<h2>XXXVIII. A DELICATE SITUATION</h2>
<p>‘I am ready to go,’ said Anne, as soon as he
arrived.</p>
<p>He paused as if taken aback by her readiness, and replied with
much uncertainty, ‘Would it—wouldn’t it be
better to put it off till there is less sun?’</p>
<p>The very slightest symptom of surprise arose in her as she
rejoined, ‘But the weather may change; or had we better not
go at all?’</p>
<p>‘O no!—it was only a thought. We will start
at once.’</p>
<p>And along the vale they went, John keeping himself about a
yard from her right hand. When the third field had been
crossed they came upon half-a-dozen little boys at play.</p>
<p>‘Why don’t he clasp her to his side, like a
man?’ said the biggest and rudest boy.</p>
<p>‘Why don’t he clasp her to his side, like a
man?’ echoed all the rude smaller boys in a chorus.</p>
<p>The trumpet-major turned, and, after some running, succeeded
in smacking two of them with his switch, returning to Anne
breathless. ‘I am ashamed they should have insulted
you so,’ he said, blushing for her.</p>
<p>‘They said no harm, poor boys,’ she replied
reproachfully.</p>
<p>Poor John was dumb with perception. The gentle hint upon
which he would have eagerly spoken only one short day ago was now
like fire to his wound.</p>
<p>They presently came to some stepping-stones across a
brook. John crossed first without turning his head, and
Anne, just lifting the skirt of her dress, crossed behind
him. When they had reached the other side a village girl
and a young shepherd approached the brink to cross. Anne
stopped and watched them. The shepherd took a hand of the
young girl in each of his own, and walked backward over the
stones, facing her, and keeping her upright by his grasp, both of
them laughing as they went.</p>
<p>‘What are you staying for, Miss Garland?’ asked
John.</p>
<p>‘I was only thinking how happy they are,’ she said
quietly; and withdrawing her eyes from the tender pair, she
turned and followed him, not knowing that the seeming sound of a
passing bumble-bee was a suppressed groan from John.</p>
<p>When they reached the hill they found forty navvies at work
removing the dark sod so as to lay bare the chalk beneath.
The equestrian figure that their shovels were forming was
scarcely intelligible to John and Anne now they were close, and
after pacing from the horse’s head down his breast to his
hoof, back by way of the king’s bridle-arm, past the bridge
of his nose, and into his cocked-hat, Anne said that she had had
enough of it, and stepped out of the chalk clearing upon the
grass. The trumpet-major had remained all the time in a
melancholy attitude within the rowel of his Majesty’s right
spur.</p>
<p>‘My shoes are caked with chalk,’ she said as they
walked downwards again; and she drew back her dress to look at
them. ‘How can I get some of it cleared
off?’</p>
<p>‘If you was to wipe them in the long grass there,’
said John, pointing to a spot where the blades were rank and
dense, ‘some of it would come off.’ Having said
this, he walked on with religious firmness.</p>
<p>Anne raked her little feet on the right side, on the left
side, over the toe, and behind the heel; but the tenacious chalk
held its own. Panting with her exertion, she gave it up,
and at length overtook him.</p>
<p>‘I hope it is right now?’ he said, looking
gingerly over his shoulder.</p>
<p>‘No, indeed!’ said she. ‘I wanted some
assistance—some one to steady me. It is so hard to
stand on one foot and wipe the other without support. I was
in danger of toppling over, and so gave it up.’</p>
<p>‘Merciful stars, what an opportunity!’ thought the
poor fellow while she waited for him to offer help. But his lips
remained closed, and she went on with a pouting smile—</p>
<p>‘You seem in such a hurry! Why are you in such a
hurry? After all the fine things you have said
about—about caring so much for me, and all that, you
won’t stop for anything!’</p>
<p>It was too much for John. ‘Upon my heart and life,
my dea—’ he began. Here Bob’s letter
crackled warningly in his waistcoat pocket as he laid his hand
asseveratingly upon his breast, and he became suddenly scaled up
to dumbness and gloom as before.</p>
<p>When they reached home Anne sank upon a stool outside the
door, fatigued with her excursion. Her first act was to try
to pull off her shoe—it was a difficult matter; but John
stood beating with his switch the leaves of the creeper on the
wall.</p>
<p>‘Mother—David—Molly, or somebody—do
come and help me pull off these dirty shoes!’ she cried
aloud at last. ‘Nobody helps me in
anything!’</p>
<p>‘I am very sorry,’ said John, coming towards her
with incredible slowness and an air of unutterable
depression.</p>
<p>‘O, I can do without <i>you</i>. David is
best,’ she returned, as the old man approached and removed
the obnoxious shoes in a trice.</p>
<p>Anne was amazed at this sudden change from devotion to crass
indifference. On entering her room she flew to the glass,
almost expecting to learn that some extraordinary change had come
over her pretty countenance, rendering her intolerable for
evermore. But it was, if anything, fresher than usual, on
account of the exercise. ‘Well!’ she said
retrospectively. For the first time since their acqaintance
she had this week encouraged him; and for the first time he had
shown that encouragement was useless. ‘But perhaps he
does not clearly understand,’ she added serenely.</p>
<p>When he next came it was, to her surprise, to bring her
newspapers, now for some time discontinued. As soon as she
saw them she said, ‘I do not care for
newspapers.’</p>
<p>‘The shipping news is very full and long to-day, though
the print is rather small.’</p>
<p>‘I take no further interest in the shipping news,’
she replied with cold dignity.</p>
<p>She was sitting by the window, inside the table, and hence
when, in spite of her negations, he deliberately unfolded the
paper and began to read about the Royal Navy she could hardly
rise and go away. With a stoical mien he read on to the end
of the report, bringing out the name of Bob’s ship with
tremendous force.</p>
<p>‘No,’ she said at last, ‘I’ll hear no
more! Let me read to you.’</p>
<p>The trumpet-major sat down. Anne turned to the military
news, delivering every detail with much apparent
enthusiasm. ‘That’s the subject <i>I</i>
like!’ she said fervently.</p>
<p>‘But—but Bob is in the navy now, and will most
likely rise to be an officer. And then—’</p>
<p>‘What is there like the army?’ she
interrupted. ‘There is no smartness about
sailors. They waddle like ducks, and they only fight stupid
battles that no one can form any idea of. There is no
science nor stratagem in sea-fights—nothing more than what
you see when two rams run their heads together in a field to
knock each other down. But in military battles there is
such art, and such splendour, and the men are so smart,
particularly the horse-soldiers. O, I shall never forget
what gallant men you all seemed when you came and pitched your
tents on the downs! I like the cavalry better than anything
I know; and the dragoons the best of the cavalry—and the
trumpeters the best of the dragoons!’</p>
<p>‘O, if it had but come a little sooner!’ moaned
John within him. He replied as soon as he could regain
self-command, ‘I am glad Bob is in the navy at
last—he is so much more fitted for that than the
merchant-service—so brave by nature, ready for any daring
deed. I have heard ever so much more about his doings on
board the Victory. Captain Hardy took special notice that
when he—’</p>
<p>‘I don’t want to know anything more about
it,’ said Anne impatiently; ‘of course sailors fight;
there’s nothing else to do in a ship, since you can’t
run away! You may as well fight and be killed as be killed
not fighting.’</p>
<p>‘Still it is his character to be careless of himself
where the honour of his country is concerned,’ John
pleaded. ‘If you had only known him as a boy you
would own it. He would always risk his own life to save
anybody else’s. Once when a cottage was afire up the
lane he rushed in for a baby, although he was only a boy himself,
and he had the narrowest escape. We have got his hat now
with the hole burnt in it. Shall I get it and show it to
you?’</p>
<p>‘No—I don’t wish it. It has nothing to
do with me.’ But as he persisted in his course
towards the door, she added, ‘Ah! you are leaving because I
am in your way. You want to be alone while you read the
paper—I will go at once. I did not see that I was
interrupting you.’ And she rose as if to retreat.</p>
<p>‘No, no! I would rather be interrupted by
<i>you</i> than—O, Miss Garland, excuse me!
I’ll just speak to father in the mill, now I am
here.’</p>
<p>It is scarcely necessary to state that Anne (whose
unquestionable gentility amid somewhat homely surroundings has
been many times insisted on in the course of this history) was
usually the reverse of a woman with a coming-on disposition; but,
whether from pique at his manner, or from wilful adherence to a
course rashly resolved on, or from coquettish maliciousness in
reaction from long depression, or from any other thing,—so
it was that she would not let him go.</p>
<p>‘Trumpet-major,’ she said, recalling him.</p>
<p>‘Yes?’ he replied timidly.</p>
<p>‘The bow of my cap-ribbon has come untied, has it
not?’ She turned and fixed her bewitching glance upon
him.</p>
<p>The bow was just over her forehead, or, more precisely, at the
point where the organ of comparison merges in that of
benevolence, according to the phrenological theory of Gall.
John, thus brought to, endeavoured to look at the bow in a
skimming, duck-and-drake fashion, so as to avoid dipping his own
glance as far as to the plane of his interrogator’s
eyes. ‘It is untied,’ he said, drawing back a
little.</p>
<p>She came nearer, and asked, ‘Will you tie it for me,
please?’</p>
<p>As there was no help for it, he nerved himself and
assented. As her head only reached to his fourth button she
necessarily looked up for his convenience, and John began
fumbling at the bow. Try as he would it was impossible to
touch the ribbon without getting his finger tips mixed with the
curls of her forehead.</p>
<p>‘Your hand shakes—ah! you have been walking
fast,’ she said.</p>
<p>‘Yes—yes.’</p>
<p>‘Have you almost done it?’ She inquiringly
directed her gaze upward through his fingers.</p>
<p>‘No—not yet,’ he faltered in a warm sweat of
emotion, his heart going like a flail.</p>
<p>‘Then be quick, please.’</p>
<p>‘Yes, I will, Miss Garland! B-B-Bob is a very good
fel—’</p>
<p>‘Not that man’s name to me!’ she
interrupted.</p>
<p>John was silent instantly, and nothing was to be heard but the
rustling of the ribbon; till his hands once more blundered among
the curls, and then touched her forehead.</p>
<p>‘O good God!’ ejaculated the trumpet-major in a
whisper, turning away hastily to the corner-cupboard, and resting
his face upon his hand.</p>
<p>‘What’s the matter, John?’ said she.</p>
<p>‘I can’t do it!’</p>
<p>‘What?’</p>
<p>‘Tie your cap-ribbon.’</p>
<p>‘Why not?’</p>
<p>‘Because you are so—Because I am clumsy, and never
could tie a bow.’</p>
<p>‘You are clumsy indeed,’ answered Anne, and went
away.</p>
<p>After this she felt injured, for it seemed to show that he
rated her happiness as of meaner value than Bob’s; since he
had persisted in his idea of giving Bob another chance when she
had implied that it was her wish to do otherwise. Could
Miss Johnson have anything to do with his firmness? An
opportunity of testing him in this direction occurred some days
later. She had been up the village, and met John at the
mill-door.</p>
<p>‘Have you heard the news? Matilda Johnson is going
to be married to young Derriman.’</p>
<p>Anne stood with her back to the sun, and as he faced her, his
features were searchingly exhibited. There was no change
whatever in them, unless it were that a certain light of interest
kindled by her question turned to complete and blank
indifference. ‘Well, as times go, it is not a bad
match for her,’ he said, with a phlegm which was hardly
that of a lover.</p>
<p>John on his part was beginning to find these temptations
almost more than he could bear. But being quartered so near
to his father’s house it was unnatural not to visit him,
especially when at any moment the regiment might be ordered
abroad, and a separation of years ensue; and as long as he went
there he could not help seeing her.</p>
<p>The year changed from green to gold, and from gold to grey,
but little change came over the house of Loveday. During
the last twelve months Bob had been occasionally heard of as
upholding his country’s honour in Denmark, the West Indies,
Gibraltar, Malta, and other places about the globe, till the
family received a short letter stating that he had arrived again
at Portsmouth. At Portsmouth Bob seemed disposed to remain,
for though some time elapsed without further intelligence, the
gallant seaman never appeared at Overcombe. Then on a
sudden John learnt that Bob’s long-talked-of promotion for
signal services rendered was to be an accomplished fact.
The trumpet-major at once walked off to Overcombe, and reached
the village in the early afternoon. Not one of the family
was in the house at the moment, and John strolled onwards over
the hill towards Casterbridge, without much thought of direction
till, lifting his eyes, he beheld Anne Garland wandering about
with a little basket upon her arm.</p>
<p>At first John blushed with delight at the sweet vision; but,
recalled by his conscience, the blush of delight was at once
mangled and slain. He looked for a means of retreat.
But the field was open, and a soldier was a conspicuous object:
there was no escaping her.</p>
<p>‘It was kind of you to come,’ she said, with an
inviting smile.</p>
<p>‘It was quite by accident,’ he answered, with an
indifferent laugh. ‘I thought you was at
home.’</p>
<p>Anne blushed and said nothing, and they rambled on
together. In the middle of the field rose a fragment of
stone wall in the form of a gable, known as Faringdon Ruin; and
when they had reached it John paused and politely asked her if
she were not a little tired with walking so far. No
particular reply was returned by the young lady, but they both
stopped, and Anne seated herself on a stone, which had fallen
from the ruin to the ground.</p>
<p>‘A church once stood here,’ observed John in a
matter-of-fact tone.</p>
<p>‘Yes, I have often shaped it out in my mind,’ she
returned. ‘Here where I sit must have been the
altar.’</p>
<p>‘True; this standing bit of wall was the chancel
end.’</p>
<p>Anne had been adding up her little studies of the
trumpet-major’s character, and was surprised to find how
the brightness of that character increased in her eyes with each
examination. A kindly and gentle sensation was again
aroused in her. Here was a neglected heroic man, who,
loving her to distraction, deliberately doomed himself to pensive
shade to avoid even the appearance of standing in a
brother’s way.</p>
<p>‘If the altar stood here, hundreds of people have been
made man and wife just there, in past times,’ she said,
with calm deliberateness, throwing a little stone on a spot about
a yard westward.</p>
<p>John annihilated another tender burst and replied, ‘Yes,
this field used to be a village. My grandfather could call
to mind when there were houses here. But the squire pulled
’em down, because poor folk were an eyesore to
him.’</p>
<p>‘Do you know, John, what you once asked me to do?’
she continued, not accepting the digression, and turning her eyes
upon him.</p>
<p>‘In what sort of way?’</p>
<p>‘In the matter of my future life, and yours.’</p>
<p>‘I am afraid I don’t.’</p>
<p>‘John Loveday!’</p>
<p>He turned his back upon her for a moment, that she might not
see his face. ‘Ah—I do remember,’ he said
at last, in a dry, small, repressed voice.</p>
<p>‘Well—need I say more? Isn’t it
sufficient?’</p>
<p>‘It would be sufficient,’ answered the unhappy
man. ‘But—’</p>
<p>She looked up with a reproachful smile, and shook her
head. ‘That summer,’ she went on, ‘you
asked me ten times if you asked me once. I am older now;
much more of a woman, you know; and my opinion is changed about
some people; especially about one.’</p>
<p>‘O Anne, Anne!’ he burst out as, racked between
honour and desire, he snatched up her hand. The next moment
it fell heavily to her lap. He had absolutely relinquished
it half-way to his lips.</p>
<p>‘I have been thinking lately,’ he said, with
preternaturally sudden calmness, ‘that men of the military
profession ought not to m—ought to be like St. Paul, I
mean.’</p>
<p>‘Fie, John; pretending religion!’ she said
sternly. ‘It isn’t that at all.
<i>It’s Bob</i>!’</p>
<p>‘Yes!’ cried the miserable trumpet-major.
‘I have had a letter from him to-day.’ He pulled out
a sheet of paper from his breast. ‘That’s
it! He’s promoted—he’s a lieutenant, and
appointed to a sloop that only cruises on our own coast, so that
he’ll be at home on leave half his time—he’ll
be a gentleman some day, and worthy of you!’</p>
<p>He threw the letter into her lap, and drew back to the other
side of the gable-wall. Anne jumped up from her seat, flung
away the letter without looking at it, and went hastily on.
John did not attempt to overtake her. Picking up the
letter, he followed in her wake at a distance of a hundred
yards.</p>
<p>But, though Anne had withdrawn from his presence thus
precipitately, she never thought more highly of him in her life
than she did five minutes afterwards, when the excitement of the
moment had passed. She saw it all quite clearly; and his
self-sacrifice impressed her so much that the effect was just the
reverse of what he had been aiming to produce. The more he
pleaded for Bob, the more her perverse generosity pleaded for
John. To-day the crisis had come—with what results
she had not foreseen.</p>
<p>As soon as the trumpet-major reached the nearest pen-and-ink
he flung himself into a seat and wrote wildly to Bob:—</p>
<blockquote><p>‘<span class="smcap">Dear
Robert</span>,—I write these few lines to let you know that
if you want Anne Garland you must come at once—you must
come instantly, and post-haste—<i>or she will be
gone</i>! Somebody else wants her, and she wants him!
It is your last chance, in the opinion of—</p>
<p style="text-align: right">‘Your faithful brother and
well-wisher,<br/>
‘<span class="smcap">John</span>.</p>
<p>‘P.S.—Glad to hear of your promotion. Tell
me the day and I’ll meet the coach.’</p>
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