<h2>XXXIX. BOB LOVEDAY STRUTS UP AND DOWN</h2>
<p>One night, about a week later, two men were walking in the
dark along the turnpike road towards Overcombe, one of them with
a bag in his hand.</p>
<p>‘Now,’ said the taller of the two, the squareness
of whose shoulders signified that he wore epaulettes, ‘now
you must do the best you can for yourself, Bob. I have done
all I can; but th’hast thy work cut out, I can tell
thee.’</p>
<p>‘I wouldn’t have run such a risk for the
world,’ said the other, in a tone of ingenuous
contrition. ‘But thou’st see, Jack, I
didn’t think there was any danger, knowing you was taking
care of her, and keeping my place warm for me. I
didn’t hurry myself, that’s true; but, thinks I, if I
get this promotion I am promised I shall naturally have leave,
and then I’ll go and see ’em all. Gad, I
shouldn’t have been here now but for your
letter!’</p>
<p>‘You little think what risks you’ve run,’
said his brother. ‘However, try to make up for lost
time.’</p>
<p>‘All right. And whatever you do, Jack, don’t
say a word about this other girl. Hang the girl!—I
was a great fool, I know; still, it is over now, and I am come to
my senses. I suppose Anne never caught a capful of wind
from that quarter?’</p>
<p>‘She knows all about it,’ said John seriously.</p>
<p>‘Knows? By George, then, I’m ruined!’
said Bob, standing stock-still in the road as if he meant to
remain there all night.</p>
<p>‘That’s what I meant by saying it would be a hard
battle for ’ee,’ returned John, with the same
quietness as before.</p>
<p>Bob sighed and moved on. ‘I don’t deserve
that woman!’ he cried passionately, thumping his three
upper ribs with his fist.</p>
<p>‘I’ve thought as much myself,’ observed
John, with a dryness which was almost bitter. ‘But it
depends on how thou’st behave in future.’</p>
<p>‘John,’ said Bob, taking his brother’s hand,
‘I’ll be a new man. I solemnly swear by that
eternal milestone staring at me there that I’ll never look
at another woman with the thought of marrying her whilst that
darling is free—no, not if she be a mermaiden of
light! It’s a lucky thing that I’m slipped in
on the quarterdeck! it may help me with her—hey?’</p>
<p>‘It may with her mother; I don’t think it will
make much difference with Anne. Still, it is a good thing;
and I hope that some day you’ll command a big
ship.’</p>
<p>Bob shook his head. ‘Officers are scarce; but
I’m afraid my luck won’t carry me so far as
that.’</p>
<p>‘Did she ever tell you that she mentioned your name to
the King?’</p>
<p>The seaman stood still again. ‘Never!’ he
said. ‘How did such a thing as that happen, in
Heaven’s name?’</p>
<p>John described in detail, and they walked on, lost in
conjecture.</p>
<p>As soon as they entered the house the returned officer of the
navy was welcomed with acclamation by his father and David, with
mild approval by Mrs. Loveday, and by Anne not at all—that
discreet maiden having carefully retired to her own room some
time earlier in the evening. Bob did not dare to ask for
her in any positive manner; he just inquired about her health,
and that was all.</p>
<p>‘Why, what’s the matter with thy face, my
son?’ said the miller, staring. ‘David, show a
light here.’ And a candle was thrust against
Bob’s cheek, where there appeared a jagged streak like the
geological remains of a lobster.</p>
<p>‘O—that’s where that rascally
Frenchman’s grenade busted and hit me from the Redoubtable,
you know, as I told ’ee in my letter.’</p>
<p>‘Not a word!’</p>
<p>‘What, didn’t I tell ’ee? Ah, no; I
meant to, but I forgot it.’</p>
<p>‘And here’s a sort of dint in yer forehead too;
what do that mean, my dear boy?’ said the miller, putting
his finger in a chasm in Bob’s skull.</p>
<p>‘That was done in the Indies. Yes, that was rather
a troublesome chop—a cutlass did it. I should have
told ’ee, but I found ’twould make my letter so long
that I put it off, and put it off; and at last thought it
wasn’t worth while.’</p>
<p>John soon rose to take his departure.</p>
<p>‘It’s all up with me and her, you see,’ said
Bob to him outside the door. ‘She’s not even
going to see me.’</p>
<p>‘Wait a little,’ said the trumpet-major. It
was easy enough on the night of the arrival, in the midst of
excitement, when blood was warm, for Anne to be resolute in her
avoidance of Bob Loveday. But in the morning determination
is apt to grow invertebrate; rules of pugnacity are less easily
acted up to, and a feeling of live and let live takes possession
of the gentle soul. Anne had not meant even to sit down to
the same breakfast-table with Bob; but when the rest were
assembled, and had got some way through the substantial repast
which was served at this hour in the miller’s house, Anne
entered. She came silently as a phantom, her eyes cast
down, her cheeks pale. It was a good long walk from the
door to the table, and Bob made a full inspection of her as she
came up to a chair at the remotest corner, in the direct rays of
the morning light, where she dumbly sat herself down.</p>
<p>It was altogether different from how she had expected.
Here was she, who had done nothing, feeling all the
embarrassment; and Bob, who had done the wrong, feeling
apparently quite at ease.</p>
<p>‘You’ll speak to Bob, won’t you,
honey?’ said the miller after a silence. To meet Bob
like this after an absence seemed irregular in his eyes.</p>
<p>‘If he wish me to,’ she replied, so addressing the
miller that no part, scrap, or outlying beam whatever of her
glance passed near the subject of her remark.</p>
<p>‘He’s a lieutenant, you know, dear,’ said
her mother on the same side; ‘and he’s been
dreadfully wounded.’</p>
<p>‘Oh?’ said Anne, turning a little towards the
false one; at which Bob felt it to be time for him to put in a
spoke for himself.</p>
<p>‘I am glad to see you,’ he said contritely;
‘and how do you do?’</p>
<p>‘Very well, thank you.’</p>
<p>He extended his hand. She allowed him to take hers, but
only to the extent of a niggardly inch or so. At the same
moment she glanced up at him, when their eyes met, and hers were
again withdrawn.</p>
<p>The hitch between the two younger members of the household
tended to make the breakfast a dull one. Bob was so
depressed by her unforgiving manner that he could not throw that
sparkle into his stories which their substance naturally
required; and when the meal was over, and they went about their
different businesses, the pair resembled the two Dromios in
seldom or never being, thanks to Anne’s subtle
contrivances, both in the same room at the same time.</p>
<p>This kind of performance repeated itself during several
days. At last, after dogging her hither and thither,
leaning with a wrinkled forehead against doorposts, taking an
oblique view into the room where she happened to be, picking up
worsted balls and getting no thanks, placing a splinter from the
Victory, several bullets from the Redoubtable, a strip of the
flag, and other interesting relics, carefully labelled, upon her
table, and hearing no more about them than if they had been
pebbles from the nearest brook, he hit upon a new plan. To
avoid him she frequently sat upstairs in a window overlooking the
garden. Lieutenant Loveday carefully dressed himself in a
new uniform, which he had caused to be sent some days before, to
dazzle admiring friends, but which he had never as yet put on in
public or mentioned to a soul. When arrayed he entered the
sunny garden, and there walked slowly up and down as he had seen
Nelson and Captain Hardy do on the quarter-deck; but keeping his
right shoulder, on which his one epaulette was fixed, as much
towards Anne’s window as possible.</p>
<p>But she made no sign, though there was not the least question
that she saw him. At the end of half-an-hour he went in,
took off his clothes, and gave himself up to doubt and the best
tobacco.</p>
<p>He repeated the programme on the next afternoon, and on the
next, never saying a word within doors about his doings or his
notice.</p>
<p>Meanwhile the results in Anne’s chamber were not
uninteresting. She had been looking out on the first day,
and was duly amazed to see a naval officer in full uniform
promenading in the path. Finding it to be Bob, she left the
window with a sense that the scene was not for her; then, from
mere curiosity, peeped out from behind the curtain. Well,
he was a pretty spectacle, she admitted, relieved as his figure
was by a dense mass of sunny, close-trimmed hedge, over which
nasturtiums climbed in wild luxuriance; and if she could care for
him one bit, which she couldn’t, his form would have been a
delightful study, surpassing in interest even its splendour on
the memorable day of their visit to the town theatre. She
called her mother; Mrs. Loveday came promptly.</p>
<p>‘O, it is nothing,’ said Anne indifferently;
‘only that Bob has got his uniform.’</p>
<p>Mrs. Loveday peeped out, and raised her hands with
delight. ‘And he has not said a word to us about
it! What a lovely epaulette! I must call his
father.’</p>
<p>‘No, indeed. As I take no interest in him I shall
not let people come into my room to admire him.’</p>
<p>‘Well, you called me,’ said her mother.</p>
<p>‘It was because I thought you liked fine clothes.
It is what I don’t care for.’</p>
<p>Notwithstanding this assertion she again looked out at Bob the
next afternoon when his footsteps rustled on the gravel, and
studied his appearance under all the varying angles of the
sunlight, as if fine clothes and uniforms were not altogether a
matter of indifference. He certainly was a splendid,
gentlemanly, and gallant sailor from end to end of him; but then,
what were a dashing presentment, a naval rank, and telling scars,
if a man was fickle-hearted? However, she peeped on till
the fourth day, and then she did not peep. The window was
open, she looked right out, and Bob knew that he had got a rise
to his bait at last. He touched his hat to her, keeping his
right shoulder forwards, and said, ‘Good-day, Miss
Garland,’ with a smile.</p>
<p>Anne replied, ‘Good-day,’ with funereal
seriousness; and the acquaintance thus revived led to the
interchange of a few words at supper-time, at which Mrs. Loveday
nodded with satisfaction. But Anne took especial care that
he should never meet her alone, and to insure this her ingenuity
was in constant exercise. There were so many nooks and
windings on the miller’s rambling premises that she could
never be sure he would not turn up within a foot of her,
particularly as his thin shoes were almost noiseless.</p>
<p>One fine afternoon she accompanied Molly in search of
elderberries for making the family wine which was drunk by Mrs.
Loveday, Anne, and anybody who could not stand the rougher and
stronger liquors provided by the miller. After walking
rather a long distance over the down they came to a grassy
hollow, where elder-bushes in knots of twos and threes rose from
an uneven bank and hung their heads towards the south, black and
heavy with bunches of fruit. The charm of fruit-gathering
to girls is enhanced in the case of elderberries by the
inoffensive softness of the leaves, boughs, and bark, which makes
getting into the branches easy and pleasant to the most
indifferent climbers. Anne and Molly had soon gathered a
basketful, and sending the servant home with it, Anne remained in
the bush picking and throwing down bunch by bunch upon the
grass. She was so absorbed in her occupation of pulling the
twigs towards her, and the rustling of their leaves so filled her
ears, that it was a great surprise when, on turning her head, she
perceived a similar movement to her own among the boughs of the
adjoining bush.</p>
<p>At first she thought they were disturbed by being partly in
contact with the boughs of her bush; but in a moment Robert
Loveday’s face peered from them, at a distance of about a
yard from her own. Anne uttered a little indignant
‘Well!’ recovered herself, and went on
plucking. Bob thereupon went on plucking likewise.</p>
<p>‘I am picking elderberries for your mother,’ said
the lieutenant at last, humbly.</p>
<p>‘So I see.’</p>
<p>‘And I happen to have come to the next bush to
yours.’</p>
<p>‘So I see; but not the reason why.’</p>
<p>Anne was now in the westernmost branches of the bush, and Bob
had leant across into the eastern branches of his. In
gathering he swayed towards her, back again, forward again.</p>
<p>‘I beg pardon,’ he said, when a further swing than
usual had taken him almost in contact with her.</p>
<p>‘Then why do you do it?’</p>
<p>‘The wind rocks the bough, and the bough rocks
me.’ She expressed by a look her opinion of this
statement in the face of the gentlest breeze; and Bob pursued:
‘I am afraid the berries will stain your pretty
hands.’</p>
<p>‘I wear gloves.’</p>
<p>‘Ah, that’s a plan I should never have thought
of. Can I help you?’</p>
<p>‘Not at all.’</p>
<p>‘You are offended: that’s what that
means.’</p>
<p>‘No,’ she said.</p>
<p>‘Then will you shake hands?’</p>
<p>Anne hesitated; then slowly stretched out her hand, which he
took at once. ‘That will do,’ she said, finding
that he did not relinquish it immediately. But as he still
held it, she pulled, the effect of which was to draw Bob’s
swaying person, bough and all, towards her, and herself towards
him.</p>
<p>‘I am afraid to let go your hand,’ said that
officer, ‘for if I do your spar will fly back, and you will
be thrown upon the deck with great violence.’</p>
<p>‘I wish you to let me go!’</p>
<p>He accordingly did, and she flew back, but did not by any
means fall.</p>
<p>‘It reminds me of the times when I used to be aloft
clinging to a yard not much bigger than this tree-stem, in the
mid-Atlantic, and thinking about you. I could see you in my
fancy as plain as I see you now.’</p>
<p>‘Me, or some other woman!’ retorted Anne
haughtily.</p>
<p>‘No!’ declared Bob, shaking the bush for emphasis,
‘I’ll protest that I did not think of anybody but you
all the time we were dropping down channel, all the time we were
off Cadiz, all the time through battles and bombardments. I
seemed to see you in the smoke, and, thinks I, if I go to
Davy’s locker, what will she do?’</p>
<p>‘You didn’t think that when you landed after
Trafalgar.’</p>
<p>‘Well, now,’ said the lieutenant in a reasoning
tone; ‘that was a curious thing. You’ll hardly
believe it, maybe; but when a man is away from the woman he loves
best in the port—world, I mean—he can have a sort of
temporary feeling for another without disturbing the old one,
which flows along under the same as ever.’</p>
<p>‘I can’t believe it, and won’t,’ said
Anne firmly.</p>
<p>Molly now appeared with the empty basket, and when it had been
filled from the heap on the grass, Anne went home with her,
bidding Loveday a frigid adieu.</p>
<p>The same evening, when Bob was absent, the miller proposed
that they should all three go to an upper window of the house, to
get a distant view of some rockets and illuminations which were
to be exhibited in the town and harbour in honour of the King,
who had returned this year as usual. They accordingly went
upstairs to an empty attic, placed chairs against the window, and
put out the light; Anne sitting in the middle, her mother close
by, and the miller behind, smoking. No sign of any
pyrotechnic display was visible over the port as yet, and Mrs.
Loveday passed the time by talking to the miller, who replied in
monosyllables. While this was going on Anne fancied that
she heard some one approach, and presently felt sure that Bob was
drawing near her in the surrounding darkness; but as the other
two had noticed nothing she said not a word.</p>
<p>All at once the swarthy expanse of southward sky was broken by
the blaze of several rockets simultaneously ascending from
different ships in the roads. At the very same moment a
warm mysterious hand slipped round her own, and gave it a gentle
squeeze.</p>
<p>‘O dear!’ said Anne, with a sudden start away.</p>
<p>‘How nervous you are, child, to be startled by fireworks
so far off,’ said Mrs. Loveday.</p>
<p>‘I never saw rockets before,’ murmured Anne,
recovering from her surprise.</p>
<p>Mrs. Loveday presently spoke again. ‘I wonder what
has become of Bob?’</p>
<p>Anne did not reply, being much exercised in trying to get her
hand away from the one that imprisoned it; and whatever the
miller thought he kept to himself, because it disturbed his
smoking to speak.</p>
<p>Another batch of rockets went up. ‘O I
never!’ said Anne, in a half-suppressed tone, springing in
her chair. A second hand had with the rise of the rockets
leapt round her waist.</p>
<p>‘Poor girl, you certainly must have change of scene at
this rate,’ said Mrs. Loveday.</p>
<p>‘I suppose I must,’ murmured the dutiful
daughter.</p>
<p>For some minutes nothing further occurred to disturb
Anne’s serenity. Then a slow, quiet
‘a-hem’ came from the obscurity of the apartment.</p>
<p>‘What, Bob? How long have you been there?’
inquired Mrs. Loveday.</p>
<p>‘Not long,’ said the lieutenant coolly.
‘I heard you were all here, and crept up quietly, not to
disturb ye.’</p>
<p>‘Why don’t you wear heels to your shoes like
Christian people, and not creep about so like a cat?’</p>
<p>‘Well, it keeps your floors clean to go
slip-shod.’</p>
<p>‘That’s true.’</p>
<p>Meanwhile Anne was gently but firmly trying to pull
Bob’s arm from her waist, her distressful difficulty being
that in freeing her waist she enslaved her hand, and in getting
her hand free she enslaved her waist. Finding the struggle
a futile one, owing to the invisibility of her antagonist, and
her wish to keep its nature secret from the other two, she arose,
and saying that she did not care to see any more, felt her way
downstairs. Bob followed, leaving Loveday and his wife to
themselves.</p>
<p>‘Dear Anne,’ he began, when he had got down, and
saw her in the candle-light of the large room. But she
adroitly passed out at the other door, at which he took a candle
and followed her to the small room. ‘Dear Anne, do
let me speak,’ he repeated, as soon as the rays revealed
her figure. But she passed into the bakehouse before he
could say more; whereupon he perseveringly did the same.
Looking round for her here he perceived her at the end of the
room, where there were no means of exit whatever.</p>
<p>‘Dear Anne,’ he began again, setting down the
candle, ‘you must try to forgive me; really you must.
I love you the best of anybody in the wide, wide world. Try
to forgive me; come!’ And he imploringly took her
hand.</p>
<p>Anne’s bosom began to surge and fall like a small tide,
her eyes remaining fixed upon the floor; till, when Loveday
ventured to draw her slightly towards him, she burst out
crying. ‘I don’t like you, Bob; I
don’t!’ she suddenly exclaimed between her
sobs. ‘I did once, but I don’t now—I
can’t, I can’t; you have been very cruel to
me!’ She violently turned away, weeping.</p>
<p>‘I have, I have been terribly bad, I know,’
answered Bob, conscience-stricken by her grief.
‘But—if you could only forgive me—I promise
that I’ll never do anything to grieve ’ee
again. Do you forgive me, Anne?’</p>
<p>Anne’s only reply was crying and shaking her head.</p>
<p>‘Let’s make it up. Come, say we have made it
up, dear.’</p>
<p>She withdrew her hand, and still keeping her eyes buried in
her handkerchief, said ‘No.’</p>
<p>‘Very well, then!’ exclaimed Bob, with sudden
determination. ‘Now I know my doom! And
whatever you hear of as happening to me, mind this, you cruel
girl, that it is all your causing!’ Saying this he
strode with a hasty tread across the room into the passage and
out at the door, slamming it loudly behind him.</p>
<p>Anne suddenly looked up from her handkerchief, and stared with
round wet eyes and parted lips at the door by which he had
gone. Having remained with suspended breath in this
attitude for a few seconds she turned round, bent her head upon
the table, and burst out weeping anew with thrice the violence of
the former time. It really seemed now as if her grief would
overwhelm her, all the emotions which had been suppressed,
bottled up, and concealed since Bob’s return having made
themselves a sluice at last.</p>
<p>But such things have their end; and left to herself in the
large, vacant, old apartment, she grew quieter, and at last
calm. At length she took the candle and ascended to her
bedroom, where she bathed her eyes and looked in the glass to see
if she had made herself a dreadful object. It was not so
bad as she had expected, and she went downstairs again.</p>
<p>Nobody was there, and, sitting down, she wondered what Bob had
really meant by his words. It was too dreadful to think
that he intended to go straight away to sea without seeing her
again, and frightened at what she had done she waited anxiously
for his return.</p>
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