I have ever known, like these experiences of the streets, have
resulted from coming up to life from underneath; of being taken for less
than I am rather than for more than I am.</p>
<p>I did not always believe in this doctrine. For many years—the years
before I was rightly born into this alluring world—I tried quite the
opposite course. I was constantly attempting to come down to life from
above. Instead of being content to carry through life a sufficiently
wonderful being named David Grayson I tried desperately to set up and
support a sort of dummy creature which, so clad, so housed, so fed, should
appear to be what I thought David Grayson ought to appear in the eyes of
the world. Oh, I spent quite a lifetime trying to satisfy other people!</p>
<p>Once I remember staying at home, in bed, reading “Huckleberry Finn,” while
I sent my trousers out to be mended.</p>
<p>Well, that dummy Grayson perished in a cornfield. His empty coat served
well for a scarecrow. A wisp of straw stuck out through a hole in his
finest hat.</p>
<p>And I—the man within—I escaped, and have been out freely upon
the great adventure of life.</p>
<p>If a shabby coat (and I speak here also symbolically, not forgetful of
spiritual significances) lets you into the adventurous world of those who
are poor it does not on the other hand rob you of any true friendship
among those who are rich or mighty. I say true friendship, for unless a
man who is rich and mighty is able to see through my shabby coat (as I see
through his fine one), I shall gain nothing by knowing him.</p>
<p>I've permitted myself all this digression—left myself walking alone
there in the streets of Kilburn while I philosophized upon the ways and
means of life—not without design, for I could have had no such
experiences as I did have in Kilburn if I had worn a better coat or
carried upon me the evidences of security in life.</p>
<p>I think I have already remarked upon the extraordinary enlivenment of wits
which comes to the man who has been without a meal or so and does not know
when or where he is again to break his fast. Try it, friend and see! It
was already getting along in the evening, and I knew or supposed I knew no
one in Kilburn save only Bill Hahn, Socialist who was little better off
than I was.</p>
<p>In this emergency my mind began to work swiftly. A score of fascinating
plans for getting my supper and a bed to sleep in flashed through my mind.</p>
<p>“Why,” said I, “when I come to think of it, I'm comparatively rich. I'll
warrant there are plenty of places in Kilburn, and good ones, too, where I
could barter a chapter of Montaigne and a little good conversation for a
first-rate supper, and I've no doubt that I could whistle up a bed almost
anywhere!”</p>
<p>I thought of a little motto I often repeat to myself:</p>
<p>TO KNOW LIFE, BEGIN ANYWHERE!</p>
<p>There were several people on the streets of Kilburn that night who don't
know yet how very near they were to being boarded by a somewhat shabby
looking farmer who would have offered them, let us say, a notable musical
production called “Old Dan Tucker,” exquisitely performed on a tin
whistle, in exchange for a good honest supper.</p>
<p>There was one man in particular—a fine, pompous citizen who came
down the street swinging his cane and looking as though the universe was a
sort of Christmas turkey, lying all brown and sizzling before him ready to
be carved—a fine pompous citizen who never realized how nearly Fate
with a battered volume of Montaigne in one hand and a tin whistle in the
other—came to pouncing upon him that evening! And I am firmly
convinced that if I had attacked him with the Great Particular Word he
would have carved me off a juicy slice of the white breast meat.</p>
<p>“I'm getting hungry,” I said; “I must find Bill Hahn!”</p>
<p>I had turned down a side street, and seeing there in front of a building a
number of lounging men with two or three cabs or carriages standing nearby
in the street I walked up to them. It was a livery barn.</p>
<p>Now I like all sorts of out-of-door people: I seem to be related to them
through horses and cattle and cold winds and sunshine. I like them and
understand them, and they seem to like me and understand me. So I walked
up to the group of jolly drivers and stablemen intending to ask my
directions. The talking died out and they all turned to look at me. I
suppose I was not altogether a familiar type there in the city streets. My
bag, especially, seemed to set me apart as a curious person.</p>
<p>“Friends,” I said, “I am a farmer—”</p>
<p>They all broke out laughing; they seemed to know it already! I was just a
little taken aback, but I laughed, too, knowing that there was a way of
getting at them if only I could find it.</p>
<p>“It may surprise you,” I said, “but this is the first time in some dozen
years that I've been in a big city like this.”</p>
<p>“You hadn't 'ave told us, partner!” said one of them, evidently the wit of
the group, in a rich Irish brogue.</p>
<p>“Well,” I responded, laughing with the best of them, “you've been living
right here all the time, and don't realize how amusing and curious the
city looks to me. Why, I feel as though I had been away sleeping for
twenty years, like Rip Van Winkle. When I left the city there was scarcely
an automobile to be seen anywhere—and now look at them snorting
through the streets. I counted twenty-two passing that corner up there in
five minutes by the clock.”</p>
<p>This was a fortunate remark, for I found instantly that the invasion of
the automobile was a matter of tremendous import to such Knights of
Bucephalus as these.</p>
<p>At first the wit interrupted me with amusing remarks, as wits will, but I
soon had him as quiet as the others. For I have found the things that
chiefly interest people are the things they already know about—provided
you show them that these common things are still mysterious, still
miraculous, as indeed they are.</p>
<p>After a time some one pushed me a stable stool and I sat down among them,
and we had quite a conversation, which finally developed into an amusing
comparison (I wish I had room to repeat it here) between the city and the
country. I told them something about my farm, how much I enjoyed it, and
what a wonderful free life one had in the country. In this I was really
taking an unfair advantage of them, for I was trading on the fact that
every man, down deep in his heart, has more or less of an instinct to get
back to the soil—at least all outdoor men have. And when I described
the simplest things about my barn, and the cattle and pigs, and the bees—and
the good things we have to eat—I had every one of them leaning
forward and hanging on my words.</p>
<p>Harriet sometimes laughs at me for the way I celebrate farm life. She says
all my apples are the size of Hubbard squashes, my eggs all double-yolked,
and my cornfields tropical jungles. Practical Harriet! My apples may not
ALL be the size of Hubbard squashes, but they are good, sizable apples,
and as for flavour—all the spices of Arcady—! And I believe, I
KNOW, from my own experience that these fields and hills are capable of
healing men's souls. And when I see people wandering around a lonesome
city like Kilburn, with never a soft bit of soil to put their heels into,
nor a green thing to cultivate, nor any corn or apples or honey to
harvest, I feel—well, that they are wasting their time.</p>
<p>(It's a fact, Harriet!)</p>
<p>Indeed I had the most curious experience with my friend the wit—his
name I soon learned was Healy—a jolly, round, red-nosed, outdoor
chap with fists that looked like small-sized hams, and a rich, warm Irish
voice. At first he was inclined to use me as the ready butt of his lively
mind, but presently he became so much interested in what I was saying that
he sat squarely in front of me with both his jolly eyes and his smiling
mouth wide open.</p>
<p>“If ever you pass my way,” I said to him, “just drop in and I'll give you
a dinner of baked beans”—and I smacked—“and home made bread”
and I smacked again—“and pumpkin pie”—and I smacked a third
time—“that will make your mouth water.”</p>
<p>All this smacking and the description of baked beans and pumpkin pie had
an odd counter effect upon ME; for I suddenly recalled my own tragic
state. So I jumped up quickly and asked directions for getting down to the
mill neighbourhood, where I hoped to find Bill Hahn. My friend Healy
instantly volunteered the information.</p>
<p>“And now,” I said, “I want to ask a small favour of you. I'm looking for a
friend, and I'd like to leave my bag here for the night.”</p>
<p>“Sure, sure,” said the Irishman heartily. “Put it there in the office—on
top o' the desk. It'll be all right.”</p>
<p>So I put it in the office and was about to say good-bye, when my friend
said to me:</p>
<p>“Come in, partner, and have a drink before you go”—and he pointed to
a nearby saloon.</p>
<p>“Thank you,” I answered heartily, for I knew it was as fine a bit of
hospitality as he could offer me, “thank you, but I must find my friend
before it gets too late.”</p>
<p>“Aw, come on now,” he cried, taking my arm. “Sure you'll be better off for
a bit o' warmth inside.”</p>
<p>I had hard work to get away from them, and I am as sure as can be that
they would have found supper and a bed for me if they had known I needed
either.</p>
<p>“Come agin,” Healy shouted after me, “we're glad to see a farmer any
toime.”</p>
<p>My way led me quickly out of the well-groomed and glittering main streets
of the town. I passed first through several blocks of quiet residences,
and then came to a street near the river which was garishly lighted, and
crowded with small, poor shops and stores, with a saloon on nearly every
corner. I passed a huge, dark, silent box of a mill, and I saw what I
never saw before in a city, armed men guarding the streets.</p>
<p>Although it was growing late—it was after nine o'clock—crowds
of people were still parading the streets, and there was something
intangibly restless, something tense, in the very atmosphere of the
neighbourhood. It was very plain that I had reached the strike district. I
was about to make some further inquiries for the headquarters of the mill
men or for Bill Hahn personally, when I saw, not far ahead of me, a black
crowd of people reaching out into the street. Drawing nearer I saw that an
open space or block between two rows of houses was literally black with
human beings, and in the centre on a raised platform, under a gasolene
flare, I beheld my friend of the road, Bill Hahn. The overcoat and the hat
with the furry ears had disappeared, and the little man stood there
bare-headed, before that great audience.</p>
<p>My experience in the world is limited, but I have never heard anything
like that speech for sheer power. It was as unruly and powerful and
resistless as life itself. It was not like any other speech I ever heard,
for it was no mere giving out by the orator of ideas and thoughts and
feelings of his own. It seemed rather—how shall I describe it?—as
though the speaker was looking into the very hearts of that vast gathering
of poor men and poor women and merely telling them what they themselves
felt, but could not tell. And I shall never forget the breathless hush of
the people or the quality of their responses to the orator's words. It was
as though they said, “Yes, yes” with a feeling of vast relief—“Yes,
yes—at last our own hopes and fears and desires are being uttered—yes,
yes.”</p>
<p>As for the orator himself, he held up one maimed hand and leaned over the
edge of the platform, and his undistinguished face glowed with the white
light of a great passion within. The man had utterly forgotten himself.</p>
<p>I confess, among those eager working people, clad in their poor garments,
I confess I was profoundly moved. Faith is not so bounteous a commodity in
this world that we can afford to treat even its unfamiliar manifestations
with contempt. And when a movement is hot with life, when it stirs common
men to their depths, look out! look out!</p>
<p>Up to that time I had never known much of the practical workings of
Socialism; and the main contention of its philosophy has never accorded
wholly with my experience in life.</p>
<p>But the Socialism of to-day is no mere abstraction—as it was,
perhaps, in the days of Brook Farm. It is a mode of action. Men whose view
of life is perfectly balanced rarely soil themselves with the dust of
battle. The heat necessary to produce social conflict (and social progress—who
knows?) is generated by a supreme faith that certain principles are
universal in their application when in reality they are only local or
temporary.</p>
<p>Thus while one may not accept the philosophy of Socialism as a final
explanation of human life, he may yet look upon Socialism in action as a
powerful method of stimulating human progress. The world has been lagging
behind in its sense of brotherhood, and we now have the Socialists knit
together in a fighting friendship as fierce and narrow in its motives as
Calvinism, pricking us to reform, asking the cogent question:</p>
<p>“Are we not all brothers?”</p>
<p>Oh, we are going a long way with these Socialists, we are going to
discover a new world of social relationships—and then, and then,
like a mighty wave; will flow in upon us a renewed and more wonderful
sense of the worth of the individual human soul. A new individualism,
bringing with it, perhaps, some faint realization of our dreams of a race
of Supermen, lies just beyond! Its prophets, girded with rude garments and
feeding upon the wild honey of poverty, are already crying in the
wilderness.</p>
<p>I think I could have remained there at the Socialist meeting all night
long: there was something about it that brought a hard, dry twist to my
throat. But after a time my friend Bill Hahn, evidently quite worn out,
yielded his place to another and far less clairvoyant speaker, and the
crowd, among whom I now discovered quite a number of policemen, began to
thin out.</p>
<p>I made my way forward and saw Bill Hahn and several other men just leaving
the platform. I stepped up to him, but it was not until I called him by
name (I knew how absent minded he was!) that he recognized me.</p>
<p>“Well, well,” he said; “you came after all!”</p>
<p>He seized me by both arms and introduced me to several of his companions
as “Brother Grayson.” They all shook hands with me warmly.</p>
<p>Although he was perspiring, Bill put on his overcoat and the old fur hat
with the ears, and as he now took my arm I could feel one of his bulging
pockets beating against my leg. I had not the slightest idea where they
were going, but Bill held me by the arm and presently we came, a block or
so distant, to a dark, narrow stairway leading up from the street. I
recall the stumbling sound of steps on the wooden boards, a laugh or two,
the high voice of a woman asserting and denying. Feeling our way along the
wall, we came to the top and went into a long, low, rather dimly lighted
room set about with tables and chairs—a sort of restaurant. A number
of men and a few women had already gathered there. Among them my eyes
instantly singled out a huge, rough-looking man who stood at the centre of
an animated group. He had thick, shaggy hair, and one side of his face
over the cheekbone was of a dull blue-black and raked and scarred, where
it had been burned in a Powder blast. He had been a miner. His gray eyes,
which had a surprisingly youthful and even humorous expression, looked out
from under coarse, thick, gray brows. A very remarkable face and figure he
presented. I soon learned that he was R—— D——, the
leader of whom I had often heard, and heard no good thing. He was quite a
different type from Bill Hahn: he was the man of authority, the organizer,
the diplomat—as Bill was the prophet, preaching a holy war.</p>
<p>How wonderful human nature is! Only a short time before I had been
thrilled by the intensity of the passion of the throng, but here the mood
suddenly changed to one of friendly gayety. Fully a third of those present
were women, some of them plainly from the mills and some of them curiously
different—women from other walks in life who had thrown themselves
heart and soul into the strike. Without ceremony but with much laughing
and joking, they found their places around the tables. A cook, who
appeared in a dim doorway was greeted with a shout, to which he responded
with a wide smile, waving the long spoon which he held in his hand.</p>
<p>I shall not attempt to give any complete description of the gathering or
of what they said or did. I think I could devote a dozen pages to the
single man who was placed next to me. I was interested in him from the
outset. The first thing that struck me about him was an air of neatness,
even fastidiousness, about his person—though he wore no stiff
collar, only a soft woollen shirt without a necktie. He had the long
sensitive, beautiful hands of an artist, but his face was thin and marked
with the pallor peculiar to the indoor worker. I soon learned that he was
a weaver in the mills, an Englishman by birth, and we had not talked two
minutes before I found that, while he had never had any education in the
schools, he had been a gluttonous reader of books—all kind of books—and,
what is more, had thought about them and was ready with vigorous (and
narrow) opinions about this author or that. And he knew more about
economics and sociology, I firmly believe, than half the college
professors. A truly remarkable man.</p>
<p>It was an Italian restaurant, and I remember how, in my hunger, I assailed
the generous dishes of boiled meat and spaghetti. A red wine was served in
large bottles which circulated rapidly around the table, and almost
immediately the room began to fill with tobacco smoke. Every one seemed to
be talking and laughing at once, in the liveliest spirit of good
fellowship. They joked from table to table, and sometimes the whole room
would quiet down while some one told a joke, which invariably wound up
with a roar of laughter.</p>
<p>“Why,” I said, “these people have a whole life, a whole society, of their
own!”</p>
<p>In the midst of this jollity the clear voice of a girl rang out with the
first lines of a song. Instantly the room was hushed:</p>
<p>Arise, ye prisoners of starvation,<br/>
Arise, ye wretched of the earth,<br/>
For justice thunders condemnation<br/>
A better world's in birth.<br/></p>
<p>These were the words she sang, and when the clear, sweet voice died down
the whole company, as though by a common impulse, arose from their chairs,
and joined in a great swelling chorus:</p>
<p>It is the final conflict,<br/>
Let each stand in his place,<br/>
The Brotherhood of Man<br/>
Shall be the human race.<br/></p>
<p>It was beyond belief, to me, the spirit with which these words were sung.
In no sense with jollity—all that seemed to have been dropped when
they came to their feet—but with an unmistakable fervour of faith.
Some of the things I had thought and dreamed about secretly among the
hills of my farm all these years, dreamed about as being something far off
and as unrealizable as the millennium, were here being sung abroad with
jaunty faith by these weavers of Kilburn, these weavers and workers whom I
had schooled myself to regard with a sort of distant pity.</p>
<p>Hardly had the company sat down again, with a renewal of the flow of jolly
conversation When I heard a rapping on one of the tables. I saw the great
form of R——- D——- slowly rising.</p>
<p>“Brothers and sisters,” he said, “a word of caution. The authorities will
lose no chance of putting us in the wrong. Above all we must comport
ourselves here and in the strike with great care. We are fighting a great
battle, bigger than we are—”</p>
<p>At this instant the door from the dark hallway suddenly opened and a man
in a policeman's uniform stepped in. There fell an instant's dead silence—an
explosive silence. Every person there seemed to be petrified in the
position in which his attention was attracted. Every eye was fixed on the
figure at the door. For an instant no one said a word; then I heard a
woman's shrill voice, like a rifle-shot:</p>
<p>“Assassin!”</p>
<p>I cannot imagine what might have happened next, for the feeling in the
room, as in the city itself, was at the tensest, had not the leader
suddenly brought the goblet which he held in his hand down with a bang
upon the table.</p>
<p>“As I was saying,” he continued in a steady, clear voice, “we are fighting
to-day the greatest of battles, and we cannot permit trivial incidents, or
personal bitterness, or small persecutions, to turn us from the great work
we have in hand. However our opponents may comport themselves, we must be
calm, steady, sure, patient, for we know that our cause is just and will
prevail.”</p>
<p>“You're right,” shouted a voice back in the room.</p>
<p>Instantly the tension relaxed, conversation started again and every one
turned away from the policeman at the door. In a few minutes, he
disappeared without having said a word.</p>
<p>There was no regular speaking, and about midnight the party began to break
up. I leaned over and said to my friend Bill Hahn:</p>
<p>“Can you find me a place to sleep tonight?”</p>
<p>“Certainly I can,” he said heartily.</p>
<p>There was to be a brief conference of the leaders after the supper, and
those present soon departed. I went down the long, dark stairway and out
into the almost deserted street. Looking up between the buildings I could
see the clear blue sky and the stars. And I walked slowly up and down
awaiting my friend and trying, vainly to calm my whirling emotions.</p>
<p>He came at last and I went with him. That night I slept scarcely at all,
but lay looking up into the darkness. And it seemed as though, as I lay
there, listening, that I could hear the city moving in its restless sleep
and sighing as with heavy pain. All night long I lay there thinking.</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER XI. I COME TO GRAPPLE WITH THE CITY </h2>
<p>I have laughed heartily many times since I came home to think of the
Figure of Tragedy I felt myself that morning in the city of Kilburn. I had
not slept well, had not slept at all, I think, and the experiences and
emotions of the previous night still lay heavy upon me. Not before in many
years had I felt such a depression of the spirits.</p>
<p>It was all so different from the things I love! Not so much as a spear of
grass or a leafy tree to comfort the eye, or a bird to sing; no quiet
hills, no sight of the sun coming up in the morning over dewy fields, no
sound of cattle in the lane, no cheerful cackling of fowls, nor buzzing of
bees! That morning, I remember, when I first went out into those squalid
streets and saw everywhere the evidences of poverty, dirt, and ignorance—and
the sweet, clean country not two miles away—the thought of my own
home among the hills (with Harriet there in the doorway) came upon me with
incredible longing.</p>
<p>“I must go home; I must go home!” I caught myself saying aloud.</p>
<p>I remember how glad I was when I found that my friend Bill Hahn and other
leaders of the strike were to be engaged in conferences during the
forenoon, for I wanted to be alone, to try to get a few things
straightened out in my mind.</p>
<p>But I soon found that a city is a poor place for reflection or
contemplation. It bombards one with an infinite variety of new impressions
and new adventures; and I could not escape the impression made by crowded
houses, and ill-smelling streets, and dirty sidewalks, and swarming human
beings. For a time the burden of these things rested upon my breast like a
leaden weight; they all seemed so utterly wrong to me, so unnecessary; so
unjust! I sometimes think of religion as only a high sense of good order;
and it seemed to me that morning as though the very existence of this
disorderly mill district was a challenge to religion, and an offence to
the Orderer of an Orderly Universe. I don't now how such conditions may
affect other people, but for a time I felt a sharp sense of impatience—yes,
anger—with it all. I had an impulse to take off my coat then and
there and go at the job of setting things to rights. Oh, I never was more
serious in my life: I was quite prepared to change the entire scheme of
things to my way of thinking whether the people who lived there liked it
or not. It seemed to me for a few glorious moments that I had only to tell
them of the wonders in our country, the pleasant, quiet roads, the
comfortable farmhouses, the fertile fields, and the wooded hills—and,
poof! all this crowded poverty would dissolve and disappear, and they
would all come to the country and be as happy as I was.</p>
<p>I remember how, once in my life, I wasted untold energy trying to make
over my dearest friends. There was Harriet, for example, dear, serious,
practical Harriet. I used to be fretted by the way she was forever trying
to clip my wing feathers—I suppose to keep me close to the quiet and
friendly and unadventurous roost! We come by such a long, long road,
sometimes, to the acceptance of our nearest friends for exactly what they
are. Because we are so fond of them we try to make them over to suit some
curious ideal of perfection of our own—until one day we suddenly
laugh aloud at our own absurdity (knowing that they are probably trying as
hard to reconstruct us as we are to reconstruct them) and thereafter we
try no more to change them, we just love 'em and enjoy 'em!</p>
<p>Some such psychological process went on in my consciousness that morning.
As I walked briskly through the streets I began to look out more broadly
around me. It was really a perfect spring morning, the air crisp, fresh,
and sunny, and the streets full of life and activity. I looked into the
faces of the people I met, and it began to strike me that most of them
seemed oblivious of the fact that they should, by good rights, be looking
downcast and dispirited. They had cheered their approval the night before
when the speakers had told them how miserable they were (even
acknowledging that they were slaves), and yet here they were this morning
looking positively good-humoured, cheerful, some of them even gay. I
warrant if I had stepped up to one of them that morning and intimated that
he was a slave he would have—well, I should have had serious trouble
with him! There was a degree of sociability in those back streets, a
visiting from window to window, gossipy gatherings in front area-ways, a
sort of pavement domesticity, that I had never seen before. Being a lover
myself of such friendly intercourse I could actually feel the hum and
warmth of that neighbourhood.</p>
<p>A group of brightly clad girl strikers gathered on a corner were chatting
and laughing, and children in plenty ran and shouted at their play in the
street. I saw a group of them dancing merrily around an Italian hand-organ
man who was filling the air with jolly music. I recall what a sinking
sensation I had at the pit of my reformer's stomach when it suddenly
occurred to me that these people some of them, anyway, might actually LIKE
this crowded, sociable neighbourhood! “They might even HATE the country,”
I exclaimed.</p>
<p>It is surely one of the fundamental humours of life to see absurdly
serious little human beings (like D. G. for example) trying to stand in
the place of the Almighty. We are so confoundedly infallible in our
judgments, so sure of what is good for our neighbour, so eager to force
upon him our particular doctors or our particular remedies; we are so
willing to put our childish fingers into the machinery of creation—and
we howl so lustily when we get them pinched!</p>
<p>“Why!” I exclaimed, for it came to me like a new discovery, “it's exactly
the same here as it is in the country! I haven't got to make over the
universe: I've only got to do my own small job, and to look up often at
the trees and the hills and the sky and be friendly with all men.”</p>
<p>I cannot express the sense of comfort, and of trust, which this reflection
brought me. I recall stopping just then at the corner of a small green
city square, for I had now reached the better part of the city, and of
seeing with keen pleasure the green of the grass and the bright colour of
a bed of flowers, and two or three clean nursemaids with clean baby cabs,
and a flock of pigeons pluming themselves near a stone fountain, and an
old tired horse sleeping in the sun with his nose buried in a feed bag.</p>
<p>“Why,” I said, “all this, too, is beautiful!” So I continued my walk with
quite a new feeling in my heart, prepared again for any adventure life
might have to offer me.</p>
<p>I supposed I knew no living soul in Kilburn but Bill the Socialist. What
was my astonishment and pleasure, then in one of the business streets to
discover a familiar face and figure. A man was just stepping from an
automobile to the sidewalk. For an instant; in that unusual environment, I
could not place him, then I stepped up quickly and said:</p>
<p>“Well, well, Friend Vedder.”</p>
<p>He looked around with astonishment at the man in the shabby clothes—but
it was only for an instant.</p>
<p>“David Grayson!” he exclaimed, “and how did YOU get into the city?”</p>
<p>“Walked,” I said.</p>
<p>“But I thought you were an incurable and irreproachable countryman! Why
are you here?”</p>
<p>“Love o' life,” I said; “love o' life.”</p>
<p>“Where are you stopping?” I waved my hand.</p>
<p>“Where the road leaves me,” I said. “Last night I left my bag with some
good friends I made in front of a livery stable and I spent the night in
the mill district with a Socialist named Bill Hahn.”</p>
<p>“Bill Hahn!” The effect upon Mr. Vedder was magical.</p>
<p>“Why, yes,” I said, “and a remarkable man he is, too.”</p>
<p>I discovered immediately that my friend was quite as much interested in
the strike as Bill Hahn, but on the other side. He was, indeed, one of the
directors of the greatest mill in Kilburn—the very one which I had
seen the night before surrounded by armed sentinels. It was thrilling to
me, this knowledge, for it seemed to plump me down at once in the middle
of things—and soon, indeed, brought me nearer to the brink of great
events than ever I was before in all my days.</p>
<p>I could see that Mr. Vedder considered Bill Hahn as a sort of devouring
monster, a wholly incendiary and dangerous person. So terrible, indeed,
was the warning he gave me (considering me, I suppose an unsophisticated
person) that I couldn't help laughing outright.</p>
<p>“I assure you—” he began, apparently much offended.</p>
<p>But I interrupted him.</p>
<p>“I'm sorry I laughed,” I said, “but as you were talking about Bill Hahn, I
couldn't help thinking of him as I first saw him.” And I gave Mr. Vedder
as lively a description as I could of the little man with his bulging coat
tails, his furry ears, his odd round spectacles. He was greatly interested
in what I said and began to ask many questions. I told him with all the
earnestness I could command of Bill's history and of his conversion to his
present beliefs. I found that Mr. Vedder had known Robert Winter very well
indeed, and was amazed at the incident which I narrated of Bill Hahn's
attempt upon his life.</p>
<p>I have always believed that if men could be made to understand one another
they would necessarily be friendly, so I did my best to explain Bill Hahn
to Mr. Vedder.</p>
<p>“I'm tremendously interested in what you say,” he said, “and we must have
more talk about it.”</p>
<p>He told me that he had now to put in an appearance at his office, and
wanted me to go with him; but upon my objection he pressed me to take
luncheon with him a little later, an invitation which I accepted with real
pleasure.</p>
<p>“We haven't had a word about gardens,” he said, “and there are no end of
things that Mrs. Vedder and I found that we wanted to talk with you about
after you had left us.”</p>
<p>“Well!” I said, much delighted, “let's have a regular old-fashioned
country talk.”</p>
<p>So we parted for the time being, and I set off in the highest spirits to
see something more of Kilburn.</p>
<p>A city, after all, is a very wonderful place. One thing, I recall,
impressed me powerfully that morning—the way in which every one was
working, apparently without any common agreement or any common purpose,
and yet with a high sort of understanding. The first hearing of a
difficult piece of music (to an uncultivated ear like mine) often yields
nothing but a confused sense of unrelated motives, but later and deeper
hearings reveal the harmony which ran so clear in the master's soul.</p>
<p>Something of this sort happened to me in looking out upon the life of that
great city of Kilburn. All about on the streets, in the buildings, under
ground and above ground, men were walking, running, creeping, crawling,
climbing, lifting, digging, driving, buying, selling, sweating, swearing,
praying, loving, hating, struggling, failing, sinning, repenting—all
working and living according to a vast harmony, which sometimes we can
catch clearly and sometimes miss entirely. I think, that morning, for a
time, I heard the true music of the spheres, the stars singing together.</p>
<p>Mr. Vedder took me to a quiet restaurant where we had a snug alcove all to
ourselves. I shall remember it always as one of the truly pleasant
experiences of my pilgrimage.</p>
<p>I could see that my friend was sorely troubled, that the strike rested
heavy upon him, and so I led the conversation to the hills and the roads
and the fields we both love so much. I plied him with a thousand questions
about his garden. I told him in the liveliest way of my adventures after
leaving his home, how I had telephoned him from the hills, how I had taken
a swim in the mill-pond, and especially how I had lost myself in the old
cowpasture, with an account of all my absurd and laughable adventures and
emotions.</p>
<p>Well, before we had finished our luncheon I had every line ironed from the
brow of that poor plagued rich man, I had brought jolly crinkles to the
corners of his eyes, and once or twice I had him chuckling down deep
inside (Where chuckles are truly effective). Talk about cheering up the
poor: I think the rich are usually far more in need of it!</p>
<p>But I couldn't keep the conversation in these delightful channels.
Evidently the strike and all that it meant lay heavy upon Mr. Vedder's
consciousness, for he pushed back his coffee and began talking about it,
almost in a tone of apology. He told me how kind he had tried to make the
mill management in its dealings with its men.</p>
<p>“I would not speak of it save in explanation of our true attitude of
helpfulness; but we have really given our men many advantages”—and
he told me of the reading-room the company had established, of the
visiting nurse they had employed, and of several other excellent
enterprises, which gave only another proof of what I knew already of Mr.
Vedder's sincere kindness of heart.</p>
<p>“But,” he said, “we find they don't appreciate what we try to do for
them.”</p>
<p>I laughed outright.</p>
<p>“Why,” I exclaimed, “you are having the same trouble I have had!”</p>
<p>“How's that?” he inquired, I thought a little sharply. Men don't like to
have their seriousness trifled with.</p>
<p>“No longer ago than this morning,” I said, “I had exactly that idea of
giving them advantages; but I found that the difficulty lies not with the
ability to give, but with the inability or unwillingness to take. You see
I have a great deal of surplus wealth myself—”</p>
<p>Mr. Vedder's eyes flickered up at me.</p>
<p>“Yes,” I said. “I've got immense accumulations of the wealth of the ages—ingots
of Emerson and Whitman, for example, gems of Voltaire, and I can't tell
what other superfluous coinage!” (And I waved my hand in the most
grandiloquent manner.) “I've also quite a store of knowledge of corn and
calves and cucumbers, and I've a boundless domain of exceedingly valuable
landscapes. I am prepared to give bountifully of all these varied riches
(for I shall still have plenty remaining), but the fact is that this
generation of vipers doesn't appreciate what I am trying to do for them.
I'm really getting frightened, lest they permit me to perish from
undistributed riches!”</p>
<p>Mr. Vedder was still smiling.</p>
<p>“Oh,” I said, warming up to my idea, “I'm a regular multimillionaire. I've
got so much wealth that I'm afraid I shall not be as fortunate as jolly
Andy Carnegie, for I don't see how I can possibly die poor!”</p>
<p>“Why not found a university or so?” asked Mr. Vedder.</p>
<p>“Well, I had thought of that. It's a good idea. Let's join our forces and
establish a university where truly serious people can take courses in
laughter.”</p>
<p>“Fine idea!” exclaimed Mr. Vedder; “but wouldn't it require an enormous
endowment to accommodate all the applicants? You must remember that this
is a very benighted and illiterate world, laughingly speaking.”</p>
<p>“It is, indeed,” I said, “but you must remember that many people, for a
long time, will be too serious to apply. I wonder sometimes if any one
ever learns to laugh really laugh much before he is forty.”</p>
<p>“But,” said Mr. Vedder anxiously, “do you think such an institution would
be accepted by the proletariat of the serious-minded?”</p>
<p>“Ah, that's the trouble,” said I, “that's the trouble. The proletariat
doesn't appreciate what we are trying to do for them! They don't want your
reading-rooms nor my Emerson and cucumbers. The seat of the difficulty
seems to be that what seems wealth to us isn't necessarily wealth for the
other fellow.”</p>
<p>I cannot tell with what delight we fenced our way through this foolery
(which was not all foolery, either). I never met a man more quickly
responsive than Mr. Vedder. But he now paused for some moments, evidently
ruminating.</p>
<p>“Well, David,” he said seriously, “what are we going to do about this
obstreperous other fellow?”</p>
<p>“Why not try the experiment,” I suggested, “of giving him what he
considers wealth, instead of what you consider wealth?”</p>
<p>“But what does he consider wealth?”</p>
<p>“Equality,” said I.</p>
<p>Mr. Vedder threw up his hands.</p>
<p>“So you're a Socialist, too!”</p>
<p>“That,” I said, “is another story.”</p>
<p>“Well, supposing we did or could give him this equality you speak of—what
would become of us? What would we get out of it?”</p>
<p>“Why, equality, too!” I said.</p>
<p>Mr. Vedder threw up his hands up with a gesture of mock resignation.</p>
<p>“Come,” said he, “let's get down out of Utopia!”</p>
<p>We had some further good-humoured fencing and then returned to the
inevitable problem of the strike. While we were discussing the meeting of
the night before which, I learned, had been luridly reported in the
morning papers, Mr. Vedder suddenly turned to me and asked earnestly:</p>
<p>“Are you really a Socialist?”</p>
<p>“Well,” said I, “I'm sure of one thing. I'm not ALL Socialist, Bill Hahn
believes with his whole soul (and his faith has made him a remarkable man)
that if only another class of people—his class—could come into
the control of material property, that all the ills that man is heir to
would be speedily cured. But I wonder if when men own property
collectively—as they are going to one of these days—they will
quarrel and hate one another any less than they do now. It is not the
ownership of material property that interests me so much as the
independence of it. When I started out from my farm on this pilgrimage it
seemed to me the most blessed thing in the world to get away from property
and possession.”</p>
<p>“What are you then, anyway?” asked Mr. Vedder, smiling.</p>
<p>“Well, I've thought of a name I would like to have applied to me
sometimes,” I said. “You see I'm tremendously fond of this world exactly
as it is now. Mr. Vedder, it's a wonderful and beautiful place! I've never
seen a better one. I confess I could not possibly live in the rarefied
atmosphere of a final solution. I want to live right here and now for all
I'm worth. The other day a man asked me what I thought was the best time
of life. 'Why,' I answered without a thought, 'Now.' It has always seemed
to me that if a man can't make a go of it, yes, and be happy at this
moment, he can't be at the next moment. But most of all, it seems to me, I
want to get close to people, to look into their hearts, and be friendly
with them. Mr. Vedder, do you know what I'd like to be called?”</p>
<p>“I cannot imagine,” said he.</p>
<p>“Well, I'd like to be called an Introducer. My friend, Mr. Blacksmith, let
me introduce you to my friend, Mr. Plutocrat. I could almost swear that
you were brothers, so near alike are you! You'll find each other
wonderfully interesting once you get over the awkwardness of the
introduction. And Mr. White Man, let me present you particularly to my
good friend, Mr. Negro. You will see if you sit down to it that this
colour of the face is only skin deep.”</p>
<p>“It's a good name!” said Mr. Vedder, laughing.</p>
<p>“It's a wonderful name,” said I, “and it's about the biggest and finest
work in the world—to know human beings just as they are, and to make
them acquainted with one another just as they are. Why, it's the
foundation of all the democracy there is, or ever will be. Sometimes I
think that friendliness is the only achievement of life worth while—and
unfriendliness the only tragedy.”</p>
<p>I have since felt ashamed of myself when I thought how I lectured my
unprotected host that day at luncheon; but it seemed to boil out of me
irresistibly. The experiences of the past two days had stirred me to the
very depths, and it seemed to me I must explain to somebody how it all
impressed me—and to whom better than to my good friend Vedder?</p>
<p>As we were leaving the table an idea flashed across my mind which seemed,
at first, so wonderful that it quite turned me dizzy.</p>
<p>“See here, Mr. Vedder,” I exclaimed, “let me follow my occupation
practically. I know Bill Hahn and I know you. Let me introduce you. If you
could only get together, if you could only understand what good fellows
you both are, it might go far toward solving these difficulties.”</p>
<p>I had some trouble persuading him, but finally he consented, said he
wanted to leave no stone unturned, and that he would meet Bill Hahn and
some of the other leaders, if proper arrangements could be made.</p>
<p>I left him, therefore, in excitement, feeling that I was at the point of
playing a part in a very great event. “Once get these men together,” I
thought, “and they MUST come to an understanding.”</p>
<p>So I rushed out to the mill district, saying to myself over and over (I
have smiled about it since!): “We'll settle this strike: we'll settle this
strike: we'll settle this strike.” After some searching I found my friend
Bill in the little room over a saloon that served as strike headquarters.
A dozen or more of the leaders were there, faintly distinguishable through
clouds of tobacco smoke. Among them sat the great R—— D——,
his burly figure looming up at one end of the table, and his strong,
rough, iron-jawed face turning first toward this speaker and then toward
that. The discussion, which had evidently been lively, died down soon
after I appeared at the door, and Bill Hahn came out to me and we sat down
together in the adjoining room. Here I broke eagerly into an account of
the happenings of the day, described my chance meeting with Mr. Vedder—who
was well known to Bill by reputation—and finally asked him squarely
whether he would meet him. I think my enthusiasm quite carried him away.</p>
<p>“Sure, I will,” said Bill Hahn heartily.</p>
<p>“When and where?” I asked, “and will any of the other men join you?”</p>
<p>Bill was all enthusiasm at once, for that was the essence of his
temperament, but he said that he must first refer it to the committee. I
waited, in a tense state of impatience, for what seemed to me a very long
time; but finally the door opened and Bill Hahn came out bringing R——
D—— himself with him. We all sat down together, and R——
D—— began to ask questions (he was evidently suspicious as to
who and what I was); but I think, after I talked with them for some time
that I made them see the possibilities and the importance of such a
meeting. I was greatly impressed with R—— D——, the
calmness and steadiness of the man, his evident shrewdness. “A real
general,” I said to myself. “I should like to know him better.”</p>
<p>After a long talk they returned to the other room, closing the door behind
them, and I waited again, still more impatiently.</p>
<p>It seems rather absurd now, but at that moment I felt firmly convinced
that I was on the way to the permanent settlement of a struggle which had
occupied the best brains of Kilburn for many weeks.</p>
<p>While I was waiting in that dingy ante-room, the other door slowly opened
and a boy stuck his head in.</p>
<p>“Is David Grayson here?” he asked.</p>
<p>“Here he is,” said I, greatly astonished that any one in Kilburn should be
inquiring for me, or should know where I was.</p>
<p>The boy came in, looked at me with jolly round eyes for a moment, and dug
a letter out of his pocket. I opened it at once, and glancing at the
signature discovered that it was from Mr. Vedder.</p>
<p>“He said I'd probably find you at strike headquarters,” remarked the boy.</p>
<p>This was the letter: marked “Confidential.”</p>
<p>My Dear Grayson: I think you must be something of a hypnotist. After you
left me I began to think of the project you mentioned, and I have talked
it over with one or two of my associates. I would gladly hold this
conference, but it does not now seem wise for us to do so. The interests
we represent are too important to be jeopardized. In theory you are
undoubtedly right, but in this case I think you will agree with me (when
you think it over), we must not show any weakness. Come and stop with us
to-night: Mrs. Vedder will be overjoyed to see you and we'll have another
fine talk.</p>
<p>I confess I was a good deal cast down as I read this letter.</p>
<p>“What interests are so important?” I asked myself, “that they should keep
friends apart?”</p>
<p>But I was given only a moment for reflection for the door opened and my
friend Bill, together with R—— D—— and several
other members of the committee, came out. I put the letter in my pocket,
and for a moment my brain never worked under higher pressure. What should
I say to them now? How could I explain myself?</p>
<p>Bill Hahn was evidently labouring under considerable excitement, but R——
D—— was as calm as a judge. He sat down in the chair opposite
and said to me:</p>
<p>“We've been figuring out this proposition of Mr. Vedder's. Your idea is
all right, and it would be a fine thing if we could really get together as
you suggest upon terms of common understanding and friendship.”</p>
<p>“Just what Mr. Vedder said,” I exclaimed.</p>
<p>“Yes,” he continued, “it's all right in theory; but in this case it simply
won't work. Don't you see it's got to be war? Your friend and I could
probably understand each other—but this is a class war. It's all or
nothing with us, and your friend Vedder knows it as well as we do.”</p>
<p>After some further argument and explanation, I said:</p>
<p>“I see: and this is Socialism.”</p>
<p>“Yes,” said the great R—— D——, “this is
Socialism.”</p>
<p>“And it's force you would use,” I said.</p>
<p>“It's force THEY use,” he replied.</p>
<p>After I left the strike headquarters that evening—for it was almost
dark before I parted with the committee—I walked straight out
through the crowded streets, so absorbed in my thoughts that I did not
know in the least where I was going. The street lights came out, the
crowds began to thin away, I heard a strident song from a phonograph at
the entrance to a picture show, and as I passed again in front of the
great, dark, many-windowed mill which had made my friend Vedder a rich man
I saw a sentinel turn slowly at the corner. The light glinted on the steel
of his bayonet. He had a fresh, fine, boyish face.</p>
<p>“We have some distance yet to go in this world,” I said to myself, “no man
need repine for lack of good work ahead.”</p>
<p>It was only a little way beyond this mill that an incident occurred which
occupied probably not ten minutes of time, and yet I have thought about it
since I came home as much as I have thought about any other incident of my
pilgrimage. I have thought how I might have acted differently under the
circumstances, how I could have said this or how I ought to have done that—all,
of course, now to no purpose whatever. But I shall not attempt to tell
what I ought to have done or said, but what I actually did do and say on
the spur of the moment.</p>
<p>It was in a narrow, dark street which opened off the brightly lighted main
thoroughfare of that mill neighbourhood. A girl standing in the shadows
between two buildings said to me as I passed:</p>
<p>“Good evening.”</p>
<p>I stopped instantly, it was such a pleasant, friendly voice.</p>
<p>“Good evening,” I said, lifting my hat and wondering that there should be
any one here in this back street who knew me.</p>
<p>“Where are you going?” she asked.</p>
<p>I stepped over quickly toward her, hat in hand. She was a mere slip of a
girl, rather comely, I thought, with small childish features and a
half-timid, half-bold look in her eyes. I could not remember having seen
her before.</p>
<p>She smiled at me—and then I knew!</p>
<p>Well, if some one had struck me a brutal blow in the face I could not have
been more astonished.</p>
<p>We know of things!—and yet how little we know until they are
presented to us in concrete form. Just such a little school girl as I have
seen a thousand times in the country, the pathetic childish curve of the
chin, a small rebellious curl hanging low on her temple.</p>
<p>I could not say a word. The girl evidently saw in my face that something
was the matter, for she turned and began to move quickly away. Such a wave
of compassion (and anger, too) swept over me as I cannot well describe. I
stepped after her and asked in a low voice:</p>
<p>“Do you work in the mills?”</p>
<p>“Yes, when there's work.”</p>
<p>“What is your name?”</p>
<p>“Maggie—”</p>
<p>“Well, Maggie,” I said, “let's be friends.”</p>
<p>She looked around at me curiously, questioningly.</p>
<p>“And friends,” I said, “should know something about each other. You see I
am a farmer from the country. I used to live in a city myself, a good many
years ago, but I got tired and sick and hopeless. There was so much that
was wrong about it. I tried to keep the pace and could not. I wish I could
tell you what the country has done for me.”</p>
<p>We were walking along slowly, side by side, the girl perfectly passive but
glancing around at me from time to time with a wondering look. I don't
know in the least now what prompted me to do it, but I began telling in a
quiet, low voice—for, after all, she was only a child—I began
telling her about our chickens at the farm and how Harriet had named them
all, and one was Frances E. Willard, and one, a speckled one, was Martha
Washington, and I told her of the curious antics of Martha Washington and
of the number of eggs she laid, and of the sweet new milk we had to drink,
and the honey right out of our own hives, and of the things growing in the
garden.</p>
<p>Once she smiled a little, and once she looked around at me with a curious,
timid, half-wistful expression in her eyes.</p>
<p>“Maggie,” I said, “I wish you could go to the country.”</p>
<p>“I wish to God I could,” she replied.</p>
<p>We walked for a moment in silence. My head was whirling with thoughts:
again I had that feeling of helplessness, of inadequacy, which I had felt
so sharply on the previous evening. What could I do?</p>
<p>When we reached the corner, I said:</p>
<p>“Maggie, I will see you safely home.”</p>
<p>She laughed—a hard, bitter laugh.</p>
<p>“Oh, I don't need any one to show me around these streets!”</p>
<p>“I will see you home,” I said.</p>
<p>So we walked quickly along the street together.</p>
<p>“Here it is,” she said finally, pointing to a dark, mean-looking,
one-story house, set in a dingy, barren areaway.</p>
<p>“Well, good night, Maggie,” I said, “and good luck to you.”</p>
<p>“Good night,” she said faintly.</p>
<p>When I had walked to the corner, I stopped and looked back. She was
standing stock-still just where I had left her—a figure I shall
never forget.</p>
<p>I have hesitated about telling of a further strange thing that happened to
me that night—but have decided at last to put it in. I did not
accept Mr. Vedder's invitation: I could not; but I returned to the room in
the tenement where I had spent the previous night with Bill Hahn the
Socialist. It was a small, dark, noisy room, but I was so weary that I
fell almost immediately into a heavy sleep. An hour or more later I don't
know how long indeed—I was suddenly awakened and found myself
sitting bolt upright in bed. It was close and dark and warm there in the
room, and from without came the muffled sounds of the city. For an instant
I waited, rigid with expectancy. And then I heard as clearly and plainly
as ever I heard anything:</p>
<p>“David! David!” in my sister Harriet's voice.</p>
<p>It was exactly the voice in which she has called me a thousand times.
Without an instant's hesitation, I stepped out of bed and called out:</p>
<p>“I'm coming, Harriet! I'm coming!”</p>
<p>“What's the matter?” inquired Bill Hahn sleepily.</p>
<p>“Nothing,” I replied, and crept back into bed.</p>
<p>It may have been the result of the strain and excitement of the previous
two days. I don't explain it—I can only tell what happened.</p>
<p>Before I went to sleep again I determined to start straight for home in
the morning: and having decided, I turned over, drew a long, comfortable
breath and did not stir again, I think, until long after the morning sun
shone in at the window.</p>
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<h2> CHAPTER XII. THE RETURN </h2>
<h3> “Everything divine runs with light feet.” </h3>
<p>Surely the chief delight of going away from home is the joy of getting
back again. I shall never forget that spring morning when I walked from
the city of Kilburn into the open country, my bag on my back, a song in my
throat, and the gray road stretching straight before me. I remember how
eagerly I looked out across the fields and meadows and rested my eyes upon
the distant hills. How roomy it all was! I looked up into the clear blue
of the sky. There was space here to breathe, and distances in which the
spirit might spread its wings. As the old prophet says, it was a place
where a man might be placed alone in the midst of the earth.</p>
<p>I was strangely glad that morning of every little stream that ran under
the bridges, I was glad of the trees I passed, glad of every bird and
squirrel in the branches, glad of the cattle grazing in the fields, glad
of the jolly boys I saw on their way to school with their dinner pails,
glad of the bluff, red-faced teamster I met, and of the snug farmer who
waved his hand at me and wished me a friendly good morning. It seemed to
me that I liked every one I saw, and that every one liked me.</p>
<p>So I walked onward that morning, nor ever have had such a sense of relief
and escape, nor ever such a feeling of gayety.</p>
<p>“Here is where I belong,” I said. “This is my own country. Those hills are
mine, and all the fields, and the trees and the sky—and the road
here belongs to me as much as it does to any one.”</p>
<p>Coming presently to a small house near the side of the road, I saw a woman
working with a trowel in her sunny garden. It was good to see her turn
over the warm brown soil; it was good to see the plump green rows of
lettuce and the thin green rows of onions, and the nasturtiums and sweet
peas; it was good—after so many days in that desert of a city—to
get a whiff of blossoming things. I stood for a moment looking quietly
over the fence before the woman saw me. When at last she turned and looked
up, I said:</p>
<p>“Good morning.”</p>
<p>She paused, trowel in hand.</p>
<p>“Good morning,” she replied; “you look happy.”</p>
<p>I wasn't conscious that I was smiling outwardly.</p>
<p>“Well, I am,” I said; “I'm going home.”</p>
<p>“Then you OUGHT to be happy,” said she.</p>
<p>“And I'm glad to escape THAT,” and I pointed toward the city.</p>
<p>“What?”</p>
<p>“Why, that old monster lying there in the valley.”</p>
<p>I could see that she was surprised and even a little alarmed. So I began
intently to admire her young cabbages and comment on the perfection of her
geraniums. But I caught her eying me from time to time as I leaned there
on the fence, and I knew that she would come back sooner or later to my
remark about the monster. Having shocked your friend (not too
unpleasantly), abide your time, and he will want to be shocked again. So I
was not at all surprised to hear her ask:</p>
<p>“Have you travelled far?”</p>
<p>“I should say so!” I replied. “I've been on a very long journey. I've seen
many strange sights and met many wonderful people.”</p>
<p>“You may have been in California, then. I have a daughter in California.”</p>
<p>“No,” said I, “I was never in California.”</p>
<p>“You've been a long time from home, you say?”</p>
<p>“A very long time from home.”</p>
<p>“How long?”</p>
<p>“Three weeks.”</p>
<p>“Three weeks! And how far did you say you had travelled?”</p>
<p>“At the farthest point, I should say sixty miles from home.”</p>
<p>“But how can you say that in travelling only sixty miles and being gone
three weeks that you have seen so many strange places and people?”</p>
<p>“Why,” I exclaimed, “haven't you seen anything strange around here?'”</p>
<p>“Why, no—” glancing quickly around her.</p>
<p>“Well, I'm strange, am I not?”</p>
<p>“Well—”</p>
<p>“And you're strange.”</p>
<p>She looked at me with the utmost amazement. I could scarcely keep from
laughing.</p>
<p>“I assure you,” I said, “that if you travel a thousand miles you will find
no one stranger than I am—or you are—nor anything more
wonderful than all this—” and I waved my hand.</p>
<p>This time she looked really alarmed, glancing quickly toward the house, so
that I began to laugh.</p>
<p>“Madam,” I said, “good morning!”</p>
<p>So I left her standing there by the fence looking after me, and I went on
down the road.</p>
<p>“Well,” I said, “she'll have something new to talk about. It may add a
month to her life. Was there ever such an amusing world!”</p>
<p>About noon that day I had an adventure that I have to laugh over every
time I think of it. It was unusual, too, as being almost the only incident
of my journey which was of itself in the least thrilling or out of the
ordinary. Why, this might have made an item in the country paper!</p>
<p>For the first time on my trip I saw a man that I really felt like calling
a tramp—a tramp in the generally accepted sense of the term. When I
left home I imagined I should meet many tramps, and perhaps learn from
them odd and curious things about life; but when I actually came into
contact with the shabby men of the road, I began to be puzzled. What was a
tramp, anyway?</p>
<p>I found them all strangely different, each with his own distinctive
history, and each accounting for himself as logically as I could for
myself. And save for the fact that in none of them I met were the outward
graces and virtues too prominently displayed, I have come back quite
uncertain as to what a scientist might call type-characteristics. I had
thought of following Emerson in his delightfully optimistic definition of
a weed. A weed, he says, is a plant whose virtues have not been
discovered. A tramp, then, is a man whose virtues have not been
discovered. Or, I might follow my old friend the Professor (who dearly
loves all growing things) in his even kindlier definition of a weed. He
says that it is merely a plant misplaced. The virility of this definition
has often impressed me when I have tried to grub the excellent and useful
horseradish plants out of my asparagus bed! Let it be then—a tramp
is a misplaced man, whose virtues have not been discovered.</p>
<p>Whether this is an adequate definition or not, it fitted admirably the man
I overtook that morning on the road. He was certainly misplaced, and
during my brief but exciting experience with him I discovered no virtues
whatever.</p>
<p>In one way he was quite different from the traditional tramp. He walked
with far too lively a step, too jauntily, and he had with him a small,
shaggy, nondescript dog, a dog as shabby as he, trotting close at his
heels. He carried a light stick, which he occasionally twirled over in his
hand. As I drew nearer I could hear him whistling and even, from time to
time, breaking into a lively bit of song. What a devil-may-care chap he
seemed, anyway! I was greatly interested.</p>
<p>When at length I drew alongside he did not seem in the least surprised. He
turned, glanced at me with his bold black eyes, and broke out again into
the song he was singing. And these were the words of his song—at
least, all I can remember of them:</p>
<p>Oh, I'm so fine and gay,<br/>
I'm so fine and gay,<br/>
I have to take a dog along,<br/>
To kape the ga-irls away.<br/></p>
<p>What droll zest he put into it! He had a red nose, a globular red nose set
on his face like an overgrown strawberry, and from under the worst derby
hat in the world burst his thick curly hair.</p>
<p>“Oh, I'm so fine and gay,” he sang, stepping to the rhythm of his song,
and looking the very image of good-humoured impudence. I can't tell how
amused and pleased I was—though if I had known what was to happen
later I might not have been quite so friendly—yes, I would too!</p>
<p>We fell into conversation, and it wasn't long before I suggested that we
stop for luncheon together somewhere along the road. He cast a quick
appraising eye at my bag, and assented with alacrity. We climbed a fence
and found a quiet spot near a little brook.</p>
<p>I was much astonished to observe the resources of my jovial companion.
Although he carried neither bag nor pack and appeared to have nothing
whatever in his pockets, he proceeded, like a professional
prestidigitator, to produce from his shabby clothing an extraordinary
number of curious things—a black tin can with a wire handle, a small
box of matches, a soiled package which I soon learned contained tea, a
miraculously big dry sausage wrapped in an old newspaper, and a
clasp-knife. I watched him with breathless interest.</p>
<p>He cut a couple of crotched sticks to hang the pail on and in two or three
minutes had a little fire, no larger than a man's hand, burning brightly
under it. (“Big fires,” said he wisely, “are not for us.”) This he fed
with dry twigs, and in a very few minutes he had a pot of tea from which
he offered me the first drink. This, with my luncheon and part of his
sausage, made up a very good meal.</p>
<p>While we were eating, the little dog sat sedately by the fire. From time
to time his master would say, “Speak, Jimmy.”</p>
<p>Jimmy would sit up on his haunches, his two front paws hanging limp, turn
his head to one side in the drollest way imaginable and give a yelp. His
master would toss him a bit of sausage or bread and he would catch it with
a snap.</p>
<p>“Fine dog!” commented my companion.</p>
<p>“So he seems,” said I.</p>
<p>After the meal was over my companion proceeded to produce other surprises
from his pockets—a bag of tobacco, a brier pipe (which he kindly
offered to me and which I kindly refused), and a soiled packet of
cigarette papers. Having rolled a cigarette with practised facility, he
leaned up against a tree, took off his hat, lighted the cigarette and,
having taken a long draw at it, blew the smoke before him with an
incredible air of satisfaction.</p>
<p>“Solid comfort this here—hey!” he exclaimed.</p>
<p>We had some further talk, but for so jovial a specimen he was surprisingly
uncommunicative. Indeed, I think he soon decided that I somehow did not
belong to the fraternity, that I was a “farmer”—in the most
opprobrious sense—and he soon began to drowse, rousing himself once
or twice to roll another cigarette, but finally dropping (apparently, at
least) fast asleep.</p>
<p>I was glad enough of the rest and quiet after the strenuous experience of
the last two days—and I, too, soon began to drowse. It didn't seem
to me then that I lost consciousness at all, but I suppose I must have
done so, for when I suddenly opened my eyes and sat up my companion had
vanished. How he succeeded in gathering up his pail and packages so
noiselessly and getting away so quickly is a mystery to me.</p>
<p>“Well,” I said, “that's odd.”</p>
<p>Rousing myself deliberately I put on my hat and was about to take up my
bag when I suddenly discovered that it was open. My rain-cape was missing!
It wasn't a very good rain-cape, but it was missing.</p>
<p>At first I was inclined to be angry, but when I thought of my jovial
companion and the cunning way in which he had tricked me, I couldn't help
laughing. At the same time I jumped up quickly and ran down the road.</p>
<p>“I may get him yet,” I said.</p>
<p>Just as I stepped out of the woods I caught a glimpse of a man some
hundreds of yards away, turning quickly from the main road into a lane or
by-path. I wasn't altogether sure that he was my man, but I ran across the
road and climbed the fence. I had formed the plan instantly of cutting
across the field and so striking the by-road farther up the hill. I had a
curious sense of amused exultation, the very spirit of the chase, and my
mind dwelt with the liveliest excitement on what I should say or do if I
really caught that jolly spark of impudence.</p>
<p>So I came by way of a thicket along an old stone fence to the by-road, and
there, sure enough, only a little way ahead of me, was my man with the
shaggy little dog close at his heels. He was making pretty good time, but
I skirted swiftly along the edge of the road until I had nearly overtaken
him. Then I slowed down to a walk and stepped out into the middle of the
road. I confess my heart was pounding at a lively rate. The next time he
looked behind him—guiltily enough, too!—I said in the calmest
voice I could command:</p>
<p>“Well, brother, you almost left me behind.”</p>
<p>He stopped and I stepped up to him.</p>
<p>I wish I could describe the look in his face—mingled astonishment,
fear, and defiance.</p>
<p>“My friend,” I said, “I'm disappointed in you.”</p>
<p>He made no reply.</p>
<p>“Yes, I'm disappointed. You did such a very poor job.”</p>
<p>“Poor job!” he exclaimed.</p>
<p>“Yes,” I said, and I slipped my bag off my shoulder and began to rummage
inside. My companion watched me silently and suspiciously.</p>
<p>“You should not have left the rubbers.”</p>
<p>With that I handed him my old rubbers. A peculiar expression came into the
man's face.</p>
<p>“Say, pardner, what you drivin' at?”</p>
<p>“Well,” I said, “I don't like to see such evidences of haste and
inefficiency.”</p>
<p>He stood staring at me helplessly, holding my old rubbers at arm's length.</p>
<p>“Come on now,” I said, “that's over. We'll walk along together.”</p>
<p>I was about to take his arm, but quick as a flash he dodged, cast both
rubbers and rain-cape away from him, and ran down the road for all he was
worth, the little dog, looking exactly like a rolling ball of fur, pelting
after him. He never once glanced back, but ran for his life. I stood there
and laughed until the tears came, and ever since then, at the thought of
the expression on the jolly rover's face when I gave him my rubbers, I've
had to smile. I put the rain-cape and rubbers back into my bag and turned
again to the road.</p>
<p>Before the afternoon was nearly spent I found myself very tired, for my
two days' experience in the city had been more exhausting for me, I think,
than a whole month of hard labour on my farm. I found haven with a
friendly farmer, whom I joined while he was driving his cows in from the
pasture. I helped him with his milking both that night and the next
morning, and found his situation and family most interesting—but I
shall not here enlarge upon that experience.</p>
<p>It was late afternoon when I finally surmounted the hill from which I knew
well enough I could catch the first glimpse of my farm. For a moment after
I reached the top I could not raise my eyes, and when finally I was able
to raise them I could not see.</p>
<p>“There is a spot in Arcady—a spot in Arcady—a spot in Arcady—”
So runs the old song.</p>
<p>There IS a spot in Arcady, and at the centre of it there is a weather-worn
old house, and not far away a perfect oak tree, and green fields all
about, and a pleasant stream fringed with alders in the little valley. And
out of the chimney into the sweet, still evening air rises the slow white
smoke of the supper-fire.</p>
<p>I turned from the main road, and climbed the fence and walked across my
upper field to the old wood lane. The air was heavy and sweet with clover
blossoms, and along the fences I could see that the raspberry bushes were
ripening their fruit.</p>
<p>So I came down the lane and heard the comfortable grunting of pigs in the
pasture lot and saw the calves licking one another as they stood at the
gate.</p>
<p>“How they've grown!” I said.</p>
<p>I stopped at the corner of the barn for a moment. From within I heard the
rattling of milk in a pail (a fine sound), and heard a man's voice saying:</p>
<p>“Whoa, there! Stiddy now!”</p>
<p>“Dick's milking,” I said.</p>
<p>So I stepped in at the doorway.</p>
<p>“Lord, Mr. Grayson!” exclaimed Dick, rising instantly and clasping my hand
like a long-lost brother.</p>
<p>“I'm glad to see you!”</p>
<p>“I'm glad to see YOU!”</p>
<p>The warm smell of the new milk, the pleasant sound of animals stepping
about in the stable, the old mare reaching her long head over the
stanchion to welcome me, and nipping at my fingers when I rubbed her nose—</p>
<p>And there was the old house with the late sun upon it, the vines hanging
green over the porch, Harriet's trim flower bed—I crept along
quietly to the corner. The kitchen door stood open.</p>
<p>“Well, Harriet!” I said, stepping inside.</p>
<p>“Mercy! David!”</p>
<p>I have rarely known Harriet to be in quite such a reckless mood. She kept
thinking of a new kind of sauce or jam for supper (I think there were
seven, or were there twelve? on the table before I got through). And there
was a new rhubarb pie such as only Harriet can make, just brown enough on
top, and not too brown, with just the right sort of hills and hummocks in
the crust, and here and there little sugary bubbles where a suggestion of
the goodness came through—such a pie—! and such an appetite to
go with it!</p>
<p>“Harriet,” I said, “you're spoiling me. Haven't you heard how dangerous it
is to set such a supper as this before a man who is perishing with hunger?
Have you no mercy for me?”</p>
<p>This remark produced the most extraordinary effect. Harriet was at that
moment standing in the corner near the pump. Her shoulders suddenly began
to shake convulsively.</p>
<p>“She's so glad I'm home that she can't help laughing,” I thought, which
shows how penetrating I really am.</p>
<p>She was crying.</p>
<p>“Why, Harriet!” I exclaimed.</p>
<p>“Hungry!” she burst out, “and j-joking about it!”</p>
<p>I couldn't say a single word; something—it must have been a piece of
the rhubarb pie—stuck in my throat. So I sat there and watched her
moving quietly about in that immaculate kitchen. After a time I walked
over to where she stood by the table and put my arm around her quickly.
She half turned her head, in her quick, businesslike way. I noted how firm
and clean and sweet her face was.</p>
<p>“Harriet,” I said, “you grow younger every year.”</p>
<p>No response.</p>
<p>“Harriet,” I said, “I haven't seen a single person anywhere on my journey
that I like as much as I do you.”</p>
<p>The quick blood came up.</p>
<p>“There—there—David!” she said.</p>
<p>So I stepped away.</p>
<p>“And as for rhubarb pie, Harriet—”</p>
<p>When I first came to my farm years ago there were mornings when I woke up
with the strong impression that I had just been hearing the most exquisite
sounds of music. I don't know whether this is at all a common experience,
but in those days (and farther back in my early boyhood) I had it
frequently. It did not seem exactly like music either, but was rather a
sense of harmony, so wonderful, so pervasive that it cannot be described.
I have not had it so often in recent years, but on the morning after I
reached home it came to me as I awakened with a strange depth and
sweetness. I lay for a moment there in my clean bed. The morning sun was
up and coming in cheerfully through the vines at the window; a gentle
breeze stirred the clean white curtains, and I could smell even there the
odours of the garden.</p>
<p>I wish I had room to tell, but I cannot, of all the crowded experiences of
that day—the renewal of acquaintance with the fields, the cattle,
the fowls, the bees, of my long talks with Harriet and Dick Sheridan, who
had cared for my work while I was away; of the wonderful visit of the
Scotch Preacher, of Horace's shrewd and whimsical comments upon the
general absurdity of the head of the Grayson family—oh, of a
thousand things—and how when I went into my study and took up the
nearest book in my favourite case—it chanced to be “The Bible in
Spain”—it opened of itself at one of my favourite passages, the one
beginning:</p>
<p>“Mistos amande, I am content—”</p>
<p>So it's all over! It has been a great experience; and it seems to me now
that I have a firmer grip on life, and a firmer trust in that Power which
orders the ages. In a book I read not long ago, called “A Modern Utopia,”
the writer provides in his imaginary perfect state of society a class of
leaders known as Samurai. And, from time to time, it is the custom of
these Samurai to cut themselves loose from the crowding world of men, and
with packs on their backs go away alone to far places in the deserts or on
Arctic ice caps. I am convinced that every man needs some such change as
this, an opportunity to think things out, to get a new grip on life, and a
new hold on God. But not for me the Arctic ice cap or the desert! I choose
the Friendly Road—and all the common people who travel in it or live
along it—I choose even the busy city at the end of it.</p>
<p>I assure you, friend, that it is a wonderful thing for a man to cast
himself freely for a time upon the world, not knowing where his next meal
is coming from, nor where he is going to sleep for the night. It is a
surprising readjuster of values. I paid my way, I think, throughout my
pilgrimage; but I discovered that stamped metal is far from being the
world's only true coin. As a matter of fact, there are many things that
men prize more highly—because they are rarer and more precious.</p>
<p>My friend, if you should chance yourself some day to follow the Friendly
Road, you may catch a fleeting glimpse of a man in a rusty hat, carrying a
gray bag, and sometimes humming a little song under his breath for the joy
of being there. And it may actually happen, if you stop him, that he will
take a tin whistle from his bag and play for you, “Money Musk,” or “Old
Dan Tucker,” or he may produce a battered old volume of Montaigne from
which he will read you a passage. If such an adventure should befall you,
know that you have met</p>
<p>Your friend,</p>
<p>David Grayson.</p>
<p>P. S.—Harriet bemoans most of all the unsolved mystery of the sign
man. But it doesn't bother me in the least. I'm glad now I never found
him. The poet sings his song and goes his way. If we sought him out how
horribly disappointed we might be! We might find him shaving, or eating
sausage, or drinking a bottle of beer. We might find him shaggy and
unkempt where we imagined him beautiful, weak where we thought him strong,
dull where we thought him brilliant. Take then the vintage of his heart
and let him go. As for me, I'm glad some mystery is left in this world. A
thousand signs on my roadways are still as unexplainable, as mysterious,
and as beguiling as this. And I can close my narrative with no better
motto for tired spirits than that of the country roadside:</p>
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